#ur not allowed to kill him

[gnougnouss]

I am sorry but Eighth doctor adventure Wirrd dawn is fucking Bad actually. Like. “maybe that poor woman being forcibly turned into an alien insect queen in a terrific and very painful way and whose entire life will now be birthing fucking aliens is good because it’s the only way to survive” maybe at this point you should all kill yourselves for real. Just fuck off this solar system forever it ain’t worth it . Nobody seems to care about that woman ?? like this ain’t the doctor and I refuse this <3

Joining “ A Requiem for the doctor” in s3 of The diary of River Song among big finish episodes that are a big NOPE from me

#big finish #eighth doctor adventures #mayeb i am just misunderstanding what is happening because i suck in english #but i don't think so I just think the writers are insane on that one #and yeah. It smells like misogyny #requiem for the doctor was just annoying af because it basically said #if you're a woman abused by her husband tough fucking luck #ur not allowed to kill him #well fuck u actually lmao

[samarecharm]

People who really like shuake also seem to write themselves into a corner wrt Akechi and his relationship to Akiras team. Contrary to popular belief, the team, including Haru, does not hate Akechi. At worst, they tolerate him and deal with his attitude. Hes a good teammate and respectable fighter and the team recognizes that at the end of the day, he was a teenager who was manipulated and abused by a man who saw him as disposable. Just about every thief understands this intimately. They have the same mindset wrt adults who take advantage of the people beneath them. Under different circumstances they wouldve been friends. And if u approach it from that angle, it becomes less about Akechi being the sole person who ‘gets’ Akira, and more about the thieves being the only people in the world who ‘get’ Akechi.

When you expand your thoughts to include the thieves as members of his Team and not roadblocks that get in the way of your ideal shipping dynamic, you allow urself to give Akechi and Akira more depth and nuance to their own relationship.

Akira and Akechi are wildcards; both of them struggle with the face they choose to display to the world. Its the first time Akira interacts with someone who is, at a literal, technical level, his ‘equal’. But Akechi is one of many firsts for Akira yeah? Every thief has their bond with Akira thats completely unique and personal. Akechi will never be the person who witnesses Akiras Awakening, hes never the person who watches Akira have his restless nights alone in the attic, and hes never the person who realizes in real time that the teenager hes housing is just Some Kid, not the delinquent hes been warned about. Hes not Ann or Yusuke, or any of the thieves; he doesnt have the time or experience that they have with Akira, and I think its interesting to explore that part of their relationship, shippy or not.

Akechi is someone who is incredibly lonely and self depreciating despite his cockiness and attitude. He has no positive bonds to speak of save for his connection with Sae. To have him see a team that works together and cares for each other, how do you think he would feel? Out of place? Inferior in some way? Angry about how hes been alone for so long in this single minded quest for revenge? Wouldnt that be a point of struggle between the two of them? I think what makes shuake good for me is knowing that Akechi needs alot of time to heal, and the thieves would want to help with that process. They do it bc they care, bc Akira cares, and bc they trust Akiras opinion (and he trusts theirs in return); if Akira feels like Akechi is someone who can be trusted Now after everything thats happened, then the thieves would do their best to help. And how would Akechi feel about that? Angry about the show of pity? That even now, he has no real say in what happens to him? Or begrudgingly grateful that they are cordial with him? Because they do care, he KNOWS they care, they care TOO MUCH actually; but the one thing he values over brawn and wits is honesty- fighting for what you believe in without having to use soft words to justify it.

#chattin #also like. as an aside #my hcs regarding these two is like. they could not date. theyd kill each other lmao #and like TOTALLY by all means i am obsessed w unhealthy dynamics for shipping #let ur boys be toxic. let them be messy and loud and violent. its like crack to me #but just like fandom as a whole; fanon interpretations are prevalent and LOUD #and so trying to interact with it is like pulling teeth #personally. i think too many of them think of Akechi as like. the Rude one of the bunch #when i like to think of Akira as rude and full of himself when its deserved #and man. being able to outwit Akechi makes it Fully deserved #and i like to think Akira would remind him of this when he tries to intimidate or degrade his team #like. i have a short wip i never finished (basic sketches) #of Akira pulling him aside and grilling him #‘youre here because I Want you here. youre here bc i Allow you to be here’ #‘if youre going to stoop low and play petty i can do the same. if theres anyone on my team whos a fucking idiot; its you.’ #‘dont make me reconsider having you on the team.’ #and akechis like okay great does ur dick feel big trying to pull rank on me? #but really hes fuming. hes MAD. like feral dog mad. bc akira is RIGHT. like he is most times as akechi starts to see. #he has enough of a mind to recognize that hes lashing out bc of his own shortcomings; even if he refuses to admit it out loud #its beyond infuriating. its degrading. its a little 😶. #never had to deal w anyone that rivaled his own brawn and wits. and now theres a TEAM of them #just humbling him time and time again. it sucks. he stays bc he cant help himself 😭 #he needs to see more… #also #shuake #for blacklisting

[wildstar25]

G'raha looked so serious while he pleaded his case to venture into the World of Darkness with the Warrior of Light. The sudden conviction in his tone had Arsay at a loss for words. Still, she did not hesitate to meet his request with an accepting nod. He was an important friend and in the passing moons that they'd come to know each other, a strong fondness for him had taken hold of her. The prospect of helping G'raha find the truth behind his mysterious inheritance made Arsay's heart pound. It was the perfect venture for them to embark on. The first of many, she hoped. The two turned towards the impossibly tall spire that dared to pierce the heavens above. Arsay's resolve strengthened in its presence. When they next find themselves gazing at the tower -with their quest completed and the world no longer under threat of total destruction- she'll properly ask G'raha to be a companion in her travels. A grin crept its way onto her face as her gaze shifted to him. If Arsay could find it within herself to bare her heart to others so readily just as he does… perhaps their future adventures will find them together, hand in hand.

#ffxiv #wolgraha #WOL posting #G'raha tia #Arsay Nun #graharsay #idk just a random passage in my head that I needed to get out #im not a writer and im not pretending to be one but it was in my brain so sorry if its not as readable as I think it is #anyways imagine you are the loneliest catgirl in the world #and you meet a guy who is so swagless and cringe but in a charming way and he connects with you on a fundamental level #and you become really good friends and every time you show up he smiles in a way that makes your heart do somersaults #and you start thinking that maybe people actually like having you around not just when they need you to kill and destroy things #you let yourself open up a little and you're met with kindness and you realize you are very in love actually #but because you're still figuring out how to talk about your feelings you wait a little too long #and that guy seals himself up in a tower and tells you he'll think about your heroism in the future #and you are very sad and angry about this but thats not allowed so instead you put that energy to being the hero of all time #and every day you go to work you see the structure that reminds you of him and you cant let go of those what if feelings n ur cursed 5ever #would that be fucked up or what

[metalyre]

fleetfinite posting hours, look at my goobers

#my art #shoves my fave rarepair in ur face LOOK!!! LOOK AT THEM #fleetfinite #infinite the jackal #fleetway super sonic #yeah i know super sonic isnt called fleetway shut up i just think its a cool name #sth #nobody touch me IM THINKING ABOUT THEM... #this is just a taste. i need to draw them more fucked up #bc their dynamic is a lot more imbalanced and toxic than u may think #obviously. otherwise why would i like it HAHA #the main thing to note is that fleetway is entirely more capable of killing infinite at any time than infinite is of killing fleets #but he chooses to keep infinite alive and around so he can fuck with him in every way #infinites ruby energy is also extremely intriguing and useful to fleets so he likes to use infinite as like a phone charger #hes more fixated on infinite as a tool than as a person. just like everyone else lol :) #but he does find value in infinite as an individual cuz hes really fun to mess with #fleets LOVES stepping over infs boundaries to piss him off and make him uncomfortable #especially bc he knows inf cant do much about it. its fun to watch him squirm #any time inf stands up for himself or appears to be in control its just bc fleets is allowing it to happen #and they both know it #tee hee :3

[straighttohellbuddy]

anyways something about when fall out boy said "Seems like the whole damn world went and lost its mind / And all my childhood heroes have fallen off or died"

#i have a lot of painful and nuanced emotions about the very recent news #there's something sickening and terrifying when you've felt an affinity for an individual's public performance of identity #even knowing that it's parasocial and that you don't know that person irl #and then finding out this person in whom you saw aspects of yourself that perhaps even helped you feel more confident and comfortable #was capable of this kind of cruelty .. or they were taken from the world without real warning .. #you are allowed to grieve the people you lose .. both the literal and metaphorical #the dynamics of parasocial relationships are weird and messy and sometimes unhealthy on both sides #but this betrayal kills the person you hoped they were and you're allowed to grieve that while disliking who they have been shown to be #also not the place i know but dream has cleared his name several times over shut the fuck up and stop mindlessly parroting lies about him #shut ur pretty mouth

[yeonban]

Fyodor was so foul for this. L + ratio to him bc if Nikolai tried to kill ME w a plan as elaborate as the Meursault prison break I'd kiss him first and foremost and only THEN ask for the antidote

#muse: nikolai gogol. #bsd spoilers / #bsd spoilers #LOOK AT HOW ADORABLE KOLYA IS IN THE FIRST PANEL I HATE ITTT WHAT IS HE SO CUTIEFUL FOR!!!!!!!!!!!! #I have that first panel on a loop in my brain he's just so Extra. the confetti. the flower petals. the poses. the random ass radio?!??! #Fyodor you can't appreciate the art of trying to kill your closest dearest person and it shows. cringeee. (/affectionate /ily) #Also laughing bc where did Fedya get enough energy to kick that radio around like bro you have deadly poison in ur bloodstream As We Speak. #I do appreciate that Fedya had the opportunity to kill Kolya but he didn't take it even tho it presumably would've only taken seconds #He's mad at Nikolai but they're still besties <3 for now. (delusional speech) #Idk I just LOVE that Fyodor allows Nikolai to do so many things he doesn't allow anyone else #like touching him whenever. even This. he gave Kolya the benefit of the doubt until AFTER Kolya really went thru w the plan of killing him #They're everything to me frankly speaking

[kind-of-a-shitty-wizard]

I've been thinking about him for some time already (YOU KNOW WHO...) and I think. he's just Like That ™. the gentleman killer. Haskillcore boring old man stuff enjoyer that spends weekends reading newspapers and philosophy books. looks down on people that lack manners. DOES want to serve for the best of his abilities and be appreciated. But ALSO I get the vibes... that he's the way he is because he's a shitty wizard.

HEAR ME OUT... It was just a joke at first but his fiasco with messing the most basic spell and being thrown out of the train..... I feel like he, in fact, can be incompetent wizard and that can fuck him up SO BADLY... like inferiority complex... I can imagine him being young & dreaming of becoming a great wizard & failing painfully. So now he compensates it with self-taught magic and dark arts (his necromancy interest). “dark magic is just misunderstood, not evil"...

I also get vibes from him of being bullied? I would take away his lunch yk. And now he allows people to walk over him and it's not just a job thing he's just like that. Until the moment he snaps. And murder may be the way for him to feel being in-control, which he usually lacks. Feel like he hass power. He doesn't feel nor act like purple guy jeff the killer (he's too old for that) but. Sometimes he thinks “It would be nice to kill someone right now. I also need cash. Hmm.” and that's now it happens. Maybe he feels alive when he does that, but it's only in-moment feeling that doesn't stay. I feel like he's pretty sensitive and can say when he feels bad(offended) or good(proud), but doesn't really have emotional intelligence? The feelings are there, what to do with them? who knows. not him. he goes out on the streets at night. depreesion)

I think he knows a lot about magic and artifacts (found out about the relic by private investigation or smth) but he can't use that intformation himself! what a shame! I get the vibes that he can be almost . cursed . to be a bad wizard. he's probably not but it just feels that way. so many potential in such cringefail loser (/affectionate). and he knows that and mourns that! what does he do with his life!

I rotate him in my mind he's so interesting what is wrong with him . . .

NODS VIGOROUSLY ALONG WITH YOUR POINTS im sitting here taking notes for my fic fr!! i actually hit on a lot of the same conclusions you did which makes me so happy, but one of the main differences was i thought he might actually be a good wizard, BUT i think your reading that he's ACTUALLY just a shitty wizard is more interesting character-wise....

like you said "he knows a lot about magic and artifacts but he can't use that intformation himself" <- YESSS. i think the exact way that he's shitty is that he definitely has the theoretical knowledge, but he can't apply it for shit. <3 like at the end of rockport limited he clearly knew the flame spell he was going to use, he just... fucking misses by a country mile LMFAO, even the meat monsters seem a little cobbled-together, like he knows the the theory but there's little finesse in the execution.

"he's the way he is because he's a shitty wizard." <- OK BC THIS BASIS IS SO GOOD. hes got so much ambition but no talent, and that informs everything about him!! - it's my headcanon that he grew up lower-middle class, and i think combining that with being bullied and being bad at magic contributed to an inferiority complex. and he likes refined things precisely because he likes the image of himself as this powerful refined (rich) person when he's really just grasping at it desperately :)))

aaand i think the dark arts provide shortcuts to power for the price of sacrificing another living thing, SO FOR JENKINS, who was a shitty wizard and an asshole who's totally willing to sacrifice people for power, it suited him perfectly :)))))))

not to mention all the points u brought up abt why he kills are so good. i think it's firstly a practicality thing (he needs the money, like u said), but then secondarily an outlet for his anger (he's a bit emotionally unintelligent like u also said lol). i think he learned how to deal with this simmering hatred in the exact wrong way, where he bottles it up during the day when ppl push him around and then lets it out during his murders. instead of yknow... learning to not let ppl push him around, and manage his anger and deal with it less destructively SDFLSDFKJ. and it became a cycle. so now he's a serial murderer cos he's into this repress-release pattern, someone get this man into therapy or get him a boyfriend who can fix him !!

AND... okok final point bc its getting a bit long. "so many potential in such cringefail loser (/affectionate). and he knows that and mourns that! what does he do with his life!" <- YES. perhaps even. he is not cut out to be a wizard..... he clearly has ambition, and good taste, and a flair for the dramatic, and mental problems, which means. of course. he is perfectly suited for the theater--//SHOT

#(im allowed to say that last part cos i do community theater KJFDHSKJGDSF) #YOU UNDERSTAND HIM SO WELL. AA!! like the haskill analyses your brain is huge as always #'the gentleman killer'. there are hearts above my head like a cartoon #ur analysis actually makes me think that in order to be happy jenkins might need to let go of his dream of being a powerful wizard... #like i think his want for power is actually a need to feel secure and appreciated in disguise #that could be fixed by connecting with people. he could stop killing and work as an actor or author or usher and experience community art #but do i want him to give up killing? - absolutely NOT he should continue doing it forever and ever. so the solution here is to give #him someone who will stick by him and like him and is also fucked up enough to also abet his murders :)))) #and this way his killing could morph from being a way to chase power to a bonding activity with his partner who makes him feel appreciated #get loved idiot!!!! #....hes got so many problems <33 #jenkinsposting #ask

[1nm806]

i'm literally dead (i just saw someone say theyre putting songs on a playlist for my faves nd its so so wrong i need to explode)

#jack's hawkin the headlines !! #losing my mind #i'm putting a fucking ban on anyone putting mitski mother mother lemon demon ricky montgomory and the front bottoms #on their character/ship playlists until they comprehend them better i think #no ur not allowed to put me and my husband on that. go nd get reading comprehension; read thru the lyrics nd then get back to me #explodes. #DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON PEOPLE PUTTING SCISSOR SISTERS FOR SHIN IN YTTD #“i cant decide whether you should live or die” SHUT UP YES HE CAN HED KILL THE PROTAG IN A HEARTBEAT IF U LET HIM LIVE #crying. screaming. throwing up.

[thegreatestheaver]

Conventional nightmares are scary but I think it’s the unrealistic ones that are the most scary

#the conventional ones I have are ones where people try to kill me or I kill people or do other bad things to them #or other bad things happen to me that could happen irl. but euhgh #I had such a weird nightmare #I WSS like ? on a weird ship thing with extended and being gay was like. not allowed but. I was gay anyways #and I hid it pretty well until like. suddenly at a huge fancy family dinner like? I was hashtag exposed and I tried to be like no please noo #but they were like TO THE HELL DIMENSION WITH YOU!!!! and I got sent to … s dark room with a stage and.. prom decorations? #there were other people and stuff and people onstage preforming the same thing over and over but I sat in the back bc I was pissed #also I was a borzoi. important detail😭 I remeber it because I always had to swish my tail off the chairs so I didn’t sit on it #anyways I was pissed as fuck. hal was there (the person not the character) and I was maaaaaad and it for some reason and I feel kinda bad #glitch was telling me yea ur in hell with (PEOPLE WHO DID REALLY HORRIBLE AWFUL THINGS. like. really bad.) and I was like awesome. kys #and it was like OK. don’t be like that let’s go sit at the chairs up high by the stage. and we sat on the same chair all squished 😭 #everyone also had a small pack of plastic dinosaur beads that are. identical to ones that I have. and he talked to me as I fiddled with them #I was reallyyy scared because there were fucking. really dangerous people also apparently I was supposed to rot here forever.eventually hal- #-got up to strech and so did I and I sat back down ready for him to sit with me and he was like no. and I was like :? and it was like. the #the house. then glitch pointed to a small plastic house in the room like the ones for kids to play with outside and I was like oh :( #cos I thought he was leaving me and I got really sad because he was like. the only #good thing there. but it was like no. come #and I didn’t hear and I kept moping and he was like COME WITH. and I was like omg it’s talking to me. YAYYY!!! #I got up wirh my borozi paws to go follow glitch into the house then I woke up because someone called me just now😭😭😭 #and I’m not gonna sleep again. it’s nearly 2pm. woof. #anyways that was horrible it was worse than the time I had a dream I killed someone and was a wsnted fugitive #I think hal was there cos I was thinking abt him right before I EME went to sleep and when I think of ppl before I sleep they often are in- #-my dreams #ok I need to get up and do stuff now. auhh #hollowspeak

[bylertruther]

homosexuality being linked with childhood in st........ i get it, i do, but also... it Hurts... . . . .... . So much. .. ...

#being linked 2 childhood bc when ur a kid u don't think abt how you can be perceived or whether ur #allowed to touch ur boy bestie and hold his hand and pull him along with u everywhere #''we're not kids anymore'' why don't u jus shoot me instead michael . #the destruction of castle byers.... the summer that changed everything... #head in hands I Can't Do This Anymore #and also linked to childhood bc when ur gay u dont have as many options as everyone else does to achieve #certain milestones by a particular age so everyone thinks ur immature when rly ur not........ #AGHHHHHHHHHHHH BITING AND KILLING

[gibbearish]

eternal fight between wanting to correct a misconception abt cats but also knowing that it was just a silly joke and i shouldnt take it so seriously but also something being a joke doesnt mean you shouldnt still point things out but also i have no expertise beyond just "i have multiple cats and spend way too much time watching them and thinking about the way they interact w each other and what that means about how their brains work" which means i would just be talking out of my ass anyways because i have no way of telling if my interpretations are right or if im anthropomorphizing them

#origibberish #anyways. your cat isnt trying to steal your food #he doesnt understand 'your' food vs 'my' food he just understands 'food' #and sees you as another cat and when cats are eating and another cat wants some they just. walk up and partake #so if youre having issues with that you gotta start using cat language to tell them to back off #like growling/hissing at your cat is allowed they do it at each other all the time for a reason #actually slight correction they do understand 'my' food but only in terms of 'i caught this so it is my trophy' #food thats just Around is communal #so think like a cat and say no this is MY kill in cat words #i killed this sandwich and IM going to eat it #like theres a part of me thats like 'no you cant hiss at your cat thats mean!' but thats looking at it through human eyes #we see hissing as mean because its The Mad Sound and mad is Bad and Angry and Personal #but for cats mad is different #theres no values or anything behind it‚ mad just means 'stop what youre doing or ill hit you' #and like you know actually hitting your cat would be shitty and abusive and that threatening smth like that to a child would be equally #and abusive so in ur brain ur like 'i cant threaten him in cat speak' #but like its not a threat for them!! its just a warning so that they know the other cat Doesnt Like What Theyre Doing!!! #thats how they establish boundaries!!! so not only are you allowed to use it i would even say trying to actually bring yourself to your #cats level in terms of communication is probably like. better? #but i mean again. this is all based entirely off of half remembered cat facts books from childhood and spending way too long #watching the endless drama between my children #so. take literally all of that with a grain of salt #actually scratch that ive decided i am an expert now. universities i am willing to be a professor of cat psychology

[tiredassmage]

when the deed was done

Well, ask and ye shall receive @captainderyn xD Relevant to interests, the all of 5 minute goodbye Cipher Nine should have gotten with their best Watcher-turned-Keeper. And yet it still hurts, its still bittersweet, there’s never enough time - let along a good time - for them. </3 I warn for nothing except that they needed more hugs and I might need more tissues. ;_;

And if anyone asks, I hate timelines. Send help. xD

Intelligence dismantled. The Star Cabal crumbling. It’s time to say goodbye.

“Keeper.”

She turned around, a smile already reaching across her lips before her brilliant brown eyes had even landed on him. The familiar brush of eye shadow wasn’t enough to hide the darkness around them from him, but then they’d both looked a hell of a lot better than this.

Whatever greeting she was going to return was lost as Nine quickly covered the few final feet between them and she was enveloped against his chest, carefully cradled in his arms gripping around her as tight as they could without hurting her - as if he was somewhere between cautiously terrified she’d vanish if he didn’t hold her down and worried that any further pressure might break her where she stood.

Shara smiled as she buried her face against his chest and allowed her fingers to twist into his jacket. “Well, it’s good to see you, too, Cipher Nine.”

One hand carded carefully through her hair. His breaths were stuttered and measured. Shara nestled against him a bit more and simply waited.

“I couldn’t very well leave without saying goodbye to my Keeper, could I?” Slowly, he extricated himself from the embrace, drawing back to gently frame her face.

“I’m not that fragile, Cipher,” she said, gently brushing her fingers over his knuckles. The marks of Corellia had faded - no doubt Doctor Lokin's insistence paying off. He'd been restless during their final preparations.

Twice in a matter of weeks had she sent him into the fires, then. Time really should have only made it easier.

She didn’t have qualms with mission parameters. It wasn’t a part of her programming - who she was, and surely she had suggested worse than potentially sacrificing a single officer to avert a galaxy consuming war. And there had certainly been enough pressure, given the circumstances. Loathe as she was to admit it, her recovery was taking its toll and was slower than she would have liked.

It’s what she’d tried to tell herself, anyway. But this was Nine. Her Cipher Nine.

Concern deepened the knit of his brow. “Are you alright?” His eyes narrowed. “And don’t give me any of that scripted nonsense. I know you’re capable, Keeper. But I-”

She allowed him to see a tired smile, tapping a finger lightly against his lips to silence him. “I’ll manage, Nine,” she said. “I’ll just need time.”

“Of course.” A faint breath left him that might have been a chuckle, had it been given more space. “I won’t take too much. Minister says I need to get out of here. Back to work, I’m sure.”

“As will we all.” Shara breathed a quiet sigh, letting her gaze drop with his. A free hand toyed lightly with the neck of his jacket, feigning at straightening it. It’d look different for all of them. Even she found herself hard pressed to imagine just how, exactly, the future was going to look without Intelligence. They’d seen their better days.

It was hard to imagine it’d only been some three years ago that the Minister had properly introduced her to her latest agent - even harder to picture her doubts of him at the time, not that they’d ever been personal, exactly.

But here he was, despite it all.

“We’ll see each other again.”

She smiled weakly. “You’ll be fine,” she said. She patted a hand against his chest and looked back up, catching those pale gray eyes one more time. “You’ve always been a resourceful one, Cipher Nine.”

“Shara-”

She shook her head and pressed a finger over his lips again. It was something, wasn’t it? To see him so earnest before her - a strain across his brow over widened crystal eyes she’d seen so swiftly deceive so many times. It’d be easy to say she’d lost count of the hours she’d spent monitoring his work, guarding his every movement, though it’d almost certainly be a lie.

That was okay, though. It was a part of them. Always had been. Probably always would be.

But she could not let him break their one shared silence. Not like this. Not at such an uncertain end.

“You’ve done enough, Tyr. I promise.”

His eyes searched hers for a moment longer before they dropped to the thumb he caressed along her jaw. It was better this way. Whatever happened next, she doubted the Empire was finished with either of them. This way, at least, there wasn’t anything to hold them back.

They’d sold worse lies before.

“You should go,” she said. “But-” She tucked a few fingers under his chin.

And he understood the rest. He ducked to linger in a slow kiss, trailing after her, along her lips like a slow rain on the windows back on Dromund Kaas. For only a minute longer, they chased the few elusive nights that had grounded the last three years.

And all too soon, time was up yet again.

“Take care of yourself, Shara. Please. For me?” He framed her face gently one final time, eyes closed as his forehead rested against hers.

“Stay alive.” She pushed against his chest, coaxing him to step away. “The job’s not finished, Cipher.”

“It never is, is it?” A faint smile flickered across his lips before Cipher Nine gave her a final salute. “I’ll damn well try just about anything for you, Keeper.”

“See that you do. Dismissed, agent.”

#swtor #swtor fanfic #imperial agent #imperial agent x watcher two #imperial agent x shara jenn #ch: tyr #dot words #my entire heart for them ur honor #and they're lowkey killing me i doubt they ever actually allow themselves to say 'i love you' and KLFDHSALFKSJFLASF it HURTS a little #their biggest tragedy is that even as one of the few people they genuinely trust they hold each other's complete utter honesty back #they still always had a job to do and it's also (bc i can't fit this anywhere else haha loredropping in the tags again) #i/shara needs to spare him the knowledge/realization that she ah. knew about. Things. as keeper. #he would not in fact do well with that truth and therefore i'm letting her take it with her #its all just immensely tragic and it hurts me but they love each other anyway in what ways they were able #'personnel bonding' they said and then tyr went and fucking caught feelings

[rosykims]

i cannot believe im saying this but ive been thinking about my cousland and sten all morning and theyre making me insane

#oc: elspeth #tay plays dao #ive been debating whether or not elspeth recruits him for WEEKS now #but contextually her being a cousland AND an archetypal 'hero' chara doesnt rly slide w the whole killing children thing lol #but ive finally settled on her recruiting him regardless and it makes sense in my head both in yhe moment AND narratively which is 🤪 #her whole arc is sort of abt her internal struggle irt being a warden (altruistic/heroic) which shes always wanted to be until she was one #vs being a noble (powerful/respected) which she never appreciated until she lost it #and feeling like both of them conflict with the other and thus feeling like shes not living up to either #she chooses to 'conscript' sten under the pretense of the warden redemption but a lot of it is her selfish noble streak #wanting to punish him for rendon howe's sins ..... #idk if this makes sense to anybody but me but obvs it also opens up more moral dilemmas #like..... she gives sten mercy and she WANTS to give loghain mercy and resents alistair for denying her the option #but she would never allow the same mercy to be extended to howe. with good reason obviously but yeah ultimately shes a noble and #quite unknowingly selfish underneath all the posturing and righteousness. she gets over it especially a bit after reaffirming her loyalty #to the wardens..... but yeah. her idea of heroes comes from very sanitized bard songs and chantry tales #she def realizes she cant have her cake and eat it too and i think sten surprisingly is the best character i have to explore that with???? #WHO'D HAVE THOUGHT ? NOT ME ❤ #anyways if u read all this ur a legend and u may be entitled to financial compensation

[kojakaj]

being an older sibling is like fine and fun. until its like. “oh my intense desire to protect and defend you is because i traumatized you throughout our entire childhood on accident. and somehow you still managed to live a better life than me in every aspect. and the only way i will ever be able to make up for how much i scared you is to constantly be in your service from far enough away that you never know.”

#i didnt traumatize her on purpose i was just mentally ill as a kid #idk #theres only so many times u can scream that u want to kill yourself before ur little sister hears #and when u share a room shes gonna find the blades u hid sometimes #i hope she never knows the things ive done for her #do u think she knows that i would step into the arguments with my father and yell the loudest so that he wouldnt yell st her #do u think she noticed that i would always fight back for her so that it would come my way instead of hers #idk. its mostly over now #my dad doesn’t scream as much #which is good but i sometimes wish he would #idk why #i mean it was never that bad anyway #but like. you’re allowed to externalize all of that rage when somekne else starts it #thats why he likes to piss us off #cuz the rage is gonna be there no matter what. its nice to let it out and have matched too #i dont want to be like my father but theres something comforting in the fact that at least he has the same thing in him #less comforting that i know it will never go away #idk its more fun to hurt someone else and be hurt by them then to just hurt urself #ANYWAY #lol. i got off topic but whatever. #this should go on the mentally ill side blog but whatever #milo ignore this post <3 unless ur texting me abt it #but like those r ur options u gotta acknowledge it to my face or completely ignkre it

[toomuchdickfort]

OH ITS DEAR ANSUR

#I FORGOR THAT #BESTIE U KILLED HIM. LIKE I GET IT BUT ALSO I DONT THINK UR ALLOWED TO CALL HIM THAT ANYMORE AFTER KILLING SOMEONE WHO WAS ONLY ACTING OUT #OF LOVE. WHOS REMAINED FOR HIS RAGE. but also it’s SUCH tasty #bg3 posting

[trollbreak]

Any time I get myself on abt balist I just land in territory of ‘damn this guy needs more friends to be retired with’ lol

#hm. he’d probably be allowed to myoren’s house. under careful supervision for a long time tho. they’re like I met ur kid he’s a clown and he #kills people on the nightly and balist is like aha yeah sweat emoji and myoren is like are you a clown and balist is like lmao nah and like. #they drink coffee and stuff #myoren much more vibes with arch than balist but like. he’s fine in their book lol #they don’t let him into their house but that’s not like a magical ward thing that’s just a ‘I’m not that close to you why do u want into my #home’ thing lol #they mostly interact with people on their porch if they can. or in their front room if they can’t lol #(archon is an exception on account of old friends and isohel and podsol r exceptions on account of. that’s their grandkids)