#this game is super hard but god it's so good

[simon-roy]

The idea of logging on a colonized alien planet brings my mind back to the planet Lalonde from Peter F. Hamilton's Night's Dawn books - a world that had very hard wood as its only meaningful export, and was also stuck developing its economy from agriculturalism (due to investment shortages, though).

All this is to say - Hey! What are some foundational inspirations for your sci fi verse? You gotta have some like recommendations of classic or older sci-fi for us, right? What are some of your suggestions of books and authors to read?

OK SO - My sci-fi tastes have sort of ended up in some very specific niches. Growing up, I was a Larry Niven +Jerry Pournelle man, in part because my dad amassed a huge collection of their books - then gave 90% of them away before i was old enough to read them. So one of my teenage missions was rebuilding that library, trash and all!

Stuff like Footfall, Ringworld, Gil "The Arm" Hamilton, Protector (yes i attempted to name a comic series similarly, and paid for it) "The Mote in God's Eye"... you name it, I read fuckloads of these books. And while they tend to land on a sort of human chauvinist "mankind will win based on his inherent adaptive human-ness, and the aliens will fail because of their rigid alien-ness", this shit was very foundational to me.

Their more collaborative series, The Man-Kzin Wars and War World, also loom large in my teenage mind. The Man-Kzin wars are super fun - humans meet a race of tiger-men, and go from being NWO peaceniks to roughneck cat-skinners in a generation! PEACE AND LOVE WONT DEFEAT TIGER MEN!

Similarly, war world (like lots of that 70s/80s military sci fi) was a sort of catch-all for western military nerds to play with their favorite factions - it was a planet where all the un-ruleable ethnic groups and nationalities had been deported by the authoritarian earth government, and left to rot... until a race of genetically engineered fascist super men land on the world, and start trying to rule the place. Pretty fun shit.

As I got older, I turned hard into William Gibson, and read the absolute shit out of both the Neuromancer trilogy and the Bridge trilogy, as well as his short stories. Bruce Sterling was part of that wave for me, too, and I religiously sought his old paperbacks out too. In terms of novels, "Distraction" is my favorite coherent Sterling Novel - though the short stories in the "Schismatrix" novel/collection of his remain my absolute favorite space opera pieces.

At this age, too, I found my top-top fave Sterling Stories - "Taklaman" and "Bicycle Repairman", both gritty pseudo-cyberpunk stories of the highest degree, in this collection:

This thousand-plus page collection of short stories and novellas was basically my bible for a few years - i put sticky notes on each story i loved and meant to return to, until the book was so festooned with sticky note bookmarks i abandoned the practice altogether. If you have the chance, just buy this book and chew on it for a few years.

As i got into my 20s, Charles Stross became my lode star - his books like Accelerando and Glasshouse were total game changers for me. They come with their own peculiarities, but I loved his transhuman/posthuman musings (or at least i was obsessed with his stuff for a good few years - the venn diagram of his obvious interests and my own overlapped enough that his books were great fodder for a growing sci-fi loving brain).

But since then, my main literary squeeze has been the great man, JACK VANCE. Working on Prophet, my friend @cmkosemen made a remark about how much the early issues of the series reminded him of a book series called "Planet of Adventure" or "the Tschai Cycle", by Jack Vance. The book has a beautifully simple setup - a man from an entirely undescribed spacefaring human civilization crash-lands onto a weird planet. But on that planet, he finds four separate civilizations, each who possess a population of enslaved humans, culturally and physically molded to the needs of their masters. And each book of this series covers our generic hero's interactions with each bizarre expoitative culture. I was extremely intrigued.

Soon thereafter, I found my current absolute favorite book - "THE DRAGON MASTERS". A book about an isolated medieval world... which gets visited, once every few generations, by a black pyramid starship, flown by a reptilian race known as the Greph. The greph capture humans to (surprise surprise) breed them into hyper specific slaves... who in turn become Greph-like in their thinking and demeanours. But the last time the BLACK PYRAMID landed, a bunch of angry medieval dudes stormed the thing, blew it up, and captured a bunch of greph... who became the breeding stock for a whole new human world of slave labour. By the time we meet this planet, the two rival lords of the human-populated regions have been breeding greph slave warriors, or "dragons", for generations, for combat against one another. But soon, the black pyramid will return...

I love this book I even spent a good few months during covid talking with the Vance Estate and several publishers about developing it into a graphic novel, but nobody could quite agree on how it could get made with old Simon getting a paycheque... so sadly it fell apart. There are concept drawings floating around my patreon and other corners of the internet. But one day I'll use 'em...

My other favorite books of his, to name a couple of the MANY books of his I love:

THE BLUE WORLD: A caste system of humans, descended from a crashed prison ship, live on floating settlements on an ocean planet, paying protection to a giant long-lived intelligent crustacean. But one man is tired of giving up all his crops to this tyrannical megafauna...

THE MIRACLE WORKERS: Rival lords on a planet descended to medieval tech (surprise surprise) fight using armies... and rival SORCERORS who employ the powers of suggestion to voodoo each others' warriors... but when facing non-human intelligences, these sorceror's skills fall short.

But there are heaps more, and I love most (thought not all) of the ones i've read. They're generally short, concise, and full of all sorts of bizarre bullshit.

THere are more books i've read and enjoyed in my life, of course, but these are the core ones that I think of when I think of my career as a sci-fi reader... let me know what your top recs are!

#sciencefiction #science fiction #book recommendations #jack vance #larry niven #jerry pournelle #simon roy #griz grobus #charles stross #dragon masters #william gibson #bruce sterling

[ramshacklefey]

No but serious. Dungeons & Dragons is one of the least flexible systems out there. So whenever I hear someone asking, "Why can't I do X in DnD?" or "How would I do (thing that the system is totally ill-suited for)?" my first response is just "GURPS."

For those of you who aren't familiar, GURPS stands for "Generic Universal Role Playing System." I always say it's like the Linux of ttrpgs, in the sense that it's less a system and more a framework that you can use to do whatever you want with.

And I really do mean whatever you want. You want high fantasy? Done. You want gritty realism in a dystopian world? Got it. You want superheroes? Good to go. Super tech space opera? Oh boy we got you there. You want magic systems that aren't based on spell lists? Go for it. Horror games where character death is a constant and very real threat? Sure thing.

You can set up your game to be anything from a complex data driven grinder to a cinematic rules basically optional flight of fancy.

You can play characters who are anywhere from realistically squishy humans to god-like super beings.

Characters personal flaws and strengths can have a direct impact on mechanics. Character species can have a direct and serious impact on mechanics.

The existence of so many options can make GURPS seem overwhelming at first glance, but if you are willing to put in a bit of effort, it's actually a very simple system to play. Most of the hard work is front-loaded into setting and character creation. Once play starts it runs as smooth as can be.

It's totally possible to play it with just the two core books, BUT there are dozens of books that are nothing but tips and advice for how to build a particular type of world or a particular flavor of campaign.

And the books, while not nearly as pretty as DnD books, are laid out in a way that makes it incredibly easy to find exactly the information you want.

Some more mechanical things that I particularly like about it (under the cut):

Characters are created on a point-buy system, but you don't just buy your basic stats, you also buy your skills, advantages, and secondary stats. And you can gain points back by dropping stats below average or taking disadvantages.

The advantage/disadvantage system. This is sorta the core of the character building, and it is *so* much fun. See, rather than pick out a class or species, you have a list (selected by your GM from a much larger list) of things you can buy that will have mechanical impacts on you in the game. Basically, an advantage is anything that opens up more possibilities for you in-game, and a disadvantage is anything that closes off possibilities. They can be superpowers, species traits, cinematic plot armor, personality traits, or things like chronic illness, bad temper, physical or mental disabilities, or being doomed by the narrative.

Simple dice system. To play a GURPS campaign you need three d6. That's it. All checks and saves are done by rolling 3d6 (low rolls are better than high). This has an additional advantage over the d20 system in that there is a probability curve. You're more likely to roll numbers in the mid-range, which makes both critical successes and critical failures rarer, and therefore more satisfying.

Your target roll is adjusted, rather than adding/subtracting from the roll itself. Say you're trying to, idk, hack a computer. Your skill level doesn't affect your dice roll, it affects the number you need to roll in order to succeed. This makes things a lot simpler on the player's end, imo, because there's less they need to keep track of. (You're trying to roll under the skill check, so whatever the base difficulty is, the GM just adds or subtracts your skill level from that).

The basic stats are on a much tighter scale, and they make a lot more sense. Human average is a 10 in everything. When you make your character you can buy higher stats or take lower ones and get more points to spend on other things. All stats cap out at 18, because that's the highest number you can roll. At a 10 strength you are a normal person. At 18 you're basically Superman. You'd have to roll a critical failure not to succeed in a strength check, and remember: critical failures are far less common than in a d20 system.

I could keep going ad infitum here, but instead I'll just close with:

Come with me boy, play my games! We'll have cowboy times in space!

#gurps #ttrpg #i will shill for this game at every opportunity

[svtskneecaps]

the fact that it is basically impossible to debate at this debate makes it feel to me like yeah, the federation doesn't give a shit about the process. they're like fuck your debates all of this is a farce good luck <3

#qsmp #i'm trying super hard not to be annoyed bc to be fair it's funny #but i keep getting excited for people to actually make good points and disagree intellectually #and then they get interrupted. #like etoiles gearing up to discuss the codes and then he's interrupted and can't finish #it kills me inside #at least i'm watching antoine so periodically he starts shittalking or soundboarding with max #sometimes i hear baghera giggle at them too (like when antoine was like 'foreverrrr pleaseeee buy a microphone') #and when he glances back to check in on leo and pomme #the only saving grace #anyway yea thank god bad isn't here i feel like he would Not be having a fun time #shut up vic #block game brainrot

[cheriafreya]

being a broke ass gamer is driving me 😀 C-R-A-Z-Y 😀

#personal // #I don't usually post personal rants but my god #FOMO's been hitting so hard lately #like everytime there are many AMAZING games releasing in a short span I get so upset #because I feel like everyone can afford having all these consoles. all those games #and then there's people like me who can't afford shit #maybe 1 game on launch day in a year #a whole ass year #the rest of the games we play are super cheap games we get on sale #*or* emulated games #I know this sounds like I'm being a whiny mf but being this broke is very disheartening #and it not only affects my hobby but also every aspect of my life as a whole #not being able to go out and have dinner with others #not being able to travel #to step outside #to buy cool gifts #it's so depressing #money does buy happiness #fuck anyone who says otherwise #and thank god we have good healthcare in Spain #or else I wouldn't be able to afford that either #I'm tired. that's all. #estoy loco. locolocolocoloco #I'm also still living with my parents despite my age #so nice.

[wereh0gz]

I'm gonna be honest I'm so tempted to just look up a playthrough or cutscene comp of final horizon and unblock the tags bc I really don't want to keep playing it lmao

#ramblings #the difficulty spikes. why #i'm still baffled at how difficult it is even on easy mode like. the main game was nothing like this #and like the platforming challenges and stuff don't feel well designed #like idk that much abt level design but they platforming stuff usually feels more like those super hard levels ppl mod into games like ahit #if feels almost unfair at points #like the towers i feel i can only do in easy mode with all the balloons i can homing attack #otherwise they'd just be straight up impossible #AND THE FUCKING BOSS RUSH? WHERE YOU CAN'T GET ANY RINGS? AND RINGS DON'T REFILL BETWEEN BOSSES? #AND YOU HAVE TO START OVER FROM THE VERY BEGINNING WHEN YOU DIE? #like what were they thinking like actually #OH and i forgot to mention the controls. god the controls are just not good #they really need to fix them before even considering adding more playable characters in future games #idk it somehow feels just as rushed if not more than the base game #and the difficulty is just unfair #it's very disappointing but i'm also invested in the story and wanna know what changes they made to the actual ending #so idk. maybe i'll spoil it for myself. maybe i'll push through the bullshit. probably the former #i was looking forward to this so much too. sigh #sonic frontiers spoilers

[reformedmercymain]

Flats talks about the hitboxes in this vid and even though I’m very salty about it still (nothing will fully change that I think) he does bring up the point that players with higher skill will still be benefitting more because of it too since it’s not like you’re infallible due to your rank. All it does is make the game easier for people who struggle with less mechanical skill. I still believe it needs to be tuned for some individual character projectiles though bc they’re downright devious (mercy, hanzo, even though I love her dearly I think widow needs it to counteract how fucking busted she is in the hands of good players rn, etc)

Also I hadn’t even noticed the common thread of how much impact discord orbs have had on the game since this patch until I watched this vid yesterday and once he did all of my games have retroactively made so much sense with which games were harder and which were seemingly easy

Season 9 is the season of dps supremacy. And also zen supremacy. Zen mains rejoice for the first time in ages!

#the funniest thing he asks is when your friends who quit overwatch and say it was a terrible game #if they were just bad at the game LOL #and like. I guess so. the change does help make it feel more fair to people who aren’t good I think #c talks #a lot of the vitriol of people who left just weren’t good at the game #he made the point I make a lot: when shroud played. notorious actual god gamer shroud. he only got diamond #because overwatch isn’t just mechanical skill or gamesense. to be ‘great’ you need both #and so people who aren’t mega invested wouldn’t want to spend their time improving in a game that’s super hard #(esp in one where the devs continually fail to do shit. not always their fault but jfc sometimes it is lol) #Youtube

[l4zyb0n3s]

just finished the re3 remake in like . 5 hours. so short ?? my first playthroughs of like all the other resident evils were like double that .

#good game but it was very short and its super linear so I don't think im going to replay it much #at least not one playthrough after another #and like the backtracking doesnt feel as rewarding as in re2r #like when id get a code to a new thing id be like “woohoo thank god a little treat for me” because id always have like 2 ammo and some lint #but in three i felt like i had a ton of stuff all the time #like theres no need to conserve either #maybe it was just because i was 1. bad at shooters when I played 2 initially and 2. was playing 2 on an awful computer so combat was hard #but i dont think i was particularly playing great at 3 either so bleh #this is a not even quarter baked opinion im just rambling qnd getting my thoughts out #b0n3s b4bbl3s

[gender-euphowrya]

is the new detective pikachu genuinely awful or are people saying it's bad because it's a spin-off

#real question btw i don't know anything about it other than the divorce thing #like. i liked the first game gkfjfkd it wasn't super good or anything but it was alright #sure the story is. odd i'd say and it's basically discount phoenix wright with pokmans but #nothing awful #people are acting like the new one is absolute trash garbâge though kgjfkdkd #edit Okay i watched a playthrough of it. it's BAD lmao #like the puzzles are bad the plot is full of holes the twist ending is predictable the dialogue is Oh God #it's formulaic as hell fjdjjd and just. i can't get over the twist ending because like #they try soooo so hard to make it sound like a Shocking Revelation but #a) it was already strongly hinted at in the first game b) ITS LITERALLY THE SAME AS IN THE MOVIE #you're supposed to go :O pikachu was tim's DAD??? when like. since day fucking one he has the same voice actor #and Every Single Thing points to it being the case it's just. it's never been hard to figure out #anyway yeah it's. oof. it's not good

[danceintheskies]

darkest dungeon is sooooo fun I'm so bad at it but it's so fun

#RIPS OPEN SHIRT TO REVEAL INNER SHIRT THAT READS 'I ❤️ TURN BASED BATTLE SYSTEMS THAT AREN'T REAL TIME BASED' #i didn't think I'd enjoy it just because. the rotting and decaying vibe is usually not my thing. but it's played up so much in this game #that it's kindof hilarious #i have like no money all the time all my characters hit for jack and shit damage i had three bad bitches die already but im havingthe tim #e of my life #shout out to the plague doctor bitch who started out with a simultaneous god complex and extreme self loathing #and had a penalty to ranged attacks despite being in a fully ranged class #who lasted all of two excursions before getting a heart attack and dying of stress. she was so iconic. #but yeah i love strategizing and thinking things through. the game is hard-- there are a lot of moving parts to keep track of #but bc it's turn based you can kinda keep track of them and strategize at your own pace #so basically it never feels fully unfair. and even if you eat shit and TPK it's not the end of the world #aside from the plague doctor who blew up and acted likw she didn't know nobody my favourite classes so far have been #the paladin and the cleric. also i got the dlc and the shieldbuster(?) class is crazy good #my posts #OH also i love the class thats just a guy and his dog. #not much damage without setup but being able to take hits in place of a beat up ally while having a super dodge status is so fun

[pcktknife]

i got ei but i dont play genshin what is she like

depressed like so soooo depressed

#shes pretty complex and probably is one of the if not The best written character currently in the game #like people were upset with inazumas storyline but when eis second quest came out multiple ppl were like 'oh this might saved this arc' #shes not really a good person but she isnt totally bad either #how to sum her up #lost p much all her loved ones (one of which died by her hand others possibly preventable) bc of that she locked herself in her mindscape #isolated herself and built a puppet stand in of herself to run her country to make sure it never changed (keep it the same for an eternity) #and like any threat to eternity gets eliminated thrown in jail vision stolen etc etc her ppl love her but like her fear of change is bad #really bad for everyone #like the country is shut down no one in no one out theres people being displaced theres a war its alot and its all cause ei cant really #move on i think yae and ei herself even says she was being selfish and childish to an extent #you eventually go into the mindscape and yae (pink fox lady probably eis last living non human friend actually) shows up like bitch get up! #youre lonely this isnt healthy girl!!! and eis like damn youre right im still not ready to move on so i think i need to reflect on shit wow #her first quest was her seeing how her country changed and getting out of her head for a bit second quest was her actually facing the #trauma she experienced from all her loss and also fighting her puppet replacement to get it to chill out w the whole eternity thing and #reuniting with her dead sister for one last time it was actually like super beautiful almost cried #i said id give u a summary and just gave u the whole story sorry shes just like a super compelling character 💀 #genshin fandom had probably still has a hard time understanding her as a character cause shes not textbook evil woman #people often hate her or glorify her but i feel you wont understand her if your too far on either side of those #tldr: shes complicated a traumatized woman who made poor choices because of it and shes not perfect a bit far from it but shes trying to.. #get better and be better for the sake of the people she'd been hurting and being kind of a shitty god to #also shes gay but thats neither here nor there #asks #anon #lucky you getting the genshin character i apparently seem to know the most about #i was going to bed and you activated my brainworms 😭

[todayisafridaynight]

Same same same I was literally thinking of what RGG characters' zOMG! loadouts might look like earlier today help😭But I too was playing zOMG! on a horrid PC with a horrid connection... had to zoom out so far to get some slightly better performance from Flash that chat was nearly unusable...

I'm not totally sure I ever got to play the endgame areas like SS and DMS (definitely didn't get to finish DMS, it was just me and the besties + it's a reeeally long run), but those were some wonderful memories! My blorbo apparently lives in Deadman's Pass and it was a lot of fun crawling every inch of the map and coming up with headcanons and stuff. Sawmill was unusually un-performant though for sure, for how small the area is.

My friend group and I dropped it on account of the NFT investments and general downward trend, but sometimes... sometimes it calls to me...

my whole in-and-out bit with gaia is that sometimes i'd just feel too awkward to try and actually talk to anyone in the towns, so i'd just leave the site alone for a while until i felt brave enough to open it back up or i just really wanted to play zOMG (legit it had no business being as fun as it was)

i checked the creation date of my account and my sis actually made it when i was 8 ☠️☠️ but on that note i remember she wanted me to make an account so we could play zOMG together specifically but honestly i can only remember us playing a handful of times before we just played on our own

#snap chats #MEANT TO REPLY SOONER BUT I WAS FUCKIN AROUND WITH MY AVI LMAO #i had so much stuff i didnt even realize i had... also the capsule rewards are a lot Better ??? #i remember you used to get like. bland clothes or like a spool of thread but now you get actual neat shit #but oh my god no i remember in deadmans pass (the base game was DMP the new one was DMS OOPSIE) #i would just hang out in that little cemetary bit and be emo as shit 😭😭☠️☠️ #AND I REMEMBER I WAS SUPER OBSESSED WITH THE 'I Am' ITEMS #SO I WAS JUST SITTING THERE AS THIS LITTLE CAT WITH THE SCARF LIKE BRO WHY WERE YOU SO MOODY YOU WERE 8 #god bring zOMG back let me be moody there now that i have actual things to be moody about #the shallow sea was such a good map but it was also long as fuck- it was undoubtedly the longest one #i dont think i ever even actually beat it ? like THATS how long and hard it was #i mightve come close with a group once but man that was so long ago idk #ok but help rgg charas + gaia like #like PLEASE i joke bout daigo making haruka a gaia account solely because of MY childhood 😭😭☠️☠️☠️ #UGH...nostalgia you asshole... im lying gaia was fun back then and if flash was still around it'd still be fun to me now #like thats the real kick in the dick if 90% of the playerbase was gone but the worlds were still there #then i could at least hit up friends and we could just muck about there but naw... its ALL gone..... #i remember walking around the towns at least one more time back innnn 2020?? right before flash shut down?? #it was all barren as hell but it was a fun lil trip while it lasted #GOD. yeah i love gaia... biggest surprise to find you also played it but i wont complain ty for chattin bout it with me.. #i always feel insane when i remember gaia cause it feels like no one ever knows what im talking about LMAO

[subsequentibis]

resident evil: welcome to raccoon city (2021) is good actually in this essay i will

#ignore me #sets & shots are super accurate to the game in a way that feels like a love letter #there is Good horror & tension built throughout #the casting is God Tier good #it's actually a feminist movie hard to believe of an RE thing but true. #they play i want to see the bright lights tonight which is one of my favorite songs #chris makes homoerotic comments abt wesker and the other dudes on the team say 'same' #leon is so so sad and wet but also incredibly angry and determined #birkin. that is all. #ACTUALLY not happy that annette birkin gets sidelined and ada is only in the postcredits scene #BUT happy that her new VA plays her that was fun YAY #i thought it was gonna suck and it was good! #big win for the ibis & jay

[astrxealis]

taking funny little gposes with my wol and raha makes my little heart swell in a funny nice way ... >_<

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #okay im better now HELP okay i no longer have the urge to avoid tumblr w every fiber of my being but i think the underlying feelings i have #are Still There but also i get over things quickly ... i forgot that ... but also my mind is still a mess. but ANYWAYS #okay so i wont say explicitly what ive been up to since. yesterday. BUT BUT BUT BUT okay #I RESPECT POSERS SO MUCH i tried to do w aymeric and his hands look BROKEN his arms look like theyr ein SHAMBLES #and i have the sudden urge to play dragon age origins but i need to do homework and i forgor my ffxiv game is still running and i havent #showered yet oh god i am a Mess (hashtag undiagnosed neurodivgernetn detncieisioo7!!!!!) #anyways uh back on topic (another 30 tag ramble /hj). posing is hard #i took funny lil cute pics of my wol w her wifeyboy tia and ARGGHDJFJEJDP ADJUSTING IT WAS A PAIN #i saved the adjustments at the end when i was done AND ONLY FOR RAHA and i remembered right after leaving i forgot to do for my babygirl cat #the wol i mean. raha is also babygirl cat #ANYWAYS. oh its 11 pm i meant to continue with hw 30 minutes ago and i have class tomorrow #anyways good news I ALWAYS SLEEP BEFORE 3 okay thats a lie but i havent slept past 4 in ages and my average is healthy #uh. homework. i have to get to homework. oh god bye #look im not THAT super busy bcs ive finished a few for this week but its still 9 (basically... 8 actually. 7. 8. okay 8) #and i have like 4 quizzes this week! uhhh thank god we still dont have sem or quarterly tests haha bless my school #but im going to take upcat like early next year and i need to get ready for review classes idk when so AGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHGGHHHHh #okay anyways cute wol npc screenshots make me happy #and doing them for my twin too #i feel like an expert (we ignore aymeric's broken back and foot)

[cinnabeat]

i gotta say tho its so much easier to remember and process the plot of kh when youre watching just the cutscenes

#i think the fact that you play thru the game and theres so much soace between each plot point #and even that some plot points are super quick and easy to forget #or something major gets revealed and immediately after you get a fight like it doesnt give you the time to process whatever youre hearing #but just watching the cutscenes its like ohh i see now #i think playing the game and puzzling thru shit has its own charm like i like going thru the games like that it was fun if confusing #but its also good to just go back and watch the cutscenes #cuz im noticing so much shit now lmao and foreshadowing and im like oh shit thats what that meant #like that fucking scene where xemnas goes into the chamber of repose where aquas armour is #and when xigbar is subtly infodumping to zexion about ven and the chamber of waking and castle oblivion #which fucking wild that he knows that lmao #but when i was watching that again i was like oh my fucking god #michi tag #like most times its rrally hard for me to remember plot points if i binge shit #but with kh i think once u play it and then binge it after a while its like things stick better #or something idk its really fucking cold rn #anyways kh2 my beloved you made things so much more complicated and i was so not ready for that <3

[princekirijo]

Never thought I'd say this but Elden Ring is fast becoming one of my favorite games ever

#i fucking love it #do i get my ass kicked repeatedly? yes #is it still so fun and satisfying? absolutely yes #honestly once you get the combat system down the game isnt super hard #its just getting it right is the problem 💀 #but like the visuals and the LORE bro the lore i am eating it up #its so vague and they give you lil tidbits and i just eat that up #it reminds me of zelda tbh the way it doesn't always explain everything #but zelda does explain more #it will never top the likes of p3 or some zelda games but god i am falling in love with the game #i want to check out the other souls games now #honestly my fav part is the character customization 💀 its good #im finally in the first 'main dungeon' now and im really excited #its so big and imposing #also the fact that ive gone into it almost completely spoiler free is amazing i only know little bits and pieces

[bignutspatrol]

ive been picking apart my brain for like an hour now and i came to the funniest fucking realization: ive been tempted lately to make bombs for the thrill of it (no actual reason to use them for the record. i am not going to make bombs. I am not going to use bombs. etc.) because. my mentally ill ass has been less mentally ill and I'm not used to my emotions not being super fucked up and everywhere constantly

#personnel files #i can be a manic pixie girl even when im NOT being super mentally ill #apparently #anyways does anyone have some healthy thrilling thigns to do. that dont involve explosives. #maybe i should get a bbgun and go nuts or something #though trying to recover my bbs after shooting them in my forest. ew. bad. forest would be mad if i missed one. #no wonder all of my impulses lately have been so extreme lol #worst part of getting better: its not fuckign fun. its so not fucking fun. not just because 'oh its hard' but because its just fuckign bori #like yes it was so awful before. but also oh my god? that emotional rollercoaster.... ohoho..oho. hoho. #RIP my dopamine receptors. ive started fucking doing 5 things at once just to feel Mild satisfaction... #podcast/video + game 1 + game 2 + game 3 + chat #im not even good when multitasking like this. my rank is so far down. it is so bad.