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neo-shitty · 3 years

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toffee!

yeah same, i follow some fic accs that occaisionally post smut and its like mmmmm is the fluff writing enough to balance the posts that gives me finger burn trying to scroll past it? but yeah thats probably the way to go

ah i wasnt there for the teaser but i can imagine that was tantalising. lmaoo yes but to be fair i do have a writing acc called channiesbigheart so... balancing it out? but i absolutely am whipped beyond belief. it was a TRAVESTY how COULD they have. yeah the b sides gave him more lines but they werent the ones that were performed over and over at stages. yessss the line distribution in this album is impeccable, im pretty sure the thunderous stuff was some of their best distribution

hehe i can understand that, sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know? mmmm the differences are a bit nuts, it was 14 degrees today and in less than a week its going to be 32 or smth. BROOO that would be legendary, i bet theyd treat their artists rlly well and have great music as well ahhh but its a lot of work adn commitment. yES that is a mood if ever i heard one.

its the same in australia as well, sadly, you have people who hold up harry styles and lil nas x for breaking gender roles and wearing make up adn steryotypical womens clothing (and keep in mind i have infinite respect for both of them theyre honestly doing so much for the de-dehumanising of gay people and those who wear whatever they want), and calling the kpop boys gay and other things for doing the same thing, when theyve been doing it for years and gotten no recognition smh its so tragic. yes, anyway YES ONLY 6 MONTHS I AM FOR ALL INTENTS AND PURPOSES A BBY STAN altho i considered myself a fully fledged stay like 2 days after i got into them cos i just spent all day researching and fixating. YES someone said it. it feels like theyre losing a huge chunk of why a lot of people liked their music in teh first place, which was that whole dna, dope, fire mood. and even doing bright songs is fine, liek they should do what they want but i feel liek the western music industry is so fucking toxic that they feel pressured into making these decisions. dont get me wrong, theyre good decisions from a business perspective, theyre getting record breaking sales but still. mmm yeah honestly yg just needs to get its shit together or get out

oooh! not into nct but i see a lot of him, he seems rlly talented. ahh yes another channie ult lmaoo i feel that, my list is growing in leaps and bounds as well. mmm yeah i think i will, im just going to try to save enough money :) mingi appealed to me mostly for the voice (like felix smh what is it with me and deep voiced bois) but also his soft visuals and the whole cutesy thing he has going on i rlly liked. yes i did get into them while he was on hiatus, but im still mostly a casual stan, ill listen to the album when it comes out but i dont think ill obsessively look over everything to do with it, like skz. HAH WE'RE MORE SIMILAR THAN I THOUGHT. lmaooo the thot line describes them perfectly, why are they all so damn attractive. especially seonghwa, like that man looks like a character from a book, cardan greenbriar vibes anyone? mmhmm! his vocals are absolutely insane. ty! yeah im excited altho idk how theyre every going to beat border:carnival, that shit was impeccable. ahh no stress, enjoy teh groups you stan atm!

ahh thank you so much, ill keep that in mind. hehe thats good! hopefully its soon :( ah ty, it means a lot. ill think abt that and hopefully talk abt it a little more :)

ah, no it was inside our gymnasium but to get to the other side of the stage you had to exit the building, go around the back and then enter through the other stage door. ah tysm! im glad too. mmm same, they baffle me. ;n; noo so sad :( ahh, thats um not smth i put on here, but im in high school so make of that what you will :)

thank you! ive done a majority of them, i just have maths, an english presentation and an economic assignment due now so im pretty much home free. yeah i feel like hes the epitome of here for you while being inescapably far away. haha she sounds like one of my friends. lmaooo why is that me. hmmm i feel like youve answered a lot of them in that answer so maybe just ateez, enha, txt and bp? if you stan them? :)

ahhh no problem at all, proud of you for managing to overcome the procrastination! progress! mmm thats good! ahh pls do let me know if you ever decide that, i cant promise i wont cry but do what you gotta do :)

<3 w.a. 🐺

hi! sorry for the late reply, i didn't know how to construct sentences yesterday e.e

yeah sometimes it's the perfect balance! i personally don't like fics that focus mainly on the filth? the plot has to carry the whole fic somehow and the smut is just something to add to the mix. also, i'll follow you on your writing blog! i keep forgetting to do so, damn it.

"sometimes putting someone in a situation so horrible it would be considered a violation of human rights is theraputic, ya know?" putting it this way just silenced me but yes. angst just feels more realistic. it isn't always happy endings irl so i tend to do it a lot.

falling into skz is so easy! it felt like that for me too. stanning them felt like getting sucked into a blackhole. also yes i agree. kpop is nothing but an industry after all and it runs on money so i get why they do what they do as well.

i suggest we not talk about haechan because i will literally not shut up but yes my boy is an ace :( chan is also sooooo easy to love. and the chan's rooms just solidified his place as ult. having something to look forward to every week at a time when my mental health was just plummeting into the depths of tartarus just helped me be stable. oh yeah, mingi's deep voice is indeed sexc. and he has some wack ass duality as well! and i think seonghwa was one of the people i nearly considered as bias just because of his visuals because wow that's one beautiful face. and true, idk how enha's going to beat border:carnival. i don't like all the tracks simply bc of taste preferenceds but i like more than one so i consider that a lot already.

bro that gym should've had some sort of a covered walk :// also i miss being in high school sO DAMN MUCH. but i still feel like i am because time stopped when quarantine started and i was still in senior year at the time.

my ateez bias is wooyoung! it wasn't that much of a shocker to my kpop stan irls because i was a jimin stan for the longest time. enhypen is jake and they kept pointing out that he looked like seungmin sometimes so it's like chan's aussie-ness with a tinge of seungmin (the other guy in my skz bias line, in case i haven't mentioned it). txt is huening kai! i find it hard to believe that he's my age because he looks a lot younger? o.O and he always looks good damn :(( sigh for blackpink it's lisa! i tend to bias the maknaes of yg groups, it's a pattern i've noticed but don't intentionally do!

DON'T WASTE YOUR TEARS OMFG. you can always reach me elsewhere if i like disappear off this blog.

#toff.asks #wild anon 🐺

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fleetofshippyships-archive · 5 years

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WIP tag meme

aaah, I was tagged over 2 months ago by @parkkate O.O sorry for not doing this sooner @parkkate XD I’ve been offline for a few months! Just now catching up on everything I missed! but I’m ignoring asks for now because my inbox is a mess

The Rules: Post the names of all the files in your WIP folder, regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous.

I’m gonna cheat and only do this for my drarry wips, since I post everything else on another account now, and tbh I have so many drarrys it’s still gonna be a long ass post XD

Oh man *sweats nervously* I’m a bit of a hoarder in all aspects of my life...I don’t even know where to begin!

I’m not tagging anyone cos I was tagged 2 months ago and I have no idea who has and hasn’t done this and don’t want to be a pain. But if you wanna do it, go a head, and please tag me so I can be nosy and hopefully find someone with a wip problem as bad as my own so I can be less embarrassed XD

Also I’m putting this under a cut for reasons

1. 4th year au idea

Sooooo, right off the bat, I often open a new file to jot down an idea even though I have docs specifically to dump ideas...and then at some point during the process of jotting down basic details of the idea...I start writing it....? This is one such occurrence...but I had to open it to check...and now I want to keep writing it XD

But also yikes it’s super dark

2. ... 4th year au idea

I swear, this is an entirely different wip and I am going ‘wtf’ at myself because wtf that’s confusing! I had also totally forgotten the existence of this before opening it....probably because of the name of it and the only reason I apparently have 2 files the exact same name is that one is a word doc and one is a libre office doc XD

3. drarry character death idea

Soooo, I need to stop turning idea files into wips without changing the names because I actually forget they are wips apparently

Also, I really want to finish this RIGHT NOW IT HURTS SO GOOD GIMME GIMME GIMME

4. Veela fic followup

LOL LOL LOL I’m rewriting my veela fic so I don’t know what the fuck I’m going to end up doing with this XD I might have to try and merge it with the re-write if the story has a similar outcome when I’m done. or maybe I’ll just turn this into its own thing....

5. Veela fic present tense

I really need to get back to working on this, this is actually the full re-write that re-doing the tenses spawned...I was binge writing this before my life went to hell but then my life went to hell and I went offline for like three months and didn’t do any writing or anything XD

although, the last time I looked at it I got the itch to change it back to past tense so who fucking knows what I’ll do with it now

6. Veela fic Draco pov

Curse my obsession with alternate povs of the same story and Draco for being such a good angsty pov

7. Veritaserum idea start

At least this one has ‘start’ in it so I know it is in fact a wip and not just an idea outline XD

7. Veritaserum

So, turns out I started that fic over in a new file and just left the old one lying around XD I do that too often. I should delete that other one...

Also...this better not turn into another ‘Amortentia’ with me unable to think of a fucking title and going with the file name because lame

This is also my first time trying to do god’s eye 3rd person instead of 3rd person pov...also first time trying to do this weird structure thing...I dunno but I like it XD

8. CTS followup

9. CTS sequel

Two separate followups set at different times in the same story verse... I hate myself. I love them both. I can’t pick which one to stop writing so I’m gonna keep them both around and try and make them merge at some point...

10. MMB saying sorry

11. another erase the shame

12. next erase the shame

I work on followups and lose interest so often (usually because people bug me for followups and I get very ‘fuck you’ about it and stop writing them...but I keep them around and tinker with them every now and then soooo they’re still technically wips

13. Tea and Coffee oneshot series (Tea and Coffee, Coffee and Dark Marks, The Cottage Kitchen, next untitled one)

There’s also a present tense version of the first one of those *sweats nervously* first 3 are finished, of course, but my original purpose is lost to them becoming a long fic soo....gonna merge them into one long fic soon...once I decide what tense I like better......kill me now

14. Communion of the Soul (folder name)

This is the sequel to One Touch and this is spread across 5 files because apparently I did that and even though each time I got to work on it I have to figure out which file holds which part of the sequel timeline and which I feel like working on...I have yet to merge them into one file to make my life easier...

15. Crumbling Facade

ugh working on this always makes me want to re-write restraint and actually put in the major plot line, or what was supposed to be Harry’s major plot line before the relationship crap got away from me and I had to cut out all the plot stuff because by the time I got around to addressing it, it started reading like a completely different fic and I had to cut a huge chunk and end it instead, because back then I sucked more than I do now and couldn’t juggle

sooo...I still work on this in starts and stops and then get frustrated for having to stick to Restraint’s chain of events when I have better ideas now for working in Harry’s plot about his damn magic problem and ARRGEHGEHGFVEDHDBVUIOFNBFKDB EFBVJ

I should just let Crumbling Facade take me where it wants to take me and fuck Restraint

16. Potter’s Insatiable Heart

This is my longest wip at 130k XD and I’m stalling now because if I keep going with it where I was intending to go it will end up my longest fic and I’m getting intimidated by the length and how much work it will be to edit that long of a fic so I just go in and write a few paragraphs now and again, get scared of the length and move on to another wip XD

I also periodically binge read this bitch because I love it to death even though it’s severely flawed XD

17. Corset Drarry

oh boy, when I started writing this this I was weirded out by writing a kink I didn’t understand and kind of tailed off and left it...then I did kinktober for voltron and now I’m laughing at myself because corsets and lingerie is so fucking tame after that kinktober list and all the the crap I wrote for it XD

18. Music in the Periphery

Emily bugs me about finishing this a lot...I bug me about finishing it, progress is non-existent because I have a clear plan for it and when I have a clear plan I can’t write for shit

19. Saying Sorry (Round 2) (MMB)

I gotta kick that habit of starting over with something but keeping the first attempt and still working on it parallel to the second attempt, because then I wind up with 2 fics too similar to each other to post both and I’m completely unable to pick which one I like more *facepalm*

Also, MMB is dead if I can’t stop turning the next fic attempts into angst, I just look at that big fluffy mess and want to angst it all up

20. scrapped MMB ficlets - theo’s letter

not technically drarry thought the greater series is drarry...torn between making it mmb or making it its own fic for a rare pair

21. Weather the Storm

*cries* my 6th year war au, I have such plans for this, but the plans get in the way of writing =(

22. Soulmate AU (folder name)

fucking hell, this is 10+ files and I’m not naming all of them, current count is 5 completed versions 60k+ each, 1 incomplete alternate version, all of which I’m seriously unsatisfied with, none of which I can bear to delete, all of which I periodically go and tinker with, thus leaving them all wips i’m such a fucking hoarder but also I have never gotten over all the awful comments that were on the original soulmate fic on ffnet before my purge and now I can’t ever be satisfied unless it is perfect and wont result in such horrible comments again

23. Turnabout (folder name)

Once again, multiple wips in here of the same 60k finished fic I’ve been unhappy with since the moment I finished it and keep trying to fix by starting over and changing things here and there to change the course of the story. Honestly ready to hit the delete button with this one unless my latest attempt pans out, liking it so far buuuut I’m a mess about my writing so who knows

In the Ways that Matter was based off this fic XD

24. Dependency

Oh boy, I abandoned this cos it was so dark I got too uncomfortable writing it...I’ve since started revisiting it after being in the Voltron fandom gave me a new tolerance range for dark content XD

Plan on posting this on anon if I ever finish it, obviously changing the title XD it stopped being relevant after the first 30k anyway

25. Dependency V2

LOL light version of the above that removes most of the dark aspects while maintaining the core plot, but I’m finding it a bit dull XD not sure how long I’ll keep trying to chug along with it

26. *censored title*

hahahaha omg why is this in a different subfolder, this is actually one of the soulmate au ones only it’s actually a spin off au of the original soulmate one I from ffnet and therefore it’s new ground and I’m less unhappy with it

.....I’m probably going to stop working on turnabout today and work on this instead now

(censoring the name because I might post this on anon because I’m too scared to post another drarry soulmate fic under my own name)

27. Retrospection

Sooo, I’m always on and off this fic cos it triggers my anxiety and depression, but fuck that I want to write it so I keep trying XD

I’m also thinking of splitting the two main plots and only going with 1 and using the other to write another story....see if that eases how difficult it is for me to write without self triggering

28. Sequel to mornings

29. Sunrise (loose prequel to mornings)

30. Surrender

I had no idea what this was, opened it and then holy shit THIS BITCH, THIS SLOW BURN FRIENDS TO LOVERS PIECE OF BULLSHIT. I DON’T WRITE SLOW BURN! I DON’T WRITE FRIENDS TO LOVERS. I REFUSE.

but also I really really really love what I wrote so far and now I’m itching to write more *cries* making this list is leaving me with so many open files to work on

31. day 2 ass worship

32. day 3 sensory deprivation

*laughs nervously* the kinktober oneshots that starting turning into a long fic hahahaha cos I really needed more wips

33. Perception of Angels

*wistful sigh* one day I will be able to finish a heavily plot driven story full of fantasy elements and creatures and magic I made up, and when that day somes, Perception of Angels....or that timetravel war au drarry fic idea I have sitting around.....which isn’t on this list only cos I’m not stupid enough to start writing it

So that’s all the drarry files in my wip folder.... I also have heaps more for other ships and fandoms, but I’m keeping that separate =)

And...now I have some writing to go do, cos after 2 months of being unable to write thanks to the bullshit in my life, I started binge writing again 2 days ago =) and opening a few of these to remind myself what they were has a lit a fire under my ass

#*#tag game #wip meme #i have too many wips #and this is only the drarry ones #and tbh there's another folder i didn't check because i'm pretending it doesn't exist #because they're all super plotty things and i do.not.have.the.time #i wish i could feel more secure in my writing so i could just post some of the completed things #and stop messing with them in a vain effort to make them perfect

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kudalyn · 6 years

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So I just read you're new fic and on top of being hot and steamy and AWESOME, ...I HAVE SO MANY QUESTIONS I MUST hear more! So obviously Yugi is a sorcerer of some kind but what is Atem? Some sort of transforming/transfiguration creature? Also, is Atem an empath? Or is he just keenly attuned to emotions via smell? How did they meet? What is their occupation? How did their bond grow? I MUST HAVE MORE

Thank you for liking it!! I’m glad you enjoyed!

While the AU’s story isn’t super fully developed, I have a good chunk of it worked out. I’ll share some stuff from some chatlog brainstorming for ya, cause it’s all I have time for with this story XDOne day it’d be nice to work out, but I got too many other long-fic writings on the go for me to juggle another unfortunately.

(First thing’s first: while the smutfic is a part of this AU, I started working on it BEFORE I fleshed out more of the world and storyline, so some parts of the smutfic might not fully line up with events in the storyline. it’s more of a ‘what-if’ almost, but I’m undecided on that. Just a heads up if you’re wondering where it is in the storyline.)

Atem is a conduit, a type of magical human-or-other who more channel elements and energies rather than manipulate them like wizards and other magic users. Conduits are usually very powerful but dangerous cause they can get overwhelmed by the natural magic current and cause destruction to themselves and others. normally conduits show their magic traits early on in life and are whisked away for strict training, or if need be, magical dampening. Atem never showed any magical inclination or skills, so it was assumed he was a non-magic.

But thru events in the story, turns out he’s not just a conduit, he’s a Demon Conduit, the most dangerous type and usually the type killed on sight instead of trained.

and because he was never trained and is naturally very powerful, he grabs the attention of a very powerful demon called Zorc, who uses his body and takes it over to come through to the physical plane. but before Zorc was able to fully take control of Atem or get anchored in the physical realm, Atem fights back and all but tears Zorc’s soul from his body, and from Zorc’s power, and casts his soul back into the demonic realm, leaving Atem with massive amounts of demonic power completely untrained.

Atem was about to be killed on the spot because of this (he had passed out right after) but Yugi rushed in, and despite the danger and consequences, blinked the two of them out from danger and now they’re fugitives

Conduits are fairly empathic to feelings but it’s more of a ‘hunch’ than anything direct, but Demon Conduits are much more sensitive since demons feed on human emotions and desires. It becomes almost a scent at that point, but with the extra effect of osmosis-through-touch that can be overwhelming to the untrained.

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The AU starts out with Yugi and Atem being kiddos and friends in a small village. they’re fast friends, almost to the point that Atem is possessive over Yugi. as they get a bit older, Yugi starts showing magical attributes and promise, and as a result has to leave their village to go to the city for training, because the village doesn’t have any magical teachers.

Atem is, of course, incredibly upset and angry about it, to the point he convinces Yugi and him to try and run away together so they wont be separated. they get into trouble in the forest, and Yugi ends up saving the both of them with his magic instinctively. They are found and taken home, and Atem has to confront his possessiveness and the fact he will be losing his best friend for possibly years (its rare for magic academies to let students visit home during their training)

Yugi promises that no matter how long it takes he will come back for Atem. He thinks he’d be gone for at most a few years, but Atem knows that Yugi’s got too much promise for that and it will take a lot longer. They promise to write to each other at least, and Yugi is taken to the city leaving Atem alone (he doesnt have many other friends because he was a little hellion as a kid aka a milder season 0 almost)

Years pass, and Atem grows up without Yugi. It becomes really sour at one point when some of his distant family moves to the village, one of them being Mahad who is an excellent magical teacher. Atem rues that if he had moved there just a few years earlier then Yugi wouldn’t have had to leave, but things happen.

Atem eventually warms up to him, and his cousin Mana (who is far too loud and bubbly for his tastes but he gets used to it)Also Atem is kind of seen as a minor disappointment in his family of magic users, for he shows absolutely no inclination for magic at all, something else he’s bitter about. He tried for years to get magic to work for him, but it never did, so he kind of grows to hate it. He also becomes rather sharp and gets a bit of a gambling addiction (and minor love of alcohol) to the point he’s known in the region for some not so nice things. Nothing that would get him killed or arrested, but he’s not allowed in quite a few taverns for multiple reasons.

Over the years he stopped returning Yugi’s letters, and eventually stopped opening them even, bitter about the separation and feeling betrayed the longer Yugi never comes back for him. He never got rid of them, buried in the bottom of a chest in his room, but he’s too hurt to open them Also he could never lie to Yugi, and is somewhat ashamed of how he’s turned out, and doesnt want Yugi to see who he’s turned into.

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One year atem is visited by someone, and at first he’s rather blunt and rude to them, but turns out, it’s Yugi!! who he hardly recognized over the years until he got a good look at him, and oh jeese he’s cute

Yugi is a proficient magic user now, highly skilled and powerful using multiple magics thanks to his rareish open affinity to magic (most of the time it’s skewed to one speciality or another)It took him some time to untangle himself from the academy because they didnt want to let go of such a valuable student, but once he was deemed fully trained and free to research on his own he immediately aimed for his old home.Ends up dragging along a boorish and snobby prodigy called Seto who he somehow managed to befriend in some form of another, partly because the academy ordered Seto to go with Yugi for protection, partly cause Seto wanted to to stay by his friend (mokuba is back home studying himself so he’s safe)Atem’s floored by Yugi, ashamed of himself and is royally pissed towards Seto, kind of avoids Yugi as much as he can at first. Not like he can clean up his reputation even if he wanted to, and he doesn’t have much to his name besides being the best gambler in the region.Yugi sticks to him like a dustbunny attracted by static, you brush it off and it sticks to your hand no matter how much you wave it around

Yugi was a bit hurt by atem not returning his letters, but assumed it was for a good reason. Is more hurt when he learns that Atem stopped replying for multiple reasons, and is determined to help Atem shine again. He made a promise and by gum he will stick to it, he missed atem dearly.Atem’s hopelessly entranced by Yugi but constantly tries to detach himself. Its a very stubborn tug of war of wills until Atem eventually relents in an angry bout of yelling of how much he hates himself and how Yugi’s better off anywhere but with him, and Yugi helps piece Atem together and try to put him on the right path again.

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I havent quite decided on the trigger that will be Atem being discovered as a demon conduit, but it’d be pretty big. Possibly him constantly being around such powerful magic users, combined with possibly a trip to the city? Which would be drenched in magic and loosening the locks on his power. Also the emotional draining he’d go through first with Yugi and then being in the city around so many people all so full of themselves and looking down on non-magics (like him) that it’d probably bring back his old desperate wish for magical power, and that would be what Zorc would take advantage of.

The event would be explosive, not like in the middle of town but he’d be with at least Yugi, Seto, and some other characters when it happened. He’d be [] this close to being lost before hauling himself back from the brink through pure willpower and rage at something taking advantage of him, and would split Zorc asunder and absorb his demonic energy because that is his body, by thunder, gtfo

Atem collapses outright after it happens, his body slowly turning human back from its shifted hulking form that Zorc forced it in to, and Seto steps up absolutely ready to obliterate Atem on the spot. He’s far too dangerous to be allowed to exist, particularly so close to the capital and other sources of magic, and he’s never liked Atem anyways.

Yugi dashes in front of him, up to Atem, trying to get him to wake up. Atem’s out cold and trying to move him is like trying to carry a load of sopping towels. Seto demands Yugi move, or do the dirty work himself, because he knows Yugi knows Atem is dangerous.

Yugi refuses, and despite knowing the consequences, blinks the both of them away from the spot and out to who knows where before Seto or anyone else can stop themThus begins Yugi and Atem’s life as fugitives, because Atem won’t be allowed to live and Yugi would be imprisoned and have his magic sealed for treachery.

I got a bit more brainstormed out after this, like some more of Atem and Yugi’s bond forming, their life on the run, but you gotta send another ask for those deets~

#this is 99% copypasted from chatlogs so its a bit messy sorry #kudask #magic au #ygo #i like how this au is turning out but I just dont got the tiem to work on it #gah #skyisthelimit112 #kudawrite

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plinys · 7 years

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/shrieks/ next gen shenanigans tho preferably with lyrasaac and alfrozeo

weLP SO THIS IS JUST ALFROZEO WHICH ACTUALLY, i kinda gave them a better ship name in fic cause i had an idea. anyways literally anyone other than @ophvelias this wont make any sense and really there is no way to put any context on this, its like two fitz au next gen im sorry

The best part of being in love with your best friend is that there’s absolutely no way to tell them without ruining everything.

Especially when said best friend was more than likely straight. Ninety-five percent at least.

There was that time watching Star Wars when LBJ said that he would do Han Solo but that doesn’t count.

Everyone would do Han Solo.

It’s a fact.

Wanting to have passionate sex on the Millennium Falcon while a galactic sex icon calls you princess does not make you gay.

Or…

Well…

The point was Alfie has been out since he was ten, a glorious moment covered in bright blue paint from redecorating his bedroom for the eight time where he accidentally said, I think I like boys out loud and his dad was like same.

He came out to his best friend a week later, making sure to specify, but like not you, so that things wouldn’t be weird.

And they weren’t.

They hadn’t been weird.

They haven’t been weird for years.

Until some superhero got the wrong idea, which may have been Alfie’s fault.

But in his defense, he called everyone ‘babe’ and the fact that he and LBJ took daily snapchats together was because they were best friends. Just that him being a known gay artistic icon and taking frequent photos with a known superhero without any public attachments didn’t help. And once the media got ahold of it, the whole thing had been impossible to stop.

They had a ship name.

They trended on twitter almost weekly.

#ALFITE

Which really was just a sign that LBJ needed a better superhero name than Frostbite but -

“We meet again.”

Alfie doesn’t both hiding his groan, speaking of terrible super names.

“You’re going to have to stamp my frequent kidnapping card,” Alfie says.

“Your what?”

He digs into his pocket for his wallet, pulling out a bright blue card with the words frequent kidnappee across the front of it. It was Vic’s idea, said between wheezing laughs the last time they’d all been hanging out, and it had been going surprisingly well.

Every supervillain had just seemed to accept it so far.

“When I get twenty you guys have to let me have a day off,” Alfie continues, watching as Carjack stamps his card and hand it back, before having his henchman throw a bag over his head.

When did the frequently getting kidnap thing before familiar?

Easily almost.

He prefered it to the ongoing suggestion of his younger brother to actually tell LBJ his feelings. Like? Why mention how he feels? When he could instead get kidnapped and avoid all conversations of feelings?

A much better plan.

And really Isaac couldn’t talk.

Nobody in this family could.

Well, maybe Peggy but it wasn’t like he was about to listen to her.

Nobody listened to Peggy.

It was known.

Getting shuffled around by a supervillain isn’t so bad. Sure they take him to some scary warehouse, and tie him up (which sucks because live tweeting his kidnappings usually gain him a big boost of followers) and make all kinds of empty threats.

It’s kinda of interrupting his lunch plans and his stomach reminds him of that fact grumbling loud enough that one of the henchmen shoot him a look , but those lunch plans were with LBJ which means the likelihood of his best friend coming to rescue him sooner rather than later.

Especially since there’s a camera broadcasting live across the city being shoved in his face and an order to beg for his life.

Which Alfie doesn’t do on principal.

Instead he lets out an almost bored sigh, and says, “Hey babe, if you haven’t left the sandwich shop can you pick up my usual before coming to rescue me? Also one of those fizzy pops?”

Getting slapped for his insolence is oddly expected and his only real though is hoping that it doesn’t bruise because it would mess up his aesthetic.

He doesn’t bother to listen as the supervillain of the week going on his usual nonsense Carjack is going on and on about, it doesn’t really matter, because Alfie doesn’t have to wait too long for the warehouse to get a shade colder than usual, the only warning they have before LBJ and a team of SHIELD agents burst into save the day.

One of the plus sides of fake dating his superhero best friend and coming from a family of SHIELD agents was that he was the first person attended to, freed from the ropes holding by an agent that he most certainly remembers the name of from his sister’s stories.

“Davis, right?”

“Let me get you to safety, Mr. FItz-Simm-”

“Alfie, for fuck’s sake,” he says, because last names were terrible and he was not old enough to be a Mr. “And, I’m fine, I’ll wait for Frostbite.”

There was something about it, about watching LBJ get his superhero on and like, it wasn’t like Alfie wasn’t aware that he was gay and crushing on his best friend, but seeing him fight off bad guys to save him, was something else.

His kink.

And apparently a good chunk of the country’s kink because Alfie has definitely found fanfiction of himself. And read it outloud dramatically with voices to LBJ while drunk. And enjoy it.

Not that admitting that would be cool.

He tugs his phone up from his pocket to catch a few choice shots of it on camera, tweeting one out with the caption my hero, noticing that he’s already trending.

Someone whose display name reads A Known Alfie Stan has tweeted hoping that he does get his sandwich, which reminds him -

“Hey babe, about lunch-”

“Not the time, Alfie,” LBJ says, in the middle of freezing a bad guy.

“So is that a no on the sandwich or-”

“Alfie!”

“I’m going to tweet frowny face emojis,” Alfie says, doing so, pointedly. “A hundred and forty of them.”

“Be my guest?”

Because that’s their friendship. Emojis and bad jokes and Alfie trying to insist that this is all a joke and definitely not something more.

No sir.

He’s on the sixty-third emoji when the last of the bad guys fall and his phone is removed from his hands unceremoniously, and - “Hey!”

“Stop being a dick.”

“I have never in my life been a dick,” Alfie insists which is a bold face lie and they both know it.

Everyone knows it.

The random SHIELD agents in the background know it.

People in alternate universes know it.

“Your sandwich is in my backpack.”

“Wow, I love you, are you aware,” Alfie says, because saying it like this like a joke is easier than admitting the truth.

And it earns him one of LBJ’s little half smiles. The ones that just belong to him. One that’s part of this whole little joke.

The joke that will have LBJ slinging his arm over Alfie’s shoulders when they step out of the warehouse into the waiting eyes of the paparazzi. That will lead to a kiss being pressed to the side of his head and Alfie trying his best to hold it together. That will lead to Alfie needs to take a break for this universe for a few hours to get his thoughts in order.

Because what else was he supposed to do.

When his best friend was so much more than just that.

#two fitz au next gen #what the fuck do i even tag this it isnt even a real fic or ship wow #alfite #thats their new ship name #wow i hate these kids #lbj #alfie fs #ophvelias #asks

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How did you come up with the Rivals AU? I mean at what moment did you think "Man, do you know what this show needs? More drama, angst and heartache." Don't get me wrong, I love your story to pieces, but where did you get your inspiration for it? (I don't know if you've answered this already, so feel free to ignore this ask)

Well, it all kind of started off at around episode 8. I had been watching the show since the second episode but before ep8 I had been having an internal war with myself over whether I should start writing fic for it or not (which mainly consisted of the rational part of my brain being like ‘you’re a med student, you don’t have time, don’t even think about it’ and the impulsive half of my brain being like ‘but i waaaaant to’). Then episode 8 came out and I was always really really fascinated by Viktor’s motivations (as this was pre episode 10 and it was all still a big mystery) so I wrote a short character study based on what I thought that night and uploaded it. And from there I was sort of like, well, I’ve started writing now so I might as well just keep going.

After that, once I had decided that writing for this fandom was something I was going to do, I sat down and did a brainstorm of all the different fics I would potentially want to write. One of the things I’ve always really loved it changing character dynamics and so having an AU where Viktor and Yuuri were rivals was one of the very early things on the list. It actually got put to one side for quite a while though because they are such a loving couple in the show and I just could not figure out how to make them hate each other without making it ooc.

Then a little while later I had tried my hand at writing a couple of other AU snippets but I kept coming back to the rivals concept as at that point as far as I was aware there were no rivals fics in the fandom and I love a challenge. So I sat down to brainstorm how I could possibly turn the cute fluffy Viktuuri we know on it’s head into a bitter rivalry.

I’ve always been a big fan of the ‘for want of a nail’ trope and so I knew that it was going to have to be a ‘one event changes everything’ kind of fic. Eventually I came up with the idea of Yuuri growing up wanting to beat Viktor instead of idolising him and the concept of how that would happen through Viktor being unintentionally rude and insulting (because come on, in the show he says exactly what he thinks and it is not always a good thing. And he spends a significant chunk of the first few episodes calling Yuuri a piggy which like, dude, insulting much?) So yeah, that’s where the initial concept for the catalyst scene came from.

After that I sat down and planned out the story chapter by chapter because I wanted to explore how Yuuri would change as a character while still staying essentially the same person and how I could develop their relationship in a completely different way.

But oh man. Then came episode ten. I think I had just written chapter 2? Maybe? It was very early on anyhow and episode 10 was a GAME-CHANGER for this fic. If you saw my initial plan vs my revised plan you would understand what I’m talking about because episode 10 changed everything, especially in the characterisations of Viktor and Yuuri. Because suddenly we went from ‘mysterious guy who goes to coach Yuuri on a whim’ to ‘love-sick idiot who fell in love with a drunk guy after spending a few hours with him and flew halfway across the world to be with him’ and suddenly you realise just how much of an unreliable narrator Yuuri was being about his own life and about Viktor.

And so I sat down and revised everything. The major plot points all essentially stayed the same but all the program music changed, the characters in the later chapters changed and Viktor in the fic changed most of all. I wont say any more because I’m veering slightly into spoiler territory for the companion fic and all that but basically episode 10 turned umfb into the fic it is today. And probably most importantly in terms of the fic it cemented the idea that Yuuri is an unreliable narrator of his own life which (while present in the original concept plan) suddenly became a hinge on which the whole fic swung.

I love love LOVE writing the unreliable narrator as it’s such a balancing act of the audience understanding why someone is thinking they way they do and sympathising with their POV and giving enough hints to show them what is really going on without saying anything too explicitly. And I adore Yuuri as a character as he is so complex and layered and flawed and he’s just the perfect person to write in that way.

So yeah, initially this fic was meant to let me explore how to flip such a cute fluffy relationship into the exact opposite while keeping it true to the characters and it all evolved from there into the monster of a fic it is today.

#until my feet bleed and my heart aches #replies #colormadbusybody

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1989dreamer · 5 years

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2018 Stat Breakdown

I’ve been trying to finish a story or at least write something, get some more stories posted before the end of the year. . . It’s not going so well right now.

So, today is going to be the end of the year stat breakdown (if I do end up posting something else, the stats will be updated).

In 2018:

I have added: 338,462 words

Posted: 42 new stories (41 if you count that Raw? No. was posted on Tumblr first last year--these are my AO3 stats, so I’m counting it).

Participated in: a Fandom Trumps Hate auction, finished my FLPR auction from last year, wrote two donation gifts for Fandom Cares auctions did Nanowrimo, and submitted three pieces (2 art, 1 fic) for Sterek Reversebang’s 2018 event.

I also learned how to make my own .gifs (which I added to my SRB art posts on AO3).

While 2018 wasn’t as productive for me as I’d hoped, I also was more productive than in other years.

I added a total of 113 chapters with an average of 2995.24 words per chapter (although 10 of those chapters held no words at all, so the average was actually 3286.04 words)

I wrote 133% more words (so 33% of 253,694 on top of 253,694). (Can someone please double check this math? It’s making my head hurt right now.)

A big chunk of my productivity loss can be blamed on the fact that I moved. I took a step down in position in my career that ended up being a pay raise. This ate up my September and October. I was able to get back on track in November and in fact, from October 31st through December 25th, I was able to post 61,604 words with 28 chapters (three chapters of which were for I Miss You, a story from previous years).

On average, I posted 28,205.17 words per month, and there was never a month that I didn’t post something. I spread my wings a little bit by posting stories from new-old fandoms (I was really into Jackie Chan Adventures when I was younger, I watched White Collar during its actual run, and I enjoyed the movies The Millionaire Tour and The Mechanic enough to want to write and read fanfic for them. I didn’t get to post anything for Star Trek Voyager this year, but that’s okay. There’s always next year).

I appreciate the people who have taken the time to follow me here, and I appreciate all the people who want to (and do) read my stories.

Now, for the personal part. Under the cut for length.

I feel I should at least explain why I added another pseud to my AO3 authors (What-s_Happened_Now). Back in July, I applied for a position that guaranteed that I would have to move away from where I’ve lived most my life. I had an interview in August, and then was hired fully in September. Big news. I needed to pack my things, figure out a living situation, learn the area to commute to work if needed (and it was needed), and set up my jobs (one of which was in the field I got the job for, one of which was not) so that I wouldn’t be missed much.

All of the preparations made me extremely stressed. I was crying because I couldn’t take my cats with me, I wasn’t sleeping, I had no appetite, I could not focus on anything (I think it began showing in my work too).

And then, someone on Tumblr posted a random bit of advice (either with or without the .gifs that go with it. I’ve seen it both ways) about eating hash brownies.

You know the one. Naboo imparting wonderful wisdom that Bollo promptly ignores.

And I thought to myself: I’ve seen that somewhere. But where? I was able to quickly find out that it was from The Mighty Boosh. Around this time as well, I’d stumbled on the Big Fat Quiz of the Year--2017 or so, I think. And away it went. Just, whoosh. The Boosh became something that could calm me down and make my eye stop twitching (one of my major signs of stress), and I spent much of the time I wasn’t getting ready to move watching episodes and looking up things as I am wont to do when I find an obsession.

Poor TLM had to endure the sudden influx of Boosh on top of Teen Wolf and I think she was secretly glad that she had a finish line in sight for when I would stop bothering her with things she didn’t care about.

The Boosh was not new to me in one sense: I had caught flashes of it when I was in college--I watched far more television and far more late night television in college than I did during any other part of my life. I watch quite a bit of stuff now, but it’s in less than ten minute chunks and I get bored easily, bouncing about to thing after thing.

(Don’t ever tell Julian Barratt that his character was the only one I didn’t remember from my late night browsing 😏.)

Before I moved, I ordered the special edition DVDs and the radio series. Both arrived before I had to move. I have listened to the radio series nearly ten times (probably more; I can quote it and sometimes will just sit and replay it in my head), and I’ve watched most of the episodes at least twice. I’ve gone over the live shows, the behind the scenes, interviews, all that jazz that normally (here’s an oddity) I never do for shows or things I like. I can’t watch interviews normally. I don’t like listening to people speak, but there is something captivating about the Boosh crew (except for Rich Fuller, like him well enough, can’t watch his interviews without cringing) that makes their interviews another performance.

I likely will not start posting Boosh things here just because I’m becoming more apathetic toward Tumblr, but some things may trickle through, and I want everyone to know right now: I do not apologize for that. I am aware of the problematic issues in the Boosh and with certain Boosh things. But I am not sorry that I am attached to it and that it is an outlet for my stress.

Thank you to anyone who made it this far!

Happy reading and happy new year!

(Also, I still have AO3 invites if someone wants one.)

1989dreamer out

#2018 Stats #Stats! Stats! Stats! Everybody!#About Me #Personal

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