#what the fuck would i even do at that point lmfao

[scorpiusmalfoylovesoscarwilde]

headcanon that scorpius was a sick child and was in and out of hospital constantly, perhaps related to astoria's blood curse but not directly. his immune system isnt very strong, and everytime he gets sick they're terrified that it's the blood curse but also whatever else it could be, because it's always so sudden and so intense and they call healers over to the house who recommend this delirious feverish 4 year old is hospitalised immediately, and you'd think it'd get easier to some extent because they'd be used to it, but everytime they feel like this is it, this is the time he'll walk in to the hospital and not walk out again

#this headcanon has no purpose im just thinking of scorpius in bed like a sickly victorian child with scarlet fever or something #asking if he'll make it to sunrise lmfao #so then he hates hospitals with a passion #my friend from school was in them constantly he was even a make a wish kid and he can not fucking stand the places so #headcanon scorpius becomes a healer anyway lmao #im sick and this is how im coping by putting baby scorp in hospital lmfao #it just made draco that little bit more protective #lucius made an insensitive comment about it once and draco was ready to throw hands #this headcanon doesnt really go anywhere ive just decided scorpius was a sick child #he has sick child energy lmfao #he still knows some of his doctors/healers because he was there so frequently #just imaging lil scorp in a hospital bed and draco and astoria are sleeping in the room on like uncomfortable chairs and the fever finally #breaks and hes like uh daddy im hungry and its like 4am but draco couldnt care less cause scorp hasnt been able to eat anything for days #let alone ask for food directly and baby scorp is wondering why his parents are acting so damn weird just cause he asked for some toast #but once hes grown up whenever he gets sick its on such a lower level than what it used to be when he was a kid because his immune system #got better that he struggles to gauge when other people would usually stop trying to do daily activities and albus has to start wrestling #scorpius back to bed instead of going to class cause scorpius really youre practically dying and hes like pfff you wanna see dying? use tha #timeturner one more time and go back to see me at literally any point between 2 and 10 i am FINE #(he absolutely was not fine) #scorpius malfoy #albus potter #draco malfoy #hpcc #scorbus #this is so many tags im so sorry

[citriarchive]

i think nithvinn should go on archery dates. what au is this intended for? yes.

#; the citrus speaks #; healing hands #i am spinning my irritation into a positive and it's that i think this would be cute #what is love if not splitting arrows #does nithral already Archery in modAU? #DO THEY EVER JUST ACCIDENTALLY GO TO THE SAME RANGE AND DO THE SPIDERMAN POINTING MEME #LIKE THEY JUST STUMBLE UPON EACH OTHER BEFORE YAEVINN MOVES IN WITH NITHRAL AND THEY'RE LIKE WAIT A FUCKING SECOND #anyway im being a lil silly #i just started thinking about nithral and yaevinn doing archery things #honestly some of my favorite nithvinn/pre-nithvinn moments are them splitting arrows #one of my favorites is them splitting an arrow in an apple and yaevinn being like “y'know i feel like this is a pattern” and nithral just- #-being like “well I wasn't gonna say it but” and yaevinn being like “.///. oh” #but also one of the first times (maybe?) nithral did split yaevinn's arrow and yaevinn pretty much went “OH NO HE'S HOT” #god i love them #also back muscles appreciation post #like do they see each other's back muscles and just go “😳” #not even just in modAU but in canon too lmfao #GOD wait and if they DO find each other at an archery range by accident in modAU does that also apply to their soulmate AU #okay okay okay sorry im thinking a lot about this #; lemon's inane ramblings

[dimiclaudeblaigan]

just got to the stupid zaharas chapter and went through dimi and claude's conversation and my god

they really did not use a single quarter of a brain cell when putting that conversation into ag

"your issue is with the church, not with faerghus?" eh wot hootie tootie claude never had a problem with faerghus and hasn't been acting like it. makes it sound like they've been fighting each other (i.e. this is meant to fit gw but and they just copy/pasted the whole conversation bc it just makes no sense).

"we have nothing to gain by fighting you." yeah, you... haven't been and never said you were planning to.

"we could've been friends." and whhhhyyyy can't you? there is an entire zero bad blood between y'all and lorenz has already pretty much said this whole second half of the war thing has been proof of the friendship between the kingdom and alliance soooo...?

"had i joined with you" uh um but you literally did this has been ongoing for half the war now

additional funnies are claude just being so butthurt that dimitri is like this might endanger your life and claude is like aw shucks my life has been endangered since i was born i'm basically an endangered species!

also, dimitri saying it brings guilt to do the things claude would do bc he's been there. lel. claude had no guilt in gw tho (for killing rhea and all that shit).

but fr tho, it just seems like gw claude and dimi got warped into zaharas and the ag ones are just passed out in the normal world having the same yeehaw ass fever dream LIKE

this entire conversation legitimately makes worse than zero sense. i can only imagine how confused people were who played ag first and got this conversation bc it like, legitimately has no place in this route. this is like a fever dream on steroids that were laced with drugs.

i was lucky i was playing ag while simultaneously watching the other routes on youtube or i would have also been absolutely bonkers confused.

#DCB Three Hopes Run #FR THO LIKE. THAT ENTIRE CONV IS LIKE. WHAT JUST HAPPENED??? #WHERE DID THIS ALL EVEN COME FROM??? MATTHIAS IS ALIVE YOU KNOW #CLAUDE GOT TO SEE FAERGHUS' LEGENDARY HOSPITALITY (he fucked the king) #at this point like. im just laughing bc. did they even NOTICE the context they copy/pasted into this route??? #even if ag claude post war still wanted to fight rhea and yadda yadda hoo haa #half the conv still makes absolutely no sense at all and doesn't even follow the route #ag is aaaaallllmmmmoooost perfect but then like. the oversights are so bad lmfao #i still look at this and am like. how. no like literally HOW. how did they look at this and not be like #hmmm this makes... so much of no sense to this route that we should prob make a new conv for it #WAIT I GET IT NOW THIS IS WHY RODRIGUE DIES #HE SAW THE FUTURE AND WAS LIKE OHHHH HELL NAH #RODRIGUE SAW THE ZAHARAS CHAPTER AND IT KILLED HIM. BUT! IT WAS A DOUBLE KILL! RODRIGUE DEFEATED THE ZAHARAS CHAPTER! #HE SACRIFICED HIMSELF SO AG WOULDN'T HAVE THE BIGGEST MOMENT OF WTF IN FODLAN GAME HISTORY EVEN INCLUDING HEROES #RODRIGUE SAVED US ALL. HE COULDN'T BEAR TO LET US WITNESS IT #THAT'S WHY IF HE SURVIVES WE GET THE CHAPTER!!! BC HE DIDN'T REALIZE IT WOULD HAPPEN SO HE DIDN'T KILL IT! #AND SINCE HE DIDN'T KILL IT IT DIDN'T KILL HIM BACK. IT'S LIKE THE BARRIER THINGY IN RD'S FINAL CHAPTER #THAT PROTECTS ASHERA. IT DOES HALF THE DAMAGE TO YOU THAT YOU DO TO IT #SO IF YOU'RE NOT CAREFUL IT CAN ACTUALLY KILL YOU. THAT'S WHAT HAPPENED TO RODRIGUE #BUT THE DIFFERENCE IS THAT HE KNEW HE'D DIE BUT HE HAD TO DO IT TO EM #HE HAD TO DO IT TO SPARE EVERYONE THE WONKIEST FEVER DREAM KNOWN TO MAN AND DRAGONKIND

[piplupod]

juno thinking they're being stupid for being stressed all the time in certain online spaces and I take a quick scroll stroll through the spaces they inhabit daily and nah man. that shit is fucking insane. people say the boldest bullshit you've ever seen in the most inflammatory aggressive way; no wonder you're on the verge of a nervous breakdown constantly, especially if this is your main source of social interaction holy shit dude how do you deal with that on a daily basis

#chase on the mic #rewriting my tags because I don't like the way I was wording things #this isn't vaguing anything specifically lol it's like... a bunch of things that i'm bundling into one pissy post rn #maybe this is stupid of me (esp for ME to say lmao) but I think the better way of handling a lot of this shit is to just surround yourself- #-with better people lmao #angry ranting is great and all but you're not going to get very far with that #its just going to make spaces turn a lot more hostile in a few different ways #people get suspicious of each other and start snapping at each other and pointing fingers in random directions #what is a lot more effective is to make a well worded post and then display the behaviour you're wanting to see more of #yknow what actually. maybe that's not even true lmfao that's some cheesy ass shit #I don't know what I'm fucking talking about. that sounds like some shit juno would think up christ i'm going soft LMAO #maybe people do need to yell and bitch about things to get anywhere with certain communities #I think maybe this is another scenario of black and white thinking lmao there's a time and place for everything #i WILL say though. that the yelling and snarling is tiring when it comes from ppl who want interaction #and then have a really stupid thing on their DNI. lmao. lol even. I guess I can't rb your posts because you're shitty towards bigender ppl #your loss 🤷‍♂️

[tethered-heartstrings]

liking is for mutuals’ selfies, personal posts that you want to show support for, and for links you want to (but realistically will never) revisit later. reblog posts you enjoy or contribute to it’s early death

#i enjoy making memes and content #I really do. it relaxes me and is fun #but if I wanted it to be seen by basically no one I would keep it to myself lmfao #blogs that only like stuff and never reblog are fucking boring and contribute nothing to the tumblr ecosystem #and before anyone comes after me for *CaRiNg AbOuT nUmBeRs* its just #so discouraging to put effort into shit for free and it go fucking nowhere #I see art and gifs and shit that even take more time than what I do and they stall #all it does is discourage new content #tumblr is social media even if it's not as intolerable as other platforms #keyword: SOCIAL #start interacting and sharing shit you like #or people who make stuff will stop or go elsewhere where interaction is encouraged #idfk about numbers but why are any posts 75%+ likes? #LIKES DO NOTHING #okay i need to go to bed and might delete this because I feel so annoying haha #if you don't like reblogging shit why the fuck do you have a tumblr #the whole POINT is reblogging #the speaking clown

[mainfaggot]

watching welcome to samdal-ri actually makes me so giggly and distracted bc of all the silliness and then I pause the episode to get water and feel like drowning myself in the local river again LOL

#just spent 1.5 hours listening to my mother ranting about her in laws and desi culture #and then somehow the topic of getting me and my sisters married at some point in the next decade came up and i felt nauseous #lkke lol. ok #im a lesbian . deep fucking sigh #anyway she was crying bc the in laws are cunts and well idgaf about my babas side of the family like #someone just died back in the motherland and i don't even know his name but he was my uncle APPARENTLY #theres just no relationship.. like i dont even remember what my cousins names are LMFAO thats how stilted the relationship is w those ppl #anyway my mom was so annoyed shebwas crying and i wanted to cry bc i had a long fucking day of doing nothing but being in my own head #i wish i was watching my show instead... if i could i would watch tb for 12 hours straight and sleep for 12 hours straight #and i would neglect everything and distance myself from everyone #haha. #z.post

[miradorjake]

.

#if you make a WHOLE fucking list #of how you want your fave to ‘reach out’ to lgbtq+ fans when every sign ever points to them being closeted #and you say the lack of doing your whole weird ass list = homophobic #WHAT is wrong with you….????? genuinely from the bottom of my heart what is wrong with you #why would someone make a detailed LIST of things to do to basically validate their queerness because they’re just not publicly gay enough #FOR THEM* like make a list FOR SOMEONE ELSE bc they’re not gay enough FOR THEM…a person they don’t know!!!! #let alone this is a musician???? which their personal lives are so fucking unrelated to being a musician #what is your fucking problem #i’d ask what wolves raised you but yk what that’d be so disrespectful to wolves #and they claim to be lgbtq+ LMFAO??????? #how do you as a queer person project that kind of disgusting mentality on another queer person just bc they haven’t waved a pride flag on #stage #you simply do not deserve to even perceive him lmfao #god that’s so fucking disgusting #and also!!! your brain-rotted little noodle spice packet of a brain doesn’t get to decide what allyship looks like lmfao 😭 you don’t speak #for literally anyone lgbtq+ besides yourself #god ****** *** #the audacity never fails to blow my mind with how openly delusional they are lmfao #yes I will still talk my shit when someone as fucked in the head as saint***** gets back on their bullshit propaganda of #‘just how disgusting and damaging/insulting to the lgbtq+ community can I be today 🥹’ agenda lmfao #anyways #propaganda and agenda lmao yeah

[unproduciblesmackdown]

would have too much to say that inevitably repeatedly breaking things up into tweets wouldn't be a pain but already going back like, lets check out andor episode one again in full true connoisseur mode and i'm not pressed if i make it into a proper in order rewatch, also when the bonus for me is that i'm always more likely to better keep track of names or faces or pick up on something that was supposed to be like a straightforward plot moment or whatever else, right, though i didn't have any especial problem with that. anyways i'm just already like oh this entire first sequence fucks, and i didn't really go into this that skeptically but do remember like yeah first time around it was like with this intro premise alone like ah i see this fucks then

like first of all an initial shot choice that is stylish, which tells us that there will be stylishness. fun that the couple evil [police procedural] characters are great at being pathetic zero charisma soaking creepy & wet disgusting in their own special ways, but cassian is getting rained on all the time he's cutting the plumbing line he swam here soaking wet literal treatment

things feeling figuratively and literally grounded (walking, only seeing that walkway, streetview, no soaring establishing shot to show This Isn't Your Ordinary City (scifi edition)) like, also still clear enough it's scifi but really with the Magical Realism type of approach, which i do imagine i enjoy more

the scoring is so good. BANGER of a track used when walking into the bar, also used later when dropped into the introduction of his beach getaway new life scene, brief as it is. the sexy edm style track, and it Is also like "well i mean. sure then" getting so far into this scene before it's evident like oh you're not actually here to have sex. pretty flirtatious w/this proprieter but it's like, maybe discreetly acting natural, maybe just acting naturally for real and it's just like that, we've all been there re Blend In, Follow Their Lead as a rule for operating anywhere ever, presumably relevant here, the Everyone's Wary nature of the whole series....tbt talking about jyn like yeah idk maybe her brand of wariness that's not charismaticly intense enough nor closed offedly intense enough is like, itself confusing or whatever but absolute "what's not to get or like" sense from me, and naturally cassian cropping up like it's your wary kindred spirit

anyways then having fun in there. looking at the required sexy hologram dancer like hmm they're a little space androgynous. a little space gnc af. the guys who are just immediately pissed off b/c the supposed new customer is getting preference. the delay after the proprieter lady is like Behave to them and cassian looks at her, then them. his immediate brooking no nonsense w/the two as soon as they're all hostile mode at him about all of it, at least in terms of like, not playing it utterly neutral. the It's Political times of him asking about a woman from kenari, proprieter lady going for both a) how about this other planet of origin and [names an inferred similar feature] as well as this kind of establishes already that [from kenari] can be space racially profiled, since cassian doesn't have to explicitly confirm that's where he's from too, and her inferring this is a Preference that can be catered to around physical features, and certainly once cassian's Wanted about this, the urgency around maarva & co asking who they've ever told that cassian's from kenari is sure like ah, space borders, space immigration, space [indeed the racial profiling when the soaking is he creepy or wet pathetic heinous cop pulls up an Image], the repeated like space colonialism and space indigeneity and space resource extraction that gets to come up more with [i've been in this fight since i was six years old] flashbacks....it's great like, the magical realism aspect where it's like [yeah Real Life but slight au] feeling immediately relevantly recognizable and as viscerally dramatic as you'd want, like, everyone's daily lives involving this inherent lack of safety that can turn into the stress of imminent danger on a dime. also the eventual b) asking if he's a Boyfriend or Husband like, space gender, magical realism style where it's like of course the space misogyny power disparity they'd be on the lookout for, might be vulnerable to a partner who is a space man. oh and then also the shift when he says it's his sister he's looking for, from more guarded to sympathetic when it's like, the context then isn't the woman's vulnerability being heightened if this is someone here out of like, a possessive angle, and rather that he's now not only presumably sympathetic to her as well, but potentially some of that vulnerability being extrapolated to him as well. which is not inaccurate

obsessed w/the Long Shot where cassian's getting held up by the two company sentry guys and it's him close up center frame slightly from above and just tearing it up acting while we only hear the other two for a good while until they wander in out of focus, that at first we also can't see and thus can't immediately Know they're talking to him....as well as again establishing like, yeah this is a prequel where we know our protagonist won't die no matter how [people are definitely dying] the situations are, yeah we know he's cool action guy even, but he's not operating in a story here where it's all about his protracted solo epic action sequences, he wants to avoid those, other people want to avoid those, everyone's better off operating more stealth mode if they can help it, but also that it doesn't matter to him that We know he's not gonna die, he doesn't know it, and Everyone knowing those stakes and reacting to the stress rather than being like stoic too epic to be at all fazed badasses. d luna crushing it, everyone's great but yeah sure acting as hell huh

also this time around i was just so much more noticeably affected by like oh i feel bad for this guy who's realizing his buddy who also sucks is dead and now that he's in over his head majorly life and death....everyone acting in every part is just going ham like bevy of these varied performances in varied roles and nobody dropping the ball in the least. while it's obvious too that like, feels bad for the panicky source in rogue one intro as well but cassian can't give much away then b/c he's not the protagonist and it's all very mysterious at this point. and that in addition to upping the surprise, it's presumably nonzero meant to be a kindness from him to take the time to comfort the guy before then blowing him away. whereas here the guy sees it coming and like, really brought this upon yourselves and you made this potentially life or death for cassian from the start, as he was aware, but this time it's like yeah cassian wasn't expecting that to turn into [bad luck, that headbutt killed you. and/or also the fall] and is Not so mysterious to us so can be clearly surprised and less than thrilled about things as well....but feels apropos that also w/ this intro of these two rando sentry guys from the bar who the proprietor was like yeah they're not really cops but they annoyingly like to act like it, it can be a bit more genuinely pathetic vs the Pathetic(tm) quality of the like imperial space feds characters. like oh i do feel bad for this guy and all the time he has here to plead for his life :( but doesn't feel like it's meant to be some [dun dunnn?] moment re cassian b/c it's like, tells us the stakes, tells us he's not fucking around and Will shoot someone but we've also been told he's not like here to be, or feel, badass invincible, is not unaffected by fear of death nor of having killed someone / death in general, but also Will be blowing you away if need be, also speaking to like, he's run calculations before abt like, whaddaya gonna do, what are the risks and which are you willing to take, and obviously has fought before and if he's ever killed someone before it wouldn't be surprising, some like "my god i've never done that before / now i'm out for blood, never look back" factor does not seem to be relevant. but fr was fun to be surprised by like oh i feel bad for this guy this time around lol noticeably much more than affected me the first time around. true [oops in over your head] vibes but which also then speak to like, yeah probably would've stopped pretending to be cops, just feels like yeah he's more distant from [uh oh, attention from Empire cops now] figures so it's like, ah, you bring it upon yourself but. i'm not quite sure what got me this time around lol, again i guess just more ability to focus on details and thee moment b/c i'm not like, needing to intently devote my attention to potentially following names and faces and plotlines b/c it's the opening scene here and don't get lost before things even happen. maybe it's having subtitles on where i'm all the more sure of the dialogue and him talking about "we'll go in together" has me like "there but for your fucking around, no need for this, i remember the vaguely friendly acknowledgment before your egos were bruised and you got hostile about it and escalated it to This" maybe it's even him offering a story and phrasing it like "we played too hard in hitting" when i have this like, vulnerable association lol like if anyone's upset / distressed enough And there's the immediate proximity / presence of something meant to be like, purely fun, where even talking about Playing may be enough to be like oh no lol, even when that's not really what happened. again, the acting from everyone, maybe it's just focusing all the more on that, wherein truly epic seeming distressed and miserable, maybe it also helps that we also get shots of more diego luna acting which is also to the effect of: pretty distressed and miserable, soaking wet. i dunno but i'm like hell yeah being all the more caught up in whatever.

also that this was like, oh a seeming potential thread establishment? and of course "whoops killed two guys" is indeed an established thread, the [looking for his sister] remaining latent as the setup to that inciting event and otherwise like, just something he does, characterization and [backstory thread] relevant, but only that. and yet, the way that opening scenes are generally meant to do, this whole sequence conveying plenty about how things are going to be, establishing overall contexts, thee vibe, that the soundtrack fucks, that nobody's messing around here in the least like. just as these first minutes didn't have to go so hard, so neither will the rest of the series have had to. i also didn't have to say all this or post at all but i get hype and when i have anything to say i really do. no concision. oh shit and we end with like the directional reverse of the first opening stylish shot but w/cassian in frame as well yeahh boyyee

#oh word? concision Is a word? #i know twitter is more so the place to talk about Your Damn Shows but i don't exactly do it correctly even there lmfao #like i said abt the fact having to make this some unwieldy thread over there is more so an inconvenience for Me lmao #if i said shit only b/c i thought it would be relevant to absolutely anyone. like i know ppl righteously Know this series fucks lol but #posting is about following your heart. what tf else am i about to do on my soshe accounts; or Have i been doing #so fun to have stumbled into the path of ''so true? this fucks?'' in that it sure wasn't a guarantee i went & saw rogue one. then rogue 986 #(the 985th viewing or what have you lol) then going I See re being aware this series exists; marinating; being readily talked into it if #like months later. somehow i didn't realize it came out...end of last summer??? early last fall??? not like i knew abt it ahead of time tho #thought i was a couple months behind lol but....anyways. love when either media is like oh nice i loved Or hated that in such a way that it #is then the enrichment of ''i could be giving a running [emphatic pointing at laptop continuous talking] commentary constantly here'' lol #anyways when the post exists already like aaaand send. what with it being me i'm certain i could've finished the ep while writing this lmao #the path of A Lot To Say The Hype Drive To Say It The Concision That's Not An Option the Posts Were Always Gonna Be Talking To Yourself And #If That's Relevant To Anyone As Collateral Bennies Then That's Fun But If It's Irrelevant To Everyone Then That Is Life #cinema!!! and it's tv. i'm just so like Yeah the ''this is going to fuck'' is really successfully contained in these initial scenes huh. #i keep calling it a bar(tm) but it's not pretending to not obv be a brothel that also technically sure is a bar #but it just feels kind of either awkwardly technical or [ofc the cops are the ones adding more confirmation calling it a Brothel] lol like. #andor

[stinkrascal]

redditors will read a post where someone does something vaguely mean and immediately the comments are filled with armchair psychiatrists diagnosing everyone with borderline personality disorder because apparently the only symptom of bpd is when you’re mean to others

#i hate reddit so much sometimes #i honestly didnt even realize people had this many negative connotations surrounding people with bpd until i joined reddit #now i hate admitting i have bpd bc everyone immediately assumes im evil and i simply want to hurt everyone around me like thanks guys :) #mental health awareness rocks :) #if u think bpd = Mean Disease you are wholly unaware of what it means to have bpd #and then these people get so defensive whenever i try to say that actually sometimes my bpd can be a good thing #because yes my emotions are REALLY intense but it works both ways you know. i feel love and happiness and joy so intensely #when im in a good mood im the most supportive person u will ever meet #and these decrepit self-hating crones come at me like NOOOOOO YOU'RE ACTUALLY INCAPABLE OF BEING KIND AND CONSIDERATE TOWARDS OTHERS #YOUR BPD PREVENTS YOU FROM BEING A KIND PERSON! YOU'RE ALWAYS ON THE VERGE OF HURTING PEOPLE! #full offense but choke <3 #also they act like ppl with bpd are incapable of learning coping mechanisms too lmfao #like yes when im in a bad mood its VERY bad but im also grown enough to keep myself away from people when i get to that point #i know how to pull myself away from situations where i feel like i'll split? a LOT of people with bpd know how to do this??? like what #why do they have to assume that literally every person with bpd is unstable and constantly lashing out at others when that just isn't true #if i could i would fight every redditor with my big fucking fists

[scottishstoner]

3 straight days of work starting tomorrow at the Hilton, then next week I’m booked in for waiting shifts there again for a couple days and hopefully I’ll get shifts at this other fancy place I done waiting shifts at before next week too coz it’s cool working there and I need the shifts lol

Is it sad I’m excited to work lol? I haven’t worked since the 6th and I’m so use to a busy schedule with work I’ve been kinda going crazy lmfao

#work #it’s all waiting/wine waiting/bar stuff . mostly waiting tables or wine waiting or plate waiting #it’s a fancy function tomorrow I had to find a black tie that would fit me coz I’m so small lmfao #i applied for those shifts might get booked in. hope so. it’s a temp agency app this one #my other main work has no shifts rn or they’re mad at me and if so idgaf lol #I done nothing ok maybe I skipped work a few times with excuses but I was very depressed and not even caring at the time #i pick and choose my shifts even with the main company I work for however they may ask me a favour to do a shift out the blue and if I can #and I want to I will and I do enjoy it. but I have applied to other bars with more stable hours tbh #but I can still do temp work but idk about my main work bc it isn’t agency it’s just..they staff.. #various venues and bars but they’re the main ones if that makes sense?? lol #rambles in tags #what happened was I gave myself time off but then I got very dark and depressed lol and declined shifts but now I’ve gone mad and am trying #to book every shift available that I enjoy which is bar/waitressing . IDK WHY I WNJOY IT #bar work is the best but I still enjoy waitressing. I’ve had some shitty jobs man. i enjoy it but it’s more than that ifk #I don’t question it if I’m happy I’m happy. I’m quite bubbly irl kinda annoying to some but whatever #worker at this Hilton so many times but usually it’s breakfast/afternoon tea service but this is a fancy function but I’ve done loads #of those but point is: different permanent staff idk work there whereas I’ve gotten to know ALL the fucking morning:afternoon staff & #they’ll be at another part probably which isn’t far away lol I just wonder who tf my manager tomorrow will be #but I know my temp agency worker will be there for everyone this time but she isn’t usually they must be desperate for staff she’s known to #also help out when needed which is so cool of her #it’s funny you get to know the agency workers. i know a few we even message each other lol.. we run into each other almost all the time #sometimes you get on with people sometimes not lol but if it flows it flows so whatever right? idk I’m high but yes

[orcelito]

I do love how I bought xmas gifts last week, got home, then shoved them in my closet to not look at or think about at all. Like "done with YOU for now. Bye."

#speculation nation #i should check on them to make double check i got everything and that nothing broke in the bike ride home lmfao #i literally just remembered it tho #went thru the heartbreak of paying large sum of money and was like 'ok time to not think about u for half a week' #i had. help. with the money actually. #it's a little hilarious lmfao. but like it's not like i broke my own bank or w/e #im just allergic to spending large sums of money all at once. whether or not it's money i actually earned </3 #ft me making orders for work & my eyes kinda bugging out seeing the like hundreds or even over a thousand dollar orders #on food items like every week #me starting out like 'what do you MEAN it's $40 for a box of milk?!?!??! HELLO????" #i feel like their prices r horribly marked up. but then again this is not my money and so i do not truly care lmfao #...anyways yea i got gifts but they are hiding. from both the world and from me. i do not want to see them. #im a lil excited for gift wrapping tho. i love wrapping my presents in increasingly stupid & creative ways #if i have any fun ideas this year i may just post the final forms. maybe. #this isnt in a way of like. making cool wrapping jobs that look like other things #im utter dogshit at wrapping and i dont care to learn how to make them pretty. so i just do whatever the fuck i want #my family has learned to expect it. if they see an eccentricly wrapped present under the tree they KNOW it's from me #practically my brand at this point. and i would hate to disappoint ❤ #i have one more day of work and then i go on break and i am so READY for it. filled with thoughts of having free time. ouughh

[piplupod]

the choice of "do i pretend to be Juno and keep up their usual tasks or do I take this opportunity to be my own person for once but also let all their usual tasks and socializing slide to the wayside"

mainly: I cannot play accordion for the life of me and lately they've been posting a little snippet of their accordion practice daily on their instagram story and I don't know what to fucking do about that LMFAO hopefully they show up later today I guess but otherwise I ain't gonna attempt to fumble with that beast

#chase on the mic #what kind of excuse do I come up with for the instagram story lol or honestly I'm not sure if anyone would even notice if they skipped a da #I don't think anyone really cares tbh other than like. two close friends and both those friends know about our osddid #I probably COULD figure out the accordion because I know how to play piano #but I really cannot be fucking bothered ngl #there's cleaning and shit to get done lmfao apparently I'm the live-in maid at this point #hey juno when you're back around how about buying us a maid costume for me to wear since I'm pulling the weight w keeping shit tidy LMFAO #I'm also not gonna sound the alarms or anything and be like HEY JUNO'S GONE on here because they'll be back soon I'm sure #they're never gone for very long #I'm pretty sure Lake and Kam are just keeping em in the back of the brain for now as a safety preventative lmfao #so y'all get to deal with wonderful lil ol' me for a bit 😌 #or until somebody else takes over but I don't think anyone is anywhere NEAR as capable as I am lmaooo

[moonjade]

How the fuck do I act in an interview lmfao 🥴

#text #personal #i have to start applying to jobs soon 😭 #and my mom suggested a hostess job since our acquaintance works there but i would rather Die than work a public-facing job again #like you don’t understand. I DO NOT WANT TO WORK. i have never had a dream job except for being an author but i don’t have the energy #or creativity for that anymore #but yeah i have to find a ~real job~ since i’ve graduated college and i have ‘skills’ (not actually though) #but anyways if i even make it to an interview round after applying how the actual fuck do i act #I’ve never had a ‘real’ interview bc I’ve only ever worked in fast food #am i supposed to kiss their ass? am i supposed to be honest? how honest? how much do i lie? do i even lie? #how do i explain the 8 month ‘gap’ in my resume lmfao. bc I can’t just say that I was moving for eight fucking months #ugh I really want to die like I would rather die than have to work 40-50 hours per week every week #like that sounds like absolute torture and i never lasted more than 2 months at my old jobs bc it got too overwhelming and hard to handle #i think there might be genuinely something wrong/off with me but idk what LMAO #i don’t think I can get disqualified from working or whatever bc I can technically work but I’ll burn through all of my energy #and literally be extremely depressed and miserable and have no time to do anything other than sleep and eat #i don’t even remember what I wrote at this point and I don’t care #the main point is that I hate working more than anything. i hate burning through all of my energy and having none left #I’m tired as fuck just writing this shit out. how the fuck am i supposed to get a real job and work it every day for the rest of my life #like there is NOTHING I enjoy laboring for. i wish I got paid to stream video games or post videos for a living but I’m not funny enough #or creative enough for that to work. plus idk how to stream or edit. and I know I’d get cancelled lmfao since my social skills are so poor #and I’d say something wrong. not even anything remotely bad but just word something wrong or use the ‘wrong’ word #ugh anyways. idk if I should tell my doctor all of this or if she’d even care (probably not)