#though i fear this is not my best work

[abrokenherocomplex]

in the dark

“You know? Hostage or not, sometimes it’s just nice to be held.”

The villain nearly jumped six feet in the air. They’d just flicked on the old light in the lair basement, not expecting to come face-to-face with their old nemesis. At least not on a Monday morning. Clearly their villainous co-conspirators had other plans and now deemed Monday mornings were for hostage-taking.

“Jesus Christ,” the villain swore, nearly dropping the boxes they’d been carrying.

“Nope, just me.”

The villain resisted the urge to roll their eyes.

Their golden little hero was indeed tied to a chair in the now-dimly lit basement. A gag lay discarded on the floor where the hero had evidently spit it out. The villain raked their gaze over the hero, taking in the scene. It really wasn’t fair how the hero still looked so golden after a, well, kidnapping. A bruise bloomed on their jaw and their eyes were a little too bright, as they usually were when faced with an obstacle. Or a fight.

“See something you like?” the hero drawled.

The villain rolled their eyes this time, setting down the boxes. “I came down for cleaning supplies. The lab’s a mess.”

“Hmm… I'd help but I haven’t had a chance to look around.”  

The villain snorted.

The hero continued, prattling off while the villain gathered up Windex and Clorox. “I asked your coworkers for a tour of the rest of the building. Particularly those shiny labs you lot are always monologuing about.”

“Ah, and what did they say to that?”

“I think I was actually getting through to them this time! That is, until they sedated me.”

The villain shook their head in mock sympathy. “Tough crowd around here.”

“Evidently.” The hero leaned back in their restraints. “It wore off quickly though. Do you have the time, by any chance?”

The villain frowned. “What are you doing here, exactly?”

“…you took me as a hostage.”

The villain regretted asking the question as soon as the hero’s face lit up like a Christmas tree at the realization that the villain was in the dark about this specific operation.

“You weren’t behind this, were you?” The hero asked. Though, it was less of a question and more of an easy deduction. Amateur on the part of the villain, to let that slip. They now fought the urge bury their head in their hands.

“I wasn’t behind this,” the villain confirmed.  

The hero smiled gleefully. “I knew you had a soft spot for me-”

“That has nothing to do with-” the villain took a centering breath. “I wasn’t behind this, believe it or not.”

“I should have known. I mean, other than you screaming like a little girl, they didn’t even use the right dosage to keep me out. It’s honestly a blessing you came along when you did. At least you know how to properly drug me.”

The villain stilled, narrowed their eyes. “How long have you been awake?”

“The whole night, probably.” The hero caught themselves. “Not that it was a problem or anything-” They added quickly.

“You were here? In the dark?”

Anyone who knew the hero knew their… phobia for lack of a better term. Back at university, before the villain and the hero were ‘the villain’ and ‘the hero,’ the villain had deemed it nyctophobia. The Greek word for night, and well, phobia. Fear of the dark. They’d had to keep a night light on in their university dorm. The villain had teased them mercilessly for it, until they’d finally found out why.

“I was fine, really.” The hero assured them. “I can handle it.”

“Uh huh.”

What the villain had been taking for pure cockiness – joy derived from prattling off aimlessly in the direction of the villain – was actually... relief.

The hero cleared their throat, evidently wanting to move on as quickly as possible. “Do you happen to know why I’m here? Obviously, you didn’t know I was here, but now that you’ve found me. Are there any… plans? Or anything? Anything ring a bell?”

“I fear I’m in the dark as much as you.” As soon as the words left the villain’s mouth, the door to the basement slammed shut with a bang that caused the villain to jump another six feet into the air.

Then, the lights flickered. And went out.

“Shit.”

#heroes and villains #hero x villain #antagonist x protagonist #every now and then i come back and add to the hero villain canon #villains and heroes #though i fear this is not my best work #it's midnight #whatcha gonna do

[pisshandkerchief]

the obvious double standard with which we as a society treat amab nonbinary people and trans women who don't fit the level of feminity that they're expected to is actually disgusting.

#I see it every day in the way my gm (and closest friend at work) is constantly misgendered without anyone apologizing #but everyone uses the correct pronouns for me and quickly corrects themselves if they mess up. #I see it in the way my nonbinary dad #couldn't be friends with women in our old homeschool group #without rumors being constantly spread that they were just trying to get in the women's pants. #I see it in the way my mom was disgusted and disturbed by discovering my dad's early forays into crossdressing #but is proud of me for being my authentic self. #I see it in the way my dad is still scared to wear a skirt despite frequently expressing a desire to #for fear of being seen as “an ugly man in a dress". #I see it in the way my theatre director is constantly called they or he despite clearly having she/her pronouns on her email. #I see it in the way my mom refuses to use the correct pronouns for my dad even though they are out to her #and constantly “forgets” my gm's pronouns even though I've used they/them for them for months. #deep down I know if I was born with a penis my mom would think of my transness much differently. #when “women” embrace masculinity they are seen as empowered at best and at worst as victims of the patriarchy. #confused little girls who don't know any better. #when “men” embrace feminity they are seen as predators. traps. manipulative freaks. #I see it every day. It's so deeply ingrained in our society it seems like there's no escaping it.

[glitteringdepths]

had some brainworms about transfem furina.... can anyone hear me.

i feel like this would have really interesting implications in her story, much as she loves acting, but struggles with it due to the 500 years she spent being forced to act, would being a woman be the same for her? she doesn't know where the act ends and where her actual identity begins. is she a woman because she wants to be, or just because she had to be one. even if she enjoys it more than the alternative, does she actually enjoy it? or is it just because she was one for so long that she enjoys it?

i can imagine that focalors likely didnt care much about her identity/presentation as archons have been shown to be able to change their forms at will basically, but furina is the human counterpart of focalors. she doesn't have that ability to change herself just like that. i imagine gender identity would be much more important to a human, especially one that must keep up an act at all times, than a god, and thus something that would affect her. something she would think about. a lot.

maybe post-prophecy, she would experiment. figure out if femininity is in fact something she wants. maybe she would try to go back to being "cis" and then realize it wasn't right for her. and i imagine that she would flourish more being able to properly express her femininity rather than doing it just because it was apart of the role.

#my art #genshin impact #furina #idk. i think trans readings of furina in general are very interesting. it could work any which way for her. #but. something about the transfem furina hc really hits for me and im not sure why! #it got me thinking! #sorry if these thoughts arent coherent. im not the best at expressing what i want to say. hope it makes sense though! #but god. furina and how complicated her feelings must be on everything is so so so interesting #it must be a nightmare to figure out who she really is and how she really feels. how she really thinks. #since her identity got blurred together with that of being an archon #kinda scared to post this bc i dont usually post headcanon type stuff (probably fear about being Wrong about something) but here we go! #well whatever this is also my sideblog and not my main.

[moe-broey]

Oh, poor thang!

#moe tag #sorry i won't shut up about it but you gotta understand. this is the most eventful thing that's happened in like months #also i just really wanna apply what i learned about it to moe. torture the creature some more #BUT ALSO... LIKE..... i think about writing refs and health/safety refs and also best practice #ESP when treating a patient or being a caretaker all the time. #before the disability disabled me LMFAO i really wanted to go into working to help people w disabilities #i was so high masking and 'functional' (but like. still very much on the spectrum) that i had each foot in both worlds kinda #i wasn't exactly sure what line of work but i very much wanted to give back the way the people who believed in me did. #esp as a kid. i had so many behavioral issues. teachers actively dreaded and feared having to deal w me. #the few and far between teachers/social workers who saw me though. believed in me. treated me kindly. stuck forever #unfortunately i really don't think i'm cut out for that line of work esp after covid changed The Vibes of everything lmfao #i would love to give hope in a hopeless world. but i fear i've slipped through the cracks. #my art

[oflgtfol]

watching the hbomberguy video about plagiarism and hes discussing man in cave. as a certified cave enthusiast, and a certified cave disaster enthusiast, which was kickstarted by floyd collins videos, and particularly by the mental floss article, i must say. i had seen man in cave when it was first uploaded and i did think it was mid at the time i juts didnt realize it was plagiarized that badly. i have watched so many fucking floyd collins videos at this point that they kind of blend together so i thought the script being boring and done-before was because of that, not because it was a word for word copy of the mental floss article. lmfao.

#brot posts #oh hbomber just said hes one of the weird cave people. epic. one of us ! #lmao he recognizes the exact photo of the cave i love that for him. love this. i love caves #anyway the bst floyd collins videos i know off the top of my head are #the tiny segment of jacob geller's fear of depths video where he starts off with floyd collins #(which is what kickstarted my whole cave interest) #and i also found a channel of a tour guide who actually works on site and it was a recording of a tour going through #the collins property and that was actually very good #cant rememerb the channel right now i can search for it #by far the best sources of in depth information though are written sources like the metnal floss article #or trapped!: the story of floyd collins by murrary and brucker #oh and the channel i was tinnking of is just a single video #The Tragic Story Of Floyd Collins at Sand Cave by hook it up outdoors !!! #cave posting #I GUESS.

[yelloworangesoda]

omg that moment when u realize that your two closest (only?) friends dont think of you as nearly as close and youre only one of their 20+ friends and they. are each one of your 2 friends😀

#AUG HF. and like its mostly my fault bc i do not cultivate friendships. i hate texting so much. i like being alone. i dont talk about #my feelings to people and i dont start conversations about other peoples feelings. i dont ask to hang out with people. i #am not good at being a friend. but idk. i just kinda assumed bc we knew eachother for so long we were. all besties but theyre just friendly #people and i just went to school with them #and the thing is. like i know i could put in the work but i dont. want to. i want friends but not enough to put the effort in. so i kinda #have been relying on these two As My Friends bc im not going to be making new ones any time soon. maybe ever. idk. i thought we were close #shout out to my boyfriend he is also my friend. i know its bad to have ur only friend be your bf but um. its so easy #bc i can just put all my time and energy into him. and he loves me and i love him. so. um its easy. free social life. the one guy #idk i dont. like know any reason wed break up hes the best (my biggest fear is that itll be me but if i start thinking that ill. implode). #id feel stupid though saying this if we do break up. whatever thats for future me to deal with. im happy now!!!!! #ill deal with having 0 people in my life later if it ever comes to that #simons spouting #vent :(

[yngai]

i hope RE4R separate ways starts with ada sipping a mojito on the beach as she's rudely interrupted by an organization liaison who offers her the spain operation & she takes off her sunglasses, frowns & downs the rest of her drink, just as a fun contrast to leon's little edgy monologue about his really bad time under military service

#* file // : OOC — ( 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐏𝐎𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐑'𝐒 𝐂𝐑𝐔𝐒𝐀𝐃𝐄 . ) #absolute queen of coping mechanisms #she is doing the best of ressie cast in my heart owing to her own laziness plenty of time on vacation and recreational drug use #self-medication is such a great idea #given she's a corporate spy she isn't quite as present in active outbreak zones as any anti-bioweapon service #and having a very honed sense of emotional intelligence that's almost dehumanizing in a sense #she's hyperaware of what she feels / why she feels it and can rationalize her way through her own actions #and those of the people around her #even if there's some projection and guesswork to fill in the blanks #the necessity of serving symptoms of a larger societal issue to destroy them from within #and though the parallel would be funny i would love to hear talk about her work as a double agent for wesker #resurfacing after raccoon city as a complete mystery that her employers fear for their own lack of understanding #and the organizations plans to stifle wesker's ambitions through ada #those are partially hinted at in her last report in RE4 but fully expanded upon in the guidebook #and it's such an interesting era of her career #really do hope they didn't retcon any of it #wanna hear more #they're holding back a lot about separate ways despite what is already present within the game files #so it makes me think it's truly ada's expanded role they promised before the game's release #drug use mention / #drug mention /

[sxilor-1010]

Working on a danganronpa x fear street au because I'm bored and I got nothing else to do, so here's a short character list for this AU! I'll be starting off with Fear Street Part 1: 1994, Part 2: 1987 & Part 3: 1666 will come at a later point.

I really recommend watching Fear Street, it's a good movie trilogy! With that, onto the list!

DO NOT CONTINUE READING PAST THIS POINT IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN FEAR STREET, THIS POST CONTAINS SPOILERS!

Heather Watkins – Sayaka Maizono

Reason I chose her is because she's the first girl you meet in game and the first girl who dies. Heather's the same way.

Ryan Torres – Leon Kuwata

I chose Leon because of both he and Ryan have some girl catcher thing going on, not to mention they both become killers. (albeit one was possessed, the other was forced)

Deena Johnson – Shuichi Saihara

In reality because the Fear Street Trilogy also counts as a LGBTQ+ film (Deena & Sam used to date), you could put anyone besides Shuichi as the main character. Reason I chose Shuichi was because Deena associates with the color blue, and she's also pessimistic and depressed at the start of the movie until the end.

Samantha Fraser – Kokichi Oma

Now, Sam and Kokichi are very different characters. One's manipulative and childish while the other doesn't like to cause trouble while being quiet. The only reason I chose Kokichi is due to a couple things, one of them being Sam living in Sunnyvale (which is a rich and safe town, and since Kokichi is the Ultimate Supreme Leader, I just put two and two together.) Second, Saiouma is a popular ship and since Shuichi is Deena in this AU, I might as well make Sam Kokichi. (But other options such as Kiibo or Kaito or any other male character Shuichi's shipped with could work too.)

Josh Johnson – Yasuhiro Hagakure

In the movie, Josh is the nerd who's all about conspiracy theories, and he's smart because he's able to piece together what's been going on with Shadyside and the killers it pumps out every decade or so. Yasuhiro's all about that conspiracy stuff, and he's somewhat of a nerd (alongside Hifumi), hence why he's Josh. His best friends that he talks to like Josh does in the movie with AOL would probably be Hifumi and Gundham.

Kate Schmidt – Miu Iruma

Kate's not an inventor, I'll give you that. But in the movie she's very smart and has a good sense of what she's doing (even after she dies). She's also a very attractive girl, so who else could fit her other than the genius with good looks and golden brains herself?

Simon Kalivoda – Kazuichi Soda

In my personal opinion, I could've chosen Mikan for Simon due to both of them being cowards and having knowledge of over the counter medicine and drugs, but it just didn't feel right given Mikan also cries a lot... which is something Simon doesn't do. So I chose Kazuichi because I thought it would be more fitting in terms of personality. (Also, both of them are simps in a way)

Sheriff Nick Goode – Nagito Komaeda

While it doesn't make much sense for Nagito to be Nick, I chose Nagito because both of them wield guns (/hj) and because both of them live a lavish lifestyle where nothing bad ever happens to them. (With some exception as an Ultimate Lucky Student aka Nagito) Then again, he could also work for Sarah Fier given both of them had one hand cut off from their body...

C. Berman – Hajime Hinata

It's implied in 1978 that C. Berman and Nick Goode had a thing for each other when they were kids, and C. Berman was very pessimistic (almost like Deena) during most of the movie. It fits very well for Hajime just like Shuichi does with Deena.

Ruby Lane – Sonia Nevermind

Halfway in the movie, Simon ends up entranced by Ruby Lane's singing which is how he ends up getting tackled and almost killed by her. I don't like to doubt that Sonia would do something similar to draw out Kazuichi if she ever decided to kill someone.

Sarah Fier – Kiyotaka Ishimaru

While it may not make sense for Ishimaru to be the witch, It's the only character I could think that would work for this AU since, and there are spoilers so don't read if you haven't seen Fear Street, Sarah Fier in the movie is a lesbian who was hung for witchcraft and had rejected a dude who loved her when she loved another woman.

#sxilor rambles #sxilor speaks #danganronpa #danganronpa au #fear street #fear street trilogy #fear street au #I really recommend watching Fear Street if you enjoy murder horror and supernatural spooks #Things in this AU might change and swap around but that's because this is my first time actually working on a big AU idea like this #I am always open to recommendations and ideas though #just try to avoid spoilers if you can because I know not many people probably know this trilogy series #so it'd be best for those people to watch the movies and understand them

[itspileofgoodthings]

anyway: my mom is an Anne, my oldest sister is an Elinor, Nina is a Lizzy,

#my mom’s personality type has me in a CHOKEHOLD #because she’s SO deep and so smart and also (in the best way) so slow #but I’m so quick by comparison and it makes me nervous #this is also why Nina and I fight all the time #the two contrasting sides of Darcy’s love #like they fill such complementary roles for him which means they’re not natural fits for each other #anyway I 100% have his fundamental weakness which is cowardice and fear and being too easily directed in a desire to keep the peace #Though I have worked to overcome it! Literally none of these thoughts are connected I’m just chattering now

[cetoddle]

my wisdom tooth surgery is tmrw and i’m really scared ;-;

#it doesn’t make me feel better. like. at all that my f*ther is the one who has to drive me #i tried asking him what time he wants to leave in the morning and he basically just said idk idc and walked away from me #really cool !!!!!!! #i feel like crying i’m really scared for the surgery i already have such a fear of dentists #and he just. doesn’t seem to care at all #if anything he’s treating this like an inconvenience cause he has to take the morning off of work #i should have just asked my grandpa to take me… #i hate bothering my grandparents even though i know they don’t mind..i just don’t like to bug them #cause then my f*ther gets pissy i didn’t ask him #but when i do ask him for help…well at best he just does nothing about it #sigh… #i could just cry seriously #snow.txt

[sonicunleash]

watching the stuff thats going down with twitter with the layoffs and christ twitter might actually die as a website. like hoping for ya'lls sake that there's some way to pull up from this but either way those thousands(?) of people arent going to probably be getting their jobs back. You can't really come back from that.

and honestly I've never been a fan of twitter and definitely am not a twitter user but its still crazy and sad to me that it might really go out like this. I wonder if any new social media platform might rise from those ashes though. maybe

#that could be interesting though i think thats thinking very far ahead #it certainly would be great karma if the old twitter staff got to form/work on a new social media platform and leave twitter to rot #robbing elon of his money he spent on it #on another note though i do think that like #everyone running back to tumblr and causing a tumblr revival isnt really the best solution either though #yeah yeah closed ecosystem jokes aside the staff of tumblr arent great ppl. #wont specify for fear of losing my account (lol. normal to be worried about) but you know. starts w a t ends w a f. #also the rampant racism in how they treat black bloggers v literally white supremists on this site #so yeah i don't think tumblr becoming a huge main platform is a great ending here either #we need more options that arent run by you know whats

[starpros-sunshine]

sometimes I check mdzs twitter and get reminded that there's apparently people who don't realize that ''a victim of circumstance'' is an option in discussing various questions of guilt regarding the characters

#also that is written as a tragedy the whole point is that things could've worked out if people had just acted differently #You can say what you want but the fact remains wei wuxian didn't get himsefl his reputation for nothing #there is a reason people feared the guy #but you can also admit that he's a victim of circumstance and his story got exxagerated and he got demonized by the people #because that's how told stories work #everyone who tells them interprets them a little bit differently #you can say Jiang Cheng did nothing wrong ever but you can also say the guy is a complete asshole #which is right he is an asshole but he wouldn't have grown up to be one had he grown up differently #though personally I do think it's a little critical to say he always wanted the best for wwx when it has been explicitly stated that #he takes anyone he suspects to be the aforementioned with him and tortures them #that was the word used in german at least #you can talk a lot about jiang cheng actually he's very fun to discuss #<- he says. never having discussed about mdzs characters with anyone ever #but it's fun reading other peoples discussions and adding your own thought salt to the mix #have I mentioned that it's my favourite novel series? #I have yet to read tgcf I'm waiting for the books to be translated into german #which i hope happens sometime soon because I am slowly but surely getting impatient

[thebirdandhersong]

apparently the exhilaration of finishing one project means jump-starting another one

#SIGH #well at least i have it planned out #my summer writing project for my home group is now...... chugging along #it has been four hours of writing and thinking and considering things #and i think this is a good project to embark upon #i will work on tfs at the same time just so there's some Balance #summer project: the spiderman meme novel #that's literally it though #i get to come to grips with my own vices again apparently #and instead of despair/hopelessness/apathy (tfs) or fear/anger/self dependence and also self loathing/constant striving (arb) #we're dealing with.....over-sentimentalism. sadness. being unable to let go. learning to move on the hard way #which is not easy to write however i have most of it down already #if not in written form then in bullet points #i'm actually REALLY excited about this project #because i am very close to finishing it #i technically DID write most of it during the summer #but it needs a little revamp and a lot of rewriting #and im also very very excited because this is the novel i am planning on printing out for my best friend :))) #she specifically asked for a copy for her Christmas gift and that is what I shall give her! #probably won't hand-bind it (which was also her request) but i will at least design the cover myself #and embroider a special fabric dust jacket to protect it #SO EXCITED!!!!!! and now i must sleep #the post-inklings challenge ch.1 exhilaration and adrenaline has carried me to 1am and i must..... sleeeeeeep #slings and arrows of outrageous fortune in year 21

[moe-broey]

Also having to tag all those Pokemon characters really emphasizes how bullshit my tagging system is LMFAOOOO LIKE.

Character has a common and/or name you'd hear irl -> Okay I have to establish which game/franchise. Character has a relatively uncommon name -> They are the only character ever with that name and I'm going to tag them as such. OR similarly, esp in Pokemon's case: Character has a unique name made specifically for them -> They are the only character ever with that name and I'm going to tag them as such (real this time).

And the lines are NOT clear it is all vibes. Which honestly has led to the funny fe alfonse tag as if I'm calling him Mr. Lastname meanwhile Sharena is Sharena my best friend Sharena. LITERALLY feels like I'm on a first name basis w her and NOT her brother LMFAOOOOO

#this is made funnier bc of. well. you know 😳🫣 #alfonse used to have that statis on my blog as well though until i realized someone has an oc w the same name #and out of respect/not wanting to clog the alfonse tag i decided to fe him 🫡👍 #so not only are the lines not even there they're also subject to change at any moment. #despite this i try my best to keep it consistent 😅🥲 #BUT ALSO SOMETIMES. IT'S TOO LATE TO GO BACK. LIKE. MY other's art TAG. #initially when i Only posted my own art and never reblogged ect when i DID start reblogging art #i was REALLY concerned about credit/fear of stealing art and i REALLY wanted to emphasize it's not my work #and now it's just too late to change it. it would be weird to change it. #but hey. if you ever wanna just look at a collection of art made by different users!! i've got you covered 🫡

[x-letsbreaksomerules-x]

i think tonight i will draw my inquisitor covered in blood or something. put him through the horrors again

#you see i have a lot of feelings and opinions on how many people we kill in Inquisition #Cygnus also has many feelings about it and is constantly weighed down by the amount of people he has to kill. self defense or not #honestly i keep putting that guy through worse and worse shit #he lost his entire sense of self in the span of a month #he constantly plagued by the fears and worries about how his story will be told after he's dead #how his image might be twisted or used and he's as powerless to stop it as he was from the beginning #and then also he has to kill. all the time. for what he has to convince himself is the greater good #even though he doesn't believe in the Maker. and he saw what the Chantry did to Ameridan. and what it keeps doing to everyone else #Also Trespasser is a whole ordeal you can imagine how he felt learning history and context he didn't have before #and then learning his friend and companion is also trying to destroy shit. the shit he JUST fixed #even funnier is i v much gave him a humorous/sarcastic personality so he's just doing his best to make everyone like him #is it working? who knows. #his one strength is like being a people person and taking care of others and so he's decent at leading but like #doesn't mean he wants to do it he kind of hates it all the time always and wants to go home #ok ok im done talking im sorry i have him on my mind rn #man. i need to finish his actual character sheet

[temper-temper]

If/when you have kids, what motherly skill do you think will be important?

This one I’ve been thinking about for weeks

there are so many skills that are important to have and keep in mind when raising little ones, but one that I think a lot of people forget about is to be patient. Little kids honestly cannot fully understand how their little brains work and why they are upset- helping to teach them how to regulate their emotions is extremely important and so is making sure you remain a safe place for them to bring their issues. The last thing you want is your kid to do something that will hurt them because there wasn’t enough of a bond to which they could feel safe asking advice.

You should also keep in mind that they aren’t your friends- they are your children- there is a level of professionalism that you should try to keep as a parent so that your little one doesn’t end up in a bad state. For example- don’t vent to your child like you would your spouse, your child isn’t emotionally adapt enough to handle your emotional load at LEAST till they are an older teen but even still I wouldn’t. As well- be careful what you say because some of those things will have a huge lasting impact.

I remember two things from when I was little (11-14) that my mom would comment on and say that to this day truly hurt me and effect how I treat others

“You are being a hypocrite”

”Your interest in the military is weird”

I most likely was in fact being a hypocrite but I was also a 12 year old girl going through some pretty tough trauma and not understanding why I felt the way I left. As well yes, I was very extra about my interests as a child- being cats, behaviors, history, etc. but to have your own mother put you down for it leads to a lot of pain.

things are definitely better now but there is still some things that hurt a lot and it all stems from the fact that in my relationship with my own mother, she lacked this understanding that I was in fact a child who didn’t have a developed enough brain to be able to understand what I was doing and to help her.

At the end of the day from what I’ve seen through my own life and through parenting videos and such- to be patient and understanding to the mental level your child is at in different stages of their life are some extremely important qualities to have as a mother.

This doesn’t however means you should be a pushover allowing your children to walk all over you- it’s all a take and give and you learn with time

#In addition- I’m not angry with my mom #Did this stuff hurt as a child and does it still effect our relationship #Definitely but I was her first child and she and I went through a lot of hurt that would cause such things #I swear a really amazing God who took my trauma and pain and made me better for it #So honestly I don’t regret a minute of the hurt I went though #Now I can be a better mother #And if I can do better and my children can do better and their children can do bettee #Better* #in a few generations we will have the best mothers and fathers ever! #mod talks #ask #answer #tmi tuesday #My God is so good- look how He’s helped me through my life #I’m so grateful He called me out #That He healed me #Someone ask me my testimony one day it’ll be a blast haha #And He is still working today in everything- I don’t have to fear the future anymore #Thank you King Jesus for saving me #allow me to do my part in spreading the word of Your kingdom