#what if i went insane again

[frenchublog]

And how can the world want me to change ?

#treasure planet #jim hawkins #john silver #fanart #my art #please don't repost #what if i went insane again #how do you paint how do you render #grainy brush......save me grainy brush...save me

[secretlychar]

“the driver is dead and the carriage is on fire. let’s roll for initiative” followed by the sickest beat ever made by man WE ARE SO FUXKING BACK

#taz #the adventure zone #taz vs dracula #yes i relistened to it again and went even more insane the second time what did u expect me to do

[lotuslate]

“However, the colder his eyes were, the brighter the raging fire within his heart burned.”

#mdzs #mdzs fanart #yiling laozu #tw/ gore #tw/ blood #wei wuxian #wei ying #mo dao zu shi #grandmaster of demonic cultivation #jessbye #egg #back again w book excerpt wy up against white bg #v v favourite part in the book that happens inbetween him visitting jyl and before going to nightless city #him overhearing those cultivators shit talking wn right after him and wq went and gave themselves up… ooh its siering #wwx’s grief and rage in that moment is insane and so palpable #what an amazing part i rly wish more people talked abt it #i love wwx in his most vulnerable and flighty

[fearandhatred]

the cucumber aziraphale to the bestie @crowleys-bentley-and-plants' tomato crowley!! i got really into it for some reason so it's way more detailed than i intended it to be lmaoo

#fearandhatred #fearandart #i was supposed to be finishing my fic and then doing work but i was doing this instead #god i have so much work #anyway yeah i went a little insane i don't even know why i used this brush i just picked it randomly from my recents #also this might be my first ever successful realistic aziraphale drawing #the other night i tried drawing him and couldn't and i swear it sent me into a fit of rage #so i was like ok you know what i'm just gonna try again another day #and it turned out pretty good!!! #good omens #aziraphale #good omens fanart #good omens art #art #THIS IS A QUEUED POST. i am asleep

[corrodedbisexual]

Don't mind me, just going through a whole new level of mental breakdown at that iconic CC scene after reading an old interview of Joseph's.

#joseph quinn #joe quinn #eddie munson #mishabawlinsgifs #misha-bawlins gifs #okay but i am legit going insane over this so go on please join me #his dream was playing relatable characters that make people feel #and then he went and gave us Eddie #who was so human and relatable and made us feel so much SO SO MUCH TOO MUCH #and we wouldn't shut up about how much we love Eddie #Joseph wasn't sure he 'fulfilled' some 'requirements' for representing a relatable character #3 years later people are telling him he did exactly what he had aimed for over and over again at every convention #him tearing up at that? in his place i'd be on the floor bawling my eyes out #crying hold me together please my chest is bursting with how much i adore him

[faunandfloraas]

It is kinda funny seeing people talk about Seungmin lately because he definitely has gotten more bold and confident for sure. He's also just getting opportunities to be perceived as an individual on his own as well for the first time in a while but it's still jarring to see people be like Aw he was always such a quiet goodie two shoes little nerd and it's like...... he was the one to leave and seek out his own vocal coach and blatantly talk about it, which of course lead to I.N and Lee Know also doing the same, he was the one to go on bubble and tell off sasaengs who used to camp outside their old dorm for invading members privacy but also because it effected other residents and staff at the complex, something that i'm certain upper management wouldnt have been happy about, and he wasn't curt or nice about it either. like he's never actually been a wallflower, he's always had a pretty strong backbone and seems to stick to his principals, its not really new.

#even silly shit like bringing up drinking even tho staff has clearly told him not too #like yeah its silly but its still sticking to his guns of being like we arent actually children anymore thanks #the food thing too like in an old 2 kids room he said something about not being able to eat on his bday bc they were filming so evidently #there was a moment in time when he caved to the shitty diet obsession kpop had but ever since hes never really said anything like it again #instead hes telling everyone to eat well and reminding people to have dinner or lunch every other day #even the comment about growing his hair out but then being like lol the stylist probably wont like me saying that or whatever #and like the yeah im going to the gym but im not lifting. dont expect me to bulk up. im doing it for stamina<< that made me cackle #bc i did see people on twt being like but what if seungmin got buff tho omg hed be so hot 🥺 Well him bein buff isnt what this is about #so he went and made sure people were realistic. not everyone needs to be noticeably cut yk #idk maybe bc i watched most all the skz content all the way through #and now i go back and gif stuff i notice patterns more easily than if youve been here for longer and havent watched older stuff #for a while- maybe? idk its just funny but i also see takes a lot and have to stop myself from going No <3 #anyway this is my obligatory insane ksm tangent of the week. see you in 5 minutes. #🐶

[barneyfan99579]

me and who (steals joke from scrawny)

#freehoun #couple goasl #half life #barney calhoun #gordon freeman #from slender fortress #from like 10 years ago #fucked up evil freehoun #cant believe im invested in this but i thoiught WHATY IF LIKE #in his description it says barney went insane n started killing ppl #what if he went insane bc #gordon got turned into STONE #and then they both meet again #and instead of going back to normal they start killing people together #im drawing fanart later idgaf #sorry moots im being really cringe today but #IF HIS HALF SLAPS HIS LIFE WHEN HE WALK I SHALL LISTEN WHEN HE TALK

[gootube]

"freedom and salvation" or as i like to call it, unchecked mental illness

#sorry i kinda went unnecessarily insane in this video and not in the good way. #ermm. lol . how do i tag this. ermm.. hashtag Weird 0_o #digital #animation #gif #lobotomy corporation #lobotomy corporation spoilers #ayin #adam #carmen #i think in this one what i did was just spill my brains out onto the thing. whatever i thought of i just drew it #even if it only showed up for one frame (like the green adam in the top left #it was actualy really fun and ive been trying to chase that high ever since #although i think it was mostly fueled by sleep deprivation because i animated it very late at night on a whim; i dont wanna do that again #my first fanart animation...? fanimation? maybe?

[satoumafuyuss]

2wink Week Day 6 - Sun & Moon/2wink song lyrics

Decided to do tarot themed! Hinata is the sun upright and Yuta is the moon in reverse oooo If I had taken more time to work on this I would've liked to include more tarot elements from the actual cards BUUUT I like this anyway <3

#2wink week 2024 #2wink #hinata aoi #yuta aoi #enstars #ensemble stars #nillyart #nillyfanart #went insane trying to find out what those flowers were called again #i swore to god they were tied to their surname #but looking it up only showed me sunflowers!! which cant be right cause hinatas name IS SUNFLOWER #anyway they are a type of aoi flower technically.! #so anyway. #oh theyre mallows btw

[berryblu-soda]

ninjago reincarnation AU where the world ended, and from it´s ashes rose another, similar yet eerly different, growing and changing from being little more than a rock in space, to a modern society much more like our own (show to movie setting :D!). with new old faces, flashes of a world long gone, a simple wish at the end (beggining?) of it all, etc etc...

#having AU thoughts ill never actually write out again U_U #ninjago Again AU #<- fma crack theory refference hehehe #sorry i sound insane i have such a clear picture in my brain and cant write for shit #its giving madoka magica i think?+ show to movie setting+ fullmetal alchemist time loop theory+ reincarnation angst+ ascension to godhood #closest ive ever seen anyone get to what i mean is the fic ´meet again´ <- insane abt it and somehow havent finished it hdfnghsadfg #but im talking more sailor moon esque reincarnations and cosmic beings and highschool shenanigans #set in a shiny new world; representing a 2nd chance to get to the good ending after it all went horribly wrong the first time #a fleeting sense of tranquility and normalcy... #aghhhh #ninjago #shut up sheo #*sigh* #throwing it to the AU pile i guess U_U #edit: i also mean the vibes kinda like amphibia´s finale #v insane concept i knowww #im procastinating homework U_U

[mishapen-dear]

guess who got so brainrotted over jaiden animations that they finished their first animatic

#she is just so!!!! #i heard this song and went insane immediately #it says in the title but it's 'i want to meet the devil (voice memo)' by molly frances btw #such a jaiden song holy shit #i didn't include the whole thing because i wanted something short that id actually finish #excpecting yknow maybe 30 seconds #but no a full minute B) and then i spent like four hours trying to figure out how to do a gradient colour shift via Math and then #learning that my data was wrong #so i was once again cursed for trying to do things the silly funny hard way #it still worked tho so here i am victorious #qsmp #jaiden animations #q!jaiden #qsmp jaiden #mishapen draws #mishapen animates #but no yeah. yeah. jaiden. #i will forever be thinking about her 'what am i going to do?' scream at the sunset #and then the 'ill figure it out' #and the 'would you kill someone to save bobby?' 'i'd do anything' #and living in a house of memories and bringing people that trust *her* there and jksadfhlsjdhlakjsdfhksadjf #she doesn't bring her friends there she brings people who she's friends to do you get me #once again i go ham in the tags but please understand #~*Her*~ #woo hoo new medium new tag :D

[yuesya]

We are on a rope with the twinxcanon aus babyyy so to contribute to the pile what if just twin Shiki was inserted into canon satoru’s body?? God just imagine the fallout since she’s much less hinged than Satoru. Even better if she still has her meodp. People are gonna think prison realm drove Satoru straight into insanity

Ooh this. Is such a fun idea, anon. Is Prison Realm driving people insane canon-confirmed, or a fandom idea? I think I only recall 'one occupant at a time' so Prison Realm can't be used again until the prisoner is either released or commits suicide... but in the case of suicide, arguably it's because they were driven insane, right.

So people see a Gojo Satoru who's been driven insane, but no one really questions it because it makes sense, it's terrible and awful and horrifying, but it makes sense.

Shiki is just really confused and really upset that her brother is nowhere around. Suguru isn't around, either! And neither are Nanami or Haibara or Amanai!

Man, this world sucks.

#QA #zenith of stars au #twin swap au #yet again #there are so many twin swaps now i think haha #anyways in this case #i think shiki would still be able to use six eyes/limitless #considering it's canon-satoru's body that she's been dumped in #but she's not as practiced at using limitless as satoru is #meanwhile everyone else is just biting their fingers #'gojo went insane' #'gojo's strength degraded' #'what the hell are we going to do'

[runawaymun]

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#sorry let me rant real quick in the tags #cw personal #once again hitting an insurance pothole bc the psych says she accepts my OHP plan HOWEVER the therapy group she is contacted with says #THEY don't #they only accept the insurance if it's through my employer but NOT through the government?????????????? #so there's still some kind of payment??? #anyway I want to scream why is this so complicated #like will she take my insurance or not who's right here #anyway called her back directly and went to voicemail so now I've done all I can for now #why the hell is this so hard man #the person on the phone didn't know really how to explain #once again no one knows what they're talking about #like can y'all not communicate and figure this out? #AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #i need to get an ADHD eval before my next PCP appointment in june so that they will continue giving me my meds #and the psychiatry through the hospital has a limited number of visits that insurance will cover #*contracted #not retyping all of that #and once again the only reason this is so stressful is because the psychiatry group at the hospital fumbled the communication ball last tim #and the psychiatrist I was with never put the ADHD on the chart #and now somehow it's MY responsibility to fix that> #UGH #like I am grateful to have some kind of coverage but holy shit is the US healthcare system in shambles #the bureaucracy is INSANE #i had to just sit down and put my head in my hands for a second #and then go 'right okay nothing i can do about that rn moving on' #uGH #literally said 'what the FUCK' out loud a couple times #like not on the phone after I hung up obvs

[arowrath]

ok well we know that jesus can emit pure light as he did when he was in his tomb + i assume the light is holiness or joy or purity (considering his spirit was in heaven but his body had died in sin) (considering his body was holy but his spirit was drowning in unquenchable fire).. thinking about the version of jesus i made up in my head who's way cooler and more transgender and i think he would emit sparks and a glowing electric light if you fucked him and i think it would inspire an unfathomably intense lust

#text #this is NOT me taking a stance on whether jesus went to heaven or hell when he died #i didnt know there was discourse about this til i googled to double check i thought it was a given that he went to hell ?? #i was CERTAIN it was hell because what else would the damn point of the crucifixion be #gotquestions dot org is trying to say Ofc he didnt go to hell hes too special and ur just reading the verse wrong #which like. ok but THE POINT OF HIS DEATH WAS TO WASH EVERYONES SIN AWAY AND PAY THE ULTIMATE PRICE #WHICH IS *DEATH* WHICH LEADS TO *GOING TO HELL* IF YOU'RE NOT SAVED. WHICH HE WASNT! BECAUSE *HE WAS THE SACRIFICE* #THATS THE WHOLE POINT!!! HE WAS DOOMED BY THE NARRATIVE. HE WENT TO HELL. HE CAME BACK. #um. i rescind my previous statement about not taking a stance i think i have actually #But if u have like solid proof that isnt 1 peter 3:18-20 pls lmk i havent read the bible in years #OH YEAH DISCLAIMER: i am not xtian . just insane . i was raised as one so i know a lot of lore #but i have memory problems so i forgot a lot of lore #yay! #nsft #SORRY i have like brain problems that lead to me saying these things #likethere is genuinely something reallywrong with me i think But that's not really important read my funny posts boy #would you suck jesus's strap. it is glowing with holy light btw #sorry again #I would. #sorr y a third time #tboy jesus tag

[quietwingsinthesky]

you ever just think about. “You are diseased, albeit a disease of our own making. No more.” you ever just. oh, they made him and they discarded him. it’s never going to be quiet again for him, and that’s just collateral. they let the sound rot through his whole life, his whole timeline. because that’s the kind of easy sacrifice you can make when you want to save yourself above everything else, one that doesn’t ask anything of you. you dig open a child’s mind and you bury your survival inside him and when he follows the noise back home, when he does exactly what you groomed him for, you call him ruined for it. that’s. you ever just think about that.

#it’s genuinely such a horrifying sixkening thing that they unveil. what was done to the master. #and it’s like. it’s so important that he is awful. he really is. but he still does not deserve to have had this done to him. #the drums are a tragedy that cannot. would not. be a punishment earned no matter how terrible he is. #they’re such a violation of his mind. isolating and constant and violent. and it drives me insane that this is just. in the show. okay cool #ill never be normal again. #they literally pulled his head open. during a ceremony that we. as far as i know. have to assume is not exactly voluntary. and is at the #best of times. already traumatic and horrifying. but they went into that moment and they put the drums in his head and they made him into #something repulsive to them. because they did that to him! in this thing alone the master had no agency and no way out and this thing that #was done *to* him is what makes him. to them. a broken thing now past its usefulness now that he’s done what they wanted him to. #sorry im rotating him in my head again and again. this is the thing that makes him ‘diseased’. it’s that they chose to do this to him. there #is nothing he could do to not be this. he was a child and there was nothing he could do to stop it from happening. he’s an adult and he’s #doing the impossible exactly like they shaped him to do and he can’t stop this from having happened to him. so he might as well follow the #drums. and then. and then rassilon calls him diseased. and im going to. lose it. #there was nothing he could have done………….. #everywhere else he has choices to make and he can burn the world and keep it as a toy and he can fuck with the doctor and he can do. #anything. anything he wants. but he can’t. there’s nothing he can do to make it stop. there’s nothing he can do to make it so this never #happened to him. and i am spinning in circles here do u see why he makes me insane. #and the doctor doesn’t even really fucking believe him that the drums are real until the master makes him listen……. oh im going to be ill. #doctor who #simm!master #the master

[actualbird]

i swear to god the next time i think "oh i feel and function much better now, maybe i dont need my meds anymore" i NEED to remember that that is the DEVIL SPEAKING and that the REASON i feel and function better is BECAUSE the meds are IN my system and that the NEXT COURSE OF ACTION is NOT to REMOVE the from my system but to KEEP THEM THERE good god

#I AM SO SHARP AND PRODUCTIVE THESE DAYS IT IS INSANE I #I FEEL LIKE HOW I FELT WHEN I FIRST GOT INTO TOT SO SHARP AND CREATIVE AND WRITING AND ONLY NOW DO I RMEMBER THAT #THAT WAS ALSO WHEN I STARTED MY MEDS #THEN I WENT OFF THEM IN FEB-MARCH 2022 #IMMEDIATE DIP IN PRODUCTIVITY AND MOOD. AS IF. MAYHAPS. THE MEDS BEING IN ME H E L P E D #AND THEM NOT BEING IN ME DID NOT HELP #I CRACKED THE CODE. THE ANSWER IS THAT I WAS AN IDIOT #dootdootdoot #sorry for the capitalized yelling but this felt like the expanding brain meme for me. guys. guys ive Written #i /wrote and finished a fic/ #it's for a zine so i cant post it yet yall have to get the tot olympians zine (@olympianszine) to read this one #and then i sTARTED A NEW FIC AND I HAVE 1.5K WORDS oN THAT #and thats on top of everythng ive been working on for the nxx comp vol 2 and work and life #damn. what a good set of meds can do to a mfer. why was i so angsty about going on meds again i need this shit tf