#straight up slept for an hour i think

[asfdhgsdkjhgb]

forgot to make a post sooner afterwards but!! went to my first pride yesterday (technically 2 days ago its past midnight but shh) and i think the absolute strangest part of the experience was when i got home i took a nap

#/g #just me rambling again #frogs down bad #i went w my bf and!! it was really fun! we saw one of our friends there too for a lil bit and a few people from our school #(also i wanna note my school had a stand we literally took so long to find it but a teacher i really like was running it! so we said hi) #it was a lot of people n hot out n a lot of walking around but it was fun i think! #it was neat #i didnt end up buying anything but at one place that had free pins i got a demi flag one and one w it/its on it which :]] #im saying it was fun bc im pretty sure it was my brain cant really process any feelings on it though its weird i think its just bc i #was probably a bit overwhelmed the whole time but like. i dont mean that in a super negative way i am just a bit confused #i do think it was fun though #back to the post part tho #i wanna note that i am not someone who naps like i genuinely cannot ever sleep during the day the only exception usually being #when im really sick like physically ill otherwise it doesnt matter how tired i am i can never nap #that being said #when we got back to my house we had some food and then layed down together and like. i was out in minutes. both of us were #straight up slept for an hour i think #which is so weird to me #like im sure i needed it we had just walked around for a few hours in a loud hot VERY peopley environment but like. what?????? #that was the easiest ive gotten to sleep by far within the past week or so ive been sleeping like shit ngl so that was. even stranger #genuinely it is so weird to me #i cant nap #but i did #and it was very comfy and it was one of those naps where you k n o w you slept hard bc you wake up a lil disoriented w fabric #wrinkle prints on ur face from whatever you were sleeping on #still so strange to me #something about this silly person of mine makes my brain work different in the comfy way like there was one other time last week #i think at our friends house where we were all chilling in the middle of the afternoon and i almost fell asleep on him then as well #i do not understand my brain ngl #in regards to comfy cozy or the fact that it cannot conceptualize a legitimate feeling or opinion on the experience of going to pride

[badolmen]

WARNING 18+

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#ra speaks #it’s a silly joke/pun dw #we stay silly :3 #edit: #woahg. that’s a lot of notes. hi everybody o/ #10k. stop clenching your jaw and drink some water. #15k. eat some fresh fruit this week! I’m having kiwis tonight :] #20k. quit sitting like a shrimp it’s bad for your neck! sit up straight and do a little stretch every now and then #25k. I’m up at 2 AM but I’ll get to see the sunrise today :] if you can’t see that I hope you admire the sunset later today #30k. do something fun you haven’t done in a while. I haven’t drawn in months - I think I’ll paint a cat tomorrow :3 #40k. I just slept 9 hours straight for the first time in weeks :] remember to ask for help when you need it! no glory in senseless suffering

[martyrbat]

batman: son of the demon

[ID: three panels of Bruce Wayne and Talia al Ghul being in love (and horny) for each other. In the first one, Bruce is in their luxurious bedroom for the first time and is awkwardly standing in his costume as Talia is behind a dressing screen and is changing into a white, satin négligée with lace detailing on it. She reminds him that they technically are married (and that she consented readily to it) but Bruce confesses, “I remember. But it's hard for me to consider that marriage real.” Talia emerges from behind the screen, looking as beautiful as ever as she walks up to him and eases his cowl off. She tells him, “Beloved, you give too much thought to what is ‘real,’ and what is not, to what is ‘true,’ and what is ‘false...’ I realize that is your way, but just this once, accept things as they are...” He strips himself of his clothes as they move to the bed—Talia laying on her back as he's between her legs. She continues to speak, “Forego your control, your discipline... just once, let yourself go... and take me with you.” Her arms slip around his neck as they kiss passionately.

The second panel is lineart of them against a white background. They look at each other lovingly, her hands reaching up to be on his shoulders as he holds her waist. The narration boxes read: ‘While still finding time to be a newlywed, a role in which he is quite unskilled... but—to his delight—quickly learns.’

In the third panel, several weeks have past. Bruce and Ra's al Ghul are walking before Talia interrupts and asks her beloved for a word. Bruce starts to ask if it can wait, due to him and Ra's discussing an important mission but she tells him it cannot. Ra's reassures, “Go, detective, we shall speak of this later.” Bruce and Talia pull away to talk in private, the background a beautiful, bright ombré of red and yellows. She has her arms up on his shoulders as he holds her waist and starts to ask, “Now, Talia, what's so impor—” but she quickly shares, “Beloved, I am with child.” Bruce starts to repeat her but Talia already confirms again, “I am pregnant.” She continues to look up at him, patiently waiting for his response as Bruce stares straight ahead, obviously in shock. He slowly repeats the words back to her in an attempt to register them, “You're... pregnant?” Before he suddenly beams! He pulls her into a tight, close embrace as he excitedly announces, “That's wonderful!” Talia smiles at him and says, “Isn't it?” Before her father can shake Bruce's hand with his own warm smile. Bruce still holds Talia's hand as Ra's tells him, “Detective, Dr. Weltmann could not keep this from me. My congratulations.” END ID]

#reading this comic is just going ‘awweee theyre so cute i hope nothing bad happens to them :)’ #for 49 pages straight before something bad happens to them for the remaining 29 pages #screaming crying throwing up thinking about what could have been.... #like.... #theres so... so much.... #‘i know that's how you are’ and asking him to just let go at least for one night #and the fact that he loves her enough to try again and again even if it can never last!!!!!! #they got to spent MONTHS as a couple!!! they slept together they fucked they had dinner they talked for hours they were in love and happy!! #he got to actually experience that life for a solid stretch of time and he goes on to say how happy he is for the first time in his life! #like its so hard to forget since its a comic and pacing but they were together like that for weeks!! months! #and then having it all ripped away??? having to give it up again??? #both of them got that taste of happiness. of that life they can never have. both of them got to be in love and indulge #no gotham and those responsibilities. not torn between her father and bruce. no constant heartbreak.... #they got to see and experience and feel the future theyre doomed to never share together. they were in love and happy and :((( #oh batman son of the demon... we're really in it now.... #c: batman: son of the demon #crypt's panels #batman #bruce wayne #talia al ghul #brutalia #ra's al ghul

[albaqae]

I just finished my sketchbook again, and it’s one of my favorite!!! So I wanted to post some drawings I did of the turtles that I really liked

Maybe I’ll post some non-tmnt stuff later, but only maybe

Bee and puppycat is a great thing to have on the background while resting

#I had this very eepy day #where I slept for about 13 hours #not straight #I had to wake up sometimes #but not for long and I could keep on sleeping #it was so nice #it’s been a long time since I slept so good #or was so much at peace #really rad I think #rottmnt #save rottmnt #rottmnt Donnie #rottmnt fanart #rottmnt Leo #rottmnt mikey #mikey 2012 #tmnt 2012 #rottmnt donnie fanart #rottmnt mikey fanart #rottmnt ralph #rottmnt Ralph fanart

[siriuslygay1981]

Top three ways you know I needed to be asleep hours ago! (Read: days)

1. Hallucinating!! So fun, always a pleasure to freak out.

2. Writing/words not making sense when written or said. Lots and lots and lots of grammatical and spelling mistakes. Always nice to decipher what I wrote later in the day.

3. Headache. Ouch go away

#can u tell i havent slept #its time for sleepy sleep #ik its 5am what abt it #actually this has been all week #wakey wake 2-6 pm #sleepy sleep 5-11 am #guess who went to bed at 11 am yesterday #thats right me #actually in pain #goodnight my sweet babys #also i gad to write book idea down and then i saw a quiz abt neurodivergent thing #had to do all that #and i got distracted by reels #stared at my ceiling for two hours tryna sleep but i couldnt stop thinking abt smthn #had to research #also yes i stayed up for two or three days and then slept for three days straight #so it actually cancels out

[iliterallydecepticanteven]

SHE IS BACK EVERYBODY!!!!

Yes we are!! AO3 is back online!! The status update twitter even confirmed it!!

Glad to see everything worked out!

#ao3 #ngl kinda slept through most of this #im sick rn and just slept 12 hours straight #i think i woke up at like 7 am to let my boss know i had to miss #otherwise ive been knocked out #but yay we up!!

[vampfucker666]

today was soooo good for me i actually cooked breakfast i washed some dolls AND i made potato dumplings (they were gonna be my lunch but i finished making them at like. 4 pm so im gonna make them for dinner instead lol) now this may not sound like a lot. and it is not. but considering i just spent like a week and a half with 0 energy this is a good restart

#i had to go off prozac after less than a month on it cause i think it was doing something to my liver #like im pretty sure i straight up had jaundice LMAO #so i think nowwww its finally all gone and my adderall works again. cause it made my adderall not work like At All lol so i was gonna need #to fiddle with my meds anyway i guess :( i did like being on it i was tired but at least i like #slept 11-7 ish and was tired instead of 10+ hours and being tired

[hxneylavendxr]

just found out they never wiped mayuyu's channel, i am a happy girl :)

#23 almost 24 hour straight mental episode cancelled guys im Alright now #no i havent slept in over 24 hours... what of it #i think im good now though might stay up for the new year #the post deep depths of despair burst of energy hit i guess ?

[aquaticflames]

half term breaks are most CERTAINLY for the staff. god I see it all now

#aqua.txt #i dont think ive ever been as close to total mental collapse as i was in ghe last three days of teaching this half term #the dishwasher incident nearly tipped me over the edge for REAL #ended up laughing hysterically to myself about it so i regard that a tentative win for team managing-not-to-cry-at-work #but the fact that i slept for 14 hours straight last night and will do so AGAIN tomorrow?? #half term fucks so hard. i have never been MORE excited to waste away the day as an unconscious bed-bound husk #anyway uuuhhh the education sector does NOT pay enough so write that shit down. rt for the night shift girlies etc etc

[suokumi]

I reached the peak of my unwillingness to live like a functional human being

#I've slept for almost the full 24 hours #i was waking up #thinking #deciding that nah meh I'm not ready for this and going back to sleep #then i woke up because my mom forced me to eat at least a little bit #and then I've fallen into playing for 8 hours straight without breaks #and I'm highly debating wether to go to sleep or draw #and sleep is winning #suo shut up

[mbat]

i would like to thank the planet earth that the weather app says itll be in the 50s-60s tomorrow. ive been melting this past week and its led to a chain of events that im still going through

#my post #so. my grandma does not turn on the ac #and on nice days she opens up all the windows #and last week it was like 80 degrees outside for like 2 days straight. and i dont take well to heat #and the entire upper floor of the house was akin to a sauna. like humidity and heat to match #this led to 2 things. 1 was me trying to sleep downstairs where it was only slightly cooler but not rly. and so i got very poor sleep and #woke up at an absolutely horrible time of night which had me fucked up sleepwise for days. and 2 is that the next time i slept in my own bed #i ended up sleeping with basically no covers on. with my fan blasting quite literally directly at my face for hours straight from maybe #a foot away at most. so i was sleeping horribly and then my nose was dehydrated which meant runny nose hell #my sleep is fixed now but my nose? hell. for a full day it was a waterfall. like neverending. i think that was literally the day #THAT I HAD MY THERAPY. my only calm nose moment was in the office lol. and anyway yesterday my nose was mostly? fine #and now it basically hasnt run at all. but all that sniffling fucking. cw GROSS. my throat is just coated dude. its all i taste. #IT TASTES SO BAD. ive been in this situation before but it never gets better. it tastes so bad. its so unique i really cant describe it. #i tried to drink a large hot coffee and it slightly worked but not really #i think my only solution is to suffer #or try what google tells me to try idk whatever

[stoneantler]

I need people to stop acting like their experience of neurodivergence is universal. "Haha we all have racing thoughts that keep us up all night long right?? Classic adhd a I right!!!" No. And that sounds like more of an anxiety problem, which is largely under control for me these days. My memory and attention on the other hand.

#STOP FUCKING DOING THAT #ohhhhh it's so annoying. i appreciate wanting to find other people you share a common experience with #but don't act like you are the end all and be all example of that disorder #and act like I'm some kind of interloper bc I don't experience it the same way!!! fuck off!!!! #I had a colleague who once straight up told me that she didn't think I had depression in the past #bc i didn't have her exact experience #like idk I slept for upwards of 16 hours a day and either wanted violently to die or didn't feel anything at all #sorry that you had super bad insomnia and overwhelming sadness #i spent five months basically unconscious. why are we arguing about this? #my experience doesn't make yours less valid? stop trying to tell me I wasn't depressed what is wrong with you!!!!!! #I'm going to delete this later I'm just so annoyed!!!!!!

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

On Day 4 of my No Napping streak 😊

#yall dont understand how bad my napping problem was #and im not even joking. for the last dour years i can count on two hands the amount of days i didnt nap #literally most of the last four years has been sleeping #but recently i got burnt out and slept for two days straight with like. two breaks to take care of my dog #(i have a sibling who also cares for the dog i havent been neglecting him) #and that whole mess reset my sleep schedule (i slipped into sleeping during the day and staying awake all night for a couple weeks) #and made it so i dont have to nap i guess because i haven't needed to #its been super weird. i have so much more time now and its hard to fill it #one day i went to the coffee shop and walgreens and the coinstar machine. and did laundry and other tidying #yesterday and today ive cooked whole meals. yesterday it was tortellini and broccoli and garlic bread #like idk how to explain it but thats so out of character for me #literally every day of my life for the last four years has been wake up. to go to work. stay up all night maybe. sleep until work #but now im... getting better i think? it seems better #i have an hour before i have to get ready for work (going in early because theres a bar crawl today and the other concierge wants help) #so im debating between playing on my phone in bed and enjoying the fresh air and sunlight coming from my window #or doing some cleaning and packing. i kind of want to do this because yesterday i had a nightmare that it was moving day and i wasnt ready #it was terrifying. so yeah ill probs get in some cleaning #wish me luck tonight! its saturday (busiest day of the week) and a bar crawl (the literal worst)

[crybabyforhire]

I wish I could feel cute or pretty.

#I think my exhaustion is making my depression and other issues worsen #I slept 12 hours yesterday after work #i went to bed and woke up to go straight back

[m0llygunn]

i just wanted to say thank you to everyone who’s been leaving kind messages on my stories over the last few days, sorry I haven’t responded to a bunch of them, but I see them and I appreciate them so much💗💗

#you guys don’t understand how terrible I felt the last couple of days like I think I slept for 72 hours straight and woke up still tired #so this is very nice dopamine is conquering all of my emo sick feelings #also I had to speed read mill on the floss and that made me want to kms

[sleepyjim]

first night without taking benadryl to sleep and Uh its bad again what the fuck man context and also giant rant in da tags

#basically for several weeks before leo benadryl era(tm) i could not sleep at all for many days at a time i was just Not Tired At All #and my sleep schedule was so fucked up and bad and terrible i would sleep for a whole day then go many days without sleeping over and over #And It was Bad so like last week i got sick of it and took like a billion shots of benadryl juice(tm) and Slept and it waswonderful #so ive been doing that every night since then and ive gone to sleep at 10 and woken up at 8 every day and world was so beautiful forever #cept like four days into leo benadryl era i figured i had gotten into a routine so i Did Not take anything that night and #didn't feel tired. At All . ruined everything for a whole day #so i continued #but now we're out of benadryl cause ive drank it all #and im not allowed to buy it myself cause its a drug #and i cant tell my mom cause she doesnt understand #and im like . Stuck Now lmao i really really dont want everything to suck again i was doing so well this past couple days #its 2 am an im not even sleepy and if i dont sleep tonight then i will during the day and then everything will get fucked up bad again #idk!!!!!! #i dont know what to do man #i think i either got like too uh relying on the benadryl maybe or perhaps theres Sonething Wrong With Me #while we were in the RV i was scared for like a day thatmy body just straight up forgor how to sleep #and idk if that's actually possible but . :/ #i have to go to a thing with my mom tomorrow too so im sposed to get up along with everyone .at like 6 in the morning and so i have #like 3 or 4 hours to sleep and im so Eugh man cause thats like a third of the amount of time a sleep i need to function #i am suffering !! #i cant even sleep if i tried tho Fuck my baka life forever #anyways #text #jason rambles