#this scene is so special and important to me

[galesdevoteewife]

Wedding asks!!! 14 and 21/28 (either or, or you can do both! they’re both about dancing) <3

✨✨Thank you my friend for spoiling me!! hehehe yes these I had given them thorough thoughts!! Imo symbolism is always a big thing in weddings so I made up tons of them LOL✨✨ 14. Rings -

Rings, yes! They looks like this.

I adopted Ed's traditional Waterdeep wedding ring setting (in short, 1. each party contributes a ring, 2.each ring is cut in half and 3.reforged/resized into two half-and-half rings). But I replaced the half-and-half metalworking method with Mokume-gane. At the center of each ring is a small round diamond, and they had chosen colors that best represented their impression of each other. The wearer should always take good care of and maintain the ring, keeping the diamond shining to signify the importance they place on caring for their partner. The ring Gale gave was infused with raw magic. Assume he was 35 years old in BG3 (1492). He was born when the Weave was broken, and it wasn’t restored until he was 22. But he could cast magic from infancy, so my HC is that he can conduct raw magic to some extent. As the foundation of the world and his core, he chose such a ring.

Zilvera chose to forge her ring from small pieces of adamantine shaved off her beloved hand crossbows. She had an almost fetishistic attachment to these hand crossbows—she considered them reliable companions, her pride, and friends that saved her countless times. It was a tough decision for her. She knows them inside out and the change in weight does bother her greatly. 12. Music + 21. Dancing + 28. First Dance -

🕺🎻🎶All-out-Party-Hard, Tavern Music DancePartY🎵🪘💃 The only step that matters in this entire wedding is dancing! I HC a whole set of— ᔓ Dekarios family wedding traditions ᔕ They are a long-standing and large family with many traditions. Every couple picks and chooses whichever they like, but this one most important/beloved dance is the one almost everyone retains. I'll call it "Wedding Circle Dance."

First, everyone forms a circle, with the couple on opposite sides of the circle so they can look at each other the entire time.

People who are next to the couple move to the outer ring, and every other person also moves to the outer ring.

Repeat until only the couple remains.

What's special about this dance is that the music starts slow and gradually gets faster and faster, so by the end, many people can't keep up, which makes the scene hilarious and brings laughter. Young /elder/limited mobility members are intentionally assigned to positions where they can move to the outer ring soon, ensuring nobody gets hurt.

The couple's coordination is tested, and they should strive to keep up with the dance until the very end of the song, symbolizing that they can overcome challenges together. (By the way, Gale and Zil nailed it like pros, hehe)

^ A reference of how the Wedding circle dance looks/feels like Then the music switches to a very slow, romantic tune. The couple slowly circles each other, catching their breaths. Whenever they feel ready, they may exchange vows and put the wedding rings—which hang on their necks with fine chains—onto each other.

The wedding is thus concluded. The officiant can give a speech or start the next dance.

The family loves dancing and everyone is encouraged to dance all night! Whoever wears out their shoes that night is believed to share the couple's luck and will find a great partner soon.

Other dance vibe reference:

These dances are all about having a great time together regardless of age or ability. That is the spirit of their family traditions! ♡ Wedding Prompts ♡01 02 03 04 05 06 07 08 09 10 11 12 13 14 15 16 17 18 19 20 21 22 23 24 25 26 27 28 29 30 31

#Thanks for the ask!!! <3333 #And made the prompts!!! #the brainrot is VERY brainrotting #i am beyond saving #bg3weddingseason #baldur's gate 3 #gale of waterdeep #bg3 #gale dekarios #gale romance #gale x tav #bg3 tav #bg3 spoilers #bg3 gale

[bloodydeanwinchester]

dean winchester // 10x16 paint it black

FOR @cascigarette BECCA'S QUEER SPN BASH

#this scene is so special and important to me #bexis23dude #happy birthday becca!!! #spnedit #deanedit #cowboycoven #spn #supernatural #dean winchester #moc!dean #queer!dean #usermoogs #jenna.gif

[mayasdeluca]

5x07 // 7x05

#station 19 #station19edit #maya bishop #carina deluca #carina x maya #mine #i love how these two scenes paralleled and were so similar #they're both so special and important to their baby journey #the lip quiver in both really gets me 😭 #hoping we get more parallels in 7x07 🙏 with carina saying she can't wait to hold a little maya <3

[fairyroses]

— Deleted Scene from SMALLVILLE, “Talisman” (3.20)

#don't get me wrong I love the 'I did it for you' scene that actually made it into the ep but this one makes me feel absolutely feral #from 'somebody special?' to 'I didn't realize this was that important to you'......'[she] is' like these are straight up romance tropes??? #and the way he never takes his eyes off lana during the whole conversation with lionel... oh I am UNWELLLLL #tbh I'm assuming this scene was cut bc (aside from time reasons) it made lex's feelings for lana way too obvious too early #which like... I understand if so. but I'm glad it still exists as a deleted scene at least #smallville #smallvilleedit #svedit #lex luthor #lana lang #lexana #sv 3x20 #dcmultiverse #my gifs #I downloaded specific software and rented the s3 dvd from the library just so I could get my hands on this scene in higher quality lol #(now I have all the special features from that season saved btw... if anyone happens to be interested in that stuff 👀)

[stedebonnit]

Actually thinking a little bit about how Angel Crowley was a little dismissive of Aziraphale when they met (not that I blame him, he had the stars to focus on), but in a way that sometimes makes me wonder if Aziraphale has always felt like he was beneath Crowley, and that's why he pushes that he's an angel still because he feels its the only area that he can compete with Crowley (because you know Heaven is all about ranking, its ingrained in him). So when he was offered to go to Heaven, to have Crowley at his side as his second, he felt...special? Like he was important, for once more important than anyone else, not only in Heaven, but with Crowley he finally had something that could help him feel competent, like he was capable, too.

I wonder if the rejection hurts even more because Aziraphale looked up to Crowley when he was an angel. I mean, you can't deny he was in awe, and maybe he's afraid that Crowley isn't so much against Heaven, but against being Aziraphale's number two.

Because Aziraphale is so used to seeing himself as unworthy, as lesser. And yes, this is so miminally important compared to the bulk of their miscommunication, but I just can't help but wonder if somewhere in the back of Aziraphale's mind, he's always seen himself as lesser compared to Crowley. Maybe that's why he constantly reminded Crowley that he was a demon, maybe that's why he told Crowley "you'd be my number 2", and maybe that's part of why it stung so hard when Crowley scoffed at the very idea of it.

#good omens #good omens meta #sort of #idk how deeply I believe this especially as a main motivator #but i was watching back that first scene and it just kind of struck me how in awe az was #and how uncaring crowley was #it just fascinates me to think that az still thinks of himself in terms of how his ranks compare to crowleys own #amd whether he thinks he's swung the support of someone so amazing only to be mediocre himself #so when metatron said he was important enough to take charge #he just felt so honoured and important #and he wanted to share that w crowley as a success. 'look we're finally on equal grounds!' #so the rejection stung that much more with the nagging thought that hes not special #and he cant do it without crowley #d speaks #mine

[snickeringdragon]

why are in stars and time and bad end theater like. long lost twins of indie video games.

#snick snickers #LIKE? HELLO? #god can anyone hear me? am i insane? hello? #timeloop* narrative #(though nobody in bet knows this until the end) #you can skip through dialogue youve already seen #the characters line up pretty well #they both use limited palettes #as well as use colors in a special way during important scenes #like. theres so much. can anyone hear me #if youve played both you understand. #THE PLAY MOTIFS. THE PLAY MOTIFS HOW DID I FORGET THE FUCKING PLAY MOTIFS

[martianbugsbunny]

There's this Christmas event local to where I live that my family has been going to since before I can remember, and one of the performers there has been working there for about as long, and every year he seems to happy to see us and he takes a minute to take a picture with me because he's my favorite at the event!!! he knows who we are, he's literally watched my family become my family bc when we started going there were only like four or five of us and now there are seven bc my parents added some more kids over the years and he just melts my heart <3 I hope he realizes how special he is to us and how much we appreciate him and how much joy he's brought to my life in particular over the years

#I love him ur honor #I see this man once maybe twice a year #(bc we go to this christmas event LITERALLY every year but the same place has a halloween event) #(and he works there too but not as a performer as a behind the scenes guy so we only see him sometimes) #but I would lay down my life for him without hesitating #I mean not to sound dramatic but he's a bright spot in my life every december #and inside and out I am a creechur full of love #he's important and special to me #he has his own place in my heart that is immovable and immutable #I want nothing but the best for him #martian's life #christmas event #martianbugsbunny speaks

[planet4546b]

its so important to have specific ocs that lend themselves to particularly dramatic art

#pers #art in whatever form that is for you. playlists or writing or cool rp scenes or whatever. like getting to be overly dramatic #with your special guy is just an important thing to do. its good for the soul!!! #for me its dear samira (doing this to her rn) #and also wolf and ego. and install for dramatic + sad art #like the wolf instrumental playlist thats all boss battle music? so fucking fun. #also thinking fondly of our game of take my revolution and the way that game asks for dramatic imagery #in a really delightful way. the shadows on the cave wall!

[s-une]

Taking misunderstood/villainous characters and trying to understand and analyze them is my passion

#damon is so special to me I want to scream #I feel like he is so misunderstood in the series #and that there are people who hate him just because they stay in the 'he's an egomaniac and arrogant character' box #but behind him there are so many traumas and disappointments #maybe it's because I have a weak heart v.v but I'm screaming #the scene where Elena dances with him in s4 I'm sure that moment was so important to him #my baby #damon. #v watches tvd #tvd spoilers

[lolexjpg]

shes comin together babey

#finally finished the bus scene! there are two important scenes in this fic the bus scene and the balcony scene. one to go #she speaks #she's coming together!! she's so special n important to me i WILL finish her #she writes

[saltytearsofjoy]

HOW DID I FORGET THE VESTIGE SCENE IS TONIGHT.

#literally my favorite scene in the series not even joking #the fact that an entire separate world exists where there is no physical fighting #just manifestations of the characters emotional state #is so special to me. #like. that’s the most straightforward way to say that the key to ‘beating’ shigaraki is by connecting with him emotionally #because OFA was not created for the purpose of killing. it was made for saving #ITS JSUT IMPORTANT TO ME OKAY? and I hope bones makes sure it looks important

[aro-ortega]

this morning i will be thinking about how vanyas faith defines him and allowed him to become a person and how that has been twisted and manipulated without his knowledge just for something else to use him as a tool/puppet again

#sorry ik religion is not everyones cup of tea. but its important to me + one of my special interests #am also thinking about the similarities between vanya and chen... #learning that chen lets you go into his mind and then actually doing that scene and gettimg context for why.... #): they have both been mentally manipulated in such a way that they cant wholly recognize something is wrong #vanya mikhailov #op #unrelated but while camping my aunt said something that basically boiled down to: #religion is stupid bc it cant be proven/its not science so its stupid to have faith and atheism is the only correct belief #which is so wrong and made me so mad im still thinking about it. im an anthropologist + a rels minor and im telling you that you are wrong #there is nothing wrong w atheism ! and there is nothing wrong w faith ! #and that faith and belief is not wrong or stupid for defying what is definable by science or for existing in the face of science

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

for whom good omens is being written

Hey maggots and the rest of the fandom, it's the Good Omens Mascot here. Today I read a post about this tweet:

The accompanying video genuinely made me cry. And I've been thinking about this for a long while, as far back as February, when I saw a lot of conflicting opinions on what people wanted from the third season. It really is true that no matter what you do, some people will be dissatisfied. But what matters is that Neil is writing this for Terry.

And I was reminded of some paragraphs from the Good Omens TV Companion, which I'd read in Amazon's sample excerpt of the book. I know this is a long post, but I really truly do think you all need to read these, I've done my best to select only the most important parts. Here you go:

'His Alzheimer's started progressing harder and faster than either of us had expected,' says Neil, referring to a period in which Terry recognized that despite everything he could no longer write. 'We had been friends for over thirty years, and during that time he had never asked me for anything. Then, out of the blue, I received an email from him with a special request. It read: “Listen, I know how busy you are. I know you don't have time to do this, but I want you to write the script for Good Omens. You are the only human being on this planet who has the passion, love and understanding for the old girl that I do. You have to do this for me so that I can see it." And I thought, “OK, if you put it like that then I'll do it."

'I had adapted my own work in the past, writing scripts for Death: The High Cost of Living and Sandman, but not a lot else was seen. I'd also written two episodes of Doctor Who, and so I felt like I knew what I was doing. Usually, having written something once I'd rather start something new, but having a very sick co-author saying I had to do this?' Neil spreads his hands as if the answer is clear to see. 'I had to step up to the plate.' A pause, then: 'All this took place in autumn 2014, around the time that the BBC radio adaptation of Good Omens was happening,' he continues, referring to the production scripted and co-directed by Dirk Maggs and starring Peter Serafinowicz and Mark Heap. ‘Terry had talked me into writing the TV adaptation, and I thought OK, I have a few years. Only I didn't have a few years,' he says. 'Terry was unconscious by December and dead by March.'

He pauses again. 'His passing took all of us by surprise,' Neil remembers. 'About a week later, I started writing, and it was very sad. The moments Terry felt closest to me were the moments I would get stuck during the writing process. In the old days, when we wrote the novel, I would send him what I'd done or phone him up. And he would say, "Aahh, the problem, Grasshopper, is in the way you phrase the question," and I would reply, "Just tell me what to do!" which somehow always started a conversation. 'In writing the script, there were times I'd really want to talk to Terry, and also places where I'd figure something out and do something really clever, and I would want to share it with him. So, instead, I would text Terry's former personal assistant, Rob Wilkins, now his representative on Earth. It was the nearest thing I had.'

(...) As Neil himself recognizes, this is an adaptation built upon the confidence that comes from three decades of writing for page and screen. But for all the wisdom of experience, he found that above all one factor guided him throughout the process. 'Terry isn't here, which leaves me as the guardian of the soul of the story,' he explains. 'It's funny because sometimes I found myself defending Terry's bits harder or more passionately than I would defend my own bits. Take Agnes Nutter,' he says, referring to what has become a key scene in the adaptation in which the seventeenth-century author of the book of prophecies foretelling the coming of the Antichrist is burned at the stake. ‘It was a huge, complicated and incredibly expensive shoot, with bonfires built and primed to explode as well as huge crowds in costume. It had to feel just like an English village in the 1640s, and of course everyone asked if there was a cheap way of doing it. 'One suggestion was that we could tell the story using old-fashioned woodcuts and have the narrator take us through what happened, but I just thought, “No”. Because I had brought aspects of the story like Crowley and the baby swap along to the mix, and Terry created Agnes Nutter. So, if I had cut out Agnes then I wouldn't be doing right by the person who gave me this job. Terry would've rolled over in his grave.'

And, finally, this paragraph:

"Once again, Neil cites the absence of his co-writer as his drive to ensure that Good Omens translated to the screen and remained true to the original vision. 'Terry's last request to me was to make this something he would be proud of. And so that has been my job.'"

I think that's so heartwrenchingly beautiful, and so I wanted you all to read this, too, just in case you (like me) don't have the Good Omens TV Companion. It adds another layer of depth and emotion to this already complex and amazing story that we all know and love.

Share this post, if you can, please, so that more people can read these excerpts :")

Tagging @neil-gaiman, @fuckyeahgoodomens and @orpiknight, even if you've definitely read these before :)

#good omens #neil gaiman #sir terry pratchett #good omens show #good omens fandom #good omens mascot #weirdly specific but ok #asmi

[hopebreathes]

I JUST SAW THE LATEST LOOK INTO THE WICKED MOVIE OH GOD OH GOD IM VIBRATING OH GOD

#with the first look i was like 'oh....interesting' #BUT SEEING HOW MUCH LOVE THE DIRECTOR AND CAST PUT INTO THIS #SEEING CLIPS AND BEING LIKE OH THAT'S THIS SCENE THAT'S THAT SCENE #SEEING MORE OF THE SETS #OH GOD IM SO EXCITED IM GOING TO THROW UP #to clarify exactly what this means to me: wicked was The special interest of mine for YEARS #i was truly obsessed with it #i know this musical inside and out #it is something that is so intrinsically a part of me that if you erased my memories of this musical you would be erasing a very large chun #of who i am #this musical is so so so important to me #and at first i think i was keeping my expectations deliberately low because of how much this musical means to me #but just seeing that video and hearing them talk about the musical in a way that truly resonates with me #god im so excited now #im literally vibrating #kian talks

[devotedlystrangewizard]

god could you imagine if people focused on the actual golden boy getting like twice as much content as his fellow companions rather than like 2 new lines for one bad guy to make one scene feel more in line with the one other scene with said bad guy

#ramblings #not maintagging or saying His name but like #christ man. with everything that guy got for the past several patches. when he already had the most to begin with #like could we maybe focus on the disparity between uh. idk. the companions themselves #youre COMPLETELY correct that wyll deserves better than what he has but i feel like some people are barking up the wrong tree here fellas #d urge getting special lines in this scenario is completely understandable considering the coronation scene. #one companion getting a fuckton of special scenes when hes no more important to the main plot as the others is the problem. imo #especially when one other companion gets so fucking little. #(<- ESPECIALLY when you remember one of these characters is black. and its the neglected one.) #and im not saying this to be like. some kinda apologist for The Freak or anything. i think hes entertaining #but im not going into the whole fiction vs reality thing here. im tired #i personally like The Freak and the new lines. theyre not any more romantic than we already had. #the d urge fuckimg sucked as a person pre canon too or did we forget the whole 'crafted specifically to bring the world into ruin' part #saw some people in the main tag saying how dare we get more content talking about how they liked each other he shouldnt get that #and yeah. objectively. the freak is a horrible dude. but i promise you that the d urge probably condoned that shit and also did worse #did you forget. that the d urge is like. an origin. just like the other origin characters #sure their backstory is vaguer than the others but theyre nonetheless a preestablished character. your d urge is not exempt from Horrors #your d urge probably ate babies and definitely fucked corpses. sorry #so sorry for complaining ive just been frustrated with the golden boy the entire week #i like him i do but in the. grand scheme of things hes midtier. to me #there are so many parts of the game especially in act 3 where i was like hey. why isnt [companion] reacting this feels relevant to them #they got the narrator who was probably already around anyway to record 2 more lines i PROMISE freak nation isnt ur enemy rn #anyway im clambering back into my hole (discord) to complain (to an audience that im not deeply terrified of) #ignore this im just so tired rn <3

[drchucktingle]

THE TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION TELLS CHUCK TINGLE TO STAY HOME BUT WE PROVE LOVE ANYWAY

just when you buckaroos thought 2024 would be a break from book drama, here comes chuck tingle in the mix. recently i was asked to be a featured speaker at the TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION annual conference. a few days ago they rescinded my invitation. here is what happened.

(EDITED TO ADD THIS LINK. if you have a hard time reading this on way of tumblr you can also read for free on chucks patreon)

i would like to start off by saying it is not my intent to start a fight, and all those reading this should know that the actions of a few misguided folks do not speak for the whole TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION. i am sure there are many involved who will be very upset to learn what others at TLA have done in their name. there are many individuals here, so please do not paint them all as villains in your mind. besides, chuck loves the dang library everyone knows that.

the point of writing this is not to vilify. i am writing this is because MOMENTS OF DARKNESS are the best places to SHINE A LIGHT AND PROVE LOVE IS REAL. this is a perfect time for learning and growing and for us talk on some very important things that queer buckaroos and neurodivergent buckaroos face every day. this is an unfortunate moment that WE can turn around and use to prove love is real.

i am also writing this to understand some of my own personal feelings on the matter. for something that seems very simple on the surface, the trot is complex, and i am still working out my emotions on the whole dang thing. i am learning in this way.

PART ONE: BAG OF LOVE

a few months ago chuck was asked to be a featured speaker at the 2024 TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION ANNUAL CONFERENCE. i have been asked to do things like the before and it is ALWAYS a fun time to meet bookseller and librarian buds. trotting around face to face and talking about my story of conquering chronic pain and overcoming my mental hurdles is VERY IMPORTANT to me. i say YES to these things whenever i can. (here i am with authors at CALIFORNIA INDEPENDENT BOOKSELLERS ALLIANCE conference. they are a WONDERFUL group and they proved love with their OWN invitation to chuck. this was such a moving event with so many amazing authors and stories. got very teared up during this photo)

ANYWAY BUCKAROOS i get the TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION invite and say 'YES BUD LETS TROT'. we are then confirmed.

months pass. a few weeks ago i get a call from my manager and agent and publisher saying ‘the TLA have rescinded their invitation.’

turns out some things had been going on behind the scenes

at some point the TLA asked chucks INCREDIBLE HEROIC BAD ASS PUBLISHER if chuck would be okay with not wearing the mask, to which tor/nightfire/macmillan said ‘what the heck are you talking about of course chuck is going to wear his mask. this is how chuck presents himself’ (NOT EXACT QUOTE)

as you all know, my pink bag way is a VERY IMPORTANT SPACE. as an autistic buckaroo it is a boundary that allows me to express myself freely and relieve my chronic pain from neurotypically masking all day. i have talked about this for years, and it is why i consider my private identity a SACRED THING. it is literally a health issue.

fortunately THE PINK BAG is never really a problem when making appearances. i have spent years going on television shows, doing interviews, speaking at other conferences and conventions, hosting book events on tour, and even MEETING WITH LAWYERS in my pink face covering. it is always respected and that is very validating to my way.

when arriving anywhere i always take precautions. i always warn buckaroos ahead of time that there is a masked man coming. i always have someone go in ahead of me JUST IN CASE. again, there has never been an issue. at a big conference where i am a special guest there is ESPECIALLY not an issue because my face and bio are printed IN THE DANG PROGRAM

SOME FUN TIMES AT BIG EVENTS BELOW:

CHUCK ON TV SHOW NAME OF 'AT MIDNIGHT' BACK BEFORE I WROTE LOVE IS REAL ON MY HEAD:

well, there has never been an issue.... UNTIL NOW.

PART TWO: RESCINDED

a few days ago TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION suddenly messaged my publishers and said that chuck tingle is no longer invited. my invitation was rescinded. the reason given was that people could possibly be uncomfortable with my mask

right out of the gate i would like to say this: it is absolutely the right of the texas library association to disinvite someone from their conference. it is their event, after all, and they can ban anyone they would like, for any reason.

of course, that doesnt mean other folks HEARING THIS NEWS wont have their own opinions the TLA choices. if the TLA disinvites someone, their reasoning for doing this can be discussed and analyzed. whether or not they follow their own guidelines can be questioned, and certainly their kindness and tact can be considered

there are a few BIG POINTS to make regarding this choice from the TLA

first and foremost, i just gotta say buckaroos, it is incredibly rude to invite someone to be a guest speaker at your event, have them confirm and mark off their calendar and turn down other offers, then rescind their invitation. this is maybe the simplest of the points, but it is an important one.

second, (DEEP BREATH HERE WE GO BUCKAROOS) i personally do not think of my autism as a disability very often, but i also KNOW that despite these feelings it ABSOLUTELY IS. autism is important to be listed as a recognized disability because of the help some autistic buckaroos need regarding government programs and things like that. ALSO just because my neurodivergence has helped me in some ways (hyperfocus and a unique artistic sensibility for example). i personally need to step back and remember my battle with stress and chronic pain from having to neurotypically mask all the time. for as much as i love being autistic it has made some things very difficult.

in other words, i am perfectly capable of speaking and interacting with folks without this pink bag on my head BUT WHEN I AM IN THE CHUCK TINGLE SPACE I REQUIRE IT. i can ONLY use this space while covering my face. is not a want. it is a need. holding this boundary is more important than i can ever say. i will not, and can not, let these spaces cross.

TLA not letting an autistic author wear the face cover theyve set up to express their neurodivergence in a safe, healthy way is--for lack of a better term--NOT A GOOD LOOK.

i cannot fathom them disinviting another author for using a disability aid. i cannot fathom them saying that a buckaroo who hears better with a hearing device cannot use it during their panel because it would make others 'uncomfortable'.

but here we are.

PART THREE: WHAT DOES A BUCKAROO GOTTA DO TO GET BANNED AROUND HERE?

this is the TLAs official stance on disability issues according to their website:

when poking around on the TLA website i noticed a few other things. i noticed a previous guest speaker wearing a niqab, and i was left wondering if the religious significance is what make that okay but chuck tingle banned. that made sense until i looked deeper and saw mascot buckaroos dressed up on the exhibition floor, and saw some kind of spiderbud in a costume contest. nobody around them seemed to be all that scared. their invitations REMAINED INTACT.

it should be mentioned here that AT ONE POINT during the discussions an email was sent from TLA saying chuck is allowed to come and wear his mask in the exhibition halls and smaller panels, just not at any of the big PAID PANELS i was once supposed to participate on. this was a confusing offer, but their explanation was that people who paid for something should have the option to not see chucks 'scary neurodivergence aid'. i tried to wrap my head around WHY they would make a distinction. maybe the exchange of money (rather than time) causes some kind of philosophical adjustment that i just cant grasp?

i wonder, would the author who wears a niqab ALSO be banned from the paid panels? i hope not

my answers trotted up short until i investigated deeper and found this quick moment from one of the TLA help videos. while some events DO require additional buckaroo cash, it actually appears that THE ENTIRE CONFERENCE IS TICKETED AND COSTS MONEY.

at this point i realized there is clearly no actual official policy about not covering your face (other than one from a few years ago saying that you HAVE to cover your face), and the addition of 'money' is a red herring. these excuses make no sense

PART FOUR: CLOSE THOSE GATES

it appears that my neurodivergence is 'scary' enough to get me uninvited, REGARDLESS what their disability and mask policies may say

BUT WHY? why is chucks preferred physical presentation valued SO little by the TLA that a THEORETICAL complaint is worth more? is my neurodivergent expression so awful? is my own safety as a queer activist such an afterthought?

is a pink bag with the words 'love is real' scrawled across the front REALLY going to frighten someone when the posters and pamphlets on the way into in panel would have a photo of my masked face saying THIS IS LITERALLY WHO IS ABOUT TO APPEAR BEFORE YOU.

if THAT accommodation is too much, would it really be so difficult to have someone trot out beforehand and make an announcement? to say 'there is someone on this upcoming panel who needs a mask to express this part of himself, if this makes you uncomfortable then this panel might not be for you'.

and really, i have to heckin ask, is this physical expression of my raw inner truth really so hideous and frightening that fear of making someone uncomfortable is a REAL problem?

(a terrifying display of autism. apparently)

i cannot imagine what kind of precautions they need to take before a stage play featuring costumes and masks.

you MIGHT think chucks queerness and left leaning politics could be the issue with this organization, but they have had drag queens as past speakers (also featuring some GLORIOUS makeup and hair that covers almost all of their faces. VERY CURIOUS). regardless, the TLA do not seem like a conservative bunch.

if you are bisexual or an autistic person who is good at 'passing' you probably already know where this is headed, your dang spiderbuckaroo senses are tingling at FULL ALERT. i will say i do not KNOW the real reason why i was uninvited, and i do not have enough information to make any concrete statement of the real answer. there is only evidence that masks have been fine at TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION events in the past, but not much else to go on.

so the FACTS part of our discussion ends there, but i think it opens us up to talk about some very important feelings that bisexual and autistic buckaroos know well.

THIS is where we take a unfortunate, hurtful moment and turn it into a discussion. this is where we prove love is real.

as someone who is constantly doubted and put through purity tests because of my unique way, we are pushing up against a subject i know well. thats right buckaroos: we are talking GATEKEEPING

AGAIN, i do not know if this is the answer, but someone in my position might be VERY STRONGLY INCLINED TO THINK that a few well-meaning left leaning buckaroos think i am a joke and that this is a character, and that there is something problematic about my work because i am not really a real person.

any upstanding left leaning organization would OF COURSE allow a mask for a neurodivergent buckaroo with an unusual visual presentation, an autistic buckaroo who conquered his chronic pain ONLY by creating this important space... but what about a FAKE autistic buckaroo?

any upstanding left leaning organization would OF COURSE allow a mask for a queer LGBTQ activist standing up for gay and trans rights against a torrent of scoundrels hunting for his legal identity. its a matter of safety... but what about a FAKE queer activist?

let me be very clear for the 100th time: i am a real person. this is not a joke. i am not playing a character. i am really autistic and bisexual. tinglers are sincere and they are not ‘so bad theyre good’. they are just good. camp damascus is not ‘my first serious book’ because my queer erotica is serious. my art is important and real.

when people tell me to unmask they often do not know WHY they want it, and of course one very good reason is innocent curiosity. but there are SOME cases where i start to get THAT feeling--that tingle all of us ‘passing’ buckaroos get when we can sense the real intent behind the poking and prodding. that is the feeling of stumbling into a gatekeepers crosshairs.

if i was to take off my pink bag, what about my face would you analyze to tell if i was REALLY queer. my eye color? my ear shape? if you learned my legal name, would you see if it sounded autistic? is my voice neurodivergent enough?

or is all of that utterly absurd? i am curious what the TEXAS LIBRARY ASSOCIATION thinks.

PART FIVE: GENDERED

this will be the shortest of parts, but it has to be said. i have a very complex relationship with gender, as written about at length here and here. i understand these things can be difficult to parse for some, but i ask that you trust me when i say that the ONLY reason i have been able to talk about my gender and sexuality and learn these things about myself is because of this pink bag. this outward appearance is a direct expression and reflection of my gender journey.

if the texas library association does not care about my appearance as an expression of my autism, then i cant imagine them giving a dang about it as an expression of my gender and queerness. that being said, it is personally very important to me and i think it should be mentioned

PART SIX: SO YOU WANT TO REMOVE AN AUTISTIC QUEER AUTHOR FROM YOUR EVENT BECAUSE PEOPLE MIGHT FIND THEIR DIFFERENCES SCARY

there is a question to be asked here: how could the TLA have done this correctly?

i have one very big piece of advice i would like to shout from the rooftops. please, for the love of sweet barbara, DO ENOUGH RESEARCH to know if this appearance will be a problem and, IF SO, dont extend an invitation in the first place. unique buckaroos with different presentations are constantly left in this place of limbo because we are bombarded with careless actions like those of the TLA. before you consider extending a branch to an artist who might need more accommodations than usual, think to yourself 'CAN WE MAKE THESE ACCOMMODATIONS?'

putting all of this on the shoulders of a single 'buckaroo with a difference' is exhausting. as the TLA has shown, we currently live on a timeline where a buckaroo like myself never really knows if an invite is SOLID without doing a deep dive history lesson on how often a group discriminates and against who.

i did not want to spend my whole family holiday worrying whether or not i should say something publicly or just lie down and shut my dang mouth. i had to consider HOW i should say it. i had to worry whether or not its worth standing up for myself in the face of the largest state library association in the country. i think buckaroos with differences are with me when i say: WE ARE SICK OF HAVING TO DO THIS WORK TO COVER FOR THE POOR BEHAVIOR OF LARGE ORGANIZATIONS WHO TREAT US BADLY

another option would just be to use kindness and common sense and happily accommodate artists with unique presentations to your conventions

PART SEVEN: LOVE IS STILL REAL

i would like to close by saying THANK YOU to my publisher nightfire and editor kelly for standing up for me. they immediately stood firm and had my back. they are the real dang deal. THANK YOU to my management and agent buds dongwon and gino for trotting along beside me. THANK YOU to the folks at the texas library association who initially invited chuck with goodness in their heart and then likely got bowled over by someone else, and maybe even got knocked to the side by a big closing gate.

i hope there are librarians in texas who are still interested in carrying BURY YOUR GAYS when it comes out (which is ironically about someone who creates a space through art to express their queerness where they cant otherwise). libraries prove love is real and what they do IS SO IMPORTANT. it was SO IMPORTANT TO ME as a young buckaroo and i cannot thank you enough. i am not sure if me writing all of this will hurt my sales in some way, but this opportunity to speak about the reality of disability awareness and queer gatekeeping is too important to stay silent. (if you have not already preordered BURY YOUR GAYS then give it a preorder to make up for some texas library losses i guess.)

which leads me to my final thank you. THANK YOU to the buckaroos reading this. yes YOU. i am in the position to stand up and speak my mind against scoundrel forces ONLY because i have the might of you buckaroos by my side. the buckaroo trot is ALL OF OUR TROT and we are ALL HERE TO PROVE LOVE. i cannot tell you how much i appreciate the way you have created a space for me to express these important parts of myself. you have seen this pink mask over my face and saying YES, I ACCEPT YOU, you have literally saved my life. for that i am so thankful.

if you are UPSET by what youve read here, then turn it into something positive. you can support autistic creators, or make a donation to the AUTISTIC SELF ADVOCACY NETWORK

and besides WHO IS REALLY MISSING OUT? this is what it looks like when you invite the worlds greatest author chuck tingle to your event and treat their identity as valid. WE HAVE A DANG GOOD TIME

KEEP TROTTING INTO THE FUTURE. KEEP KICKING DOWN GATES WHEREVER THEY MAY BE. KEEP PROVING LOVE IS REAL AND PROVING IT TOGETHER. lets go buckaroos - chuck

UPDATE AN HOUR AFTER POSTING:

true buckaroo TJ KLUNE was set to be another author on panel chuck was removed from and has informed me he has now chosen to decline his invitation in support and solidarity with chuck. i am so deeply moved by this. thank you from bottom of heart buckaroo

to be very clear TJ has a huge platform and DOES NOT NEED TO DO THIS. these conferences are great for book sales and he is taking a hit out of pure solidarity. this is queer buckaroos standing up for eachother. i am floored by this kindness and love

please consider checking out his books if they are not already covering your dang bookshelf. chuck blurbed IN THE LIVES OF PUPPETS and i was blown away i heckin loved it

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