#this is from like ... three weeks ago maybe

[catkin-morgs-kookaburralover]

feeling weird mixed feelings atm and I can't really logic them away, ig? on the one hand I'm completely apathetic about it. on the other hand there's a part of me that's absolutely horrified that I could do something like that. the fact that it's still a consistent low-level pain the whole time also doesn't help. anyway those kinds of thoughts are then making me want to harm again to cope with them but also a) it's manageable and b) I currently have a deep horror of self-inflicted pain after the last few days apparently.

#more specific blatherings in the tags so im gonna get them below the read more in case anyone doesn't want to read it #tw sh #because yes this is about the last few days and im gonna add a few more words to get the rest below the read more #the fact that while they aren't as deep as i've ever gone before they are unquestionably in volume far exceeding any #before. not that i count at the time or anything but there are at least sixty new cuts from the last week so no wonder it's painful #but yeah it's just. an interesting emotional feeling once the pressure that triggered them is gone #i don't know i don't understand myself really #glad i have a psych appointment monday really #if i didn't have one booked i'd probably be booking one about now #also bothered by how visible the ones on my wrist are going to be. #hopefully the redness will go away soon bc i don't think they're quite healed yet #teatree oil is helping tho so hopefully they won't be TOO obvious #the location means that yeah they will be visible but hopefully not too too much #and after all i have only for-sure hit the fat layer twice. maybe a few other times. there are a couple taking ages to heal atm #so they might've idk. and i haven't gone any deeper than that #honestly with the wrist ones the fact is that it was blunt and i couldn't #sharpen it at hte time. perhaps tmi but yeah this may have saved my life and or my hand function #but i might be overstating it. anyway apparently that was three weeks and one day ago?? wow #guys that entire day i was convinced i wasn't going to live to see the morning. the WHOLE DAY #i literally have a commie newspaper on my desk currently because they tried selling it at uni and i was so existential i was just like. #'what is life. what is money. who cares' and bought it. see this is the funny story i referred to. i can elaborate #personal #puddleglum hours #tw suicide

[astrxealis]

i am so obnoxious over bg3 but like. privately. bcs i'm still urgehafsjsh over how astarion is literally everything to me now and i really adore him but hi: i haven't played bg3. anyway. half-elf + bard maybe!

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #sorry. sorry. sorry to be so annoying but ASTARION..... #mr neil did so good voicing him all lines HIT. not a single bad one. oh man #i adore astarion's character from the outermost layers to the innermost i love his development and all the different scenes your choices #can lead to. how different he can be. how dramatic he can be how sarcastic how soft he can be. astarion. #wtf the obsession kicked in late... #bcs okay i learned of bg3 just. around tumblr. and what got me finally the Nudge to get into it was THE NEWS OF THE BEAR ASTARION THING #LMFAO and then i was like Oh Yeah hm maybe astarion will be my favorite (insert my thoughts here) #and then i learned more abt baldur's gate only Then and then got obsessed whooo but very normal #and sometime there my twin also got interested and whooo normally obsessed w bg/3/astarion and then got insanely obsessed #and here i was a few days ago or last week. normal. then all of a sudden i GOT... obsessed....... #astarion has consumed my every waking moment and i'm also in lov w the other characters. gale... karlach... shadowheart... etc... #and astarion has easily become one of my most favorite characters. which is not surprising at ALL #when you consider . every general factor of my favorite characters #+ how the story of how i came to like him is a STORY INDEED to tell ..... and how i got spoiled a bit too on some stuff but thats ok w me... #and my circumstances w my favorite games are real funny (for a lack of a better word) too i realize. oh man. #anyway. astarion. i adore him #it's unfair too i'm in my hozier era fully rn so. brain consumed #me listening to all of hoziers three albums (i adore hozier) and associating so many songs w astarion :/ like work song #idk. astarion reaaaaaally deserves hugs and love and and and i adore him

[lunarflare64]

Y'all ever miss food? And eating? We miss it. Not sure how long thats gonna last, our feeling-hunger cut-off happens very early on. Going back to eating normally when we can afford food again is gonna be rough

#we were doing so well and then the surgery happened and then we were starting to recover from that #and then during a rough patch we got car sick #and while trying to recover our ground from that we stopped being able to afford food and our backup plan maker got sick #guess whos not eating more than one small meal a day (if even that) until monday next week #maybe not even then. unreliable maybes were given. if not monday then it might be wednesday #or friday #we havent eaten properly since about three days ago #living off long-life milk and any scraps we can get our stomach to accept is just- #honesty straight up starving is easier you dont have to think about shit when youre starving #and again our hunger cues die quickly so we dont feel like we're starving we just feel like shit more and more as the days go by

[harmonizewithechoes]

Today was such a mixed bag in terms of events that happened (so much happened 😳) but I’m currently riding the high of having found the perfect dress that makes me genuinely feel pretty and happy about my body! The last time that happened was prom 10 years ago with a ridiculous ball gown I’ll never wear again lol but that’s not even the best part! The best part of this perfect dress that will work for all occasions- casual get togethers, weddings, date nights, etc depending on jewelry and outerwear- is that it was found at a thrift store for $5!! Literally could not have been more perfect 🥰 after 3 kids I had kind of resigned myself to never really liking my body again and was focusing on body neutrality. But this dress gave me such a confidence boost! I didn’t even know it was possible.

#personal #like sure okay two of my three kids were stung by bees today #and two separate plans in two different locations were ruined because of said bees #btw did you know that if you get stung and go to your car to get away from the bees that they can somehow follow your car? who knew? #and maybe one child got a really bad nosebleed while also dealing with a bee stings #and maybe there was a bathroom accident due to a child not letting us know they had to go quickly enough #but hey! who cares about any of that! I got a great new dress 🥰 #oh also my mom went thrift shopping with me and while I was picking her up her neighbor had a free giant doll house on the curb! #so we also got a super awesome dollhouse that the kids are in love with 😊 #also the bee stung kids are absolutely fine we dont seem to be dealing with any allergies #the baby was actually the first one to get stung (🥺😣) but she’s fine #she didn’t even cry and kept looking at me like I was crazy when I was worrying over her #meanwhile I was stung a few weeks ago and it hurt so badly! #my baby is making me look like… well…. a baby lol

[atsvmi]

tmi in the tags :))

#pls tell me if i’m being ridiculous BUT #i saw my bf for the first time in months (ldr) and finally showed him the spicy scene i liked from a book i read #mind you i told him forever ago how hot i thought it was and how much i wish we could try something like this blah blah blah #but when i gave him the book (skipping directly to the smut scene) he read maybe three pages of like 20ish #i can’t help but be like slightly offended??? like i’m handing you a playbook and you can’t be bothered to finish it :/ #idk i’m just bummed about it lmao even though it happened like a week ago #he didn’t even comment on anything he did read so it’s like he didn’t care lol :(

[rubys-domain]

i kinda don't want to play genshin tbh. i just want to play minecraft

#⇢₊˚⊹ 🩷∥ruby∥yo，ide yo !! #i swore i wouldn't sleep later than 11 pm. but man #for some reason doing weekly bosses doesn't make me feel like i actually/did/ something in the game #at this point i don't think it's feasible to do every single weekly boss every week anymore #cuz there's already 8 and we only get the 30 resin discount three times #in total we'd need 390 resin to do all of them #which is literally two days' worth of capped resin and an extra 70 #one weekly transient resin from the teapot barely matters #i'd honestly rather grind normal bosses. even though i don't really need to anymore on main #unless i really want to max ascend all 7* members of my teams (*xingqiu's in both of them which i will rectify as soon as i get yelan. or #kick him out of chong's team in favor of melt. whichever comes first. would be sad but the abyss is cruel like that) #man i'm NOT looking forward to breaking up chongqiunett for the spiral abyss #they've been stuck together like glue literally since i started playing the game #i've alread max ascended chongyun cyno baizhu and bennett #not xingqiu because. oceanid man. it's painful #i really should though. as a sort of thank you for carrying me through the entire game alongside chongnett #maybe this'll be my excuse to build yanfei now lol #a little nervous about fighting the primo geovishap cuz i haven't fought it since that one world quest. which was AGES ago #but if i can beat raiden shogun without dying then i should be fine. hopefully #why couldn't it have been pyro regisvine ;-; srsly the most fun boss to beat up #atp i really should be focusing on like talents and artifacts but like... #i don't have any motivation to level anyone's talents up tbh. much less crown them #i'll probably double crown cyno at the very least. but everyone else... #i'm still a little exhausted from triple crowning chong tbh. literally the most massive resource sink in the entire game #(ik artifacts are worse resource sinks but shh im complaining here) #the minute after i gave him his last crown i was more broke than zhongli #leveling characters is way more fun than leveling talents ;-; #i don't mind going back to the taishan mansion forever and ever until the release of snezhnaya #it's just... the amount of mora i need for this shit... #aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

[hua-fei-hua]

alright whenever you have time (and also the energy) I would love to hear your thoughts on the lantern rite epilogue! Have a good day <3

we're going to pretend that people following me will care abt genshin 3.4 lantern rite spoilers so we're gonna put my entire deranged mess under a cut hahaha

*gently holds* MY XVS......

truly this lantern rite had EVERYTHING although truth be told, like, the way venti was kind of shoehorned in was a little disappointing. i felt a little bit baited by the way the 3.4 TRAILER HAD THAT ONE CUT RIGHT where it goes from VENTI PLAYING THE LYRE in the harbor to XIAO LOOKING UP AT THE FIREWORKS outside of wangshu inn, and then we see the xiao bit in the actual cutscene on day 2, but absolutely none of venti until the epilogue. and also we never see venti playing the lyre during the event story so it's like. whoever edited that pv absolutely had xv on the brain. like. what the hell was that it was magical i feel higher than a boat right now

BUT ANYWAY like i don't even care how obviously shoehorned in venti felt bc the interactions were all SO PERFECT i love love loved them. i loved the way hu tao just RAN INTO WANGSHU INN and started shouting for xiao, and then talked death to him until he was like "yeah sure i'll go to your dinner". they are so besties i love them their friendship is everything to me.

THE WAY. XV INTERACTED. IN FRONT OF US. xiao just like "well. um. there's this. um. um." TOTAL PANIC MODE n venti had to SAVE HIM with like "huuuh? did you forget already? i'm a bard!" like HELLO why do they need a COVER STORY why are they making up COVER STORIES TOGETHER WHAT WERE THEY DOING TOGETHER IN THE MARSH EARLIER like what kind of GAY SHIT--

also i'm pretty sure when xiao started explaining his relationship to venti, venti fluttered his lashes at him. like, i recorded the whole quest (bc i didn't last year with the final part n i REALLY WISH I HAD bc i STILL remember the dRAMATIC GASP i had when we had that one beiguang moment in the cutscene), and when i rewatched it earlier i was like. "HANG ON. DID HE JUST FLUTTER HIS LASHES" n rewatched it like three times. maybe my game was just stuttering BUT IT DEFINITELY LOOKED LIKE IT and maybe i'll gif it when i get home from work tonight

BUT ANYWAY (2) point is that the expression work this time was ON POINT like whoever's doing all that over at mhy hq needs to get a raise pronto. venti going (¬‿¬) at all the other immortals was so immaculate. you aren't subtle little man!!!

it's probably just shipper goggles on to an extent, but i feel like the xv implications were really strong this time around, with the parallels to that fontch guy's ancestor, and the guiping n everything... i'm kind of disappointed that we don't get to actually hear any of venti's unobstructed thoughts on xiao; like the ribbing n implications at the dinner are a lot of fun (like, they were totally making out in the marsh before dinner. we all know this. it's very clear imo), but it kind of makes me wonder why we can hear xiao like... do his Very Heavy Implying abt venti's importance to him (though again, he doesn't outright say anything-- we know the full extent n depth of xiao's feelings abt venti (romantic or not) bc we can read his character stories, so technically really he hasn't told us jack squat in the current canon timeline), but the best we get from venti are smug expressions. those expressions are very telling, ofc, but a very unhinged part of me wishes that mhy didn't feel the need to wrap up the xv in layers of allegory and metaphor and just outright heard one of them say, "this person is very dear to me." i know it's just the rabid shipper in me, and i need to be sedated, but i was really kind of hoping that we'd see the allegory w/the fontch guy's ancestor n madame ping lifted away at the end n, like, see or hear it be bound to xv outright. just for purely self-indulgent purposes o(--(

but anyway (3) i also love love loved all the playful ribbing, witty banter, and prev event callbacks btwn the characters!! hu tao n venti canonically making a pact to be poetry friends was SO GOOD you just KNOW hu tao is gonna commission venti to compose a JINGLE for wangsheng advertising purposes later, while zhongli n xiao are like, "this meeting never should have happened. we are all doomed." somehow i legitimately forgot that xq n venti know each other from irodori n was like, "...huh?" when xq mentioning knowing venti for like, a FULL two seconds. the way venti was like "damn you know i was right outside this entire time. can you believe the way some people ignore the wind?" n zhongli was like "hahaha (✿◡‿◡) the harbor is very busy this time of year (✿◠‿◠) it is very hard see or hear an individual person's whereabouts (^人^)"

AND ALSO. PAIMON BEING ELECTED AS THE "MOST DISTINGUISHED GUEST." PAIMON YOU GOT IN THE WAY OF MY DERANGED SELF-DELUSIONMENT MANY TIMES THIS LANTERN RITE BUT THAT WAS PRETTY FUNNY. i thought it was interesting how no one nominated venti. like i was kind of expecting xiao to do it (but ofc he nominates traveler) which is fair honestly, n then i was like "IS LUMINE GONNA NOMINATE VENTI????" but then she nominated paimon n paimon was like "wait... me?????" n it was just EXACTLY like a bunch of adults telling the little kid they are the most specialest ever n they should have the honor of doing The Thing. as that little kid growing up, i know the feeling very well lol

there are other bits i'm just,,, rotating around in my mind, like venti and kazuha hanging out on the alcor, the way xiao goes "i can't taste the difference in xiangling's special almond tofu" when you go visit him afterwards, ALL THE GANQING THAT HAPPENED IN THE MAIN STORY I'M SO HAPPY FOR THEM I'M SO HAPPY FOR ME I WON VERY HARD THIS LANTERN RITE, n like,,, yeah!!!!

#asks #anonymous #(at my non genshin followers/mutuals) I'M SORRY FOR BEING DERANGED. EVEN THOUGH I'VE BEEN DERANGED FOR OVER A YEAR N A HALF #it's funny bc i never apologized for abruptly changing fandoms before gnshn. the shame of gacha gaming never dies lmao #ANYWAY i'm pretty sure venti just ate off of xiao's plate the entire dinner. 'let me get you another set of cutlery' says hu tao #'okay sure!' venti replies; already stealing xiao's chopsticks n eating all his food bc it's not like xiao's eating all that much #plus. i was thinking of that spices in the west event. n how to my surprise venti liked the almond tofu n grilled tiger fish... #been getting a lot of kudos on my xv fics these last few days hahaha; i mentioned to star yesterday that the saucy xv thing i wrote #waaaay back in late july is like 290 hits away from entering my top five ao3 fics by hits #and if that happened it would do what j/jk had never been able to do (which is break the b//nha chokehold over my hits stats) #(j/jk broke my records on bookmarks tho n i'm very proud of that i love you diner fic) #n star said we should throw a party if the saucy xv fic made it to top five n i was like. #a 'thank you to all the thirsty people for dethroning the shadow of b/nha that lives over me at all times' party???? #n she was like 'yes. i think that is a wonderfully apt title' LOL #in the shower yesterday i was thinking abt the xvx week happening on twt n i Do have smth saved for the free day #this oneshot i started last july n then didn't finish until like two or three weeks ago but in the shower i was like #'muse... muse... you know it would be kind of fun if...' n i started thinking abt that livejournal au i came up w/as a joke months ago #so maybe i'll write smth real fast for that hahaha

[proteuus]

why did I agree to close tonight at work. remind me to never do this

#i only have availability until 3 on saturdays but my asm asked me three weeks ago if i could close today #and i was like oh three weeks from now thats not even real. sure i can close on '''september 24''' lol #(this guy thinks eventually it will be the end of september. what an idiot. why schedule for a time forever away) #also i think I'm going to have to take an extra semester to finish my three majors. which will suck if true. #but also i only need like 6 extra credits and i could take up to 18 in that bonus semester #english classes? more english classes for me?? <3 <3 #this might be move. idk. maybe i can do it without. i need to redo my EDP and find out #alternatively i could take a spanish minor instead of a major which wouldnt be the end of the world. but wouldnt it though

[hauntedpearl]

literally never will get over how most hollywood writers who want to write Hindi in their shows will like. literally do everything but talk to a native speaker lmao. or so it seems like anyway. the consequence of this is that the most accurate hindi I've heard on television is, like, from the mouth of rajesh koothrapalli of big bang theory fame (AWFUL for me understandably) because kunal nayyar is an annoying delhiboi and probably just started speaking on his own

#they made nisa kurshid say three sentences in hindi like months ago and im still LAUGHING #wait not months weeks #maybe one month #like what DID I EXPECT FROM PEOPLE WHO NAMED ONE PERSON LATIKA #god i will not say more im actually not spnwin crit don't come for me lmao i just think it's soooo funny when they do this #like. LMAO PLS i can't even be offended anymore i just point and laugh #like that one interview w sofia vergara where she's like your spanish is soooo funny and it's bc all aunties from her home are like dying #laughing about it #anyway #this post bc muku pointed out grammar mistakes in some NRIs tiktok and i was like yeah YEAH LOL

[arrow-guy]

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#erin rambles #please forgive me #i am going to be Annoying and also Annoyed for a moment #so i had been seeing someone almost every weekend for like two months #and then after our sixth??? date i think???????? #they just stopped responding to texts #so i was essentially ghosted #this happened almost three weeks ago and since then i decided to try to find Another Person #things seemed to be going well!! #a few people seemed to like me #but then two either unmatched or had someone else they were more interested in #and i dont blame them its their lives whatever #but since then i havent gotten a single message back????? #so its been like three days of radio silence from anyone i was talking to with zero responses from new matches #at first i thought it was just me???? #im probably a little annoying im doing my best to own it lmao #but i try to ask questions that pertain to their interests?????? bc i love it when people infodump at me #but theres just been zero response #and its from like maybe eight people at this point #so im trying to reconcile with the fact that the person i wanted to have a Relationship Discussion with ghosted me #whilst also dealing with getting zero responses from new people i might be interested jn #so either im going to have to be cool with being fucking annoying #or its something wrong with the app #idk #im feeling Vulnerable and Bad after valentines day

[orcelito]

First thing getting out of bed, dealing with the Cat Things 😭👍

#speculation nation #replacing litter cleaning up messes washing their bowls just in case that will help #i'll wash their water bowl too tho i did that a few days ago #already replaced the litter n now im gonna. do the bowls. mostly bc tally keeps threatening to eat my damn plants lmao #i am. Not happy doing this first thing in the morning #but prelude to the break in dream i dreamed that they finally came to pick up the damned dehumidifier and fan #from the kitchen flooding incident THREE WEEKS AGO... #and i dont want ppl to see my apartment in the state it's in rn lol #objectively was it a premonition? no probably not. but. i just wanna be safe lol #and i feel like it might help with Cassy's eating. just maybe. #set some coffee to brew tied my hair back started the music. let's gooo #maybe i'll get my trash while im at it. then that just might be most of my cleaning energy for the day lmaoo #i also do need to do laundry. but that can wait for later... #adulthood 😭👍

[wintersoldeer]

i hope everyone who watches videos in public without headphones drops their phone into a puddle and when they go to pick it up they accidentally step too far into said puddle so their shoes and socks get all wet and when theyre worrying about that they drop their phone again and this time the screen cracks 

#seems like e v e r y t i m e nowadays there someone in the train too near me watching tiktok or whatever and i dont fucking want to hear it #also i think i lost my own headphones or maybe left them at work #they were my backup headphones that i bought bc i lost my headphones or maybe left them at my parents’ #also my hands still smell like salmon despite washing them like three or five times i cant wait to take an actual shower #small annoyances that ill probably forget the minute i step out of this train but until then fuck everyone who watches videos in public #without headphones and double fuck everyone who watches videos in public without headphones and feeds their dog salmon treats #also fuck me for being so... like this. with headphones and keeping them not lost do ireally need to go buy new ones a g a i n #i say #ok instead of posting i just saved this as draft bc habit so in that time ive gotten off the train and bought some shitty cheapo headphones #from tiger (which i know are shitty bc i went through like three of them in like a week some years ago and if they were shit then theyre #probably worse now. they dont even have any fun colours anymore...) and i instantly feel better #gonna go take that shower now and hopefully finally wash away any lingering dog food stink thank god its friday etc etc etc #//edit 2days later ha found my headphones!! (not the fun pink ones that i still hipe are somewhere back home but the boring gray backup ones #that i was afraid i left in the pocket of my work pants that i threw in the laundry box. i didnt! theyre safe!!)

[blastburnt]

bathroom inspections

#this was gonna be more of a comic of the thought process but i am not strong enough to draw brushing teeth so. watever #anyway it's like. i'm very much someone who would probably mainly fall in the 'cute' category. this is from others and my own perception #so pretty/handsome/beautiful or whatever other adjectives are not really what i would associate with myself AT ALL #not really an issue tbh it's just like. it is what it is you know? #whenever i'm brushing my teeth i'll just look at myself and i can think 'yeah i'm pretty cute' #but. THIS TIME. it was 'hey.. i do look kind of pretty' which was...... different. strange #maybe i will make a more coherent comic but who knowz man #a few weeks ago my friend did tell me that when they first saw me they thought i was really pretty. which was sweet #i say a few weeks but i'm pretty sure it was like three months ago lol #anyway hi person reading my tags #doodle

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

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#im uh. well im not doing so well rn #im a touch depressed #im hungry so i opened doordash to order something #but i almost dont want to #because the thought of leaving my bed is so difficult even if im leaving my bed for taco bell #yesterday and today were my weekend and ive been needing to shower for all of those days #but instead of showering today do you know what i did? would you like to know? #i layed down. i layed my head down like i was going to take a nap but i couldnt #so i just layed down with my eyes closed for three hours because i couldnt do anything else #i need to pick up some meds from the pharmacy. i havent been able to do it. i need to do so many things #but all i can do is lay in bed. completely numb. i dont feel a damn thing rn #i have an interview on monday for an opportunity that is really important and exciting. but i dont feel anything #no anxiety. no happiness. nothing #i dont have any anger or sadness or happiness inside of me even though i have so many reasons to feel all of that #but i can't feel. i can't get out of bed. i might call off of work tomorrow #maybe another day off will help me get stuff done. i doubt it but at least i wouldn't have to work #i called off two weeks ago too. i feel like I've become a bit of a disappointment at this job #i really like my boss. he took a chance by hiring me. but I'm probably disappointing him. i did that at my last job too #but this is a shitty job and definitely contributing to my depression #so i dont feel too bad #i might have a bit of a theory #yesterday and the day before yesterday i got a bunch of news that should make me angry and/or sad #really angry and/or sad. but yesterday my numbness started #i think maybe my brain is kind of shutting down all emotions so that i dont have to deal with the big ones i dont want to deal with #thats my theory at least. or maybe my mood stabilizers decided to stop working again. or maybe im not getting enough sun #the way to start healing would probably be to face those emptions but i really dont want to do that #i dont feel like a real person right now

[arthur-r]

tonight has been a weird night but it’s about to get better because i just happened upon a completely roget edition of rogets thesaurus and it’s being sold on ebay for ten dollars

#i’m officially starting a thesaurus collection #of which i will gladly lend out thesauruses to my friends and colleagues don’t worry shdhdf #i currently have two of my own (the original one which i thought i had lost forever and the one i got as a replacement at half price books) #so it really wouldn’t be absurd to have three. thesauruses are real cheap and odds are my collection will only ever have four copies #(the original nostalgic one. my new 80s one. this roget one. and theoretically…. a first edition) #anyway the last thing i’m gonna do tonight before i go to bed is buy this thesaurus on the internet and then i have school in the morning #for the first time since months and months and months ago #well. month and month and month ago. shdhdhdf #anyway i was considering changing my url to rogets-thesaurus since i do have that url. but the school year is starting i can’t make a change #like that when the school year is starting. so i’m gonna be arthur r(oget) ok #anyway tomorrow morning is a wednesday so school starts late (9:00) but i’m getting picked up at 7:45 #and i’m going to have some coffee (which will hopefully work correctly) and then get to school early #to put my lock on a locker and maybe say hi to people if i see somebody that i know. that part was tara’s idea #but in conclusion. i’m gonna go order that thesaurus. and then go to sleep #and in 1-2 weeks i will have a very exciting package in the mail #also exciting: i accidentally got a first british pressing of sophie’s world in the mail!! it was four dollars and happened to be from 1995 #a replica of it is selling on etsy for $82!! there is definitely something to be said about collecting old and original books #but i’m very grateful to be coming into it for $10 or less each time #anyway love you guys see you in the morning expect a vaguely lower presence from me during school but i’m so volatile anyway that it #shouldn’t feel very drastic. i’ll see you all in a while and it is time to log off tumblr #but. yeah. very excited about the most roget thesaurus i’ve ever had the chance to get #me. my post. mine. #delete later

[deus-ex-mona]

https://archiveofourown.org/works/39032505

wrote some pure garbage to cope with my unceasing saltiness over an incident from a few weeks ago (ʘ‿ʘ)

#added to my personal cringefic compilation #shibakentucky fried chicken #almost named this ‘knock for 🐔’ but decided against it— #the true incident that happened a few weeks ago with my ✨beloathed✨ brother: #i just wanted to eat some mcdonalds hotcakes so i ordered some (didn’t order for my bro though bc screw him). three cheers for mcdelivery! #but when the delivery dude came、my brother physically shoved me away from the door and opened it、only to be met with my mcd ಥ‿ಥ #and later on in the day he did get his own delivery… of a bouquet of flowers. (ʘ‿ʘ) #like wth bro were your flowers really worth pushing me away from the door from my mcd? >:( #our mother found it absolutely hilarious when i told her about it though… _(:3 」∠)_ i truly have no allies in this household #and so yeah. i suffered so ken must suffer. turned it aiyuu though bc i’m 90% sure my bro bought the flowers for his gf #but on another note… why didn’t anyone tell me that mona’s seiyuu has a self-duet of roki up on youtube? i wish i’d found it sooner!!! #and i’ll probably get chapter 1 of valentines disaster yujiro up later… if i can come up with a funny tl tag for it… maybe? #but who knows? i haven’t done much aside from sleeping these days… _(:3 」∠)_