#what's the deal with sweats?

[cometmedalchavez]

HOLY SHIT JERRY SEINFELD IS ON THIS SURVEY LIST THAT EPIC GAMES SENT OUT TO FORTNITE PLAYERS LMFAO IMAGINE THIS ACTUALLY ENDS UP HAPPENING

#jerry seinfeld #what's the deal with sweats? #fortnite #fortnite vibin #epic games #i'm in fortnite george!

[definitelynotshouting]

tbh im normally an "i wanna see my blorbos Win™" type of guy but the grian dmv-slash-permit-office arc has pulled out such unanticipated levels of "i want that twink OBLITERATED" within me that ive transformed into the emotional equivalent of wile e. coyote every time i watch him. like i need to see him outsmarted guys. hes so fucking smug in his videos that the urge to start ordering ACME-brand Contraptions™ and chase him around with them is haunting my dreams. joel taking out his sword for a crit when grian put him on hold was so satisfying i almost passed out from the headrush. never have i ever wanted comeuppance in my favorite blorbos SO FUCKING BADLY i hope he keeps doing this bit forever and gets bonked over the head with hammers for it every single time

#shouting speaks #grian #hermitcraft #hermitcraft s10 #this is the single most simultaneously infuriating and entertaining thing i have ever seen this man do im infatuated abt it #im so obsessed with him. what the FUCK is ur deal #joe hills if ur out there im begging for the world's most malicious of compliances rn #i need to see him SWEAT #txt

[inkskinned]

you wanted to be a good friend, because you loved your friends, but the truth was that everyone else somehow had a pamphlet on being normal that you never received. most of the time you learn by trial-and-error. you are terrified of the next big mistake you make, because it seems like the rules are completely arbitrary.

you've learned to keep the prickly parts of your personality in a stormcloud under your bed - as if they're a second version of you; one that will make your friends hate you. it feels feral, burning, ugly.

instead, you have assembled habits based on the statistical likelihood of pleasing others. you're a good listener, which is to say - if you do speak up, you might end up saying the wrong thing and scaring off someone, but people tend to like someone-who-listens. or you've got no true desires or goals, because people like it when you're passive, mutable. you're "not easy to fluster" which is to say - your emotions are fundamentally uninteresting to others around you; so you've learned to control them to a degree that you can no longer really feel them happening.

you have long suspected something is wrong with you, but most of the time, googling doesn't help. you are so-used to helping-yourself, alone and with no handbook. the reek of your real self feels more like a horrible joke - you wake up, and, despite all your preparations, suddenly the whole house is full of smoke. the real you is someone waiting to ruin your other-life, the one where you're normal and happy. the real-self is unpredictable, angry.

your real self snarls when people infantilize the whole situation. because if you were really suffering, everyone seems to think you'd be completely unable to cope. but you already learned the rules, so you do know how to cope, and you have fucking been coping. it's not black-and-white. it's not that you are healed during the other times - it's just that you're able to fucking try. and honestly, whenever you show symptoms, it's a really fucking bad sign.

because the symptoms you have are ugly and unmanageable for others. your symptoms aren't waifish white girl things. they're annoying and complicated. they will be the subject of so many pretentious instagram reels. if they cared about you, they'd just show up on time. you care, a lot, so deeply it burns you. you like to picture a world where the comments read if they loved you, they'd never need glasses to see. but since that's a rule you've seen repeated - "one must never be late or you are a bad friend" - you constantly worry about being late and leave agonizingly early. there are no words for how you feel when you're still late; no matter how hard you were trying.

so you have to make up for it. you have to make up for that little horrible real you that you keep locked in a cabinet. you are bad at answering emails so every project you make has to be perfect. you are weird and sensitive so you have to learn to be funny and interesting. you are an inconvenience to others, so you become as smooth as possible, buffing out all the rough parts.

all this. all this. so people can pass their hands over you and just tell you just the once -how good you are. you're a good friend. you're loveable.

#spilled ink #woke up at 530 to write this lmafo #me in a cold sweat: #how do i be normal #edit in the tags: #hey so i've seen y'all talk about like ... wondering if ur ''allowed'' to relate #like if this is about X specific diagnosis #and when i first posted it i really almost labelled it ''please don't assume this is about a specific condition'' #because as an artist i am often walking this line of discussing a symptom or discussing my conditions etc #and sometimes yes ! i do want to talk about an experience that is specific to who i am and my condition #but sometimes the effort of the post is about the EXPERIENCE rather than the diagnosis #because yes i am not neurotypical and as a result that influences my work but it is ALSO true that there are many reasons #why someone might experience this particular vague horrible feeling that you are... almost being CHASED by what you ''really'' are. #that you're outrunning your symptoms... that you're not really normal you're just sort of a mockery of a person #.... that's a really isolating and horrible way to feel no matter why you are feeling it. and the nature of this PARTICULAR post is that #it is inherently talking ABOUT that sense of isolation & of feeling not-deserving & of minimizing your own experiences to make urself #palatable for society in a way that others find easy-to-deal-with.... #this post is about a certain experience such that my impression is there's a higher likelihood that those who relate #would have more difficulty thinking they ''deserve'' to relate - that it doesn't REALLY belong to them #bc often we are the kind of people who are SO used to being alienated and set aside and ''different'' that we AUTOMATICALLY assume #that things are not ''for'' us... they never have been why would it start now #we are the kinds of people to be ... ''too normal for X diagnosis but too symptomatic to be normal'' #[or as this post points out... so good at ''coping''/masking/hiding it that we essentially conform to whatever shape we're poured into] #but i have witnessed others already say in the tags ''thought this was about me but it's about X so it can't be'' #and im like ... of course it was about you. #art is not a resource that is diminished by greater appreciation . #you reflect in whatever mirror fits your frame. not just the ones in your bedroom. not just the ones i specifically give you. #there will be - and often are - times that i will talk about my specific conditions... but if you're reading this #regardless of why you're here... we are here together. holding hands through space and time. and i love you for carrying it #and i know you're exhausted. i am too. but i understand. and i see you.

[mythtiide]

what its all about honestly 🍨 (+ bonuses under the cut !)

i didnt know what to draw so i pulled smth out my pinterest pose board; heres the original image!

+ doodles from these past few weeks

#signalis #signalis falke #signalis adler #its been a hot seccy since ive uploaded one of fhese hi hello #i got kinda lazy so i waned off doing it daily …. so now were here! #<- + i was dealing w a bit of artblock sweats #though the main downside to how long its been between posts is that sometimes i dong rlly remember whats been uploaded already and what #hasnt #welp! if its already been posted u get to see it again! how wonderful! #myth.art

[deiaiko]

#20.3 Company

"Where's Dan and Novick?" Grace asked, finding the living room unusually empty.

"They're going to the cinema since Agni gave us a day off today, cluck."

"Is that so?" Of course Agni had thought this far ahead. No wonder their teammates didn't try to wake either of them up. "I think we do need some time off."

"Speaking of, where's Agni?" Gyetang glanced at Grace and Agni's door.

"Ah. He's quite sick right now. I was about to fetch him some medicine and get us breakfast." Grace made his way down the stairs and allowed Bam to follow him.

Gyetang peeked from above. "Would you like me to take over your shift for lunch, cluck?"

Grace considered the offer. He did like cooking, and it usually worked wonders on easing his anxiety. But then Agni came to his mind, and Grace wanted nothing but to stay by his side until he got better. "I would really appreciate it, Gyetang. Sorry about that."

"It's no problem! How about macaroni soup?"

"Sounds good!"

"Got it, cluck." Gyetang gave him a salute and disappeared from his view.

Gyetang's cheerful aura filled some of the emptiness in Grace's chest. It sort of reminded him of Rak and Isu, and it made his heart ache again. He didn't want to cry now– he had cried enough last night, but the corner of his eyes started burning from the unshed tears. The fact that he would never be able to see them again was still a hard pill to swallow.

Bam tugged his shirt, and Grace realized he had been staring into the distance, stopping just in front of the storage room. He gave Bam an apologetic smile and went in, quietly searching between the aisles for the medicine Agni had listed. Bam not once let go of his shirt, as if he was trying to ground him. Surprisingly, it worked, seeing that his mind was brought to the weight of Bam's pull. Grace wondered how much Bam knew, looking at Bam's attempt to comfort him. Hwaryun must've told him what was going on, right? Was it the reason for his visit? Or did Bam just want his company after yesterday's breakdown regarding Rachel? Grace hoped it wasn't the latter.

Pocketing the needed medicine, Grace led them back upstairs to the kitchen where Gyetang had prepared two portions of reheated omelet fried rice and three glasses of orange juice. Looking at it, Grace realized he never had to find out what his old team's favorite foods were. So many moments he had missed, times that he could've used on getting to know them better. How could they still consider him a friend?

Gyetang waved from the living room, pulling Grace out of his daze. "Have you eaten yet, Viole? I can cook you something quick, cluck."

Grace could hear Bam's stomach growl, yet Bam didn't say anything. Grace figured Bam was probably torn between accepting and not being a bother to Gyetang. So he placed his hand on Bam's shoulder. "You can have Agni's share. I don't think he can stomach it right now anyway. I will get him some snacks instead."

So they both sat in the cafeteria, while Gyetang resumed playing on the game console. Bam stole careful glances at Grace between taking a spoonful, although Grace tried to ignore the worried look and ate his own ration as well. He wasn't really in the chatty mood right now, and he was thankful that Bam didn't try to start any conversation, or worse, pepper him with questions.

The food tasted bland, but maybe it was just him since Bam seemed to enjoy it. Grace finished the meal quickly. The uneasy and cold shinsu coming from their dorm room was getting harder to ignore. "Sorry, I can't accompany you for long. I really need to check on Agni."

Bam locked eyes with him before looking away, swallowing his food. "Okay."

Grace felt guilty for leaving his guest unattended, but he was more restless if he left Agni for longer. Even if Agni currently wasn't in immediate danger, Grace just couldn't help but worry. Still, he felt the need to make it up to Bam. So he put his hand on Bam's shoulder and pulled him into a side hug, "Thank you for stopping by. It means a lot to me."

Bam leaned his head to the embrace. "I will stay here for a while, if that's okay."

The unspoken 'I will be here if you need me' was clear to Grace. A warm feeling filled in his heart and he knew everything would eventually be okay again.

"Of course. Make yourself at home." Grace gave Bam a few pats on the back before pulling away and making his way to the kitchen to wash the dishes. "Is there anything you would like to do in the meantime, Bam?"

Gyetang overheard Grace's raised voice from across the room. "You're welcome to join me, cluck! The game is more fun with multiple players."

The offer seemed to pique Bam's interest. Bam looked at Grace with twinkling eyes, as if searching for approval that he shouldn't need to ask for. Grace returned with a nod and a warm smile, knowing very well that at this point Bam hadn't gotten the luxury of being able to play games, let alone with a friend.

After putting the dishes to dry, Grace rummaged through the kitchen cabinet to find some salty crackers. He put them on a tray along with the juice and a bottle of water. Before going into his dorm, he cast one last glance at Bam and Gyetang. "I will be back for lunch. Just knock if you need me."

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#Yay bam got to comfort grace. he just naturally did what best he thought would be if he were in grace's place #things will eventually be okay again #anyway (so excited to give them more trauma) *cough* i mean... so excited to see everyone get along well UwU #altho no promises that grace and agni will deal with the grief in healthy way *looks at next arc* *sweats* #tower of god #tog #two sides of the same coin fic #my fic #my art #bam #baam #25th baam #25th bam #the 25th baam #the 25th bam #jue viole grace #khun #koon #khun a.a #khun aguero agnis #khunbam #koonbaam #bamxkhun #gyetang

[gently-decaying-flowers]

the intense need to look like this fuckboy i saw on pinterest is so bad

#char rambles #okay not a fuckboy that’s an exaggeration #but very cishet looking dude #in a hoodie and sweats like the whole deal #what a guy

[mumbledramblings]

Survival Horror Vash who i met in a dream

i had a dream last night where a group of people and i were trying to escape this weird and spooky abandoned facility that kept changing around us as we moved forward and partway through vash showed up and joined us. he was kinda weird, though. he looked a little different and he kept saying morbid things and acting like he knew us well and was always part of the group, and no one seemed to think that was suspicious except me.

at one point he found a couch and kept asking this guy to sit and have drinks with him, but the guy was convinced that if he did he'd get cursed and die.

the one time i interacted with him myself near the end of my dream (i think he was avoiding me) he was taking a knife to the bottom half of his coat, cutting it lengthwise and taking apart the layers. i asked him why he was doing that and he just said that he needed it [like that] and wouldn't elaborate and i couldn't investigate further bc i somehow found myself leading the group.

suspicious and inexplicable behaviour aside, i don't think he was ~secretly a bad guy~ or anything. just kinda weird and lonely and. maybe not entirely human. i do think he was genuinely trying to help us get out and maybe get himself out, too. but god he was kinda unnerving to be around.

#trigun #trigun fanart #vash the stampede #mid draws #trigun au #? i guess ? #it's a dream #sorry for the shit sketches i could not be bothered to put more effort into them #tbh i'm a little hesitant to call it “survival horror” bc the only monster we encountered was at the very end of the dream #and it was a 7-foot-tall feral elmo-looking guy who caught sight of me as we were escaping #screamed and started banging against the fence until it found a hole large enough to fit through and then just barrelled towards us #and then i woke up sweating #and i never found out why vash cut up his coat #or what his deal was in general #but you know what i was kinda on edge the whole dream and also i like the genre so the label stays

[moeblob]

#octopath traveler 2 #partitio yellowil #sweating bullets as I try once again to draw him and figure out colors #because those refs are really hard to color grab from and i constantly cant see colors #im sorry i cant see its a curse and i draw every day without the ability to see #im trying you guys and im really stressed bc last time i posted him i apparently made him too pale #so i am trying........... its just....... so hard......... to see the refs and know what colors are what #if im still wrong about colors please just be nice when you tell me.... i dont mind being told i cant see #cause i know i cant see but i genuinely cant deal with it today after my rough day at work #so im just gonna close out and forget tumblr exists for the rest of the night

[ivalice-tifalucis]

Since I'm still so into Phantom of the Opera right now. I don't want to argue with theatre nerds and the particular reason is that because there should be no argument when talking about interpretation because the nature of spontaneity in theatre. It's different with movie where there can only be one interpretation which is what is shown in movie like I have once fighting with Star Wars fans over sequels and Reylo (ugh). But here me out.

In 25th anniversary, some comments about Hadley Fraser's Raoul is that he doesn't have enough chemistry with Christine. He looks so oblivious to everything and look down on everyone with the slight cockiness. But it's because Hadley Fraser IS oblivious about everything. At that moment prior to being in 25th anniversary he never play in Phantom of the Opera (and still haven't other than for this performance to this day when I write this post) and never even watch a single show. I imagine his acting is fully based on the book and director. We often blinded by a dashing Raoul since Steve Barton era but he is actually still a jerk. Neither Erik or Raoul is good for Christine. Hadley wasn't influenced by any version of Raoul so he delivered exactly as it is written in the book.

Edit: and that for me makes Hadley's Raoul as the most genuine version.

Like Hadley, I also still wonder why they chose him. Was it because Ramin's input? Or was it because he made perfect Grantaire to Ramin's Enjolras in Les Mis 25 a year before which Cameron Mackintosh be thinking 'you know what, let's do weird stunt casting'? Was it that reason add together with him being cameo in Les Mis movie?

#also add the fact that ramin and sierra chemistry is like lab explosion #which would overshadow other chemistries #and if i listened to every interview of him talking about poto 25 is that he still had no clue why he was even there and what did he do #and in the style of harrison ford be like yea so what no big deal it's only 3 shows don't get too sweat my fans #bless this man really honestly #raoul de chagny #hadley fraser #the phantom of the opera #poto 25 #at this moment i have put this show inside my mind literally #my ramblings

[mega-ditto-3]

Ditto Fic Ideas #27

(Bkdk 🧡💚)

"What? Not up for the challenge, Deku?"

Izuku frowned, "That's not-"

"Then put your money where your mouth is." Bakugou flashed a smirk, holding up a measly 2000¥ bill in his hands. "The rules are simple: First one to fall in love loses the game."

Easier said than done, when both participants are under the influence of a mutual-emotional-attachment quirk.

"You're on."

-

The main idea is that these two idiots get hit with a love quirk and, to spare themselves a scolding from Aizawa and prevent them from missing a class trip to one of Japan's largest hero exhibits, decide to keep it a secret.

Between codependency, secret handholding breaks, and an insane amount of across-the-room eye contact, they begin to wonder if their pride is truly worth pretending to care more about the 2000¥ than the (not so) new bubbling feelings...

Shamelessly inspired by this meme:

#In this case #i think Bakugou would fall so fucking HARD and so FAST but hed be fighting for his life trying to keep his feelings at bay #he wants the damn 2000¥ #or thats what he keeps telling himself... #they're both too stuborn istg #at some point the quirk would probably make them freak out if they're out of sight from eachother #then theyll have to come up with a convincing excuse to change hotel rooms #i feel i should mention that everyone knows they're suffering under a quirk. theyre just letting them deal eith the consequences. #might even make it harder on them too. #Aizawa is quietly snickering under his scarf the entire trip. as he should. sadistic bastard #bkdk #bakudeku #dittoficideas #mha fic idea #bnha fic idea #Bakugou *sweating* 'He'll crack. Any day now he'll come crawling to me and ill win. just gave to hold on a LITTLE longer...' #Midoriya 'Oh boy a new feeling to supress!'

[lavenoon]

we've seen Dusk/Moon go non-verbal, but how would the boys react to Y/N having a non-verbal episode?

I should probably start with the disclaimer that this will be heavily biased by my own nonverbal episodes, which I realize are not universal but also very much where Moon gets his from

You'll also definitely get a bonus Eclipse despite him not being that involved (at this point in canon, at least), so he'll just get a generic "you" while for Sun and Moon I'll stick with Y/N!

Given the differences in circumstances if at home vs at work I'll differentiate between Sun & Dawn and Moon & Dusk, with some reverse coded boy info too.

Sun doesn't get nonverbal himself, but he's very familiar with Moon's episodes. He knows what usually triggers them (high stress/ overwhelm, sometimes delayed) so when Y/N chokes up trying to talk to him, looking so frustrated with themself barely managing words and half sentences, he immediately switches tracks. Easily flips the conversational script to 1) check in on them and 2) stick to yes/no questions. Post reveal in particular he will offer his company if they don't want to be alone, and would be content with any of the outcomes - whether they want to be alone (and rest!), or want to stay with him - he'll end up doing some woodworking perhaps, crafting a new project and either work silently or chatter away if Y/N would still like a bit of background noise.

Dawn doesn't quite have that much leeway. If they're on a mission while the stress hits a bit too much, there probably are some other signs of Robin slowly but surely reaching their breaking point, and he would strive to get them out before. If that fails, and they struggle more with the actual words, he might try and switch to sign if yes/no isn't an option, and if it's a simple physical blockage of somehow not getting the words out. If it's too much and Robin starts shutting down he'll extract them with a fitting excuse and get them out of the social situation - if they still insist on finishing the mission (because Robin is a bit of a workaholic fool) he'll make sure they don't overdo it, and perhaps only set up some bugs or other little gadgets they might need. Back home they get pampered, no buts! Reverse Dawn has kind of lost here pre-reveal, because he too knows the signs from Moon, but Robin doesn't really trust him enough to be that vulnerable around him. He'll get them out faster, not knowing enough about how they handle these episodes, and very bluntly explains that he has an idea whats going on and there's no need to talk, so if they could just not fight him on this and get the non social parts of this mission done they'll all be home sooner. He does say it very matter of factly, which helps Robin feel not as defensive, and he doesn't mention it again unless Robin brings it up (until post-reveal, perhaps).

Moon... Moon seeing Y/N choke on words and obviously struggling overrides any hesitation he may have, even for pre-reveal reverse Moon. As far as he's concerned, nonverbal episodes are exceptional circumstances and normal social rules don't apply. (Not that he's a social rules expert to begin with). If somehow in (perceived) public (which to Moon includes the front porch) he'll make his first task getting out of that situation, and into a more private environment. He always hates being perceived by strangers when he's nonverbal, so he'll simply assume Y/N feels similarly. At the very least, privacy won't hurt. Same as Sun he switches to simple questions, and checks in with how much physical comfort they're okay with. He's touchy and craves contact/ physical reassurance, but knows that might not be the universal experience. If yes though, he won't hesitate to bundle them up and get them somewhere away from prying eyes where he can stick close and make sure they're okay with a very extensive cuddle session. They better kiss working that night goodbye. Reverse Moon isn't much different, despite being much more shy pre-reveal. He'll quickly admit to getting his own episodes, and would they like some company? The only difference is that the cuddling wouldn't be quite as touchy and perhaps opts for more of a little blanket fort as a small safe recluse instead, and also definitely wouldn't even think about getting up into their room. It might turn into a bit of a "bonding moment" where he opens up and Y/N gets to know their kind of quiet neighbor a little better, and they'll thank him for his help once they can talk again.

Dusk gets a bit more leeway than Dawn, given that there's no one else to appease. He might take a bit longer to realize what's going on if they're currently getting around via parkour or sneaking quietly anyhow. But once he does he's all business. Pre-reveal he might be a bit blunter, while post-reveal they're close enough for him to be gentler in his approach, but otherwise not much changes. He'll do a quick assessment - is this mission worth the strain, and what's the middle ground between Robin's workaholic opinion and his very "I'd say fuck work if I said fuck on the regular" approach. If the mission is cut short, he either ushers or outright takes them home, depending on the point in the timeline. If Robin insists they continue he'll keep a closer eye on them to notice the nonverbal cues, and will match their silence to not force them into their usual banter routine, before then taking or ushering them home.

Eclipse has never had a nonverbal episode - days where he's quieter, yes, but that's a mood thing. He was in their head when Moon had many many nonverbal episodes during the stress of the early days, heard the static bursts that laced his voice if he did force himself to talk, and the physical reactions that come with extended strain. Noises more than words, shaking, and then at times the blockage was so great that when Moon did end up getting something out of his voice box, it ended up being sobs. Eclipse wasn't in a position to help, and Moon wasn't in a position to accept it, anyway. Even after getting his own body Eclipse didn't feel confident enough to offer anything except quiet company or taking care of some chores while Moon retreated into his and Sun's room. So if you end up having a nonverbal episode? He needs to get this right. He can't let you down like he let down Moon. (Not that Moon would sign that - the early days were stressful, and he doesn't blame Eclipse. He wouldn't want his little brother to feel obligated to take care of him anyway). But Eclipse carries some guilt, and it means he'll be very, very careful. He'll speak quieter, softer, leaning down and closer as he reaches out but doesn't make contact yet. Makes himself smaller, and less overwhelming until he knows you're okay. If your reach out too, taking hold of his hands, he'll gladly offer all the physical contact that you want, but will ask before every escalation if it's okay. He remembers Sun's tricks and what helped Moon before, and will gladly use that. Easy questions, yes/no answers, do you want to go home/ to your room/ do you want or need this or that/ do you want him to stay/ do you want him to be quiet/ do you want distraction etc etc. He's attentive and entirely non judgemental, making sure you feel safe and understood even without the words to express yourself. He'll definitely ask about what he should do if it happens again once you can talk again, what was okay, what could be better, anything he missed entirely? He wants to be safe for you, and while he doesn't have much experience he'll do his best to take care of you as you need it

#answer let luce #anonymous #accidentally undercover #dcamv #just had one of these suckers the other day (if you remember the self indulgence) so yeah you might see the pattern #all of them of course would also just accept an “I need to be alone for this” and not take it personally at all #but the scenario would end in that case except for behind the scenes caretaking (e.g. food delivery) #and also I crave contact/ reassurance when I get nonverbal so that's what I went with here #sweats in “giving myself away one projection at a time” #there's also the fact that sun and moon worked with nonverbal kids and compared to that dealing with a nonverbal adult is a breeze #much more emotional maturity and awareness to communicate needs even without words #so yeah they'll go caretaker mode bc they love you and thats just normal for them then #enjoy! <3

[ef-1]

legs & lessons in perseverance | march '23

#so. #i fell into the fireplace lol #- thats the concise summary. but ive just been unwell health wise recently. i think ms is just harrowing to deal with #because you can go for so long symptom free and then one day you wake up and everything is wrong #your body feels wrong. #i remember being constantly angry at my body as though its a separate entity. especially when i was like 17/18. #because everytime i had a bad ms relapse i would literally breakdown in angry tears like- at my body. i was good to you. im meditating #im eating healthy. im exercising. ive been good to you. #but then suddenly you cant see or youre shaking uncontrollably or your limbs are numb #or my new favourite one: a couple of weeks ago i woke up at 4 am in a cold sweat. the inside of my thigh was burning #i dont mean like. exercise burning. i mean like struck a hot iron rod burning. it was obv nerve pain but that didnt stave off the panic #so i messaged my neurologist and hes like 'yeah its fine. wanna inject yourself?' #anyway. so recently i was helping my friend get his place houseparty ready and we were cleaning out the fire place #and my legs just gave out 😍 #and i got so angry and humiliated i kind of just wanted to go to bed and not wake up tbh #which is what i usually do but like. i was angry. angry. scorpio angry as lidya would say. so i had a nap in his bed #and when i woke up i felt slightly better and for once i thought 'im not going to let my body ruin this day for me' #and i just dragged him to the markets with me. and i still had the tremors but we bought more greens than either of us needed #and we laughed and walked and he carried me to the car at the end of the trip and it was one of the best days ive had in a long while tbh #and it feels impossible but sometimes all u need is to brush the ash from ur knees and hide the scruffs with stockings &maybe youll be ok #💚 #tw chronic illness #/ multiple sclerosis

[andthebubbles]

i slept approx 7.5h and woke up to relatively complete glorioussss silence...... why am i tired

#well i think i was sweating for most of the time that i was asleep #it's been so HUMID #maybe this is what global warming has done to us #it's made us fucking humid #i cant deal #i'll say though that it still isn't as humid as singapore at least #landing in singapore instantly heals my dry hands #whereas rn it's still a bit dry here and there #finland also maintained some moist soft smooth hands #but i can't really give it credit bc i feel like singapore did the hard work and then finland just maintained it #anyway!! dry summers where are youuuuu #me.txt

[jadewritesficshere]

Modern!Eddie has nicknames for everyone in his phone. It started out originally just to have names for those he dealt to, but slowly his entire phone has no one's actual names. Slightly unoriginal, but they always make him smirk. Plus, they all just make sense to him.

Gareth is SpongeBob. Eddie only had access to local channels growing up, but whenever he went to Gareth's growing up he was able to watch the "cool stuff" like Nickelodeon and Cartoon Network. Gareth went through a small phase obsessed with the show, plus it was one of the only shows that showed a pair of best friends that Eddie felt they related to. Gareth has a funny laugh, works hard but somehow keeps a positive attitude, and has a pet (Gareth owns a snake, which sure isn't a snail, but it counts). Eddie feels that Patrick is good enough for himself, loyal to his friends and a little dumb (people have told Eddie he isn't dumb, but he doesn't believe them. Not a single smart person would repeat their senior year once, let alone more than once).

Jeff is Gimli. He was the one to lag behind at first while everyone else had growth spurts. Eddie and Gareth teased him constantly about being short and a dwarf. When he finally hit a growth spurt and came back taller then them the next week, the boys vowed to grow even taller (Jeff claims the only reason Eddie is taller is out of spite). Jeff is loyal plus he plays electric guitar, which people have called axes before. Jeff is also the one who challenged him the read the Silmarillion, so Jeff's name had to be something from that franchise.

Dustin is R2-D2. Somehow Dustin always seems to get him out of situations. Dustin is smart and resourceful. And hey, if Eddie compares himself to C3PO again because people have called C3PO dumb compared to R2-D2, no one really needs to know that (He argues C3PO isn't dumb he's actually smart, but he doesn't have the gumption to look into the psychology of it). Plus, C3PO is literally metal yeah so is R2 but shhhh. They also went to the premiere of The Force Awakens together.

Robin is Hummingbird. She is constantly moving, plus they once had a 3 hour long conversation about birds whilst high. Robin also wears bright colors and hummingbirds are bright.

Steve is simply Princess. He was once a king but can still act prissy, thus Princess. Also, one time at Robin's when everyone was super drunk, they were looking for a game to play (aka everyone was half asleep and Eddie was looking for a game to play), he found a game called Pretty Pretty Princess. Steve, completely plastered, walked up looked at the box Eddie opened, immediately went "ooohhh" and put the jewelry on.

When his phone gets left unattended at a group hangout, Mike grabs it with the thoughts to post something on his social media account. Instead, Mike sees the groupchat everyone is in, with...weird names. When Eddie returns from his smoke break, everyone is arguing and he is very confused.

#Eddie walks in and just stands there like 🧍‍♀️ #Everyone is yelling at each other and comparing names #And he immediately breaks out in a sweat #“Seriously dude Princess?” “Wait why am I Hummingbird why couldn't I be Gonzo” everyone loves the idea of Robin being Gonzo #“Wait which one is mine” “what's your number” “YOU DONT KNOW MY NUMBER?” #Eddie manages to grab his phone and everyone stares at him so he just goes “hold on one second” and then 🏃‍♀️ #He's never been one for PE but he became a track star that day #Eddie Munson #Modern!Eddie #Modern!Eddie Munson #Steve Harrington #Robin Buckley #Dustin Henderson #Stranger Things #Listen I wrote this at like 4am and im not gonna rewrite it yall can deal with it #Jade is talking

[opens-up-4-nobody]

Naruto shippuden things that made me lose my mind (ep 244-260):

Dark naruto my beloved 🖤 (I wish naruto could externalize these thoughts to someone else and they could comfort him so he wouldn't have to comfort himself)

Kushina @ naruto: wow minato didn't tell u shit

There's something very... unsettling? To me about minato. I think maybe it's just bc bad writing but something feeling deeply wrong about him?

Child itachi: don't worry, sasuke, I'll protect u (I think they're framing this as a sweet moment but it just feels sad and fucked up and sinister bc itachi u literally r going to create a monster. Like u meant well in ur own fucked logic but u hurt him so so bad)

Kushina, dying: naruto, stay the fuck away from lord jiraiya

Kisame, confronting his impending doom: I choose death by shark attack

Tobi, on his way out the door to murder someone and desecrate a corpse: kabuto don't do anything fucked up while I'm gone

I can't take Kabuto seriously in that snake hoodie???

In Madara secret hide out of horrors he has a chamber of eyeballs, a mutieyed beast that sucks the souls from jinchuriki, 100,000 lil white soldiers, and the petrified remains of hashirama. What a fucking place to live.

Everytime we find a new character with part of hashirama in them, it only gets funnier

Spend 20 episodes traveling to keep naruto safe then just fucking instantly their position is compromised lmao

I would like everyone to stop lying to naruto, please

Yamatoooooo in the belly of a snake :'(((

7yr old naruto: what were my parents like? The 3rd hokage: fuck off. Bye.

The writers: what if we reanimated the original Naruto but gave kakashi smaller hair?

#listen. the flashback eps with kushina and minato are so fucking good. like best episodes so far #i would die for kushina. i lov her so much. minato just doesnt feel like a real person tho? #lile it feels like he read the script so his actions are dictated by the plot and he has no emotional reaction to them #bc he knos what's gonna happen. he is v pretty tho #i am hype for this war tho. i wanna see madara murder everyone #and i wanna kno obitos whole deal. i wonder if i would have figured him out by this point if i didnt kno #bc like at this point it seems pretty obvious bc like also im fucking awful at seeing things like that #anyway... i domt even kno im just glad naruto got to meet his mum #naruto #also i assume kabuto got to stay wuth tobi bc he dragged up the actual dead ass corpse of madara? #which is really fucking funny to me. like kabuto being like: yo look what i got here madara #and obito is standing there sweating like: fuck. this fucking snake is gonna spill my secrets better keep him close #i assume he needs to keep his identity a secret until he can actually revive madara bc that's why everyone is so scared of him #bc i was like y does he care if everyone knos who he is. at this point kakashi is the only one who would b emotionally affected by knowing #but yea its gotta b bc madara is scary powerful so the whole world is like. mmm lets not fuck with masked man #unrelated

[worstloki]

Loki banged every single being in the universe plus some more and also he never had sex in his life and know the dept of perversions after walking them himself and also does not understand what sex is.

Hope this help!

Loki is asexual but will bang you if you’ve got some sort of ancient limited edition relic to trade, or like, if it would be really funny

#how I think it happened #Sif: we’re friends and holding hands we should bang #Loki: what? why tho *sweating* #Sif: my hair is limited edition #Loki: DEAL