#which made it even more disappointing

[whatsinmypen]

Nothing compares to the disappointment of getting a REALLY NICE, REALLY PRETTY notebook and finding out the paper is very much not fountain pen friendly.

#devasted tbh #for once not about Moleskine #which made it even more disappointing #whatsinmypen #paper talk #fountain pen #fountain pen network

[varilien]

welp that's a wrap for this year ig. it's funny i think this year would have been another oops all trigun except that whenever i got really super busy FAR too busy to make trigun art i did usually end up doodling something else lmao

december's spot is @stardvst-diving's lysithea :)

#art summary #2023 summary of art #2023 art summary #txt #honestly. i think this is the first year in a long time where i really don't feel that happy with the progress i've made with my art #like in 2020 i finally got comfortable with drawing digitally after SO MANY YEARS of chipping away at it #and 2021 i finally pinned down some stylistic choices i enjoy working with and figured out how to color #and 2022 i mostly just pushed the limits of what ''finishing'' art even looks like for me #since in the past i'd tend to leave everything pretty half baked #2023 was SUPPOSED to be the year i started into things like comics and composition and increasing dynamism #but i think mostly i just ended up hammering out more stuff in regards to color and line confidence #which are both good. i'm glad i made that progress #but it's a little disappointing i didn't finish the year with the specific takeaways i'd gone into it wanting to have #sighhhhhh maybe next year idk

[ofswordsandpens]

rereading the tartarus chapters is really doing something to my mental health... I can't tell if its good or bad but it's definitely doing something

#LOOK IM OBSESSED #Riordan really really really made Percy go unhinged and it was so tasty so scrumptious so delicious #which just makes what Riordan did with Percy's character in boo even more disappointing

[rin-hanarin]

Sometimes I realize how much self-indulgent dirkjohn I made and it's like. Genuinely impressive to me. I'm impressed by my own art/fic and even analysis posts because damn, I miss my own energy, you mean I was able to just make shit up because I tend to be a little bit bonkers when I'm really passionate about something? For real?

#i did it with other things too but dirkjohn is one thing that keeps coming back when i least expect #they live in my head like freeloaders and never leave #just get quiet until i think about them literally out of nowhere #i was kinda spacing out in a bus the other day because there wasn't much to look at #and BOOM suddenly I intercept a dirkjohn braincell #they were talking about how to break the news about their relationship to the others btw #today I thought about earth c john accidentally conditioning dirk to be more honest #which just made dirk speak his mind and be a little more snarky in conversations he'd normally overthink in one way or another #john enjoys the mutual teasing and banter with this slightly more bitchy dirk who doesn't hold himself back #but other people like dave and jake aren't exactly prepared for his douche side even though they're supposed to be #but dirk was too afraid to disappoint them in any way #so he was actively biting his tongue on many occasions #dirk's most honest thoughts are mixed blessings #...and here's what I mean by 'freeloaders' #they just live their lives in my head #good for them #dirkjohn

[feelingtheaster99]

I finally finished the end of the last season of Teen Wolf this week, and I almost wish I didn’t because I think the Season 6A plot would’ve been a better ending

#teen wolf #stiles stilinski #scott mccall #like stiles and Scott’s friendship is so CORE to the show #and they barely even talk in the final episode #stiles is back which is so exciting but he doesn’t serve a PURPOSE in thr ep #he like gets jealous of Jackson and cries pathetically in a flashback #stiles deserved better #he deserved waaaay better for a final arc conclusion #also like the ONLY relationship that was active and didn’t get air time was stiles and Lydia #alsk ​the ONLY one that is still existing that was present in episode one #it’s just rude and an INJUSTICE to their character relationships in all regards #also like I did not get the idea of fear affecting the town and making people turn on the pack #and tamora Monroe’s backstory made NO SENSE #ugh the whole thing was AGGRAVATING and episode 10 would have been a MUCH better ending #lydia martin #stydia #Tamora Monroe #teen wolf salt #teen wolf season 6 #teen wolf series finale #riders on the storm #the wolves of war #also ALSO! bringing Gerard back again was annoying #and you know who I wanted to see again #ISSAC! #I cared WAY more about Issac getting an ending than Jackson and Ethan wtf #sorry I’m just feeling my feelings I do like the show in general but I had put off watching season 6B for so long and it was disappointing #dylan o'brien

[trixstriforce]

botw was a good story about coping w/ tragedy, the dangers of expectations and pedestals, and how to live after disaster

totk could have been such a good story about generational trauma, coming to terms w/ grief, and how to really on others after a life time of being alone but it just...wasnt. it had so much potential to build on the themes of botw and give a good thematic close to zelda and link's archs and it set all that up but just...did not

#loz #tears of the kingdom #man its jsut! everybody and their mother knows the game was disappointing #but ti had SO MUCH POTENTIAL it set up some rlly good stuff but just left it there #zelda and link both were in opposite positions!!! zelda was finally in a supportive environment and leaning how to be confident #only to have that support system ripped away and be forced to lose her fmaily AGAIN #link was self isloating chasing the barest rumor of zelda focused on HER. in botw he barely thought about her but in totk? #in totk most quests were focused on that quest or improving hyrule in some way #he slowly is building a support system even as he self isolates as hyrule comes together as a community and link SHOULD have learned to rel #more on those around him who also missed zelda and wanted to help. they set that shit up. but he didnt!!! #he was alone in a crowd! and zelda was vindicated in her belief that she can only help those around her through sacrifice #and that her own abilities were rlly not important compared to link which is A WEIRD FUCKING MOVE NINTENDO MADE #erm anyway yeah waitng for the totk rewrite fic to drop and give me everything i need and more #trix posts

[widowshill]

r/v + loneliness.

102 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch. 4 / 4 / 8 / Art Wallace, Shadows on the Wall / 603 / Daphne du Maurier, Rebecca, ch 4. / 473 / Richard Sherman, Demo: "Lovely, Lonely Man/Chitty Chitty Bang Bang Finale" / 2

#➤ roger collins & victoria winters. ┊ pain sometimes precedes pleasure，miss winters. #➤ edits & art. ┊ the evans cottage art gallery. #compilation tag #idk I have just been Thinking about this since that gifset lol. #‘I’ll blame it on you‚’ she says — because you are the one who has brought me here‚ she thinks #because she seems to anticipate even in their first meeting that she will play Eyre and he Rochester. #there had better be many more such tête-à-tête’s on the cliff side or she’ll be terribly disappointed ! #[and not only cliffside proselytizing: barging into her room at all hours‚ chasing her around town‚ dragging her bodily into the drawing #room‚ and‚ occasionally on a good day‚ an actual genuine date or a meal sometime.] #Roger has –– in theory –– everything that she wants. a family‚ a home‚ a wife and child‚ history and ancestry! boy does he have that! #and yet he is terribly terribly alone in this well he has poisoned. #(from which‚ I might add‚ vicki drinks greedily.) #''What do you want out of life?'' when he's already achieved (or so it appears on the outside) the midcentury blazon of success: #a family‚ a well-to-do office position at which he really does nothing‚ a succession of american-made sports cars. #he may be separated from his wife but together‚ he and elizbeth and david and carolyn form a mimetic image of the nuclear family. #to which vicki is desperate to grasp onto‚ even in its most nightmarish form‚ whether or not she realizes that's why she stays. #but what does he want? he wants the same thing she wants. love and companionship. (that he hasn't yet ruined. that he can't stop ruining.) #she may not precisely understand his type of loneliness but she knows about loneliness among people. she's lived it. #and she knows too about ... a visceral loneliness pushing you to push people even further away (as in the childhood story she tells david). #so she sees through his fronts a lot of the time‚ whether they be a layer of charm‚ or terror. and boy does he hate that. being seen for #something real. where his actions matter and produce consequences. where feeling is real – good or bad. #the little governess and her capacity to find shadows to throw light on! whether they be locked chambers in the basement or the atria.

[justworthlessreblogs]

i think i've finally settled on my feelings on ciel as a character which is that the writers kinda fucked her over. i don't hate her but i do hate how she was utilized after 23 (which is to say... not really all that much?)

#episodes 19-23 (first half) ciel you will always be the realest to me i love you so much #post 23 she has literally Nothing. no arc at all. even her sendoff episode is more about rio than her #despite elisio's entire plan hinging on dragging HER into the darkness? but unlike the other cures we don't even see the story get close #to that happening which is a huge disappointment. 41 in general is very much a mixed bag for me and i think the lack of #any substantial payoff for ciel (and rio but this post is not about him) is a big part of why i feel that way #ciel is given a conflict but in the end it doesn't even fucking matter because it works out perfectly in the end for her #just like every other conflict she has. it's very frustrating especially when compared to the other cures #this all plays into my 'the Coma(TM) was the worst decision the writers could've made' thesis #precure critical #(just covering my bases) #sorry for being a little negative tonight but it's been on my mind for a while

[btm-txt]

✨Me and Moonwatcher got a lil hype to watch the Knuckles series last night. Gave me something to chuckle at while I rest my angry wrist.💖

#knuckles series #please be nice to Moonwatcher he has't gotten his visor yet 🥺 #❗️HEY YOU! Have a stretch break!! do iit!! its good for ya❣️ #came into the show thinking it was going to be trash and found myself pleasantly surprised at how much I laughed at it #even my partner who has no interest in animated/cartoon media laughed at it #two autistic men having the adventure of a lifetime ft. daddy issues is it's own fucking mood and I'm here for it #honestly I give it a 7 out of 10 needs more Knuckles #but then again I was zooted af when watching it which made it A LOT funnier #probably wouldn't watch it sober #definitely would watch it tripping balls #Knuckles looks so gosh darn adorable I just wanted to reach into the screen and squish his lil face X3 #honestly the only off putting thing I disliked about the show was the religious/political propaganda they tried to shoehorn in there #but not one bit surprising considering it's American corporate television #yet still disappointing -shrug- #at least I got what I wanted out of the show after all... that sweet sweet DILF echidna 😍 #actually nvm 6 out of 10 needs more Pachacamac #btm-txt #irl? #why the fuck was Kid Cudi there??? #anyways enough rambles...if you made it this far don't forget to hydrate along with those stretches #take care of yourself #love you💖

[lion-buddy]

being the resident nezuko liker is such a challenge sometimes

#ooo these tags contain complaining if u dont like that then see ya around <3 #i would love to scroll through the tag without being bombarded by. awfulness. both bot and fandom posted #yknow. yknow. that is a 12 yr old #it has become!!! genuinely frustrating! it always has been #and i dont mean to complain but. man. im just disappointed #and.while kinda begin the kny mascot she is barley present in fan made content. with meaning. and its all mostly reposted art ugh. #and even official stuff has her only as little child nezuko and!! i get it its cute whatever but it feel so pandery and wrong all the time #i just poitn. that is not her that is a facet u r choosign to hyperfocus on show me the real her #and lets be honest the og stroyline isnt kind to her etiher she is nonexistent after swordsmith #i remember for a time when idid post abt her i was one of the inly consistent nezuko artists who wanted to like. put her in scenarios #and i want reiterate again that drawing cute art and gifs of her is fine it doesnt hurt anyone. i love to see it actually #but like. in a fandom as big as this youd think. youd think they like her more!!!! but no #and. the last thing i want to insinuate is “if u dont like my fav character then u suck” cus thats is not how fandom content works. at all #fandom is a experience for u to cultivate for yourself. and sometimes it just comes up short!!! i guess #it jsut felt weird being lonely in your liking of an aspect of the series where there are so many ppl. yet they all only like the hot men. #which again. u do u. nothign wrong with it. its anime afterall. it can just be frustrating sometimes. #idk! im also not very social so maybe its just my fault but. man. id love to find some other resident nezuko likers that. isnt just shippin #i feel interacting would be so much easier if my fav was like. one of the main boys like everyone else. or i made ship content or somethin #but like i said fandom is for u and u only if that makes sense. the point is to create things u want to see. which is what i do and enjoy #just with nezuko specifcally. i dotn want to put my stuff of her in the tags anymore cuz i just. dont trust the fandom with her. its weird #but also. appreciate those who did interact. i hope ur all doing alright <3 ty for talkign with me :] #i just needed to get this out cuz its. kinda why i dotn post abt kny anymore. especially the s3 fandom im sorry i just dont vibe with it </

[babylon5]

im gonna be real with you,

#i found out i cant go to the concert ive been looking forward to since December #for a band that has meant everything to me since i was 13 #because the shuttle isnt accessible like it claimed to be and we have a 10 minute walk from its dropoff location #which i can do in a wheelchair but my mom cannot #and my able bodied cousin swore she'd take me she said absolutely she would take me!! and then she said oops nevermind Last Week. #my mom made new plans to take me and this was a FUCKTON of money lost because she bailed on us #and now my mother is crying because my cousin still hasnt paid back any of the money we lent her years ago #and now we've just lost more #and im on disability the only one here with an income btw lol what we spent was half my monthly paycheck!! #im tired of this world not being accessible to the disabled #im tired of people disappointing me on purpose #she didnt even bail to us directly she had her mother (my moms sister who have a deeply uncomfortable relationship) call my mom and inform- #her that her daughter was suddenly bailing because she doesnt like concerts ?!? after promising multiple times?? ok. #sorry this is an insane vent im just. IM TIRED. I am so tired. #it was supposed to be the first good and genuinely fun day for me in months.

[ivan-fyodorovich-k]

Observing the ever-increasing contempt and hostility towards the human species as a species, as unusually or even uniquely contemptible, evil, disgusting, irrelevant, vermin-like, destructive, meaningless, pointless, deserving of death and ruin, etc., I am reminded that the Genesis account of human origins as purposeful, of humans as made in the image of God, and benevolent, and an object and subject of love, is actually in its way rather radical

#I disremember the tradition but a competing near-eastern account had humans as made essentially as slaves for the gods #but fucked up in that rather modest capacity and generally a cosmic disappointment #the idea of human beings as uniquely wretched and miserable is pretty widespread in the cultures of the near east and antiquity #so in a way the post-Christian West is returning to form #shedding Christianity will not create a less cruel civilization #nor will it make a more optimistic one #more rational in a sense perhaps but reason that follows pagan assumptions leads to places that Westerners have found dark for a long time #though I suppose considering the cruelty of such systems cruel will become a matter of perspective #cruel by the light of Christianity perhaps #but in a true post-Christendom #in which the moral universe of Christianity is finally and truly abandoned #all kinds of things could come to seem normal and even fitting #perhaps slavery will return as an open and unembarrassing institution #castes and stratification an obvious condition of reality

[codenamesazanka]

I feel for Shoji. I really do. And I get where Shoji is coming from.

Shoji doesn’t have seemed to forgive his town, only let go of his resentment. Shoji wants to make the world better. Shoji understands the anger and pain the heteromorphs feel, he doesn’t at all deny their feelings or experiences; he only wants them to channel it into something less chaotic and more productive. He doesn’t want anyone to get hurt, and he knows neither do the rioters. He’s got an eye out for how heteromorphs will be represented and portrayed, and it’s a somber, realistic take.

Most of all, though, he’s not trying to solve the discrimination issue, he’s just trying to stop the rioters, especially because he cannot afford to let the revolt be exploited by a Demon King trying to usher in a thousand years of darkness. What can be said in a situation like that? If I was in his shoes, trying to find a way to stop a revolt, I don’t know if I can. I’ll probably resort to rhetoric too, appealing to emotion. Please stop. This is a hospital. There could be collateral damage. No one wants that.

(This argument probably would’ve worked better if it didn’t seemed like such an underhanded move by the Heroes. The facts are:

Kurogiri is at Central Hospital. He has to be there because it seems that’s the only place they can do recovery research on him.

Heroes knew AFO will try to retrieve Kurogiri.

Heroes knew about a “call to action,” that a group of heteromorphs are going after the hospital.

They knew the hospital will be targeted by the riot specifically because Kurogiri is held there—

But for some reason they decided not to move Kurogiri elsewhere and make AFO redirect the mob, now nor they they decided to evacuate the hospital despite having days beforehand to do so.

Perhaps the Heroes underestimated the number of heteromorphs that would join in the fight. They can point out Kurogiri is in the Research Building that’s separate from the Patient Ward so maybe the mob would spare that part of the hospital. They can even say the Heroes were hoping the heteromorphs would refrain from attacking the hospital because they trusted in the heteromorphs’ better natures, which is nice of them! But, objectively, planning-for-worst-case-scenario-ly, goal-is-minimizing-the-amount-of-damage-ly, this-probably-won’t-happen-but-let’s-be-extra-careful-ly they really wanted to risk that? Apparently they did.)

But Shoji’s words still ultimately fall flat for me because he’s not actually proposing any change at all, not a hint of it. The rioters are there because they want something, anything to change. Shoji essentially tells them to endure nobly, without promising anything will be different at all. He’s just a kid, sure, he can’t make any promises, but unfortunately he is a Hero student (soldier) representative of the establishment. When he took up that mantle, he’s gotta answer for the system that had promised it would protect and save its all citizens but failed to do so. (In fact they might have enabled viewing heteromorphs as more Villainous.)

What happened 30 years ago? Did the massacres finally stop? The massacres that happened because non-heteromorphs felt like it, they felt uncomfortable around heteromorphs? Fast-forward to now-ish, and villages are still tormenting their heteromorphic citizens because they feel uncomfortable. I guess that’s improvement, because Shoji, Spinner, and PLF Speech Guy aren’t dead. But the scars left on Shoji and PLF Speech Guy are on their faces, their heads; the people that hurt them seemed to have felt free enough to not care about head injuries or leaving eternally visible scars that reminds them of what they did. The moment society collapsed after Jaku, all that old latent hatred came back. All Ordinary Woman wanted was safe shelter and was denied that over and over again. What on earth has ‘not being avengers’ done? The core of their bigotry and the unspoken allowance to unleash that remains.

(I saw a Japanese tweet that observed how a system that allows shelters to refuse heteromorphs probably means there are no laws that prohibit heteromorph discrimination in the [HeroAca] world. Makes sense, especially if you consider that these are government-and-Hero-schools-run shelters, as Best Jeanist proposed? Maybe there are also private shelters, but Ordinary Woman said she went to several and all of them rejected heteromorphs and there has to be at least one government-and-Hero-schools-run shelter in those attempts.)

I’m not saying the heteromorphs should rampage and destroy a hospital and be avengers - and in the end, they didn’t! It’s just Heroes gotta give them a promise of change, to especially if the Heroes believed in the mob’s core inner goodness. The heteromorphs are doing their part; what exactly are the Heroes giving back?

Overall, things are framed as inspiring when it really isn’t, and i really think the manga should acknowledge how Heroes risked the lives in the hospital either out of hopeful but calculated strategy or astoundingly stupid incompetence. And give the heteromorphs at least one solid promise of change.

#the town I grew up in had an active neo-nazi group #and made the Southern Poverty Law Center Hate Crime Watchlist several times #Nothing specifically bad happened to me or my family #but needless to say it was not a fun environment to be in #I get Spinner #but I also get Shoji #in fact i agree with Shoji more than Spinner #if only because I think destroy everything (Spinner’s choice) would probably be ultimately bad #or rather #I’m more in sync with Shoji’s feelings of positivity #than Spinner’s empty desolation #which is exactly why #the writing around Shoji disappoints me even more #at the very least make the speech and hospital and stuff practical tactics #instead of some kind of inspiration and moral gotcha #nalslastworkingbraincell #mha #bnha #HeroAca

[hrokkall]

hey crow. how was p2 going for ya (definitely didn't watch you stream it /j)

That boulder sure can push back

#Re: Inbox #Re: Anon #TL;DR P-2 was good it took me nearly an hour and a half and the lore was a full course meal #As for the less concise version: #I GOT MY ASS **KICKED** KICKED #THE FIGHT WAS SO FUCKING COOL THOUGH AND SO WAS THE TERMINAL ENTRY AT THE END AND SISYPHUS'S TERMINAL ENTRY AND #I have so so SO much to say about it you guys have no idea this game keeps giving me everything I want #It gives genius loci and robots who are inadvertently human and machines both divine and mechanical abandoned by their creators and canon- #game mechanics and body horror and romance in the violence/violence in the romance and blue & orange morality and environmental storytellin #A gift that keeps on giving it's like engineered to be my personal sort of catnip. All it needs is messy divorce (joking) #Anyway P-2 did NOT disappoint Sisyphus prime looks so damn cool #I still have no idea where his husk's head is though. I was talking with a friend about it on call and I concluded that it's probably not i #P-2 because if that was used as a means of torture (as in ''look at your own face; the sight of which made your army lose all morale'') it- #would just make Sisyphus angrier and even more stubborn which is the opposite of what they were going for. Can't break this guy #Anyway yeah that's the extended version of my thoughts on P-2. I want to make a whole headcanon post about machines and their dynamics now #(Because of the entry 02 terminal gladiator trading thing. That's what I headcanoned initially but seeing it confirmed makes me SO happy) #Stoat Plays

[maddy-ferguson]

making us wait five weeks for volume 2 was such a strange questionable decision it made it seem much weaker than it is it was so underwhelming. the episodes are fine but they were like you are gonna lose your MINDS it's gonna be CRAZY and then it was just the regular thing except it lasted thirty hours this time. having to wait made it feel like volume 1 was a set up for volume 2 which was SUCH a set up for volume 2 (see what i did there). seeing it as setting up season 5 instead makes it seem much better but the wait just made it really hard to think of it that way. and them saying that it was gonna be mind-blowing and a carnage (?) made it sound like it was gonna be epic and then it was. it was literally normal except it was longer.

#and obviously the fact that it ends on a cliffhanger makes it obvious that it's all setting up season 5 (which. yes. that's how it works) #but the five weeks that lead to volume 2 very much made it feel like we were getting a resolution now #it was just very weird #i know everyone likes the wait between the episodes and yes june was a very fun time but if they do the volume thing again #i will DIE i can't stand to set myself up for disappointment like i did last time and like i inevitably will if we have to wait for more #than thirty seconds for the final episodes especially because it would be the last episodes forever #and yes of course weekly episodes would be great but netflix is LITERALLY never gonna do that they'll never admit that their model is #failing lol. and if it's between volumes and getting it all at once i would rather get it all at once hashtag my unpopular opinion hashtag #living my truth but yeah netlix will probably do the volume thing again which i hate so bad #volume 2 will never be my favorite episodes i will always think that a 150 minute episode is ridiculous but it's not as bad as it seemed on #july 1st not even just the byler parts it all seemed. not good. then when i rewatched it a couple monts later i was like oh this is fine #actually #maybe i should stop linking my potential demise to season 5 of hit netflix show stranger things #remember the jokes after volume 2 about how they willingly released the episodes right before and right after pride month #and like i say: brf slt

[grapecaseschoices]

so i didnt hate n’s route for book 3

#to each their own #but i was expecting a lot worse #given how people were upset #that's all ima say #i mean barring the entire plot -- #maybe i read through it too fast bc im trying to get to valdam lmao #but i really enjoyed THEM. lmao. #disappointed i didnt get more mason and kai moments tho #i WILL SAY i get why people were annooyed re: the fight (even tho i had kai get over it) #but i feel it was less a fight (tho maybe it will feel more stark on kendis who will remain Big Mad vs Kai who is unbothered) #and more a difference of views made intense bc of the moment #i also feel like resolution is to come? #more than f and m i felt n's route will be a two parter -- like each romance ofc flows and grows between the books (with improvement in appr #oach as they go) but i feel fs came to a conclusion #and even m's in a sense #while there's more of a question for n's that will probably be sequaled and addressed in book two #i mean part twoo which is book four #but idk #twc book 3 #twc book 3 spoilers #n x detective #kai x nat #kai x nat pt #twc meta #... i suppose #ish