#that man's secret is being gay

[nothinzbyside]

Milgram mutuals please remember to vote kazui innocent 😇

#that man's secret is being gay #I'm telling yall #can I judge an equal if I am guilty of the same crime? #being gay #that music ressonated with me #the parts where was written “why can't be normal?” hit close to home #milgram #milgram kazui

[kateis-cakeis]

Do you ever think about how the scene where Arthur catches Merlin with a dress in S2Ep9, and the scenes where Arthur is like "girl??????" in S5Ep8

that it's like just a lil bit suggested that Arthur thinks Merlin is both into men and crossdresses (which does that suggest some kind of queer culture in Camelot where gay men are known to do drag?? who knows) and not only thinks that, but accepts it too.

Like Arthur who is presented with the fact that Merlin might wear dresses in his spare times just shrugs and says what a man does in his spare time is up to him, and that the colour suits him.

He literally could have made any joke about Merlin being a girl like he often does when he teases Merlin about being a coward (which we know is just teasing) but instead he just accepts it, and still calls Merlin a man.

Meanwhile in The Hollow Queen, well, I'll let the lines speak for themselves:

GUINEVERE: He’s not in danger. He’s seeing a girl.

ARTHUR: Merlin?

GUINEVERE: Gaius, I’m sorry, but there is no reason to worry.

ARTHUR: Except for the poor girl.

---

ARTHUR: Oh, so you can go and visit that girl again.

MERLIN: What?

ARTHUR: Girl.

MERLIN: Don't have one.

ARTHUR: That's not what Guinevere tells me. So, why don't you tell us all about her?

MERLIN: Right.

ARTHUR: And why you're walking with a limp.

---

The first lines could be interpreted that Arthur doesn't think Merlin is good with women, but paired with the lines from the 2nd scene where Arthur asks him about it.... it definitely feels like Arthur is saying to worry for the girl because he thinks Merlin isn't attracted to women.

I mean the sheer disbelief alone when he says "Merlin?" like it's so out of realm of possibility. (I mean it could also be suggested that Arthur doesn't think anyone would be attracted to Merlin, but with the 2nd scene it definitely doesn't seem so.)

Especially the way he says "girl" with sarcasm dropping from his tone, like literally "girrrl" is how he says it. Like he's basically calling out Merlin, or saying that he knows that the girl Gwen told him about is actually a man.

Which I believe is why the "and why you're walking with a limp" has Arthur so, well,

like this. I think he truly believes that Merlin is lying sjhdfghsdfg Like he's thinking in that little brain of his that Merlin got pegged by a man and just isn't admitting to it.

And he's definitely accusing Merlin of sneaking away to have sex, you know, during an important time and all.

Basically, with these like 3 scenes in the show, I'd say it really comes off as Arthur accepting Merlin as gay and just waiting for the day where Merlin tells him the truth.

And that's really funny to me.

#bbc merlin #merlin #arthur pendragon #Arthur disbelieving Merlin going to see a girl is genuinely hilarious no matter how you see it #like this man who has known Merlin for years - Merlin whose only romance was in secret over a few days #like he just doesnt believe it and whether it's because he thinks Merlin is into men and only men or that the man just doesnt care for it #either is funny because like Arthur knows so little in reality dhfghfg but hey in this fandom we know the truth #and that boy is bi bi bi just like his king :PPPP #of course any references to gay as an identity are just references because obviously it would not be used by the characters sdhfhsdg #this post was inspired by me writing about the dress scene in an arthur returns fic where Merlin is like ???? at Arthur being accepting #of queerness

[cock-holliday]

The ask has got me thinking more about how attraction is seen as synonymous with fetishizing or objectification. I do not think there is anything wrong with men being interested in queer women, or women being interested in queer men,

1. Because yes, they could end up being trans and suddenly a guy into queer women is really a queer woman being into queer women/a girl who liked queer men is a queer man himself

2. Bisexuality or other fluid identities exist and men who like men sometimes also like women, and women who like women sometimes also like men

3. No one is entitled to returned attraction!

The issue is not ever attraction or interest or even expressing attraction, it all entirely has to do with respect. I find a queer man who chats up a queer man with the expectation that “hey we’re both queer so you MUST like me back” to be significantly more entitled than a man inquiring politely if a queer woman might like him back.

If you ask nicely, do not make assumptions, and crucially do not act like a cunt if the person says no, then I do not think you have done anything wrong.

The recipient’s orientation may very well exclude your gender, or they simply may not be interested, and a conversation based in respect and appreciation is not an assault on the recipient.

I know the fear of being predatory or “like men” is so pervasive that it doesn’t stop at men courting women, so that many women are afraid to approach women because they think expressing their attraction is somehow an assault and it ISNT! You are not evil for your attraction, you are not predatory for being interested, and as long as you are respectful and will be a safe and understanding person to say no to, then there is no actual harm that has been done.

#this doesn’t even get into how queer people expressing interest in people in a queer way get accused of being an outsider fetishizing #like gay men who draw art of gay men MUST be a secret fujoshi pretending to be a gay man etc #LJsm

[ronanlynchbf]

#rereading trc while simultaneously falling back into aftg stuff by virtue of reading tsc and thereby transporting myself back to when i #was sixteen but it's fine it's totally fine like it's whatever 😁👍 #r.txt #anyway. me when – me when i – me when i'm trying to tell my best friend that i'm gay but i'm also trying to tell him i can take stuff from #my dreams and i took my now pet raven from my dreams like from my head i'm a dreamer but also that's kind of the same thing but also it's #really not but also it is bc it's an allegory but also that's not the only thing the dreaming is an allegory for and also i'm scared to tel #him like i'm terrified actually and i don't want to tell him but also i need to tell him but also he already knows but i don't know that he #knows and also i was goinggggg to tellllllll himmmmmm arghhhhhhh #this scene is soooooooooo like. like AOUGH. ARGH OUGH AGH AOUGHHHHHH #<- sounds of a guy taking minus xp damage with every word read of this stupid scene. he literally was going to tell gansey 😕......... #trc #ronsey #like i need 2 lay down. he came out there to tell him......the timbre of his voice being described as strange&initially unrecognizable.... #i read this part like. 2 weeks ago idk. smth of the sort. and i'm STILL thinking abt it....you came out for something.....when you'd made u #ur mind to confess but ur mouth betrayed you in the end......associated with secrets and guilt......MAN.....

[s0fter-sin]

sometimes i think about how wild a mw2 movie would be if they just dropped soapghost right in the middle with no warning or marketing. like imagine it being beat for beat the exact same, it’s your typical military action movie, promoted as just another military action movie then after they get to the safe house, ghost has to patch up soap and he’s still out of it, overwhelmed by the betrayal and everything he’s seen and ghost needs to ground him and keep him in the present, to remind him that he’s alive and safe so he kisses him and they have sex. the tantrums and the rants and the “ReAl sOLdiErS aRen’t liKe ThAt”, god i can taste it and it’s delicious

#theres never any talk of a relationship or sexuality crisis its just this moment of humanity and comfort to bring soap back to himself #real any time you need me by thirteenbullets vibes #theyre not the type of men to have something as normal as a relationship #theyre just everything to each other they know that and its enough #ghost can be such a complex character if you let him #this guy whos rejected his humanity has buried himself and become a ghost #willingly digging himself out of the grave to stop soap from digging his own #like how are there not more explicitly homoerotic military movies that actually pull the trigger (heh) on the homo part of the eroticism #you know how if movies have even a hint of queerness they wring it out for every drop of respresentation they can get #theres a hundred articles and its mentioned in every interview and it all journalists ask those actors #imagine it being a complete secret and everyone expects just a typical action movie #then boom battle buddy gay sex #like if it were a male and fenale character you would see that scene coming a mile away so why cant it happen with two guys #just doing it is the only way of normalising it #i still see men saying they act like brothers which is denial so strong even egypt is impressed #but imagine the general public expecting this manly man military movie then getting hit with the alone mission flirting and denying it #then getting smacked in the face with tender wound care and grounding love making initiated by the edgelord they were using as a self inser #coming out of my cage and ive been doing just fine.txt #soapghost #ghostsoap #ghoap #john soap mactavish #soap cod #simon ghost riley #ghost cod #cod mw2 #we’re a team. ghost team

[irisbellemoon]

Camilla's being a question mark of a character is sort of the whole point. Like the person who's describing her is a repressed queer guy who's very much not interested in her, but rather her brother, hence the constant comparisons between the two of them.

It's not Camilla Richard wants but Charles and he can't admit that to himself so he projects her brother's qualities onto her with only a few of her actual 'characteristics' told to us. Hence her position in the narrative, which is narrated by Richard, is very superficial and 'soft'. Of course, Camilla was a bigger part of the entire plot (bigger than even Richard) but it doesn't really matter to Rich hence it's not given much thought.

In a lot of analysis about her, sometimes people get a little accusatory towards Donna but the person she chose to use as narrator doesn't really care about Camilla as her own person. So it wouldn't matter how much information was originally written for her, we still would never get a peak to it.

#the secret history #camilla macaulay #does this make sense? #i bet camilla had a personality outside of being 'the only girl in the group' but #richard doesn't care about it #he might hold some friendly affection towards her but it's always drowned out by his desire for yknow charles #I've been seeing a lot posts where people are like why is the only girl in the story a blank sheet donna #and im always like take a wild guess. yeah the narrator is gay that's why #man i wish donna would write about a female mc but if her thing is to write about gay men projecting tgeir gay desire on some poor girl #and turning her into a caricature of the actual person of their desire then who am i to complain #donna does it well too

[hopelessromanfic]

my dear sweet straight friend saying dating must be easier as a sapphic when half the time im trying to decipher bestie vibes from romantic vibes and the other half im beating off het couples asking for a third

#sapphic #wlw #in the trenches #truly #like yeah if i had a girlfriend i’d think it’s better than being with a man #but darling that’s because i am gay #the secret third option is the girlies asking to experiment

[iguessitsjustme]

So you're telling me

that this man was able to pull these three ladies

at the same time and marry two of them and keep the other as a mistress?

That man? I've seen dirty socks on the sidewalk with more sex appeal.

#to sir with love #to sir with love the series #and somehow tian being gay is wrong and needs to be kept a secret #man two of these women keep trying to kill the other's child #one of them is the only one that either child feels safe with and she's the mistress and gave birth to no one! #one of those women used sex cicadas on her own son #she also killed a man but and accidentally caused everyone to eat corpse mushrooms #but the sex cicadas is really what gets me #another one of these women tried to kill tian when he was a child by throwing a snake at him #and yet tian being gay is a problem #man let that dude just love who he loves #it's far less strange than whatever the hell these three got going on #i'm all for polyamory but not like this #this shit is fucked they all need to fall off a cliff #except bua she can stay #but she's gotta get better taste in men #tian has the best taste in men

[chamerionwrites]

Because I am back on some very specific bullshit I am ofc also thinking about how Joseph Conrad and Roger Casement met (were very briefly roommates in fact) in the Congo, and seem to have really liked each other. Conrad wrote glowingly of Casement in his diary ("Made the acquaintance of Mr. Roger Casement, which I should consider as a great pleasure under any circumstances and now it becomes a positive piece of luck. Thinks, speaks well, most intelligent and very sympathetic"). Six years later Casement made a point of looking him up in London and they apparently talked until three in the morning.

And then two decades later Casement was hanged for treason because he tried to run guns from Germany to the Easter Rising, whereas Conrad prominently refused to sign the petition for clemency.

#contrast conan doyle who was at least as ardent a british imperialist as conrad but very loudly on team pardon #idk ultimately casement fascinates me *because* he was not an uncomplicatedly heroic figure #(he was also a man of his time and v much complicit in british imperialism) #but because he was capable of taking that step beyond cognitive dissonance and into anti-imperialism #and it's like. what is the thing that cracks someone's worldview open? witnessing atrocities sure but conrad witnessed the same things! #is it because he was irish is it because he was gay can we meaningfully answer such questions about ourselves let alone historical figures? #is it even useful to try? identity is not political destiny. we have so many examples of it not being that. #Ability To Open One's Goddamned Eyeballs is really kind of a wild thing to celebrate anyone for and yet. and yet. #if there was some secret foolproof formula for getting people to do it my god we could get so much done #roger casement #my posts #sorry i swear i will shut up now

[laesas]

Honestly the only people mad about Only Friends being fucked up and messy and sexually charged are either teenagers or adult shut-ins that have never actually interacted with a group of gay people in their early 20's. I promise, hand on heart. It is exactly as chaotic as that. Maybe more.

#only friends the series #listen. everyone is kissing everyone and sleeping with their exes and fucking their ex's exes out of spite #making out with anyone for a dare or just for the banter is like......... standard fare #like questionable blackout drunken threesomes and secretive fwb are genuinely staples of the gay friendship group dynamic #at some point you are completely immune to the fuckass wild shit that the gays get up to #like thats *just* from my very middle of the road boring no-drama vegan-adjacent group of lovable dykes in uni :') #once you get to the gay men??? bröther. #*GAY* 20's drama makes lesbian drama pale in comparison: you identify your besties exes like 'the furry' and 'married' and 'piss kink' #those are secondary elements to the story #you have to be like oh no *davids* the one with the wife - *ben* is the one that doesnt know his new man fucked his dad yet #literally the beautiful chaos of it all is unmatched #lol sorry if it doesnt appeal to the sensibilities of heterosexual fujoshis #who can't seem to handle that their fav 'smol-beans' be suckin fuckin and making ass backwards decisions in the name of being 20 and gay #but like........ its actually an important part of gay representation 😌 sorry you dont understand P'JoJo's slay like we do ✨

[trans-estinien]

i love being autistic cause sometimes i get a glimpse into how regular people perceive things and its like. what the fuck. what the fuck is that? you live like this? and its normal?? i think YOURE the weird one actually. im fine. thanks though.

#THERES SO MANY WEIRD RULES #LIKE WHAT DO YOU MEAN PEOPLE PAY ATTENTION TO HOW SOMEONE WALKS LIKE HUH????? WHY???????????? #can someone fucking explain the dude head nod thing to me why do we do that. whats that about. ive never seen anyone do that irl before #is that an american thing or do i just hang around too many afab people #i am learning the intricacies of cis people gender rules and i am. what fucking planet have i been on the last 17 years like what is this #was there some like. rulebook they handed out at somepoint they forgot to give to me or something #“best way to learn is to observe the men around you” OBSERVE WHAT. YOU PEOPLE PAY THAT MUCH ATTENTION TO EVERY LITTLE MOVEMENT???? #bruh i can barely make eye contact w people... #my ass has never intentionally copied someones mannerisms ever. #i do it subconsciously. but doing it actively feels weird and wrong and like im breaking someones boundaries #“men dont smile at people.” well they should. #ive decided cishet men are the most boring people on the planet #“dont move with your hands” YOURE BREAKING MY POOR THEATER KID HEART #i need to meet more gay men irl to absorb the vibe of cause i only know like two. not counting myself #i want people to look at me and go. ah yes. fruit. #at this point im just going to accept being misgendered for the rest of eternity. id rather die than be boring in the way cishet men are #my flavor of being trans is so influenced by my autism cause my perception of genders is completely off from what everyone else is doing #im like. yeah i want to be a man. and then i look at what the majority of men are actually like and its like. wait no. not like that #shoutout to flamboyant gay men where would i be without them #i think the thing that bothers me the most is that like #in my mind peoples genders are just. the way they express themselves. #its not like. this super big complex deal like how everyone else treats it. if that makes sense? like. #regular people have so many rules for what counts as a man or what counts as a woman or what counts as neither and its like??? #you can do what you want???? why do we care???? #and ive been doing this since i was little. on account of the autism #i just. dont get why its such a big deal to people. #i cant wrap my head around it at all #not nonbinary not a girl not aegender not a man but a secret fourth thing #(man but i do it my way instead of everyone elses way) #unfortunately doing it my way just. leads to the misgendering dimension. for some reason

[applecherry108]

I…

So I grew up watching The Simpsons. And maybe I shouldn’t have, but hey, it was the 90s and parent-sanctioned family time to watch a show that was definitely inappropriate for little-little kids.

Anyways.

I knew Phil Hartman, voice of Troy McClure and Lionel Hutz died in 1998, when I was seven. I knew he died and was sad about it. I missed his characters.

MOTHERFUCKER I WAS TODAY YEARS OLD—30-FUCKING-2 TO BE EXACT—WHEN I FOUND OUT, FROM A YOUTUBE THUMBNAIL, THAT HE WAS MURDERED. IN HIS SLEEP. BY AN EX-PARTNER.

WHAT THE FUCK

#I assumed he was old and just passed away. maybe he was sick. how do you explain to a 7yo that a voice actor was MURDERED #and idk the state of the show nowadays but esp in its earlier seasons it was definitely meant to push boundaries and yeah #I don’t think I should’ve been to it before the age of 8 to 10 #at minimum. but also. SO much just flew over my head. and we know now I. autistic and my parents are autistic #and do you know how many echolalia swims we all have from that show? 😂😅 #*stims goddamn you autocorrect. every day the apple company curses my tags. I miss having an actual keyboard god damn it #apple talks #to the tune of spam #my parents weren’t naive enough to think all animation is for kids like there were plenty of shows I hasn’t allowed to watch as a kid #but idk man. for some reason the Simpsons and the critic were a-okay #but king of the hill wasn’t?? honestly I think it had more to do with whether or not my dad in particular liked a show than whether or not #it was deemed ‘appropriate for children’ #my mom tried to ban me from watching sailor moon bc she said it was just ‘little girls jumping around in short skirts being saved by the boy #like hi mom I’m gay. and also watched it in secret for several years. she never found out. I told her long after bc I thought it was #hilarious. mostly she was just mad bc my grandpa was supposed to be watching me lmao

[spider-man-2o99]

hi i have a lot of copium and no pride or shame. miguel is only slapping miles around because that’s the only way he knows how to wrangle a teenager with superpowers he’s just really really fucking bad at this

#talking tag #spider-man #spider-man 2099 #atsv #itsv2 #across the spider-verse #miguel o'hara #miles morales #(through gritted teeth) i. support. gay. wrongs. #...goofs and gaffs aside i honestly think mig's just being Framed in a specific way in th trailer as a red herring. way too obvious if real #and. yes. i do have bias. i don't /want/ my special interest blorbo to be A Child-Murdering Bad Guy. sue me #but i warn ya my lawyers in the court of opinions are pretty damn good #(my secret is i do not Care)

[tiredbastard59]

Watching Stranger Things Season 4 for me has just been whenever they mention Vecna thinking to myself: “Vox Machina would beat his fucking ass so bad man”

#critical role #stranger things #Vox Machina #vecna #I am a simple man #I have blorbos and I want to meet my other blorbos #vox machina would be fun because they have dealt with mindflayers and vecna #but also the Nein and the Hells crossing over would be fun as well #vex sees max struggling with having a dead brother and immediately adopts her #Percy has a heart attack when he sees how many guns there are and how advanced they are #Imogen and el bond over strange powers they do not fully understand l #also the different treatment of sexuality would be so odd for both parties #beau and yasha casually mentioned their together robin has a heart attack #orym tary essek and caleb being confused on why will being gay is some big secret #this is all so niche but god is it taking over my brain #stranger things 4 #the mighty nein #bells hells

[kixflip]

you know even as someone who is stringent in her fantasy that zoro is a lesbian i can admit to finally seeing some crumb of what the yaoi poisoned sanji zoro people see when they look at those two what with the thing at the end of thriller bark and sanji being the only one to really know what zoro did to save everyone and respecting his decision to keep it a secret. kind of intimate. but you see sanji immediately goes to transmisogyny island right after this so we're right back to square one of me wanting him to die

#kix moment #one piece is surprisingly cool about gnc and explicitly lgbt characters being treated like people instead of jokes #EXCEPT when sanji is around. he makes the world dark and cruel in ways that literally contradict the other normal lgbt things going on #luffy is making friends with a transgender drag queen revolutionary who has HRT powers and runs a secret gay bar at the SAME TIME #as sanji being pursued by perverts on 'man in a dress island' WHICH IS LITERALLY WHERE THAT GUY IS FROM

[barnbridges]

its a fandom joke that marion is homophobic, frankly it's funnier if she's a gaybie and just asks what the fuck is wrong with francis, no, actually not that he's gay, i have eyes

#the secret history #i know this woman is aware they're all *gestures* and her boyfriend is a glorified homophobic butch lesbian #in my heart? that jab at camilla being motherless from our bunster is postironic #adopted child of a gay man marion lives in my head and is like what the fuck is wrong with these queens #the gays are trying to murder her boyfriend and she's like ghjk babe what happened at the soiree #richard proposes marion doesn't understand and is separate from the Rituals #i just say no she's Aware of the rituals just thinks they're stupid FGHJK rip #bunny's silly gay friends #shitposting tag #i'll yeet this one #but she's in my head and she judges the gays