#things i get instead: sTruGgLeS

[inthewychelm]

ive been thinking about hard of hearing steve, who started losing his hearing after starcourt, the scoops troops are the first to find out because of how attached they are, robin erica and dustin all insist on steve learning to sign but he's insecure about learning a new language so they slowly learn and start teaching him

after vecna, eddie gets adopted to their little group and starts picking up on the signs and learning on his own, still struggles to hold a conversation, esp with the likes of robin or dustin, but he atleast knows simple words and phrases enough to communicate, eddie also gets into the habit of signing ILY to steve before he leaves, except steve rarely studies asl on his own most of what he remembers is from robin/erica/dustin, who never thought to teach him that specific sign, so steve just thinks eddie is just being a metalhead throwing up a 'rock on' gesture, hes still absolutely endeared by eddie doing this but he doesn't realize that eddie saying he loves him everyday, what follows is a ridiculous amount of pining where only steve doesn't know because everyone else know what that sign means, he only finds out because after gossiping with robin(who has tried to tell steve that its reciprocated) about eddie, erica interupts their convo by telling steve that eddie tells him he loves steve everyday (that clown is so obviously in love with you, how are you still pining? you're supposed to be a expert, steve?)

(edit 07/23: this fic is now on ao3)

#she says this loudly in the middle of an empty family video eddie walks in during the middle of the argument that follows #immediately gets roasted and gets a boyfriend bc steve is not running from the chance in front of him #yes i am projecting my hearing loss onto steve deal with it #also i dont like the idea that steve hates himself for losing his hearing even if its from tramua bc it makes me feel shitty about mine #instead i like to think he leans into it like a grandpa he might never get hearing aids or maybe he does and avoids ever turning them on #but i do think he would be insecure about trying to learn a new language when he previously has shown to struggle with school #so even after eight months of learning he's still kinda learning basic signs while the other scoop troops are catching on more #hard of hearing steve is something so personal to me #stranger things #steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #hoh steve harrington #hard of hearing steve harrington #stranger things headcanons #steddie ficlet

[blaiddraws]

something I've noticed that is Very prevalent in the fandom is the assumption that All of the 10 sacred pokemon in Hisui are referred to as Nobles, which is actually Not Canon. There's the ride pokemon, but they're not Noble pokemon.

and since it's not actually canon, but rather widespread fanon, it's everywhere and completely untagged.

I'm not gonna ask people to change their headcanons or rewrite everything, that's ridiculous. but it IS technically misinformation that can be easily corrected;

therefore i propose using the "The Ride Pokemon are Considered Nobles" tag on ao3 for when one writes ride mons as nobles, at the very least

#i keep meaning to make this post but I've struggled with wording #I'm not blaming people or getting upset at people #i just like it when things have the correct information instead of fanon #like on ao3 sneasler's canonized character tag is 'lady sneasler' and that's straight up false #pla #pokemon legends arceus #particularly blatant with #submas #not art #anyway yeah. it's super easy to just go back real quick and add on that tag to fics on ao3 #I've done it myself for my oldest stuff

[queerpyracy]

no firmer reminder of being an animal than when i do some moderate physical activity and my mental health is elevated by like 1000%

#we have been Struggling to get back into our good habits guys gals and pals #i intentionally started re-ordering my routine to do said physical activity in the afternoon instead of first thing in the morning #since summer heat is coming l m a o and oof it has been difficult to actually make myself do it #but i'm getting better!! thanks to keeping a tally of how many days i do it every week #babbles

[tizeline]

Man, going from rough sketch directly to lineart and just skipping the clean-sketch step is Not A Good Idea and now I'm struggling

Unfortunately I am both too lazy and stubborn to do a proper sketch and as such I will continue to suffer. Alas.

#working on more disaster twin bonding for the au btw #and in my defense i'm doing a proper comic this time around #instead of just doing a couple of drawings accompanied by a bunch of text for to explain context #which is what i've been mostly doing lately #i really like drawing comics but UGH script writing is not fun #which is also the first step and bc of that it's a struggle to just get started on the stupid thing #also comics in general are time consuming and i've had a lot of ideas that i just wanted to get out there more quickly soooo #BUT there's a comic on the way now so look forward to that #tizel talk

[no-psi-nan]

If Kuboyasu was a butch lesbian and Kaido was a trans guy then their characters and friendship would've been 300% more interesting tbh. A beautiful alternate world where Asou was 40% more goated.

#nopsi nonsense #I just think the gender flavor would be so interesting and then you have Kuboyasu wondering whether she has to perform traditional #femininity to pass as a normie instead of a gangster & try to parallel Teruhashi for a bit before realizing it's not her thing #Going back to her butch roots & deciding to be true to herself #Meanwhile Kaido is using fantasy to cope with gender feelings and actually kinda learns to be a man through Kuboyasu #And gets the courage to stand up to his mom and say his truth and she gets him on hrt #But then has to face the struggle of applying T when he's kind of a weenie & Kuboyasu helping him bc he's like her little bro & best friend #hsfjdlshfks Kuboyasu escorting Kaido to the men's bathroom and standing outside his stall at anyone who looks sideways at them #I know you could hc this but I actually like using canon for most things so au nopsi can have fun with that instead

[tariah23]

I rly don’t see how ppl be 20+ shipping kids anymore tbh… like, it’s so rampant and I don’t see the appeal to it anymore being as tho I’m in my late 20’s.

#I’m grown….. it always baffles me to see it like man I don’t care I don’t find joy in it anymore since I’m not a teenager #I just look at them and think they’re like my fake son… daughter nephew niece whatever lol #give me the struggling and mentally fucked up 20+ year old give me those middle age bitches man if I’m going to like a ship now anyway #like i don’t care about the romance between kids man it sucks that this is such a huge thing in most fandom spaces #not that I participate in said spaces since ppl are annoying and embarrassing #also very nasty #sns is diff tho like that’s a whole other thing 🪽 #sns is just a classic it’s legendary it transcends space and time it it- #I’m so glad that jjk is full of adults tho lmfaoo #one of Gege’s only W’s… especially impressive for a shounen #i like jjk outside of the goiji pairings too like I just genuinely enjoy it despite how awful it is now lol #again #I do think that ppl need to learn how to become more comfortable with enjoying media outside of shipping tho #like there’s nothing wrong with it obviously but I’m talking more like how tons of ppl only get into a new series for the sole purpose #of shipping instead of engaging with said media and the story that it’s trying to tell… #this is why fanon and wild insane hc’s usually get out of control too to the point where those who might be interested in checking out #a series might be deterred because they don’t even know what the show is about because the only stuff that ppl see about the thing is ship #stuff and like discourse #and the behavior of the fans… #these ppl be 30+ arguing with teenagers man it’s crazy to me #I just think there needs to be a balance lol #like still go crazy. Have fun and all but you get it #but anyway. with all that being said! Goiji stays winning in my heart 🚶🏾‍♀️ #rambling

[martyrbat]

[ID: the uncoloured drawing for page 4 of the comic Batman: Legends of the Dark Knight #192 next to the publicized page. In them, Alfred is in a room in the Wayne Manor and is drawing back the curtains to let in the sunlight. The narration reads, ‘In the morning, it's like nothing happened,’ despite Bruce almost bleeding out from a rough patrol last night. Bruce from off panel comments, “Ah, much better with the extra light. Thank you, Alfred.” Alfred looks over and dryly replies, “You know, anyone else would be doing pretty well just to be awake”

Bruce is shown to be in an electric hospital bed and has his head wrapped in bloodstained bandages, where little tufts of black hair stick out from it. He has a neck brace on and his arm is wrapped. There's a large bandage placed on his lower face, where his stubble is also overgrown due to neglecting his personal grooming in favour of focusing on Batman related duties. The revealed room is shown to be cluttered with several large, medical machines and carts full of medical supplies — which includes sponges, oxygen tanks and masks, pain relievers, syringes, bandages, and (inexplicably) a baster. Bruce sits up in bed and is chewing at the end of a pen as he looks down at a notepad and several papers that's on an overbed table.

Alfred brings him breakfast on a tray as he remarks, “I step out for twenty minutes and you're not only awake, you're already scribbling notes. Might I impose on you to set those aside long enough for some food, if not some actual rest?” Bruce instead asks where's the coffee, to which Alfred responds, “Actually, Sir, I think the last thing your overtaxed system needs right now is more stimulant.” Bruce challenges him, “‘Overtaxed’? Is that your professional opinion?” Alfred wryly replies, “As the one who found you riddled with holes last night, I can only speculate as to their cause. However... having discounted the possibility of suicidal intention, or gross incompetence, on your part...” Bruce immediately accuses, “You think I'm trying to do more than I can actually manage.” His butler calmly justifies, “Unless you've developed some new ability that you are hiding from me, I suspect you cannot be everywhere at once.”

In the original line art, there's two plushies (a round bunny and a bat) drawn amongst all the medical supplies. Sadly, it wasn't included in the publicized version. The third photo is a description of the drawing from the artist's (Seth Fisher) website. It reads: This is one of the delightful pages in which Seth put some amusements for himself which were censored and excised by the editors, in order to retain Batman's image as a serious superhero. In this page both the bunny and the bat in the lower right frame failed to make the final cut.]

#screaming crying.... they took away his plushies :( #yea yeah bruce is being a little shit and his self neglectance is usually reduced down to a quirk of him being challenging to deal with #and a great display of his dedication to his cause instead of the actual concerning self harm that it is or the display of its okay to need #a caregiver despite your age bc of mental illnesses/disorders/disabilities that make ‘basic’ care things more challenging #how thats such important and great representation for other disabled readers to have bc we usually get shamed over it and it can be a great #comfort to see one of the most iconic and famous heros ever struggle the same way we do/require the same care #but also just guys. they took away his round bunny. his bat.... im going to shoot myself. #c: batman: legends of the dark knight | i: 192 #crypt's panels #bruce wayne #alfred pennyworth #posts from the crypt #disabled bruce #alfred & bruce

[docholligay]

What do you say to the people that question the utility of a watch, since you've got your phone?

If you have difficulty with attention, having a way to check the time without getting pulled into your phone is invaluable. Also, it's easier for me to 'understand' time visually rather than digitally, with the way my brain is wired. I wear a watch probably 80% of the time because it helps me so much with time blindness and attention.

So I like to have nice looking ones! I only have a few because I do spend money on them, so I'd like to have another one, and I think this is classy looking in the way a lot of fandom jewlery isn't always. You wouldn't know what you were looking at unless you knew.

#there's plenty of things I have that are much less useful to me #side note if you struggle with time blindness and inattention a smart watch will only make it worse #since it beams shit right to your wrist #and notifications are the time killer #anyway I own watches that work perfectly fine #so this is just a fun tips thing #instead of just getting a drink here and there I thought this would be better #and also let y'all see a ore tangible thing I'm saving for! #the clock time vs digital time thing is very common if you have #dare I say it #ADHD #according to the therapist that helped me with a lot of things #so give it a shot!

[the-valiant-valkyrie]

not over the fact this quote implies that: 1) robutler is at least vaguely aware of the events of the death engine 2) he believes that these events were not only cool, but pivotal to the role of a 'cool agent' 3) he considers phoenix a cool agent not for neutralizing a deadly supervirus, stopping nuclear armageddon, or surviving death twice over, but destroying the same space laser that they nearly died in. or, at the very least, those other achievements pale in comparison to the whole space laser thing 4) he presumably wants to do this himself

#ieytd #robutler #ACTUALLY using this tag for robutler this time #i could use this quote to go on a huge rant about schell once again going out of their way to demonstrate the fact that- #-solaris and her sacrifice was the pivotal moment of the phoenix's career and life that turned them into what they are today #but i won't. not right now. #and i'll instead say...... robutler don't say that 🙁 #i do think solaris vibing with prism post 3 has a tragic lack of the two of them comedically struggling to get along #but i also think it has a tragic lack of. solaris not knowing how to engage with this little robot #who canonically thinks phoenix is like the second coolest thing ever #little robot don't say that.......

[astriiformes]

Had a really good conversation with my therapist yesterday that has left me feeling better about life & the future than I have in... months, honestly (which also has me feeling really good about her ability to help me continue sorting through things).

I was talking about my distress about the future and in particular what I'm going to do when I graduate, since grad school isn't the most stable option, and she pointed out that since I was spiraling over hypotheticals, maybe it made sense to simply make up my mind about the first step, since applying to grad school is hardly the same as committing to grad school. And she was so right. I am so good at feeling like I need to make the right, perfect decision -- especially after making mistakes with school in the past -- that I have been worrying myself into depressive spirals over what the "right" decision is here. But making up my mind to at least apply and find out what my options are is a decision, that will give me a lot more information in the long run than paralysis over if it's "okay" to apply at all.

It'll still take a lot of work, obviously, and l don't know if I'll even get in anywhere, much less actually commit to doing a PhD if I do. But it has taken such an incredible weight off my shoulders just to say "Okay, I am going to apply, what next?" Because it means I can put all that nervous energy to actual use! Instead of spiraling the next time I start thinking about my options in the future, I can go do research on different PhD programs (without feeling guilty the whole time, like I have been until now)! I can ask my favorite professors for advice! I can reach out to current grad students to ask what they think of their advisors! All of which is actually productive and will help me make the most informed choice I can if and when the time comes, instead of ruminating endlessly on what the "best" one is!

TL;DR -- my therapist is very smart and understands me and the things my brain gets stuck on in a big way, and her advice has dislodged literal months of extremely disordered thinking just like that. Because now I feel like I've made a choice and have something to work towards. And also like I can breathe.

#it is probably not a coincidence that i finally feel like i've 'clicked' with a therapist again who also is knowledgeable about OCD #because i think this is a very OCD problem and very OCD solution #stuck worrying about a totally hypothetical choice? make a non-hypothetical one so it becomes real and actionable instead! #i am literally going to file this away for all major life decisions; i get so stuck on this kind of thing and it's so smart #genuinely cannot overstate how much i've been struggling with this for months and how much it's just. gone now #like i'm having a good week mentally ('maybe it's the start of the semester / maybe it's vyvanse' joke - but actually) #so i am not going to pretend this fixes everything forever #but also it was constantly hanging over me and now it's. not #anyways! i have no idea if academia is the right choice for me! but i'd kind of like it to be! so we'll see what happens! #and in the meantime i will do productive things instead of self-flagellating about being interested in an unstable field! #i love. therapy. love when it works

[smokestarrules]

As much as I would've loved Amity getting glowing eyes and losing her shit for something (let's be real, probably for hurting Luz), I have to say I truly appreciate that she can't and therefore further encapsulates being a cringefail loser because it makes it all the sweeter knowing that Luz still thinks she's the coolest person in any of the realms. It's like Luz unironically agreeing with "Cool Aunt Lillith" but for her girl!

Exactly!! This girl vaults a cafeteria table in her introduction episode, she's always been the opposite of chill. Don't get me wrong, Amity's clearly wildly competent, but speaking purely in terms of power levels, she's on the lower end of the spectrum.

#I do get why people wouldnt realize that because of the whole 'top student' things going on in ep3 especially #but the trick is to take in what's happening around her instead of just listening to what's said #that being. she's top student in Abominations 101. she hasn't skipped any grades like gus and in convention AND AitE we see her struggle #with anything larger than that she's used to!!! it's there #toh #the owl house #amity blight #smokey answers #anonymous

[ichorousisopod]

oh my GOD i made the ventilation holes too low, nope nope absolutely NOT i have taped those up right now-

i went to go admire my new clowns and i saw a tiny one OUTSIDE THE ENCLOSURE FLAILING ABOUT 😭 rescued it in time obviously. but now i know, they can absolutely climb high enough and some are indeed small enough to fit through those holes

#mine #isoposting #i made sure no moss touched the holes in the lid #i don't think they could climb upside down. they struggle to get too high up on smooth plastic anyways #but the sides are staying taped closed until i get some sort of mesh to glue over them instead #the top should have mesh too tbh to keep the fucking GNATS OUT #WHY IS MY GNAT TRAP NOT CATCHING ANYTHING THEY ARE LITERALLY ON MY LAPTOP SCREEN RN #...i need to try that candle thing-

[buttercupbuck]

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[image description: 5 gifs of evan buckley and eddie diaz from various episodes of 9-1-1.

gif 1: from season 4 episode 14. in the kitchen of the firehouse, bobby (offscreen) says, "buck, what happened to eddie was not your fault." Upset, Buck responds, "No. No, I was just the guy standing there when it happened who couldn't do anything to protect him."

gif 2: from season 5 episode 14. in the loft of the firehouse, buck reassures lucy, "that lady...she didn't die, cause you caught her."

gif 3: from season 4 episode 13. from under the fire truck, buck screams as he pulls eddie towards himself. his face is bloody. the gif is colored black and white.

gif 4: from season 5 episode 14. offscreen, lucy says, "so accept it was a lucky break and move on?" buck responds, "look, your luck could change tomorrow, so we take the wins when we can get 'em."

gif 5: from season 5 episode 14. buck looks up and smiles at eddie as eddie walks into the dining room and pulls out a chair for himself.

/end ID]

#evan buckley #eddie diaz #911 on fox #911 fox #9-1-1 #911edit #alicia edits #if this makes no sense it's just out of my hands at this point #like idk. it's really interesting to think about buck's journey in the context of eddie's and lucy's in this episode #bc like the both of them he also has to accept that he did everything he could do #and that fixating on how he could have done things differently won't change anything #but while they are feeling somewhat hopeless and struggling to see what the point of it all is #buck is oddly - for the first time in a while actually - incredibly optimistic and at this place where he is able to take the wins #and Honestly i think so much of it has to do with the fact that he feels he can finally help eddie #instead of feeling unsure and helpless as he watched eddie struggle alone like he had for all these months before #because yeah. maybe at some point he felt that it should've been him to get shot #but eddie is still *here* #and that's more important than any guilt or fixation on what else he could've done #eddie is still here. how can that not be a win #so buck will be too. he'll be there smiling at eddie as he comes home from his therapy appointment #and taking eddie and chris to equine therapy and helping eddie see that it's not all for naught #he'll be there for everything and all of it - the good and the ugly - is still a win in his eyes

[comfortfrogblog]

individuating feels like putting on glasses for the first time again but with your heart and your soul

#becoming your own person is actually a real thing it turns out ..it’s not just a thing from the books and movies!!! #i feel so crazy stupid alive #and all because i realized that i can get bangs if i want to #and i can quit dance because it makes me miserable #and i can try new things and wear clothes my mom doesn’t personally like and might be judging silently #and i can really just do what i want instead of struggling to follow these invisible social standards everywhere like a puppy #its really really beautiful to feel like a person actually #cathy says words #nice words #gentle reminders #soft reminders #soft words #words about love

[moreclaypigeons]

"they should not make me do school" says the guy who is actively enrolling in college classes,

#sierra speaks #its not my faaault #it is #it literally i #weeping #its classes i like even but how am i supposed to have my personal life together and have hobbies and also have homework #i struggle w homework a lot not bc i am not smart enough to do it but because executive dysfunction is a bitch #its not even that i do things i like instead. i just do basically nothing #and then the other bits of my life get fucked up slowly and that builds up #im literally sisyphus #like wdym i finished this weeks homework but next week im gonna get more.

[fox-guardian]

one thing about me is i fucking hate making new accounts

#ramblings with major #cursing #fighting for my life trying to look into a *shudders* dating app #recent reviews are garbage there's a subscription model that allegedly gets pop ups constantly on the app #and also the support section on their site is kinda also garbage #like i'd like to know about this feature. Without Having To Make An Account To Find Out What It Does #ESPECIALLY if i apparently have to PAY FOR IT FIRST #'what does this feature do' 'vague positive things :) also it costs money :) enjoy!!' #like bro. can i figure out what things are before you direct me to a part of The App I Haven't Downloaded Yet and go 'good luck!!' #anyway i am. struggling. <3 #i don't even have PHONE SPACE can i get a good WEBSITE INSTEAD #so i don't have to DOWNLOAD ANYTHING