#to help ourselves and others be well

[mumblesplash]

part 2!!!! [read part one here]

transcript below the cut arranged into stanzas to help show where the rhymes are:

“that’s why they brought gem in? as a failsafe?” as a pawn. we were told to point her at whoever we need gone

“gem won’t hurt her allies. …yet.” the curse she carries will it’s had its eye on her since she lost the other eye she was specially selected for her hunting skill it’s quite the high honor. “wow. how generous.” we try

think about it: why does almost no one fight the curse? “given how fast scott killed skizz last season, i can guess.” [“any pain you spare your friends, you’ll have to suffer worse”?] it’s designed to shut down higher reasoning with stress

#if you still can't see the rhyme scheme try reading it out loud #if that doesn't work uh. idk. can't help you #my art #grian #geminitay #smajor1995 #bdoubleo100 #inthelittlewood #secret life #grian and his terrible horrible no good very bad eldritch coworkers: the sequel #cant wait to post the next part so i can be like 'my three secret life comics. and yes they all rhyme' #this one narratively doesn't work nearly as well as a standalone compared to part 1 #however i accidentally went way too hard and could probably upload the middle page + second to last panel as their own separate art pieces #tbh i'm considering putting an explanation of everything below the readmore buuut i don't feel like it atm. :3 later maybe #me and my 20+ life series headcanons i only allude to without explicitly stating don't need to explain ourselves #still experimenting with this webtoon-esque vertical comic style #still not sure i like it #it gets long too quickly #among other things #but it's very easy to read on a phone so

[oddlyzephyrous]

SILLY PROPOSAL TO FELLOW GHOSTIES- ive got a little idea about the names q!Bad vs q!Halo

so some of us have been calling this freshly resurrected Bad q!Halo, right? And I think that's a super cool name. BUT. I do agree with some ppl I saw saying that it doesn't fit too well for him, because he is still so obviously himself, just confused and missing memories.

SO HERE IS MY PROPOSAL:

Since this is still the q!Bad we know and love, just a little mixed up right now, we call THIS GUY q!Bad:

Second Part of the proposal. I really like the name q!Halo. I think it looks cool. SO i'd like to keep using it. AND WE HAVE A PERFECT CANDIDATE. We don't know much about him yet... but maybe soon we will. SO. I propose to you that the Mysterious BadBoyHalo in the Nether, surrounded by skulk, wielding a Netherite Sword, should be given the super cool new moniker q!Halo.

The man himself..... Now it'll be easier to refer to this mysterious character instead of the whole description, and we get to keep using the name qHalo!

THIS IS A SUGGESTION THOUGH. YOU DON'T GOTTA LISTEN TO ME, I'M JUST A SILLY GOOSE. But I think it'd be really cool and I wanted to see if you guys liked the idea.

love you ghosties <3 <3 <3

#qsmp #q!badboyhalo #q!bbh #q!bad #q!halo #i just like when names and symbols match and embody the things they are portraying. and i think it's useful to remind ourselves #that the bad we saw today is not a new person. and i think keeping the name the same helps and fits better #but i really liked the Halo name (angel enjoyer what can i say) and wanted to be able to still use it yk? #and i am mega intrigued by this creepy Other Bad and i think the name fit well #idk idk im rambling #oddly posting #btw this also means that if you see me referring to “qHalo” it's mr. sansboyhalo himself im talking about and not friendly red clothes bad #SORRY IF THIS IS ANNOYING OR ANYTHING I JUST THINK IT'D BE COOL FEEL FREE TO IGNORE ME

[clown-femme]

I kind of resent when other adhd people talk about hyperfocus only because I'm jealous that I don't do that. I WISH I could zero in and stay focused on one task at a time. Can you imagine. I can't even do that with things I like.

That said I am also annoyed when people misuse the term hyperfocus to just mean 'the thing I'm into right now' but that is Beside the point

#i think my Heavy depression makes it hard for me to get the brain chemical response needed for the adhd brain employees to go 'mm yummy' #'more of this please' and make me lock into focus #i think there is a factory between my ears and there are two departments that are at odds #and one is my depression and the other is the adhd #and the depression has halted production of dopamine. it cut funding on serotonin and dopamine because of my life's conga line of misfortune #and the adhd side is like. goddamn we need some dopamine bad. we are going to try to do everything at once to get some. 87 tabs. #14 rps going on at once. three songs stuck in head. click teeth together too. #we are NOT touching a single thing that doesnt help the dopamine machine make more dopamine for us so cut all other activities. work??? well #work is hard. actually most things are hard. and they take too many steps. now i know things like our hobbies Might produce dopamine but #well its not fast enough. and also tooooo many steps. everything too many steps. #sit on couch and 87 tabs just enough steps. #this has to be the case until we can get enough dopamine from anything at all to want to linger on an activity #and then back to depression #where its like. see?? look. we dont do anything and we hate ourselves. we cant make ourselves do things that we like or dislike. #this is why we cant have dopamine or serotonin. #and then i am left on the outside unable to focus on my work or my writing or even on fun things like rp #sorry for wall of tags

[pepprs]

halfway thru my first drivers ed session. idk if i can do this aftually lol

#purrs #there’s like 30+ ppl in the class and most of them are high schoolers who already have like at least 20-30 hrs and i have 3. also the #instructor is really nice and means well but she is also a little clueless and she embarrassed me in front of everyone (or maybe i #embarrassed myself) bc she had us all introduce ourselves and say what we like to do and i said play video games and she was like oh are you #a bit of a gamer 👀 have you been to any of those conventions. LIKE 💀😭 NO I JUST PLAY SILLY LITTLE PET GAMES….. #but ajyways um. i don’t have enough driving experience to start behind the wheel lessons yet 💀💀💀💀💀 and we r watching videos rn and it’s so s #scary like istill have such trouble even maneuvering the car around how am isupposed to develop situational awareness and be driving on high #hihways and shit. this is so overwhelming. it’s like ‘every moment ur behind the wheel u and the ppl around u are at risk’ well idont want t #to be at risk or risk others lives. but also i need to move out. help 💔💖 #anyways this class has INSANELY long breaks (like 15+ mins thank god) and we might be able to end early every day too so. fingers crossed it #wont be that bad and i’ll actually retain stuff and learn to drive fucking finally. but im so scared #also on thursday we are watching a video depicting a graphic c*r cr*sh so. that’s just fucking great #drivers ed tag

[tricksterlatte]

The Online Fandom 7 Deadly Sins

sloth: complaining about how no one writes the tropes or pairings you like and bashing what's already out there, while refusing to create anything you desire yourself

greed: zine and other finance-related scandals with zero remorse for those negatively affected

gluttony: spending rent money on merch, experiencing buyer's remorse, then repeating the same process next month

wrath: anon hate over literally everything under the sun, even harassing official writers and threatening them if they don't make your ship canon

pride: devaluing other's characterizations and ships to praise yours as better, whether through a canon perspective or a moral perspective, when neither matter in the long run when it comes to your own enjoyment

envy: trash talking others' fandom creations or saying you won't bother creating anything because it'll never be as good as them

lust: fighting over who tops or bottoms because of your personal preferences when one, both, or neither could happen, especially when most of these characters never even kiss canonically nor have most people fighting done any of these things irl themselves

#parker says things #i'm not exempt I've definitely done a few of the things listed #especially pride and envy god those really go hand in hand and it's sad #but seriously...guys does any of this matter in the long run #just have fun #if someone is having fun in a way that clashes with your own type of enjoyment just hit da bricks! #that guy's got horns! well not gonna ruin my day! #live like Yusuke guys #i've been afk because I'm dealing with some intense depression but fandom has actively hurt more than helped me #and I know plenty of ppl myself included think discussion of meta is enjoyable but I think things reach a point where it's only stewing #the inherent focus on adhering to a singular strict perspective is toxic to ourselves in the long run #have fun! be self indulgent #almost everything posted is gonna be ooc to some people even if it's 100 percent accurate to others #and just in general idk I think we should focus on fandom as a sense of fun instead of a marketing ploy #most of us are not here to make fanart or writing a career #I'm not really a community person and I've learned that the hard way over a decade and more #but i just hope people will find what sparks joy and enjoy themselves again #I don't think I'll be active in fandoms much anymore as I focus more on my personal life and recover from some things #but I wish everyone much love and hope for the best for people #even if we've had some bad interactions I do not wish ill upon anyone #i got off topic but these tags are just me saying I'll stick to lurking publicly and replying to my DMs and writing in private #will still post some things to my AO3!! maybe #anyways tag yourself I'm a recovering glutton/envy

[downtherabbitholewithlucy]

Me when someone finds my blog and spam likes/reblogs posts:

#Welcome to the blog new friends! #just checkin' in on y'all. wanna make sure y'all are well situated and taken care of when you're going down the rabbit hole #stay as long as you'd like #listen I named by blog 'downtherabbithole (w/ Lucy)' not only to pay homage to everyone's fave ceramic rabbit #but also to be a safe haven for anyone to get lost into their LB/Wes Borland fixation #so it warms my fucking heart to see other folks get caught by the LB-bug and that my blog can help scratch that itch #like hell yeah y'all! We got ourselves some more friends in the community! #down the rabbit hole

[majormeilani]

i still never understood people saying autism is 'more destigmatized' than any other disability because that's literally not true in the slightest lmfao. i remember there was a post circulating that kinda rubbed me the wrong way that claimed something like that. but it's like y'all have to remember that just because in certain online spaces you and your fellow autistic friends embrace their autism, unfortunately a lot of the world still isn't that great about autism or the people who have it.

#and this is coming from me who has it #and also can we literally stop claiming other disabilities have it worse or something like how about we recognize that the able bodied and #neurotypical world is shitty but that shouldn't stop us from loving ourselves for who we are and embracing our disabilities #i think you're frankly not helping anyone's case to claim that certain disabilities don't endure horrible things #we should all uplift and support one another and fight for change #not start pointing fingers and being like 'well actually'

[tiredsadpeach]

Losing my fp is gonna fucking hurt but I just idk I can’t find a way this is gonna end well so I’m coming to terms with it

#it’s was a fine 4 years #the last year was already hard as fuck lmao #funny we got into a fight exactly a year ago too over him saying if you’re too sensitive don’t be on social media #I still have his Christmas present because we haven’t gotten to see eachother since #October I think is when we last met in person #just a week ago he was offering to hang out because of all the shit my mom said to me #I also have the other friend that’s involved in all of this’s Christmas gift #I was gonna mail it to him #oh well I guess #I just idk I’m so hurt #but this feels like what I’d been worried would happen ever since their obsession with each other got worse and worse #like I get it bpd does that you get obsessed believe me I know but y’all have been feeding into it with these ‘jokes’ lately and well #all the times y’all have said to each other you don’t need friend you only need me as a haha joke is gonna become true if y’all don’t get #some help and soon and like I think one of their psychiatrists said that their relationship was unhealthy and also one sided once #which unhealthy YES one sided?? nah not at all #but they both were like baffled and just didn’t believe the unhealthy part #I commented on it only saying how was it one sided because I knew if I agreed with the unhealthy part they’d both hate me lol #because believe it or not mutual obsession is not healthy lmao idc how romanticized it’s been getting it will never be healthy #I have a bf now and I strive to never be like that to him because i don’t want us to become mutually obsessed like that I don’t want us to #isolate ourselves for eachother whether knowingly or unknowingly just today he apologized because he’s been busy and I always let him know #it’s perfectly okay if he just never has time to message me one day because I know that’s healthy even if my brain is screaming #like yeah I still have intrusive thoughts I get jealous of his friends like way too jealous and I want him all to myself but I stop myself #from acting on any of those thoughts because I know it leads to a controlling abusive realtionship and I don’t want to be that he doesn’t #deserve that so it is so fucking confusing when they ‘joke’ and tell the other to delete a photo or tweet and then the other actually does #idk how they can’t see that that’s fucked #okay sorry lol but hey if y’all read the tags on the I’m so lost post and know what I did wrong please tell me because no one else will!

[ariverofsongs]

Imagine finding someone who says their safe space is your home with you hellooooooo waaattttt

#i dint want to get into tok many details because i get exciteted but me and g we are just cruising along trying new things communicating #figuring ourselves out and helping each other as well as learning a dynamic that works for both of us #this is a very t4t relationship we are like the opposite versions of each other just like drawn into a centre partnership with feelings and #openess and i feel like everything we are trying is the missing piece to #what i have been missing in my frelings

[bat-the-misfit]

FYI if you're not american but most of your OCs are bc usa is more "popular", "cooler than your country" or whatever stupid excuse you're a fucking conformist playing their game to always rule in the rest of world and i fucking hate you for that

#screw conformism!!! break the rules!!! make your stories non-american!!! #they already make the most media out there and we don't get enough praise for OUR media #we make stories about our cultures and no one cares #they make stories about OUR cultures and win millions for that #like in Encanto :) #if Encanto wasn't american no one would be simping for Bruno :)) #we need to show them they're not the standard country and we're the “others” #our media is great too!! we need to value them!!! watch non-american media too!!! #not only you will learn about and respect other cultures but you will be helping that country produce more art!!! #HOW COOL IS THAT??? #that's so fucking amazing!!! #i want to watch stuff from literally every single country in the world!!! #i want to watch stuff from my own country that was so well made i feel proud of ourselves!!! #i want to feel well represented in media!!! #idc you don't like your country there's ALWAYS smth you like about it #don't pretend everything about it is bad #it's not like i think my country is perfect neither #but i love the good things about it and everyone should do the same #i never understand people who choose usa over their own country like??? #i hate conformism so much #like by doing that you're telling americans “yeah you guys are indeed superior and we're pieces of crap :D” #i'm not saying you can't make american ocs #just to not “americanize” your stories if you're not fucking american #stop putting them on a fucking pedestal #they're no better than us #their country is as good and as shitty as ours are #tio morcego tá pistola #tio morcego tá tagarela

[katnissgirlsmakedo]

that was a lie my parents won’t ruin THIS episode by coming home. unfortunately i will probably watch a third episode

#well. ruin is a strong word. i just don’t like how they don’t perceive stuff i like #ignore the second don’t #i’m the baby of the family so everything i like is automatically juvenile and it doesn’t help that i like a lot of things that are juvenile #but like no one in this house can conceptualize ‘family’ media. like if there’s no curse words or sex it’s just For Kids #like get serious y’all just watched harry potter with my sister and no one has ever acted like she’s childish for liking that shit #like i KNOW it’s just because of misogyny 85% of the time because especially in the fantasy genre girl’s stories are seen as more childish #simply due to being about and being written for girls. where boys stories get to be gender neutral because they’re the default #and then because i’m me and 80% of everything i enjoy is about women. the other 20% doesn’t make enough of an impression to not be lumped in #so even though THIS show isn’t about women it’s still something I’M watching and it’s fantasy and it doesn’t have curse words or sex so by #default it’s girly and childish. and that sucks already but sucks even worse because now my family is gonna go about their lives thinking #that bbc merlin is girl stuff. and therefore even remotely feminist. which makes me want to kill myself because i’ve never heard something #less true in my life. like YES i am the annoying girly feminist girl’s girl of this family YES i watch bbc merlin NO that show is not that!! #anyway. that’s annoying. i love how it’s only not stupid to like something in the fantasy genre when it’s harry potter or game of thrones. #like that’s awesome. #we should all kill ourselves. but before that we should publicly execute jk rowling and george rr martin #like i firmly believe jkr should be killed but not for the terf stuff just because she made up the most annoying franchise ever. #beth.txt

[astrovagrant]

urehghdhgdhghg. whf is generally... listen. she gets it. she understands why people end up working for corps - she was one of them. it put metaphorical food on the metaphorical table. it paid for medical bills, piling up. it let her keep the people relying on her afloat. she won't apologize for making the decisions she made and doing what she had to do.

cut bc Longe. post abt takemura mostly.

but she never liked the corp itself, and only pretended she did when she had to. she worked in cybernetics programming, not intelligence, not public relations - she was tucked away in a basement lab, testing software integrations. no one looked at her for too long, let alone cared about how strongly she believed in arasaka's great vision. and behind all that, behind the chip she let them put in her to dull the edges of her emotions, there's just a massive, massive onslaught of rage.

listening to takemura talk up the Order and Overwatch of arasaka like it's a benevolent patriarch makes her want to climb off the side of the unfinished building they're doing a stakeout on and just hit the concrete, it'd be faster and less painless than her head exploding.

takemura, look at yourself. look at her. both of us are from respective slums created by corporate bullshit. she's been in debt since before she knew how to count, inherited and generated out of thin air as everyone she cared about fell victim to the poisoned air, the poisoned water, the poisoned earth - all effects of corpos running amok, unfettered. it's not like he doesn't know - it's just that he's convinced himself otherwise. seen what he wanted to see. and she was like that, too, before leaving arasaka for good. she knew, conceptually, that there were worse things under her feet. that some of her work was being used for horrible things. but there was only the desperate tunnel of needing to make it through to the next paycheck. and she stayed until the very last possible fucking second because - because it was only on the brink of having them take the last ten years of her life away from her that she realized she couldn't rationalize that away, and she had to stop doing it for everything else, too.

so sure, talk to hanako. do whatever you've got to do based on whatever loyalties you've got to honor. but don't fucking pretend, don't fucking lie to yourself that you were ever anything other than lucky. you worked hard, but a corp is a massive beast. you just got lucky. every day you got lucky except for that one day.

just like her. every day she got lucky. except for that one day.

meanwhile johnny's just sitting over there listening to all of this and it's the most she's ever spoken about anything prior to the corp, really, and it's usually walled off in her mind behind the arasaka no-feelings implant, so he's... interested, but also so fucking. sad. he guesses. he's sad because she's sad. except she's just empty, and the only thing left (because there is No One left; they've all gone and the years she spent trying to keep them alive feel completely and utterly wasted now because who is she to fight entropy. who is she to fight the corps. who is she to fight the decay of the planet) is just a well of anger so deep he's surprised he's never tripped over it before. not that he pries, exactly, but it's so obvious now that he's seen it. she's got so much of it and so little of anything else left, and he hates to see a mirror in her in this way.

#whatsherface #tldr everyone in her family (that's a loose term it was a bunch of kids roughly her age that an old lady had taken in) got hit by - #- the same environmental disaster and fell deeply and horribly ill #a bunch of them died right at the start and then she immediately went into night city to get them medical care. uh oh that's a lot of money #ok let's start working. ok let's start scraping money out from every possible venue #okay let's give up everything about ourselves to join arasaka. okay let's let them put a chip in our head because they want us to work in- #-cybernetics and they say they need to protect their work. #and she loses them one by one by one and she was the person who was supposed to help them #the last one hanging on needed a huge procedure done that would get him through to the other side - this was after she left arasaka and was #working w jackie. and she just needed the fucking money so goddamn bad that the relic heist was really her only option #coming out of vik's clinic after getting shot and resurrected etc. the first thing she does is check on him and he died since- #the procedure didn't go ahead bc she had apparently ghosted. he died thinking she abandoned him #well now she's dying too. so it's all just alright. probably. #OK LONG TAGS TOO SORRY

[vamptastic]

every yom kippur i have a new, profound revelation about the meaning of the holiday and every yom kippur the following year i have a new, wildly different one.

#didn't go last year had a midterm 🙄 #year before i was like avinu malkeinu is a stern demand to god that in exchange for our worship suffering must end #and actually god isn't a man in the sky we all must respect but more of an alien being who also doesn't know what he's doing #and we as mortal beings must tell him whilst also respecting that he is something very different and in many ways greater than ourselves #and in relation to yom kippur that we must form a good example of how humans can be good and help each other #thus acts of great misery and destruction alà noahs flood are not necessary nor are tests of faith #but it is up to us to prove that #not just us but the world at large i suppose #this year... very different #this year i think god is the judge and we are placing our wrongdoings before him #sins for lack of a better word. although there is no punishment for commiting them #the crux being that. well it's right after rosh hashanah isn't it? #we are recognizing all that can go wrong in the coming year and evaluating what went wrong in the last one #so we are promising to do better while also informing god of such #it's more about how WE can prevent horrible things from happening than god #but god serves as the judge- the metric we use to determine if we have been doing right by others #thus the commandments the torah the judgements he's passed before #but also god is just the will of the universe so throw that in #it's. yeah. i don't know.

[aplusod]

artfight attack - it’s mintydollz’s utau Tsuchimori Miyuki! 

#utau #artfight #SoD's art #her design is simple but I really really love the concept #I tried some stuff with painting hair which...it feels more volumentric but also less defined #so i tried adding additional lines to help define it a little more but i'm not sure that works quite as well as i hoped #but anyway i really do like this utau's design!! the idea that it's constantly moving is really neat #the armwarmers are aquariums somehow! like how does that work! i #i like to imagine the clouds on her dress and the trees on her legwarmers sway in the wind too #anyway the pose is vaguely inspired by a miku pose in awake now #just the idea of the earth loving herself is....idk nice right now i guess #self love babyyyy! we gotta love ourselves 'cause we can't rely on others to do that for us #sorry for rambling here a bit i've had a bit to drink #i schedule these posts like an hour out do they show up on main tags bc the last few didn't

[theoneandonlyailat]

bro I just scrolled through my personal tag and it’s literally 99% me wanting to kill myself lmaooo embarrassing

#I am in so much better of a place mentally than I used to be #like obvs there’s still the occasional sad post now but nothing like it used to be #anyway I love myself!!!! #I am sexy!!! #and beautiful!!!!! #and I am kind to others and full of joy and mischief and love #seriously I feel like I need to write a manifesto about how amazing I am to combat the barrage of negativity from my teenage years #this bitch really used to want to die once a week #it’s funny bc I don’t -feel- that much healthier but it’s like very obvious #a big help is living on my own away from my parents influence #and accepting my body the way it is and loving myself for it #anywayyyy #to be fair tumblr was the place I always went to to be sad and depressed because I didn’t want any of my friends to know I was sad #and no one else really uses tumblr #it was my diary but only my most negative diary bc I put my happy thoughts out with my friends #well NO FUCKING MORE #mostly bc I don’t use a lot of other social media anymore #it’s loving ourselves o fucking clock #personal

[football-in-tuxedos]

What's distressing, but also important to understand, about JK Rowling hitting the "Denying trans people were targeted in the Holocaust" point is that it's kind of the last stop before she just goes full alt-right weirdo.

Joanne is denying the Holocaust (if a group was targeted, denying they were targeted is Holocaust denial) and that's going to lead to pushback from historians and experts. But Joanne is too deep in to believe what anyone who disagrees with her says, so she's just going to dismiss what those historians and experts tell her. And once she's disbelieving them about that one thing, well it's just a tiny step to start disbelieving them about other things.

This isn't by accident either, transphobic circles are swarming with far right agitators, ready to use hatred of trans people as an in to recruit people into their causes. They have handbooks for this sort of thing and they are, unfortunately, good at it. I suspect Joanne will be spouting coded versions of Great Replacement stuff by the end of the summer.

This is not a plea to try and pull Joanne out. She's too deep in, and even if she wasn't, she's already demonstrated an inability to examine her own prejudices, an unwillingness to hear criticism and a weakness to flattery. She is perfect recruitment bait for people who know what they're doing, and my impression is she's surrounded herself with people like that.

No, this is to understand two things: First is to use her as an example, to understand how a well meaning liberal can chase their own prejudices down a very dark rabbit hole. We are none of us immune to propaganda and even if we can't change what's happened to her, we can at least use it to protect ourselves.

And second is to understand that one of the main reasons you can't pull Joanne out of the transphobic pipeline is cause she is the pipeline now. She is the transphobic banner bearer now, she is funneling money and attention to these groups, she is their most famous celebrity and she is helping recruit people. Being able to show people how far she's gone, how deep into the right wing rabbit hole she's going, is important to help other people who still think she just "Had some concerns" know where her path leads.

#jk rowling #joanne rowling #transphobia #terfs #I'll probably delete this #I just wanted to write it