#this needs to be done before Monday

[deathcupcake]

I scraped my knee on the case of my newly built computer and drew blood.

✔ Blood sacrifice complete

#now to break down my whole desk area and spend a day or two (re) installing software and some new peripherals #-___- #my least favorite part of upgrading computers #this needs to be done before Monday #since I need it for work #but it's shiny and new and pink #and the graphics card was a model from 2016 #so it was time #maybe ESO and BG3 won't be so choppy anymore #anyone need an old GTX 1060?

[sadlittleratboy]

Put down my cat late last night. She was old, around my age (24) and I've had her basically my whole life. I miss that rage beast already. She died comfortably in my arms at least. As long as I was holding her she seemed happy. I held her the entire 40 minute drive to the emergency vet and four 2 hours prior, and I held her during the hour and a half wait for it to all be over. She loved being held, and she even started feeling better enough to purr right before the end. I almost put a stop to it all and took her home because she was feeling a little better, but I knew it would happen again. It seemed like she was ready to go anyway. I feel like I left a big chunk of me in that clinic. When I get her back she'll be ashes. I've had to put down a pet before (just three years ago) and though I loved him I hadn't had him for half the time I had her. She cuddled me to sleep every night. She demanded my attention every second I was home. Even with my other two cats seemingly understanding that I need them more than ever right now it's not enough.

#worst part is that all of my friends are too busy to see me right now #my 2 closest friends are 1 sick and 2 in another state all the way across the country #and she was the one who sat on the phone before and after #she wanted to stay with me during but i needed to go alone #also i have work stuff that's already late so I'm trying to get that done too #fucking hell #this 3 day weekend was supposed to be a recharge for me #I'll be back on monday worse off somehow

[ecoamerica]

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[milflewis]

every single day this week has been another variation of surprise shawty! except every surprise has been a nightmare and shawty is so sad

#not one fucking thing has gone right or as planned and i’m so fucking tired i want to scream myself hoarse #i am back in college next week and i am so so exhausted #the one day i wasn’t in the hospital i was at a funeral bc that is what my life has come to . i need to breathe #going to go for a swim tomorrow i think and figure out what i want done before the semester starts on monday #fuck ineed to call the doctor ffs #sorry to anyone who has been talking to me or trying to talk to me this week i have not been present

[theemporium]

when you spent all day trying to get the group project presentable when nobody else is doing anything else to help, just for someone in the group to come in and completely fuck up the forma🙃

#cece chats #ITS DUE MONDAY #i can't do this #i need this project over and done with before i go grey over it

[antstarion]

cough. starting to realise i really dont care about my dissertation. scared

#i was supposed to submit a draft before monday but like uh its just not done #been sick and still sick but it needs to be done #usually the panic would have set in by now and i would be able to force myself to sit and do it but. i am just sat here #i wrote about 100 words and i need to write at least 600 more (and actually fix my fucking algorithm but we dont talk about that) #but alas i dont care. I will care tomorrow (sunday) OR AT LEAST I HOPE SJDLFHSDKFJSDK #i think the one of the shittiest symptoms of my various Brain things is the lack of motivation #Because there are so many things i want to do but i simply cant do them #i was getting 90%-100% in EVERYTHING at uni until half way through my second year when i had a psychotic episode #now i average about 60% #this isnt bad and i will get my degree #but its not really what i went to university to do #anyways maybe if i wrote as many sentences as tags on this post i might finish my disseration tonight

[kipaia]

surprise panic attack???

#that hasn't happened in at least like five years #idly realized i'm double booked for pretty much my entire weekend #and i didn't get done half the shit i was supposed to get done today #and i'm having surgery on monday (which i'm thrilled about) but everything MUST be done before then T.T #had the passing thought that i forgot to warn my partner about a last minute schedule change with work for the weekend #and i think i just bunny trailed a lightning round of thinking about e v e r y t h i n g that needs to get done and i got super overwhelmed #hence panic attack #been so long i forgot what it feels like and it took me a heck of a while to realize what was happening #think im going to end up calling out of all but my two pre-req tests i'm running this weekend #they're only an hour each #uuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuugh time is passing too slow (i want it to be surgery day T.T) and too fast (there's too much to do between then and now)

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[theflyingfeeling]

I should finish some work that I've been procrastinating the whole week (more like literally didn't have enough hours in a day for it), but here I am contemplating whether I should post all my work from the random tumblr ficlets by theflyingfeeling tag to AO3, just in case 💀

#as some of those fics only exist on tumblr and i'd hate for them to get lost forever should something happen to this hellsite 🙃 #or i could just save them on my laptop 🤷‍♀️ #and yes i'm working on a friday night and yes i know it's incredibly sad #but i can't work much on saturday or sunday because of plans #and there's something i really need to get done before monday. or /should/ get done. because i say so #as in there's no definite deadline but i just want to get it over and done with #random ramblings about sad boring life by theflyingfeeling #hello hi how's everyone's friday evening

[mossflower]

oh i am FUCKED fucked

#open coursework for the first time this holiday. yes i go back on monday shush #i have a pathological hatred of this coursework. every time i open it i want to cry #but it’s due in on wednesday. i have not done most of the development section any of the manufacture section and any of the evaluation #for context that comes to about. 80% of my coursework?? #i have had two weeks to do this!! i’ve done none of it!! and i still have physics and maths to do!! #i knew it was due i’ve thought about it every day but i hate it so much. if i’d just done it over the holidays it would be DONE by now #but no. instead i’m finding out 4 days before it’s due that i need to include qa + qc in my plan of manufacture #what can i say i’m an academic weapon #on the bright side hull have given me an unconditional and i liked it there. so it doesn’t matter if i don’t get an a in dt #morganposting

[shopwitchvamp]

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[transgaysex]

sewing hard

#wind howls #i need to finish my wizard robe for tuesday bc it will be a costume prop for my film production class final #'ez arent you on week 7 out of 15. how come youre starting your final now' the teacher wants us to kill ourselves. hope this helps ! #i shouldve finished it way earlier anyway. i started this a bit before halloween. and couldnt finish it then bc i got covid. devastating. #but i just had to go run my mouth and tell my team that i have a robe cape of sorts that could serve as a shady witch's robe. aurgh !!! #what ever. i have a bunch of trims to do (one of the front trims is done but the other isnt. and then the sleeves. and then the bottom) #and the final line connecting the sleeves and whatnot and then its dobe #done* #i can likely finish it tonight. and really i should. because i have to dedicate my weekend to my accessory modelization assignment #worst comes to worst and i dont finish the robe tonight i can speedrun it on monday night but i would rather die than do that #so. wish me strength and luck. sewing is a lonely art

[quicksilversquared]

My advisor, a month ago: so the nice thing about this being a Master's project and not a PhD is that I can help with the stats analysis stuff!

My advisor, this week: I would like a PowerPoint presentation on the arguments that the authors of the papers you mentioned made regarding why they used the statistical tests that they did, please and thank you.

#grad school #dying my way through dense AF stats papers #ngl this is my fault for deciding to go with the Specific Aims that required tests that she's never done before #also the use of a program that she's never used before #and she's busy so I get to do all of the poking around #need to bug her on Monday about access to arcGIS so I can play with the program in question #I will say tho that I will be very prepared for the proposal defense now #absolutely no way that this stuff won't stick

[vanity-complex]

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#literally fuck my job #never before have I felt so degraded or humiliated #it is mind boggling to me to hear community members and organizers tell me what a great and wonderful job I’m doing #to then go to my boss and hear how I’m doing everything wrong and need to fix everything #especially when their expectations change everyday without notice #every day I get something back with something changed or a new process telling me that I should have done better or differently #I honestly can not take this much longer #especially with my raise being revoked (unofficially until I have a meeting on Monday) #I literally work so hard and am busting my ass and am the public face of my agency due to my bosses lack of willingness to do anything #and I’m being drug under the bus #I just don’t understand how I ended up here #and I know it will all be fine and I will find another job #but this is so disappointing #and has me feeling so distraught in the moment #anyways #if I haven’t responded to you in a few weeks this is why #I am emotionally unstable and am just trying to hold it together #but I’ll be talking again soon besties

[kof-xiii]

idk if im allowed to post these but whatevar this is my personal blog anyway my anime club is holding a con and doing a raffle and one of the prizes is a sticker pack from the artists collective and i made one :D

#still need to finish colouring the other mascot but i need to get these done before monday HELP ME <\3 #el.mdp

[random2908]

I started by telling myself I shouldn't feel bad that I didn't get all my planned chores done: Saturday is a rest day, and we've just finished three weeks of crunch at work. (Next week might also be crunch but probably not; the product ships at the end of the week but we should be in good enough shape already.)

But then I realized: I ran three errands in the morning, and did three chores in the evening--even if one of the chores was just "cook a healthy dinner" and two of the chores were banking-related on a website. (But one involved sending text messages, and one involved an actual phone call to customer service, so I can't even really say they were just on a website.) That's six things I got done on a rest day. I may have overscheduled by saying I'd do at least eight things, but still, six things is very good.

#the things I did NOT do all involve a hand drill so #I have about average upper body strength for a woman which means I do struggle somewhat with hand drills #although these chores all involve walls not metal so it's not THAT bad--except it's sideways rather than down so I can't lean into it #so yeah that's a level of chores I was not up to on my rest day #tomorrow is too booked up for chores--I told my friend I wanted to hang out with them this weekend #since I said no two weeks ago (I was fully booked) and they had to cancel on me last weekend #and normally we meet in the middle for hiking (we live 1.5 hours apart) but this time they suggested I drive all the way out #and I said yes before I realized that's what they were suggesting #so that's fine--but I can't do anything else beyond that tomorrow even just basic chores #which is a little bit getting to me because a house guest is coming to visit in four days #and I really need the shower curtain to be properly secured to the wall by then? #anything else is gravy--I already have clean sheets for her and everything--but THAT needs to be done #I've been living here almost two months and have only knocked the shower curtain down about three times so it's really not that bad #I even hang my towels on it and it's fine BUT I know how to do it? and I'm like professionally good at manipulating physical objects lol #like being a mechanic of sorts is literally a significant chunk of my job #whereas she doesn't pick up object-manipulation tasks easily--especially not involving gross motor skills #in fact when I mentioned it to her she was like yeah that was something she was not going to be able to handle #if I didn't have it properly installed by the time she arrived #so uh... well not today or tomorrow #and Monday and Tuesday I have work... and she's arriving Wednesday #ok realistically tomorrow night I'm just going to have to suck it up and get to drilling no matter how tired I am from driving and hiking

[911bts]

Hi do you know if they are on a thanksgiving break now or do they film today?

They're on break!

#they only did a short day on monday too so im guessing they just didnt get done what the needed to before break #anon #answered

[hearties-circus]

I kinda feel like I've just hard erased any happiness or elation I had from being done with school all just so I wouldnt get asked a stupid question anymore I hate this I hate this

#gamer txt. #not once have i actually fucking wanted to go to college this was just the only way to make ppl stop asking me about jobs #but im realising now that was a stupid decision and i hate that i made it i hate tgat i had the chance to back out and didnt #the only thing that made school worth it before was my friends that was the only time id get to see them #now im going back to school completely without them like a fucking idiot #i know college is different from highschool i get that and i do want to learn fab weld but fuck me this was dumb #i know damn well im not going to make any new friends during this course im more terrified of people than ive ever been #and i stick out from my class like a sore thumb #whats worse is my nervousness from this has started fucking with my appetite and hunger and that is the worst possible thing it could do #that is like the number one way to break me #im already in such a vulnerable state i do not need constant fucking reminders of trauma i cant fucking escape #and im meant to just be normal and be a person and go to class on monday? #im this close 👌 to just dogging it. im pretty sure ill be getting the train in like i could full well just fuck off and leave #its not like they have my mums number she wouldnt know any different from what i told her #can i not just stay in the purgatory of being a teen old enough to be done with school but young enough to not have a job forever ? #please? im not ready for this im not i couldnt be less ready for this why did i let myself succumb to this pressure? i hate it #g-d i havent cried in. months now. this feels so. this is too much this is way too much fot me i cant do this #i dont know how i thought i could when the hell have i ever been able to do something like this on my own #theres nothing to me on my own i dont have any confidence i dont have any strength i need my friends for that and i dont have them