#tw; negative

[secondhandmckie]

// Life update:

I just found out today that my job at the non-profit is being cut due to budget. They’re giving me until the 15th at least, so there’s that? Idk. It’s just on top of everything else that has happened/is happening I’m just so tired.

Anyway, idk what my activity here will be like, if it’ll be affected at all. I just wanted to warn folks just in case I disappear for a little bit that I’m still around…just processing.

#ooc #tw; job loss #tw; negative

[semperfcrtis]

//I'm having one of those days where I just want to fuck off the internet and delete all my blogs.

#tw; negative #;out of hogwarts #my head is just not in it lately

[yuichiroswife]

{ I am quite literally about to go over the edge and nothing can help. }

#{ My sister has been bleeding excessively for a month ir two without stopping. } #{ She's so extremely pale and her body is so cold. } #{ Her lips turned blue last night and the pink or her eyes is almost completely white. } #{ I've been awake since 2 AM last night freaking out over this as she went to the ER. } #{ My sister and my dad were there for two hours and the hospital refused to even call her name to see her. } #{ All because she doesn't have insurance. } #{ She could be fucking dying and they won't take her. } #{ I have been hysterical since 2 AM because of this and we don't know what to do anymore. } #{ The hospital was our last option and they refuse to do anything. } #{ I don't know how much longer I can do this. } #{ I don't know if I can pretend to be okay anymore just to spare people's feelings or not ruin their day. } #{ I'll be spending most of my time taking care of my little sister. } #{ Maybe I'll be here when I have time? Maybe I won't? I don't know anymore. } #{ It's not like it really matters anyway since I'm barely here. } #tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[sioraiocht]

{ Having one of those days where I feel wildly insecure about my portrayals and writing which has absolutely hit me out of nowhere. I'm so used to having singular blogs for each character that I worry now that I'm not dedicating enough time to each muse or doing them justice. Which is silly cause I've never enjoyed writing as much as I'm enjoying it now. Just my brain having a lil wobble this morning apparently }

#;out of imagination #tw; negative

[thcmcnstcr]

ALRIIIIIIIIIIGHT

With that spike of anxiety, I'm going to take a breather for a little while. Might be 30 minutes, might be two hours, but just consider this a starter call for when I'm back. Love y'all so much <33333

#;; ooc babble #tw; negative #your boy is Struggling #and for stupid and insignificant reasons #just need a minute to get over myself lmao

[peppy-jester]

I had to unfollow you since there are other better Fizzarolli roleplayers around. Yours is bit too much ooc for my taste.

Oh no!

Anyways-.... ))

#And now I am gonna hunt you down with pitchforks and torches and force you yo re-follow my ass! #No one walks away from me like this! #Just kidding #do whatever you want/need to do to keep yourself happy #I can not please everyone with my muse here #Hope you have fun with the other muns/muses tho #OOC;; #ask reply #tw; Negative

[cwarscars]

(( i'm really sorry if i've been boring to talk to or a little unresponsive ; i just feel so out of sorts. i've got a tonne of uni work to do cause i'm in my final semester & the grief / family side of things has really been hitting me now. my brain feels like it's in a million places; whenever i sit down to write, i don't write anything. whenever i sit down to do uni work, i end up fucking around with other things.

in terms of conversation, i feel super unapproachable / boring to people at the moment and it's making me feel self conscious in every respect. i see people having fun together and people seem happy and then i'm just sat here alone with a raincloud on my head, like, bleh. i get not wanting to talk to me because of the grief thing but idk, it's just making me not wanna be around online.

my boss was hounding me for work three days after my dad's death & there are people i thought were friends who have either totally ignored me or have been just /weird/ with me about everything. people have talked to me and approached me like i should be entirely fine. and while i want things to be normal and for people to not feel weird around me ( nor do i want to 'trauma-dump' on people ), pretending that i'm just totally okay is a total lie

i guess what i'm trying to say is that i feel self-concious in my writing, myself & like...just everything right now. my brain feels swamped and i feel a little lost. i know this self-doubt / depression is caused by everything going on but, like, it feels as though people don't wanna be around me rn.

idk - the queue is posting so it doesn't matter if i'm around or not, but yeah - i just wanted to say sorry if i'm being a drip on anyone's mood or if people don't wanna chat to me or whatever because i seem off. i am off. i just feel kind of shit ))

#(ooc) #(tbd) #tw; negative

[carnivoraformes]

//That moment when you genuinely are trying to decide: do I be a team player and go to work tomorrow OR do I listen to what my body is telling me because I am not a doctor and don't know how far I can push my luck. By the way, no I am not talking about going to work sick, I still have tendonitis or whatever this is over two months later and now my ankle has started swelling days ago AND my foot throbs if I walk to much.

I reiterate though I think most of my moots know this: I work at a doggy daycare.

#*conure screaming intensifies* #tw; negative #//why is adulting hard #//and the doctors appointment isnt until tuesday :/

[stcllla]

Addressing this real quick: I stopped writing because of drama. I lost all muse because of drama, and dictations from ‘ friends ‘ on what I could, or couldn’t write. I stopped having fun because people who were friends made me hate writing.

I am not scared to hardblock with no explanation. And I most certainly will not be bullied into anything. My muse is my muse. My blog is my blog. I will say this once, and only once. Telling me who I can, and cannot write with as well as attempting to drag me into drama, will not be tolerated.

#idk #psa ? #tw; negative #kinda #I’m just #tired #of the drama

[charlotte-liddel]

//Quick note because I have an ongoing issue with a block evader under the cut

So I have a block evader like I said above, and they block me first on every blog they have/make, but the issue is that they make SEPARATE BLOG ACCOUNTS for each new blog they make. They've also been making new blogs a lot lately, like within a week of each other.

Some might argue I shouldn't worry because they block me first, but the trouble is they block me first and then claim I am harassing them with friends when I am not. I only find out about where their new blogs are a few days after they're made, and I have no interest in contacting them.

They also like to say that I am ruining their fun when they are actively acting like they own their mutuals like property and telling those mutuals to block me based on their biased opinionated vilifying of me.

It's getting tedious tracking out each new separate account blog they make as they pop up, but now I do have some nice people helping me if they notice a new blog pop up by this person so I can keep every one of their accounts blocked in a speedy manner. There's also the matter this has been going on for OVER A MONTH.

And I am not exaggerating when I say this needs to be done when this person has made over 4 separate blog accounts so far from when I used to associate with them to now.

So...They are a headache to block obviously.

I'm getting a little exhausted with their mental gymnastics, projecting on me, and denial of any responsibility or guilt to their own actions consequences alone. The block evading via 4+ blogs and through their mutuals willing to be manipulated into doing so is just an added level.

Normally I wouldn't ever clearly point out anyones antics in this direct while still vague way either, but their escalating antics have pushed me to at least say SOMETHING about it. I still won't name them, not even when asked. People involved with them know who they are and who I am, along with the lies.

People close to me have been avoiding this person and not engaging with them, but are often the ones that notice if a new blog pops up to let me know to block it. They do this for the sake of my mental health and happiness despite this persons antics. I am not online all the time all day like this person to catch onto them spying on me with a new account. I have a life outside of RPing.

That's really all I got to say on this issue at hand.

Well that, and to the damn block evader:

Please stop with all the separate accounts to block evade and focus on your offline life with your s/o more than RP on here. You clearly need a break to live in reality and I am here for a hobby in my down time while I work on my projects/freelance art commissions. I do not have the time or patience for your immature antics when you like to tout you're nearly the same age as me as an adult.

#\ \|✢Space Case✢|/ / #\ \|✢Updates✢|/ / #\ \|✢PSA✢|/ / #\ \|✢Rant✢|/ / #[[This is optional to read just an ongoing issue I have had since about end of August]] #[[I really don't like to directly address this stuff]] #tw; negative #tw; discourse #[[I have mostly made this post to make it clear to that block evader that despite my posts lately]] #[[I am full aware that you're watching me]]

[sultansdaughter]

Warning: Negarive

Hey all, I’ve been having major self-doubts about my writing/portrayal based off of recent events. I don’t feel like I’m portraying Jasmine perfectly or even a good rp partner. It truly has prevented me from answering threads. Just curious to what y’all think. You can message me or reply on here if you want or you don’t have too.

#Out of the palace (ooc) #tw; negative

[xfangheartx]

Feeling so tired and stressed out...

#fang says a thing #tw; negative #tw; emotional stress

[yuichiroswife]

{ Ah yes, the "I'm suddenly remembering my ex-fiancé and miss him because us splitting up was my fault for being anxious about moving in together" feeling slapping me in the face at like... 10:39 PM is exactly what I need on top of all the natural sadness I feel about my daily life. Thank you, brain.

That aside, I hope that y'all had a good Thanksgiving or whatever it is that you celebrate where you're from or even just had a good day if you don't celebrate anything. }

#{ Life why do you hate me so much? } #{ Why do you feel the need to do things like this to me? } #{ All I wanna do is be able to write some drafts and asks. } #{ Is that too much for me to ask for? } #{ I've been sitting on drafts that I keep promising to answer for months. } #{ But my brain won't let me write anything. } #{ Trying my honest to god best out here and it just isn't cutting it. } #{ Also kinda sad that my friend said she'd visit me while she was in my city but never did. } #{ Especially since she's an online friend and I never get those kinds of chances due to the fact I'm broke. } #{ Hurray for poverty. :D *sarcasm* } #{ Anyway... as always I will try to do stuff but at this point it's better just to not expect anything from me. } #{ If you don't like these kinds of posts just... block me or whatever. I honestly don't care at this point. } #tw; negative #✠ [ ' ʙʟᴏᴡɪɴɢ ᴏғғ sᴛᴇᴀᴍ. ' ] - ✡ ʀᴀɴᴛɪɴɢ/ᴠᴇɴᴛɪɴɢ ✡ #✠ [ ' ᴛʜᴇ ᴏɴᴇ ᴡʜᴏ ʟᴇᴀᴅs ʙᴇʜɪɴᴅ ᴄʟᴏsᴇᴅ ᴅᴏᴏʀs. ' ] - ✡ ᴏᴜᴛ ᴏғ ᴄʜᴀʀᴀᴄᴛᴇʀ ✡

[chronosbled]

{ Had a little bit of an emotional breakdown because of something I've been trying to do since yesterday afternoon and I haven't really slept at all because of it so pardon me if I'm not really here or even seem really distracted/distant. }

#{ I am not having a great time right now. } #{ Binx spoke to me earlier though and that kinda helped me be distracted. } #{ I'm also talking to my platonic girlfriend and she's helping me out a lot too like she always does. } #{ But other than that I literally feel like my head is going to split open. } #{ So I'm sorry for everyone expecting stuff from me or wanting to talk to me. } #{ I'll try my best to get stuff done. } #{ Even if it's just one thing. } #☣ [ ' Bʅσɯιɳɠ σϝϝ ʂƚҽαɱ. ' ] - ✡ Rαɳƚιɳɠ/Vҽɳƚιɳɠ ✡ #tw; negative #tw; venting #tw; ranting #☣ [ ' Tԋҽ σɳҽ ɯԋσ ʅҽαԃʂ Ⴆҽԋιɳԃ ƈʅσʂҽԃ ԃσσɾʂ. ' ] - ✡ Oυƚ σϝ Cԋαɾαƈƚҽɾ ✡

[thcmcnstcr]

Hey. Small update, I Am Not Doing Well once again, so the comeback is looking more mid January than anything else. At least, I hope so. I want to be back so bad, but all the change is shocking the hell out of my system. It's all for the better, so don't worry about that, I'm just having a hard time processing. I can't wait to be back here, doing what I love so much with all of you. I'm just very not okay. Thanks for sticking with me!

Also holy fuck, happy Christmas Eve to those who celebrate. Time's crazy.

#;; ooc babble #tw; negative #sorry to be such a downer folks #everything is so good i just cant feel it yet #and thats okay #ill get there

[peppy-jester]

Gonna be replying on things here during weekend, the work schedule is killing me. Between yesterdays shift and today's shift there was less than 12 hours for me to recover... and same goes between today's and tomorrows shifts... I'm gonna be so dead on the inside. Fuck retail work, fuck the customers, fuck boss who decided this was a good idea! ))

#OOC;; #Mun talks #TW; Negative #Life sucks at times ngl #I hate adulting so much ;;