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sodrippy · 1 year
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felt guilty for getting an airtasker to put my furniture together bc like its so expensive and i should just do it myself. so i put together two INCREDIBLY easy pieces that arent even majorly heavy bc why spend extra money on it right?
cut to: waking up the next morning w half my back swollen to twice the size, not to mention i overslept bc my body was so tired which triggered a migraine making me oversleep even more 👍
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justsomefluff · 4 years
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Hi! May I request for a karaoke date ateez reaction? Their s/o doesn't have the best voice so they kind of act like crackheads but like fluffy at the same time? I hope that makes sense, I really like your writing!!!
Ok this is so cute... I wish karaoke was more popular in the US because it would be my fav thing to do every weekend.
Anyway I hope you like this!! <3
Hongjoong:
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So, when Joong invites you to karaoke you’re kinda nervous bc
Joong can sing and his best friends are amazing singers too so like how’s he gonna react if you aren’t as good
When you get there he’s really excited and stuff and he lets you pick the first song
And you just pick one that you both know
But you pick more of a rap-style song so that you can just scream it without him judging too much lol
Even that ends up making you nervous though bc... Joong is a professional rapper
But you actually end up really enjoying yourself bc he’s being just as wild as you are
At the end of the date you don’t really understand why you had been nervous in the first place bc karaoke really is all fun and games
Plus Joongie would never dream of making you uncomfortable even if he was low-key like “I’m dating the world’s most tone-deaf person”
He’s totally blind about that stuff
Love-stricken puppy
Seonghwa:
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(this was so cute I cant breathe)
Okay I feel like Seonghwa is a huge crackhead when he does karaoke
especially if it’s just you guys and he doesn’t feel pressured to be mature in front of his bandmates
I also feel like he would force you to choose only girl group songs
Let’s face it, if Ateez could turn into a girl group.... he’d do it in a heartbeat
The reason he would choose these songs is because he’s obsessed with girl group choreographies
So you wouldn’t even have time to focus on singing with him bc he’d be like
“AND STEP TO THE LEFT, SHOULDER MOVE, BABABA”
and you’re just watching him and laughing hysterically
until he tries to get you to dance with him and it’s like... dear god no
But it actually is super cute and soft bc he’s gentle and like guides your movements and stuff
So overall, I think for Seonghwa, karaoke isn’t even about the singing
Yunho:
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Yunho is already insane though
So when you get to karaoke he’s already picking super difficult songs
like difficult even for him
So your nerves will melt away in seconds
Because he’ll start off with some crazy vocalists and then end up screaming for the notes he cant hit
And when it’s your turn, if he doesn't hear you being as crazy as he is he’s gonna be bitter
like “I just put my entire lungs into that song and you can’t even yell a little bit?”
Will definitely make you do a duet
And it’s a super romantic song right... not anymore
Even if it’s notes he has no problem hitting, he’s gonna do some terrible singing just for you baby ;)
Like totally off-key and dancing like an idiot just to make you smile
*insert random twerking*
But one thing about being crazy with Yunho is that you both get tired really fast and so you end up just listening to the tracks run while you slow dance and...
it’s so SOFT
Yeosang: 
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He’s shy too
Don’t ask me why bc I mean the logic just isn’t there
“Yeosang, you literally sing for thousands of people...all the time... you’re nervous in front of just me though? Really?”
He’ll just nod... “it’s different. okay?”
But whatever
You’ll have to end up taking the lead even if you don't really want to
And like, you’re not that bad, you’re just a little harder on yourself
But Yeosang is just heart eyes the whole time
Big ole goofy smile
ends up finally joining in and serenading you
is actually really genuine about it until you get too shy and just start screaming the words back at him lmao
He’s totally caught off guard but also thinks its hilarious
You just spend the rest of the night screaming random lyrics at each other like you’re an up and coming metal band
Super fun but you definitely lose your voices the next morning
San:
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Sannie best boy
He’s really intuitive about your feelings so when he told you he wanted to take you to karaoke he knew you were nervous about it pretty much immediately
wants to have fun with you though so he’s constantly assuring you that it’s not a big deal
says super cheesy stuff like “even if you’re the worst singer in the world and make me lose hearing in my right ear, I’ll still love you so much bb”
Him saying that actually helps though bc nothing you do could ever be as embarrassing as that lmao
Even if you are a bad singer, he’s gonna hype you the whole time
low-key coaches you too 
will randomly be like “so good, bb, just LOUDER”
But if you’re really uncomfortable he’ll get up and literally lose his mind
like he’ll become the literal definition of screeching into the void
Will not stop until you’re literally crying with laughter
then he’s gonna make you join in for the last song of the night
and you’re both screaming so thats fun
But then as you’re leaving, he’ll kiss you and tell you how much fun he always has with you
bc he’s a closet sentimental
places so much value on your time and just hopes you always enjoy yourself as much as he does :’)
Mingi:
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Ok Mingi cant really sing either I mean I love him but have y'all heard him sometimes lmao
So if you go with him, I don't see how anyone could possibly be nervous bc you’re just gonna make fun of each other the whole time
like if he starts and you laugh at him he’ll be like “this is why I’m a rapper,  babe”
Will totally make fun of you just as hard though
like he’ll be calm for a little while but then all of a sudden he’ll be like “I CANT TAKE IT ANYMORE”
and literally die laughing and say stuff like “Are my ears bleeding?”
and you’ll swat at him and stuff
boom, you’re now wrestling in the room you guys rented
it’s really fun though bc you guys just feel so comfortable around each other
singing in front of someone, even if both of you suck, is really intimate I think so
karaoke night just brings you guys closer
one of your favorite memories together
Wooyoung:
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Okay this child is the definition of crackhead so
he’s not gonna take any of this stuff seriously
Like if there was a soundtrack for this date, it wouldn’t be any of the songs you sang at karaoke it would just be his hyena laugh on repeat
Bc that’s pretty much all you hear the whole night lmao
his voice tends to be on the higher side so naturally he chooses songs that are really low in pitch
Just because he thinks it’ll be funny
and he’s making weird faces as he tries to get his voice down the where the song needs it to be
Will make you do the same thing for any of your songs
like if your voice is low then you have to go high and vice versa
he doesn’t give you the opportunity to even try to be good bc he’s like
“you gotta scream it or else it isn't funny”
and you both have so many videos of each other singing terribly
perfect for blackmail
like later if you’re ever play fighting or something you’ll be like “Wooyoungie, one more word and I will tweet this for all Atiny to see”
but some videos are just for you bc you want that memory to be only between you guys bc it was so special
Jongho:
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(HES SO CUTE DAMMIT)
This boy, I definitely understand if you get insecure about going with him okay
he’s got the vocal range of the century okay
and if he takes you to karaoke, he’s out to impress
so he’s gonna be performing his ass off for you and you’re just like :o
like “oh, it’s serious”
and then you’re making up excuses like “just keep singing I love your voice”
which is true, but you’re really only saying that at that moment so he won’t make you sing in front of him
but he’s gonna make you, you have no choice ok
if you’re nervous he’ll do funny stuff to show you that he doesn't care
like if you pick a ballad he’ll turn on his phones flashlight and wave it around and pretend to cry
and if you pick something more upbeat he’s gonna dance and pretend to be a fan or something super cheesy and dumb
just wants his baby to be comfortable :(
so even if you were uncomfy before, he’ll sing the last song and it’ll be super slow and he’ll hit you with that back-hug while he’s singing
so if the portion of the night when you were singing was awkward for you, you forget about it in the end bc boy took your breath away with his sweetness
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hedonicghost · 2 years
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M... Your wayfarers play minecraft headcanons... We MUST have them...
the crew of the wayfarer plays minecraft together asmr (brought to you by 🐌) under a cut bc its uhhhh long af
Rosemary:
probably would ask what the "objective" is.
would follow the achievements page like a holy text.
wouldn't go to the end though because she'd get too attached to the cave house she made and her ever-expanding mine system
Ashby:
would also want an objective, but would see it as "too extreme" for such a "cute game".
would probably have a quaint little house in a plains biome with bees and a farm.
epic exodan moment (no pvp/pve)
Sissix:
would speed run it.
first person to get an elytra.
would fly literally everywhere and rub it in everyone's faces.
she'd suck at caving though, idk why.
she'd have the most fun making intense mob xp farms
Kizzy:
genuinely she just wants to hoard things.
will spend days making a tree farm while having no need for one.
makes massive redstone contraptions that the entire server can use (for a small price).
would make everyone have mailboxes in front of their bases and will give them small gifts on occasion (corbin some kelp, ohan glow squid ink, sissix rockets, ashby an entire cake on top of the mailbox so he cant move it, etc)
Jenks:
would probably have one of those miku/pepe skins just to annoy people.
would play off as being kinda bad at the game just to have someone help him cave and then he abandons them in the middle of a cave spider spawner.
would make a secret underground railway to everyone's base for ultimate hijinks.
gets as much redstone as physically possible just to sell it to kizzy at a high price because otherwise she'd have to go too far away to find any left in the caves
Dr Chef:
similar to ashby i think. would genuinely just be content tending to his farm all day and giving people little gifts of food if he knows they're heading out to the end or something.
would probably refurbish a village to make it more livable/pleasant looking and get the best trades possible.
has the achievement of getting every kind of cat.
Corbin:
complains about not liking videogames, so he's super quiet while playing, but he's genuinely just... hyperfocused on it.
he's been strip mining for twelve hours now.
his inventory isn't full because he set up a minecart retrieval system four hours ago.
has literally everything he needs in his stripmine base.
doesn't have an actual base, just a storage system jenks built for him in order to get his redstone off of him for free.
cannot pve for the life of him, which is why he stripmines instead of caves
kizzy made him a kelp farm and while he didn't say anything, she has been getting diamonds on occasion from an unknown source
Ohan:
nomad sorta vibe.
genuinely just gets lost exploring and needs someone to find him and bring him back to his starter base that he never upgraded from.
kizzy and sissix offer to build him a nicer base but he just frowns and goes "you don't like my build? i spent so long on it..." and then they don't bring it up again for a while.
he's genuinely just having fun finding new biomes and weird spawn structures out in the wild.
probably helps sissix find end portals / end busts with her.
Lovey:
she doesn't really like the game, but she enjoys how much the crew likes it, so she plays with them.
she's the server owner (obviously), so she can occasionally, subtly, make use of command blocks to surprise the crew. it's nothing insane, probably just strange sounds or a weird spawn area, stuff like that.
she'd also probably steal the redstone jenks is selling to kizzy at such an inflated price and put it into one of her chests.
this of course causes jenks to accuse kizzy of stealing but such is the price we have to pay for making things interesting
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tayegi · 7 years
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im crying not only bc of your amazing writing, but bc i was scrolling thru my dashboard and i saw you answering all these asks about new rules and i’m so dump thinking that you set up new rules or sthg, i didn’t understand it so i read all those asks and fucking spoiled myself kmp, but on another note yOU FUCKING ROCK OMG NEW RULES IS SO AMAZING I LOVE IT 💘💘💘
Anonymous said:I'M LOVING NEW RULES SO MUCH just wanted to show my support. i love your writing in general don't get me wrong but new rules is messing with my heart and it's amazing
Anonymous said:Hi! I just read both parts for "New Rules" and I loved them! If this goes in the same direction as Dua Lipa sings (I guess it will) it sounds like it'll be very interesting. I love how everyone in the story is human, not just good or bad, you know? 90% of fics would've made Mijoo the stereotypical barbie bitch, but you didn't and I was pleasantly surprised! I also feel very identified with the OC. I really want her to open up and discover who JK really is, whoever that is. Keep up the good work!
jabaelashit said:Hey! i already wrote you a message on one of your posts but i just wanted to say that i am feeling so skabakks right now, I can't stop thinking about new rules and i'm torn between crying or crying but w angsty. I hope oc learns her worth and can understand she's just as amazing as mijoo, even better if we're talking about morals but oh well people fuck up:( I'm glad she forgave her but I hope she distances from her cause that gurl ain't having the same respect for the friendship as oc/1
jabaelashit said:and i also hope she gets to tell jimin her feelings not to like make him break stuff w mijoo, but to let him know she hadnt seen the note and to release some pressure and feelings cause oc bottles up so much and i just want to go and hug her and don't leave her until she understands shes fucking badass and cool and that the way she thinks is 👏👏👏 lu you've made me feel such a diverse amount of emotions i don't know what to do w myself anymore, your writing is amazing! love love loove you❣/2
Anonymous said:Hey!!:) idk if this is the right place to send compliments cause im really new to tumblr but THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR ALL YOUR FICS. Tbh I'd buy it if you published a physical compilation;)
Anonymous said:Wow for the longest time I was searching your old username; idek why cause I’ve known you changed your username and have been keeping up to date with you LMAO this is what being sick and delirious does to me. ANYWAYS! Hope you’re not too down with the crazy anons your story is great and I’m thankful for the dynamic characterizations you create! It makes it so much more interesting cause you create many characters with depth!!
Anonymous said:Can I please just have your writing talent? The OC is just so real, and that moment when she's deciding what to do with Mijoo, and what she actually says at the end.... I can't actually put my thoughts into words. I'm legit stunned by the sheer amount of emotions I felt reading the second chapter. I genuinely adore the banter between JK and OC, I personally prefer people to be more direct with what they want, so I already appreciate them, but also Jimin's convo with OC... (1/2)
Anonymous said:Jimin's convo with OC... Idk about these other anons going off on Mijoo, I was more thinking 'why didn't Jimin chase the note?' and then he would have had his answer then and there. But that might have just been me... And also, thinking back to it now, when JK said 'I need you' and OC repeated it back to him like super softly, like she was surprised oh god, okay, my heart is breaking even more for OC now, idk if I'm reading too much into it. I love you Lu, I hope you're well, and happy! (2/2)
Anonymous said:I love your fics so much!! The sass is real esp with jungkook 😂
Anonymous said:Anyways do ya thang hunny ✨ Keep wrecking me with your writings 💞✨💞✨💞✨💞✨💞✨😩
Anonymous said:Read part 1 of New Rules and was like yeah thisll be fun, I'll have a great time. Then I read part 2 and ended up shedding some real tears at the end?!?! LU WHAT THE...... But really though its so nice to read a fic where the OC values friendship. The idea that its always girls against girls makes me sad.. we should be sticking together!!
Anonymous said:so... surprise surprise, dis gon be about new rules 😂 but I really wanted to thank you for adding so much of the oc's inner dialogue, and making her such a character in the first place. a lot of fics do not portray ocs with more defeatist attitudes, but yours does and I was glad, because I could finally relate to a fic :) also, coming back to the inner dialogue thing, it was so in depth that i could really feel what the oc was feeling, what she was going through. it was amazing ❤️ thank you!
Anonymous said:Man this is one hell of a good fic i’m highly anticipating the next chapter!!! Even though it seems like traditional frat fuckboy x ‘i hate frat bois but ye i’d fuck u’ type of girl it still is in a way a little different i just can’t quite catch how but nonetheless it’s amazing!!! Keep up the good work babe
oceanjoon said:ok so ur newest fic new rules literally is so real n relatable !! like honestly i understand seeking physical comfort in people u dont care about wen u r feeling down/insecure to validate urself n it just rlly hit home
kyarybunny said:Lu. At this point I have so many compliments to give you I can't really form it all properly. But I really am enjoying New Rules and this plot you're breathing life into! It's a different facet of your writing and I love how you can interpret every character's actions in a few different ways. Thank you for continuing to write and I hope you enjoy writing as much as we do reading/analyzing.
Anonymous said:Istg when I read the new chapter of New Rules I clenched my fist like that Arthur meme when it came up to the part about mijoo and the note. Girl got me heated lol. As usual, your works do not disappoint! I love your wittiness and how it shines in your writing. The remarks and dialogue in all of your series really proves your talent. You’re truly a gem amongst fanfic writers 💕☺️📢
Anonymous said:i was happily reblogging a few things on my dash and ch1 of new rules just came and i started reading WHERE THE FUCK DID I GET MY ASS INTO???!!!???!?! IT'S FUCKING AMAZING i don't know why i didn't start reading before. don't you ever dare stop writting, you're such a good writter and i enjoy your works very very much
Anonymous said:OC DESERVES HAPINESS JUST AS MUCH AS MIJOO. OC SHOULDVE PUT HERSELF AND HER HAPPINESS BEFORE HER FRIEND'S BECAUSE SHE IS TOO GOOD FOR ALL OF THEM DJFJFJ i hope one day jimin finds out about her feelings :(
Anonymous said:new rules just keeps getting better and better 😻😻
Anonymous said:Wow.. Okay.. I do believe chapter 2 of New Rules has officially ruined me. My heart was actually beating so fast through out the whole chapter, and it's still racing now too. I've thought this multiple times while reading your fics, but you're writing really is incredible. Your characters and the way you describe their emotions is so unbelievably relatable that the reader can't help but be sucked in. I always find myself becoming invested in your characters! Thank you for all the adventures!
Anonymous said:I felt so bad for the OC this chapter ;.; If I were in her position, I'd probably do the same since causing a scene is yes, immature and not worth the energy. But, if i could be a character in New Rules I'd probably be the other best friend who'll be like "guurl, confront her ass it isnt an excuse just because she's your friend." All in all I see the OC as the kind of person who'll go out of their way to care for someone to the point of disregarding their own feelings, which is unhealthy :( (1)
Anonymous said:(2) but thats what makes her such a relatable character. I really, really like that in your OCs. This is probably the second OC i emotionally relate to, first is Copper Girl. But yeah I'm just distracting myself from assignments lol this series is amazing and just you are amazing Lu!!!! ily!!!!! PS. Jungkook is still agsjshskll he's cocky but with OC he's quite vulnerable. I wonder why? Is it just a front or does he have other intentions?
Anonymous said:alternative ending to new rules: mijoo and mc are over their respective boys, does not bother to get into any messy scenarios like that ever again, love each other and support each other and is forever the friendship that everyone envies anD I HATE THIS SITUATION SO MUCH GODDAMMIT LU!!! UR REALLY TRYING TO TEAR MY HEART APART!!
marchxseptember said:OH MY GOD CHAPTER TWO IS UP. I HAD A FEELING SO I HAD TO CHCK UR ACC AND I WAS RIGHT. BRB GONNA READ
marchxseptember said:AND THE PLOT THICKENS. I JIST FINISHED READING CH. 2 AND I AM FUCKED UP. I HAD A THEORY BEFORE BUT NOW I HAVE LIKE 2 MORE IM CONFUSED. I LOVED IT SOOO MUCH. AND I HATE MIJOO NOW. I CANT WAITT TO SEE WHAT WILL HAPPEN. THIS WAS SO GOOD LU.
omg the amount of response ive gotten for new rules is unbelievable. I dont think ppl were even this into equilibrium. the last time u guys acted like this was during the golden boy trilogy and it really feels so good to have this again.
thank you all for your thoughtful messages and for giving this ridiculous little fic a chance. I love you all
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lenin-it-to-win-it · 7 years
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tag game
tagged by @mostladylikeladythateverladied
Rules:
1) Always post the rules.
2) Answer the questions given by the person who tagged you.
3) Write 11 questions of your own.
4) Tag 11 people.
1. What was the very first fandom you got super into?
when i was in middle school me and my younger brother were both super into artemis fowl and would draw all these parody comics together every summer so i guess it’d probably be artemis fowl! 
2. Do you/Did you like school? Why or why not?
um kind of? mostly i just liked it bc going to school meant i could be on the debate team and not at home with my shit parents, now im at college and its more frustrating than anything lol 
3. What do you do to keep entertained on a long drive? Listen to music? Books on tape? Yell at squirrels?
i always bring a SH I T LO AD of books anytime i have to go on a long drive somewhere but usually when that happens im with my siblings and we do car games and shit together or argue or do president flash card trivia bc YE S im a fucking DORK in case anyone has ever wondered and i genuinely enjoy presidential flash card trivia fight me 
4. What’s the absolute scariest book/show/movie/game you’ve ever read/watched/played?
fuck i cant remember the name but i read this fucked up horror book in middle school about this like demon carnival thing i guess and there was this one scene with all these funhouse mirrors and if u walked thru the mirror you would look like the worst things u see about urself? like idk how to explain it but whatever u thought were ur worse traits would get more and more exaggerated and whatever shit things u thought about urself would get increasingly true as u fell thru the mirrors and the author described like the fuckin flesh shifting around and bones growing to change the appearances and it really fucked me up in 7th grade, i think it was for battle of the books but idk all i remember was one night i kept crying about it bc i was so freaked out lol and ive only seen one scary movie and it was oculus (about a haunted mirror) and my bed was DIRECTLY ACROSS FROM A GIANT ASS MIRROR so that scared me too lol 
5. Do you have any pets? If not, do you want one?
YE  S my DOGgO MY BOY MY LITTLE MEAT-MEATS (technically hes my parents dog but shh hes mine) and my only goal in life is to make enough money to afford a flemish giant rabbit lol 
6. What’s your opinion on PE class? Fun break from studying or absolute hell?
H E L L 
7. What’s the best way to spend a day off?
alone in bed with chocolate milk and memes 
8. Rain, snow, or sunshine?
rain!
9. What’s your favorite quote?
ok well the one i picked for my senior quote was “go forth now over land and sea and set fire to the hearts of men with your word” which is from a pushkin poem BUT it was RUINED for me bc when the fuckin yearbook came out they switched my carefully chosen literary quote with special significance with the quote of the girl next to me alphabetically and what she chose was “You gotta work hard to ball hard” SO APPARENTLY THE UNIVERSE IS TELLING ME THATS MY FAVORITE QUOTE NOW IM A  B A L L E R  BITCH
10. If you only had access to one social media site, which one would you pick?
tumblr cuz its where my hoez at 
11. Is there something you want to do that you’ve been putting off? Why?
homework for nearly every fuckin class theres this bnha angst fic that im definitely gonna write at SOME point but im putting it off bc i literally can ONLY write fics all at once in one sitting and with the amount of schoolwork i have in this upcoming week i know starting something like that is Not A Good Idea so maybe after next week when i have my midterm, three essays due AND NOW A RUSSIAN ORAL EXAM BC THE UNIVERSE HATES ME APPARENTLY ill hopefully get to it 
my questions
1. how many otter pops do u think u could fit up ur ass if u really tried
2. what is prime meridian?
3. how many bones are there in ur room right now 
4. what would u do if u had a roommate who gave people tattoos in ur shared room while u were there (Not A Hypothetical) 
5. how many clones of urself do u think u could fuck without it getting weird
6. have you ever worn the flesh of ur enemies as you traipsed gaily across the battlefield, a delicious fresh picked banana in one hand and a severed head in the other only to peel the skin off the severed head and bite into it and stick the banana on a pike? 
7. if u get a solid chocolate bunny for easter, how are you supposed to get ur lil wiener in there? 
8. if you became president what would be ur first step to address the Lizard Tiddy Conundrum? 
9. how many of your friendships are predicated on murder? 
10. if u see a spider do u kill the spider or kill urself 
11. if u had to pick a particular species of cactus to suck off, what kind would it be 
tagging whoever wants to, go for it fuckos
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saintkimora · 7 years
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well here is how my past 3-5 dates w joel have gone this past week
so! ive been spending the night w him p much every other night. so our 4th date was like 8 days ago. i got there and i THOUGHT we were gonna be in his room again but we were in his room for 2 seconds then he came in like “oh btw my roommates are making us go in the living room and be social” so i was like ..................................................rip i was like here i go its time for the caleb and leeann applebees date 2.0 :/ so we went in to the living room and it was with marissa and lindsey bc his other roommate was out. so everyone was like wtf are we gonna do so after some talking joel decided we would all watch the babadook on netflix since we were talking about the meme and most of us hadnt seen it. i hate scary movies but i figured i could get through it since i had joel to hold on to and since the babadook is like a meme now. so yeah it was fine i got along ok w the roommates and the movie wasnt that scary except for one part. there was one point where i felt like i was starting to shut down a little and i was feeling bad about possibly ruining things again but i asked joel afterwards and he didnt even notice lmao so i dont think it was as bad as i thought
lindsey went to bed halfway through the movie so it was just me joel and marissa by the end. after the movie marissa went into her room and joel and i went back to his room. idk if this next part happened at this point or if it happened on our next date bc its hard for me to keep the timeline straight since it all happens so fast lol so regardless of what day it was this was the next significant thing that happened w me and joel
so i was watching him play overwatch or something and his brother called him on the phone and they had a long conversation about joels financial situation while i was just sitting there lol. so afterwards joel put his head in my lap and explained all his problems to me about how hes so stressed out with money and stuff. and like obv i felt really bad for him bc that sucks. BUT i actually kinda liked it bc i liked how vulnerable and genuine he was being! it made me feel a lot closer to him. then we watched these olds 80s (?) game shows w his head still in my lap (one of them was like some knockoff of snatch game but w regular celebrities instead of drag queens omg) and he had the FUNNIEST commentary about all the old commercials and stuff lol i havent laughed that hard in a LONG time so it was really nice
and idk if this happened that night or the babadook night but i ate his ass again and once again it was a religious experience like his ass is SOOOOOOOO nice i still cant get over it lmao
so then fast forward to the next 2 days later and for whatever reason joel and i werent planning on meeting that night. but he texted me at like 2am telling me he was feeling kinda down about things and how he wished i was there w him rn so i decided to go visit him! and like he kept being like “i dont wanna bother you/i feel bad about always making you come all the way out here for me” and how he wasnt used to guys putting in so much effort and caring about him so much and like...it really wasnt that serious like it wasnt a hindrance to me at all bc i wanted to see him anyways lol but it did make me feel kinda bad for him bc like his old bfs must have been real flops for him to view me just doing decent bf things as like these grand gestures. i have more to say on this but it will be towards the end of the post
so yeah i showered and got there by like 3am. he set up his futon since it was bigger than his bed so we would have more room. and he talked to me about how stressed he was about money and medical school applications and how he felt kinda worthless so i listened to him and comforted him and all that stuff. then we watched the rpdr reunion together and it was SO much fun omg he was shook p much the whole time since it was so iconic. then we went to sleep since i had work in the morning
also like the night after that we were texting and i told him i was really tired and he was like but youre never tired and i was like ya but i had 2 full days of work and i barely got any sleep last night (which was bc i was awake w him until like 5am) and i realized afterwards that it was kinda mean of me to say it bc to me i was just explaining why i was tired but he was already feeling like a burden making me drive all the way there and comfort him so telling him how tired i was probably made him feel bad about asking me for comfort which is NOT how i want him to feel bc i want him to be able to request my help whenever he needs it. so i could tell he was kinda caught off guard by me saying it so i called him and apologized and we cleared it all up. anyways it was just nice to actually call him and discuss the issue and resolve it without any drama. and he said it meant a lot that i even called him to make sure he was feeling ok so it seems that at least i did something right 
there was the next date which was pretty much the same as usual. this time i watched him play diablo 3. but this time we also fooled around and he made me cum and then i was trying to make him cum but i fell asleep bc i was so tired asfnkjashdasna i felt SOOOOOOOOO bad when i woke up that morning :( i apologized and he said it was fine and he was tired too but i still felt bad about it
so then last night/this morning was our most recent date. when i got there a friend of him/his roommates named chris was using his room bc he was playing overwatch so i had to hang out w joel marissa and lindsey in the living room. it was extremely nerve wracking and i was sweating like crazy but i tried to hide my nervousness and socialize. lindsey and marissa seem to like me esp bc i brought joel a gift that day (hes like obsessed w friends and i saw a friends t shirt when i was shopping that day so i got it for him lol) also lindsey is iconic bc she is so wacky shes always getting on the floor and doing weird poses and moves and stunts. and marissa is p funny so i like them both. but still having to talk to them was stressful even though theyre both really nice. lindsey walked into joels room later that night when he was laying down and i was sitting on top of him and said she wanted to join and then later when joel was in the kitchen she came in the doorway and asked if i could be her boyfriend asfjkafndsjnkajs now THIS is a cracked queen
so the rest of the night was nice! we watched like 3 drag race s5 eps on amazon video and we did lots of cuddling and stuff as usual. then we went to bed and we woke up and we fooled around and we BOTH came this time. it was difficult for me trying to get him to cum but i had to power through it bc i had to redeem myself after last time. then i watched him play overwatch and then i watched him play destiny. i really enjoyed it! like i was sitting there cuddling a cute guy and watching him play videogames w both of us shirtless like that is literally all i want and i finally have it!
so yeah! its going really well w joel at the moment. we get along really well and i like his sense of humor and its nice having someone w similar interests to mine! and i love playing w his hair and touching his nice soft belly and his thick thighs and playing w his beard. and i looooooooooooooooooooovvvveeeeeee his voice so much omg the way he says certain words is so cute and hes always making cute weird noises and its super endearing. and i LOVE love love being able to cuddle w someone until we both fall asleep and then waking up together! its so nice 
he doesnt seem to be losing interest in me yet which is good. however this is the issue that i mentioned earlier that i would come back to. so hes constantly telling me about how hes not used to being w someone that puts in so much effort and treats him so well. so that got me thinking. like...obv he likes me at least a little but i have a feeling he might like me a lot more rn bc he isnt used to being treated so nicely. so like, after the initial novelty of being treated like this wears off im afraid he’ll realize he doesnt actually like me that much (like if it ends up being more of a he likes the way i make him feel more than he actually likes me as a person). so im kinda worried about that but im hoping it doesnt happen obv and that he continues to like me. and again. we’ve been in somewhat social situations together now since i had to talk to his 2 roommates but it really wasnt easy for me at all. and we still havent actually gone “out” and done something, like going out to eat or attending a function together or something. so i still have to wait and see how we’re able to interact in those situations before i can determine whether our relationship will work out. im also still too nervous to eat in front of him so whenever he asks if im hungry i lie and say no even though majority of the time i am actually really hungry :/ rip
so yeah thats p much it! its pretty nice atm, except for the issues i just mentioned. also last night joel told me that one of his hookup buddies was back in town the other day and texted him but he had to turn him down and tell him that he is with someone now (me) so that was nice to know! since he seems to view us as exclusive now. we still havent officially decided we are in a relationship but im really in no rush to do that since its only been like a week and a half so i want to continue getting to know him and stuff. i still do feel that he is gonna lose interest at some point but rn it seems that will be later rather than sooner so i am just trying to take it day by day. im also worried about greece since ill be gone for a month so it is very possible that he might meet someone else that he likes more during that time which would really suck. but im kinda just operating on the assumption that its what is gonna happen that way if it does happen i wont be too shocked and if it doesnt happen ill be pleasantly surprised
so yeah thats it, overall its going really well and im having a lot of fun with him! hopefully things continue on this path and we get even closer bc i really like him so far
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