#you can be trans or nb and still be a normal person ya know

[v0idl1nq]

Hi! I wasn't sure if you were still doing FNaF matchups but I've read your other works and thought they were so cute so I'd love to request if I could!

I'm a 5'2" nb trans adult male (they/he) with dark brown hair and hazel eyes. I'm demiromantic but love to show affection via physical touch/compliments. I'm a traditional/digital artist who loves to sing, write and bake. I adore soft things like plushies, blankets and big sweaters and collect them alongside enamel/button pins and books.

I'm a soft spoken person who has nonverbal moments (learning asl for it) that you might find sitting alone, listening to music and drawing though, if I'm comfortable, I love talking about my special interests (cartoons, ghosts and writing) and deep, emotional topics to better get to know others. I can even get absolutely manic, wild and bubbly at times around trusted people.

My turn offs are people who are impatient, dismissive or aggressive toward myself or friends. My turn ons are curious, emotionally insightful people who I can laugh and indulge in "childish" activities with.

Thank you again and keep up the amazing work! 💖

I would say I ship you with...

₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ﾟ. Glamrock Chica !!₊˚ʚ ᗢ₊˚✧ ﾟ

*ੈ✩‧ She isn't normally one for deep or emotional moments/talks, but when she does she gets reaaally into it. h!! It's her biggest love language, other than gift giving and acts of service.

*ੈ✩‧₊ Whenever she plays her guitar (electric if 'm correct) she encourages you to join in or she plays guitar solo's for ya' and asks what you think of it !!

*ੈ✩‧₊ Whenever you're drawing, she always compliments it due to how mesmerized she is. If you ever draw her, she's immediately star-struck !! She's smile widely and give ya' a big hug as she says compliments.

*ੈ✩‧₊ She loves your collection especially the button and pin one !! (she's eaten some buttons..). She loves seeing you in the hoodies and sweaters, she really loves buying you some so that she can show ya' off.

*ੈ✩‧₊ like in my Sundrop headcanons, all animatronics know sign language (it depends on the language). Especially since she's designed for children which means, she helps you from time to time and talks to you using ASL so you can use it more and can communicate more usin' it !!

*ੈ✩‧₊ She isn't normally one for deep or emotional moments/talks, but when she does she gets reaaally into it. Whenever you do have these talks, she either listens intently or talks until she finally feels light and okay. When it's your turn, she listens intently and will give ya' hugs and kisses from time to time.

*ੈ✩‧₊ One of her biggest things is she acts childish a lot due to how she was made and her franchise, it's also one of her specialties since when kids visit her, she does her best to make them happy as possible. I've just got this thing where if she had a place other than the Mazercise place, it doesn't really make sense for me that they gave 'er that so I just headcanon her having an 80's themed restaurant with the juke box and all teachin' kids how to cook or bake stuff! you both hang there a lot and it ends up really messy with flour and eggs thrown everywhere, the cleaner bots glare at you a lot now-

*ੈ✩‧₊ A/N:: finally finished this- so sorry it took long!! had school to finish since it's nearly the end of our school year!! it finishes at may so let's go!

#five nights at freddy's #fnaf x reader #gn reader #x gn reader #fnaf imagines #fnaf x reader insert #fnaf sb x reader #fnaf security breach x reader #fnaf #fnaf fandom #five nights at freddys #glamrock chica #glamrock chica x reader #chica the chicken #fnaf chica #sby #fnaf sb #security breach #sb x male reader #sb x reader

[inkrabbit]

Cyberpunk 2077 Johnny Silverhand x Trans/Nb V or a GN V who gets jealous of his fans

I am so fucking sorry this took so long, but it's here now.

V in this story is FTM trans! Hopefully it's good <3 there also isn't exactly a happy ending for both of them, because we believe in angst in this household

It wasn't the first time V had attended one of Johnny's concerts, and he was positive it wouldn't be the last. He hated how he loved the music, and he hated himself for loving the singer more. He saw how he stared at them. The women who were barely adults, jumping and squealing in the crowd, calling out to him. And he'd be lying if he said he hadn't seen a couple of them making their way out of his changing room.

Yet, here he still was, standing among the crowd with his arms crossed over his chest, almost scowling at Johnny. How long have they been dating now? Five, six months? Oftentimes he questioned why exactly he had fallen for the rockstar. Had it been the fame? The money? The sex? Johnny would normally buy him whatever he wanted (or rather, just tossed his credit card his way and let him scamper off to get whatever item caught his attention), and the intimate times with the man never left him unsatisfied. Still, he wanted more. He wanted it all from the man, not just the petty little things and meaningless title.

Time and time again he had thought of leaving; finding someone else worth his time and emotions, but something always dragged him back. What it was, he didn't know, but he absolutely despised it. The tug of his heartstrings and that warm feeling that would sprout in his chest and move throughout his body whenever the man would say anything to him that held affection.

He's not even listening to the music anymore, too caught in his building rage to even acknowledge the lyrics. However, Johnny makes eye contact with him, and with a smug grin plastered across his face, he sends the man a wink. There goes that feeling again, starting the middle of his chest. But he forces himself to ignore it; to believe that he's sending the wink to the young woman standing next to him with her tits practically falling out of her halter top. He rolls his eyes.

No matter what, he was confronting him about all of this. And he was leaving, no questions asked.

When the concert finally ended and the band said their goodbyes, V finally started to move. He was going to beat Johnny to his changing room, and he was going to make sure no other person got back there before him. He shouldered his way past the other patrons and glared at them when they tried to raise their voice at him. He was lucky none of them decided to push the issue.

He had gone through everything he would say to the rocker when he saw him. Tell him how much of a bastard he was and how he couldn't stand him anymore; how he couldn't stand the way he cheated on him or even looked at those women. Another tug at his heart, but not the familiar giddy feelings. No, this had been something that was eating at him for a long time, and he was finally at his wits end.

“Enjoy the show?” The gruff voice had caught his attention, his eyes glancing over to watch Johnny walk up towards him. The same grin is still on his face, one hand tucked inside his pocket as he stands before him with all of his weight on one foot. “Saw ya out in the crowd. Sure do love our music, don't ya?” He slowly gets closer, lowering his face so he's staring at him over his iconic shades. “Or do ya just come here to see me?”

“Don't flatter yourself,” V scoffs, pushing himself off the wall. He follows Johnny inside the room and away from prying eyes. It always smelled of smoke and alcohol, and no matter how many times he tried to grow accustomed to it, he just couldn't. It was all too strong and just smelled of Johnny, making his head spin.

“So, why are you here, then?” Arms wrap around his waist, and V's quick to wiggle out of his grip with a huff. “Christ, V. That time of the month already?”

“Don't even start,” The sharpness in his tone had shocked both of them, but even if it had truly fazed Johnny, he didn't let it show.

“If you're gonna act like this, you can get the fuck out.”

“Oh, you'd like that, wouldn't you? Let one of those whores come in here?”

“Is that what this is about? Christ V-”

“Don't you “Christ, V” me! How do you think that makes me feel?”

“I'm sure you're gonna tell me anyway...”

“Do you even care?”

There's a beat of silence as Johnny removes his shades, pinching the bridge of his nose and sighing. V can feel his jaw clench.

“You like them cause they got tits?” he accuses, “'Cause they have curves?”

“V-”

“What do they have that I don't?!” It feels like his throat is trying to close up as tears prick at the corners of his eyes. He tries taking deep breaths to calm himself, blinking rapidly. There was no way he was going to let this man see him cry like this. Still, he couldn't deny the feeling of defeat that had cemented itself in his stomach. He felt sick.

“I've been so patient with you,” He's slow to talk, hands curling into fists as he focuses on anything but Johnny. “I've made so many excuses for you. And you keep doing this-”

“Why don't you just calm down?” Johnny tries, taking a slow step forward. “Deep breaths. We don't gotta discuss this now.”

And for a moment, V tries it, taking a deep breath in and letting his hands relax by his side. He feels arms snake around his waist again, and he allows his hands to rest atop Johnny's forearms. A soft kiss is pressed to his temple, one of the only gentle things Johnny will actually do. Maybe he knew tenderness was one of the things that made V actually calm down. Maybe he had listened and admired him; got to know the small details most people seemed to leave out.

“There. Don't you feel better?” It’s the snide tone in his voice he can pick out, having almost an “I told you so” feel to it. In a way, he did feel better. “Don't know why you're so bent out of shape on this.”

V lets his words sink in. Why had he been so “bent out of shape” about everything? He knew what was to come from a relationship with the rockstar. He had heard every rumor and bitter remark about him. Why did he think he'd be any different?

Right. Because he thought maybe he'd be his saving grace. That he wouldn't actually be wasting his time and emotions trying to “fix” such a broken and angry man. That maybe, just maybe, Johnny would grow up and act like a fucking adult and admit to his faults.

Wishful thinking.

The lies, the poor excuses, the nudes and naughty texts found on Johnny's phone, the women who would leave his changing room, the “innocent” peck on the lips to his adoring fans, the way he would actually comment on a woman's figure while they were out-

It all came back to him, the blinding rage that made his jaw clench. He was played and took advantage of. No matter what he tried doing for Johnny, it was obvious the rocker seemed to have a spot for his fans more than he did V. Had he ever cared for him, actually? Did Johnny ever once look at V and feel the same feelings he did? The butterflies, the tightening of the chest, maybe even some shortness of breath? He doubted it. At the end of the day, he was positive Johnny was more in love with himself and his ideas than he was with V.

Something felt like it snapped inside him, and maybe something truly did. The last heart string that kept him with Johnny finally split. In that moment, he finally felt peace; freedom from the relationship that was bringing him down.

“Well, V. How ya feel now?” Johnny's lips are ghosting the shell of his ear, his voice a low husk as his hands slowly travel lower. There's no thought behind his actions; he almost feels like he's completely disconnected from reality. Throwing his fist forward, he makes contact with Johnny's nose, sending the man stumbling back and blood trailing down from his nostrils. There's a newfound confidence in V as he shoulders past Johnny, the rockstar shouting and hurling insults his way. With his hand on the doorknob, he takes a glance over his shoulder, a smug grin on his face.

“Lot better now that I got that out,” he answers him. Throwing the door open, he slips out of the changing room, making his way for the exit of the venue. It feels like there's a weight that's been lifted off of his chest, and he mentally pats himself on the back for remembering his worth. He wouldn't cry for the man, and he sure as well refused to ever go back to him. Tonight, he'd delete all of his pictures that were of and reminded him of the man, and he would even erase him from his contacts. He didn't want any memories of Johnny.

The fans had caught his attention on his way out, the girls squealing about the show and talking among themselves, chattering away about backstage passes and autographs. In the past, he would've looked at them and compared himself to them. Their figures, their voices, how they dressed, anything to figure out why he didn't seem to be good enough for Johnny. But now, all he could do was laugh. They all were just as naive as he was, and a surge of pride washed through him as he continued home. At least he finally came to his senses.

#cyberpunk 2077 #Johnny Silverhand #trans!V #ftm V #johnny x v

[regesc]

@saigeonmain​   :    I'M GOING TO ASK A QUESTION SPECIFIC FOR YOUR BABE THAT ISN'T ON HERE; what is sex like for Noct as a trans person?

CLAPS HANDS okay cool!! lets do this!! under the cut for nsfw / detail / length.

honestly? i’ll start by saying: noct’s body dysphoria is pretty minimal. AGAIN i’ve stated before but 90% of his dysphoria is social / related to how people perceive him, and generally by the time you’re in a sexual relationship with someone they pretty much know you’re a guy so he rarely feels dysphoric in relationships especially if he’s with someone who is super SUPER understanding about gender / is even trans themselves. remmeber kids!! trans ppl can love their bodies!! gender euphoria exists!

so when it comes to sex! i would said it’s honestly pretty normal. like as you’d expect. though there r some things a little particular about them:

> noct prefers to stay clothed waist up. again his breasts r like. the one part of himself he gets antsy about, so his preferred mode of dress for sex is baggy tshirt! on the worst days he’ll probably try to get away wearing a binder (dont do this dont work out in binders please dont dont be like noct) or some kinda sports bra. i would say that his chest is a no - go when having sex UNLESS he gives express permission / touches there himself!

> he heavily prefers vaginal sex when his partner has a penis / uses toys lol, i dont think he has the brain capacity to ever even attempt anal he can barely function as a human being as it is LMAO. he simply enjoys his vagina! he does! he thinks its neat. as with most things though it does take some manner of trust to get him comfortable with his partner touching him: he’s quicker to trust if u also have a vagina / know what to do w/ him, that sorta solidarity makes it easier for him to Show himself fully bcus hes like ‘well you’ve seen it before ig’ but ultimately with time he’ll go from just letting u do the bare minimum to like, ‘please eat me out im begging im begging im beg’ 

> he usually prefers to be on the bottom but his mood can shift drastically with his comfort level: one minute he’s laying there pillow prince-ing it up and the next u have a very ego-fuelled power bottom on your hands! i wouldnt say he’s passive or what but he just kinda !!! enjoys being taken care of, but there are moments where his own quietness makes him sorta. hmm. dysphoric? hes like. wait im man. & he will attempt to take control for a brief moment. you kinda just. have to let it happen. 

> sex w/ men vs. women is different to him bcus his attraction to men vs. women is different: with men he gets cocky, kinda Loud, kinda ‘i could take u >:)’ but his attraction to women is so .. soft & understanding? w/ a lady partner cis or trans or nb or whatever he would rlly just spend hours taking care of them if they asked him to!! like do u want the prince of lucis on his knees bcus thats how u get him on his knees!! vs. being w/ a guy. he would absolutely turn the entire thing into a fight. lmao. like a show off of how masculine he is.

 i feel like!! how ur attraction to different genders can vary when ur bi comes under the trans umbrella bcus his relationship w/ his own gender affects it / his dysphoria affects it. he would. absolutely. smooch a lady. for a tleast an hour. AT LEAST. & he is a touch more dominant in that regard-- though still a dumb 0 braincell bottom! lol

> he’s learnt to be vocal about his wants/needs so hes not quiet! he’ll tell you if something makes him uncomfortable. though he has this bad habit of his first reaction to being embarrassed being ‘FUCK OFF STOP IT’ which w/ the msot understanding partners usually leads to a game of stop and go that gets frustrating LOL. but he just ! knows what he wants, what makes him comfortable, even if it embarrasses him he’s going to ask for it. so if ur doin it wrong ur gonna know.

> the one thing that does give him anxiety is when the topic of birth control comes up. he isn’t using it nor is he on T so he’s like. neurotic about condom usage when it comes to Puttin Stuff In if ya catch my drift. he’s not emotionally stable enough to give lucis an heir.

> also to note w/ a partner: he is needy & horny & u wont get away from him. that isnt related to being trans thats just noctis. 

anyway thanks for reading !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! trans rights. 

#WORLDBUILDING ㅤ ㅤ ( ㅤ ☠ㅤ ) ㅤ ㅤ — ㅤ ㅤ like prometheus: all fire & love punished for the act of living in defianceㅤ . #in case it bothers some ppl: i do use ''''feminine''''''''''' words to refer to nocts body #FJHGDFJ DANCING AROUND IT IS SO BIZZARE TO ME but if u do it more power to u #THANK U 4 T HIS ASK SAIGE I LOVE TALKIN ABT NOCT FEELIN HIMSELF!! #me smacking the rpc's front desk over and over normalise talking abt this stuff im watching you fuckers

[karak9]

Another stupid long post about how I don't know my own fucking gender

This is honestly just copied and pasted from a yt comment I made on an older vid and I figured I'd share it here bc tumblr loves this shit I guess lol. God damn I've been questioning my gender for so long and ik rn im prob not still in the best position to be thinking about deep life shit like where I am mentally and im dealing with a lot in my life and also very insecure about potentially being trans bc a lot of my friends don't seem like they would be very accepting and my bf is only really into girls. I asked him how he would feel if I was nonbinary or looked like a boy and he just said he wasn't totally sure but he's only attracted to girls :c he's the sweetest bf in existence and im honestly so afraid of losing him, so aside from obviously not wanting to deal with all the other trans shit, I definitely hope im not trans bc I don't wanna lose him. Anyways, ill start with my childhood I guess. I was always super tomboyish. My older sisters (im the youngest sibling btw) were always p tomboyish so maybe I kinda got it from them but I kinda felt like I was more tomboyish than them? I felt like I was the most boyish girl I knew, like even meeting other tomboy girls in elementary school I felt like I couldn't really relate to them or like they couldnt relate to me enough idk. I also remember once making up a song about being like so tomboyish that I was basically a boy or something along those lines and sang it to my best friend at the time who I copied like all the fkin time (it honestly wasnt healthy lmao I didn't have good parents, also I think I started making up songs bc she did that and I wanted to like impress her), but she thought it was stupid and weird so I just forgot about it and moved on. I was embarrassed to even enjoy playing with dolls or play dress up games online and was determined to play masculine games like runescape (even tho I ended up doing girly shit in runescape anyways lmao) and considered myself one of the guys. In 5th grade when I started needing to wear a bra I absolutely didn't want to, tho some girls in my class thought it was weird I didn't wear a bra when they found out and that made me more insecure about it, but since then I've p much only worn sports bras. I have bought some more normal bras bc I wanted to look attractive in them for my SO or whatever but I still highly prefer my sports bras and can't stand wearing the other ones unless I have to bc my sports bras aren't clean lmfao. I always hated talking about genitalia and breasts n shit but that could just be bc of how I was raised and how my family was always so strict and such radical Christians and anything sex related was a sin, idk if its dysphoria or not. I've never rlly liked my chest and hated showing cleavage like so god damn much and still do but maybe that's the same thing or maybe I just want smaller boobs and that's it idk??? Like I'd want to appear to have a completely flat chest at least, idk if I'd want to actually like have a guy chest or not? Also huge issue with ppl seeing me naked or touching my boobs but again idk if that's gender related or just a normal issue I have. Tho I had a friend in high school (a girl, a very weird lewd girl) who would occasionally grope my chest randomly and it wasn't a huge issue but kinda made me uncomfortable and more aware of my chest. I really like when I wear big hoodies or when I lean over so my shirt kinda poofs out and it looks like I have a flat chest underneath. Though im not super uncomfortable with my boobs, like normally ill want nothing to do with them but I don't mind my SO touching them especially if they're really into it. I wouldn't say im rlly dysphoric about between my legs either, like yeah I think its weird and I hate monthlies and stuff but I think that's normal. I think if i woke up one day and had a dick I would be fine with it, I'd prob even enjoy it tbh lmao. I once had a dream that i was, well, a male dog like,,, ya know, with a female dog, and not to sound weird af (hey we were both dogs ok) but I think i kinda enjoyed it? I don't really remember any other dreams where I remember actually having a dick or feeling it but I've had several dreams as a male person, but p much all of them were like, I was seeing through a character's eyes or smth, not really that I was a guy, so idk if that's normal. I have the same dreams about being other girl characters, I'd say its split about 50/50. Because of this game community im in, a lot of ppl assume im a guy, and a lot of people still think im a guy and I haven't really bothered to correct them but idk if I find it more enjoyable bc its funny or if I enjoy not being referred to as female for once. I'll admit I feel most comfortable referred to as they/them, like without a doubt, if I could go by only 1 set of pronouns for the rest of my life it would be they/them. But ik that's not enough to call myself trans. I definitely wouldn't want to be 100% male. Like if I imagine myself as a grown man vs a grown woman id prob choose to be a woman. I don't like my voice but I think that's mostly just bc I sound 10 years younger than I actually am, and wouldn't really want a deep/masculine voice. Like a "tomboy" voice would be fine if that makes sense? I don't want facial hair or want to have a masculine body, I like that I have curves and soft skin and small hands. Personally I like my hair long bc its soft and people love it, but sometimes I kinda wish I had short hair and could pass as a boy. Like I'd wanna be a typical cute kpop boy ngl lmfao. I like the whole cute androgynous/feminine boy look and wish I could pull it off. Tho I also like really girly things sometimes and am okay being seen as a girl, i just want to be cute and attractive. Ik whether im trans or not I like being a mix of feminine and masculine, tho I admit in the past I've been kinda insecure bc I used to be super sure I was nb and thought me liking girly things and wanting to still havd long hair and wear girly clothes made me seem like "not trans enough" or whatever. But i guess here I am questioning myself again anyways. If I am nb, it sucks that ill never really be able to be openly myself and all but I've accepted by now that I kinda have to pick a binary and choose what I want to be seen as for the rest of my life, and im ok with being female. There are some things I dont like about my body whether they're really gender related or not but I can't afford to transition and wouldn't like most of the effects of T and am afraid of surgery and not sure I want top surgery enough to ever get it anyways, but I think if we lived in a perfect world and I could magically change my body at will and I wasnt afraid of judgment or being unattractive or whatever, I'd probably want to look androgynous and itd be cool to be able to change my genitalia at will lmao. If I had to choose 1 genitalia over the over I honestly have no idea what I'd choose but I have no desire to ever get bottom surgery, at the same time tho I honestly wanna someday get surgery or w/e to never be able to get pregnant. I just could not handle pregnancy or giving birth and I don't even like babies and breast feeding sounds awful so if I ever have kids they will be adopted 100% and most likely be older and like not newborn babies lmfao, babies are honestly so weird to me and they stink and cry and they're so fragile and im so afraid of like dropping them when I hold them lmao. But I like my nieces and nephews and I like being the cool aunt (is there a gender neutral version of aunt/uncle?) who lets them use my art supplies and helps them do fun stuff even if I get tired of them sometimes lol. Idk if that's gender related either but yeah I guess. This if kind of a more recent thing but I often say I'd make a great bf kinda as a joke bc of how I am in relationships like being the stereotypical sweet bf type who makes things for their partner a lot and wants to be their knight in shining armor and their protector and all that, but again prob not rlly trans related lmao just thought I'd throw that out there I guess. So when I was 17 was when I really started getting into trans stuff, prior to that I mostly just learned from my parents that trans ppl were "against god" and all that bs, and eventually started realizing lgbt+ isn't as bad as my family said and later realized I was bi. But anyways I met an agender person online when i was 17ish and I'd never heard it before and thought it was really interesting and asked them how you know you're agender bc after hearing their explanation of it i thought it described how I felt, but ofc they weren't transmed and just described it as being like a deep feeling or whatever and since then i started calling myself agender (and switched between a few labels but basically nonbinary) until my transmed friend told me I was ridiculous and that I wasn't trans, and honestly he was a huge dick but im a huge pushover lmao and I thought well he's trans so he must know what he's talking about, and though I felt discouraged about it I stopped calling myself nonbinary. Then I began questioning it again after not too long and basically since then I've been questioning my gender off and on. I'm now 22 and god I fucking hope im cis but also I feel like a part of me doesn't want to be cis if that makes sense?? Idk if that's because I don't like being a girl for some weird deep reason I don't know about despite being pretty sure I've gotten a lot of my feelings and their reasons behind them figured out, or if it's because I am trans and dont want to force myself to pretend im a girl 100% forever. At the very least, whatever the fuck my gender is, I want to continue going by they\them wherever I can and pretending to be a boy to strangers online and I'd love to cosplay male characters and bind and occasionally just dress masculine for the hell of it and probably wear sports bras for the rest of my life. I feel like in a way I cang possibly be trans because I can live with all of those things and be fairly comfortable still being seen as female for the rest of my life. But idk, I have bpd and other mental shit so sometimes im not great with my feelings (tho I do try really hard to identify all of my feelings/emotions and stuff) but at the same time bpd can cause weird identity shit so maybe its just a weird mix of a bunch of crap and im not actually trans but just weird and tomboyish enough to question my gender for 5 years and still be unsure. Also I know a lot of ppl suggest talking to a therapist/psychologist/whatever professional and trust me I would love to but I can't currently and am unsure when ill be able to bc they're expensive and I live in the middle of fucking nowhere so finding a decent therapist around where I live rn is going to be very difficult. Also, I have fucking crippling social anxiety lmao like I'd be so afraid to open up about this stuff even to a professional. So if anyone could suggest anything online that could help that would be amazing

#Trans #nonbinary #nb #genderqueer #gender questioning #transmed #pls help me lmao I hate my brain sm #also im so sorry if this post is scuffed af #im on mobile #its 4 am I cba

[princettegil]

Ya know, sometimes I wonder if I’m *too* strange? Like, if you looked at all my likes, interests, etc. you’d think I was competing for most special snowflake award! Alone, they’re probably not too weird (minus a few things that definitely are) but combined they really just look like I’m screaming for attention. And it makes me feel uneasy because that’s NOT the reason! I really and truly like all these things and deeply feel this way; there are no ulterior motives or tantrums screaming for attention via those interests and identities but I realize that they probably seem that way to others and I worry that I may be judged as trying too hard to be special or something and I’m really not. But it worries me still ‘cause, like, I mean, look at some of the things I really love/identify as! ●Anime/Manga/Cosplay (one of those not too weird alone things but…) ●Goth culture and fashion (a little strange to most folks, sometimes really strange to some) ●Halloween addict (I do mean extremely, 24/7/365) ●My obsession with cats (crazy cat lady/person, not insanely odd…) ●Acting like a cat, wearing cat ears all the time, meowing a lot, probably being catkin or therian, following kittenplay blogs because of it (definitely weird, esp the deeper you get to know my catty side) ●Being Trans/NB (especially wanting to be a feminine/extremely girly boy and not just a boy) ●Being ace (and demi pan-romantic) ●Ruling over my own micronation (definitely freaky to most people) ●Because of the above, using the gender-neutral title of ‘Princette’ ●I created my own religion (freaky extraordinaire. In my defense it’s mostly just a cat-goddess sort of Paganism but I also came up with a greater God of my own creation…) ●My new, legal name. I thought it was easy but apparently no one knows how to pronounce Gilraen Hime (even after spelling out the pronunciation – Gil-RAY-in He-May) And so many questions over what it means and where I got it. I really just should have went with Gil… orz Like I said, alone a lot of these things aren’t too strange. Being an anime fan irl isn’t too odd to most people on this site but to non-otaku and older folks it’s pretty strange and they can never seem to understand it. Dressing goth in rural KY? Ouch. Talking about Halloween in Spring/Summer/Winter? Somewhat odd but kinda okay-ish to most. Wearing cat ears? Okay, they’re quirky. Meowing and purring and identifying as a cat person? Something must be wrong with them. Being Trans/Ace/etc.? Odd. Being gay or bi would be fine but trans and ace and demi pan-romantic? WTF snowflake!? Especially wanting to be a girly femboy? Okay…why? You’re gonna dress and act the same so why?? Having a micronation? Ruling over my own land with my own laws and government and being a Princess---err Princette? Uhhh… is your head on okay? That’s just some sort of fantasy game right? Like, you’re not for real serious are you?? Creating my own religion? Fucking blaspheming freak. All of these things TOGETHER!? WHAT.THE.HOLY.FUCK.IS.WRONG.WITH.YOU!?!? Are you some sort of eccentric crazy psycho!? Special snowflake syndrome!? They must just want attention! What a freak! Weirdo. Somebody wasn’t hugged enough as a child. They’re definitely crazy! Obviously, they live in some fantasy world. This is the real world, honey. Act more normal okay? But it’s just really what I like! No other reasons! I’ve liked anime since I was 5 and watched Speed Racer and Gatchaman! Cosplaying makes me feel free! I love dressing like characters I feel so close too! And sometimes, the clothes are just so cool looking!! Goth clothes? Same deal! I love the way they look! And they make me feel better, pretty. So what if it’s not the normal definition of pretty! I think it’s beautiful! Unique and dark and ragged edges and flowing gowns and fabric and belts and straps and mesh and - - - lovely! Halloween is something I always liked and eventually won my ‘favorite holiday’ award lol. Fall, October… that crisp air, crunchy leaves, dressing up as anything or anyone you want, telling scary stories and watching horror movies, visiting beautiful cemeteries as the leaves turn to fire, being scared in haunted houses, laughing from the adrenaline, goth décor and clothing for cheap!, hay rides in the cool air, spooky accessories, that odd feel of something otherworldly… what’s not to love!! And as a goth, seriously best time of year to shop! Being catty and wearing cat ears and meowing is just another thing I love! I’ve always felt better and less anxious and more myself around cats, always loved learning about cats, wished I could be a cat, it feels natural to be cat-like. And cat ears are soooo cute!! Do I really have to explain my orientation and gender? It took me a long time to get to this point and accept what I am and it’s only lead to me feeling better about myself. I’ve always dreamed about being a Princess and with a micronation of my own, I can be! Not only that, I can create a place where I and others like me can feel safe and belong. I can create the world I wish for instead of just bemoaning the country I was born in and forced to obey. My religion is also better suited to my interests and beliefs. Sure, I made up a God and mythology but I know it’s just that – mythology and my creation. But is that really so different that most other religions if you look at them scientifically and historically? I still believe in other gods to some extent and to some extent I’m still a bit agnostic but it’s tenants are very Pagan and very much a reflection of the things I believe and revere, tinted with my own interests and things I know a lot about (cats.) It gives me the same hope that more accepted religions give to their adherents. So, I’m strange. Odd. Weird. Different. Eccentric. Quirky. But I’m not doing it for attention, I’m doing it cause I like these things and they make me feel happy. So my interests are a bit strange to most people and there’s a lot of them most would consider weird. So what? I’m me. I’m happy. And that’s all that matters. You’ll get no apologies from me for enjoying my life!

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