#we just run big in my family!

[fumifooms]

Dad always said I was like him

Meijack and Chilchuck Tims Dungeon Meshi, Ryoko Kui

^ 1: Moony moonless sky, Fatima Aamer Bilal / 2: Bug like an angel, Mitski / 3: Woodtangle, Mary Ruefle / 4: The Third Hour of the Night, Frank Bidart / 5 & 6: FROM THE MAKERS OF "TWO-MOM ENERGY DRINK," IT'S "LET YOUR FATHER DIE ENERGY DRINK,", Daniel Lavery & Cecilia Corrigan / 7: Batman: Year Three (1989) / 8 & 9 : FROM THE MAKERS OF […], Daniel Lavery & Cecilia Corrigan / 10: Wilt, CJ the X / 11: How Do We Forgive Our Fathers, Dick Lourie / 12: Milk and honey, Rupi Kaur / 13: / 14: Moony moonless sky, Fatima Aamer Bilal / 15: Someday I’ll Love Ocean Vuong, Ocean Vuong / 16: untitled, joan tierney v 17: Drunk, The Living Tombstone / 18: unknown

When your father tried his best to provide for you but he worked all the time and even when he was home he was either tired or stressed and he’s always liked to get drunk to relax and cheer up. When you know he values work ethics and respectability so you grew up to be capable and quiet. And when he says you’re like him you’re sort of puzzled, does he really know you so little, or does he know himself so little? But you like the feeling of your father ruffling your hair so you accept it, and still you stand next to your mother just as silent and just as stoic as her during family gatherings. He leaves again and again and when your mother leaves him nothing changes, really. You wonder if it’s more telling that you know him better than he seems to himself or that you don’t know him as much as you wish you did, or that you don’t think about him all that much these days. Out of sight, out of mind. And he’s never really been there, even when he was there, after all.

#It’s ok they do get in touch again and he prob at least lives to 40 #Alright I’m ready to be normal about chilchuck again #Spoilers #I guess? #dungeon meshi #chilchuck tims #meijack #chilchuck’s family #meijack chils #Web weaving #alcoholism #cw alcohol #webweave #A couple more i liked are a rearview mirror we’re not as close as we appear line and this french one from #Kristina Gauthier-Landry that goes like hands full of trout running up to you / look what i caught look / how much you love me #And this other one about chocolate coins that a dad arriving from work in middle of the night gives the happy little daughter running up #And it’s so anticlimatic and about transactional relationships and oughh ough it’s a good book #I am Chil is a complex absentee father truther sorry. Idc go see my analyses if you want don’t argue w me here #posts for which i am the target audience #Oh oh another one : So were we close? Or was it just the big things that held us together and the small things that let us fall apart? #The word father rotted in my mouth #Bc it’s left there to rot get it get it……….. #Sigh. Like father alike daughter #I’m a truther that she’s more like her mom demeanor wise

[churchandstateofbeing]

sometimes love is watching someone lose all of the money your boss gave you for chefs tools at a casino and then immediately volunteering to lose a bunch of your own items in exactly the same way just because he’s convinced you that it’s a good idea

#a starstruck odyssey #dimension 20 #gunnie miggles rashbax #big barry syx #we NEED to talk about their friendship more #like yes starstruck ended nearly two years ago #but it never ended in my heart so there #and as much as i love the syx/sid platonic soulmates dynamic #and i REALLY love their dynamic (i love the whole gunner channel family dynamic i am normal i promise) #we as d20 fans do not talk about the gunnie/barry dynamic which is so strong and beautiful and so so stupid NEARLY enough #and i think it could be reasonably interpreted both platonically or romantically but either way #jumping like 10+ stories and nearly dying #to make sure your buddy’s cybertronic parts aren’t damaged while you are both running from the corporate CIA #or jumping into your buddy’s arms while skiffing #as first impulse because you just went over a huge bump and your parts could get damaged but you know your buddy will protect you #that is love i think

[natjennie]

had a dream I was playing a ttrpg and my character was sort of a gay werewolf tom wambsgans who married into this powerful supernatural, mostly vampire, family. I've never wanted anything to be true so badly.

#i dont remember who else was playing. i honestly think matt mercer was there? #idk who my husband was #but i do remember we hadn't discussed being married before playing and i just kind of improvised that #and then out of character i was like 'were we married before or did i just make that up?' #and he was like 'no you just made that up but i love it keep going' #it was great #it was like cunty rich family politics but also supernatural creatures #and at one point we were being chased by idk hunters or something #and there was one little girl in the family who liked to go invisible and scare people on the stairs #so as we were running back into the big manor house like barely alive #me and another party member both remembered to chuck something towards the top of the stairs to make her visible again #she was like a last minute trap. #and then i was thinking maybe we could use her invisibility to hide from who was chasing us #but then i woke up

[p2iimon]

drawing more furry fnaf art. yknow just to keep you posted. i love posting in the tags sorry these ones got away from me

#sammy is a brown bear (like freddy). his mom is white like funtime freddy #then crying child is blue (like bon bon. and to go with lizzies bonnet pink) (theyre not twins in my au but they definitely act like it. so #its like cute.) mrs. afton is blue violet (rockstar bonnie) bc i was running out of colors. i had already assigned her blue anyway. #max is black bc i seriously ran out of rabbit colors. or! no wait shadow bonnie. thats totally the inspo and not i had made his ears black #already. i think thats literally every rabbit color available. the afton family is pretty big. ig vanny. who would go with vanessa. obvi bu #shes not in my au. or at least not an afton. and therefore not a rabbit. if she was though shed be white. #and if you havent seen any previously drawn ones henry and william are yellow (obviously. they already have fursonas. theyre the reason #everyone else gets one. LOL) micheals purple like classic bonnie (who... is purple even if it was then retconned. hes purple. look at #withered bonnie. i hate ppl who say its just lighting. thats a lie by big blue bonnie. he was literally purple and then he changed his mind #like i said lizzie is pink like bonnet. and then charlie is black like lefty. because duhh. #DONT ask me about how this shit works okay. the rabbit dated the rabbit and the bear dated the bear. bc thats what happened. theres not #here. the bears got divorced. and the rabbits. the yellow rabbit and bear are fucking #no um. i like willry but i think if they were really fucking. i just think things would go differently. henry's gay in my au i dont think i #he actually had a man to fuck he'd manage to have children. its not who he is to me. will is bi but he obv thinks henry is some exception t #him being perfectly normal and straight. everyone wants to fuck their business partner. otherwise youd do it yourself #ig they can fuck after. i hate when people do these boring aus where henry and william never get married and william isnt a murderer and so #like what? theres nothing? just a couple of guys? if im looking for fics where theyre fucking im not looking for a fic where everything is #nice and clean. be serious. can we at least have some angst about it being the 70s or are you too much of a bitch for that too #anyway..... #simons spouting #simons fnaf au #OH also if anyone reads this whats the stance on this stupid idea i have where sammy pretends he has a thing for michael to annoy max. bc. #their parents had a thing for eachother. and sammy and max have a more familial relationship. and michael and charlie have a familial #relationship. but michael and sammy have barely met and do not at all. is it pushing it? i was thinking yknow from sammys perspective that' #'his sons' dad but! like you can fuck your sons dad. that's not weird. unless thats the way youre phrasing it i guess LOL. but i guess #michael would be like. thats 'my sisters' brother. and that is not someone you fuck*. BUT this isnt michaels perspective its sammy being #annoying. and from sammys perspective that is NOT his sister and there for NOT his sisters brother. *also im pretty sure this is subjective #if youre just friends. yknow. the ethics of sammy using this to bother max is not on the table because i think he deserves to be a #a bit of an ass. anyway LMAOO fkdglfg. let me know if youd like ive got anon asks on. please dont judge me for not knowing this.

[dykegeology]

Share houses where everyone just like. minds their own business are like pretty decent. Share houses but someone decides they want to make a like group where everyone's super close and goes to all sorts of stuff together become the most unparalleled mechanism of torment and horror

#like i literally just live here. #would take at least 2 housemates like my one last year who kept using everyone elses dishes and not washing them over like. 0.5 of the one #who will constantly be like ummmm how often do you drink coffee 🤨🤨 why did you run down the hallway 😠 AND TODAY 'MAYBE YOU SHOULD #CONSIDER GOING TO A DOCTOR FOR DEPRESSION' a) we literally do not know each other b) I do in fact. already do that which you're definitely #aware because you were asking about my antidepressants a few months ago #she's the one who thinks it's great to kill spiders and bully 9 year olds and that we should all be a big happy family <3 like no????

[todayisafridaynight]

uhhh something something 'the only time a yakuza should laugh with his teeth is when he's with family or in trouble' something something arakawa gradually doing so more and more when hanging around jo something something Uh Oh™️

#arasawa #snap chats #DO WE GET WHAT I MEAN. #im not arguin semantics rn just listen to me im gripping you by the shoulders reader #it can go either way A.) arakawa gradually seeing jo as a part of his persoanl family opposed to The General Family #B.) you know how in fanfics theres that 'Oh. /Oh./' trope Yeah. i want big man to realize he's a lil doki doki for one of his guys #why the fuck i frame it like these arent in the same vein I CANNOT THINKKKKKK STRAAAIGHT #BUT NOOOO LISTEEENNNN i know bro would be SOOO conflicted. dare i say... he'd be in trouble SEE DO WE SEE WHAT IMEA #ok you can stop looking at me. im delirious. insane. delulu. its cause i cant draw rn its hard and my head hurts #ive been struggling with this idea for. WEEKS. i CANNOT find a way to make a comic out of it and its making me loco and mad #so im just throwing it out into the ether as Free Real Estate if anyone else wants a crack at it. or yk just so i can share it #LIKE THERE'S SOMETHING HERE I KNOW THERE IS I AM BRUSHING IT WITH MY FINGERTIPS BUT I CANNOT GRAB IT #you know it fuckin bad when i actually make a text post about it thats how you know Im At My Limit #driving me insane....... i just need everyone to know im rotating them like SSBB trophies.... #anyway. yeah youre right i still havent drawn shit #UUUGGGHHHHH should... or shold i sleep.... #let me try to force myself to sketch something and then ill run to my car and sleep there or somethin #idk. anyway bye i love the old people

[acanthyme]

finally snowed for more than a dusting. went to crazy and shovelled sooooo many driveways. arms sore and i'm so cold but worthhhhhh...

#i dooo get paid for one of them so..... #and omggg i'm so embarrassed #so ok. our new next door neighbours haven't talked to us much so idk much about them #and we used to shovel the driveway for the lady who used to live there bc she was older and disabled and our driveways r very close #like. touching eachother #my bf said our roofs were kissing the houses are angled close to eachother. regardless. #so the snows piling up and the cars not there so i figure i'll at least shovel a path to the front door/garage so they can plug their car in #and i'm wearing big headphones to protect my ears from the wind / because the windchill made it -30 out of nowhere. #and i saw that their shovel was broken too!!! so of course i'm gonna shovel their yard.... #so im doin my thang. shovelling. i do it in a weird ish pattern but that's just how i prefer to do it #and i'm always nervous about being up at ppls doors when i shovel so i'm already on edge #AND I TURN TO FINISH UP AND THEIR KID IS GETTING HOME FROM SCHOOL #maybe like. 7-9th year aged. idk #younger than me of course but i'm a little wimp so i squeak like a dumbass #and just go 'sorry!' before running off to shovel the other side of the road 😭😭😭 #i would've done more if that girl hadn't scared me off.... #nice little kick of anxiety for me for today.... but.... i mean #and like. i was up in their front yard. i shovelled out a path to their compost/garbage bins so they could still put those out #i did the steps.... i must have looked like a little freak that family has like never seen me i never leave the house.......

[designernishiki]

anyway. nishiki and majima are both borderline and i could do a whole case study on either of them about it. send tweet

#im pretty flexible about most hcs regarding mental disorders and such but this take is one im like pretty fucking steadfast on #and I could write. an absurd amount about it. cause psychoanalyzing the shit out of characters is literally like. what I do for a living #and I have a weird special interest in abnormal psych and the dsm-5 in my closet and a psychologist for a mother and etc #but yeah so #inquire further at your own risk because I will talk. I will talk a lot #the only issue with majima is that I can’t evaluate his childhood and family life and just. his fundamental years of development in general #which is a pretty big deal when it comes to assessing for any personality disorder #nishiki oh yeah I absolutely can. but yeah we know basically nothing about majimas fundamental years. all I can really do is reverse #engineer so to speak based on how he is as an adult and what causes a person to do the things he does / be the way he is / etc #but of course that’d all be very very loose and hypothetical. FASCINATING to think about to me but obviously would have to be taken with a #huge grain of salt and be considered very very speculative #but I can say for sure that he didn’t have a stable and perfect home life/family life growing up I think that’s pretty safe to assume #anything more detailed than that is way more speculative but. yeah. I don’t think he was just. Normal. up until he was 20 #his identity issues run way too deep for me to accept that concept #anyway I need to shut up #majima #nishiki #rambling

[syncrovoid-presents]

Random thoughts: Can't wait until I move again next year back to the valley. Super excited for all our local festivals and celebrations!! Sadly they dont happen where I am now, no one even has heard of them.

Big L to these folks they don't know the freedom of trading skills and the fresh sea and local wildlife. Or celebrating just to celebrate. Where are the get togethers? Where are the potlucks? The community? The rules of politeness and friendliness are different here and it's strange how friendly from the valley is seen as overextending yourself here.

Also I can't wait to see the mechanical riding bull at the various ocean creature festivals we do! Also no one does any cèilidh here? It is strange and interesting and folks around this city (very far fromthe valley) are different? But I am acclimating, although I still am looking forward to going back too

#syncrovoid.txt #rambling #we have festivals every other weekend in the valley! some big and some are town specific #cèilidh are like social get togethers. like casual parties really? its a local word! #some folks will sing or bring instruments to them too #also there is SO many less artists around here? where are the hand sculptures? the many painters? the small art galleries all around town? #the houses are so sad here too. none are blue or yellow or orange or green. theyre all the same few bland colours #where is the fun? where is the pizzazz? where is the sparks of personality? #home sick #the houses are so crowded too? no one has space. and everything here is branded. there's no generational stores? few family run businesses? #there is public transportation though! that is limited to one bus in the valley where the towns can be an hour or two a part #it is odd though. starting to miss home i think. i do miss the acceptance of artists a lot. in the valley it is celebrated! #nearly everyone has some arts they are good at or enjoy #and personal time (time away from work) is just a given #there is like no connection to the land or history here either? #ghough the valley is a hodgepodge of things at least we still have some local slang and words and whatnot #anywho! it is what it is #its weird to feel homesickness when ive moved like 10 times before? only other place i feel like this towards is my forest #i spent nearly all my time there when we lived there. last day before we moved they started beinging in the machines to tear it down #climbed high in a tree on the farthest edges and wayched as they began bulldozing it down and tearing it up #aucks to know all the wonders and life has been paved over and destroyed #but i cant go back to that home (the forest) because it no longer exists. the valley still exists though so!! that is great!! #anyways i am rambling haha

[girlwithfish]

transitions and change always make me so stressed. even if its as simple as i need to pack and drive 3hrs back to my apartment which i havent been to in 3wks and its been empty for that long so idk if anyrhinghappened or if its dusty or there are bugs it stresses me out that im not there. even tho i want to go back bc its my safe place even tho i will also feel really depressed being alone but i also do not feel good where i am now and everything going on w family. but i am also not used to being back there and i have to pack and unpack and i hate that. i hate change. also hate living the same day over and over so i will probably feel depressed once im alone and have no routine but i will build a routine for myself 👍

#feel like im not normal after coming back to the US maybe my body fsels off but ive been soooo fkn tired #the past 3 wks with my family bc we get up early i always go to bed a little later then wake up at like 8 which is early for me i run on #3-5hrs of sleep multiple times a day and havent slept in much at all. get back and the worst thing ever happened yestersay #w stress levels so high sobbing and crying for hours sucj a big mess and now i just dont feel normal or like safe emotionally i dont feel #like i can talk to anyone and my bfs leaving for ten days which isnt that long but im insane so a total of3wks of not seeing him makes me #sad plus yesterday was so hard so it just feels hard to be alone soon but i also really need to be alone. ok cool

[accelerandy15]

"That's kind of cute, Koichiro." - Someya Yujiro

Someya Bros because they were the stars of yesterday's ep💙

#honeyworks #heroines run the show #heroine tarumono #someya yuujirou #someya koichiro #confession executive committee #honeyworks fanart #hworks #honey works #medibang paint #Lily's haniwa artz #So uh yeah ep10... I HAVE SO MUCH TO TALK ABOUT WTF #Everything that happened was soo unexpected it had me glued into my seat #First the Someya brothers development I was so shock and happy of what just happened #Huehuehue Tsundere bros and Yujiro being a big brother ah my heart #In the midst of a heavy atmosphere you can count on Shibaken to save you from depression XD #My glasses legit fell from my face in that Ken scene and oh finally we get to see Kuro oh and Yujiro's dog's name #And the Aiyuu no scenario scene was the last straw that had me laughing at 12am they so dumb #*sobbing LipxLip's siblings are slowly getting back together when is the family gathering ahem after wedding??? #*also sobbing cuz I don't want the anime to end TvT

[hehosts]

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#im just gonna be real with you all #without going into all the other IRL stuff but basically like #grandma is in stage 4 renal failure and has one kidney so #that’s why ive been so busy primarily on top of just all the other stuff and cons #and otter is working to the bone #some good thoughts would be appreciated #she could still live another few years but she’s stubborn when it comes to things #diet being a big one as she has diabetes and other issues aside from the kidney #which some of you might remember the situation with said kidney in 2021 #so im not disinterested and im not slow im just legit very stressed and busy and trying to keep it all up in the air #she’s getting better but each day is different so it requires a lot of my attention #as we are helping now run her business too and will eventually take it over #ive lived with grandma for the last ten years we have a lot of history and she’s family #and she raised otter so this is a deep connection so it’s very difficult

[darewolfcreates]

Pokemon drawings about a dream I had.

#dream was... intresting? i was running away from team megma but team magma was run by archie not maxie and i was offred to join their team #cuz they were going to destory this world and it whould be a shame if such a strong trainer were to die with the world but i told him to #drink piss cuz he corupted the data of my friend to freeze him. #then my friend's data was recovered and a family friend reached out to me to join him in a battle team #it was like a regular pokemon battle but its 6 pokemon between 3 people. and then your fighting 3 peoople with a total of 6 pokemon #but eatch person also has 6 pokemon. but you can only use a total of 6 of them between the 3 of you #my team chouldent find the door to the battle arena and it was our match so we just jumped into the arena from teh stands #my umbron was my main baby and was able to pick off 3 of their pokemon before going down but it was still my turn to send out pokemon SO I #SENT OUT THE GOD OF POKEMON. and aparently this was a big deal cuz the pokemon system worked like pokemon go except phyically manafested #but the pokemon were still jsut data. but there were also real pokemon. data pokemon were introduced becuse real pokemon were so threated #and very few were left so to make things better for them humans whould fight with data pokemon insteed. and no arceus was ever added as a #data pokemon becuse they chould never get the data for it. so i had the real arceus. #after wakeing up i realized all the pokemon in my team were the pokemon i had drawn for my art class where i was makeing greek mugs out of #pokemon heads. so this was me drawing the order of obtaining them plus a tad bit of lore. #Chicken Scratch #dreams #pokemon #fanart #artists on tumblr #umbron #charizard #might post the mug sketches too but i have the 2 i acstholly made here in this blog. #my dreams #Arceus #Pidgey #Pidgeotto #Pidgeot #Gogoat #Skiddo #Charmander

[deeisace]

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#big ol tmi right here stop reading if you're not afan of scary medical stuff #well. potential scary medical stuff. im scared but idk what's happening #basically. the only thing that's changed in my life is that im on the depo injection right #and now (here is the tmi) every time I masturbate it's. blood. instead of the usual. like the black bits you get with a heavy period too #which i think i remember knowing is like womb skin bits. the black bits in period blood #anyway that's gross #and im scared #i looked it up and like one website said ehh you're fine that's a normal side effect and one said Go See A Doctor Immediately #so uh. yeah. #im hoping it's fine. but im gonna go to the injection appt to talk about this instead of having the injection. #i haven't spoke to anyone about it yet im hoping typing it here will kinda make it easier to say on the 19th #like ill think it's over wait a couple days ahh y'know and then after or sometimes ill notice like an hour later #ill bleed overnight and sometimes the next day again #by 'ill think its over' i mean the light-for-me periods i get on the depo #unless im supposed to have stopped entirely and the whole thing is due to the same issue idk #i don't know the signs of cancers other than breat cancer - it doesn't run in the family apparently but we are all at high risk #they were gonna do like top surgery on me as a kid just in case but they ended up not #i wish they had tbh itd save a great deal of bother #sorry anyway im big stressed and im in period-level pain and all my joints are bad again and everything #so im rambling now cs im scared #i can do injections but im very very scared of like. exams and stuff. especially this kind

[vimbry]

drains collapsed. under house

#we've had on and off plumbing issues for like 2 months now & this is why. so #no clear reason why probably just. you know age and wear. uk sewer system's old and garbage #my parent & I have had flu also which I still have a lingering cough/feel tired from #anddd we haven't been speaking to my grandparents (who we prev saw like. once a week) for about the same length as the plumbing issue #after they did something pretty selfish and thoughtless and are the type too proud to apologise/want everyone to move on #so now we're at a stalemate bc we're still hurt and it's like. even if we do move past it #I still view them differently now. you know? family disappointing you really leaves you feeling empty #I already went nc with my other parent in 2019 cause they suck and then my dog died in 2020 #just feel like I'm slowly running out of people in my immediate circle esp with pandemic limitations #and this is just like. a whole thing now on top of the existing energy crisis to worry about #also someone stole our recycling bin LMAO like I put it out for collection a few days ago and now it's just gone dk where it is #which is not that big a deal you can just order another for free but it's like. why'd you have to do that man #I want to be grateful for what I've got knowing people are living through warzones and famine rn but like #I'm very weak and things mess me up easily I won't lie #that information only makes things worse. I mean each year everything just gets worse around the world. #it's already blisteringly hot each summer I just don't feel very. hopeful about anything anymore #I've just been really depressed #I guess the good thing is not caring about anything means I don't even particularly care about venting this online lol #it's hard to feel any cringeworthiness or insecurity over anything when you're not feeling anything at all

[mxwhore]

Sometimes hating is cathartic. Being a hater sometimes is within the natural range of emotions and it’s never good to repress those.

Take a moment to be a hater, and once it’s out of your system, reflect on the things you hated on. What did you hate on? Why did you hate on it? What about it made you hate on it? Is it something that is genuinely bad (i.e nazis) and deserves to be hated on? Or is the hating from personal preference, such as liking/disliking broccoli? Is the hating constructive toward your own emotional state?

Accept that hating is part of the Feelings soup.

Im just hating on some family members and my current state of being

#my granny aunt (who is arguably my real grandma since the other two mistreat me/forget i exist) is sick #so my mom and i are looking after her and her farm #thats not the thing that got me hating btw we luv her #her son fucking sucks #he is always ready to take advantage of her #he is currently in the beach living it big. he called her two days ago and when she told him he was feeling sick he started giving her shit #like its HER fault being 79 years old and running her own farm without help #so my nan hung up on him. one day later he called again all hugs and kisses saying he will be there for the weekend with all his family #which like GREAT except it isnt #because they have HER do everything and they will be prolly off to the village festival #so yeah #very angry very sad for my nan #hating on my current state of being is the usual tho lmao cant fix that just live with it #tessa answers! #also i slept like ass so