50shadesofbpd

[50shadesofbpd]

I'm finally free from the pysch ward but I will never be free of my mind..

#sewer slide #sh twt #tw depressing stuff #tw self destructive behavior #slef harm #deppresion #s3lfharmm #sorry for being depressing #pyschward #bpd #actually bpd #bpd vent #bpd thoughts #bpd problems

[50shadesofbpd]

I don't want life to end. I want my disorder to end. But it never will.

[50shadesofbpd]

Currently sectioned on a PICU, and I'm losing my fucking mind. All I need is a cigarette and the will to live....somone help a girl out 🙃

#sewer slide #sh twt #tw depressing stuff #deppresion #s3lfharmm #sorry for being depressing #tw self destructive behavior #self h@rm #hospital #hospitalizations #sectioned #pyschward

[50shadesofbpd]

So god damn lonely 😭

[50shadesofbpd]

I don't need a therapist, I only need Tumblr for constant reassurance and validation from the BPD community.

[50shadesofbpd]

Paracetamol tastes fucking awful, but there is something satisfying about knowing, I'm slowly poisoning my body...

#suicudal #sui #sh twt #kill my ass #sewer slide #sewerslidal #sh thoughts #slef harm #shblr #tw sh relapse #tw depressing stuff #tw depressing thoughts #tw self destructive behavior

[50shadesofbpd]

[50shadesofbpd]

When you haven't eaten in three days and the Just Eat advert comes on the TV ....

#eating disoder trigger warning #justeat #ed but not sheeran #disordered eating mention #sewer slide #sh thoughts #shblr #slef harm #it's not as simple as just eating #disordered eating thoughts #tw eating issues #disordered eating in tags

[50shadesofbpd]

“I don’t like who I am. There is nothing good about me anymore. I am sick of wasting my time. I am worn out. I am really tired.”

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[50shadesofbpd]

I’m losing my adulthood because I’m dealing with a lifetime of failure and abuse

[50shadesofbpd]

Why do I find it so satisfying when the blood soaks through the plaster? I must be fucked up, but it just feels like everything I hate about myself is seeping out my body and in that moment, I am briefly calm.

#baby cvts #cvtt1ng #fresh cvts #sewer slide #sewerslidal #sh thoughts #sh twt #shblr #slef harm #tw sh relapse

[50shadesofbpd]

one thing about me is i am not doing so well

[50shadesofbpd]

The blade stayed my friend when everyone else left...

#baby cvts #cvtt1ng #fresh cvts #sewer slide #sewerslidal #sh thoughts #sh twt #shblr #slef harm #tw sh relapse

[50shadesofbpd]

Who even am I?

[50shadesofbpd]

Relating so hard to this 🖤

How are quiet borderlines able to hold it together and mask so well? I would give anything to be like that. My BPD is loud and it makes me loud. Any time I feel anything, everyone knows about it. I just can't pretend. The emotions are so overpowering. And it's fucking up my life.

[50shadesofbpd]

I just want to feel that pain, if I see the blood sliding down my arm, then maybe...just maybe..my inner pain will finally feel valid....

#sewerslidal #baby cvts #tw sh relapse #sh twt #sewer slide #shblr #cvtt1ng #sh thoughts #slef harm #fresh cvts

[50shadesofbpd]

Why is it that nobody ever really understands?? Why am I always alone?

It feels like I could die from the pain that this loneliness brings

I just want to be alive