#unraveling madness

[sanslovesblog]

Unraveling Madness: San's Dark Secrets

[Master list]

Pairing: psych patient|choi san x psychiatrist|reader

Summary: You're a brilliant psychiatrist, but you were no stranger to internal conflicts. You had accepted the task of treating Choi San, the psychiatric ward's most dangerous patient due to his violent episodes. Despite skepticism from other staff members, you believed that beneath his destructive exterior lay a vulnerable human being, yearning for understanding and acceptance.

Status: ongoing

Genre: Fluff

Trigger warning: childhood trauma, mentions of su1cide and death

Teaser

Master list

Part 1

Part 2:

Part 3

Part 4

Part 5

Part 6

More coming soon…

If you'd like to be on my tag list please let me know!

@skzline | @janetsarttrove | @vampzity | @xoxkii

#ateez x reader #choi san #trauma #choi san x reader #unraveling madness #San's darkest secrets #you x choi san #psychiatrist

[muzzleroars]

[ultrakill]

so thankful for the 6-2 taunts amen

#ultrakill #this fight has to be so off the rails right. like fucking chaos. #and so for the first one i kept thinking of gabe just. #picking up v1 and shaking it bc he's SO MAD. SCRUFF THE MACHINE #but i think of the little tank on its back as a blood reservoir #so it HATES it just being touched let alone violently squeezed #(back to thinking about v1 as a prototype and how it's pretty imperfect in design) #which means it panics a little and defaults to kicking him in the head lol #second one is the fight unraveling completely and ending in fists #just these two beating the shit out of each other #ALWAYS keeping 'fight me like an animal' in my heart #altho...with my v1...i mean look at it. it's already there #v1 #gabriel #doodle tag #blood cw #injury cw

[milo-igidk]

"Rev Up, Power Up" edit with Ro & Sandor would go so hard yall dont UNDERSTAND

#im so mad i need to edit kotlc but i CANT #kotlc #keeper of the lost cities #kotlc thoughts #kotlc fandom #kotlc ro #kotlc sandor #kotlc exile #kotlc everblaze #kotlc neverseen #kotlc nightfall #kotlc flashback #kotlc legacy #kotlc lodestar #kotlc unlocked #kotlc stellarlune #kotlc unraveled

[nerevar-quote-and-star]

He exists now only in my memory.

Avarenya, about Martin the Priest, while staring at the Avatar of Akatosh, probably

#no think about it #tamriel is going to remember a very different martin from the martin the hok knew #tamriel remembers the quick blaze of heroic sacrifice thst was the last septim emperor #the hok remembers that man starting out as a humble yet burnt priest struggling with his faith but willing to step into his new role as heir #the hok remembers the soft voice the tired eyes the sleepless nights the reading in the glow of the firelight #the human desire to have a conversation without decorum #the blue eyes shining when martin unraveled another part of the xarxes those same eyes lighting up when his friend returned safe #and creasing in worry if the hok was hurt #the idea of Martin tamriel will remember is noble but the Martin that was exists now only in the hok's memory #and for most hoks it drives them mad #it's martin septim loving hours #after all this time? always #martin septim #avatar of akatosh #light the dragonfires #temple of the one #imperial city #hero of kvatch #oc: avarenya #martenya #nerevar queue and star #incorrect quotes #incorrect elder scrolls #incorrect oblivion quotes #tes #the elder scrolls #Oblivion #the elder scrolls iv: oblivion #source: titanic

[kitkat-the-muffin]

Spoilers for Charlie in Underworld, but it’s revealed in that game that Boss told a pretty big lie that sort of ruined River’s entire afterlife and set Eugene’s character arc spiraling down the toilet

So today I present thee with a question:

Feel free to share why in the replies and stuff :3

#underworld office #charlie in underworld #uwo #personally I say yes. i could’t stay mad at him knowing why he did it #i can’t forgive the action but I can forgive him #he just wanted some company… but he told his friends lies about themselves to keep them with him… #it’s a lot to unravel

[hatanaka]

I like to play games.

#illustration #unravel game #little nightmares #silent hill #bloodborne #alice madness returns #bioshock #fanart

[mattodore]

reading through these answers on theo's questionnaire and shaking my head and getting pissed off. like hello??

"I don’t think Theo outwardly shows any romantic tendencies, but inwardly… in that soft, guarded place inside of him… I think he makes himself sick yearning for love and romance. He doesn’t let on to those feelings of his at all. In fact, I think Theo probably shrinks away from mentions of romance, insisting he doesn’t need it… but really, it’s something he imagines all the time. What must it be like, to have that for yourself? Does it hurt? How bad is it? Is it painless? Does it fill you up? Does it ever feel like enough? Thoughts like those."

someone should have put tumblr user mattodore's head on a stick for that one like i'm so serious

#river dipping #questionnaire lb #DOES IT HURT . HOW BAD IS IT . IS IT PAINLESS .................. #OOOOOOOOOOOOO H I'M SO MAD . #I'M SO MAD AND SO SO SO UPSET #DOES IT HURT........................................................ DOES IT /HURT/ #DOES LOVE HURT #WHEN IT'S ALL YOU KNOW HOW DO YOU EVEN CONCEPTUALIZE IT BEING ANYTHING BUT PAINFUL.... GRHGGG #I WANT TO DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE #god. #the way my head spins reading through his 100 questions......... it's like i'm being yanked to the ground from this knot in my stomach #and then it all just starts unraveling #immediate tears yk #liveblogging my own writing abt theo bc if i had to sit with these thoughts quietly i think i would actually go insane . #it's fr just me and my favorite oc against the world........... #do NOT make ocs you will get so attached to them that you'll want to kick your own ass about it

[nobodieshero-main]

had a really distressing conversation with myself about NH plot-lines. i fear my work with these books will never be over.

#distressing in the sense that i started unravelling all of them and poking harshly at all the bits i dont like #and experimentally pulling threads from PAST nh-plots and tying them together with existing ones to see what happens #altogether frankensteining the various versions of the story that have existed until i had to consciously and out loud change the subject #before i drove myself mad

[mourningcandles]

Sunless Skies AU is such a corruption arc for Idris. They make a deal with one of the Masters, they lie to and straight up gaslight their daughter, they ignore the IRB... Honestly the worst part is that they think they're doing the right thing for their kid and that the ends justify the means. They want her to have a happy childhood, and they feel that her knowing that she's a revenant with a gaping hole in her memory would get in the way of that. They don't want her to feel like she's broken, but in hiding things from her they are very much acting like she has something wrong with her that needs to be hidden at all costs.

Luckily she does learn the truth later on, but by that point her relationship with her mother is in shambles.

#skies au #road trip where you unravel your star mad mother's secrets including the fact they were your biological mom all along

[avallachs]

i am having so much brainrot about galatea & varinia meeting in pandæmonium (i renamed her ancient again 🤡) & how that impacts both of them because, iirc, the canon never established its own rules regarding time travel and what would happen if a sundered shard encountered their unsundered self. much to think about

#ophelia.txt #ocs tag #oc: galatea #varinia’s mind unravelling as galatea’s madness envelopes her & a twisting pounding nausea seizing her as she realises #that she is not a child of mother nature. she exists because someone decided to play god and her soul is the splintered remains of a Thing #galatea wasn’t even a person to the unsundered. her developing a soul was monumental and groundbreaking until they though about the #implications. then they became afraid and locked her away. galatea beckoning varinia closer & here little rabbit come here. lashing out #from between the bars of her cell and grabbing varinia’s wrist. wrenching her forward in an iron grip that doesn’t fit how frail and dead #she looks. pulling her against the bars until it hurts. see what they did to me little rabbit. what they did to us. i’m sick #me: how can i turn this silly little mmorpg into horror

[sanslovesblog]

Unraveling Madness: San's Dark Secrets Pt. 4

Summary: You're a brilliant psychiatrist, but you were no stranger to internal conflicts. You had accepted the task of treating Choi San, the psychiatric ward's most dangerous patient due to his violent episodes. Despite skepticism from other staff members, you believed that beneath his destructive exterior lay a vulnerable human being, yearning for understanding and acceptance.

Trigger warning: death

Teaser | Master list | Pt 5

Throughout his tale, Choi San's voice grew steadier, his eyes beginning to lose their haunted expression. There was a sense of catharsis in finally sharing these long-buried memories, as if a weight had been lifted from his shoulders. You listened intently, offering occasional words of understanding and empathy, allowing him to take the lead in the conversation.

As the session drew to a close, Choi San felt a newfound sense of hope beginning to stir within him. He told you about how, as a young boy, he had been forced to watch his parents being brutally murdered by a group of thugs. They had been after something valuable that his father had hidden in their home. In a desperate attempt the father tried protecting the valuable that was hidden while Choi San's mother protected him, she had sent him out to play with a neighbor's child, not realizing it would be the last time he ever saw her. The memory still haunted him to this day, the sound of their screams echoing in his ears like a macabre lullaby.

You listened intently, your expression one of both empathy and horror. You nodded along as he spoke, understanding all too well the depths of trauma he had experienced. As he finished recounting the harrowing tale, you reached out and placed a comforting hand on his shoulder. "Choi San," you began, your voice gentle but firm, "I cannot even begin to imagine the pain you must have gone through. It's incredible that you've managed to survive this far, let alone find the strength to share your story with me today." Your words brought a small, yet genuine, smile to his lips. "You are incredibly strong, and I am so proud of you."

You paused, taking a deep breath before continuing. "I want you to know that I am here for you, Choi San. Whatever you need, I will do everything in my power to help you heal from this. We will face your demons together, and we will overcome them." Her words filled him with a newfound sense of hope, and for the first time in a long while, he felt truly heard and understood. The weight of his past began to lift from his shoulders, replaced by a sense of lightness and relief. He felt lighter, more at peace with himself. He knew that the road ahead would still be long and difficult, but he no longer felt alone. The darkness that had once consumed him was beginning to recede, making way for a brighter future.

As the session came to a close, Choi San thanked you for your patience, understanding, and support. He left your office with a newfound determination to confront his demons head-on and begin the process of healing. Over the next few weeks, he continued to make progress in therapy, learning healthy coping mechanisms and developing a stronger sense of self. The nightmares became less frequent, and the voices in his head grew quieter.

One day, as they were discussing his progress, Choi San felt compelled to share something else with you. He told you about the guilt he carried, the belief that if he had been a better son, a stronger boy, his mother might still be alive. You listened intently, offering words of reassurance and perspective. You reminded him that he was only a child at the time, and that his mothers' love for him could never have been diminished by the actions of others.

Over time, Choi San began to see things differently. He started to understand that his mother would never have wanted him to live a life defined by the pain of her loss. He realized that he had spent so much of his life trying to be the perfect son, the perfect survivor, that he had forgotten who he truly was beneath all the trauma. With your support, he started to embrace his own identity, to find joy in the small moments of life that had once eluded him.

@skzline | @janetsarttrove | @vampzity | @xoxkii | @idfkeddieishot | @evidive

#ateez x reader #choi san #ateez #choi san x reader #choi san x y/n #choi san x you #tw sui ideation #san's darkest secrets #unraveling madness #tw death

[sn0wbat]

If you don’t mind, I saw the comic about vampire hair and it made me wonder what would Einarr look like with a beard?

the context

he'd rather not dwell on it too much

#asks🦇 #low stakes 🦇 #sometimes i wanna start an oc ask blog #this is probably like. the third time someone has been like 'but what would einarr look like with a beard tho' so ALRIGHT FINE i drew it #the answer is viking. he'd look more like the usual bearded viking stereotype. he'd also look just like his dad who matches said stereotype #also rune is just really gay for him either way #however einarr is very aroace and does not return those feelings at all and honestly sees rune more like a child. sorry rune #also don't worry i'm not mad at you for asking #einarr just doesn't like the question #the gender standards he grew up with are different from ours and over the centuries he has been kinda unraveling it. unpacking it all #deciding that gender norms are dumb; they FLUCTUATE anyway and what's masculine in one century can be horrendously outdated in the next #he has also mostly accepted his fate anyway #it is what it is #and as such; he should be allowed to do whatever he wants. like wearing those feminine brooches bc he likes the look of em #he isnt bothering with the absolute project that is growing a beard as a vampire when it can fall off just as easily as when his hair reset #when it means he has to avoid all sorts of shifting. no bat forms. no mistshifting. none of this. all while remaining as calm as possible #and he has done it before! once. it did not make it to the length that rune is imagining sadly #i'm rambling #it's a complex topic #he has mixed feelings about it #and honestly i just find that more interesting

[tiny-chubby-bird]

why do people always feel the need to stir the soup

#let me just vent here real quick #it's been some time since full release bg3 came out and the vibes were rlly great #but recently I've been seeing more and more drama #like ppl getting mad at other people's opinions and hcs #and while some posts are rlly nicely informative about stuff others are just plain rude and mean like #man it just rlly puts a damper on things u know #like guys it's a game #it's for enjoyment #the characters aren't real #the actors are real people though #it'd just be nice if ppl could stop being shitty and just enjoy a game normally #like normally as in just dont be a fuckin asshat #and like it's cool when people take things from the game and make something bigger out of it #like hey this little thing actually shows this big thing and a lot of thought went into this #but sometimes i feel like some of these are unraveled a little too far and the deal is being made too big #idk im bad with words #i just want everyone to be happy and hold hands #:(

[yay-depression]

i love learning about parenting styles in psych 101 bc i can read it and go “haha yeah my dad was like that” and how that has been proven to mess children up and i can be like “yep can confirm”

#we’re learning about authoritarian parenting styles and uhhh #let’s just say it’s hitting a little too close to home #basically authoritarian parenting is being a ‘because i said so’ parent #they set strict rules don’t allow exceptions and apply punishments whenever rules are broken #they favor obedience over reasoning for rules #and that last sentence reminds me of how as a young teenager and older child i wasn’t allowed to ask questions about or debate rules #bc i would apparently ‘find a way to make the rules seem unreasonable and get my way’ #so basically my dad was mad that i was a reasonable human being in the face of his strict discipline #hint hint: if your reasoning for rules can be unraveled by a 12 year old maybe your reasoning is bad #authoritarian parenting #this course was not made for ppl with trauma or mental illness or neurodivergency or disabled people

[boomerang109]

:D

#Like. i need a new mindset around weed cause I’m genuinely trying to demonize my actions cause like ‘ahhh drugs on a Thursday night’ but #genuinely this is a magical experience #because I was gonna lay in bed all night being SO MAD at my body for not working and being upset that I was tired and in pain #and instead I said well fuck. if I can’t do the homework I want because my body hurts anyway. might as well take weed #and I took 2.5mg of weed and 5mg of cbd. like that is a teeny tiny eeny weeny amount #and yes I can still feel my headache but mostly I’m disassociated from it. mostly I’m floating in the sky feeling calm and serene. and I’m #just reading fic. honestly haven’t even been enjoying it much although I think I just found one with some promise #but just. resting and being in bed with a calm mind rather than doing work and focusing on all the things I have to do. #weed turns my brain off and truly nothing else can. and I appreciate that. i truly need the unravel time. v #i act like it’s so noble to stay sober and make myself suffer but sometimes taking drugs is the only way for me to function and that’s okay #that’s not addict behavior that’s chronic pain #boom blogs high

[song-for-the-seasons]

I feel so validated poring through the Danny Dickens tag here and on Instagram because everyone posting in it has “mad scientist apologist” or “crazy doctor fucker” in their bio and is just absolutely unhinged. I feel a sense of deep kinship, y’all, is there a discord for insane doctor admirers? Should I make one??

#My husband is watching my last few brain cells unravel as I go through my mad scientist phase again #The danny fucker memes are incredible #it’s all just pics of him looking like a horrible little goblin man with a caption that says ‘it’s him :) wow he amazing wow” or #“I want to kill him or have him kill me nothing in between” and I FELT THAT #Danny dickens