#sometimes in a row of days

[lilgynt]

yelled at my mom a little got some weed in my system and got spaghetti overall not bad

#personal #spaghetti double funny bc my mom made my bowl while i was like ur a fucker #i didn’t cuss at her except to say it doesn’t fuckin matter to her #but anyway i just chewed her out about being so mean this morning #her argument she wasn’t being means and im in a probationary period #my argument i literally couldn’t fucking walk #also also also. they have to give me at least three warnings before they can me #technically four in total since one isn’t even on paper just a hey dude #but also even before we got on the floor i’ve had coworkers call out leave mid day or 30 minutes in or whatever #sometimes in a row of days #they’re still here #and i’m not saying i WANT to call out during a probationary period but i couldn’t fucking walk #emergencies happen #anyway so we argued about that and i asked what would have happened if she was hurt and i heard her #she IMMEDIATELY said i’d take care of her #so i was like why can’t you do that for me. even when i had the flu it took like 3 days before you checked on me #sickest i’ve ever been and 3 days to even be liek you good #we didn’t get anywhere as far as understanding each others side but i did get to yell at her so i feel better ish #like there’s no feeling better about your mom genuinely not liking you and making you question if she loves you but like #close as you can get #i also ended it with telling her i hope she gets hurt and someone treats her just like she treated me #bc i know i’d care for her but i hope someone treats her like she did me and she gets it #and also blah blah crutches in a hoarder house hard #and she was like i did it too!! she did #and i yelled back like WELL WHOS MESS ARE WE WALKING THROUGH. NOT MINE. #some weed bro were 8 edibles deep i do not want to be alive

[maliciousalice]

All we can do now is keep moving forward. Carefully. I was busy on the real day but rest assured I was watching all the shenanigans unfold. Happy Threshold day 2024!🦎

#2 years in a row i've been caught up with job related shit lol #also my computer crashed on my original attempt which was sad but sometimes doing things twice results in something better #ive enjoyed all your things #threshold is very special to me and im glad people have fun on that day #threshold day #threshold au #captain janeway #janeway #kathryn janeway #threshold #startrek voyager #art #my art #startrek voy #star trek voy #st:voy

[astragatwo]

The new W Corp besties

#my art #project moon #limbus company #fanart #lcb yi sang #lcb ryoshu #lcb hong lu #AUAAAAUUGUGHHH I HATE PM SO MUCH (putting up posters of everything w corp up on my walls) #they're so MEAN i HATE them :wail: #also hi i had these doodled for a little bit but decided to finish them instead of going to bed #i dont really like how any of these (except for maybe hong lu) look but at least the wip wont haunt me anymore #every time pm does something with w corp my friends get front row seats to me straight up dying for a little bit #trios of IDs specifically created to torture me: #last w corp cameo left is rodya when will it be her time #SIGHS i miss them all but pm's gonna need to Not sue unions if they want me to redownload their gacha game #anyways surely there's more than clean up agents over at w corp like dont get me wrong i love the flesh janitors but #what else is there i need to know more about my favorite dimensional space existential horror gore trains #sometimes i dream of drawing every single named wcorp agent in one drawing... maybe some day

[icewindandboringhorror]

... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad. #Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.' #ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists. #take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol...... #ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

[deuynndoodles]

[id: two images. the first is a colored, digital redraw of the second, which is a meme.

it is a poster promoting a sword ballet class, occuring every sunday and tuesday. described as "dangerously beautiful", it's "just like regular ballet except everyone is holding a sword". there is a "choreographed fight scene at the end of every class". battle axes [are] also available.

blue link from four swords (adventures is brandishing her four sword, twirling. zelda clasps her hands and says, "i do not recommend taking this class". end id]

someone: if ure a girl, then why dont u do girl activities?

blue: fuck u [does this]

#doodles #loz #fsa #legend of zelda #four swords adventures #blue link #zelda loz #my blue is a girl but still prefers to dress androgynous/masculine lol #postin 2 days in a row bc i deserve a treat sometimes #might post tomorrow again too lol

[hwathwugu]

More of my Tav, Tesni, because she actually is the best ever and I love her!

#bg3 tav #fanart #art #sketch #digital art #bg3 #baldur's gate 3 #tav #she’s a Duergar rogue #and is focused on getting the absolute most done every day #to the point where the game will sometimes freak out unless I take several long rests in a row to catch up on plot relevant cut scenes #I love her

[yukipri]

I feel like over the month+, I have like 1-2 hours a day max where I feel relatively awake, and every other hour I'm fighting bone-deep exhaustion. I'll bring it up with my doc at my check up on monday, but tbh i know the solution so idk if she can help

And I can work-work when I feel half-dead, or rather I force myself to because I don't want my cats to starve, but when it comes to creative stuff, it's like my mind is slippery sludge dribbling out my eyes...

The Solution, of course: just stop working 3~10 AM every day (and then taking a short nap, working during the day, and then taking another short nap, hours vary but repeat), and maybe get at least 6, ideally 8 uninterrupted hours of sleep at least every other day, ideally every day.

But do I see that happening? No.

Like rn I know I desperately need to edit fic and reply to comments and do several arts but I'm nodding off at my desk after boss DMing me work at 5 AM and dealing with repair people since 8:30 AM...

#YukiPri rambles #yeah the next fic chapter is long done #i just need to edit and reply to comments but that's like #5 hours at least of concentration and i feel more vegetable than sentient human #coffee just makes me sleepier #my hyper irregular sleep hours (i never sleep the same hours 2 days in a row...) means that even when i DO have time to sleep #i wake up/it's not restful #i've tried melatonin and sometimes it works but more often it gives me hyper vivid pseudo-dreams #stuff like i'm in my dream i hear my alarm go off i turn my alarm off while remaining in my dream etc it's dangerous #all of this also of course means i rarely have time to do my minimal exercise of a daily walk #and i'm lucky if i eat one full meal a day #it's like being in a perpetual state of awful jetlag #i feel like my body is not synched to earth and it sucks #do you think this is what inter-planetary jetlag is like bc that must suck worse than just timezones on the same planet #that at least has a consistent rotation u feel #hmm what was this post about again #lol disaster #anyway i think i'll take a 1-2 hour nap now so maybe i can do some fic editing when i get up #see i'm repeating the cycle again

[honeyvenommusic]

❗️NEWGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSANIMALSGLASSAN-

#glass animals #honestly i wore out dreamland sm my brain took a lonnng break from expecting anything from them?? idk i’m just huh???? #like….. when i say wore out #i cannot describe how much i listened to it #i usually have some vague idea even if it’s a ridiculous number #like 52 times in a month for an album or something (has happened) #i cannot recall w this #gonna say bc 2020 & they were Literally the last band i saw live. next morning everyone found out about everything annd lockdown. no joke #so it was big dreamland time when it dropped and revisiting their past albums when i broke out of its spell lmao #(pretty sure before that like january was when i listened to déjà vu 100+ times in a row tho so oop. it was a tough day lol) #anyway seeing this aww man. i really have had this band with me for a long long time. 🥹 i remember hearing gooey on the radio one night #driving home from work late @ night in 2014. the drive was so short i couldn’t be arsed to fish out my ipod & plug it in #sometimes so just popped on a good station i had preset. started the car and heard this *voice* and i was like who???? #had to check the station bc it was an alt station and i thought i had it on another one which was fine i was just v confused #it was in the middle of the song & i was immediately anxious to know the name hoping i’d hear it & it wouldn't just flow into the next song #then the dj would pile the names together after x number of songs played bc i was tiired (but woulda stayed in the car ngl). got lucky & #ran inside to find it then yelled at my roommate the next day that she HAD to listen to it during a smoke session after work #(i was right & it blew her miiind) #god. what a fucking time. what a fucking band. idk what the disc horse is surrounding them now since they blew up via tiktok #i’m sure people are v quick to say they’re overrated bc of that but idk & i’m glad i don’t know. they’ll always be this #highly inventive incredible band i stumbled upon for the perfect night drive home after a long long shift #a band that came back from a Horrible accident that should have ended 1 of their lives & somehow didn’t & should have ended them #as a band (like still cannot believe Joe was drumming in 2020 & i saw it with my own eyes like how tf???!?) #a band deserving of all of its successes. glass animals forever

[flugame-mp3]

the idea of summer got so much more freeing when i realized i can wear whatever i want. like i can be trans and wear a v-cut flower print bikini. i can be trans and wear board shorts and a t shirt. i can be naturally hairy, or i can trim, or i can shave it all off. literally it doesn't matter. do whatever you want forever. happy summer everybody

#me making two ​personal posts two days in a row? unheard of #nonbinary #trans #transgender #trans tag #queer stuff #theo.txt #this post brought to you by i just bought a bikini and didn't feel dysphoric or bad because i realized this past year my body is my body and #has no bearing on the validity or veracity of my identity. #sorry to bring out the big words but you know i mean #so i can wear that cute 'womens' swimsuit and still want to be called he/him sometimes. maybe even while in the suit #i love having weird gender. great experience would recommend ❤️

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

...

#trying /really really hard/ not to let the overuse of terms such as 'secular' bug me here at school #but honestly I'm starting to get annoyed with it :') #ugh dear Lord I am trying SO HARD not to be argumentative and annoying and avoid my real problems in life by being snarky and unteachable #but it is HARD SOMETIMES LOL #bc I really want to argue #I really need the energy release it provides #even when I don't really care about the subject being argued about #college complaining #I think I'm using a different tag by accident every time lol #I'm trying so hard to grow up and put away childish things but I'm feeling so worn out. the problems aren't fixed. #and venting on tumblr isn't fixing it but I don't want to ask to schedule another appointment with my councilor bc I know it costs a lot #and I don't want to burden anyone here at school with my problems. that's self-seeking isn't it? and it's not fair to expect other people t #fix my problems. #I should turn to Christ alone since He should be enough for me. right? #I don't know and I hope I'm not being rude or blasphemous but I'm tired some of the depression/anxiety symptoms are showing up again #and I don't want to go back to shaking in fear and not being able to get out of bed for days in a row

[puppy-steve]

had my stepdad's funeral today (not my current stepdad) and hoooooo boy the abandonment issues are in full swing :)

#not a single mention of me in his obituary - as if the 15 or so years where he raised me suddebly didn't matter anymore - #- bc he and my mom were no longer married. all his current step kids were listed though :) (along with their partners/spouses) #i didn't even get to sit up front with everyone. i sat in the very back of the room in the very last row. #and you know what? i really fucking needed the comfort of my step brothers #like i was 10 again and they were the only ones standing between me and him when his temper got ugly #i got it at the end at the cemetery where we all three hugged really tight. but i still would've liked to sit beside them. #it was just like i was sort of overlooked the whole time - which in fairness i havent actually been his stepkid in 10 years #but. idk. it still hurt. #bc i also noticed it with my own parents #people are always shocked when i tell them that yes - this is my dad and this is my mom #bc they know their Other Kids. not me. #it's like a friend said: sometimes it's not the middle child that's forgotten. it's the eldest. #ok sorry rant over ive just been stewing over this all day #cj talks

[undead-potatoes]

I must not join a fandom server. Fandom servers are the joy killers.

#Sunny Life #Negative cw #sometimes I think to myself ''hey that sounds kinda fun'' before beating the thought back with a broom #I can barely handle following new people on here who put insufferable takes on my dash 15 days in a row so I have to unfollow them #the server takes would be 9 times worse and I couldn't escape them without leaving the server entirely #also whenever I hear about fandom server experiences from friends I'm like ''good lord what's happening in there''

[opera-ghost]

kevin gray & teri bibb, us tour 1993

#sometimes i'm like yeah today is gonna be a productive day and then i'm watching phantom vids from the 90s again #that second to last gif…… im normal about it #also the way she like. manhandles him in the last gif to turn him around and kiss him. when is it my turn. #and her beating her fist against him in the second to last row😭😭😭 i love it #kevin gray #teri bibb #phantom of the opera #poto #op gifset #i love kevin gray and teri bibb is such a pretty christine

[here-there-were-dragons]

since the collector’s model actually has subtle vertical pupils compared to everyone else does that mean he also sometimes enters the Silly Zone

#toh collector #the owl house #depression-induced showerthoughts #it's basically unnoticeable unless you have a pic of them right next to a pic of one of the other characters #and even then only sometimes #but it's there #everyone else has perfectly round dot pupils #i'm dissociating hard right now it's been a very bad couple of days so here have some more of my dissociation shower thoughts #resisting the urge to reblog 50 traumacore posts in a row because fundamentally i don't want to attract the attention #dissociating and having pointless shower thoughts while miserable is the closest thing i have to a hobby

[dragons-and-yellow-roses]

Tell me more about this book blanket? I'm Fascinated

Omg yay!! Okay so I'm knitting two rows per book that I finish in 2024, and each book rows will be a different color based on the genre it is

So here are the books I've read so far. Everything that's in bold is what I've knitted, and the last book on the list is what I'm currently reading but haven't finished yet. So I've knitted everything before Fifty Feet Down, and read everything up to Annie on My Mind, but I'm currently like thirty percent through it.

I'm choosing colors as I finish genres, and I'm trying to do it only with yarn I have (cuz yarn is expensive and I have a lot of yarn. The reason I have a lot of yarn suitable for a blanket is because I took all of this yarn from a blanket I started knitting four years ago and never finished. Like I finished frogging that blanket yesterday and made it into cakes on my new yarn winder!!) I didn't really try to make the colors fit the genres. I just own a lot of navy yarn and knew I'd read a lot of LGBTQ books, and I own a lot of black and know I'll read a lot of horror books. Then for dystopian I just chose a yarn color that I had available, same with mystery.

Here's how it's going so far! You can see the four navy rows for the two LGBTQ books i read, the two purple for the one dystopian book (which is also very good, I highly recommend Debate Kids at the End of the World and that author in general, Alex Nonymous) and then a chunk of black because I read four I. S. Belle books in a row (you can also see all of the ends I didn't weave in, which I'm going to hate myself for when I finish the blanket)

"But Austyn, what if the book is more than one genre?" I'm so glad you asked! Most of these books could be considered more than one genre. Fifty Feet Down is a mystery, but also a romance. So I just consider what genre I believe is more integral to the story, if that makes sense. Fifty Feet Down could be relatively the same if the main characters were just friends, but the story would be vastly different if it wasn't a mystery. Therefore, it gets the mystery color instead of romance. Same with all of the I. S. Belle books. There's romance in them, but if you took out the romance it would still be pretty similar, but if you took out the horror it would be an incredibly different story.

So that's my 2024 book blanket!

#im so excited about this #its so fun #i read on the subway. at work. before bed. in the morning after waking up #i get so excited to knit new rows #and buy new books #buying new books is like a little gift for me #i put my entire tbr on an online spinny wheel so if i dont know what i want to read next i can spin the wheel and itll tell me #but sometimes im craving a specific book and ill just read that next #right now i have classics such as: stone butch blues. the perks of being a wallflower. playground. manhunt. #the second ari and dante book that ive been meaning to read for months #because i pre ordered that book and ive owned it since the day it came out. and this summer i reread the first one #so that i would know whats going on in the second one. but i haven't read the second one yet #i have a long ass tbr and i swear every day i add more #but i have a whole lifetime. and a whole year. to read them. #im gonna go knit the rows for fifty feet down now (an incredible book) and then probs read some more annie on my mind #have a great night everyone!!

[jinstronaut]

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#after the jin series i’m not doing anything for a long while lmao #it feels so fruitless sometimes like i just #i cant #i’m so eager to do it but it just never feels like what i do is enough #like what else can i do what else could i possibly do #idk i’ll delete this later i’m tired i worked 6 days in a row #i just wish i felt better lmao #truly i can make over 400 gif sets every day for over a year and just #yeah