walkerofnight

[walkerofnight]

I've been 17 for a long ass time now and let me tell you this shit got hands.

Never turn 17 it's bad for your health bro

Shout out to my 12 year old self who wanted to be 17 sooooo bad because that's how old Ticci Toby was and if I was 17 I could date him

I've been 17 for a while now and let me tell you Poppet, I don't think you'd want that (you're aromantic congrats)

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I got the WORST munchies last night. Got so fucked up that I could literally hear the blood rushing in my veins and ate a peanut butter/nutella sandwich and it was the most insane thing I've ever eaten. It was so good.

In the beginning it was so easy. I could go almost an entire day without eating. I once only ate a single blueberry all day, and I went to bed satisfied. The sound of my stomach begging for more like music to my ears.

Now it's painful. When my rules demand I follow them, something fights me. That boy I was so obsessed with doesn't seem to matter as much anymore. He's a dick and I'm pathetic.

Still, my brain tells me I'll burn for eating. Then I don't. I go another day without starving, without burning myself as punishment, and I get a little better.

Life still sucks, and I still can't stand the feeling of food in my stomach, but I'm getting there.

#@nor3xia #@nor3×14 #tw ed but not sheeran #@anadiary #@na vent #tw 3d vent #vent post #vent #ed recovery #?

[walkerofnight]

If you're unable to excersize (sit ups, push ups, etc) I full recommend having dance parties to shitty 2000s pop. I have burned so much energy in the past hour

#@nor3xia #@nor3×14 #ana0rex1a #tw ed but not sheeran #ed relapse #@n@ tips #@anadiary #@na motivation

[walkerofnight]

big masterlist of ed media

- (i found this on another site and figured some of u wld like new triggering things to watch) -

~ movies where ED’s are the focus

Criminally Insane [Crazy Fat Ethel] (1975)

The Best Little Girl In The World (1981)

Kate's Secret (1986)

The Brief Life Of Catherine (1988)

The Secret Life Of Mary Margaret (1992)

For the Love of Nancy (1994)

Danse avec la vie [Dance With Life] (1995) - French

Dying to be Perfect (1996)

When Friendship Kills [A Secret Between Friends] (1996)

Hunger - Sehnsucht nach Liebe [Hunger - Addicted To Love] (1997) - German

Perfect Body (1997)

Schlank bis in den Tod [Slim Until Death] (1997) - German

Sharing the Secret (2000)

Dying To Dance (2001)

Hunger Point (2003)

Maybe (2003)

Primo Amore [First Love] (2004) - Italian

Briciole (2005) - Italian

Malos Habiticos [Bad Habits] (2007) - Spanish

DISFigured (2008)

The Solitude of Prime Numbers (2010) - Italian

Maledimiele (2011) - Italian

Just Ate (2012)

Delicious (2013)

Starving In Suburbia [Thinspiration] (2014)

Veiled Reality (2014)

My Skinny Sister (2015)

Abzurdah (2015) - Spanish

Crazy Fat Ethel (2016) - Criminally Insane (1975) remake

Little Miss Perfect (2016)

The Wasting (2017)

Feed (2017)

To The Bone (2017)

May I Be At Peace (2018)

Taste Of Emptiness (2018) - Japanese

Body Of Water (2020)

Swallow (2020) - about Pica

Parachute (2023)

Dying In Plain Sight (2024)

TV Shows with ED(s), eating habits, dieting and weight loss as the main focus:

Overshadowed

Binge

Supersize Vs Superskinny

What's Eating You

Starved

Freaky Eaters

Fat Families

Secret Eaters

Starving Secrets

My 600lb Life

My Mad Fat Diary

My Big Fat Diet Show

Biggest Loser

Supersize Vs Superskinny Kids

Too Fat For 15

My Diet Is Better Than Yours

Heavy

I Used To Be Fat

Diet Tribe

Extreme Makeover Weight Loss Edition / Extreme Weight Loss

Celebrity Fit Club

Dance Your Ass Off

Fat March

Shedding For The Wedding

It's Your Fault I'm Fat

Cook Yourself Thin

Diets That Time Forgot

Family Secrets

Superskinny Me

Superslim Me

The truth about size zero

[walkerofnight]

My ana rules🎀

Drink a glass of water before eating anything

have gulp of water after every other bite

don't eat after 7pm

don't eat before 1pm

walk atleast 15k step everyday

take vitamins and supplements

workout twice a day

only drink sugar free things

weight myself daily

drink senna tea every night

[walkerofnight]

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Actual hilarity /g

[walkerofnight]

opening tumblr whenever i get hungry like a soldier in war gazing lovingly at a photo of his wife

[walkerofnight]

He's not into me so I'm gonna starve myself

He's not into me so Im gonna starve myself until he is

#am i pathetic for being this upset over a man? #yes #but its okay bc at least he wont be able to picture my body anymore 🥰 #ana0rex1a #body ch3ck #ed relapse #low cal restriction #pro for me not for thee #anadiet #th1nsp1ration #thinspø #tw ed but not sheeran #@na vent #@anadiary #@nor3xia #@nor3×14 #⭐️ ing motivation #⭐️ve #⭐️rving

[walkerofnight]

the way I literally get so fucking angry over the littlest shit is literally so annoying like calm the fuck down it’s not that serious

[walkerofnight]

Thank you for your constructive criticism Unfortunately, I have been sent into a rage which I will not mentally recover from for three to five years

[walkerofnight]

Nvm my boyfriend and I had a good day life is great rn. Love the ups and downs of bpd

"I don't want to hurt you" Okay well I don't want to be chewing gum every 3 hrs to trick my stomach into thinking it's gonna be fed but here we are bro

[walkerofnight]

"I don't want to hurt you" Okay well I don't want to be chewing gum every 3 hrs to trick my stomach into thinking it's gonna be fed but here we are bro

#⭐️ve #⭐️ ing motivation #⭐️rving #pro for me not for thee #ana0rex1a #@na vent #@n@ diary #@nor3xia #@n@ tips

[walkerofnight]

i swear fasting is easier than restricting

once i get one thing in my stomach its over for me

[walkerofnight]

i wish i could rip every ounce of my skin off my body, i am so gross.

[walkerofnight]

Why do you keep eating when you know that st@rving is the only way you feel pure and happy?

Don’t you want to feel good for at least once?

[walkerofnight]

Watching degassi so I don't have to think about food

watching insatiable to distract myself from cravings >>