I’m wearying to escape into that glorious world, and to be always there: not seeing it dimly through tears, and yearning for it through the walls of an aching heart: but really with it, and in it.
I just finished cry and processing the whole Phil now being trapped thing. I’ve read a lot of tumblr post on how and the why Phil might of been let on with the trap thing.
Now I just want you all to think about it. Phil has been pretty much defying the whole federation through and through.
-didn’t vote for elections
-people remember the dinner right the fact that he could tell that was not his eggs and basically was already saying stuff about
-didn’t do any task from me.white smiley unless sure it wasn’t putting anyone in danger
-pretty much lava casted there whole fed building as a warning to tell them about their kids
-helped take forever off the meds
Like these are some thing that make sense as too why the federation as a whole would be wary of him. He knows his kids the best, he also usually has the best advice and helps a lot in stuff about going against the federation but mostly kept to him sled in a “bird nest” on the wall with kid that barely left said wall.
Now here’s another thing. They referred to him as the crow who wasn’t there to see his kids leave the nest. He was gone a week which we know rl was to do a video but cubito Phil was gone adventure basically so he was there when the kids were all dirty and cracked or when they fully disappeared.
Tallulah also mentioned one time about wanting to get him a crow as a pet but they noticed that the world has no crows at all which is weird cause they have a lot of different birds. (I MEAN LIKE THEY HAVE SEAGULLS AND A SUN BIRD BUT NOT CROWS WEIRDDD). In my opinion that’s super good foreshadowing a darker future.
Now the whole cage for a cage this is wild. Like we know Phil’s crow man so him a paranoid man who took every measure to protect his kids in now trap with what might be left of them in cage of reminders of how his kids are gone he basically failed them and can’t fly out but is stuck with a bunch of birds some reaped in cages and other flying free.
A weird and morbid symbolism of how he was one free and able to go and fly but now is trapped with haunted memories and feelings.
I WILL BE MAKING FANART OF THIS THO IT MIGHT TAKE ME A WHILE BUT AHHHHHHHHH
I am an hour past me alarm, 30min past the time I should have left for the gym. My bag is packed, everything is ready, if I cut my workout 15min short it would work.
Or, I can make breakfast, calm down, and go to work... I would prefer the gym.
In my dream, no one brings a lifeboat and I sink dreadfully. " Then I wake up, I witness my worry has flooded my heart and I am struggling to rescue myself. "
I'm a bit lost. I leave you an old video, one of my favorites.
My heart shaking and losing control while I squeeze it and force it to beat
At one point I could hear the blood passing through the chambers of my heart and through my veins. In the end each beat was a jolt inside my chest and my heart couldn't take it anymore and started racing...