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shallowseeker · 10 months

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Sam and Dean are grieving the loss of Mary, Jack, and Rowena very differently in 15x06 Golden Time.

Sam is throwing himself into the mission and rushing to rekindle the thing with Eileen. Dean, on the other hand...is stuck.

INT. MEN OF LETTERS - KITCHEN - NIGHT

One, Dean is eating Jack-type cereal. (The lack of Jack mentions are LOUD, y'all. It's too painful to mention, much less face. When Cas died, Dean ate PB&J, and when [OMITTED] died, Dean ate cereal.)

Two, wow--that is one SERIOUSLY DEPRESSED man. Sam is taken aback by just how depressed and downtrodden Dean is beneath his barbed jokes. Then, Sam gets frustrated and mad about it. Here Sam is, working SO hard, and Dean's given up. (Not to mention, Cas is giving Sam the silent treatment by proxy. Poor Sam, really.)

Sam (incensed)

Dean's not allowed to give up. He won't. He can't. Per season 15's The Trap, that's not the Dean who raised Sam.

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Not vindicated, just deflated.

So, Dean goes back to stress-eating and watching his stasis-oriented comfort series to escape it all.

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Cas is...who knows where he is.

(fatalistic)

What is a fatalistic person? A fatalist is someone who feels that no matter what he or she does, the outcome will be the same because it's predetermined. Fatalists share a sense of being powerless to change the world. In philosophy, a fatalist is someone who holds specific beliefs about life, destiny, and the future.

Chuck is hostile. Dean's life is a hoax. Mary is dead. Jack is dead. The future is dead. Cas is dead to him. Cas left him. There's nothing left for Dean to have faith in anymore. There is no future.

Sam can't deal with a fatalistic Dean, so he goes for a run. Dean grabs more cereal and continue la wallowing in despair.

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In the same episode, Dean may be fatalistic, but Cas becomes resolved to stand and fight Chuck. (Cas has become seriously strong-willed over the course of the series. I'm so proud of him!)

The nice thing is that Cas has BEEN fatalistic before, too. He was there in seasons 7-8, you know? He's better positioned to process, and he does. (Sam, too, went through bouts of fatalism and despair, notably when he went AWOL on Kevin, purely driven by the need to escape, and then took on the Hell trials.)

They're all suffering from the existential wound of Chuck and the loss of meaning in their lives, even Cas.

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Off Cas, finally resolved.

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Cut to Dean. Self-defeated:

15x06 Golden Time

It is not until Dean meets up with his dark mirror in Lee in 15x07 Last Call that his will to fight returns. It's no accident that Lee bears some resemblance to the Dean in AU Michael's Nihilism world. Dean loved Rocky's Bar, for sure, but it existed primarily a means of fleeing the storm that was raging outside. It was an anorexic happiness, a contented world of potential and no risks.

Lee is like the ghost of Christmas Future, and Dean finally rejects becoming his worst self.

(All scripts here.)

#dean + depression #dean + powerlessness #sam + depression #tfw + existential crises #tfw + fate and free will #sorry i'm having a normal week #a very normal week #cas + resilience #cas stuff #dean stuff #sam stuff #sam + throwing himself into missions #spn + mission #spn + soldier mindset

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felassan · 3 years

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templeofshame · 5 years

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tfw you realize that the number of people who have interacted with some dumb post you made on tumblr is higher than the number of people who will likely ever care about those projects you put months or years of your life into

#esoteric tfw #existential crises #64 people listened to the first ep of the podcast #most of whom were probably people who worked on it or friends and family

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closeted-ging-enjoyer · 3 years

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tfw you come back to pariging hell after a whole year of school kicking your ass, existential crises, 122384 sexuality crises to see that this demonic pairing with their gaslight gatekeep girlboss agenda exploded on tumblr and ao3 out of nowhere?? genuinely serious what dumpster did you guys crawl out of?? spampton’s??

#where did yall come from #???#literally why have there been so many additions to this hellish cult #oh yeah i should add legit tags now lol #hxh #pariging #otp #no cause togashi will come back and make pariging canon just wait and see #also i didn't know people actually followed me??#thank you??#sorry you ever had to see my fuckery #mine🗑️

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athys-obelia · 3 years

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search history exposé: anastacius

(ch. 57 | tfw your niece catches u being fake ✌️😌)

am i a good person

buzzfeed am i a good person quiz

what to do if you're 90% toxic

how to manipulate my secret daughter into trusting me

lucas magician

lucas tower magician icons

how to know if my friend is gay

how to know if i'm gay

is the dead undead guy possessing me gay

why does my empire's name mean needle

can i still be emperor if i have trypanophobia

wikihow fratricide

fratricide in 3 steps

why is roger hot lowkey

why is alpheus such a dumb bitch

online chess for me and the guy in my head

chess cheats

horror movie date recommendations

wikihow confessing to your crush

wikihow confessing to your crush while trying to murder his crush

google if i'm being possessed by a ghost and am considered legally dead am i really LIVING or am i just existing

existential crises cure

why did the chicken cross the road

how to make my subjects like me when they think i'm dead + i was kind of an ass as a living person

is wearing 30+ layers out of fashion

a/n: some anastacius vs. aeternitas confusion 👀 also lily's up next!!

fratricide: the killing of one's brother/sister | trypanophobia: the fear of needles

more: claude | athy | felix | lucas | diana

#who made me a princess #suddenly became a princess one day #wmmap #sbapod #anastacius de alger obelia #search history exposé

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shirtlesssammy · 6 years

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8x08: Hunteri Heroici

Then:

Cas is back from Purgatory, but it’s at a price he has no idea he’s paying.

Now:

Gary, a man with a wedding ring, meets Olivia, a woman without a wedding ring, at a secluded park. They’re happy to see each other --until Gary’s heart beats so hard it pops out of his chest!

At a Gas ‘n Sip, the boys load up on fuel for Baby and soda pops for themselves? (I mean, unless Cas is driving, I can’t believe they’re drinking beer. Additionally, notice how Dean doesn’t get Cas one but these days Dean gets Cas a drink even when he declines one. Sigh.) Sam breaks down the latest on Kevin and the tablet. They’re safely hidden away on a houseboat of Garth’s, but no new breakthroughs on the tablet. Dean then asks Cas if he’s heard anything on angel radio.

Cas turned that off. He doesn’t want anything to do with Heaven anymore (Sad Trombone Noise.) Cas is going to be a hunter! Hurrah.

Look at this radiant angel! Petition for Cas to smile more 2K19.

He’s going to be Team Free Will’s third wheel, adding extra grip and greater stability. Cheers all around! He even has a case! They decide to check it out. Cas asks to sit in the front seat, and is thoroughly denied.

Look at this sad bean. Petition for Cas to sit in the front seat 2K19.

Once at the coroner's office, they take a look at the victim. His chest has a huge comic heart-shaped hole in it. Once the detective leaves, Cas jumps right into hunter mode: no EMF, no sulfur. He sniffs the corpse and notices he did recently suffered from a bladder infection. “Cas, stop smelling the dead guy,” Dean chastises. “Why?” He knows everything now. Sam disagrees and mentions the affair the man was having. Dean surmises the guy was living a lie and it caught up with him.

*Sam suffered a fugue state for a year Flashback*

Sam and Amelia are settling into their new home together and Amelia’s dad pays a visit. He has no time for the shiftless drifter in his daughter’s life.

In present day, the trio head to interview the widow. Cas knows exactly what to do. He leans over the woman, and with a slightly funny New York accent, he screams, “Why did you kill your husband?!” The woman bursts into tears and Dean pulls Cas aside. “I was being bad cop.” “You were being bad everything.”

Turns out the wife knew about Gary’s affair. Cas is confounded by the turn of events, and Dean is elated.

Cut to a suicidal businessman on the edge of a building. He takes a step, but keeps walking on air several feet off the building. He exclaims, “God wants me to live!” before plummeting to his death. Splat.

TFW investigate again. Dean realizes it all sounds a bit like Bugs Bunny. Cas is on the case again! “So we're looking for some sort of insect-rabbit hybrid? How do we kill it?” Bless.

I just want to pause here and squee about how hard Cas is trying to be a hunter in this episode. He’s flipping adorable. And this whole episode is so beautifully bright and colorful (like a Looney Tunes cartoon!)

At the motel, Cas has an epiphany about cartoons and humanity (and I feel a bit called out as a fan constantly looking for more meaning in a silly little show with violence and humor.)

Motel Room Bullet Points of Goodness:

*Dean drops a Tom Petty reference

*Cas pokes around Dean’s toiletry bag

*The slumber party that was cut for time

*”I’ll watch over you”

*The set design

Cas hears about a bank robbery over the police band. Cut to a splattered body with a 1 ton anvil over it. Looney. The bank robber, dubbed The Black Hole, struck again. He’s called The Black Hole because he always leaves a signature black hole on the wall. Sam goes with the detective to look at paperwork on the other robberies, while Cas shows off his angel strength to Dean.

Later at the motel, Cas reads John’s journal. Dean asks how Cas is feeling. (o_O) Cas deflects and gets testy when Dean pushes for him to contact Heaven. (O_0)

Cas then confesses to Dean his fears about Heaven and how he destroyed thousands of his own kind. “I can’t go back.” He fears that if he sees how he destroyed Heaven, he might kill himself (O_O) (Like, this is legitamily heavy stuff. I think Cas is only now forgiving himself for this.)

*Interrupting Moose Alert*

Sam has enough looney information for them to map locations that correspond to a retirement home.

At the retirement home, Sam and Dean flash their badges (and poor Cas appears to reach into his trench but looks sideways glumly.) They ask to interview the residents. Cas’s first interrogation is a doozy. “You are so pretty, Charles.”

During the interview about her missing jewelry, the woman mentions that the cat talks sometimes. Cas is on to interrogation number 2!

While Cas starts to crack his catty canny interrogation subject, Sam's got eyes on another resident of the retirement home. Waggle those fingers Wayne's World style, kids, because it's time for a flashback!

In Sam's flashback, Amelia serves a godawful dish of pasta and noodle-fied hot dogs in keeping with her family's tradition of that as a first meal every time the military moved them to a new town. Sam tries to bond with Amelia's dad by throwing out that his dad was a Marine (a fact that I constantly forget). Amelia's dad continues to be a giant dick, mocks the Marines, and tells Sam that he thinks Sam is something akin to ex-military. Sam looks like a traumatized ex soldier to him, and he's just holding on to Amelia for a chance at a normal life. It's an insightful comment, but delivered in such a dickish manner that I want to punch the guy every time.

Dean snaps Sam out of his fuzzy flashback and Sam recognizes Fred Jones, a resident of the facility, as a psychokinetic ex-hunter. Dean and Sam rally the troops to interrogate Fred, tragically cutting off Castiel's masterful interrogation of the cat.

In Fred Jones' room, he's fixated on the TV which is showing old cartoons. He's utterly unresponsive to any of their attempts to reach him (which, to be fair, is mostly just shouting and being loud). DEAN. DUDE. Dean tests their hypothesis that Fred's their guy and bashes himself in the forehead with a book. From the sound effects and comedic expression, we understand that they're in the cartoon zone. “Do we...kill him?” Castiel asks, running through the hunter playbook. The facility director overhears this concept and our team is sent away.

Cut to a birthday celebration in the day room. There's a huge sparkler candle jammed into a massive pink cake and Fred's sitting in the corner. He lights upon an old cartoon with a stick of dynamite and in no time at all...WHAMMO! The candle explodes. Cake everywhere. (Fortunately, nobody died.)

Sam rushes up to announce that Fred's gone. Though things are looking bad for detective Cas, he does notice the diamonds on one of the nurse’s wrists. The diamonds belonged to one of the other nursing home residents, and were recently stolen. The nurse claims that her boyfriend gave her the diamonds and TFW speeds off in the mystery machine to interview their next suspect!

They find the thief's apartment. There's one dead guy and one gravely injured. Cas heals the injured man. <3 CAS <3 Then it's interrogation time. The guy Cas heals reveals that the doctor in charge of the facility is in charge of the thefts. He's taken Fred to the bank for one more score.

As TFW loads up in the car, Sam experiences another fuzzy flashback. This time, Sam's washing dishes while Amelia's dick father tells her - audibly in the other room - that he knows what's best for her and she should move home. FUCK OFF, AMELIA'S DAD.

TFW find the bank and sure enough, there's a black hole painted onto the wall. Dean reaches inside and when his hand passes through, he happily mutters “Awesome,” and gets ready to head inside.

Cas sniffs out the power near the bank and finds Fred inside of a van. Cas does a quick and super chill mind meld with Fred and Sam, propelling both of them into Fred's mind. It's a cartoon world.

In Fred's head, he's lucid. Sam and Cas tell him about all the weird stuff that's going down in the real world. “You want to know what's the worst thing that can happen to a guy that's got a mind like I got? Losing it,” Fred tells them. While Sam, Cas, and Fred are having existential crises, Dean fights the robber.

Dean’s gun doesn't work; cartoon rules are in full force. There are frying pans, anvils, and more. It’s a wacky, inventive fight and at the end, we all learn a very important lesson. Never bring a gun to a gag fight.

For Comedic Science:

Sam finally processes his soft focus flashbacks and tells Fred that he's gotta to wake up and face reality. Cas takes these words to heart, likely having his own soft focus flashback as we watch him standing thoughtfully in the background.

Fred wakes up. The thief tries to escape through the black circle on the wall but it's now just paint again. He threatens Dean with a gun but Fred comes in and forces the doctor to shoot himself. Fred's lucid for now, but tells them that it's only a matter of time before he slips away. He asks them to make it stop.

Cas tells Fred that he can help him, but it will be very painful and there may not be much of him left after that. Later, the procedure done, Fred listens to Ode to Joy in his head as they wind up the case. Dean offers Cas shotgun but Cas refuses. He has to--

And then Cas is zapped back upstairs to Naomi's office. She knows Cas wanted to return to Heaven and she forbids it. Cas is desperate to go back to Heaven and help, but Naomi tells him he must stay away. Back on Earth, Cas zaps back to the conversation. Instead of what he was going to say, Cas amends himself to say he's going to stay and watch over Fred for a few days and then figure out what he's going to do next.

And we've got one more flashback... Sam, Amelia, and Amelia's dad are finally bonding over stories of Amelia's embarrassing youth. FUCK OFF, AMELIA’S DAD. The phone rings and Amelia gets up to answer it. Sam opens up to her dad, telling him that he lost his brother and ran because of that. Maybe they'll be friends after all! Yay? And then Amelia gets off the phone. It's the military. Her husband's been found alive! Yaaaay?

Back at the retirement home, Dean and Sam take off, leaving Castiel to settle next to Fred and listen, for a little while, to Ode to Joy.

Wascally Wabbit Quotes:

Garth has a safe house boat?

So, what now? Move to Vermont? Open up a charming B&B?

A third wheel adds extra grip, greater stability.

So we're looking for some sort of insect-rabbit hybrid?

X marks the spot.

That's Looney, alright.

I understand. The bird represents God. And coyote is man, endlessly chasing the divine, yet never able to catch him. It's hilarious.

There was a pastry mishap.

“It’s wabbit season.” “I don’t think you pronounced that correctly.”

What's up, doc?

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mozki · 2 years

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tfw at the start of last week i was like ooh im going to finish my knitting by the end of this week. didnt realise id be single pringle going thru existential crises ! <3 dont the cookie crumble in funny shaped chunks :^P

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silverskyy · 7 years

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Finally getting around to answering this tag from @valkyriejack, thanks a lot dude! I haven’t done one of these in ages omg hello to all the new people I’ve suckered into following me :D

Rules: answer the 20 questions and then tag 20 followers

Name: Rebecca

Nickname: sometimes people at work call me Becca and some college friends call me FedEx but that’s it

Zodiac sign: Scorpio

Height: 5'7"

Favorite fruit: I love cherries!!

Favorite season: summer thank god it’s finally warm

Favorite book: ummmm. guys who tf can choose One book I love all books (anything by tamora pierce is gold tho read the tortall books and be reborn)

Favorite flower: me–*is angling to work in the floral department at work* me–"flowers exist I guess?? snowdrops are pretty idfk"

Favorite scent: if I say summer evenings does that count? cause there’s a definite scent there. or rain, everything to do with rain is great

Favorite color: really depends on the day but blue’s a p constant contender

Favorite animal: gonna be a basic toddler and say cats

Coffee, tea, or hot cocoa: hot cocoa

Cat or dog person: cats my dudes, dogs are fine I guess but CATS

Favorite fictional character: Castiel. listen supernatural could go down the drain to the fucking sewer but as long as Cas is still Cas I gotta stick around. he’s so deep and compelling and amazing and I love him and

Number of blankets you sleep with: rn it’s 1 but it can go up to 3 when it’s cold and my body can sometimes be compelled to go without when it’s super hot

Dream trip: ???? I don’t know man, there are so many places to go and also I’m a v boring person that doesn’t travel lol. anyway where you go isn’t as important as who you’re with, you can find awesome stuff to do and visit anywhere if you look hard enough

Blog created: early august of 2014, right before my senior year. this disaster has been around for almost 3 years folks 0_0

(there actually weren’t 20 questions so I’m adding some of my own because I want to blab)

Sexuality/gender: hey guys it’s your friendly neighborhood nonbinary panro ace blogger here to remind you gender is a lie

Most unexpected fandom: why am I such trash for the les mis fandom it hasn’t been relevant in literal years??? tfw when someone you talked to for maybe a week gives you a fic rec that eventually results in multiple existential crises because you love the barricade children so much

What should you be doing instead of being on tumblr?: writing. cleaning my room. organizing clothes for summer. learning how fucking spellcasting works in dnd so I’m better prepared for my next game. so many things :/

tagging the last 20 people in my activity: @xx-mcrying-xx, @chikyourisenka, @vonmorjo, @super-sootica, @cas-baby-i-need-you, @lovelylady1122, @itskroy, @psychotictavros, @non-specific-excuse, @rosasourbrownie, @thepatronsaintofwritersandgrapes, @frejennix, @softboystump, queenmali, @musicphanpie-b, @louisletrush, @life-is-a-melody, @thegirlwhohasnochill, @lonelyladybug87, @morningdov

#personal #tag game

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jac-ama · 7 years

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whoo a bunch of questions stuff tag

got tagged by @the-noodles-say-toodles, so leggo fam

Rules: Answer all the questions, add one question of your own at the end, and then tag people.

Coke or Pepsi? Coke, but I like both

Disney or Dreamworks? Disney straight up, but Dreamworks got some good stuff

Coffee or tea? Coffee only because I don’t really drink tea

Books or movies? Depends on my mood? Right now, movies sound great.

Windows or Mac? Meh. Windows bc Macs are expensiiiiveee

DC or Marvel? N/A. I don’t really pay attention to superhero kinda things.

XBox or Playstation? Tfw I’m a filthy Nintendo person. Imma go Playstation since it has more titles that catch my eye.

Dragon Age or Mass Effect? N/A. I don’t know crap about anything.

Night owl or early riser? Leaving the house by 6:15am + A lot of Honors HW and procrastinating = both

Cards or chess? Cards.

Chocolate or vanilla? Neapolitan, wut

Vans or Converse? Converse, but idrc

Lavellan, Trevelyan, Cadash? ??????? Idk

Paragon or Renegade? Paragon bc I ain’t bout that renegade life lol. (tfw i didnt know anything, so i just googled :3)

Star Wars or Star Trek? Star Wars because I haven’t even watched Star Trek (yet?)

One episode per week or binge watch? Binge, unless I’m lazy. One episode a week unless I forget

Gandalf or Obi Wan? Why do I live under a rock?????

Heroes or villains? Lowkey like villains more

John Williams or Hans Zimmer? Zimmer

Disneyland/world or Six flags? I’ve only been to Disneyland once and wanted to go to Six Flags, So Disney by default.

Forest or sea? As much as I like hiking, the sea since I literally grew up by the coast and went to the beach alot

Flying or reading minds? Reading minds

Twin Peaks or Northern Exposure? Nada, I live under a rock xP

Harry Potter or Lord of the Rings? CAN SOMEONE REMIND ME TO FREAKING WATCH THESE SERIES OR READ THE BOOKS???

You’re banished to a deserted island, which Benedict Cumberbatch character would you choose to take with you? Idk how many questions I’ve already skipped bc I don’t know shit

Train or cruise ship? Cruise ship. I want to go on one someday

Brian Cox or Neil DeGrasse Tyson? Neil DeGrasse Tyson

Art museum or science museum? Results may vary

Irish pub or night club? Both sound cool and all, but I feel I’d like Irish pubs more for some reason

Aang or Korra? Aang since I can connect with him a bit more compared to Korra

Swimming in a pool or lake? Lakes are pretty as heck, yet I’ve been in swimming pools more. ??????IDK?????

Classical music or classical literature? Music tbh, I’m a bit too dense to comprehend old English and really understand it. Jack why u in English Honors wtf

Oxford comma or no Oxford comma? Yes, Oxford comma

Digital or paper books? Also depends on mood. I’m in the river of E-Books atm so I’ll go with that

Rainy days or sunny days? Depends, but mostly about that sunny life.

Fantasy or science fiction? I can barely get through both without being lost, but dragons are cool. Fantasy

Poetry or prose? Poetry, but mainly when it’s spoken

Music or lyrics? CAN I CHOOSE BOTH??? IT DEPENDS ON THE SONG

Kissing or cuddling? Both, but kissing, man.

Dancing or movies for date night? Dancing, mostly.

Sea or space? Whichever gives me more existential crises.

MBTI or zodiac? I can get down with MBTI more, but both are pretty cool.

Netflix or YouTube? I’m a lazy bastard. I know I can binge YouTube stuff more, but Netflix has more things I’d like. I’ll just say both.

Plushies or pets? God dammit, who thought this was a good idea

Pizza or nachos? I eat pizza a lot more, yet I love nachos so much.

If you could speak to one person from history and tell them everything you know about the modern day, who would it be? This world is a mess, but either way, I have no idea who I’d like to speak to.

If you could become fluent in a language right now, what would you pick? Filipino. When my whole family is this, but they only ever speak English at home, I wanna learn more of the language of where you’re from.

Favorite Mythical Creature? Something? I don’t think of mythical creatures that often to know?

Vampires or Werewolves? Vampires, they get to fly. Tbh, neither.

Ao3 or ff.net? idek what Ao3 is. FF.net is kinda a mess but I’ve seen more there.

Tagging @mysterywolf119-blog and anyone else down

#a questions tag #thanks #heres some stuff you probably didnt need to know about me #oh well #love yall mutuals #we should talk ;)#bloop bloop #jackie says hi

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dicaxasinus · 7 years

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major traits of me: - good at bullshitting my way thru life - terrible at managing my sleep schedule - good at seeing and remembering patterns (eg: latin/greek declension/conjugation patterns) - annoying as sin - decent memory when it comes to school things or completely random facts - terrible at being social in any situation

#epsilon says shit #tfw u dont know who u are but can only glean a few facts from what u know for sure and past experience #existential crises fellas they happen Often

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shallowseeker · 10 months

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Shal SPN meta masterpost

(The thought of labeling my unhinged ramblings as "essays" or "meta" honestly gives me hives.) But well. After a year, I'm still here, and I am making and updating this (A) to happily re-visit my thoughts for my own enjoyment and (B) to add to my pinned post.

MY META:

==Most Liked==

Dean, Cas, and sharing pockets

Jack's nephilim eyesight triggering Dean's germ anxiety

== Roles, Identity, Careers, Class ==

Performing Dean, the AV Club, and Jack as varsity MVP

Even when Chuck "humiliates" Castiel, Dean still likes him

Cas + "dad material"

Anna and the angelic non-integration of her own emotions

Are angels terrified of fathering Nephilim?

Jack is not part of a traditional, cookie-cutter nuclear family. That's the WHOLE POINT

Nazi Cas, and the implications for Jimmy Novak

Beware the validity of Cupid in My Bloody Valentine

== Core traits ==

Dean + I don't deserve happiness

Cas + shabby angel of the Lord

Lucifer + cognitive empathy

Lucifer...doesn't really rib Cas that hard about his feelings for Dean

Dean's guilt and emotions make him LOOK guiltier than other characters

Dean + ashamed of being alive

== Symbols ==

Castiel's coat of arms - When Cas dons the overcoat, he hijacks the narrative

Dean, the Cupid, and the insidious motive to demoralize his faith in ever finding "True Love"

Searching for a rainbow + forbidden love is forbidden

Jack ate the world: foreshadowing gods eating souls + nephilim lore

Cas died on a beach! + Jack's place of birth was specifically the famously doomed Washaway Beach

==Car meta ==

Cas + cars (!)

The pimpmobile as a marker of Cas's unsettled identity

The truck is the mark of a family protector and Sam loves little blue cars teehee

Family cars + protecting the ones you love

==Pop culture, music, media ==

Head canon that Dean buried Cas by a windmill, but it’s because he and Cas have had deep conversations about Animal House.

Jack + Dean + hyperfixations on music

==Grief ==

The familial murder of the mother, the blaming of absent father, and the symbolic death of a child in 14x18 Absence

Dean looks around for Cas after he prays in 13x01

Smiting Belphegor made Jack's death real

Harper Sayles and the romanticized first love

How Jack & Dean wanted to look ahead in Optimism and fail at doing it when Jack dies just two episodes later

==TFW dynamics ==

Dean's family was willing to sacrifice him, and that gets overlooked (from an ask)

Dean's Farewell Tour + Avoiding Cas - part 1

TFW are messy disaster parents and I dig it

When Dean killed Belphegor, it was about Rowena, but it was ALSO about [OMITTED]

Cas + resilience + repeat existential crises

Dean & Cas + Covert Communication in 15x09

Claire & Jack are uneasy around each other at best; actively dislike each other at worst

== Breakdowns ==

Jack's best memory was in 13x06; some notes about the scene

Oh, my GOD, Cas. Dean was so stupidly worried about you, you dumbass. (12x17-12x19)

Season 11-12 Lucifer + war + rejection + Jack -> the thing that will give his life new meaning

== Script talk ==

Like a baby lion is proud of his kill, Jack overkills Nick with graphic, brutal efficiency in SPN 14x17 Game Night

The mission before all else + Mary's trust in Jack in 14x17 Game Night

Dean & Cas in season 15: doomed by too much faith in each other?

== Unpopular and/or controversial opinions ==

Dean would never say I Love You to ANYONE in those circumstances.

How Dean and Cas lost the thread of free will in SPN season 15

The incest jokes and innuendos are primarily about class disrespect

The argument that Cas has no parental authority over Jack (and Sam and Dean do)...doesn't hold up

Ben is not's Dean's son. Full stop.

Heaven is a war machine

Endverse Cas + The Nephilim-making Strategy

-> Contrarian takes:

Purgatory isn’t pure in the *good* sense; it’s a suicide trap and a black-and-white, unthinking world (long)

Cas actually DID check out naked Hannah (very long)

Cas has good reason to need forgiveness during the divorce arc...he is not blameless (long)

Does Chuck's female coding carry ill intent?

==Finale metas==

What if Dean dying on the rebar was an accidental manifestation of Chuck!God!Amara!Jack’s latent feelings? (long)

Searchin' for a rainbow + Cas's death + forbidden love (long)

== Funny thoughts ==

Jack + typewriter

Lebanon inhabitants + TFW fake jobs

Jack & Dean + nephilim eyesight + GERMS

Ketch, the father

Sam wigged out when Eileen didn't leave and note and Dean deserved to say things about it - lol

Cas is SO old, y'all

Dean hate-watches Gone with the Wind

Dean doesn't "feel more deeply than anyone," you FOOL

Dean/Cas are that unsettling, unhinged couple who looks absolutely demented when they kiss

== Random ideas ==

What if Cas's Enochian rib carvings affected Cas's abilities to hear Sam and Dean's prayers?

== SPNwin ==

There’s a lot of merit in being anti-destiny, anti-soulmate, anti-chosen-one, anti-Cupid, anti-mirrors/anti-parallels. (long)

Natural crisis points built into The Winchesters character arcs (long)

To be updated.

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