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bucky-bucky-bucky-bucky · 2 months

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Maybe I’m the odd one out here but What is and What Should Never Be always absolutely destroys me. I weep for almost the entire episode.

Dean has a home. He has someone who loves him. His life is normal and safe. And I cry.

The way he looks at Mary when he sees her for the first time. The way he nearly crumbles when she says “I told you angels were watching over you”. And then he hugs her with everything he has. He’s so happy to be back with him mom, back in his childhood home. His mom makes him lunch and it’s the best thing that’s ever happened to him. He gets to mow the lawn like a normal person. The trunk of his car isn’t full of weapons. He’s just ordinary, and he’s so happy about it. So I cry.

And the way he hugs Jess? He only ever met the girl once but he knows how much she means to Sam. And he knows that losing her almost killed his brother. And so he hugs her as tight as he can, because he’s so thrilled that she’s alive and Sam is happy. And I cry.

But what also kills me is the way that Sam and his mom talk about Dean. They’re always asking if he’s been drinking. They’re suspicious of all of his actions and his affections. Maybe the version of Dean from this life wasn’t exactly on the straight and narrow, but they talk about him like he’s a deadbeat. So I cry.

Jesus Christ, and when Dean goes to talk to his dad at the cemetery?

“It's like my old life is… is coming after me or something. Like it like it doesn't want me to be happy. Course I know what you'd say. Well, not the you that played softball but... "So go hunt the Djinn. He put you here, it can put you back. Your happiness for all those people's lives, no contest. Right?" But why? Why is it my job to save these people? Why do I have to be some kind of hero? What about us, huh? What, Mom's not supposed to live her life? Sammy's not supposed to get married? Why do we have to sacrifice everything, Dad?”

He doesn’t say “why can’t I have the life I want?” Sure, he asks why he has to be a hero. But he makes it more about Sam and his mom. Because he wants them to have the lives they deserve. And this moment just gives us another look at what a bastard John was. Dean knew how dismissive and rude John would be. He knew that John would never choose his own son’s happiness over the lives of strangers. And he’d probably scream at Dean for even considering the “selfish” option. The way Dean says that his old life doesn’t want him to be happy also kills me. Because it’s like, no matter where he goes or what he does, he’s destined for misery. So I sob.

And so Dean goes to hunt the Djinn. He chooses the lives of others over everything, like he always does. And he realizes his new life isn’t real. He realizes he’s been unconscious this entire time, and that Jess is dead. His mom is dead. Carmen doesn’t really exist. And I cry.

So he’s ready to kill himself, but the way that his family tries to convince him to stay?

Oh my god. Spiegel im Spiegel starts playing, and Sam asks “why’d you have to keep digging?”

Mary tells him to put the knife down. She says it doesn’t matter that this life isn’t real, it’s still better than anything he had before. And that yeah, in real life, he will die in a few days. But it will feel like years. And there will be “No more pain. Or fear. Just love and comfort. And safety,” none of which Dean has in his real life

But Dean still chooses to return to his life, because he cares more about our saving people than he does about his own happiness.

And he tells Sam about the fake life the djinn created for him. About how Sam was happy with Jess. And their mom was going to have grandchildren. Sam commends him for having the strength to fight it, to leave it behind. And Dean says, “But I wanted to stay. I wanted to stay so bad. I mean, ever since Dad... all I c– all I can think about is how much this job's cost us. We've lost so much. We've... sacrificed so much.”

and it’s like, damn. Why can’t Dean ever be truly happy? Cause even in this “happy” version of his life, everything was tinged with pain and sadness and grief. And I just wish he could get a break. So I cry and cry and cry and cry.

#supernatural #supernatural rewatch #supernatural season 2 #what is and what should never be #dean winchester #jensen ackles #sam winchester #jared padalecki #Sam and Jess #mary winchester #samantha smith #djinn

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alatusxiaoo · 3 years

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soulmate

content: fluff, endless reincarnation into countless lives with memories of the past ones & always meant to fall in love with the same person all over again

character/s: kazuha

note: inspired by flora cash’s soulmate (pls check it out it srsly has all of my heart <33)!! the music video and its lyrics seriously touched my heart, and i thought it would be an interesting concept of love. im sorry if it feels so rushed my ideas were all over the place and so this is the result of it all thrown together. i really hope you enjoy and as always, have a lovely day !!!

KAEDEHARA KAZUHA

Feels like we've lived a hundred lives before

Together and then decided on one more.

Here on earth where everything is cruel

'Cause no one knows that this is just a school.

“You’re here early.”

You feel your heart race at the sound of his voice. The stars were out on a lovely evening, and you were standing over the edge of a cliff that overlooked the nation of Liyue - the spot where you agreed to meet your lover. The sound of leaves crunching under familiar footsteps echoed throughout the distant breeze, until they finally stopped and you feel a warm presence beside you.

“I’ve been here for a while now.”

For what it's worth, I'd die with you again

100 more times multiplied by ten.

“Why aren’t you listening to me?!” You shout with tears in your eyes, staring at the samurai standing in front of you with a frustrated expression on his face.

“So it’s either wandering or I choose to settle down with you?” He asks in disbelief, throwing his hands up in the air. “That isn’t fair to me.”

“I’m not asking you to give up on wandering the world.” You sniffle, folding your arms on your chest. “You said you loved me, Kazuha. Now you don’t want to marry me?”

“I’ll be tied down.” He answers, shaking his head. “You know you deserve better.”

“How could I ask for better when you’re right in front of me?”

I hope I'll always have you in my mind

So that I know to find you every time.

“You just…can’t make me decide.” He firmly states, walking past you to swiftly approach the exit of your once lively, now somber little house.

“Because you know you won’t choose me?”

His hand hesitates on the doorknob, and for a second you think he’s going to turn around and walk back to you like he used to.

“I’m sorry. Let’s just…do what we should have done a long time ago.”

“And that is…?” Your words comes out in a shaky whisper, the wet puddle of tears beneath your feet soaking on the wooden floor.

“Forget.”

Soul mate, soul mate, soul mate

Won't you dance here with me while it grows late?

Put your head on my chest, that's your safe place

We'll fall deeper in love every day.

“Is it weird that sometimes I feel like I’ve met you before?” You ask, glancing over to look at Kazuha, who stared down below at the vibrant harbor that glowed amidst the darkness of the night.

“I don’t know. Sometimes I feel it too.” He answers, and you feel his slender fingers gently intertwine with yours.

“Do you think we’ve seen each other in our past lives?”

Kazuha hums in agreement. “That sounds sort of plausible. Perhaps we were lovers as well back then.” He remarks, the thought of it bringing a soft smile to his lips.

“I wonder if we ever made it to the end together back then.”

From life unto life and for always

I'll be there when you need me around.

When night finally comes

And the leaves have fallen from the tree

Baby, you'll have me.

Soul mate.

“Y/N.”

The pitter patter of raindrops bitterly sang in the empty cemetery. Kazuha looks down at the slab of stone beneath his feet - and he can’t tell if it’s the rain falling on his face, or the tears finally shedding from his eyes.

“I shouldn’t have let them take you.” He breathes, swallowing down the vomit that threatened to leave his lips from staring at the blood-stained bracelet hanging from the gravestone - the only piece of you left behind from the violent aftermath.

The Inazuma Bakufu had eventually managed to get a hold of Kazuha and tear him into pieces, by taking what the criminal desired most in his life - you.

Now there was no reason to keep running away from his predetermined fate anymore.

Not that there was anyone to run back to at the end of it anyway.

Maybe there's not a brightness in this dark

Other than what is burning in this heart.

But if we fight to keep this thing alive

Pretty sure there's no end to us in sight.

“You look…beautiful.”

A familiar figure steps up into your reflection in the mirror, and you smile softly at your unexpected guest.

“You came.”

He nodded carefully, biting back his lip to keep the wrong words from tumbling out his mouth. “I wanted to see you one last time.”

Your eyes flicker down to the ring on your right finger that Kazuha left you on a fleeting evening - the distant promise of forever now perishing in the hands of destiny and time.

Now you were in this extravagant wedding dress, about to swear evermore to another man other than the one standing behind you.

“You know I’ll always love you..right?” You whisper, shutting your eyes tightly to hide the tears from ruining the makeup caked onto your face.

You feel a hand rubbing your bare shoulder, his touch never failing to send shivers down your spine and your heart into a frenzy. “I know.”

“I’m sorry it turned out this way.”

“Don’t be.” He breathes, eyes never leaving your image in the reflection - his mind traitorously wandering to the fantasy of you in all your radiant beauty, walking down the aisle to his arms instead.

“We…were never supposed to be.”

And you know what he means. He only had one job - to watch over you as your guardian while your betrothed left for a year-long business trip, while you waited for him to come back home - only to realize home was waiting right beside you all this time.

Oh, how cruel the twist of fate weaved out for the two of you.

You feel his fingers stroke yours, and you open your eyes only to see him kiss your hand with a sad smile plastered on his lips.

“Forever and always?” He asks quietly, looking deep into your irises for the very last time in a long while.

“…forever and always.”

I'll follow you into whatever is next

Or you can follow me, whatever's best.

First let's dance the dance that lovers do

Before we go to sleep and start anew.

“I don’t know if it matters.”

You raise an eyebrow at his unexpected answer. “Really?”

He nods firmly, his fingers absentmindedly rubbing your hand with care. “It matters more to me now that I must have you in this lifetime.”

“But what about the past?”

“What’s there to understand about it?” He questions, meeting your solemn gaze.

“I just…get the feeling that maybe mistakes we made will continue to haunt us. For the rest of our lives.” You hesitantly share, feeling his arm snake around your waist and pull you towards his embrace.

“I don’t want to lose you, Kazuha.”

Soul mate, soul mate, soul mate

Won't you dance here with me while it grows late?

Put your head on my chest, that's your safe place

We'll fall deeper in love every day.

“You wish to marry…a commoner?”

Kazuha winces at the venomous tone laced in his father’s voice. He can feel heavy and judgmental glares boring into his sides from all sorts of directions, and he nods at the statement.

“I want to marry Y/N-“

An ear-shattering slap echoes throughout the eerily quiet dining area, and Kazuha can hear his mother stand up and reprimand his father’s violent action.

“You shouldn’t have done that! He’s our son!”

“So you’re saying we let him go and marry into poverty?!”

Kazuha didn’t even dare to speak or look back up - his hand is on his cheek, a red mark blossoming from where his father had hit him.

He could feel the rest of the disappointed family’s gazes on him, and yet all he cared about was creating an elaborate plan to elope with you, whether commoner or not.

“Didn’t he say he liked the other family’s daughter? You know, the one who is heir to those mining grounds filled with precious ores?”

“Yes.” His father snaps his fingers, glancing over to the silent man. “You went on a date with her. You told us you liked her. How the hell did a commoner end up weaseling her way into this conversation?”

Kazuha shook his head, reminiscing those lovely events he spent with you that morning, instead of with a stranger.

“I lied.” He hesitantly confesses, feeling his fists crumple under the dining table. “I love Y/N. And not those rich strangers you choose to ser me up with.”

“You-“

“I never cared about marrying into poverty. In fact, I would be more than grateful to do so.” Kazuha continues, daring to glance back up to meet darkened eyes.

The room goes silent for a moment. Kazuha thinks its a chance - an opportunity to finally convince his family that he wishes to marry you. He opens his mouth to speak again, only to hear a loud sigh erupt from his father, before swiftly beckoning over a guard to his side.

“Yes, sir?”

“I want that commoner dead.”

“…what?”

Kazuha can feel the world pause in this mere moment. The salty taste of blood spreads in his mouth from biting his tongue throughout the whole conversation. Something disgusting snaps in the samurai, and before he could even rebel against his father’s words - the man swiftly beats him to it.

“It’s time for you to make a choice.” The cruel man states, eyes locking with his son.

“You either give that family’s daughter a second chance - and possibly marriage, or that poor woman’s blood is on your hands.”

He forces himself to swallow the thick liquid, his fingers trembling in fear upon letting his mind wonder about the cruel and devastating plans his father would end up inflicting on you if he chose you.

“Why…are you so desperate to keep her away from me? Would it actually kill you to finally set me free from this messed up family?”

His father only grins, placing his hands on the table and bending down to get a better look at Kazuha who sat across from him.

“Kaedehara Kazuha. As long as you are alive and heir to my fortune, you will never marry that vile commoner. Not now, not in your next life - not even in the lives you dream to live after those. Never.”

From life unto life and for always

I'll be there when you need me around.

When night finally comes

And the leaves have fallen from the tree

Baby, you'll have me.

Soul mate.

“You will never lose me, Y/N.” You feel him breathe against your ear.

“It’s easier said than done.” You whisper, smiling sadly at him. “Perhaps even one day we’ll find ourselves alone again.”

He sighs, peppering soft and warm kisses on your shaking fingers. “Darling, that would be quite impossible. You know that I’d always follow you wherever you go.”

Even when you move on to the next life…

“Forget.”

“Y/N.”

“…forever and always.”

I’ll always be right behind you.

I’m not leaving, Y/N. Not when I can finally have you in this life.

I promise you that I'll find a way

To give you hope, to keep you close and safe.

Keep you no matter come what may

And then we’ll sleep in endless sheets of gray.

His fingers gently cup your chin, and he pulls you into his lips for a passionate kiss. You lean closer into him, and Kazuha lets you do so, hungrily devouring your familiar warmth that he had dreamed of for countless lives.

Kazuha doesn’t know if this is the lifetime he had been waiting for. He isn’t certain that the last chapter of this particular book holds a happy ending for the both of you - and it scares him to lose you like he did all those lives ago.

But as long as you live to exist in the same world…

“My name is Y/N. Are you lost?”

As long as you are still the same person…

“Kaedehara Kazuha. I’d prefer to call it wandering.”

I don’t mind wasting the next couple of lives,

“Sounds interesting. Mind if I join you?”

if it means I get to be with you at the end of the road.

“It’s a long journey.”

After all this time,

“I have time.”

forever and always.

“If you say so.”

#kazuha x reader #genshin kazuha #genshin impact #fanfic #song prompt

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rainbows-and-emeralds · 5 years

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Jean Pierre Polnareff's true purpose

So, let's talk about Jean Pierre Polnareff.

The "silliest" of the Stardust Crusaders, the "clown" of the group, the "immature one".

Except he's really none of those things. He may not be a genius, but he is smart. People really don't give Polnareff the credit he deserves. I personally do believe, that out of all of the Crusaders he is the one with the worst fate.

All of the Crusaders have been through some form of trauma, yes, they all have faced Dio and have lost friends along the way, but Polnareff has had it especially hard, because people just seem to ignore/forget all he's done, and we tend to put him down as that silly, funny guy from Part 3.

It is true, Polnareff is very dorky and jokes around a lot, and just generally seems to be very at ease in an almost naive way. But this has it's reasons, and Polnareff is so much more than just this.

The people who smile the brightest often hide the worst pain in their hearts.

What I'm trying to say is, Jean sort of uses this goofy, happy facade as a coping mechanism for trauma and grief. Only 3 years prior to meeting the other Crusaders he'd lost his younger sister Sherry. And she wasn't just killed by accident, she was murdered. Imagine what that must have done to him. Whatever it was, it was enough for him to seek revenge, not stopping before anything.

Furthermore, he'd just somewhat come to terms with Avdol's supposed death later on in season 1 of Part 3. Maybe Polnareff even blamed himself for dragging Avdol into this. Especially after going off on his own when he'd finally found J. Geil, which I still believe he did, to not endanger his friends unnecessarily.

Avdol was probaply his closest friend of the bunch. I love the bond these two shared. And I believe that Avdol wanted Polnareff to realize that it's better to have friends to rely on, and that it wasn't his fault.

Still, Polnareff likely blamed himself for being responsible for Avdol's death, having seen him die right in front of him, because he was protecting him..

And later it turns out Avdol didn't really die, he was still alive all this time, and all the Crusaders knew about it. All of them, except for Polnareff.

They didn't tell him, because they didn't trust him to keep quiet about it in front of the enemy.

This is the one desicion I disagree on with Kakyoin and the others. How could they. Not only did they basically end up telling Polnareff that they didn't fully trust him, they left him blaming himself, feeling incredibly bad and traumatized for WEEKS.

And then not ONE of them, not even Kakyoin, really apologized to him. It can be argued that what they did was not to hurt Polnareff on purpose, regarding the dangerous situation they're in. And that makes sense. But it did hurt him. And that's sort of unforgivable in my book. Jean puts up this happy act, and no doubt he does have fun with the other Crusaders, it's not bad all the time at all. But when nobody's looking, the sad, pained look on his face is obvious enough.

In the end, Polnareff really loses three of his friends, two of them because they protected him, and gave their lives for that yet again, but this time for real. He's essentially left with what he'd believed to be true before.

He is alone again.

Having only survived because others protected you and died for that, can make you feel so utterly desperate and worthless.

Despite this sorry state he falsely sees himself in, here is where it truly shows, just how noble Jean Pierre Polnareff really is.

Instead of leaving all of this behind when given the chance, to go back home to France, he continues investigating the Stand arrows, and the problems Dio's actions caused, even after he died.

While Jotaro was on it too, Polnareff eventually decides to further investigate alone, probaply because he wanted to avoid losing another friend because he couldn't protect himself alone. It shows that he's grown. And it shows that Polnareff really doesn't hesitate to risk his life for this.

This causes Polnareff to run into none other than Diavolo, who is after the arrows for his own, twisted reasons.

Which in turn, gets him into an even worse situation.

Not only has Polnareff spent his youth, from the age of 19 (when he lost his sister) to age 36, chasing after the Stand arrows and Dio to seek revenge and prevent even worse things from happening, he's also severely injured and left disabled for the rest of his life at only 23 years of age.

On top of all of this he is now the potential target of one of the most dangerous Mafia bosses in the world, forcing him to live in solitude for over 10 years, unable to contact ANY of his remaining friends or family because if he did so he'd risk getting them and himself hunted down and killed. Thus Polnareff is yet again alone.

Just.. take a moment to let all of that sink in. All of what Polnareff has been through.

And DESPITE all of that, he still pulls through, he still keeps going, stays strong and continuously puts his own life on the line to try and stop Diavolo from obtaining the Requiem arrow.

Because he knows that if he fails, everything the Crusaders fought for in 1989 will be to no avail. And even if he can't do much himself, he finds a way to contact Bucciarati's group after what I can only assume are weeks, if not months of research on them.

(It is almost scary to see how much Polnareff has changed, from the mostly happy, outgoing and talkative guy we've known, to this serious, more mature and collected man, operating from within the shadows to reach out to Bruno.)

Now we, as the reader, know all of this about Polnareff, but to Bruno and his gang, he is a stranger, somebody they don't know if they can trust yet. They also only meet Polnareff very briefly before Diavolo finally reveals himself and kills Polnareff for good.

Jean Pierre Polnareff, spent his live almost constantly facing some sort of trauma. I can't begin to imagine what he must have felt like in the end, knowing he's dying, before having finished what he started, what he fought for.

Yet he spends his last living moments thinking of his friends, the things he's been through back in Egypt, and atleast he knows that what he's done is not in vain, because he can safely place this mission he's dedicated the last 10 years of his life to, in the hands of Bucciarati and his gang.

This has an almost poethic value to it.

(It is also interesting to note that the Stand, Judgement, from Part 3 shows up in this panel. Think back, this Stand had the ability to grant "wishes" in form of illusions that turn against you. That was when he wished for his sister Sherry, and Avdol, whom Polnareff still believed to be dead, to come back to life. This always strangely touches me, because it's so naive to believe in such a thing, yet, it shows just HOW much Jean cares for those two, that he still had hope left, and was unable to let go, as of that time. The pain in his eyes as he realized that this last bit of hope he had was foolish, wronged, he had to accept and move on, which he does for the most part, but the fact that Judgement is something that he remembers in his last concious moments before dying shows that what happened on this particular day never really left him..)

Somehow, Polnareff is given a second chance, in form of his soul being kept alive within this bizarre Stand ability of Coco Jumbo. His body is dead, he can never go back, but Polnareff's spirit lives on. Atleast for now.

And Polnareff did so much. He sacrificed everything, not even hesitating to lay down his life.

He deserved so much better. He deserved a happy, long life, a family, love and friends.

While he may not ever get some of these things, he's with Giorno now. He's made it out, somewhat, alive. He can rest easy now and that is what counts for me. His sacrifices have not been for nothing, and thus, his friends dying to protect him back in Cairo also have not died for nothing. Polnareff carried on their legacy, making their deaths count, moving on, but never forgetting.

It is somewhat ironic that the one who carried Polnareff's mission to the end was Giorno, Dio's son, and yet another Joestar. It seems that the fates of Polnareff, Dio, and the Joestar family were destined to cross paths from the beginning.

Again, as the reader, we know the whole picture, but Polnareff doesn't. And he still did what he did, and he deserves credit and gratitude for that.

This is why Jean Pierre Polnareff is one of the most important people in the storyline of Jojo's Bizarre Adventure, and a man who has ALL my respect and admiration. I truly think that without him, things wouldn't have turned out as well as they did, and we have him to thank for that.

The last thing spoken in the anime of Vento Aureo is said by none other than Polnareff:

"Let's go,

...to the Colosseum."

~Haru

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doof-doofblog · 4 years

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"We've Got Him!"

Monday 16th March 2020

Good evening folks! How are we all doing? How was your weekend? It's a brand new week and once again I have some #SPOILER news for you! I'm sure the majority of you have already heard by now, but EastEnders have revealed that Mick and Linda will be leaving ...... (Hold your breath! Not the soap!) .... the Queen Vic! Yes, it has been made known that Mick will be selling the Vic in an attempt to help support his wife overcoming her alcoholism. We know Linda is on the road to recovery, but obviously Mick feels living under in the legendary pub is only going to be harrowing reminder for Linda, best case scenario, get her away from temptation as soon as possible! So the question that will be on viewers lips will obviously be ... Who will be the new Landlord and Lady of the Queen Vic?! Now I've been thinking about this ... I know a few names have been thrown into the hat, but my thought strategy was ... Sharon?! Think about it ... She's currently homeless right now, she's been thrown out of the Mitchell house hold, after the revelation of Keanu being her baby father, she's currently living with Ian and Kathy as they have very kindly put her up until she's back on her feet, we know she's currently grieving for the death of her son, and she's due to make a heartbreaking decision ... what if it she gives up her new born son, then decides to make a new start for herself and return to the one place she felt safe, the place she spent her childhood, the place she used to call "Home" .... The Queen Vic! Plus of course Linda is best friend's with Sharon, she will trust her to make sure The Vic stays a running success! Who else could possibly come close?! To me, it seems like a no brainer, but then again ... I could be completely wrong! .... Who do you guys think should/could be the new Landlords of the Queen Vic?! I'd really love to hear your take this one!

Also, new pictures have been released of Phil's return, viewers will know that the last time we saw Phil, he was a passenger on a rescue boat, during the boat crash, and he watched from a far as young Dennis was pronounced dead. New pictures reveal that he will return to the Square on the day of Dennis's funeral wanting to speak to Sharon. Where has he been? And what has he got to say to her?!

In other news, Shelley makes an appearance at The Vic, on the looks of things to cause a bit of trouble. Fans will know that Linda attempted to befriend Shelley outside the school gates of Ollie's school, but it soon turned sour as Shelley looked down on Linda! Will Linda now take a charge and stand up to Shelley?! Do you feel for Linda or do you think she kinda brought it on herself after the way she acted, due to her alcohol addiction?! I'd love to hear what you guys think!

Now, tonight's episode ... ooooh so much to focus on, it seems a few of characters are struggling to move forward, to name mainly, Sharon and Keegan! Okay, so, let's start with Keegan ... I am feeling a little sorry for his character right now, I get he feels like people look at him in completely the wrong way due to the colour of his skin. He gets treated differently by the police, receptions and now solicitors. Is he ever going to get the loan he desperately needs to get his business off the ground? I'm starting to feel sorry for Tiffany too, as she's having to try and console Keegan as much as possible, and support him in the best way she can, being the doting wife, but for Keegan, it just isn't enough. He seems to think that Tiffany just doesn't understand, but I think she really is trying to. The conversation Keegan had with Denise, I found it very sweet. We haven't seen these two characters come together this way and share a very meaningful conversation. Denise clearly understands Keegan's frustration, I think it was nice for him to have someone there who actually gets it! With Denise being the same colour as Keegan, she's experienced exactly what he is currently going through and can shed some light on it for him I guess. I, personally, never released that (some) coloured people still suffer racial abuse, it's the 21st century, we should be well and truly passed this! I hope Keegan will try and move forward and eventually get some luck, he's been through a tough time and deserves to make something of his life!

Oh, so Ben is going to go ahead with the operation?! Let's hope to god it brings back his hearing, or at least helps to some extent. I don't believe he'll fully recover but I do believe he'll able to communicate a little better even if his hearing ability increases by just the smallest amount. I still think EastEnders are portraying this story-line brilliantly, still showing Ben hearing muffled sounds, it really puts it into perspective. Oh no! Danny's back! What could he want?! He knows what happened at the boat crash and he knows Phil is currently away ... what on earth could he be back on the square for?! I really hope Ben doesn't make a huge mistake and get involved in some dodgey deals because he basically couldn't understand what Danny was saying!! I think Danny obviously knew Ben had lost his hearing, otherwise he would never have shown his face, I think he's taking advantage here, Phil isn't around and Ben is vulnerable ... kinda makes the Mitchell clan look weak, and we all know that the Mitchell family has a history of hold up a reputation. I can see it now, Ben being dragged into a dodgey deal he can't get out of, Phil comes back while everything is going on and there'll be nothing he can do to help but try and get revenge on Danny .... what do you guys think could be in store for the Mitchell's now? And what do you think Danny could be back for?!

I just want to put it out there .... Max and Isaac?! Who thought of those two becoming pals?! I feel sorry for Patrick, the more we see of Isaac, it seems the more disappointed Patrick is of him. Would it make much difference if he knew he was his Dad? I'm not so sure, I think we'll see more anger coming from Isaac. Although, it was a really sweet gesture from Patrick to celebrate the life of Isaac's "Dad". Maybe this could be the turning point? Could Isaac now warm to Patrick? Guess we'll have to wait and see!

Awwww man, I just want to hug Sharon. She looks so run down and depressed and as if she's had no sleep at all! She looks a white as a sheet! I know I've said it before and yes, i'm going to say it again! She just doesn't want her new born son does she?! She had to be forced to go and register him, she asked Linda to bathe him for her and she got so upset over a twisted wheel on the pram. I get she's grieving, but Linda is right ... Kayden also needs his Mum! I can't see her carrying on to be honest, I still believe that she's going to give up her newborn, what else could her heartbreaking decision be? She's just too soaked up in grief, she can barely interact with anyone. I was beginning to wonder whether EastEnders will show Dennis's funeral, I mean it would be cruel not to I think, in the circumstances the character passed away. It would only be right to give Dennis a good send off, right? Or maybe it should be very quiet and very personal, what do you guys think? Can Sharon ever move on from this agonising grief?

Okay, time to focus on Chantelle and Gray. Did anyone else see the bruises on Chantelle's ribs left behind after the beating from Gray? I noticed that she was ignoring every word Gray was saying to her while she was doing the washing, Gray was doing all the talking and she didn't respond to a word he said, and yes, I hope that made Gray feel guilty, as he knew he'd done wrong! Poor Chantelle could barely move around the kitchen, I did fear that he was going to lose his temper with her again because she was ignoring him, but it seemed to do the trick, he clearly felt more and more guilty. The way she flinched as well before she left to go to her second job, she's visibly shaken and scared of him. But things could be looking up .... I was literally talking to the TV when Gray was in Whitney's bedroom "Look up! Look up!" and then when he saw it "Yes! Yes, Gray!" ... HE KNOWS LEO WAS IN THEIR ATTIC!!!!! Finally the break-through, literally, everyone has been waiting for! Gray can start to build a case and prove that Leo was stalking Whitney, Whitney will get to have her say in court and hopefully if they have enough evidence, Whitney will be free and Gray will be back at work! ..... Of course that may be false hope, this is EastEnders we're talking about, it is just a start anyway, I'm sure Gray has a long way to go to prove Leo was in Whitney's attic and also stalking her ... I've always said they need to find Whitney's diary ... what ever happened to that? Maybe it's long gone but even so, there still could be a twist and it still could be found?! Who knows? But hopefully, if things go well, Whitney will eventually get out of prison and Gray will be back at work, which may even stop him feeling completely under pressure and stop lashing out at Chantelle. This is of course wishful thinking, I have no idea what's going to happen next but, I feel, it's all looking positive! What do you guys think? Will Gray be able to save Whitney? How long will it be until the Taylor's find out about Chantelle's abuse?! Please leave me any theories or thoughts you may have to any of the current story-lines happening right now, I'd love to hear your input!

Thank you guys for your on-going support! I hope you guys enjoy reading my blog as much as I enjoy writing it! I'll be back again tomorrow for another blog, looking forward to seeing what happens next! Goodnight ya'll! xXx

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