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Two identical infants lay in the cradle. “One you bore, the other is a Changeling. Choose wisely,” the Fae’s voice echoed from the shadows. “I’m taking both my children,” the mother said defiantly.

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are you the same Zarosguth that made SADX mods?

Yeah, that would be me. I no longer have the files for any of them though.

Still weird to think that there are people who remember me for those.

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Personal fave cat

cat

#idw sonic #blaze the cat

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When I complain about being a ‘gifted’ kid who grew into a talentless adult I don’t mean that I’m not trying to work on my talents or anything

I mean that the ‘gifts’ I had are useless

Reading books above my age isn’t a talent when I’m not eleven

Knowing big words isn’t a talent when I’m not a kid, it’s just growing up

It’s just a weird thing that happens and it feels shitty when you’re brought up being told you’re an exceptional child only to realise as an adult you’re just average

#i can relate #in my case it has everything to do with a developmental disorder #but yes #smart child to average adult indeed #and at almost 26 i'm still working on the adult part of that #therapy helped

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I just had a realisation:

For the first time in years I can tell people they should’ve started studying on time without being a major hypocrite.

#actually feels kinda good #also the studying feels good #call me crazy but education is great #gain knowledge gain power

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#tactics ogre #knight of lodis #deneb rove #alphonse loeher #gifs #aerial (ogre battle) #ogre battle #ogre battle saga #mermaid #witch

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“Never fear. I’m still acting out of self-interest.” - Eizen (Tales of Berseria)

#tales of berseria #eizen (tob) #velvet crowe #tales series

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Childhood Injuries

When I was but a tiny boy I fell down a flight of stairs. Twice. This has resulted in a slightly off centre cross-shaped scar on my forehead and, although not visible, there is also a small indentation in my skull on the left side of my face (from my perspective). The indentation is, as stated, not visible but it can be felt if one were to run their fingers over the relevant area of my forehead. Do I have some sort of point to make here, telling you this? No. I don't. Just (over)sharing.

#tw: injury #cw: injury #childhood #childhood injury #personal

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And most likely the majority of people doing this don’t even know what autism is or what it entails.

It is that kind of ignorance that can cause the most damage. Especially, as said, in causing internalized ableism in children who see this kind of crap. And not just in children either.

Personally, I don’t get insulted about it anymore, because I am comfortable in knowing myself, having gotten to know myself and how I am autistic and what that means for me. But just thinking about the people who are not (comfortable with themselves like that)... the potential for damage there just saddens me so much.

I’m sure other people have said this but I just absolutely hate that “autism” has become the new edgy 4chan memelord insult. I hate that people now use it to essentially mean “cringey”, I hate how “peak autism” and other similar phrases are considered hilarious, I hate how they call autistic people “autists” I hate “sperging”/“sperg”/“sperging out” has become a new internet verb to negatively describe people talking in length about a subject in the same way an autistic person would passionately talk about their special interest. Coming across phrases like “short bus”, “sped”, etc as an insecure special ed middle schooler wrecked me so much and the ableist climate online has only gotten worse it seems so I can’t even imagine how much internalized ableism this is gonna inflict on autistic kids (or kids with any learning disability) who go on the internet and see allistics talking like this. I just hate everything about this all.

#autism #mental disorder #actuallyautistic #actually autistic

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My pet peeve in writing is the bilingual character who just sprinkle in words from a different language for no other reason than the author wants to remind you they’re bilingual

#same #it just comes off as weird

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Lightning as my top three favourite Final Fantasy job classes: Blue Mage, Dragoon and Black Mage.

#lightning returns #lightning farron #final fantasy #blue mage #dragoon #black mage

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Omega, The Ultimate Weapon: Dismantled in One and a Half Rounds

Special thanks to:

Romeo’s Ballad,

Thundaga (!Spellblade),

!Dualcast,

Carbuncle,

Thundaga (!Black),

!Rapidfire,

Dual-Wielding the Chicken Knife and Excalibur

and Lenna for moral support.

#final fantasy #final fantasy v #final fantasy omega #omega #omega the ultimate weapon #bartz klauser #lenna charlotte tycoon #krile mayer baldesion #faris scherwiz #boss fight

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Calofisteri: The Most Underwhelming Boss

#final fantasy #.final fantasy v #calofisteri #bartz klauser #lenna charlotte tycoon #krile mayer baldesion #faris scherwiz

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i know there’s 9 hours left but i think we can call this one

#the memories

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Odin: Famous Art Critic

#final fantasy v #final fantasy #bartz klauser #lenna charlotte tycoon #krile mayer baldesion #faris scherwiz #odin #summoner

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Let me sing you to sleep... FOREVER!

#final fantasy #final fantasy v #bartz klauser #krile mayer baldesion #faris scherwiz #bard #requiem #sing