#this applies to myself too btw

[ravinoforre]

Michael and Leaf Pokemon but they've suddenly been isekai'd to Sylvarant oops

The template @frayed-symphony, @ciryze and I collectively put together.

...also uh 👉👈

there's this

#the stats aren't super specific tbh #i just kinda based them off of Genis and Colette from my various saves at that point and just tweaking where i felt like it #and i know this template was more or less made for ToS OCs but since i don't have any... #...and uh.. may as well admit that this specific scenario is something i've thought about for well over a decade by this point... #uuagh just allow me to indulge in my bullshit for a moment #this applies to myself too btw #like it's perfectly ok to do stuff like this right #so why does *this* feel scarier than me posting any other kind of art? #whatever don't think about it #it's there now and it was fun to make and it took far too long to not dump it /somewhere/ for the public to gawk at #still too nervous to put this on my twitter right now though god fuck #maybe after a sleep i'm exhausted #ok proper tags time #trainer michael #trainer leaf #pokemon xd #pokemon frlg #tales of symphonia #ravinoforre

[starspoiler]

ive missed aplomb every day since we saw her last...

#georgenotfound #my art #caption applies to george too. btw #i went to build a bear and saw the mudkip and literally couldn't stop myself from purchasing it #that motivated me to finish these doodles from december #while drawing i remembered george saying he had a vest with pokemon badges on the inside as a kid and almost cried

[lesbianwithchainsaws]

You can think about Troy and Abed from Community.

But watch out!

#they will enter your brain and never leave #tbh this could be applied to everyone in Community but it seems troy and abed especially have a grip on everyone #annie too #community #nbc community #trobed #troy barnes #abed nadir #btw i include myself when i say everyone #if that wasnt clear

[mintypsii]

me gaslighting myself into thinking that what i just found out was a silly little joke everytime i get a spoiler

#this is about one piece btw #this applied to tpn too actually #got The Norman Spoiler #almost died #JUST GOT A TIMESKIP SPOILER IM. GONNA KMS #also got the ace dies spoiler wowwwwww #and also a sabo spoiler <3 #AND the jimbei joining the crew spoiler <3 killing myself < #3 #that was supposed to be a <3 but im not going back to fix the tag bye #uhhhh what else #actually id gotten a spoiler for every single crew member. none of them have been a surprise for me #UGHHHHHHH THIS IS MY FAULT #WHY DO I ALWAYS SCROLL IN THE OP TAG DESPITE KNOWING ILL GET SPOILED #kill me rn #im so mad rn #i was just about to start marineford too. i did not need that timeskip spoiler bro #IM SO ANNOYEDDDDDDDDD #i can never win #my rambles #OH. AND I GOT THE 1B BOUNTY SPOILER TOO #AND THE YONKO ONES #UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH #OH YEAH AND THE SANJI BEING A MODIFIED HUMAN (?) OR SOME SHIT #BRUHHHHHHHH #please. let me live #if i get one more spoiler itll fr be my last and final straw

[pepprs]

i cannot express enough how damaging it is mentally and emotionally that i still live here 🤣

#purrs #the way everything is ALWAYS my fault! the way that my parents are gods who can never make any mistake or admit to wrongdoing and everything #they ever do is justified but then when i (a fully grown adult) also try to explain when i didn’t do anything wrong or when it’s not #actually my fault it doesn’t apply lol. the way i am asking for permission for things THEY SHOUKD BE ASKING ***ME*** for permission for LOL #the way i found out only recently (yeah.) that im still legally / financially a dependent 😍😍😍😍😍😍 awesome. lolololol. the way i can’t get out #of the quicksand until i get out of the quicksand but in order to get out of the quicksand i have to be able to get out of the quicksand 😻🙏🏻 #delete later #btw i just finished my first homework assignment ive had to do in a year and 3 months and my first class is in 15 hours. what if i *** rn. #also ​it occurred to me the other day like. i have always thought of myself as selfish and imparient but also… these were things my parents #were telling me i was / treating me like i was as young as 3-4 years old as evidenced by the video tapes. and like. what if that’s not #actually how i was / am and everything i did and needed and do and need was valid and justified and what if all the bad things i believe(d) #about myself were / are because they told me that’s who i was and i was too little to know they were wrong. 🤯🤯🤯🤯🤯

[layalu]

Hate how i got into the habit of (objectively!) criticising/pointing out flaws with my work to compensate being overpraised as The Gifted Kid TM & how it makes me sound like i'm being self deprecating

#its such a hard habit to get rid of #tbf its true im not the best at taking compliments but mostly im just. allergic to praise i dont deserve and/or that singles me out #and it comes up every now and then w irl ppl how i am supposedly constantly talking myself down #even though among my artist friends i am doing that the least amount! #like. guys. there is a difference between not giving myself credit and acknowledging flaws #bc belive it or not i can do that without feeling shit about myself! #and half the time im not even talking abt myself im talking abt others? #cus i hate when people talk themselves down and i will often chime in to say what i think theyre good at #and bc *they* start comparing themselves to me i will then counter with what they are better at than me #or that yeah maybe xy about mine is better but ive also got a lot more practice #and idk i genuinely dont belive that is being self deprecating??? #if anything you acting like im a prodigy or sth is devaluing the time and effort i put in to hone a skill #which btw being able to feel ok about my skillset including the goods and bads is also a skill i had to learn! #idk. #lay rambles #sorry for the rant this is just sth i get frustrated about way too often #this doesnt just apply to art but thats where it comes up the most #actually im not done sorry #this specifically was in the context that we got a project graded and the teacher graded us by comparing projects #(which is questionable in itself but i digress) #& then when it came to me i argued that the person he compared me to deserved a better grade and then listed a bunch of reasons #bc she visibly put in more effort and had included things i hadnt and i thought the grade was unfair #and i never once said i thought mine was bad or didnt deserve the grade! but i know i did not put much effort into it and that this showed #and yes it still turned out visually nice; i got pretty good at getting the most out of the least effort possible #and i acknowledge that this is also a skill! #but also pointing out the very visible differences in quality and effort is not? self deprecating?? or am i missing something??? #and then had 4 ppl calling me out later for talking down my own project smh #like guys at this point youre just projecting #ik im grumbling abt this way more than warranted lol but a lil venting never hurts

[dandyshucks]

sorry i keep seeing posts abt this and its making me laugh a little to think about because. i really hope ppl are not looking at my blog that gets <5 notes per text/art post usually and thinking "oh no they must be so sad that theyre getting ignored :("

i am just frolicking in a field of dandelions and daisies over here and occasionally a little butterfly floats past and lands on me (someone likes/reblogs a post of mine) and it makes me happy but i never expect it. and now i wonder if theres ppl watching me frolic and looking at me with big sad eyes and shaking their heads going "oh no... that poor lonely soul... they must be so sad they're not getting more butterflies in their field..."

i promise you that i am having a grand old time over here HFDSGJKL i am quite honestly happy as a clam with what i've got. in fact sometimes i almost wish i could have a smaller following and i only have 50ish followers at the moment, some of which have gone inactive already HFDSHGDJKL like do i enjoy the attention that i get sometimes? yeah of course, it's great, it feels good, it's cool that other ppl are interested in what i post enough to give it a like or occasionally a reblog. but i'm never expecting it or looking for it fdsjkl, it's genuinely just a bonus to me !!!

(i do however enjoy reblogging other ppls stuff and want to do that more, i just have ... Le Maladie Chronique HFDSJKL. WAIT HOLY SHIT YALL I JUST GOOGLED THE ENGLISH TO FRENCH TRANSLATION OUT OF CURIOSITY TO SEE WHAT IT ACTUALLY IS AND I GOT IT RIGHT. I WAS JOKING. THAT WAS A JOKE. I MADE THAT TRANSLATION UP WHEN I TYPED THAT OUT AS A JOKE. OH MY GOD HELP. me when i guess french correctly just off the cuff holy shit HFDSJKL the only thing i got wrong is it's a feminine word/phrase/label/whatever and not a masculine so it'd be "la" and not "le" but if i'd been actually seriously attempting a translation i would've guessed that bc it follows the same pattern as other feminine words in french LOL)

#BUT ANYWAYS LMAO. i've been doing this on my own for 15 some odd years #only just last year did i realize oh wait theres other ppl who do this too and i can make a blog for it yay ! #and now its like a little scrapbook for me to fill up :] if other ppl enjoy the scrapbook great! if they dont care though thats fine! #this only applies to me btw im not gonna cast judgement either way on anybody else fjsdkl its not my place to do that! #nor am i interested in judging other ppl for this lol social media is used by different ppl in different ways for different reasons etc etc #i just wanted to explain that nobody has to like. worry about giving me notes or attention LOL #and if i start feeling discouraged bc im not getting as many notes as other ppl then it tells me i need to step back and figure my shit out #bc that is not a healthy mindset for ME personally. i am doing this for myself first and foremost. anything else is just a bonus #(now when it comes to my OCs and stories .... well thats a different story sometimes HFDSJGKL but thats separate from this!) #dandy.cmd

[slingbees]

That "I'm probably nonbinary but I have a job so I don't rly care abt that rn" except it's about being asexual and I'm unemployed, so a completely different statement actually

#too busy listening to one song while badly whistling another one to think abt applying sexuality to myself sorry #cartoons don't count those aren't real I'm not involved in that process #This isn't new information to me btw I've just been feeling weird abt it lately

[toastsnaffler]

finished inscryption earlier (won't spoil dw but good game!) + started typing a draft review + the only criticism I had was that I wished act 1 was longer/tougher bc it's the strongest part of the game + the most fun to play + then as soon as I reloaded the save I discovered completing it unlocks kaycees mod which is basically exactly that so. zero complaints cheers devs 🫡

#yayy extra achievements to unlock... just for meee :3 #idk if ill get thru all the difficulty levels bc im not typically a strategy gamer so its fuckin HARD but rly good fun.. #esp bc my gameplay improved so much over act2+3 so its nice to come back to the format of act1 and apply all that #i got to leshy stage 2 on the 1st mod level and then fucked up.. i like that it tells u how many misplays u made thats rly funny (13 btw) #also after finishing inscryption my average steam achievements hit 80% again so I can start a new game if I want. slay #<- arbitrary rule I have to encourage myself not to leave games unfinished/not to play too many games concurrently #but i cant start a new rogue cuz i still have enter the gungeon hanging.. considering FINALLY starting bg3 hmmm.. #maybe if I'm super productive tmr morning w job apps I'll let myself as a treat.. cuz then I have the whole weekend too.. #aaaanyway #.diaries

[devondespresso]

best skill ive developed is being able to look at posts that were probably supposed to be romantic and just enjoy them as platonic chemistry. most things short of kissing can be completely platonic and i get to appreciate their natural chemistry without thinking about how i don't see a romantic relationship working for them

#this isn't a specific ship btw its all of them #im aroace and i don't see enough appreciation of the friendships when the ship is more popular so im diying it #shipping us great btw this isnt anti shipping you guys have fun #im teaching myself to appreciate them without it being romantic bc i spent my life thinking romance was inherently closer than friendships #and this applies to ships i like as romantic too

[blondiest]

have begun to respond to "how's work?" with "please don't ask me that" again of late. good sign

#it's pretty much just my mother that does this lmfao #james and i straight up do not discuss work unless i am raving angry almost in tears over smthn #this doesn't apply to like. anyone here btw. and i still love to complain about work but if i do it out loud #i bum myself out too much #blondiepost

[artstarmi]

Hey, do you do art trades? If so, can we do one? Please and thank you.

Hello Hello! I do!! :D i am always open for a quick art trade

Feel free to message me here or on my Instagram so we can discuss more details ^^ ♡︎

#starmi talks #ya girl is always down for an art trade #they are so fun to do #art trade #ask #this applies to everyone btw!! #I cant accept too many or I’ll drive myself crazy but !!!

[noxtivagus]

woah i. wrote a lot.

#to me friend ^^ yk the. that one. i ended up writing several paragraphs . I'M RLLY GLAD W MYSELF WAHHH 😭😭 #there's sm i don't know yet though but i managed to. say at least a lot of what i've been meaning to say for a long time #i think i managed it maturely !!!! i reached out i'm so happy. #i want the best for my friend. n. yeah there's so much communication lacking but for now i think she needs space for herself #hopefully. sometime when all four of us r free we can. be direct w each other? yeah. #i'm. actually. mostly proud of how i'm handling this. hdfkajsdkfl wish i cld do so much more but.. #yeah. this isn't enough. but i've taken a step at least. know i cld still do better but. #there's. rlly a lot i want to say. but. i think when we're all not quite as busy i'll try to yk. set a time where we can all talk #irl hopefully. hdjafsldf i rlly hope my words reached out to her tho :c #wish i cld still do more but i have my limits too n though i rlly try my best to be kind bcs i really mean it unconditionally #i have my boundaries. #i can't emphasize enough just how important it is to be able to do things for your own self so you can apply it to the rest of the world. #so.. i'll. say it outright here. i can't handle this on my own. all four of us have to put effort in it. #so. this seems a bit clearer at least. thankfully. aghhh i wrote a lot but i want to comfort her more directly too #i want to do. so much for each person in life i think i need to set more boundaries for myself or i'll get overwhelmed #n then it's not like every friendship has to have everything yk? but. #hdjaflsdfs no bcs for this. specifically rn. i care a lot for her she's one of my best friends after all n. for nearly 7 years #i know at least one of the things i rlly need in those sort of close friendships is. yk we can open up to each other n be honest #being honest at least. when it comes to venting i know i can just do that more on social media or. online friends #like when i say online friends btw 😭 i basically consider them irl friends n i value them very very much but #for the sake of. yk. we don't know each other irl irl so just difference in label. not the value n meaning it has for me. #so. yeah w ^^ we don't rlly share similar beliefs n views which is honestly pretty draining for me #so at the very least. hopefully sometime this/next month we can at least be direct abt that? to communicate so we can understand #i can understand ppl well enough like. uh. i'm good at piecing things tgther but there's so much gaps without direct communication #i can't guess all the time. but yk one thing abt myself that i'm. at least happy w is that. yk. i. can open up when needed #okay like it's hard when i have to do it directly to another person for my own sake but in this context w my friend. yes i can. 👍 #that said though oh dear other than this. friend stuff rn there's also more i'm worried abt bcs. school. assignments. yeah #which i'll be able to do but i'm still a bit. stressed. n then for prom 10 per table but we're only 9 n we're all stags 😭😭 #wanted at least to have my ^^ friend w me bcs. despite these stuff yk we're still friends :c but she's going w a partner yeah #n then there's more personal stuff too.. there's. a lot. too much to write. but i'll manage.

[lo11as]

nothing like an hour long yoga class to still feel like you want to take a lighter to a safety pin to your thigh :)

but hey i'm starting a new job tonight, surely that will cure me

#i HATE working for the white man on friday nights #i'm white btw but still it's the principle #or like ‟white‟. i have a complicated relationship with the concept as people like me haven't been considered white until quite recently #well half the other half is scotts irish and my dad and brother fry in the sun for it lmao. they're both pos misogynist assholes though so #i got the darker features (my brother is a blue eyed blonde vs my hair is dark brown and i have green eyes) and there's some colorism in th #family unit too but i seldom get clocked for being ashkenazi when i'm out and about (and my hair's up and i'm not talking.....) #as long as no one makes me eat pig i'm gonna pretend that i'm not betraying my ancestors for capitalism #as if we're not all back in kemet in that old story #you know slaves in egypt were given food housing and a small wage? #fuck dude my laptop broke and i need a car what the fuck am i supposed to do here i have no other recourse #i sold my (other side's) grandmother's jewelry to buy some recording tech so i feel like not taking action there is a greater betrayal #i'm still figuring it all out #i think i will make myself some coffee and pancakes and then roll a cig with some shatter in it #at the very least i'll have money for actual weed soon #time is fake anyway and i need this stupid goddamn bag #there's small chance i can escape this mundane bullshit through a program i applied to but i fear i will be looked over as i am strange #and not strange people are terrified of strange people for some reason #i'm rambling now to procrastinate eating something i'll go do that now byeeeee

[imaginarypasta]

completely changing my stance on spoilers (hyperbole) because fundamentally i’m not a person that is bothered by spoilers in appropriate contexts i think & there are many flavors of spoilers that are imo permissible (respecting ofc that some ppl hate them im talking about receiving spoilers) & i think the text should stand on its own. but there are situations where people are so cavalier about deeply relevant reveals/twists/whatever, that are quite… disrespectful to the work.

like say you have this narrative where you spend the whole time thinking one thing but then something happens where it’s revealed the information you’ve been getting the whole time is wrong in some way and now that you know it, you can never go back, but having that change in perspective *and* having that initial reading (or whatever) experience was quintessential to the themes/narrative/etc (especially themes in this case). like i don’t think that should be spoiled (unless someone is like. asking. or you’re having a specific public conversation abt it and they like overhear or something but can leave. like that sucks but it’s also like. what can you do) and the act of spoiling those things just misses? doesn’t care? for the mechanical aspect of the reveal & what it does retroactively, practically, and for any future readings.

and like i get it i’m sure i’ve spoiled things like this for people by accident bc it’s not like i ever tag spoilers for stuff when im ranting to the void about whatever on here. but the specific context for this situation was advertising a book in a comments section of a post not about the book. and the recommendation itself was based on this super important reveal and it just so happened to be a book that i am in the middle of so it sucks

and i think most people are good about acknowledging/recognizing these moments. i say often “i’m not bothered by spoilers” but im also used to hearing (and saying) “i get it but this spoiler greatly impacts your experience. it’s relevant that you already have opinions on something before you learn more” or something along those lines. it’s just when it occurs to me, it always happens to be something i’m super invested in and would’ve thought was like the best twist ever ever

#personal #i’m generalizing the experience because it’s happened a few times to me lately all for situations in which the initial read through being #wrong was an important mechanic while reading #just like. i know im being really dramatic about it when i don’t need to be and also probably hypocritical (i can’t think of a specific #instance but i know for a fact im very cavalier abt revealing spoilers myself. i try to avoid this in one on one conversations but im not #perfect) #i’m literally just pissed and ranting about it. i do think as a general rule this applies to what i think but it’s difficult to put into #practice so it’s like. i need to adapt it i suppose #and it’s just worse bc like. i read the comment and im like ‘well shit that maybe ruins that for me which would probably be my favorite #aspect of the book’ and turned off my phone and left it for a while. (this was my fatal mistake) #and then i go later to open my phone and someone is like ‘oh yeah i was shocked when that happened. here is the specific line btw’ and bc #i’m in the middle of the book i have enough context to understand exactly what’s going to happen #like that’s my fault for not closing out the app but like how could i know and it’s like i’m mad but at who #and it is a situation where commenting ‘spoilers for book’ would be the same as saying the spoiler itself so really i just shouldn’t have #read the comments. but am i supposed to just not do anything for as long as it takes me to read the book?? that’s completely impractical #which is why i’m so cavalier about spoilers overall bc i think the text should stand on its own even when stuff like this accidentally #happens. but if the text relies on the mechanic of ignorance and later reveal i think that’s impressive not bad #AGHHHH it’s complicated and i’m mad… #this is how i feel about the ******** remake too. taking out the reveal (paraphrasing) is… ruining the #narrative is too hardcore but is what i think #see i almost did it myself :( #and yk what it’s also about **************

[pebblesmustard]

Sometimes a nice Wednesday night is going back and forth between Carly Rae Jepsen and Hozier songs while playing sudoku and building OCs and plot points in my head 😌

#applying the grandma approach to all things life pays off sometimes #yes i'm trying to distract myself from current events a little bit why do you ask? #this sudoku book has a jigsaw version in it too btw and it took me so off guard #made my eyes cross and not in a good way either