#this is my first friday off from work

[melrosing]

anyway in an absolutely wild turn of events I think I’m free of my hideous job and like. substantially richer for it??? lmao 2023 you really owed me

#ok so this a lot of personal shit but I’m just gonna incredulously vent into the tags #like I don’t even know how to describe what 2023 in this job has been like lol #since April they’ve been insulting and scrutinising and scapegoating me over absolutely everything #they were really angling for just firing me outright for never measuring up to their constantly shifting and increasingly bizarre goalposts #and it got so personal man they kept insisting that it wasn’t but my god #then my dad gets sick and it suddenly becomes awkward for them to keep insulting and overworking me #so they switch to just ignoring me entirely so they don’t have to reckon w what me and my family are going through #like they never ask how he is or how things are going just every Friday they say hey do you reckon you can take more work on again? #and THEN I get a gut infection and suddenly im being guilt tripped for taking sick leave and pestered for evidence #it was giving like ‘we had to give you time off for your dad but now you’re taking the piss’ #to the point I DID reach out to a third party at the company and was like ‘I’m sorry but why the fuck are they treating me like this’ #and she was like ‘confidentially this is disgusting and I advise you to report it’ #WHEN SUDDENLY I get back from sick leave and it’s like ‘the business is falling short so we have to make some redundancies….’ #and now they’ve had to pay me a SUBSTANTIAL sum to fuck off!!! I think I win??? #like I was so close to quitting but thank god I didn’t because now I’m getting a sweet deal to fuck off with no notice lmao #i leave end of the month #at first I was shocked like y’all really doing this now??? but suddenly I’m like. this is the best possible thing that could’ve happened #I spoke to that third party again and she was like ‘I am so happy for you’ like omfg it was a curveball but we’ll take it!!! #I’m fucking outta here and in due course I WILL be writing on glassdoor how fucked they are

[yohankang]

i really need to pack but i'm in the 'tee hee i'm going on a trip :D' mode and i can't focus at all ahjdfjsjs

#i'm seeing my friends tomorrow!!!! first i need to spent 4 hours on a train but hey. it's a trip!!! #we're gonna grab breakfast at my fav place and then go grocery shopping cook at home and then go out in the evening #it will be my first time getting drunk in a while lmao i hope my alcohol tolerance is still high .. #i'll be staying there until monday so i also hope to visit my fav botanical garden and explore the city more #and eat as much delicious food as i can lol #i'm taking monday and tuesday off <3 #i'll be back home monday evening but i still need tuesday off because i want to bake a cake and muffins to share them at work on wednesday #because people in the office already know it's my bday 😭 so i need fo prepare something... #and then on friday a friend from my hometown will visit me <3 i will literally be celebrating my bday for a whole week lmaoo #it's what i deserve 😌 #SO ANYWAY guess who's still not packed #my train is at 6:50 am [*] #i still have time to pack and take a shower and iron my clothes and paint my nails. right #k.txt #(it's almost 10pm)

[georgcfan]

this week has been like an extended panic attack but I been standing on business 🧍🏿‍♀️

#standing like bambie but standing #imposter syndrome is a bitch #leaving for holiday on friday. my check was graciously. heard from my brother. #got my hair done. actually going to be off work on my birthday for the first time ever #got a bunch of gift cards from parents #BACK IN THERAPY! #saying goodbye to my babies this week :/ then they’re going to act like I don’t exist #found out some deep family stuff. sleep schedule doesn’t exist. can’t breathe or have a clear thought #had a conversation with my grandmother for the first time in 3 years yikes #been crying for three days. haven’t taken my hoodie off at all #irl tag #for future me

[nerdie-faerie]

I swear to god can they stop changing up the reception times

#student living #literally every week is a different opening times than the previous since the week before easter break #ive been to pick up a parcel three times now first time it was closed for the day on Wednesday which i hadnt known #but the sign they put up said they were open until 3 Thursday and Friday but i had class until 2 and am half an hour walk between campuses #didnt get back on time on Thursday but got there with 10 minutes to spare on Friday but it was already deserted for the weekend #the opening hours sign said temporary hours was just for that week so i was like okay guess ill wait until monday then #got a notification this morning about another parcel being dropped off with regular working hours included at the bottom #go to pick up my parcel after noon and the place is deserved and theres a new sign up #theyre open only until 12 for the first half of the week and then until 3 Thursday and friday again #so theyve changed opening hours from 8-5 to 8-12 🫥 but not sent out any notice about this #when am i supposed to collect my parcels if you keep changing the times with no warnings? #this is like the 6th week in a row that theyre operating on new times #i need to collect my package its stuff i need for this weekend im also waiting on my friends birthday presents to arrived for this sunday #and of course reception isnt open on weekends for students when everyone would be available to collect their packages outside of classes

[mumblelard]

melanie or thursday rainy thursday

i have some dollars left in my buy something fun for my dirt day budget and i was going to buy that ursula k leguin metal af shirt but i don't enough mental spare change available to flip a coin and decide if i am a medium or a large for this particular shirt at this particular point in time

there is no room for melanie on the mug shelf so someone has to go. i have already decided who. it's an old timer. i don't really have the heart to tell them, but today is the day. wish me luck

when it is raining hard enough that the middle school kids put their hoods up, i take a day off walking by the river. they have determined, through rigorous analysis, that the risk of the rain messing up their hair and ruining their lives forever is greater than the risk of their hoodies messing up their hair and ruining their lives forever. i am not that concerned about my hair, or ruining my life, but i don't like it when my shoes get squidgy

#melanie #mugs #lynskey #desks #coffee #ursula k leguin #rain #thank god it's friday comma again #one of the things i have learned #i really enjoy frozen crinkle cut french fries baked in the oven #an opinion my younger self would have viewed with disdain #remember those super skinny fries at the gd ritzy across from the drexel where jen worked #puttin on the dog #the french lady across the courtyard got a dui last week #her kid was having a tough first week of school and he was crying she drove to the store to get him gummy worms to make him feel better #so she cut all of her hair off as some sort of lapsed catholic penance #she tells it better than i do #magic wiggle worms #gummy worms #wild arctic sea world #polar bears

[vulpinesaint]

actually going to throw the hugest fit over my parents making me do dishes. i am HAPPY to do dishes on assigned nights. it's FINE. i hate it so much but i'll get it done and if i'm having constant breakdowns over it then like. idk. maybe that's another issue that you should be looking into but it doesn't mean that i'm not up for doing the dishes. but now my mom wants to have the five of us just. do the dishes on a rotation? which is FUCKED cause i have SHIT to do! the fuck happens when i have dnd? or want to go out with a friend? or have class until late? literally worst fucking idea on earth i can do the fucking dishes but i have to be PREPARED for it. for instance don't make it so every other week i'll be fucking Doing something when it's my night to do the dishes

#so tired and lowkey pissed off about this i'm going to cry #my mom got rlly upset cause the dishes weren't getting done. fair. #my nights got Done most of the time and i volunteered to take on an extra night so idk. i think that should count for something. #but she got upset and said that she would just do dishes from now on #and then realized it was a lot of work and said she couldn't do it on her own and needed people to help #and then said 'we should do it this way!' and never actually implemented that way #like. just said it out loud. but then like. expected it to magically happen? #babe you can't just throw out a hypothetical and go 'alright! now that i have spoken it into existence it's going to happen' #fucking WHATEVER though. cause now it's going to be my fun little dishes night on friday when i have dnd. #first fuckin round of it. #and it's not even that i don't want to i CAN'T do the fucking dishes on friday cause i'm barely in the house! #i'll be home on friday after work for fifteen minutes tops! #so. going to complain. literally some of us have schedules that take up the nighttime. #sorry that neither of my little siblings hang out with people or have regular social engagements or work late or have class late. #but unfortunately i'm literally doing shit. and i need to incorporate things into my schedule or it's gonna fuck all my shit up #and then people will be angry with me for not getting the dishes done. so. again. fuck me i guess #it'll be fine i'll talk to her i just. ugh. the world if mothers just fucking talked about what they wanted and needed to happen #she proposed that Multiple weeks ago and just now i heard her in the kitchen going 'i thought we were doing this...' #bitch since WHEN??? SINCE WHEN??? YOU HAVEN'T BROUGHT IT UP IN A FULL WEEK AT LEAST #throwing my fucking laptop against the wall i'm so fucking tired i just want to sleep #valentine notes

[lostinmirkwood]

I get every other Friday off at work. Last week was my off-Friday, I took tomorrow off for marathon prep. If I take May 5th off, the way holidays and already planned PTO line up I won’t work another 5 day week until the end of June. Sold!

#the first week of April was my last five day week #and I’ve already taken the first week of July off #because 4th of July is mid-week and it’s another off-Friday week #so I can recover from that five day week #hahahaha #life with lost #lost at work

[britneyshakespeare]

why does scheduling my work days give me so much stress and anxiety

#i was supposed to do my first day at the high school today but i had literally so much anxiety i could not fall asleep last night no matter #what. i had so much dread. i took so much melatonin lol. #i could shut my brain off till i went into the application and deleted my schedule for the day #ive just been feeling so fatigued and exhausted since i got covid it's crazy. sometimes i'll have bursts of energy where im productive #but yesterday i was just so tired from loading the washing machine. just. fucking sorting clothes and putting them in #that i had to lie down on the floor for a few minutes in the middle of it #not my finest moment #tales from diana #i didn't have anything scheduled for tomorrow and i thought 'maybe if i feel better tonight ill call in' #but i dont feel. super better tonight. and the only thing that i could do tomorrow at my preferred school is kindergarten subbing #for like the main classroom teacher. which i havent done before so i figured 'yeah im not gonna get my anxiety up 2 days in a row' #i deserve to sleep tonight after all and i think if i committed to that i wouldnt be able to #but i am going into my elementary school on wed-thur-friday of this week. wednesday is only a half day but they'll probably find smth for me #to do in the afternoon. they usually do. and im fine w that. #idk im just much more comfortable in my elementary school. i guess bc ive worked there before and i went to school there #as a wittle student waaaay back in the day. like i know the building and it doesn't scare me and i know a good amount of kids there #and the staff don't intimidate me. so yeah. #i did schedule my first job at the high school FOR REAL THIS TIME and it's next friday. hopefully ill be doing better by then. #im working the thursday before it at the elementary so i'll be in the rhythm of that. idk how to explain it but it's harder to go back #to work when ive taken a day off. like that's also why im not going in tomorrow. #friday (4/07) was the first day i worked since i got covid and that was fine but also. i was so anxious just to go in. #and so so so so tired when i got home. and all weekend. #yeah i wasn't ready to start working at the high school today. that was nonsense. #hopefully all will go well on wednesday thursday and friday of this week. im trying to restore my energy and fix my sleep. thatll do wonders #i hope. i hope i hope i hope

[queen-of-bel]

my seating assignment at work changed today and got lost like 5 times in my own office looking for my new desk how embarrassing is that

#i moved from the 37th floor up to the 38th so i also had to move everything on my desk up #which took legit 3 trips bc i have sm stuff #and then i started unloading at the wrong desk so.. #good thing I'm always the first one in the entire office so nobody witnesses how embarrassing that was #this last month has been a clusterfuck and a half I'm so glad i have Thursday and Friday off #maybe I'll have time to finally get through everything in my inbox SORRY it's taking me forever been so busy with work and stuff 🙏 #amelia rambles

[arthur-r]

actual footage of the smallest dance imaginable. a hundred people bought tickets which is. not a lot for an entire seven cities worth of students in a school. and then there was maybe fifty people total in the building at the most filled up time cause so many people just used the tickets as donating to charity and didn’t even want to go

#was excited to come home and laugh at the dance and then it just got a little much toward the end #but i still think it was pretty funny. also there were so many songs that literally no one there knew?? #my friends begged the dj (social studies teacher) to skip songs no one was dancing to and they wouldn’t #the entire night was really funny before i started falling apart about everything it just became a little much #kind of this whole week combined. monday i tried to take the bus to school showed up ten minutes early waited half an hour it never showed #(first time trying to take the bus from the apartment. school said there’s a stop here but apparently no) #tuesday i tried to take the bus after school and it never stopped within a mile of the apartment. got dropped off at a trailer park #that was not mine. had to have my mom pick me up. and then go to work after like regular #then wednesday was a little bit normal i think. pretty much regular. but did have trouble getting home again!! just not as exciting #anyway then thursday was probably maybe normal?? except my sister came in to school to visit her old favorite teacher. who is my teacher #in economics. and knows me trans and i had to have a conversation with my sister. so maybe not that normal #and then on friday. my older sister had my key card and i couldn’t get into the apartment building. waited outside for my little sister for #twenty minutes in the cold and then we went in the lobby and had to wait for a stranger to get close enough to ask for help. bad experience #so anyway there’s been a lot leading up to today. and it makes sense that i fell apart eventually. but no longer crying so call that a win #hope you all are well. i’ll go to sleep eventually. just a lot to get off my chest. in conclusion wasn’t this dance stupid #we hadn’t had a charity gala since pre-covid so i think just nobody knew what it would be like. i’m the only grade who’s been before #if it wasn’t for the charity gala i wouldn’t know i was trans. somebody complimented my transition there and i was like sorry i can do that? #(had cut my hair short and was wearing a suit. considered myself a stag bisexual and hadn’t heard of transmasculinity /gen) #so i had maybe high expectations. anyway i’m probably running out of tags soon just. yeah. idk. today was a lot #friends only #delete later

[prozach27]

.

#tomorrow a whole new quarter starts #and with it my biggest drive to date to get my life under control #I’ve done so much work this past year on myself #getting my dx and finding the right med combo + a year of intensive outpatient therapy #weird to think I’ve been a step below hospitalization for a year but like I did the work and am graduating from the program in 2 months #and I think the last major hurdle is that I’ve been so overwhelmed with college #I need to forgive myself and accept my issues and then just move on #I’m so terribly behind in part bc I don’t ask for help or seek out resources and that’s gotta change immediately #these next few weeks are gonna be really intense and hard work catching up to where I need to be #and I gotta accept that but once the hard work is done it’ll balance out and become more sustainable #it’s really terrifying to think about too much honestly lol like it makes me just wanna drop out #but I won’t. I came back for a reason. I’ll get through this. #it’s just a matter of making some lifestyle changes #I think I’m only gonna use substances on Friday or Saturday nights and no other time #I’m going back on keto #and I’m gonna phase in going to the gym after this first week #2023 is only gonna be my year if I get off my ass #too many ideas and dreams but not enough hard work to achieve them and that’s just not who I am #just scary to think that tomorrow is when everything really ramps up. just gotta get through the terror of everything I need to do #and then eventually I’ll make it to the other side

[apeshit]

being new in the health care industry is having a doctors appointment at least once a week and not having hardly any time to even go to them

#canto vi #a few weeks ago i had an appiintment i scheduled a month ahead of time for friday #at 9am #and then they call me at 8am that morning and say ‘sorry we dont do this on fridays’ #and i need that appointment for my job. but i work every weekday except friday. and they close soon after i get off my work on monday-thurs #i just came in this morning for a dr appointment that i scheduled months ago #now theyre saying i had to get labs first before this appt #i thought this WAS the labs day #thats what i was told #and my doctors offices are all 40 min from where im living right now

[likesplatterpaint]

Way up in the water

I see it swimming

Where is my mind?

#the last 36 hours have been a unique hell my friends #we went from having no idea where mikes sister was or if we’d ever see her again #to having her safely at our house #and fucking all the awards to my husband for talking her into coming here and mitigating the hysterical in laws #she is making concrete plans to start her life thank fucking god #boundaries have been laid for us and her #and genuinely everything went better than expected #not how I wanted to spend my day off but she’s safe and that’s what matters #mike and I are e x h a u s t e d pls send prayers and vibes #his first day of work at the new job went great #apollo be eyeing me last Friday like. hah. yeah bitch. I bet you WILL need Monday off

[munamania]

so i want to talk about this again. this day is SO long. have they, the universe or whatever, considered that i cannot do this

#first off. i do not like my morning class and i would just skip or drop it but i feel like. #sigh. i WANT to learn things from it. but honestly i feel like if i could just do an independent study #i would. because i like One person in that class (ik it’s been two days. srry). #and i understood what was going on looking at thw canvas page better than i ever did in class #sorry prof. then i have my fave prof and we’re pitching ideas and even tho i feel fine abt it #it’s always a bit nervewracking. it’ll be fine though #and then work 😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞😞 #and i’m pretty sure i’m only working tuesdays bc i have to be there when the likr ‘managers’ are there #but i want to cry. but my bosses are really nice and were super chill abt letting me leave #early friday bc they screwed up my #hours. but anyway. i desperately need to say please. please god. do not schedule me tuesday or thursday. please #i should’ve just scratched that out of my availability but i wanted to be yk. hi table #abby talks #hirable. is that a word

[fingertipsmp3]

Knowing before I even go to sleep that tomorrow is going to be a weird day is like… I very much hate this

#on thursday i left a voicemail on my boss’s phone that was essentially a cry for help and she was out of office that day and friday #and today was a bank holiday but her out of office message just went off which means she’s going to hear my message first thing tomorrow #and basically discover that i don’t work there yet! because even though i sent in all the shit i needed to send in on time HR didn’t bother #to do anything with it; meaning i haven’t been booked in for induction; meaning i don’t have my start date yet #meaning that since induction is only once a month i likely won’t be able to start until october. meaning the college won’t be able to run #any esol classes at all because their only esol teacher (me) doesn’t work there yet #i have a feeling some shit is going to go down and i just wish i knew what. i mean i know it’s not MY fault and i’m not in trouble #i literally sent in everything they needed from me more than a week before they needed it and they just. sat on it. #i can provide screenshots and everything. so it’s not MY fault but i’m still the one who’ll have to deal with the consequences #(i.e. starting work late; being thrown in the deep end & having to teach immediately; missing out on a month’s pay; etc) #UNLESS she gets it sorted out but like.. even then the induction dates are tomorrow and wednesday. so like best case scenario #is i end up having to go into work on super short notice and try to get my shit together #i just don’t know what’s going to happen tomorrow and i’m trying not to think about it because i’d really like to sleep tonight #but it’s hard #fuck it. tarot reading to try to clarify matters; then read smut until i fall asleep? sounds like a plan #personal

[scare-ard--sleigh]

ohhhhhhhhhh my goddddddddd and now the fucking t*ble t*nnis guy is passive aggressively up my ass : \

#work stuff #silver jelly #'i've noticed editing has slowed down...' first of all ;;; i was editing the 3.5k words of incomprehensible nonsense because you all #won't hire real writers for almost TWO HOURS on friday. i skipped Yesterday. you sent that message at 10 AM when i HAD one of those #fucking awful awful articles on my roster for today. so that's what;;;; 1 work day unaccounted for? fuck off #secondly; you assholes REFUSE to tell me how much you're expecting from me; you just fucking yell at us when we're not going #'fast enough' when you WON'T EVEN TELL ME WHAT THAT MEANS #this is an internal fucking site and we have REAL clients with REAL ACTUAL deadlines ;;; this is not !!!!!!!!!!!!!! a priority to me!!!!!!! #thirdly; ;;;; i took this project AS A FAVOR to someone who's on maternity leave. i did not even want it. she fucking told me 'ohhh you're #the only one i trust' when there's ... literally ;;; another editor on this who is her best friend from childhood or whatever . #like manipulating me; basically; into taking this project (and she didn't even need to; i wanted the hours anyway) #STILL; ;;; it's not something i picked; it's not something i even particularly wanted to do !!!!! #and it's endless shit;; every god damn week it's some version of 'is everything okay? you're slowing down?' like yeah bro i got other work! #jesus fucking CHRIST i just cannot !!!!! #i sent a message in the chat i straight up said 'i try to do one of these a day but i don't feel like it's enough so please tell me what #your expectations are' and if he dodges i'm saying 'an approximate number would be really helpful' like fuck dude i don't CARE if #you tell me you need 10 of these by the end of the week -- i can maybe even make that happen but this isn't fucking working !!!! #@god please get me out of here holy shit .