#that's like a full 3 months ago

[thinkin-bout-milgram]

Trial 1 Mini Theory: Kazui Mukuhara

No, it’s not too late! I know the second trial started but it’s fine I’ll get it done before the first MV--

For mini theories, I’m going to be talking about something that either conflicts with my main theory, or just didn’t really have a place to go in that document, but I still want to talk about it. Click here if you want to read my original, larger theory on Kazui.

Now, onto the theory!

Kazui hides something important about himself except for one key moment.

This idea is represented by the mask that Kazui wears. From his first time on stage (1:08), no matter which of his outfits/roles he’s in, he always has a mask on his face. Even through this, though, you can always see Kazui’s eyes, which is interesting given the lack of eyes on most people in his MV.

He does take off the mask, though, at 2:38, after the conversation with his wife in the theater. The fact that that conversation happens in the theater rather than in the set that is their living room makes it feel more like something that might’ve actually clicked for Kazui. I think the theater seats are probably his mind to some extent, so he’s coming to terms with their failed relationship in his own mind. Then, he takes off his mask.

The mask stays off while he performs on stage, while he walks off, and while the movie plays in the background with his disappearing wife and biting the apple. However, when he returns at the end, the last frame of the MV is him putting the mask back on (3:51). 

I’m under the impression that this means that Kazui went through life hiding something about himself, let himself break free of that, which led to the events of his wife’s death, and that he then decided to hide that from the world again, including within Milgram.

This very well might be in line with the theory that Kazui is gay. At first, I really didn’t see it, but after looking closer at his interview questions which mention a notable connection with a (male) childhood friend and looking at it more, I’m starting to be more swayed. We’ll probably find out more in his next MV, though!

#milgram #ミルグラム #kazui mukuhara #does this count as a milgram theory? #milgram kazui #admin venus #IT'S OKAY I'LL GET IT DONE I SWEAR #we're so close to the premiere my brain exists only in the milgram sphere #send help though apparently i posted the mahiru one on may 23 #that's like a full 3 months ago #sorry lol

[mechieonu]

the BEST part of PHM is that you will never know what to expect next. like NEVER. the main character has memory loss. he knows nothing he's supposed to know and everything he shouldn't. love and community is a construct and it's a spaceship with robotic nurse-maid arms. boring old physics is all you need to save the world. aliens are 1.) real 2). frankly fucking baffled that humans breathe fire fuel 3). either single-celled amoeba or 5-legged rock spiders and only one of them is detrimental to the entire solar system. you can't go home again. no, seriously. bitches will literally be staring down the barrel of imminent extinction and still talk abt the Beatles. the secret to political success is to say fuck bureaucracy. einstein was terrifyingly right & More At 11. "What if we accelerated climate change to offset the planet freezing?" -statements dreamed up by the Utterly Deranged. you weren't a star but you can still be the hero. no matter how alone you might be in the universe, you are surrounded by the composite knowledge and hope of your entire species & everyone who has ever lived before you, and this is good good good. the goldilocks zone really WAS for idiots. the avg rectal temperature of a healthy goat is 103.4°F / 39.7°C. and the space ship is a fucking yo-yo.

#project hail mary #the brainworms in my head are shaped like ryland grace and rocky #andy weir you will be Found for your naming schemes #HAIL MARY...FULL OF /GRACE/ #i finished the book 3 months ago and only learned abt the joke TODAY

[synthshenanigans]

The Mind but wearing some pjs that I own cos it seemed very mind like to me

eepy mind real

[Alt versions cos I always make those lol ↓]

#Also finally made a full piece with my actual mind design yippee #Tho I did draw most of it like 2-3 months ago so the art style is a bit wack #oh well still looks nice #also tried a new thing with hair but idk if I like #maybe make it smaller cos it looks a bit too big/poofy #dunno will try out better ways l8r #my art style has it's own identity crisis pft #chonny jash #chonnys charming chaos compendium #cj mind #-atlas art- #i tried to find a good picture of the outfit cos i didn't wanna take one myself #but I can NOT find it anywhere #i think i got it at 5 below so they prolly just don't sell it anymore #its fuzzy warm pjs for the winter but also shorts & a crop top hoodie #sounds counterproductive but eh is neat

[vargaslovinghours]

And never let you go ♥

Bonus without the overspill lighting:

#💟 #Digital art #Full Art #Art #Edgar #Scriabin #It's that time of year again where I get real sappy about Vargas ♥ Because yes! Once again it is my own personal Vargasversary! 🎊 Yaaaay #Seven years now - I don't know what to do with seven years it feels like a hard to define number haha #Right in the middle between five years and ten years! A while to be certain but hard to define as a Long Time either hmm #Well whatever it doesn't matter <3 The important part is that I still love Vargas and them very much ♥♪ #I actually didn't really have any specific plans for this Vargasversary :0 I haven't been drawing them much again #Other things have drawn my focus and attention hehe ♪ #So I just kinda set my hand loose - no sketches on paper no defined idea - this is just what my hand/brain came up with in the moment #I'm pleased :) I think it accurately expresses how I feel about them hehe <3 #I wrote down what ended up being the text/caption a couple months ago while I was in Big Love in their direction #I don't remember what inspired it anymore other than just - They ♥ Themst ♥ Do love them <3 #I've planned my next reread now ♪ Barring anything drastic (like an update lol) I know when I'll be rereading next #I'm looking forward to it! :D As always hehe <3 #It's still a bit a ways off which works well for recharging :) #And of course I'll be doing my usual in the meanwhile - this and the main anniversary and my sketchdumps and Requestober haha #The caption is as much me as it is Edgar after all <3 #Even quiet and sleeping I still find them as a comfort - a place I find rest and joy in ♥ #Inspiring and lovely and wonderful - pretty and tender and dear! #Oh and #Always finding a way to flip up the bottom of the shirt #Hehe <3

[francy-sketches]

2 kitys

#my art #they said >:3 and :< #these r from like a month ago i think. dont have time 4 new art so this is all ur getting #ive drawn catgirl joffrey so much now it kinda feels wrong not to give him little cat ears. or whiskers at least #catgirl tommen just does not go as hard. he's more of a full cat I think ☝ one of those fatass little kittens with short legs #< imagine if you read this to grrm. I think he'd agree and be impressed by my analysis skills

[cosmic-chat]

I love drawing Kuki all the time💕💕💕

#I WANNA DRAW HER IN MORE CUTE OUTFITS 😭 #In my loving line art and avoiding color era rn #I had this lineart done a month ago ;_; #I learned I do like to color fun bright colors tho #knd #my art~ #codename kids next door #numbuh 3 #kuki sanban #I need to do a full rewatch of knd actually its been too long

[wundrousarts]

For any Nevermoor fans that've ever been interested in getting their hands on the UK hardcover editions of the series, with the wonderful cover designs..... I think they might be out of print (which. makes sense with the gold foil) so. goodluck and godspeed for finding them secondhand, because it was surprisingly hard to do online.

#nevermoor #full disclosure I discovered this like a month ago but wanted to wait until all of mine arrived correctly to share just in case 🫣🫣🫣 #I was terrified they’d send paperbacks or non-UK editions instead lol #I now have three sets of first three books. mental illness. can silverborn come out already 😭😭😭 #afaik the wundersmiths are still in stock officially just based on some wording the supply is dwindling lol #got nevermoor and wundersmith in the mail the other day as I posted about. 😁. #hollowpox arrived today from a different seller and with less damage from the transit but oh well #bc one seller had 1 and 2 while another had 3. 🤷😔 lol #they do seem to be in stock signed! normally + used but I didn’t want that bc I think the neon plain sprayed edges are soooo ugly I’m sorry #also I’d love to get my books signed personally one day. all….. nine and counting of them…… lolllll…. #I have the american hollowpox signed bc I got it thru the owlcrate box which was fun! #RIP to chances of a silverborn box though now that owlcrate jr is discontinued 😭😭😭

[spoiledskullz]

would you guys believe me if I said that before I started drawing exclusively sonic I drew exclusively ponies LOL

#I used to draw sonic versus rainbow dash #and knuckles versus applejack #It's the whole reason i got my first sketchbook actually because i just used to draw full colored pictures on lined paper #and someone was like “why not get a sketchbook?” #and I was like THEY MAKE THOSE??? #LOL #this was like 10 years ago btw </3 #I stopped being into mlp I think like #a month after the movie came out i gave up after that and had already moved onto sonic *years* prior SO #it was the end of the line.... until now #we come full circle #i am once again merging the two

[skitskatdacat63]

2005 | 2023

#'catie stop making comparison history posts' NO I REFUSE #i was gonna make fun of myself and say smth like #'person whos only fully watched 2005: wow this is giving me 2005 vibes' #BUT NO!!! NO!!!! THE PARALLELS THE PARALLELS #got p3 in both australin gps!!!!!! AAAAAAAA THE HISTORY THE PARALLELS #everyone is making comparisons to aus 2006 cause he won that but no they dont understand!!!! this is the comparison you should be making #guys you know what this means #fernando 2023 wdc- #its a sign i swear i swear!!! let me be delusional cmon #dont ask me how many random instagram posts i just looked through trying to find the same angle #yeah i wish they were both facing the same way but well what can you do #this is really really full circle bcs australia 2005 was the first old nando race i watched #and the first ever post-race highlights i ever made! and now here i am a billion posts later #so to have watched that back in january almost 3 months ago and then watch this and see him achieve the same is so meaningful for me #fernando alonso #fa14 #2023 australian gp #2005 australian gp #we do a little bit of f1 #f1 #formula 1 #formula one

[brittlebutch]

it's actually so fascinating to me that Brennan has created a character that maintains a pretty relaxed and mild-mannered demeanor and has said multiple times that the absolute Core of her is "FEAR" and how often we see this Fear manifest specifically in Avoidance; it really nails a relationship to that mentality where your brain fully Stops recognizing the emotion properly out of like, sheer self-defense from the stress of having to carry it all the time

I think this is also perfectly showcased in the way we tend to see Tula swing so suddenly from 'level and steady' to 'snarling Panic' and then back again - Just because your brain has detached itself from the Conscious Recognition of the emotion doesn't mean it can Actually stop itself from experiencing it. So the Fear is always there and always acting as a stressor, but because of that inability to Identify it there's no way to recognize or address it before that final straw hits and your bodymind jumps Straight into Full Meltdown Mode; but then once again, once you drop even a Little bit below that Peak Terror your brain ceases to process the emotion; it's like the most exhausting form of Poor Object Permanence in the world

And even if Tula is aware of this happening to her, that doesn't really make it any easier to deal with / address. Even if you're able to spot the symptoms Around the emotion -- chest pain, irritation, nausea, whatever -- because the Emotion Itself is basically impossible to find, you can't really Successfully Pin Down what the problem is OR a way to cope with it. If you can't figure out That You Are Anxious, then figuring out What Is Making You Anxious is impossible, which makes Find A Way To Make Peace With That incomprehensible. That's where the Avoidance comes in: you can no longer identify what might be a Dangerous Situation, which means that Anything New has a big potential to be Really Bad in a variety of ways (ranging "I don't Feel Good" to "Fully Lashing Out bc you've entered Fight/Flight and can't get out of it" to "Actual Outside Danger This Time") and that means the Only Way you know how to be Safe is to just Avoid Doing Anything New and Only stick to Familiar Situations, because anything unfamiliar is a monster of a gamble you don't know how to prepare for or cope with

#N posts stuff #one could argue ‘we see tula worry a lot tho’ but that’s bc Worry is an Action that can occur Separately from Recognizing Anxiety #now that I know tumblr will put a hard cap on your tags w/o telling you i'm resigning myself to posting rambling meta in post body #but i'm not happy about it; anyway i love how often life is full of Coincidences bc this is something I've Finally identified in myself #like. This Month. like this is brand new articulation for some of the problems i have in life; again knowing this doesn't help lmao #bc even when you know to look Around the shape of the emotion - like 'oh my face is Snarling rn. i'm probably experiencing Something' #like i said bc you don't know What that something is OR What might have caused it then the only solution you Ever get to come up with #is just 'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else' which INVARIABLY means that you will wind up in that same situation again #and Still have no idea how to handle it bc you never could figure out what caused it so you don't know how to handle it any better than #'fully retreat and go calm down somewhere else'; so 'be somewhere else' is the ONLY way you can ever think to Help it #which usually invariably turns into 'Just Avoid Fucking Everything just in case'; which doesn't work! bc life doesn't let you do that #so then it's just a cycle of falling into the same pitfalls and feeling miserable all the time; gotta love it :) #if you're like me this also gives you Bad Bad Bad Memory bc your brain will Promptly hide evidence of Scary Situation instinctively #like 3 weeks ago this dude ran a red light and almost t-boned me Full Speed & managed to stop like. maybe 3 feet away. #and i like. Startled Laughed and said 'that was scary' and then within 30 seconds i had Fully Forgotten it happened & only remembered #like 2 days ago. Ha! believe it or not this Does Not Help with 'How can I Address the Problem instead of Avoiding It Entirely?' #dimension 20 #d20: stupendous stoats #tula #d20lb

[vyrion]

HOW WAS I NOT ALREADY FOLLOWING YOU????? jrwi, isat, AND rhythm doctor enjoyer???? That rules so much

omg hiii :3 jumping up and down shared interests!!! shared interests!!!!!

#asks #YEAH i got super into rd a few months ago and im still so attached to the main cast.. do you have a favorite level mines 5-1n #(probably because of recency bias. act 5 just goes crazy) #thoguh i really like 4-1n too!!! havent gotten to full comboing it yet though #jrwi speaks for itself i think. stares at my url. #isat changed my entire brain chemistry etc etc its so good uuagouhdghh #anyway hi :3 i think ive seen you vaguely before around on councilblr

[kubfoo]

damn kids always stealing koi | @talesofgladesglory

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#warrior cats #warrior cats oc #wcrp #op #mart #juniperpaw #brown cat on the right is pluto's applepaw in togg! #togg #did this like a month ago i almost can forget the wrist pain #full res on patreon and kofi <3

[jklpopcorn]

So.. this absolutely wasn't meant to be posted AT ALL as it was supposed to be just another short doodle but

well.. um

yeah

have an additional sketch as well

#my art #felix #ocs #artists on tumblr #this was completely self-indulgent #this wasn't actually done with my normal set up but instead with a cheap tiny tablet and krita on another laptop #which was not meant to be used for a full piece #but i guess i got used to drawing on it after 200 doodle layers #but still i am highly unfamiliar with the program especially when it comes to coloring #but still! came out quite good ignoring all the things i sped through because again #wasn't meant to be posted #anyway this was inspired by a song i found like two days ago and to keep my motivation to finish this i listened to it for 3 hours straight #while drawing #it worked #also yeah it's the catboy he's the victim of my wrath atm #the context of this is that a hero had overworked his sidekick and a villain took advantage of it by lowkey mindcontrolling them :v #miraculous style #his temp theme is being eepy #in their villain arc the first thing they did was f*ck off for a month and get some proper rest #goals ngl #also the catboy keeps rotating his prononuns like rotisserie chicken and i think at this point i should just give up and go for any pronoun #this thang wasn't made to contain gender #and i keep writing catboy bcs catperson is a little bit awkward i think unless you're literally describing them #also catboy is funnier

[werehoghog]

I lied you get art now actually <3

#sonnys art #amy rose #sth #amy #kinda rough.. just wanted to draw a puffy dress and Amy #I rll like how the hair turned out... #drew this like a month ago when I drew 3 full pieces per day for some reason #idk I had too much energy back then and now I have none

[parallelunivrses]

hmmmm kinda wanna rewatch all of spn………… haven’t done a full rewatch since season 10 was airing I think……… is this a terrible idea….. yes. will that stop me though………

#also I kinda wanna see if I can get through it all before Mookie and my mom finish it #they started their rewatch like 3 years ago now. they watched the 200th episode and stopped cause they got into K-pop and kdramas #but they’ve slowly started talking about picking it back up again before Mookie goes to college #so like. there’s a bit of a time constraint #I think I could do it #plus I have the dvds now and I kinda wanna watch the bloopers after each season too #and a lot of the later seasons I’ve only seen the episodes once #like everything post season 11/12 cause I stopped watching with the British men of letters #and only binged it all to watch the last episode live #I’m gonna do this aren’t I #personal #fun fact: back when there were fewer than 10 seasons of the show I used to do a full rewatch in less than a month. while in school. taking #lots of AP classes and doing a ton of other volunteering. I was not okay

[gideonisms]

.....realized I would literally rather work 12 hours a day and come home to complete silence where my space is exactly the way I like it and I don't have to continue to mask my reactions than have to work all day then come back to a roommate. wish I'd had this realization 2 months ago. I've been crying about how much I don't want to live with someone else and just NOW realized I'm an adult and I've organized my life in such a way that I don't technically Have to I can just work harder at a number of kind of shitty jobs I'm qualified for

#had a whole breakdown in private when i found out they had already leased my place i am hot mess this year #there are other places around the same price it was just. i thought about not having to move and the instant relief and hope for the future #then again i thought about not having to live with anyone else in general and that did also restore my hope for the future a tiny bit #if i had just realized i can do what i want even a month ago #:( #i don't WANT to suffer the 2-4 month mental consequences of changing where i live #i was getting a roommate because i was like. so i lose my ability to be around people and still function/hold down a job every 2 years #i should start planning for the next go around of the cycle #THEN i realized wait. i was living with my family for burnout 1 #i was working 2 jobs and going to school for burnout 2 #i was living with a roommate for burnout 3 #(extension of burnout 2) #i was living with my family working full time and doing classes online for burnout 4 #what if. here's a thought #i wasn't living with family i wasn't living with a roommate i wasn't in school #and i worked the same shitty job that gave me $16 an hour #but at the end of the day i just didn't have to do any other work #hm. #idk if i will even be able to find a place that accepts me on my own without a guaranteed income but #god it would help me keep a guaranteed income to live alone #who knows maybe i'd even be able to get therapy for the fact that i have never felt truly comfortable around anyone irl #it's always been like i had to force myself through anyway but what if i got to stop for even like 2 years