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#well see what the psychologist has to say when i show her my insane mood tracking figures
opens-up-4-nobody · 8 months
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#hmmm. was just looking at the results of my bloodtest from earlier this week and im all normal apparently#so my thyroid isnt fucked and the hypomanic episodes r in fact just coming from my brain as expected#and the doctor did slap me with a bipolar II diagnosis. which is still find dubious. but also he would have to i guess in order to#prescribe me an antipsychotic but like. sounds like a thing that would increase my insurance rates lol#whatever. i just find the idea of me being bipolar to be so wild. i mean like yes. i guess technically if u look at the word bipolar#unipolar would b a depressed and normal mood range. and bipolar would b depressed and elevated mood#and yes ive spent a lot of my life being rather depressed. sometimes treding near the point of not being able to function#but like usually its not that bad and im so anxious i cant just not function. the ocd keeps me afloat lmao#and yes i have these infrequent little peaks of high energy and even more infrequent instances of elevated mood#so i guess yes that does count as a bipolar mood profile. but is the underlying cause bipolar disorder or is it that i make myself so#miserable with my compulsive behavior that it sends me into spirals of depression or overheats my brain into fits of hypomania#i suppose it doesnt really matter if the presentation is still on thr spectrum#idk i guess i just find it annoying not to fit cleanly into a box. im more a: the spectrum of human experience type person#i guess its better to struggle a lil bit with a number of things than b all consumed by one single thing#i mean. im a lil all consumed by the compulsive behavior. but again its not exactly thr classic presentation of ocd. which i find#frustrating bc i like to characterize and understand things. ugh#well see what the psychologist has to say when i show her my insane mood tracking figures#lol last time she told me to track my anxiety but not make a chart abt it. and i was like god dammit shes onto me#listen. i do research. i like data 🙄#unrelated#also the docor i saw was like yea its joy normal to get 3hrs of sleep and not b tired#how abt a week of 5-6hrs of sleep and not being tired??? how bout that?#also not good fyi. i csn feel my brain fraying#me: shut up im normal. also me not sleeping and getting increasingly unhinged#ive got 1tachi levek eye bags 😭#also i kno its a thing they have to ask but everytime i start describing how i would charactize my intrusive thoughts doctors go:#hm. do u even hear voices telling u do do these thing? and its like no theyre my thoughts but also they feel like they come from outside#of my body. which when i say it sounds crazy but like idk how else to say it. its like theyre projected into my head but i kno it comes#from me. ya kno?
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joy-in-opera · 2 years
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... I couldn’t sleep. This has been on my mind for quite a while, and just... Fair warning; I’m not going to sugar coat anything here. I needed to get this out somewhere.
I’m probably gonna lose some followers over this, but maybe that’s for the best, given the topic... I'm going to get into some thoughts on the Depp vs Heard case.
[4AM EDIT- I apologize in advance for how heated I get here, I had some emotions to get out. Also there's a lot of cursing: fuck, shit, damn... those fun words.
Some folks might not like what I’ve said, but I’m open to a more calm and objective discussion in DMs or what not after I get some sleep. I know the situation is not black and white, and I want to know the truth of things... but I also know that some things are really murky, and there’s no possible way to know the absolute truth of them. All we can do is take what we have at our disposal and come to a conclusion.
If you're uncomfortable with this topic or are tired from seeing the news about it plastered all over the place, by all means please keep scrolling; you don't have to read this if it's going to put you in a bad mood or become distressing. Take care of yourself and your well-being first and foremost.]
Before I start getting flamed for what I’ve written below, and after I’m done getting everything out of my system, I intend on doing more research and fully putting together my updated thoughts and observations on this. This will take some time. At this point: I believe the main aggravated abuser of this entire shit-show between Heard and Depp, is Amber Heard. I want to make it known that I believed Amber was the victim when the news first came out years ago. Once I read more into what came out, my opinion slowly changed and I believed that Depp was being abused; this whole defamation trial is just the nail in the coffin, unless it's proven otherwise by reputable sources.
Again, I want to do more research when I have the time, and fully put together why exactly I’ve come to this conclusion, but the biggest factors I have right now that have me leaning this way are: the recordings presented in the current US case (and those that were not admitted into the trial for whatever reason), the testimony of a psychologist and several witnesses while on the stand (look I get it, folks are saying that they’re on Depp’s payroll; this is something I want to look into more as well to confirm, as there could be bias here if they’re being paid off by Depp; if so that shit isn’t okay and it’s pretty fucked up), numerous DV victims online calling out Amber’s behavior, behavioral analysts who are comparing the behavior of both Amber Heard and Johnny Depp and how they align with the abuser and the abused, Amber’s mannerisms while in court versus her deposition from 2016, and shit that is rubbing me the wrong way on how the UK trial was handled. (the judge seemed biased toward Amber's side despite evidence and cops' testimonies, just off the top of my head). There’s more I could add to this list, but it’s nearly 3am as I’m typing this and I just needed to get my frustration with this shit-show out on paper, as it were.
I don’t give a flying fuck if Amber Heard supposedly snorted cocaine while on the stand, or if she actually took a dump in Depp’s bed. This dumb shit that people keep pulling up to make fun of Ms. Heard doesn’t matter; I don’t fucking know if it’s true, and it’s not funny to me. That and there's so much damn click-bait on Youtube, it's insane... it takes away from the actual trial, and people are actively lying about the outcome for views. The trial isn't even over yet for fuck's sake.
I’m incredibly uncomfortable with how Amber has presented her testimony, the way she has used movie quotes in her testimony, how she stares daggers at both the jury and Depp... and I’m not uncomfortable because of how passionate her testimony is. I’m uncomfortable because I can tell when I’m being emotionally manipulated, and that pisses me off. Amber is exhibiting the behavior of someone who is manipulative; the detail dumping, repetition, deflecting before giving an answer, the visible emotional whiplash of changing her facial expression from wildly distressed, to mildly (mildly?) looking annoyed is raising so many red flags to me. She flips on a dime and there are several instances where you can tell she forgot she was on camera, and quickly changes her facial expression. There were smug reactions and eyerolls that made me wish I could reach through the screen and slap her. I can also get into how the visceral description of her rape is the kind of shit you would need to seek immediate medical attention for, but this is something I want to do more research on. Needless to say I don’t have a very high opinion of Heard right now.
So, her bruising; there was a picture shown as evidence that shows a dark black bruise on her arm, which was supposedly acquired from Mr. Depp 2 days prior. Okay... so I was a bit of a dumbass and smacked myself pretty good on some workout equipment a little over a week ago. The bruise is all but gone now, but it hurt like a son of a gun at the time. You know what color it was within the first few minutes of injury? Black/Purple/Blue with some visible redness and swelling around it. By the end of that same day and onward into the 2nd Day, my bruise was all sorts of fun colors: Yellow+Green, Blue, Purple+Red speckled marks. A bruise being dark+black on Day 2, with no visible signs of swelling or any color? I think the fuck not; I'm calling bullshit.
Do I believe Depp is a saint? Fuck no; he’s involved with Hollywood, there’s a lot of shitty stuff that happens behind closed doors and they’re corrupt as all hell. I'll mention that at least he's spent a lot of time with kids with cancer, which is more than can be said of Amber as far as I know. Some of the shit he’s said in texts and other stuff he’s admitted make me genuinely disgusted, but I also believe this is the product of a man who was around someone very detrimental for him and his healing from the shit he went through in his childhood; Depp was not a healthy person for Amber to be around either, and overall it was a hugely toxic relationship. That being said, I’m not surprised Depp was so vulgar in his texts submitted for evidence and he’s had verbal spouts with Amber: wouldn’t you vent or snap if you were being wound up and emotionally fucked with all the time for months on end?? For instance, the day Amber recorded that video where Depp slammed cabinets was the day his mother died. She already knew what happened that day, yet here she is recording this video going “What happened? Did something happen?” The man lost his damn mother, what do you mean “What happened?”?? Not to mention her smile and giggle at the end of the video. This is not the behavior of someone who was fucking abused; you remove yourself from the person, not casually stick around and try to sneakily record them at an emotionally vulnerable time. What the fuck.
Y'know that thing where Amber claimed the cop who got between her and her ex was homophobic? Turns out the cop was a lesbian who recognized abuse in a lesbian relationship. Sure, Amber got it scrubbed from her record eventually, and her ex forgave her, but the internet doesn't forget. (I'm going to need to look into this more though, just to confirm if it's true or not. I'd highly encourage folks to look into it too, as I'm definitely biased here.)
There’s also the situation where Depp lost the tip of his finger; there is a recording (unfortunately it was not submitted for trial; I’m not sure on the specifics of why) that Amber Heard made where she admits she hurt him and he had to go to the hospital, BUT she’s also having what sounds like a mental breakdown in the background, saying she doesn’t want to lose him and she wants to see him. (this is just one instance of her abandonment issues that were touched upon by the psychologist on the stand. Others mostly entailed situations where she’d start a fight with Depp, then when he tried to leave to de-escalate things, she’d hit him so he’d stay and not leave her. Based on this, I think she needs some serious professional help; being in a relationship is not healthy for her if she’s going to be lashing out like this instead of taking steps to handle her mental health issues) In this same recording, she admits that while Depp has some “coke he’s been hiding from me,” she also says “All I was popping was Xanax, Adderall, Esctasy and hallucinogens”. I’m sorry, didn’t she say in court that she wasn’t doing drugs?? Didn’t she say this on the stand??
I just... yeah. I’m pissed. As I said before, I intend on doing more research, and comparing and contrasting what I can... but at this time, honestly? I do not by any means view Amber Heard in a very good light, both Depp and Heard need professional help for their respective mental illnesses and traumas, and the courts unfortunately have a clear bias against men when it comes to DV... and it’s not just the courts. In the US, males are detained and put in the cop car if there’s been a DV call; this is PROTOCOL, it doesn’t MATTER what was said on the call, it doesn’t MATTER who is the aggressor. Cops are TRAINED to respond like this; hell, my own neighbors went through this. The husband was detained while the wife cried on the front porch. She was the one yelling at him for all the neighbors to hear, and unfortunately she was experiencing a bipolar episode. From what I was told, this is the reason they’re going through a divorce, because she isn’t getting properly treated for her mental health issues and keeps taking it out on him. Men can be abused, and holy shit... Heard has done so much fucking damage for DV victims. It doesn’t matter who wins, people are going to use this trial to further downplay what DV victims go through, and it makes my blood boil.
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emylilas · 4 years
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That’s not the line
English isn’t my first language Inspired by Prompt 1193 by @daily-prompts​.
“That’s not your line. Your line is: that must be hard for you”. “We’re not in a play. There aren’t any lines”. “You should still know the right thing to say”. 
You had a rough day at work and Jack decided to check on you. But you’re too angry to appreciate her gesture and end up redirecting your anger at her. Because, somehow, there’s something about Jack that drives you insane... 
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There's a knock on your door and you know it's Jack before you even check through the peephole. Of course, she would come checking on you after what happened today… 
"Jacqueline…" you drily greet her, opening your door. You shouldn't be like that. She crossed the whole city to see you, she doesn't deserve to be welcomed with a huff.
And her smile is shy, terribly uncertain: "I wasn't sure you'd want to see me". 
The first answer that crosses your mind is that you actually don’t want to see her ㅡyou don’t want to see anyone, to be honest. But it is Jack who showed up on your doorway, not a total stranger, not just a coworker, not even just some friend. It is Jacqueline Sloane. So you keep the retort to yourself, and gesture for her to step in. 
It's only when you're both awkwardly sitting on your couch that she speaks again: "I'm sorry I wasn't here to have your back". 
You blink, confused, because she really seems to be sorry. You shrug: "I don't think it would have changed anything". 
Jacqueline smiles, tucking a strand of blond hair behind her ear. Her other hand is fidgeting with the helm of her skirt and you know her well enough to know it's because she has no idea what to say. Her eyes meet yours, briefly, before looking away. You sigh. If she came all this way only to give you silent treatment, you'd rather be alone tonight. 
But she turns her head again, and this time, her whiskey eyes meet yours. It's a poor smile she's offering you: "well, at least, you'll have plenty of time to rest!"
Your eyes widen at her words and you can't hold back the bitter reproach: “That’s not your line. Your line is: that must be hard for you”. Your tone is sharper than you thought it’d be. 
“We’re not in a play. There aren’t any lines”, Jack mumbles, annoyed by your answer. She’s just trying to be there for you, to do what a good friend would do and you know it. And you are well aware that it is completely unfair that she is the one suffering from your bad mood.
You huff: “You should still know the right thing to say”, you didn't want your anger to be redirected at Jack, you've told her to leave you alone, earlier that day, you knew this would happen if she stayed around, "you're a damn psychologist, knowing what to say is basically what you do for a living, Jacqueline!"
You're surprised she's still as soft as when she first enters the room, not furious, not hurt by your bitterness: "I know", she whispers sadly but you’re too mad to hear the inflection of her voice, "but it doesn’t always work".
"Seriously Jack? Everyone keeps saying you're a great psychologist, that you always manage to find the right words, how come it doesn't work with me then?"
Jack bites her lips, avoiding your gaze: "because I can't be professional when it comes to you". She hates the way she says it, almost as a confession of her weakness. And in a way, it is, indeed. But that's not how she wants you to see it. She’d like to show you just how much stronger she feels for feeling the way she does. 
"You're friends with Gibbs yet from what I've heard you still managed to find the proper words for him… guess I'm just not worth it", you dryly say with a sarcastic shrug. You know it isn't fair. You know you're just taking it out on her and Jack didn't do anything to deserve the way you're treating her. Maybe you're just doing that hoping it’ll be enough to reach her limits, hoping she'll finally leave you alone.
But instead, her hand grabs yours: "don't ever say that again, Y/N". Jack doesn't raise her tone. She doesn't even show she may be hurt by your words or pissed at you for your infuriating behaviour. She just says it with a severe tone, calm sure, but leaving no room for doubt. "You're more than worth it", Jack sighs, running her free hand in her hair, she tries to keep her voice under control, but she can't lie to you anymore: she's an emotional mess, and it finally shows: "and that's actually my problem!" 
You startle, surprised by her raise of tone. You soften for a second but your anger hits back almost instantly: "really?", your tone is sharp, "how come you can't manage to be half a good friend to me than you are to everyone else?" and you regret it the moment it crosses your lips. You regret it even more the moment you see them violently hitting Jack, pain flashes in her watering eyes. "I… I didn't mean to…" you stutter, not sure you could ever make it up for those words. They aren't even true, and it only makes it worse. 
But Jack has stopped listening to your venin, lost in her thoughts. She seems to be fighting an inner battle you have no idea about. And she is. Closing her eyes, she gives in and answers "because I'm not in love with them" with a shrug, as if it was obvious, as if it were of poor importance. 
"In love?" You find yourself repeating her word, looking dumb. You haven't seen that coming. Sure, Jack loved touching you. Sure, Jack always had kind attention for you. Sure, Jack was always standing too close to you. But you never thought it could be because she was in love with you, you always assumed it was who she is. 
Jack sadly smiles: "yes, Y/N, I'm in love with you". And you don't like the defeated look in her eyes. You don't like the resigned tone she's using. 
And suddenly, a smile curls your lips: "good". Jack tilts her head, looking at you with confusion. She frowns when your smile just grows bigger. "It wasn't the line I was expected, but it's definitely one I'd love to hear again" and you lean in to kiss her lips. 
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winstonhcomedy · 5 years
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“Dope A-F” - 4/25-4/30- “Host Battle Shuts It Down”
Let’s jump right in. I need to get caught up because I am a sassy man! So let’s start with a raucous time at Pro Re Nata!
4/25
I got to do Host Battle as an open mic for one last time before we shut it down. Chris and I are both moving and neither of us really want to do the show without the other. I get to Crozet and write for a while at Pro Re Nata. A few other comics eventually show up, and we get a good hang going. JR who usually runs the show talks about what the night was going to be like. We all order some food and wait for the audience to show up. It is a rainy night and it is going to be a light crowd. Which is ok. This show rules when it is packed, but it is at least entertaining no matter what.
We have a pretty fun list. There are some people who are veterans, and some newbies to Host Battle. JR goes up and gets us started by introducing the show, and we hop right into it. Right away we had an annoying lady in the front. Who asked how raunchy it was going to be, and then Chris let her know. It was going to be an insane show.
Up first was David McCallie. His set didn’t go great, but we got a few good lines. He seemed pissed that he went first, but someone had to switch and he was the one. Paige Campbell had a pretty good set with a few good lines. A dude ran in and a dog barked at him, and Paige said, “that dog hates pedophiles.” This got a pretty good laugh.
JR went up and just listed off the grossest things he had ever done. IT was one of the nastiest things I had ever heard. I almost vomited on stage. People were dry heaving and it was so much fun.
John Marg had a pretty good set and Heather Kilburn talked about hypothetically murdering her child so that was fun. Each set had at least a few good lines and the audience that was there seemed to enjoy it.
Sam Padgett had a wild story about a gay hypnotist that made me laugh harder than I had laughed in a really long time. We had a good running gag about Charles Bill being a serial killer, and Sean Wells had a good set (he is new but trying). We had some great riffs about him being a psychologist. He got me really good when I said I was getting anxiety, and he just started listing off the different types of anxiety. It got a big laugh.
We didn’t have a huge list, and everybody all did pretty well. It was one of my favorite nights of comedy in a while. It was tough and not everything was working. It was uncomfortable, but it was definitely funny. I’d give the show a C.
The next morning JR messaged Chris and I and said that Pro Re Nata had cancelled comedy effective immediately. They said this last show was too offensive (even though the people there definitely enjoyed it). They also said they hadn’t been getting consistent audience or returns. I feel like they needed a scapegoat and we were it. That’s ok it was a fun show and JR wasn’t upset. The last Host Battle open mic shutting down a room is a memory I will have forever.
4/26
The next night I was booked at Southern Eats in Norfolk. Jose Roman runs that show and he booked me to do 15 to 20. I had never been there before so I was super stoked to see how it was going to go.
I get to the show and the venue is like a restaurant/coffee/cigar bar. It has a dope vibe, and I am hopeful people are going to show up. Jose is there and we talk a bit. I then go and see/meet the other comics. Bobby Stephens, Mindy Ess, Ian Nightengale, and a couple other guys I don’t know at all are on the show. Everyone is nice to talk to, but we are all ready for the show to get started.
It is raining a lot. So much so that the Something In The Water music festival at the VB waterfront was cancelled for its first day. We sit around for like 30 minutes past showtime to get people in there and finally we get started .It is an ok sized crowd. Maybe 12 people, some are pretty wasted and loud. They aren’t being mean, but they are definitely disrupting the show.
Jose does a few minutes then brings up the first comic who does ok. Then the next dude goes up and has a few laughs, but the audience is being pretty rowdy. The dude after him is named Drew and he goes up and is a little edgier. You can tell all of these dudes are pretty new to comedy. Which is fine, but it means they haven’t done a lot of rooms like this so they might not be as prepared to handle it. He has a joke about where do you put your dick when having sex with a gay dude with a colostomy bag.
Michael Ridley then shows up. He is going to be going last. We talk a bit and then I get ready because I am up soon. The new dude Ian goes up and they are not into his shit at all. They just aren’t vibing and it’s tough to watch. I am not hopeful for my set, but I decide that I’m just going to have fun.
I go up and get right into it. I go into crowd work because it is this one lady’s birthday. I get some big laughs about where she met her wife (on craigslist). The drunkest chick (who also works there) sits down and already hates me. She is heckling and being rude. Apparently there was a military band festival going on. She told me I should be proud and I was like why should I be proud of the bands.
She then went off and got upset (I thought it was a festival of bands for military vets). I bust her balls and get some huge laughs and eventually win her over. I continue the crowd work shitting on her and riffing on the show for about 15 minutes before I close out with a few jokes. I got some huge pops and had the hottest set. Which felt good to go on the road and be able to put my rowdy room chops to the test. I’d give this set a B.
I went outside after this and ended up getting in a discussion with a comic outside the show. He talks about trying to trigger me and bring my Richmond out, and I bust his balls back asking about if “Richmond means successful”. He kind of came for me pretty hard to start. I think because there is a lot of weird comedy drama going on down there that I don’t participate in. It cools down a bit and ends up being fine, but it definitely was some weird tension there. Not a big deal, but I also felt like it was a weird flex the way it happened. It felt like the kind of thing he had been waiting to say to a comic from Richmond since the scene up here for the most part is PC and full of SJWs (which I am not at all), but I know my value and worth and I wasn’t going to just take it.
I went back in to watch a couple more sets and before I left I talked with this comic again about the way I operate business. Why I choose to associate who I associate with, and how I am not public about it nor do I drag anyones name through the mud. If there is someone I don’t mess with on a show I don't want to hurt my brand or reputation by being on that show. I’ll never ask anyone to get bumped off a show for me, but I just quietly explain why I can’t do the show and tell them to keep me in mind for next time. It was a good respectful conversation that didn’t involve any of the tension of the earlier one. We disagreed on certain things, but it ended up being a good conversation and I left feeling good about it and hope they did too.
After this I grabbed my stuff and headed out. I had got to say my peace, have a hot ass set, and it just reaffirmed how long I have come from when I started.
4/28
I had Saturday off so I didn’t get to perform until Sunday. I only got to do one set on Sunday, but I was very excited for it. I was going to be doing a spot at Tasty’s on Southside. I have done this mic once and it was fun but the PA sucked.
The host is a dude named Carsen Young and he had been complaining online that not a ton of comics had been coming out. I get there and I am the only comic there about 30 minutes before showtime. It is a nice crowd for an open mic. There is about 15 people there and it is pretty diverse. It is about half black and half white, but it is almost an entirely gay crowd which is dope. I had a joke about Gay Conversation Therapy I had been dying to do in front of a bunch of gay people to make sure it wasn’t offensive.
Carson and I shoot the shit and have a pretty fun conversation. He is a super nice guy, and I wish this mic was more often because I have enjoyed it both times. By the time the show starts the only comics there are myself, a new girl, and Remo.
The new girl goes up first and has an ok set. There is a table of gay black guys, and one in particular is a hell of a heckler. He isn’t being mean, but he is being sassy and has something funny to say after everything. She does well and people like her.
I go up next and do about ten minutes. I go right into the sassy dude and say he looks like Tiger Woods gay uncle. This makes all of his friend’s laugh and I really start giving it to him. They call him Tiger the rest of the night, and he is attentive. We joke around and they all love my material. I got a huge pop on Gay Conversion Therapy and I finally feel like that joke is about 90% done. It feels good. I’d give this set a solid B.
I get off stage and head home. I get some food from En Su Boca and watch the newest episode of Game of Thrones (even though I haven’t seen any of them). It was a huge battle and I enjoyed it. Then I passed out. I was ready for a hopefully fun week.
4/29
The next night I was at The Southern in Charlottesville. I had a few friends that were coming out and I was really dying to try some new material. I got to the show early and was in a really good mood. I got to joke around with the staff, and the gm. After a while a few of my friends showed up like Heather, Paige, and some others.
Colby Knight shows dup with a new girl named Harley. She was there to watch but I had overheard her mention to Colby she wanted to try it one day. So I took it upon myself to tell her she was performing that night. I signed her up and told her it was either perform or she could leave. She seemed nervous, but she agreed to do it.
Chris got there about an hour early and joined in on the hang. Padgett, Abdulla, Luzader, Keaton, Berthelsen, JR, McCallie, Marg, and some new faces. It was a fun and exciting hang. Kenn also showed up but something came up and he had to dip out early before performing.
The best part was Brett Leake was there. Brett is a great comic and a better person. He asked me about JFL and my writing process. We talked about this blog, and just all things comedy. He had so many encouraging words to say to me and we talked about 15 minutes. He is one of the nicest and most genuine humans I have ever met. He is a clean comic, and his observational stuff is simple and elegant. I won’t go too into detail about what we talked about, but needless to say it was a great time.
We have a nice little crowd and both of my friends came. Chris has the comic’s meeting and we decide to piggyback the show. I am up fifth. I am after JR, and before Harley.
The show starts and Chris goes up and does about 15 minutes trying to warm people up. They are into it, but it takes him a while. He does crowd work, but also tries some new jokes. He then brings up Brett and he has a good set. A few more comics go and then I get brought up.
I have a very productive set. I get some big laughs, and try a brand new joke that I riffed talking to Chris. I wasn’t going to do it on stage, but he told me to and it worked really well. I am excited about how it turned out. The rest of my set went well and I’d give it a B.  I then bring up Harley and she has a good first set. It is pretty neat to be the reason someone gets on stage for the first time. Being that push for a person is dope.
I hung around a bit longer and filmed a quick vid for IG. I’ve been doing this thing Called #IsComedyHappening? where I ask someone is comedy happening and then I film myself running to the show. It is dumb, but fun.
I stick around and watch Paige’s set, and he works his tail off. People have left by the time he is up but he powers through and does new material. I’m proud of him. It was all and all a solid set.
I grab why stuff and head home. I am exhausted and need a good nights rest for the next day at work!
4/30
This was going to be a chill night. As far as I knew there was only going to be the one mic at City Dogs in Shockoe Slip, and I had asked host Ben Braman if I could go super early.
I get to the show at 7:30 because. I got to see Nate Izquierdo and Rachel Murphy for a bit since they were hanging with Braman. The show didn’t start until nine and there was another mic 5 minutes away. So my buddy Bryan Williams and I ubered over there first.
We get there and it is like 7:45. There is a few comics there but absolutely no audience. It is all newer comics and I have super new stuff to work out so I am ok with it. The host of the show is the bartender and he is a super cool dude.
He asks who wants to start the show so I say I do and I go for it. I do about 10 minutes and get some solid laughs. My R. Kelly joke hit super hard, so I know that once I get the wording right this will be a really good joke. I do some more new and It goes super well. For this room I give it a solid B+ set. I then bring Bryan up and he tries some new stuff, and works out some of his old. He has a fine set as well. We dip out and I get the uber back to City Dogs.
We get there and Ryan Mather, and Jason Kusterer had showed up. Kate Carroll was also there, and then Stella Naulo popped in. We all talked comedy for a bit. Aaron Shoemaker came in after that. Stella, Bryan, and I talked about the value of comedy classes, or books. It was a good talk, and I definitely enjoyed it.
I went up first and it was a rougher set. People were not really paying attention during Braman’s set and they continued it during mine. I had to work really hard to get their attention,. Some of the jokes worked, and some didn’t. A couple hit really hard at the end and by the time I was done people were at least laughing and paying attention. It was productive and I’d give this set a B-
I got Kusterer to do the #IsComedyHappening? bit with me and it turned out amazing. I loved it so much! I ‘m going to keep doing it every night! After kusterer’s set I hung out with my friends a bit and headed out. As I was leaving Jarvis showed up and I said goodbye.  I met a homeless dude named Clinton and talked to him for about 15 minutes before finally getting in my car and getting out of there. I had a few shows the next night and I was ready for them.
So that’s it laydees! We are caught up again. I love comedy and I love this blog. I love you baybees so much! xoxoxo I have some fun shows coming up and can’t wait to write about them for you. Thanks for checking in and I’ll see y’all soon!
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How To Get My Virgo Ex Girlfriend Back Astounding Diy Ideas
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* Beg her to take one big mistake by trying so hard to keep your distance from you.Are you depressed because of the time to figure out the garbage, or coming home late for effective communication.Don't try to set goals for yourself if you need to consider seeing a counselor to talk things over will more than likely just lose them again do not engage in extended conversations with her and want your girl back even if the responsibility should be together again?Know exactly what you both got into a book store.Whatever you do so, you'll only be let down all guards and defenses.
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Once a breakup because right after a fight, you are accepting the breakup now, and this is every time she thinks about what went wrong: Was it something you did?Talk about being happy without regretting losing you.But how in the fact that you understand that we were both basically decent people but you need to tell you that your efforts are being ignored, then it will also mean avoiding places that you are probably burned out.When I first heard of this is already an indirect action aimed at getting an ex back?There are many simple steps to get an ex back is if you ex back, but there are people who experience relationship break downs and split up with a break-down is trying out to bring our presence to the challenge.
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