#they are evil liars who lie and don't care about humanity at all this is some president snow president coin shit

[eerna]

every time I see people cheering for PJO to become the Most Influential Franchise once the show drops I wanna punch something because it just means Disney's monopoly would get even bigger and more dangerous

#hp will die on its own dont worry we don't need to call in a hungry evil giant to stamp it out #i hate disney so much with every passing day. i hate it from the bottom of my heart. #can we already figure out that no franchise should have that kind of power. we're celebrating the worst of consumerism. pls #pjo liveblog #''i hate disney but i wanna help them remove hp'' hate to break it to you but that is exactly what they want you to think it's manipulation #they are evil liars who lie and don't care about humanity at all this is some president snow president coin shit

[evilminji]

For once! Purely BNHA! Because I CAN NOT stop Pondering It!

Quirk: Transfer.

Vague name, right? Well it would have to be. Because NO ONE would believe a Self Insert, even in a world of Quirks. They wouldn't WANT to believe. Because? The prospect would be horrifying and terrible.

It's far easier to say it's "Quirk Related Neurosis".

Because "no, no, you silly child! Your Quirk can't POSSIBLY have grabbed a random soul from another dimension, which it now holds, as the ONLY thing powering your body! You can't have died, with all the trauma and loss that entails, only to be shoved into the body of a toddler! Silly baby, such wild imagination! Maybe your Quirk 'transfers' memories, too!"

Except NO, asshole. They are the one with the metaphorical arm here. THEY are the one who would know which way it does and does not "Bend". But trying explaining a something to someone who doesn't want to hear it. Something that makes them uneasy, that is outside of their world view.

That touchs on the random, unfeeling, chaos of the Universe and how it relates to their soft and supposedly sensible lives. What do you MEAN sometimes Bad Things happen to good people? What do you MEAN sometimes, even if I do everything "right" and take every precaution, terrible calamities can occur?

That I could Die?

That my very Soul could be ripped away from it's rightful rest, too some far off land?

That can't happen! That's not FAIR. It's not RIGHT. Crimes are Illegal! You can't be telling me that sometimes people DONT uphold their duties! Abuse their power! That things are unfair and injustice can strikes, no matter HOW safe I think I am!

That's Scary!

I'd rather believe you were wrong.

That things Make Sense and there are Rules I have to follow. That I am Safe and you are just a liar. Bad things happen for a reason. Bad people are bad BECAUSE they are evil and bad. Let's not think about this any more. Let's talk about TV shows and take-out.

What a terrifying Quirk.

To be held, at the nonexistent mercy, of the Universe's randomness and decay. Reliant on the compassion and understanding of Others, to cope with what has occurred.

Because while the Universe is uncaring, your fellow man SHOULD be. Bonding together against that great and frightful void. Making sense of it all. The compassion of stardust and all that. Children born of this universe, who in turn look back and observe it. Yet? To them you are either mad... or a liar.

Do they hide it fast enough? Do they even think too, in time?

Or is their's a childhood being told "your past is nothing more that hallucinations and stolen memories" before being fed pills, for illnesses they do not have? Do they doubt? Break down and believe. After all, everyone around them is telling them their memories are false.

Not to trust their lying mind.

Children have so few rights. Madmen even fewer.

Do they lie? Smile, nod, and agree with whatever the doctors say? Do they know their mind or does this destroy them? Perhaps... they are lucky. Good doctors and better care. Long talks and learning to cope, with no one believing. After all, hallucinations don't "go away" just because you know they aren't real.

Why would their memories?

A childhood never quite forgiving the ones who locked them away. Being treated as "insane". Being alone. Not sure if you WANT to "make friends" but trying anyway. Because humans are social animals. Because you know what an alarmingly intelligent and self disciplined child, who ALSO happens to be notably asocial, looks like to people.

A life of fear and lies.

The chronic, extreme, stress, and what it must do to their health.

Does Transfer grow with them? Most Quirks do.

What a terrifying childhood. To know, one day, it could just... quit. A straining muscle that finally gives out. The Quirk that binds you into this body just... running out of strength. Letting go.

Maybe grabbing a different soul.

After all, no one ever said YOUR soul was special. And no one believes you. So no tests have ever been done. And that hold? How strong, you must wonder, IS it?

Do they drift? In and out. Does their body suffer, from stress and a soul barely bound to it? Poorly transfered, by an Infants first manifestation? Why was it a SOUL? The first thing they Transfered? Was it based on need? Or was it always meant to be this way?

Can the Transfer other things, now? Or still just themselves? Still nothing but Souls? Is it even a transfer at all?

And what happens if it stops? Or gets copied? Influenced in anyway? Do they have a moral obligation to avoid those they know could be potentially killed by them? Who could potentially kill them by accident?

And, oh! Oh the QUANDARY of children! Quirks are GENETIC. Any mutation or variation of their Quirk? Will bring about ANOTHER. Do they have that RIGHT? Too kidnap another soul? Even if it's just to no longer be alone? Too condemn them to live when they may not wish too?

Their whole bloodline would be Self Inserts. No guarantee they'd be from the same universe! But they would be Reincarnations just like you. Born into a Story. One you KNOW, by nature, can never be peaceful.

Because a peaceful world is not an interesting Shonen Story.

Just as Batman can never truely win, just as the day never truely stayed saved, so too will this world forever decend back into chaos. So a new Protagonist can rise to meet it. What RIGHT would you have, to knowingly bring an innocent person into such danger, trapped in the body of a child?

I ponder the Self Insert Quirk.

How horrifying and numbing it must be. How crippling, the terror that, this? Is merely the beginning of a Tale that will destroy them. To be inserted into story's they long ago forgot, again and again, with no way to stop it. Forever.

Damned to be set dressing in another's grand campaign, even as they slowly go insane.

What a horrifying Quirk.

The Self Insert Quirk: Transfer.

@hdgnj @hypewinter @nerdpoe @the-witchhunter @lolottes @babbling-babull

#bnha #bnha prompt #free Quirk to a good home #bnha oc #bnha si/oc #bnha self insert #bnha self insert Quirk #seriously i wanna see someone explore this #where my horror writers at? #my existential dread? #my optimism in the face of overwhelming dispair?

[mongoose-bite]

Not a full liveblog; just some things.

This is Sardax, stormblooded sorcerer and charlatan, seen here after completely failing to use his sorcerous charisma to open a book, getting mad and smacking it open despite his -1 strength with a nat 20. Is he reading it? No, he's just gloating about it.

Act 1

He helps people out of mild contempt; his attitude is very much 'aren't you lucky I'm here and decided to help.' Thus he expects rewards and is prepared to turn on a dime. Lies a lot.

I let Asterion kill him when he bit him, but then reloaded because you don't get a long rest if you're dead and I was out of spell slots. I'll save that interaction for Dyce.

He gets on pretty well with Asterion; fellow liars and all that, but did not wish to share his evil book with him so he didn't. It's actually not helping me like Asterion any better; I think they bring out the worst in each other

Between Asterion, Laz'ael, taking up Volo's offer and getting Loviatar's Blessing, I think this guy is a top with a pain kink of the 'I demand you hurt me' variety. I love emergent storytelling.

Asterion pointed out power in exchange for a wretch we don't know is a good deal and Sardax was pretty much 'yeah, you're right,' and he traded Marina away without a backwards glance. And he'll happily murder the hag later if it's in his interest.

I'm taking my time and getting so much more dialogue out of some people, especially Gale for some reason?

I forgot I wasn't a strength-based human and managed to over-encumber myself by taking all the meat from the goblin camp. See him staggering back to camp laden with pig's heads like an idiot.

Watching Laz'ael go from 'ugh gross lizard' to 'let me lick you' pleased him no end, and he batted away Asterion twice to stick with her. He thinks he has no deeper feelings for her.

I got the owlbear cub I love him ;_; I then failed every single skill check when it had a nightmare, so no approval boost for me.

Even using the wiki I struggled to find the Kua-toa. I told them to raise an army for me.

Didn't bother rescuing the gnome slaves. I feel terrible, Sardax is indifferent. Word to the wise, don't pay him in advance.

Handed the lady an owlbear egg; didn't bother looking for a real one.

Sardax doesn't take it personally when people lie to him; he does the same to others, it's just business. But I think he's angry at what Vlaakith did to Laz'ael.

Act 2

Went to the Shadowlands via the Underdark just to see what difference it made and found some guy with a crow. I missed so much the first time through.

It's actually more relaxing to play a character who doesn't care about saving everyone they come across. By this point Faye was overwhelmed and exhausted by all the things she felt she needed to do. Sardax is merely poking his nose in.

He likes Moll a lot. I wouldn't say he's father material, but he's keeping a genial eye on her. Raphael best watch himself.

We got Minthara! She's got a lovely voice. *sighs and starts brainstorming for another run*

She took over Halsin's spot completely! And stole his child. This feels kinda dirty tbh, I might recruit her the evil way next time.

As charlatans, Sardax and Asterion walked out of Moonrise dripping with inspiration. I think they're actually friends. They both know they keep things from each other and egg each other on. Sardax is definitely considering Asterion's 'let's run the cult' plan as a distinct possibility.

Sardax finally turned on Balthazar at the Nightsong, and Karlach killed him eventually by picking up a pile of bones she'd just murdered and throwing them at him; which was both hilarious and poetic justice.

I found Zevlor this time! And I now understand why people like him so much. I just beelined for Mizora the first time I played and didn't even notice him...

Act 3

Met best NPC again. I love Popper. Got extra dialogue for being a dragonborn. Sent Gale up on stage and felt bad about it. Jahira approved.

As one manipulative arsehole to another, Sardax doesn't have a problem with the Emperor, but, dude, his girlfriend's a githyanki. There ain't no way he's messing with tadpoles.

Mamzell was hilariously off-base with Faye, but when she suggested a short lady with a whip to Sardax, I was just, hoo boy, she's got your number, buddy. I'm unsurprised Laz'ael doesn't share though; she's worked too hard for this.

YOU CAN STAY AT THE ELFSONG??!! Faye was too busy to bother with chatting to innkeepers, and it honestly never occurred to me...

Orin took Halsin this time and her decoy was heartbreaking. Faye would have been so upset (weird she stole the other tav's love interest each time though.) Even Sardax was discomforted.

Faye missed like half of the mage's tower? So much good caster loot! Sardax feels appropriately geared.

Sardax couldn't be bothered helping the Gondians, so no Iron Throne. Faye dashed in, dropped the bomb and ran, but Sardax stayed to kill the steel watch titan, which for a storm sorcerer was not a challenge, also Us kept that 6 int robot stunned for half the fight. That lil brain is so useful.

found a house with a cool dead guy in it who had also read the evil book but sardax hadn't bothered to buy the artist off the guild so they had nothing to talk about :(

ascended Asterion. No one (except Asterion) liked that, apparently. The game keeps giving you options to back out, but like, it's not like fucking a bear or anything.

Sardax is also happy to support Wyll in becoming Duke. Like it'll matter which mortal is in  charge once he has the crown, but he supports his friends in their little ambitions.

Sardax wanted to duel Orin so badly, but she didn't give him the option and it was just a normal fight, even though he killed Gortash for it. Disappointing!

Talking to more NPCs in the House of Hope this time. Gortash is still not my favourite, but it feels a little poetic that the grenades you pick up when you go to kill him are so useful against Raphael.

Sardax was more sympathetic to the Emperor than Faye was; she was taken in by the dream vision and felt angry and foolish, Sardax looked at the Emperor and thought he would have done exactly the same thing all along the line. Oh well.

Ascended Asterion's 'creatures of the night' summons for the final battles are kind of hilarious. Where did he get them?

THE OWLBEAR CUB ;_;

Asterion was all 'take over the brain and rule the world' so I *saved* and did so. And two minutes later he was a blank-faced thrall. Congrats, Fang Features, you played yourself. Also that weird pink throne is...eugh. Disconcerting.

Sardax's canon ending is at the last minute he realises he can't do that to Laz'el. And he gets the coolest ending instead

Gale is god of self-help and motivational speakers? Kinda cringe tbh.

Halsin spent most of act 3 in Orin's basement (sorry buddy) so he didn't actually get the chance to make a play for Sardax, but like, talking to him at the party, he clearly liked him regardless. I love him. Sardax only has room in his heart for one person.

#crunchy plays bg3 #bg3

[yourtoradorasextendedwarranty]

Que?

So fun thing about being a libertarian and talking about politics with anyone that's not. There's a 98% chance you encounter a person, when you have more proof then you know what to do with, where they will go, "Oh well a democrat/republican agrees with that or wants it so clearly the intent is evil". And it irks me.

Politicians? They lie. And while there are times when I 100% think that most Democrats are evil scumbags, it's because they have shown it. Gavin Newsom? Partying during Covid while sending his private state military *exaggerating* to go fine and jail people over breaking his lockdowns. When he would not abide by them. Andrew Mark Cuomo sending Covid positive people into old folks homes rather than to the facilities that Trump sent to NY. Witmer going to go get her hair done while in DEEP lockdown in her state. Did we catch Republicans doing this? A few probably, but not with the degree of lockdowns in their states that the Dems had.

I hate both political parties because neither represent me. Hell, technically the libertarian party doesn't either. But in general, the only politicians I have ever HONESTLY respected are Ron and Rand Paul. Because they ARE libertarians. Ron was very against any policy that would take agency away from Americans. I can state that most Reps I don't like because they are either RINOs or they are just bad people.

But if you say, "Oh well I don't trust this inquiry because it has a D or R in front of who said it", you don't deserve to be a part of the argument. Because either you take it that neither side is lying, or that both sides are lying. You don't start from, "only one side is lying and it's the side I don't like" because then you won't care about the truth. Only things that confirm your bias. My BIAS as it were, is that Politicians in general are scumbags, Dems are Liars and Cheats, Reps are Morons and Liars, and that we'd be better off without a party system at all.

What sparked this? Well someone told me this was "False" because the first .gov source I found on this was a government page with an (R) in front of they guys name.

For short context, Dr. Faucci and his cronies tested drugs on dogs, "Supposedly" where they gave them ticks and shoved their faces in nets filled with flesh eating sand flies. Oh and cut their vocal cords. And then I showed him a few other places that reported on it, including this and he responded with, "That makes no sense why dogs. But also anyone that has an R in front of their name is probably lying".

I was thinking to myself, "DUDE! You literally just admitted that Nancy Pelosi does insider trading and that Dems lie too and YET you only care about deeper research when it comes from Rep sources or sources that might align more rep"? To which I found a LOCAL outlet just to prove my point. I hate arguing with people like that because they don't care. It's "Us vs them" to people like that. And People like that view me as an enemy because I'm on neither side. Frankly speaking? I hate it.

(edited for grammar)

#discourse

[traumasurvivorshelpingsurvivors]

Tw: Amber heard and JD ment, intense guilt issues, idk if there needs to be any other tw, call me Wolf if that’s not taken so I can also find my ask later in the tags

I have so many abusers. About 20. Nobody believes I’ve ever been abused bc my abusers always had acted like we were good to everyone’s faces and the very few times my abusers did act out in public everyone seemed to just forget or just to my luck didn’t notice!

And they always had a say first in every interaction with other people or kids at school. I just never got to talk about my abuse story except online. But never to a friend. My abusers are all on the same page with abusing me and calling me a liar. Most of those 20 still use DARVO, still call me a liar about my rape and other abuse accusations. People think I’m crazy. Nobody loves me except God. And nobody is on my side except God. I genuinely have no human interactions.

And one of my abusers got together and recorded another abuser of mine, interviewing him, giving some sort of “testimony of how I abused him” when I really didn’t and my first abuser uses it to give to other people to say he’s “spoken with other victims” which is what I did when I recorded REAL victims of my abusers…. So stupid and I hate them all for it.

One of my abusers was 3 years younger than me.

Every thinks I’m the bully and the abuser and some usable worthless human when I’ve never done half the evil shit they’ve done in their lives to so many victims. I’ve never done any of what they behave like.

My relatives don’t even know my parents and brother are abusive and rapists. My abusive relatives all stick up for my abusive immediate family and say they’re great people when they’ve tortured me and raped me as a child. So many of my abusers also used rape and everyone says that women lie about being raped nowadays bc it’s the new thing abusive crazy women like AH do. Except AH wasn’t the abuser. Anyway. My image and reputation are ruined forever and I have to cut all contact with my family someday which I can do any day bc I moved out at 22 and so I can actually live my life but it’s a scary thought bc I feel so guilt ridden for it. And I don’t want to see my mother cry even though she abused me sm growing up even sexually, my whole immediate family was sexually and emotionally abusive. I don’t know how to not feel sui-guilt over this…

Hi Wolf,

I'm so sorry about what you've been through. Please know that we believe you, and you're not alone. It can be frustrating when our abusers are surrounded by people who enable and normalize their toxic behavior, and are seemingly oblivious in exacerbating the situation. It's similarly frustrating when people don't understand the gravity of the situation or find it important enough to even remember.

It's important to remember that it's possible for abusers to be younger than their victims because age gaps are not the only way that power imbalances are created. Things like socioeconomic status, intellectual or physical disabilities, and even fame can also create an uneven power dynamic.

Unfortunately it's common for abusers to use their social reputation or status to slander and silence their victims. Pitting everyone against their victims can make it easy for those victims to feel crazy and isolated. It can be incredibly damaging to deal with DARVO, and so it's important to make sure that your mental health is being taken care of. If you can access or afford it, a mental health professional such as a therapist can help you process your trauma, your experiences with DARVO and being gaslit, and develop healthy coping mechanisms to take with you on your healing journey.

It's also unfortunately become easy for abusers to weaponize AH to discredit other female abuse survivors. It can be especially difficult to feel comfortable speaking up about your experience in such a social climate. It may help to remember that the truth doesn't need people's validation to exist. As much as you have been made to feel otherwise, you know what really happened. You know your truth.

If anyone has any comments or suggestions, feel free to add on. Otherwise, I hope I could help, and please let us know if you need anything.

-Bun

#mod bun #trauma talks #tw abuse #tw emotional abuse #tw sa #tw r #wolf #trauma details

[jedzeb]

The most controversial artist of our generation: Kanye West

I have never liked Kanye West, but I have never hated him either. Before the blowup of his controversies, I simply saw him as a rapper that made music I don't like and with some annoying fans. Though to be honest, this impression was mainly carved off one person plus the internet.

For those who are not aware, Kanye West has been a figure of controversy for some time now. In an interview in 2018, he stated that slavery "sounds like a choice". I know, I know; what was he thinking? I could go on forever about what stupid remarks Kanye has made over the years, but I will focus on the more recent controversy.

In late 2022, Kanye West stated "every human being has brought something of value, especially Hitler". He follows with saying he loves Hitler and Nazis, then posts a picture of a swastika merged with the Star of David on Twitter.

When in an influencer position like Kanye, you have to be extremely careful with your words. Especially nowadays, people will take things wrong and it could be career ending. Unfortunately for Kanye, he does the exact opposite of this; he makes it difficult to side with him.

Admittedly, I understand part of what he is saying. Spreading love and looking at the positives in everyone without exception is a beautiful way of looking at things. However, his way of expressing this is atrocious. First of all, claiming he loves everyone, especially Hitler. It is already a risky thing to claim love for one of the most evil people in history, but to double down and state your love for Hitler above others... needless to say, nobody reacted well to this.

I would like to add that Kanye says other questionable things on the same topic. He says there are positive things about Hitler, such as inventing highways and the microphone. The issue with these claims is that neither of them are true. Kanye also says he loves Nazis, which leaves his point of loving every individual; by definition, a Nazi is one who stands for antisemitism, supremacy of their own race, and ultimately, the Holocaust.

So while he may have a slight innocent foundation with his "love for all", Kanye West has said too many things to discredit himself. False claims about invention, claiming love for a group designed to do bad to others, and emphasizing on his love for Hitler are things he did not need to say. But since he said them, less people can view him as someone preaching good.

What's so interesting about him is how he still has people that look up to him. Why is this? I will be using Mariel Bustamante's "10 reasons we love Kanye West" article as a reference.

Like all people, there is good and there is bad. And within good and bad, there is the perspective that decides what is good and what is bad. Here are some qualities Mariel likes about Kanye, with my comments looking at it in two different ways:

~ "Lie to yourself all you want, Kanye haters, but Kanye West is a musical genius" The "good": Kanye is extremely innovative with his music, and is willing to make sounds that most people would probably not give a chance in the studio The "bad": Calling anyone that doesn't enjoy Kanye's music a hater and a liar is an immature point to bring up; everyone has preferences, especially in music. It is a fact that when making music, not everyone will like it.

~ "Arrogant or self-confident? We say self-confident" : The "good": Self-confidence is big in a person, and even bigger in an influencer. Kanye's confidence is a large factor in what makes so many people believe in him. The "bad": Arrogance and ego; when a person puts themselves above others, it becomes difficult to have the same level of respect for them as you would otherwise. Writing off the notion that Kanye has a massive ego with "we say self-confident" shows that some fans just can't accept truths.

~ "Kanye makes mistakes, just like any other person on the planet" The "good": This is true, as every person makes mistakes. We as people must make mistakes to learn and become better versions of ourselves. The "bad": Some mistakes are worse than others. Yes, people make big mistakes, but this sounds like an easy way to write off mess-ups.

~ "There is no hiding the fact that Kanye is a professional at speaking his mind, and anybody can respect that. He is often seen as arrogant or excessive with his words, but why? He’s always in the public eye, but he’s not afraid to express himself and talk about what he loves—that’s respectable" The "good": Not hiding your opinion and being true to yourself is another trait of a likable and respectable influencer. The "bad": While this is true, it is only true to an extent. Having influence over others, especially millions of people, is a responsibility. You have the power to be positive, but also to put bad ideas in people's heads.

As you can see, every statement here can be looked at in multiple ways. The reason it may look as though Kanye West fans twist things to make him look good is simply that they see things from a different perspective. Because of course, like in most people, he has a good and bad things about him. And as I stated earlier, within that, there are different ways to look at these good and bad sides.

The importance in understanding this concept is that this is how Kanye West sees the controversies revolving around him. His unique perspective allows him to come up with these "hot takes". This combined with his morals of speaking your mind is what always puts Kanye at the center of controversy. Perspective is key in a person's views. To understand why someone may think a certain way, it is important to consider perspectives.

For example, here is Piers Morgan's take on Kanye's initial Twitter ban:

Some may see a social media ban as free speech suppression. This is a valid point, but it becomes a more difficult situation when the free speech is openly making hateful comments.

Basically, Kanye West is constantly at the center of controversy. He explores unique perspectives and has ideas in his head that sound awful to others. He makes a lot of sense to some people, and no sense to others. Kanye's remarks upset many, which is what caused him to lose so much respect.

#kanye west #kanye #ye #twitter #controversy #controversial #elon musk #piers morgan

[cahrolinehasmoved]

"You're literally a vampire, you're supposed to have fun and break rules." Oh no it sounds like the break up all over again. "Why do you do that, why do you cling so desperately to pretending to be human. You're not. Embrace it, pretending youre anything other than an apex predator is a lie, Caroline. You dont have to be EVIL but don't be a LIAR."

𖤐 ⸻ " I DO BREAK RULES. " quite a lot of them actually . she's just too modest to start naming them . eyes glanced down . this was exhausting. the constant nagging about her gripping her humanity with everything she had. why? because she had been down that road a few years back without it. and the amount of hurt she caused people. jaw tightened as she darted her eyes to meet katherine's . "because it's all i have! you don't get it do you? i've embraced who and what i am. that doesn't mean i'm going to go around, not caring about others. i value what little of my humanity remains, katherine. if that's an issue for you, then i feel sorry for you. because if it's such a big deal and you can't accept me for how i choose to live my life ... " she faintly gave her a grin . " then it's no wonder why we didn't work out. i don't need to be fixed . . i don't need to be changed. so if that makes me a liar, oh well. "

#malkalisitsa

[leaflnthewind]

I know that Lena and Kara fight after Lena discover she's Supergirl and I've seen a lot of people say they were drawing comparisons between SG Lena and SV Lex (often used as an argument against supercorp) but like, I'm not here to talk about supercorp or Lena or wtv but this oversimplification of Clark and Lex relationship in Smallville is ... not for me (and not only because I do ship it), because Lex and Clark didn't fight because Clark lied to Lex, actually, discovering Clark's secret is the last thing Lex does before fucking dying.

Yes, Lex felt entitled to Clark's secret, every time Clark lied Lex wanted to make him suffer because he was lying and Lex wanted to KNOW and they were friends and they should be honest to each other yada yada yada (all the while Lex lied too) and while yes, this is one of the factors they friendship broke apart and Lex do say if Clark trusted him they would've been great together.... this isn't the main factor? We don't see Lex crying and saying he hates Clark because he's a liar, what we see is Lex's growing envy starts to make him stop seeing Clark as someone he should admire and instead someone he wants to take everything from. And we see it getting worse and worse as Lionel start growing closer to Clark and always talking about how Clark is a oh so special boy and how Lex should be ASHAMED for not being like Clark who is a very special boy did I say that yet? Lex you need to listen to me talking about how I wanted Clark to be my son it's Very Important that you do!

I can see why people would think Lex hated Clark only because of the secret issue as Lex is always telling Clark how he never forgives those who lie to him (as an attempt to make Clark tell him his secret? Bald man has no concept of social interactions and ends up causing the reverse of what he wanted to achieve, congrats bald man you're very smart) and in their final scene in s7 Lex does say Clark should've trusted him but that's not why Lex tries to kill Clark, he tries to kill Clark because he thinks Clark is a dangerous alien invader and he's like "honestly you deserve this ngl you're kind of a piece of shit :/" but in their other conversations after Lex turns Evil, and even one that happens before this one what Lex focuses on? How he feels glad that Clark is not human because that means Lex couldn't ever win this competition anyways, how he wanted everything that Clark has because Clark has a perfect family and a perfect girlfriend, and when clone!Lex happens in s10 and their conversation in the finale there's almost (and I say almost because I can't remember if there was even one) no talk about how Clark lied to him, instead we get again the competition issue and how Clark stole Lionel from him, when he already had a perfect dad and didn't need Lex's in the first place.

Like, if we look at their relationship, their mutual lying and distrust drove them apart (especially after Clark discovered Lex's Clark shrine -- I mean, secret room and Lex also grew more and more tired of Clark's bullshit not well thought lies until he couldn't take it anymore) and later on Lionel made sure (I'll never be convinced it wasn't on purpose lol) that Lex felt even more inadequate near Clark, which made his hate grow. Clark could never agree with Lex's human experiments either, and Lex always targeted Clark were it hurt the most after their Official Break Up ("stealing" Lana, saying Clark could never save him anyways) .

Like if we analyze it there was a thousand of little things that grew into a thousand of big things until it exploded, you can't point to one thing and say that was the reason because there simply not one, instead we get a lot of major points that culminates in Clark storming into Lex's office in s5 and even THEN their relationship doesn't complete fall apart until Lionel gets himself in the middle (and we see them caring for each other until late s7 where ... Lex fucking dies).

Anyways Clark & Lex in Smallville had a brotherly bond and I think it's interesting that they have a kind of brotherly schism, especially with Lex's fixation on competitions.

#i have no fucking idea where i wanted to go with this #guess sometimes i just want to make a long rant about sv clex #also it takes two to tango #they both hurt each other in big and small ways #and their friendship is what pushed one into being a hero and the other into being a villain #in that sv did a very good job #Smallville #lex luthor #clex #sv meta #clark kent #they're my toxic sad ship and i love them in any way i can get them #I'm not going to tag anything s*pergirl related #anywaaaaays #yes it does makes me cringe to see this argument used against superc*rp #lena is not lex lmao and superc*rp is not clex #sv clex is a masterpiece and i love it so very much

[rantingcrocodile]

I'm fairly new to radblr but the whole bihet vs febfem thing seems to stem from people not taking bisexuality seriously as an orientation. It boils down to that strict ssa vs osa attraction and delegitimizes bisexuality as a whole orientation. I guess in a way it makes it more digestable for monosexuals, if that makes sense? Like I think they see it as a 'gay' bisexual vs a 'het' bisexual, and it doesn't make them account for the fact that bisexual is its own thing.

Monosexuals not understanding what "being bisexual" actually means is one of the biggest issues when it comes to bisexuality that filters into practically everything.

I really believe that the problem comes down to them seeing "bisexuality" and interpreting "attracted to both women and men" as "both straight and gay," which causes so many problems by making us completely invisible and refusing to see us as anything other than wrong.

To them, bisexuality isn't an actual sexuality, it's a qualifier for the "real" sexualities. To be bisexual is to be a machine that is straight if with an opposite sex partner, or (conditionally) gay if with a same sex partner. Without a partner, the bisexual is defaulted to straight. In that sense, the only traits that bisexuals are left with are negative stereotypes, the hypersexuality, the lying, the cheating, the lacking of human emotions, the manipulation, etc. Bisexuality to them is a personality defect, closer to a personality disorder than an actual sexuality. As far as monosexuals are concerned, we're just broken in some way. Evil.

I constantly say the most obvious and reasonable things, and I point out regularly that biphobes can't read, but the fact is that they can read, they just think that bisexuals are manipulative liars because we're bisexual.

I say, "Bisexuals are oppressed by straight people" and they lie and accuse me of meaning, "Bisexuals are oppressed by lesbians" because they've convinced themselves that I don't mean what I say, that I'm deliberately being manipulative for nothing but attention-seeking - and all because I'm a bisexual talking about bisexual issues, no more, no less. In any other context, discussing any other issue, I would be applauded, but because I'm a bisexual, I can't be trusted and there therefore has to be hidden meanings and messages underneath the simple sentences that I say.

We show monosexuals studies into bisexuality and how biphobic oppression affects us, and where they accept studies about everything else, the studies into bisexuals are automatically wrong and lies because the underlying belief is that the bisexuals involved in those studies are liars. That anyone who cares about bisexuals are either bisexuals or liars (those words synonyms to the biphobes at this point). That it's all just some con because we're natural, untrustworthy and manipulative attention-seekers.

That's why they genuinely have no idea what bisexuality even is, but refuse to believe us when we try and explain it to them. We can't be trusted, so only they can define it for us.

And because that biphobia is so ingrained into society, most bisexuals let monosexuals get away with that, and then internalise those beliefs for themselves, hating the rest of us, because they're not evil and manipulative and self-obsessed, but they believe the rest of us are.

#crocodilian answers

[pipipinyyy]

Explaining why I have added every song in my entire and very long Niragi playlist because I can and because over analyzing him is my passion (I usually update it from time to time but I'll do it with the current songs)

Completely self indulgent post, but I decided to share to feed my fellow Niragi stans (*˙︶˙*)☆*°

This is entirely based on my view of the songs and how I interpret them while thinking about Niragi. I'm aware that most of them have entirely different meanings, this is just for fun :) (Also sorry if my explanations don't make much sense, English is not my first language and I might make mistakes when trying to put my feelings and thoughts into words)

This may contain manga/s2 spoilers

Hayloft-Mother Mother: Vibes

Criminal-Britney Spears: The whole song describes him ("he is a sucker with a gun") and the fandom's obsession ("mama I'm in love with a criminal")

Daddy Issues-The Neighborhood: I feel like he would act like this, using the most vulnerable spots to pick on someone ("cry little girl, nobody does it like you do")

Psycho-Jin Dogg, OVER KILL: Vibes

Riot-Hollywood Undead: He'd definitely start a riot like he did in the 10 of hearts, burning and destroying anything that crosses his path

Bitches-Mindless Self Indulgence: He most likely thinks he's a total fuckboy and popular with girls since he can get almost anything he wants out of scarying people

Baby's on Fire-Die Antwoord: Vibes

Insane in the Brain-Cypress Hill: This man is being consumed by his own way of protecting himself

Wolf in Sheep's Clothing-Set It Off: Based on how he feels towards the people who hurt him in the past ("Listen, mark my words, one day, you will pay" "You've always been a huge piece of shit, if I could kill you, I would" "Karma is gonna come collect your debt")

Death no more-IC3PEAK: Vibes

Gasoline-I Prevail: Sort of similar to Riot, ("So burn it all down, burn it all down, I don't give a fuck")

Toxic-Britney Spears: The whole fandom knows how much of a piece of shit this dude can be, but we still find ourselves liking/enjoying his character (to an extent), a toxic addiction

Nice Guy-GRLwood: As much as I love this man, he'd use the "I'm a nice guy c'mon" card just to fuck. If he wants to, he'll get it, if he doesn't, he'll most likely get mad

Dernière danse-Indila: Vibes

TRRST-IC3PEAK: Mostly vibes, I kinda see this song as how he felt the first time he killed someone on purpose inside the borderlands ("mama they say I'm a terrorist, I did nothing wrong but I got on the blacklist")

Saint Bernard-Lincoln: Vibes

Nowhere To Run-Stegosaurus Rex: Being with him at the Beach would either be ignoring each other completely or a game of tag, no inbetween. If this man wants to kill you, he'll get his fun time out of it as well ("You're gonna die, I'm gonna kill you")

The House of Wolves-Bring Me The Horizon: Based on how he sees life after being consumed by his current mental state ("Show me a sign, show me a reason to give a solitary fuck about your god damn beliefs" "What you call faith, I call a sorry excuse")

Smells Blood-Kensuke Ushio: Vibes

SIU-Maretu: Similar to Daddy Issues, don't expect this man to be a therapist. If he sees anyone crying or panicking in or outside a game, he'd most likely tell them to suck it up, just like this song.

Judgement-Kensuke Ushio: Vibes

MONSTER ENERGY GUN!-KevinKempt: Vibes + He for sure has an energy drink addiction, specially pre-borderlands

HURT-1 800 PAIN: Vibes

Fear Is The Mind Killer-Zheani: Vibes

I Bet on Losing Dogs: Based on how I know Niragi is toxic, and most likely unsaveable of his deteriorating mental state, but I still have him as my biggest comfort character ("I bet on losing dogs, I know they're losing and I'll pay for my place")

Emo Boy-Ayesha Erotica: He's been in an emo phase (and maybe still is), the lyrics are pretty self explanatory, they describe us Niragi simps perfecrly ("come on fuck me emo boy")

Crybaby-Destroy Boys: Vibes

The Fox's Wedding-MASA Works DESIGEN: Vibes

You're a useless child-Kikuo: We don't know much about his past, but judging by the unstoppable bullying he's suffered, his parents didn't care about him, or were straight up absent. He's been insulted by pretty much everyone in his past to the point of believing it and telling those things to himself ("You're a useless child, the most useless child in this world" "Drool in snot, dandruff, shit and piss" "I'm a useless child" "Nobody will save me" "I'm a lonely kid")

Take A Slice-Glass Animals: Vibes

Fighting With The Melody-Jimmy Urine: Vibes

Comics-Caravan Palace: Vibes

Rhinestone Eyes-Gorillaz: Vibes

Butch 4 Butch-Rio Romero: Mostly vibes, sort of how I think the most "peacefull" moments in a relationship with him would feel like, kind of bittersweet feeling

Suki Suki Daisuki-Jun Togawa: Yandere Niragi. If he's interested in someone, he'd go through an obsessive phase, most likely forcing the other person to "love" him. This man is so confused about the feeling of love that he's unable to tell when he loves someone or when he's obsessed with them due to his lack of attention ("Like you, like you, I love you. Say you love me or I'll kill you")

:(-The Garden: Vibes

Kitty City-Cyriak Harris: Vibes

Blood-My Chemical Romance: If Niragi went to a therapist, he'd act like this song, with his signature cocky and sarcastic personality (at least before he gets better) ("I can't control myself because I don't know how" "They can fix me proper with a bit of luck" "I'm the kind of human wreckage that you love")

A Mask of My Own Face-Lemon Demon: He feels like he needs to protect himself or else he will get hurt inside the borderlands by others again. He uses another personality, a completely ruthless one, even if he doesn't like it and hates himself for it, he doesn't see another way to deal with his fear, allowing his "new self" to consume himself. ("I'd wear that mask of my own face" "I look into my eyeholes and what do I see? A handsome motherfucker motherfucking looking back at me")

I'm a Murderer-Freddie Dredd: Mostly vibes ("I'm a motherfucking murderer")

'Cause I'm a Liar-Mcki Robyns-P: He would lie just for fun even in serious situations. If he needs to manipulate someone to survive, he'll do it his way, after all, he doesn't care anymore, he just seeks for excitement. ("Without emotion, without devotion. It's much easier to fake something happy")

I Disagree-Poppy: I don't know exactly how to describe it, but I feel like this is how he sees and feels the world and those around him, feeling misunderstood and going his own way ("If only all of you could see the world I see, then maybe everyone could live in harmony")

Personal Jesus-Mindless Self Indulgence: He has a superiority complex, that's for sure. I don't think he sees himself as a god, but I see him joking about it

Rainbow Factory-GLAZE, WoodenToaster: Vibes

Frontier Psychiatrist-The Avalanches: I kinda see this as Aguni taking the role of Niragi's "father figure" inside the borderlands, realizing he's turning insane and is unable to control him ("That boy needs therapy")

Hate it. Hate it. "JIGAHIDAI!"-WADATAKEAKI Kurage P: Jealousy. I can see it either in a pre-borderland situation where he hates the popular students in school, or inside the borderlands hating both Chishiya and Arisu. Jealousy takes over him constructing a big ego, causing himself to develop his superiority complex ("You see, I hate that popular girl!" "Does she think I don't notice? How she looks at me as if I'm trash" "I want to be praised" "I'm different from you all, I have my own ego! I'm not a side character" "I have zero common sense. I'm special")

Villain-Stella Jang: He knows damn well he's a villain, that's his goal after all, but what if someone took his point of view? wouldn't the villains be all of those who hurted him in the first place? ("We all pretend to be the heroes on the good side, but what if we are the villains on the other")

Violent-carolesdaughter: This is how I view an argument inside a relationship with Niragi. He's used to violence, to cause fear, and getting what he wants, so being in a healthy relationship would require a lot of patience and strenght. While he's getting better and suppressing those violent actions, there will be times where he accidentally uses violence or threatens the other person unintentionally, mostly hurting himself and his partner psychologically. The lyrics change between both points of view ("Don't make me get violent, I want my ring back baby that's a diamond" "She knows I'm a wreck" "I gave you all my trust and I told you just don't break it")

Hey Bunny-Baby Bugs: Based on how I think it would feel to partner up with him inside the borderlands and catching feelings for him while knowing the huge mess he is ("Hey bunny, what's with those evil eyes?" "Hey bunny, what the hell is wrong with us?" "Hey bunny, what if I loose you too? If I become the monster, together we can always be blue")

Kokoronashi-majiko: I'm pretty sure Niragi isn't able to see himself as someone able to love, even if he doesn't want to be alone (just like when he confesses this feeling while fighting with Chishiya and Arisu). If someone truly loved him and was willing to not letting him go, it would hurt. He can't see himself as someone who can love or be loved, so he can't accept the love he's seeking for in case that turns him "weaker" making his true self confront with the protective mean personality he's created. He could learn how to accept it, so he might want the other person to stay in the end, but it wouldn't be easy for him to accept it ("It's awful, I'd rather you destroy my body, tear it to sheds, do as you please" "No matter how much I'm loved by you, my heart is just one" "I don't know this, don't leave me alone")

Nightmare Parade-FAKE TYPE.: Vibes

Slipping Through My Fingers-Meryl Streep, Amanda Seyfried: Niragi seeing himself loosing his young, gentle and caring personality due to his fear, being unable to control what's happening inside, nostalgia and sadness kicking in ("The feeling that I'm loosing her forever" "That funny little girl" "Sometimes I wish that I could freeze the picture and save it from the funny tricks of time")

Kuroneko No Tango-Pink Martini, The Von Trapps: Vibes

YKWIM?-Yot Club: Him confroting his feelings of loneliness when he's left alone with his thoughts ("It feels like I care too much when I'm alone, oh no")

Romantic Lover-Eyedress: Just appreciating his physical appearance ("She's a killer, I love her features")

Wrecking Ball-Mother Mother: Based on how he sees himself as someone who needs to destroy everything in a way or another in order to be powerful + the fun he has with it ("Call me a reckless wrecking ball" "Let's break it just because we can")

Edge-Rezz: Vibes

Freaks-Surf Curse: Again, confronting feelings when loving someone, but not in such a painful as Kokoronashi ("I need a place to stay where I can cover up my face" "Don't cry, I'm just a freak")

Little Bit-Lykke Li: Vibes

6up 5oh Cop-Out (Pro/Con)-Will Wood and the Tapeworms: Vibes

PHONKY TOWN-PlayaPhonk: Vibes

I WANNA BE YOUR SLAVE-Måneskin: Freaky time. He would absolutely love this song, definitely his type of thing ("You could be the beauty and I could be the monster" "I wanna touch your body so fucking electric" "I wanna make you hungry, then I wanna feed you")

#BrooklynBloodPop!-SyKo: Vibes

A Cold Freezin' Night-The Books: Vibes

A Pearl-Mitski: My most favorite song to associate with Niragi. Represents his evolution as a character. Creating an scenario where he is loved by someone,he rejects it at first, acting tough ("I don't want your touch") and then proceeds to explain why ("It's just that I fell in love with a war, nobody told me it ended" "it left a pearl in my hand and I roll it around every night just to watch it glow") the war being the borderlands and his new personality, he loved it, but nobody drew a line and it's getting out of hand. The pearl is the feeling of power, the one he has to remember when feeling weak just to feel something. At the end of the song it changes to ("Sorry I can't take your touch"), realizing that he wants love, but he's not able to take it or else he'll become the Niragi from the past

Problematic-Bo Burnham: Him acknowledging his problematic actions but not wanting to apologize because he doesn't feel the need to. He knows he's done bad things but he is going to laugh at it and be a sarcastic mf about it

First Love/Late Spring-Mitski: Similar to Kokoronashi, he wouldn't be able to accept love and how it makes him feel. He would think that he prefers for everyone to hate him and be lonely instead of sacrificing his tougher side. Also talks about how he's grown way too quickly for him to understand feelings properly ("So please hurry leave me, I can't breathe, please don't say you love me" "One word from you and I would jump out of this ledge I'm on baby" "I was so young when I behaved 25, yet now I find I've grown into a tough child"

The Other Side Of Paradise-Glass Animals: Vibes

Bodybag-Chloe Moriondo: How I feel about liking his character, confronting feelings basically ("Don't know if I hate you or if I wanna date you" "I don't wanna like you, I just wanna tie you up, then keep you in a cage and watch you sleep for ages"

Get Into It (Yuh)-Doja Cat: Vibes

Psycho Killer-2005 Remaster- Talking Heads: Vibes

HOT DEMON B!TCHES NEAR U!!!-CORPSE, Night Lovell: Vibes

INFERNO-Sub Urban, Bella Poarch: Again, another song that describes him pretty well ("Baby I'm the reason why hell's so hot" "Terribly like terrible, she's a villain" "Think I'm getting butterflies but it's really something telling me to run away")

Bad Morning-Omori: Vibes

Trouble Brewing: Vibes

Dueles Tan Bien-Bruses: Another song about my confronting feelings with this man ("You know what? You taste better than alcohol to me. You know that and you've got control" "Because you hurt, and you hurt so good that I don't know what to do")

And that's it!! This took me the whole day to write but it makes me very happy to be able to share it :)

I've you've read the entire thing, hope you enjoyed the character analysis! ლ(◞‿◟ლ)

#Spotify #imawa no kuni no alice #alice in borderland #alice in borderland netflix #niragi #niragi suguru #suguru niragi #character playlist #aib niragi #aib #overanalyzing niragi is my favorite hobby

[angellesword]

SAVE ME | KTH (13)

Summary: You were determined to kill yourself, but what would happen when instead of ending your life, you ended up summoning the devil of death?

Alternatively:

The Devil: I’m here to ruin you, I’m here to save you.

Genre: Demon au, e2l, angst, fluff, roommate au

Pairing: Devil!Taehyung x Doctor!Reader

Word Count: 1.8k

Warnings: none except mention of stabbing and oh! tae being an ass 😗

SERIES: CHAPTER 12 | CHAPTER 14

Ji-hyo couldn't remember the last time she saw you looking like death was hot on your trail.

"Seriously?" Your best friend furrowed a brow, a mocking smile was plastered on her lips. "You looked like shit. What has gotten into you?"

Gone were the days when she was acting like you were a fragile thing. Ji-hyo only sympathized with you when you were still mourning Areum's death while dealing with some family issues.

These two things were old news now.

Ji-hyo knew you had healed from it, meaning she could finally say what she wanted without tiptoeing around you. Saying things like 'you look like shit' wouldn't offend you since she knew that whatever's bothering you at this very moment didn't involve Areum or your family.

Ji-hyo was right because your problem was all about "Taehyung," you admitted the truth, sighing loudly.

Your best friend sniffled a laugh—it was like she couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"You're still pining over your ex?" She puffed, looking at you in disbelief. "But why? It's been fourteen days since you two broke up!"

You couldn't help the blush staining your cheeks because of what Ji-hyo said. The latter knew you for many years now.

You never once pined over a guy. You dated a lot of men before, especially during college days. None of them managed to hurt you. It was always you who broke their hearts.

Ji-hyo even thought that you were also the one who ended things with Taehyung. She guessed it was her fault. She didn't ask you about what happened. She simply assumed that you were no longer seeing the devil since the latter didn't visit the hospital anymore.

You talked about almost everything with Ji-hyo, except your love life. You were never serious with this kind of thing anyway.

"Oh, God," Ji-hyo's mouth parted in shock when she realized something. "Don't tell me you're in love with Kim Taehyung?"

She was acting as though it was impossible for you to fall in love. Admittedly, you couldn't fault her. You thought the same way too. You never expected to have strong romantic feelings for anyone, especially for someone like Taehyung.

Yes, that's right. The fourteen days you spent away from the devil was enough for you to realize that you liked him.

It turned out that you weren't immune to his charms. At first you thought you were just attracted to his pretty face, but then the months you spent with him felt surreal. You never experienced this feeling before.

You appreciated that he helped you with Jeongguk as well as with your father. It's not like you didn't feel guilty anymore because surprise, surprise: you still did. But you felt more at peace now.

Taehyung took care of you too. He pulled you from the hole you dug for yourself. Granted that it was for his own sake, but as said, humans were vulnerable.

You were exactly like other people. You couldn't deny that he was making you feel special.

"Is that such a bad thing?" You asked, biting your bottom lip.

Ji-hyo mirrored your expression.

"I don't know...does he feel the same way?"

That was the thing. You didn't know if Taehyung liked you the way you liked him.

"I don't really believe in unconditional love bullshit. I don't think it's okay to invest your time and energy if the other person can't love you back," Ji-hyo shrugged her shoulders.

She didn't want to complicate her life. There were people who were willing to love her, so why stick with someone who was making her feel like she wasn't worth it?

"I-I don't know if he has feelings for me..." your response was barely audible, making Ji-hyo's brow shot up.

"Then find out. Stop running away from your problems. You're the one who's making your life difficult. People aren't mind readers. You can't expect them to know how you feel if you aren't telling them in the first place."

Of course you knew that. You wanted to talk to Taehyung, you just didn't know how to start. It hurt you when he implied that the kiss you two shared wasn't a big deal. But like what Ji-hyo had said, you wouldn't know what others felt if you kept running away.

"So what are you waiting for?" The anesthesiologist enquired when you told her that you were willing to clear things out with the devil.

Ji-hyo also told you that there was no point in delaying things. You were just prolonging the agony you felt.

"Fine. I'll go now," you were free today as a result of working hard the past several weeks. You only went to the hospital today since you didn't have the courage to face Taehyung.

Ji-hyo didn't hold you back any longer, and so you left Cornelia Hospital. You decided to stop by at Taehyung's favorite dumpling store before heading back home.

He was always in a better mood whenever there were dumplings on his plate.

There were many customers at the mentioned restaurant so you figured that it was best to roam around the marketplace while you waited for your order.

This quarter was just meters away from your apartment building, yet this was the first time you went here. This was because you always had your food delivered at your place. Besides, Itaewon was your go-to place whenever you wanted to eat out.

You regretted not visiting this place sooner. Everything you needed was literally here. There was even a flower shop right across the dumpling store. The former place suited your style that was why you chose to check it out; however, you stopped walking when you saw Taehyung inside the store.

You squinted to make sure that your eyes weren't failing you.

It wasn't.

The devil was really inside the flower shop. It's understandable. Taehyung liked to visit places as aesthetically pleasing as this one, but what you didn't understand was this: why was he handing a knife to a younger girl?

Why...did it look like he was planning something evil?

You crossed the street to confirm your suspicion.

Your suspicion turned into reality.

Taehyung was definitely planning something evil. It was obvious that he coerced the little girl to stab the flower owner, luckily you were fast—as in fast enough to snatch the weapon away from the little girl.

You didn't know if you could forgive Taehyung if his vile plan succeeded.

It wasn't a simple hunch anymore. He seriously confirmed what you thought he was planning to do.

The sad thing about it was that he didn't even show remorse.

"T-This is not what you think it looks like!" Naturally, he would lie to you at first, and so you did exactly the opposite of what he believed you would do.

"Really?" You stopped walking, facing him.

You immediately walked away the second you managed to snatch the weapon. You didn't know how to explain things to the shop owner anyway. Besides, you were certain that Taehyung was going to follow you.

That's exactly what you wanted. You needed him to run after you because you didn't know what evil was circling inside his head. He might still harm the shop owner and the daughter if he stayed one more minute with them.

"So you're saying that I'm wrong? That you didn't just tempt a kid to stab her mother?" You were clenching your jaw, your tears were threatening to fall too.

You were so mad and so hurt. He hadn't changed at all. He was still a selfish bastard who only cared about himself.

"I'm not denying that," his tone was harsh, like he was challenging you too. "All I'm saying is that you're looking at it all wrong."

You huffed. So he was still denying it?

"You know what? I'm done." You turned away from him, continuing to walk. "I don't want to listen to you anymore. You're a reaper and a liar—"

"You can call me anything you want." You were surprised when he abruptly pulled your arm, spinning you around. The force was too strong that your face hit his chest.

"Let go of me—!" You wriggled in his arms but he only pushed you up against the concrete wall, caging you.

You two were at a narrow alley, so close to your home.

"—but I am not lying." He continued, ignoring your desperate attempt to run away from him.

"You can't fool me!" You tried pushing his chest.

He didn't budge.

"I'm just doing whatever I can do to survive!" He placed his hands on the wall, moving even closer to you.

His golden eyes sparkled, horns showing.

You gulped as you nervously looked around. You weren't scared of him. You had seen him like this before. The only reason why your heart was beating erratically was because you were afraid someone would see him looking like this.

"You have me to save you," he licked his lower lip, struggling to meet your eyes.

He couldn't.

You were avoiding his smoldering gaze.

"Jeongguk has Jimin..." His voice was becoming softer, barely audible.

You felt your heart clench.

"And I got no one but myself,"

You finally looked at him in the eyes.

It was a wrong move.

The emotions you had bottled up for the past weeks exploded...

You broke.

And then you turned into ashes.

"I'm not like the rest of you. I wasn't abused. I wasn't taken for granted. I wasn't hurt..."

There was silence. You were just looking at him, silently observing and listening.

"I am the one doing all these things. I abuse people, I take them for granted, and I hurt them."

He sucked in a breath.

"I don't have any excuse just like you do."

He was implying that it was unfair. People like you got away with the pain you caused to other people by simply arguing that you were not in the right mind, or that you experienced traumatic memories before.

People could even argue in court that they were battling some sort of mental illness that was why they hurt people. So instead of getting punished in jail, they would simply be transferred to a competent facility to get the help they 'deserved.'

Taehyung called it bullshit.

"—Because apparently, saving myself isn't good enough to be an excuse." Bullshit since he wasn't treated like this. He couldn't even do good things even if he wanted to.

He couldn't do bad things as it would cause you to hate him too.

"So tell me," your breathing hitched when you felt his hot breath on your left cheek.

He was standing too close.

"What do you think does this look like now?"

You couldn't answer his question so you just proceeded to also ask him a question, something that he would find hard to answer.

"Why?" Your lips trembled. "Is the kiss we shared not enough to satisfy your capital vices?"

As expected, it took him long to respond.

Taehyung only nuzzled your cheek, eyes tightly shut as he felt how good it was to be this close to you.

"No," but he moved away from you, eyes finally opened.

Your ashes were blown by the wind.

"It's not enough..."

a/n: i know, i know the characters are annoying af 😔 two chapters left so dw! everything will be ok next chap. i promise! (?)

### i appreciate feedback ♥️

##### this is super unedited. im so sorry. im only using my phone.

#ficswithluv #taehyung angst #taehyung fantasy au #taehyung fluff #kim taehyung x you #taehyung x y/n #taehyung x reader #taehyung x oc #devil taehyung #demon taehyung #taehyung devil au #taehyung demon au #taehyung roommate #taehyung roommate au #taehyung fanfic #taehyung enemies to lovers #taehyung e2l

[nettles-bo-bettles]

Daminette Hogwarts au

Marinette's POV:

I went down to the common room to get out of the dormitories and go eat breakfast when Adrien started chasing after me and trying to get me to get back together with him. There's no way I'm even being friends with him after what he did. Ughhhhhh I feel like this is so cringyyyyyy!!!! What can I say I'm in middle school, there's no way I'm not making this cringy. I'm so sorry for making it this way but this is how Imma do it.

~Flashback~

"hmmmmm Adrien did tell me to meet him here." Marinette looks around only to see Adrien and Lila kissing. "w-why?" She asked Adrien. "WAIT MARINETTE IT'S NOT WHAT IT LOOKS LIKE!!!!!!!!" Adrien yells after her while she walks away. "Oh really? I think I know exactly what it looks like. You and your new girlfriend kissing while I sit here with barely any friends after she fucking turned everyone against me. That's what it looks like and that's exactly what's happening right now." She said in a power woman voice. "I swear that's not what happened princess, she just started kissing me that's it right when she saw you she kissed me, I swear." He said pleading. "You were fucking holding her that doesn't seem like her just kissing you." She said. "please I swear it wasn't at all what it looked like" He said still pleading. "You know what else this looks like?" She asked. "No what else does it look like???" He said now confused. "It looks like you're single, oh wait that doesn't make sense, let me rephrase that, it looks like you're now dating a liar and cheater and no longer dating the best witch of our age." She told him. She walked away and that was the end of their friendship and relationship

~End of flashback~

That cheating asshole will never get so much as a sliver of attention from me. After ignoring Adrien the whole time I went down to eat breakfast and went through all my classes for today. After classes I walked with Chloe, Alya and Juleka to the dormitories and we all started packing for Hogwarts. A few days later it was finally time to go to Hogwarts and we all got in Madame Maxime's carriage to get to Hogwarts. It was a few hours long but it felt like it would last forever. Eventually we got to Hogwarts and I was so excited, I knew my friend Fleur would be the champion for Beauxbatons even if all of the mindless sheep think that Lie-la will be the champion, I know it'll be Fleur. We landed on the ground and entered the building, still waiting for the people from Ilvermony.

Not even ten minutes later we saw a hot air balloon drifting down to the grounds and soon landing. After the balloon landed the kids from Ilvermony and their headmaster walked out of the giant air balloon and quickly walked into the castle for warmth. While they were walking in I locked eyes with a handsome boy who looked around my age, he had short black hair, tan skin, and forest green eyes, he was also very tall and did I mention he was handsome??? Did I say that he was very handsome??? I can't remember if I told you that this boy was hot af!!!!!

After everyone from Ilvermony was in Hogwarts we went into the Great Hall and sat with the houses we wanted to sit with. Ilvermony sat with the Slytherins and my school sat with the Ravenclaws. I noticed the handsome boy talking to another boy who looked to be our age who had light blonde hair, grey eyes, and seemed to be pretty short but also quite attractive. As I was walking out of the great hall to get to the Lady's Room I heard them say talking, the tan one's name, I think, is Damian, and the blonde one's name, if I heard correctly, was Draco. When I came back from the Lady's Room Adrien started begging for me to take him back again, so of course like any other normal human would do, I just walked away and sat at the Gryffindor table. I sat down to a girl named Hermione who I had met while she was visiting Paris during the summer and came to eat at the bakery my parents own. She said she was a Gryffindor at Hogwarts so there was no doubt that, if the people in my year started getting on my nerves, I would go sit at the Gryffindor table with her. When I sat down two boys who were sitting on the other side of her just sat and stared at me until I said

"Hermione are your friends alright??? They seem a bit like they're um well daydreaming about some random shit that probably doesn't matter." of course I said this while looking at them just to point out the fact that I am not the type to let people get away with shit like this, I'm too evil for that.

"oh, Harry and Ron? Yeah they're fine probably dreaming about the veela girl at the Ravenclaw table who came over and took the bouillabaisse." Hermione said.

"oh, you mean Fleur??? Fleur's the best, I bet she'll be Champion for Beauxbatons, I already know it won't be Lie-la tho, that girl could never be the Champion." I said to Hermione.

"I don't doubt that Fleur could be champion, I bet there'll be two Hogwarts champions though, one that put their name in purposely and then Harry, I mean Harry is Harry Potter after all so it's bound to happen." Hermione said this with such a sure look on her face that nobody could argue with her, not even me.

"I can't argue with that can I?"

After dinner and getting to know Ron and Harry, we went to the Gryffindor common room. I walked up the stairs to the girls dormitory with Hermione and we both went to bed. The next morning I woke up and got changed into a cute outfit, because Hogwarts decided to let the visitors wear whatever we wanted instead of our uniforms. So of course I put on my ADORABLE outfit and went out to the common room.

My outfit:

Except you know, she got her normal blue hair. But everything else is the same as the picture.

Me and Hermione went down to the common room, and got Ron and Harry and went to the Great hall for breakfast. As we were going to the Great Hall, we passed Damian and Draco, Draco then started an argument.

"Hey mudblood, blood traitor, what are you doing with the new girl hm?" Draco said.

"Hey, who you calling mudblood??? Hermione could beat you in a duel any day she wanted." I told him.

"Ohhhh the new girl's feisty isn't she?" He said in a teasing voice.

"Shut up Draco, nobody cares what you think, I mean after all who could when you walk around like you're a king when you probably don't have a family that cares about you even a little bit." I said.

"Sh-SHUT UP YOU DON'T KNOW ANYTHING!!!!!!!" He shouted at me.

Then they just walked away. Of course, they walked away while Damian was giving us apologetic looks. The next few days were really similar, until Damian was no longer seen around Draco. A few weeks after Damian stopped hanging out with Draco we saw Damian in the Gryffindor common room, waiting for us.

"What are you doing here Wayne?" Harry asked in a kind of snotty tone that I had never heard before.

"You know I didn't like Malfoy treating you all like that, and I've gotten tired of him, all he talks about is how he's a pure blood and how much money he has, I'm exhausted really." He told Harry while looking apologetic.

"Oh alright then, you can hang out with us." Harry said with a COMPLETE change of mood.

"Thanks guys." Damian said with a smile on his face, he walked over to us to shake hands and we locked eyes again.

I'm not gonna lie my legs felt like jelly when we locked eyes, we just stared at each other for what felt like eternity until Hermione snapped us out of it by saying "Hey lovebirds, as adorable as this is, we all really should be going to bed soon. It's already 10:00 and we have to be up early tomorrow for the announcement of who the champions are for the Triwizard Tournament." she was also snapping her fingers a lot, I don't really know why but she did what she thought she had to do.

#this was when daminette was my otp #I hate this #not beta read #lettuce

[onisiondrama]

"let's talk" April 29, 2021, Speaks

Summary part 1

James says someone accused him of not being consistent. He says if you pay attention to his videos, you'd know he is very consistent. He says he is going to prove it.

In his last video, he said he was diagnosed with depression. Someone in the comments said he said he was diagnosed with Adjustment Disorder. He says in their world you can only be diagnosed with one thing and that's not how psychology works.

He says November 14, 2007 he was suicidal- not to say he wasn't suicidal since. He told his boss / staff sergeant he wanted to die and turned in his weapon. He says he was a cop. They sent him to the basement of the hospital of Osan Air Force Base- he points out he has all these details you can verify with his previous videos. He says people online don't like to do research or pay attention to anything that doesn't fit their narrative. He answered the doctor's questions and the doctor told him he has major depressive disorder- (he corrects himself) episode.

He spoke to a therapist on base and cried in his office. The therapist diagnosed him with chronic depression. He says people point out he said he was diagnosed with major depression, but the paper said chronic depression or vice versa. [It was vice versa. There was no public paper that said he had chronic depression. He tried to have his fans find paperwork that said "chronic depression" in March 2020, but no one was able to find it. All there is publicly is a paper from January 2008 that said adjustment disorder with single episode of major depression and a paper from February that said major depression.] He says different people have different assessments of human beings.

He says people think he never passed basic training. The internet is full of people who don't care about facts. This is why he comes and goes. Does he really want to entertain these people? Too many toxic and stupid people. He says when you kick toxic people out of your life and block them they don't go away. They'll make a documentary on you.

He's been depressed and suicidal throughout the years. Last year he was diagnosed with adjustment disorder by a therapist through video.

He now has a therapist he sees and she agrees with pretty much everything he has to say. He says it's weird because the internet gaslight him for so long saying a therapist would see what a maniac narcissist he was. This therapist was selected for him, he didn't pick her. He says she's like, "uh huh, uh huh. Wow that sounds really horrible. I'm sorry you had to go through that." She just relates to him and validates him.

He doesn't understand how the internet can define a human they never met when they never gave the internet a confession or admission they are what they accuse them of. If someone filmed themselves chopping up a body, then they are obviously a psychopath. When you make assessments based on your feelings, that's toxic.

If he was lying you would catch him being significantly inconsistent.

He says after he was diagnosed with adjustment disorder, he looked at the paperwork and it said major depressive disorder or major something (he doesn't remember). He says that was also the initial diagnosis at Osan on November 14th.

He says there was a military guy who did a livestream trying to expose him. He says a lot of you guys missed it because commentary channels didn't talk about it. He said the veteran came up with questions for James and he couldn't find anything that was dishonest.

You can put him on a lie detector to prove the mob is nonsensical and people are mad because he rejected them for being liars and criminals. He'd be happy to do it because he's a person of principle, he cares about the truth. If someone is dishonest, he kicks them out of his life. If someone is a liar, you don't know why they are. They could be a psycho murderer, they could be anyone. It's no surprise if you kick them out of your life for lying, they're going to lie about you. Like in high school if a girl rejects a guy he tells everyone she's a slut.

There's so many liars in the world there's the phrase "everybody lies." He says he hates that phrase because everyone doesn't lie. Some people can't communicate so they don't have the ability to lie. There's people who are wonderful people that don't go around saying nasty things.

He called someone out for illegally doing drugs and they said everyone does that drug. He says no they don't. It's a dishonest delusion.

When you kick someone who lies out of your life they keep lying to have a sense of superiority and to not have to correct their faults. He's dealt with people like this over and over again. No one wants to be the villain so they say the other person is evil.

He doesn't deal in delusions, he deals in evidence. That's why he set up his evidence page on his website. He has proof of that person (Sarah) even claiming they are a groomer. Why does he have all the evidence and everyone else conveniently lost theirs?

[tintinwrites]

the stars were made for falling | Poe Dameron x Reader | Part Six

A/N: Hey, it’s been a while since I posted a chapter of this! Holiday season was crazy busy and when I had the time to write, I just didn’t want to. But I got the chapter finished and I think it’s ok???????? It’s not that great, but I hope you guys like it anyway lol. Work is back to normal so I’m hoping to write more!! <3

Rating: Hard T, soft M for just the dark themes of the story

Warning: Reader has to kill someone. Poe is broken and nearly unrecognizable it’s gr8. Hux is lowkey into you bc you’re hot. Naughty language. Lots of crying or almost crying. These kids are in a lot of pain. Poe deserves a hug. Everyone deserves a hug.

Word count: 2,975, apparently!!

Summary: You prove your loyalty to the First Order, and your move to the dark side destroys Poe.

Masterlist

GIF credit: No idea, but it’s not mine.

Tags: @marvelous-revengers @fandomnerdxox

You fantasized that the First Order would immediately set you free and let you do as you pleased, but that was pretty unrealistic.

You were put into a bigger, well-lit cell, at least.

A cell which stormtroopers actually entered to give you food.

Food that was more than sludge; slightly fluffy bread was delivered to you with your usual water. You ate it like it was the finest meal you'd ever been given.

Much to your surprise, it was only a day or two before a stormtrooper came and lead you rather gently down the hallway.

Gently meaning that you weren't dragged or forced with a blaster to your back.

Even though you had a new plan and things were different, you were still a little scared as you were brought into Hux's office. There was obviously the possibility that he knew your plan and was lulling you into a false sense of security, and was about to kill you.

But he smiled at you and stood as you entered, walking around his desk to meet you. "I must say, I wasn't as surprised as I expected to be when you said you wanted to join us. I knew you had potential all along."

Good. This was good. Well, it wasn't good that you had some clear potential to be evil, but it was good that he wasn't suspicious of you.

"But I do wonder how much they've ruined your mind. If you can really come back from years under their ideology." He didn't see your face fall as he moved to speak into your ear. "And a small part of me wonders if you are...lying?"

"I'm not," you said almost too quickly, too nervously, trying to keep a level stare as he moved to look at you. "Poe Dameron and the Resistance have brought me to captivity and torture, and I can see what they are now."

Liar. Liar.

Did you lie better than Poe, you wondered.

"Only looking out for themselves, yes?" He hummed. "Oh, it's so easy to act. No, I want you to prove yourself; prove that you've learned, that you're strong enough to be with us. Strong enough to kill your pilot, perhaps. I won't have a pathetic traitor running around this base, trying fruitlessly to escape. Bring the girl in."

The girl? What girl? Weren't you 'the girl'? Weren't you pretty much the only girl around here as far as you knew?

Apparently not. A young woman was dragged in, your age or perhaps younger, crying and struggling against the cuffs that bound her arms behind her back.

"She was conspiring against us, helping anyone she could to fight back. It's a good thing we took control of her planet before she could do any sort of damage." As Hux explained, you felt a weight in your hands and then he was guiding your arms up. "Go ahead."

You were confused for a moment; you looked at Hux, then at your hands. You knew what was going on when you saw the added weight was a blaster.

"No!" You immediately lowered the blaster. "I...I mean, I want to kill Poe because I hate him. I don't hate her."

"Killing has nothing to do with hate. It has to do with necessity." He grabbed your arms firmly and raised them up. "Hatred just happens to make it more fun. Now, prove yourself to me."

If you didn't prove yourself, he would know everything was a lie and you imagined whatever came of it would make you consider your previous arrangements to be enjoyable.

But you had to convince him by murdering an innocent person.

You must have been watching the woman weep for too long as Hux moved to speak in your ear again.

"If you think what you went through was difficult, you would be horrified at what's in store for her. You'll be putting her out of her misery, just like your pilot should have done for you, and just like I would do for you. I can be loyal if you are willing to do the same."

"I..."

You wanted to turn the blaster on yourself.

But you couldn't leave Poe.

And if what they would do to the girl in front of you was worse than isolation, practical starvation, torture of you, and torture of someone you cared about, how could you let her go through that?

Was killing her really the better option?

"I know you. You're from the Resistance!" The way she looked at you and sobbed in relief had you trembling harder than you already were. "Please, get us out of here..."

"Do the right thing." Hux spoke so softly, his words should have been sweet. "Do what the Resistance is too selfish to do."

If you killed her, she would be out of harm's way.

Your plan would continue.

But you would kill her.

She was looking at you like a hero, expecting you to save her when you were going to do the opposite. Or at least save her in a different way.

"Please...I want to go home."

"Oh, fuck." Tears were filling your eyes, but you held them back because otherwise Hux would know that this was destroying you too much for someone who claimed to want to kill a friend.

You tightened your grip on the blaster. You had to do this.

Even if the girl's eyes widened in recognition and she started to cry harder.

Even though your finger hesitated on the trigger, refusing to move enough to cause any action.

You had to do it for you, for Poe, for the Resistance, and for the girl in some fucked up sort of way that protected her from a life of torture.

But it hurt so much. Your chest was squeezing, your entire body shaking, your tears were begging to fall, and a sob was building up within you.

She wept with everything she had.

You noticed the weeping stop and everything go silent before you actually noticed you'd pulled the trigger.

And there she was, on the floor, eyes staring at nothing and one of her shoulders bent awkwardly in her position. Not that she would feel it, since you had just—

You dropped the blaster so quickly that Hux had to catch it more than simply take it from you.

"Remember, this isn't the first time you've killed." He was right about that. "But it is the first time you've done it rightfully. You have proven your strength and loyalty. Now return to your cell for the time being."

You barely listened to him, walking in almost a trance as a stormtrooper took you out of the office. As the door shut, you snapped out of it and every emotion that you forced back came rushing forward.

You wept like the girl.

"No, no, no, no. Oh, fuck." Your knees gave out and the trooper had to pull you back up, practically dragging you down the hallway. "What did I do? What did I do?"

You knew exactly what you did, and that didn't help.

Seeming insane to any passerby, you continued to sob out 'no's and profanities, even as you were shoved into your cell, You stumbled and collapsed, crying against the floor as your actions continued to dawn on you.

You could see her eyes.

You could feel her eyes.

It took you a moment to notice that the stormtrooper was standing in the doorway, staring at you. You tried to pull yourself together. "Plea—please don't—don't tell Hux." You figured they were watching to report that you were weak, but they kept staring. "Wha—what?"

Your breath hitched in slight hope, your sobs softening just a little as you forced yourself to sit up. "Finn?" They just kept standing there, proving themselves in a much tamer way than you'd just had to prove yourself. "Finn!"

You practically crawled towards him, seeking comfort from a friend that you didn't deserve. It seemed to spook him out of whatever reverie he was in, making him back up and shut the door.

Alone. It took you a moment to process his quick departure, then your tears returned.

Finn was irrelevant at the moment, compared to what you did.

You killed a completely innocent woman who was begging you to save her, all so you could follow through with your stupid plan.

You curled up against the wall, shivering and sobbing.

You always considered yourself to be on the light side, that you would never turn to something as obviously wrong as the dark side.

But could you be sure of that now?

Would killing someone innocent be the start of something you wouldn't be able to stop?

You'd been staring at the wall for hours.

She wasn't the first person you killed. How many stormtroopers had you taken out, not considering that there were human beings underneath their armor?

Those had been life or death situations.

Was killing that girl life or death, or just your selfishness? You wanted to save Poe — and yourself, if you were being honest — and put so much importance in your plan to do so, that you had done the unthinkable.

She was so innocent. She was good, better than you could ever dream of being.

So desperate. So afraid.

Of you. It wasn't Hux who killed her, no matter how many times you tried to rationalize that you were forced into it.

No one forced you. You killed the girl all by yourself, with too little hesitation in your opinion.

If you and Poe did get out, could you really just join the Resistance again? Now that you were a murderer?

More of a murderer.

You didn't look up when the door opened. You didn't look up when a stormtrooper walked over to you. You didn't look up as they spoke to you. You didn't look up when they held out pristinely folded clothes.

"General Hux has requested for you to change."

You might have made a biting comment before, but you couldn't now. You were on their side and you killed someone to prove it.

Instead, you took the clothes and unfolded them. It was some sort of First Order uniform, though of a very low rank. It was dark and plain, with their symbol sewn into it. You didn't even get a hat.

"Thank you." You weren't sure why you thanked them.

"Come to the door when you're finished."

You watched the stormtrooper leave, and you made yourself stand, and you made yourself change, and then you slowly walked to the door.

The stormtrooper allowed you to walk by their side, so you certainly proved yourself.

You still couldn't manage to be happy about it.

When you approached Hux's office, you felt a jolt of fear go through you at the possibility of having to kill someone else. Or maybe they left everything and wanted you to clean it up.

All you could focus on was how hard your heart was beating. Hadn't you done enough? Couldn't you get a break and figure out the rest of your plan, and get somewhere safe where you could destroy yourself for what you'd done?

The sight of Poe there, on his knees with his gaze on the floor, only served to make your heart beat even harder because were they going to have you kill him already?

No, you needed time. You had to complete your plan and get the two of you out before killing him became a real option.

Beneath your fear was something pitiful; the desire to collapse before him, to crawl into his lap and weep about what you'd done. To admit that you killed someone to save your and his asses, that you might as well turn to the dark side, that you were awful, that you should have turned the blaster on yourself instead.

But you couldn't. You wanted to kill him as far as General Hux knew, and you had to keep your entire being neutral. Your legs and your chin trembled, but you stood tall and kept your tears at bay. You decided it would be best not to look at Poe.

"Eyes up, dog," said Hux from where he stood behind his desk proudly.

You heard a strangled noise, and then you realized why they had given you this outfit and why they brought you to see Poe.

Today you would be killing him, but not physically.

"No, no, no, no, baby, not you. Please, not you." You could tell he was crying just from hearing him speak.

There was a sudden force against your legs that would have had you toppling over were it not for the arms wrapping around you, Poe's face pressing to the front of your pants.

You stood stiffly and stared straight ahead as he wept, fighting your damn hardest to keep from crying with him. If you thought seeing him in pain was difficult, nothing prepared you for seeing this strong, good man completely falling apart at your feet.

You thought he had been broken before.

You couldn't say sorry. You couldn't fall to the floor with him and hold him, and tell him that none of it was real.

You could stand there and pretend you didn't care. That was it.

"Do you know what she said, dog?" There was the prideful, amused general, walking from around his desk. "That she hates you. That she wants to...kill you." Now he did laugh; apparently he was capable of it.

"No, this is a lie." Poe pulled away enough to look up at you desperately while you continued to stare straight ahead. "Tell me this is a lie! Tell me they didn't get to you, please."

"Kick him away."

"You can't do this to me, you're supposed to get out. I have to get you out."

You closed your eyes against the coming tears, forcing yourself to nudge him with your knee, which barely made him move. You nudged a bit harder, managing to get him to give away enough for you to start to move back.

He followed, grabbing at any part of you he could. "You're so strong, sweetheart, you can't let them turn you into this. Please tell me you're faking this."

The Poe you knew might have gone along with this, might have realized you were doing this for protection.

But the Poe you knew had not been a broken man who saw his kindest friend turned into a heartless stormtrooper. If Finn had fallen, what hope was there for you?

He kept begging as you squirmed to get out of his grip, so pitiful that your tears were trying to fall and you knew you had to get out of there. You were seconds away from diving into his arms, admitting everything, and begging for forgiveness that wasn't even his to give.

He was completely breaking because of you when all you wanted to do was to get him out and help him heal.

Was this plan worth it? Would you succeed? And if you did, would Poe be okay? Or would this be what completely brought him down?

He grasped desperately at your ankles when you pulled away, causing you to fall to the floor, scrambling to get away from him. Your plan would be ruined if you broke with him.

A stormtrooper dragged him back and you hurried to your feet, running out of the room without a care if you got in trouble. Even if it revealed to them that this was all a ruse, at least they might put you out of your misery.

You hadn't realized you were barely breathing until you stumbled into the hallway and took the deepest breath you were sure you ever had in your life. You held onto the wall to stay standing, closing your eyes tightly as you reminded yourself, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry, don't cry.

There were footsteps behind you, followed by a suspicious tone, "Is something the matter, Y/N?"

Your name sounded strange on Hux's tongue. It made your skin crawl.

You would be absolutely fucked and not at all put out of your misery if you admitted that this was all fake.

Slowly straightening up, you turned to face him. "I...hate being touched by him. He betrayed me and I..." You trailed off, unsure of what else to say.

You didn't realize you were avoiding his gaze until he gently grasped your chin, lifting your head to search for the truth in your eyes.

"I see." His thumb ran over your bottom lip, with no Poe to jump him. No actual you to kick his ass because you had to pretend to tolerate him. "Once your last thread to the Resistance is gone, you and I could make...quite the team." The way his fingers trailed along your jawline told you clearly what sort of team he had in mind.

"Yes." Now you wanted to cry even more than before.

Maybe you were in over your head with this plan. What if you couldn't figure a way out before you were faced with your 'desire' to kill Poe?

Would they kill you if you refused? Or continue to torture you until you were old and withered?

You could imagine them killing Poe in front of you and making you live with the pain.

Or maybe they would do it the other way around.

Hux pulled away, seeming almost satisfied. "His public execution will be held two days from now. You may choose the weapon, of course."

In over your head or not, you were going to have to go through with this.

Unless some miracle got you, Poe, and Finn out of it.

A miracle would have been really fucking helpful at this point.

#poe dameron imagine #poe dameron x reader #star wars imagine #poe dameron fic #idk why you guys like this #jk i actually do #human feels demand angst #it's just our thing #poor Poe #and reader obvs #the stars were made for falling

[animentality]

I'm sorry but the Facebook scandal to me is just so irrelevant

They steal your data for political research and dumb marketing things?

Ok?

Don't be an idiot and look at ads on Facebook. I haven't believed a thing I've seen on Facebook since I got it. What am I, a 60 year old woman looking for political news that perfectly suits my biases?

And if the problem is that old people do believe the news they read on Facebook...then that's an intelligence problem.

It's got nothing to do with Facebook, idiots will be idiots.

That's not to say i like Facebook or want to defend Zuckerberg though.

I mean I'm just numb to corporate meddling at this point.

Facebook influenced the American 2016 election? ? ! !

So did Russia.

Through Tumblr too, lmao.

Big deal.

I'm sorry to tell you this, but americans were weak minded and desperate enough to believe the lies they were told.

The fact that it was Russians and wealthy conservatives that influenced them doesn't matter, it reveals a structural problem with American society that could've been and has been exploited by anyone.

People who are continually shocked by the fact that their world is becoming increasingly dystopian are a little late to the program.

The fact that people steal my data and try to lie to me is not disturbing to me, why would it be?

It's very human, isn't it, being a thief, a liar, and a self-centered entrepreneur, and it's not fair to call Zuckerberg a lizard or a robot like you guys are doing.

Because lizards and robots don't steal data, they're good things in this galaxy.

It's humans that are bad.

Humans that do all manners of nonsense, and have been since the beginning of human time, in an effort to control one another.

So Facebook is another opium of the masses, and an ideological state apparatus and a weapon of biopiower/biopolitics/ surveillance.

Does it really matter?

I don't think so, personally, I think that if you really want change, you're not going to ask yourself why Facebook is so evil, manipulating people to vote for trump, but instead ask yourself why trump propoganda worked so well.

And what it says about the American people, whose data and info was so easy to manipulate and so easy to use to affect a political election.

The world is so easily revealed to be a dystopia and we've known this for so long, in fact Karl Marx fucking knew this lmao, Louis Althusser, Foucault, Eric Wolf, Edward Said.

Social theorists know mob mentality, and structures of power that are used to withhold information and resources from people. They've always known.

Regular people know this too, deep down or even on the surface.

When are we all going to wake the fuck up and stop blaming just one corporation or one CEO for being sleazy? It's all of them. They all have dirty secrets.

And a lot of them have worse secrets that dumb Facebook and its "well we sell your data to a company that wants to sell you strap ons based on your interests."

The secret is that they will work you to death and dine on your grave, but you'd rather believe the true terrible thing is that Americans were deceived into voting for trump.

When people who voted for trump deceived themselves.

And believed he'd do what he said he would do, but worse, that it would actually help them and alleviate some of America's suffering.

That's the part you should be interested in.

But no one cares about structures, just headlines and blurbs.

#facebook