#there’s the fucking dog at home tho

[bunniepaws]

everything is so frustrating !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

#personal #uuuuugggggghhhhhh #some vacation #i wanna go home #ugh #there’s the fucking dog at home tho #UUUUUUGGGGGGHHHHHH

[kazoologist]

congratulations to Mme. Pascale Leclerc, who has surely just experienced both the funniest and most unhinged weekend a mother could ever have. Dear fucking christ, I hope your middlest son brought you a bottle of champagne for yourself, ma'am.

#kazoo noises #charles leclerc #cl16 #monaco gp 2024 #zoomies posting #sports posting #like man. where to begin. one of your racecar children is back in town for the weekend. he has yet to have a truly good work #weekend it seems in town. now this year. we're feeling ourselves a bit. we're feeling optimistic even. and then ur son becomes talk of town #because he keeps doing fucking bits on twitter about adopting his coworker who is friends with your youngest son. this goes on long enough #for actual reporters to comment on it. no one is willing to blink first so by friday night we've yes-anded ourselves to a grandson #(congratulations mme leclerc) #things go well. and then at qualifying they go DAMN WELL #BETTER THAN EVER REALLY! but man. im superstitious. i dont trust shit until its over and the dust has cleared #(the adoption jokes have continued by the way) and MEANWHILE everyone is eyeing that starting grid. were humming. we're making vague hand #gestures when commenting. we're all thinking. Maybe? (the streets can hear u tho. keep it down) #race starts. lap one CHAOS. so many fucking crashes. i'd faint if i had a child even in karting honestly. #(every parent in this sport deserves a prescription for laudanum) #but he's not in it. hes at the front. and he. well. he just Stays There. Through It All. and the laps tick down. until the race is run. and #there he is. your middlest son. cross the line and into the books. first place. home town. what curse indeed. thats your boy!!!!!!!! THERE! #they play the radio of him winning and the audio is peaked because he screams out so loudly. you can hear the water in the laughter. #later theres gonna be videos and photos taken of him pushing his boss into the harbor and diving right in after the man. those photos are #gonna be fucking studied in photography classes one day. and STILL! everyone involved with that goofy joke about him adopting his coworker #(who. despite all the silliness of the race stayed second place and got a podium) is still carrying the bit like a baton relay. Do you have #him over for family dinner? might as well add a plate i guess! people are joking about your youngest son having two nephews? a dog born #maybe a month ago and a man born about... what twenty three years and about a month ago? fuck it! family dinner #sorry this bit got away from me but as someone who loves my homecity and my mom so much it might actually be like. #a visible growth inside my body if they do an autopsy on me at time of death or like. my love will eat me alive. sometimes the charratives #gets to me #anyway cheers mme leclerc i hope you party so fucking hard this week

[thewastelandlosers]

Girl, get your messy ass up, you did not just run off and die to fucking geckos!!

#ive just started this fucking game and ive alreadt had 5 frozen screens and a crash when i approached Easy Pete!!! #man really didnt want me talking to him that he sent me back to the home screen. #then this girl is supposed to be teaching me a few things to survive and runs off ahead leaving me with her dog! #and when i finally catch up i find her dead ass like girl be fucking for real right now 😭 #i havent even left Goodspring yet and already getting issues #i won my first ever game in Caravan tho lol #fallout gameplay #fallout nv #fallout new vegas #fnv #fnv gameplay

[todderwodders]

Today has been something else

#emdr tappers broke and I cannot afford to replace them and I gotta live with the anxiety of my sister coming home and screaming more #because -looks at notes- I didn't wake her up when she wanted me to #first think she did today was throw a box at me #which in terms of physical aggression like it's not the worst she's ever done #but now I am shaking and my plans for the day (actually doing something) are ruined #and. my migraine is back #sorry to be a bummer #nic talks #edit: should clarify that my sister left my not busted ones at a friends six months ago and hasn't done anything to get them back #even tho they're 150 fucking dollars #she did not ask me to wake her up #I'm so tired of her treating me worse than a dog

[boopboops22]

Hanging out at the park with friends on a breezy summer day could fix me

#my joints hurt so so bad and my family isnt going to be home until tomorrow afternoon #and I miss my dog and my cat and the summer and doing sports and having close freinds #I miss playing minecraft on an xbox 360 and walking my brother home from school and having my mom brush my hair #I am filled with devastating amounts of grief over what has come to pass and what will never be #but alas. Its 1:30 am and I have school in the morning #no fr tho my joints and ribs hurt so fucking bad im gonna explode #save me minecraft ost. save me #rambles

[lupismaris]

Played fuckin D1 rugby players today (we are D3 for the record) and for the entire 30 minutes I was on the field they did not score. Neither did we, mind, but while I was with the pack those fucks did not score and that's what matters.

#i landed in two inches of frigid standing water at least three times. did about twelve back to back scrums. dunno the tackle #number there were many. one dog pile that fucked my neck a bit because that blond bitch diagonal from me kept wrenching #i played with the starting pack and im very proud of everyone. i could have done better but I didn't go into it with the best headspace #had some good convo with coaches tho about the pack and our set up and tbh they felt i did solid for my game time so maybe its me #being hard on myself #got a lovely drunken ode of admiration from the fierce side captain which had me ready to cry #rest of my squad is out partying with the dc team. i am soaking these old bones and hoping they get home safe #im the sober dd as always this season #brunch at 11 tomorrow 🥂. Saturday is a Rugby really means your weekend is never your own lmao

[steorransaluki]

well.

that was certainly not how I expected tonight to go.

#talking #cooper finch and bambi cornered a fucking raccoon while i was driving home from work #so I get a call half way home like “uh your dog got in a fight with a raccoon” excuse ME #the girls are fine and were smart enough to stay back and just bark at it apparently #cooper...cooper decided he wanted to bite it. cooper fucked around and found out. #he's alright. nothing that'll need stitches and he just got all his shots updated this spring so I'm not too worried #will be calling the vet first thing to get him seen tho

[llycaons]

xl went through so much insane suffering, things like being stabbed until he barely resembles a human form and being locked in a coffin for literally a hundred years, but I think making him immortal and ever-healing and showing how much he learned from his experiences AND ending his story with so much closure and close relationships makes his tragedies a lot easier to bear than wwx's. like, emotionally

#when I see xl I go marlon brando voice *look how they massacred my boy* #reading books 2 and 4 going wow this is really sad im glad that's behind xl and he's at such peace #reading the flashbacks in mdzs and going WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK WHAT THE FUCK #wwx does have a nice little recovery arc in the book but he's still clearly really messed up from a lot that had happened to him #and compartmentalizing and avoiding his past and desperately trying to survive another day #in a way xl really wasn't. he was just chilling #this is why I never read tgcf fic unless it's very goofy or pokes fun at canon #it feels like such a more complete story with no loose ends or lingering issues #tho tbf I don't really search for novel fic I search for cql fic and happen to run into novel stuff that I like sometimes #which is usually modern with magic or dealing with various things I thought weren't handled well like the sex scenes #also he was by all accounts a very stable and happy child and young adult. the shit didn't even start until he was 17 #by that point wwx had lost two sets of parents been hunted on the street by feral dogs as a starving child been tortured multiple times #has lost his home to a violent invasion had given up his core in a painful procedure that he knew would eventually kill him #and been in a war #hm. anyway. #tgcf txp

[ghostzzy]

so it’s becoming increasingly clear that i will be living alone in the next year, and abby will definitely be taking mishka because mishka is more bonded with her and i am not reliably able enough to meet her exercise needs, and everyone keeps telling me i should think about getting my own pet, and :^(

#mishka is still my baby girl tho. even if i don’t get to see her every day. even if she doesn’t live with me anymore. #i don’t want to replace her in my heart :^((( #and idk if i could take care of a dog all by myself. or if i’d want to. #i feel like my lifestyle is much better for a cat but i’m so allergic to cats. #ugh idk. i have plenty of time to think abt it still bc our lease isn’t up until next year #and it’s not like i need to get a pet immediately or anything. #but mishka is cuddling with me rn and i’m just. sad. #i love her so much. i miss her all the time when abby takes her to stay at her bf’s for days. #and i’m gonna miss her so much more when abby doesn’t live with me anymore and mishka never comes home. :^((((( #i know i’m borrowing grief from the future. but like. fuck man. #crying on my couch. crying on my dog. happy tuesday. #izzy.txt

[iliveinprocrasti-nationn]

two of my dogs are getting on in years and the other has arthritis so it’s not that i wasn’t expecting something to happen but fuck can it please not happen now

#she’s… 11 now? she was the first dog we ever got #she’s apparently really lethargic. and usually she has a lot of energy #she’s healthy and she’s not a small dog exactly but she sure isn’t a big one she should be fine right now #update i did the math she’ll be closer to 12 #I asked my mum if I should come home and she said she’ll let me know #i just. i thought out of all of them she’d be fine #and i don’t want to have to be gone while this is happening too #i could come home every night but that could be 100 miles a day #i still might tho honestly because i don’t just want to check my phone at the end of a class and just see a text that she’s gone #but. fuck. I went back this weekend. she was fine. she was completely healthy and fine #i don’t know what happened #vent tw

[kenobihater]

the last remaining threads of my sanity are slipping through my fingers rn 🚬 😑

#i'm out of cigarettes i'm incredibly ill and i'm reconsidering my relationship to a certain fandom. #look i'm NOT saying i'm gonna stop the divorce proceedings but uh. fuck. i may have been re reading some of my older works and unfinished #fics and i MAY. i repeat MAY. have some tiny shred of interest posting about st*r w*rs again #motherfucker i'm SO hesitant to speak that into existence and will be absolutley APOPLECTIC if it happens bc i don't fucking WANNA like sw! #i divorced it! i took the kids (my ocs) & filed a restraining order & crossed state lines & broke all contact and yet! and fucking yet!!!! #i find myself in tags i havent visited in over two years on the archive like some beaten dog slinking back home to a shitty master #i honestly hate like. fucking ALL of the shit i've written from then that i reread and some of it was so bad i couldnt even bring myself to #click on it after reading the summary. like. UGH! i have a half baked fic idea i wrote a little for and i think it's more compelling than #any of the literal dogshit i posted back then so i MIGHT work on polishing that up and posting something that isn't actual garbage by my #current standards. all of this is still up in the air tho bc i dont know if the hyperfixation or even the bare minimum lvl of interest has #returned or if it's just fever induced delirium. i've been having INCREDIBLY fucked up bad horrible awful vivid dreams as of late so fever #induced brain fuckery isn't out of the question. sigh. i'm so mad abt this #even if i do regain some interest in the fandom i don't think i'll have any interest in new source material after the mando s2 finale & #tbo.bf sucking ass & the obi show being mid & everything with the ST. i plan on watching ando.r but after that? zero interest in anything #new from sw. so. if anyone still reading this and is getting excited abt me POSSIBLY MAYBE being interested in sw just know i still hate it #a bit and feel like i'm being dragged kicking and screaming back into this mess unwillingly. or it's due to a fever. god i need a smoke #len speaks #that's literally the longest tag rant i've ever gone on. fuck that's a BAD sign

[kimjiwoong]

I went on a random walk around my neighbourhood and I realized a few minutes in that I was accidentally taking the route I always took with my dog and now I'm literally heartbroken all over again lmao

#how does one go through the grief of losing a pet? i quite simply don't know #i was very young when we got our first dog and very young when she passed away so i think losing lola truly feels like #my first time experiencing something like this #she spent 14 years with me and now it's like my parents leave and im home alone and im actually really alone #how can u spend 14 years with a living creature and then forget her just like that #like i remember the morning she passed i had to go to work??? girl i wanted to cry and cry and cry. not teach the fucking to be verb #god it feels nice to say it tho #miss her soooo much #i never knew u could form bonds like this w animals until her #sweet girl #sigh ANYWAYS #gonna go have some mate outside while there's still some sunlight #rose.txt

[akkpipitphattana]

truly if i explained some of the things my anxiety convinces me of, i’d be admitted

#tonight my anxiety was so high bc some creepy old man was staring at me at the gas station when i was leaving rehearsal #and like my parents weren’t in the living room when i got home which they usually are so like my anxiety was like #they’re fucking dead in their bedroom and once you open your bedroom door again you’re next #and then i went to the bathroom despite this and came back and my anxiety was like okay the killers under your bed now #like. dog can you be reasonable please #literally sitting in my bed not daring to reach for my phone charger bc of Fear #shit like this happens all the time tho like i have a recurrent fear that whenever i get in my car late at night #there’s someone either in the backseat or trunk and they’ll fucking kill me #even when i know there’s no way that’s possible #but it gets so bad i can’t properly breathe and i refuse to look in my mirror in case someone pops up #like. everytime i think oh my anxiety’s not that bad something like this happens and i’m like. never mind #liz rambles #anxiety tw

[pierswife]

Okay I think I'm sleepy enough to try and fall asleep again, night night

#data log: personal #I definitely needed that nap tho I have NOT been sleeping well the past 2 weeks gamers lmao #I fell asleep watching some resident evil stuff earlier but i think it's time for some pokemon videos instead #fun fact: both times I dog sat/house sat for my older cousin I legit watched nothing but pokemon hardcore nuzlockes whenever I was home #and to fall asleep for the night #idk what it is but hearing someone talk very passionately about pokemon is very comforting and helps me sleep #(tbh being around people who make me feel comfy and safe makes me sleepy as fuck but I digress)

[tonystarkstan]

there was no preparing me for how lonely post-grad life would be lmfao

#I’ve finally cut my mom off #I have like four total friends and only one who lives here #I work 6 days a week at a smoothie shop where the owner treats us horribly #but I stay working 50 hour weeks bc I need the money for a car & to keep saving for grad school #I finally bought my own health insurance #but apparently it doesn’t matter bc no psychiatrists will take me #even tho we’ve called over 10 #my therapist has all but ditched me #it’s been almost a year since the most devastating relationship loss of my life #and while most days I have made my peace with it #I am still sometimes so full of hurt & confusion & regret & longing & the urge to beg on my knees for things to be fixed #my relationship with food is so fucked #I am looking everywhere for the joy in living and I am not finding it #I know it’s there I know it is #but I cannot feel it I am so lonely I am so out of my depth #my mom got rid of the dogs without telling me #I am so desperate for help that I can’t seem to get in this useless country #I want a hug so badly that I am literally have dreams where someone hugs me #I want my mom to just be good and normal and not awful to me #I want to go home but it feels like an intangible place I can no longer go to #i don’t know if there’s any fixing that #I am trying so so hard to be good #and yet I still lose everything & I can only assume the problem is me #but I just want #to be fixed

[thanksfortheflaglove]

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#have been an anxious lil piece of shit since my mother walked past/then in my room bc she smelled something- #this was yesterday btw .. first thing she said was 'u dont vape do u?' and i was like 'no' *queue john mulaney voice: like a liar* #ok well technically only on occasion like if i dont have w**d #anyway she steps into my room and starts fuckin sniffing around and goes 'it smells like .. weed 😐' and just looked at me and guys .. #i am the WORST but my mothers brother aka my gay uncle got kicked out when they were younger bc he smoked too and my mother has grown to #not be fond of it since . so BASICALLY i lightly gaslit her and was like 'mom. seriously ? 🙄' #bc we joke about it on occasion like she went to denver and came back with a fuckin pot that says 'a little pot from colorado' meant for #weed and in my head im like 😭 bro i could actually use this 😭 #so thats how we joke but obviously for me its genuinely funny bc of the irony but anyway . #my anxiety was so high after that bc i literally had my pen on me and i just left the situation and started petting my dog and filled up my #waterbottle trying to think of what the fuck i was going to do next but that was literally the end of that #(at least for now but i dont even want to jinx it) #to be proactive tho bc newsflash i do smoke! i got smart as shit and wrapped my smell proof combo bag to make it look like a gift for my #my friends when i go back to school so she wont think anything of it #and then put my pen old battery and vape in a box hidden away so i can still access them if i need but god DAMN #i was def just being stupid tho bc i forget when im at home i cant be so lax and rip the shit out of my pen with my door closed and no fan #anymore like 😐 u dumb fuck i was smarter at 16 with this shit #anyway. its definitely on me and im just mad at myself for it and hope it doesnt come up again/that she isnt overly paranoid with me like i #am with myself rn #also just for some more background my mom and i have never been super close but im really close with my dad but i love with my mom ? so #after this semester not just bc of this situation but i might be like. ive never had a room at dads and id like to at least for summer #and go from there. they just moved and its so cozy and id love to make my room mine over there for once even if it means moving in for abit #but the one thing that would absolutely break my heart is that my dog lives with my mom and its not like i couldnt still see her but i feel #like id feel guilty/like im abandoning her or something :'( #idk if anyone read this far pls lmk ur thoughts #oh and i work right by my moms so its not like i couldnt still visit her but it would break my heart #kylas thoughts #drugs /