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Expression chart/challenge for all of those 4 people that will see this!!! Have fun and if you want to do this tag me

#expression challenge #expression chart #challenge #drawing #art #drawing challenge

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It matters Not To Charizard what baby hatched. Baby is Baby, Must Protecc

and then the precious baby wants to swim lol

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I wanted to make a backstory for the time I found this in pokemon Violet XD

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Here's to the people who weren't abused by their parents, but whose parents sucked anyways. Here's to people whose parents fucked up raising you out of ignorance and not malice. Here's to the kids whose parents didn't know what to do with you so they did nothing at all. Here's to people whose parents are getting better and growing as people but still hurt you. Here's to every mean comment that wouldn't have been so bad if it hadn't come from your mom; here's to awkward family dinners because you're all trying to forget;

here's to you, survivor of a thousand 'not as bad as it could have been' hurts. I see you. You aren't alone.

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MAKE ME CHOOSE: @5oh5 asked: halsin or astarion

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one of the more valuable things I’ve learned in life as a survivor of a mentally unstable parent is that it is likely that no one has thought through it as much as you have. 

no, your friend probably has not noticed they cut you off four times in this conversation. 

no, your brother didn’t realize his music was that loud while you were studying. 

no, your bff or S.O. doesn’t remember that you’re on a tight deadline right now.

no, no one else is paying attention to the four power dynamics at play in your friend group right now.  

a habit of abused kids, especially kids with unstable parents, is the tendency to notice every little detail. We magnify small nuances into major things, largely because small nuances quickly became breaking points for parents. Managing moods, reading the room, perceiving danger in the order of words, the shift of body weight….it’s all a natural outgrowth of trying to manage unstable parents from a young age. 

Here’s the thing: most people don’t do that. I’m not saying everyone else is oblivious, I’m saying the over analysis of minor nuances is a habit of abuse. 

I have a rule: I do not respond to subtext. This includes guilt tripping, silent treatments, passive aggressive behavior, etc. I see it. I notice it. I even sometimes have to analyze it and take a deep breath and CHOOSE not to respond. Because whether it’s really there or just me over-reading things that actually don’t mean anything, the habit of lending credence to the part of me that sees danger in the wrong shift of body weight…that’s toxic for me. And dangerous to my relationships. 

The best thing I ever did for myself and my relationships was insist upon frank communication and a categorical denial of subtext. For some people this is a moral stance. For survivors of mentally unstable parents this is a requirement of recovery. 

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DeepLeffen is a Twitter bot trained on r/smashbros and Tweets from professional Smash player Leffen. It randomly generates Tweets based on prompts it is fed.

It’s probably the best account on the site.

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The landlord fears the urban oyster mushroom farmer

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Notes on drawing babies!

#anatomy #babies #art reference #art tutorial #art help

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A Life After Death (DnD, OC / OC, mlm)

"Finn?" Icarus called out, his voice dripping with concern. It wasn't often that Finn made that face. One filled to the brim with emotions he didn't know how to handle. The way his brow furrowed, the slight widen of his eyes, and the subtle quiver of his lips as his jaw clenched tightly shut. He couldn't really blame him, not long ago Icarus was nothing more than an unmoving corpse, but now he was standing in front of him. His body whole once again, the blood cleaned, and the wounds gone.

Icarus reached a hand out towards Finn. His fingers grazed his arm, but before he could make any other sort of movement, Finn was on him. His arms wrapped tightly around him, holding him close.

No words were exchanged between them, instead what filled the void was the passionate collision of lips and tongue. He could feel the desperation, the loneliness, the guilt and the longing all poured into one moment. It was all so much to take in, and yet Icarus returned it with his own fervor, hoping to convey the same feelings he'd been feeling since he'd come back to life.

Finn wanted to say so many things to him, and yet all he could do was crash their lips together and mold their tongues together. He wanted to taste him, feel him.

Trying to pull the smaller man closer, Finn groaned in annoyance when his hands moved about his body at every chance they had. He didn't want Icarus to disappear again. He couldn't, he wouldn't allow it to happen. All because he couldn't protect him. There was no way he'd risk that possibility again.

Releasing Icarus's lips, the taller man kissed along the soft skin of his jaw, trailing to his ear where he grunted loudly. "I won't lose you again." The sternness in his voice shook the smaller man to his core.

He'd never really seen this sort of conviction from him. He always seemed like an aimless wanderer, a half-blood without a reason for existing, and here he was looking and sounding every bit the man that he was.

As his lips returned to Icarus's, he pressed him up against the wall, raising his head so he could reach him better. He couldn't let go, not now, not ever. With that, he deepened the kiss, making sure that Icarus got a taste of all his pent up emotions.

Their tongues fought for only a moment, though given the intensity of Finn's kiss Icarus soon relented, allowing Finn to sweep in. Over and over, Finn dominated his mouth. Breaths heavy as they plunged in and out of each other's mouths. Icarus could feel Finn cup the back of his head, to tangle his fingers in his hair and pull him ever closer. His whole body leaned in, wanting, needing more, and more, and more.

The kiss broke apart, but their mouths still danced. Down Finn's lips went, sucking and nipping away at the skin along Icarus's jawline and neck. Tiny noises spilled out from him. Each moan of his desire spurring Finn onward as he left mark after mark.

Icarus couldn't help how his tail wrapped itself around one of Finn's legs. It kept pulling him in close, begging for his touch.

Finn pulled away with a sudden wet pop, a trail of saliva connecting their lips as they simply gazed at each other, panting. Leaning his forehead on Icarus's, Finn brushed their lips together as he quietly said, "I'm going to make love to you tonight."

Icarus's pupils were nothing but small slits and his mind was anywhere but in his head as he nodded. He could see in Finn's eyes that he was about to feel all the man's emotions in ways he could never imagine.

#drabble #dungeons and dragons #mlm #original male character #original character #someone else's oc #my ocs #dnd oc #tiefling #half elf #gay character #ficlet #fantasy

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Happy International Asexuality Awareness Day! 💜♠️

Asexuality was never something that I seriously considered myself having, but a couple of weeks ago, things sort of just fell into place for me. I feel that in a lot of circles in my life both past and present, sexual attraction, while not an enforced or demanded, has felt like an expected thing. Whether in a focused or more casual sense, I think there's a general atmosphere of sexual attraction being a typical development in life, which of course it is - but not for everyone!

And so for the longest time, I waited for the moment when things would click for me as well; where I would have the same level of enthusiasm and excitement that I saw in others. But I've found that my strongest feelings of intimacy could thrive in something other than sexual attraction, and I've found happiness in that. I never once put these things together through the lens of asexuality, but I think the build-up of experiences throughout my life has meant that it's been easy to do so now.

If I could describe it, it would be like coming to a well-placed reveal at the end of a novel or film - Nothing about the details or events up until the reveal have changed, only now they feel so much more significant for being in this new light.

I wanted to do a little drawing to celebrate this realisation, as well as a celebration of every other ace out there, however you identify! 😊

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HAPPY INTERNATIONAL ASEXUALITY DAY!!

-April 6th

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Its just very saddening that people who go "im progressive im an ally!" or are even trans themselves will repeat the lie that trans men aren't murdered, arent raped, and have it the easiest. They say "transphobes ignore trans men" while every week I hear that a trans man was murdered, that a trans man i knew killed himself, and that a trans man friend of my mine was SAed or raped.

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Reblog if its ok to spam you with boops

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