#so that's probably why I was memorable

[duchessofostergotlands]

For people who are fond of my random personal anecdotes, a guy messaged me the other day who I hooked up with once at university. Apparently he saw me on Tinder when I was in Edinburgh (I live not too far away and he's a doctor in Edinburgh now). Admittedly it did take me 6 months to log into Facebook and see his message but I haven't spoken to him in about 10 years so I'm going to consider it a triumph that he saw me and 10 years down the line still thought "yeah I'll give her a message."

#I have quite a lot of stories attached to this guy #even though we didn't know each other that well #just because he came into my life right in the midst of one of my worst mental health spirals #so that's probably why I was memorable #I was a mess but I was exciting lol #personal

[schmweed]

#David Tennant #Alec Hardy #Ellie Miller #Broadchurch #my gifs #Ellie just keeps sparing him any direct eye contact outside of serious work-related situations #And he only looks at her when she's looking away #The way Ellie lights up when she realizes what he's saying. #That 'mostly' from him is the kindest most genuine and delightfully playful way of expressing how much she means to him #Love how she lets him know she doesn't believe he lost his phone and therefore her number and yet doesn't give him a hard time abt it #he's too brilliant a detective not to have memorized her number or found a way to say hi #It's just that she probably thinks he didn't care enough #I think Tess gave him an ultimatum -- stop contacting his outstanding Miller if they're going to make this work or Tess won't try #How many times do you think he looked at Ellie's number when he was alone and ached to contact her in any way #Especially given how concerned he was abt her at the end of S2 #But trying to fix the family came first and honestly he's a wonderful human to do that for his daughter's sake #I think he's relieved Ellie would never in her wildest dreams suspect that's why -- but he still wishes he could tell her. #Complicated doesn't begin to cover it. But he decides basking in her presence for their endless hours of work has to be enough. Oh Alec. #Aww. Look at Ellie's beaming face. #I love them so much! <3

[distraughtlesbian]

literally the best part of this whole stupid book iwlove weird obsessed horndogs thee villain archetype of all time. he’s so silly. “we could’ve had a life together”, he says to his lesbian ex-neighbour who he’s just shot with a crossbow bolt meanwhile her girlfriend who he’s also just shot is half dead across the room. god i love it here he said me and the bad bitch im going to fumble

#WHAT A FUCKING FREAK IJBOL!!!!!! #MORE PSYCHOSEXUALLY OBSESSED WEIRDO VILLAINS PIXELBERRY I KNOW YOU HAVE IT IN U. #their villains are usually so cringe and one note at least this one is memorable #mind you this could have used more buildup. up until like chapter 19 he still had the benefit of the doubt #his ass was NOT beating the twist villain allegations but the fucking freak allegations were a whole separate beast #and he could be presumed innocent in those. like sure i guess these are just average fanatic werewolf hunter antics. #like EYE had my suspicions. him sending that frat bro to sexually harass mc was a fucking freak move #but like in general he was coming off as someone who was just a normal amount of concerned about a friend of theirs falling in w a cult #like girl why am i following my cringe fwb into the pool house to be all ‘babe this isnt u :(’ #i dont CARE i wanna go engage with the twist antagonist who at this point my mc still thinks is kind of normal/their friend!!! #but alas that’s just pb for you. we WILL NOT stick a landing ever. they make all the new writers swear to never write a villain that makes #sense or is well foreshadowed. ONLY side characters who you would never suspect bc they have like 5 lines in the whole book. #like you’ll never be duffy veilofsecrets you’ll never recapture that magic. #anyway. markus choicesalpha the fucking weirdo cringefail stalker incel loser you could have been…kermit looking out rainy window dot png #maeve speaks #playchoices #choices #pixelberry #choices alpha #channing lowe #markus barnes #side note this whole thing probably has a Much different vibe with a male mc #but as it is it’s like ijbol. channing is cringe and emotionally unavailable but how could you POSSIBLY compare to a buff werewolf bitch #he is so completely not a contender that its comedic to me. you think WE could have had a LIFE TOGETHER? #even if my mc had never ever met channing SHE IS A LESBIAN!!!! SHES GAY DUDE STOP IT LOL #and with a female mc and male channing its like yeah whatever average incel number 10 billion. wow youre going to kill me bc some other guy #is hotter than you? eyeroll. at least channing canonically gives great head.

[sirompp]

the autism urge to create a blog archiving and sorting the entirety of something nobody wants not even me

#thats a lie. i do want. but not that much #you see. #i was thinking. #um. #theres a lot of gacha life mini movies in this world right? #and they all follow a lot of tropes. #and youtubes search isnt very great for when youre trying to find a specific kind of video and dont have the title memorized #a tumblr blog with a very thorough tagging system...would fix that... #im not going to do it. im NOT going to do it. #its so much work and would be an impulsive decision and those NEVER go well for me. im NOT GONNA DO IT. #but i want to. i fucking want to #i more want this blog to already exist to be honest because of one specific glmm that i saw as a kid that fundamentally changed me #i dont even watch glmms. i didnt when i was a kid either idk why i clicked on that video. #i dont remember anything about it besides some basic facts like... #it. um. there was hell. im pretty sure hell was in it. ithink the main character was an angel that got turned into a demon #which is like 30% of all glmms im aware. #also there was a dream sequence that i thought was really inspiring because it actually felt like a dream with dreamlike continuity #if i were making a gacha life mini movie archive blog then i would probably find that video. because id have to watch all the videos id pos #unless of course the video was deleted. #which um. #hm. #well id have made something useful to like 3 people either way so itd likely be worth it anyway #me tag🍭 #<-almost forgot to add that bastard #and UHGHFJVNB it would be SO autismpleasing to sort all those things into their own little tags. #GRAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH im not going to. #fighting with ymself to not make a bad decision

[theposionwoman]

TDH Tag Game

Okay, to my fellow TDH fans I'm curious so please reblog with your answers (tags or reblogs).

Your favorite song

Your first song

A song everyone loves but you don't

Most overrated song

Most underrated song

Favorite album

Favorite act

Favorite Color Spectrum EP

Thoughts on Antimai

When did you find The Dear Hunter?

#okay i hope i get responses #the dear hunter #tdh #antimai #casey crescenzo #tag game #can't decide but fave is probably A Beginning #The Pimp and Preist #Waves #Go Get Your Gun #A Beginning because WHY is it the least played song from act V it's so beautiful #impossible to answer but maybe Act IV rn but that will change #Act V #Indigo which is SO underrated #absolutely love it really do #Right before The Fox and the Hunt so 2020 #which is mind-blowing because I have had the whole discography memorized for like 2 years #slut.txt

[rubberbandballqueen]

i just think that as a chemistry major i shouldn't be forced to take biology classes that expect me to memorize the everything to pass. i need some kind of "biology for chemistry majors" where they emphasize the techniques a living thing has at its disposal to remain at homeostasis and then look at how all these parts come together to form a complex living organism undergoing constant holistic processes to remain at equilibrium. i don't need to know what a golgi apparatus is called i just need to know how it serves its function in the complex process of transforming A into B

#had to google golgi apparatus just now to know what it does (process lipids n protiens apparently) i haven't been in a bio class since 2016 #my classmates in o chem would usually conplain to me abt the bio classes forcing them to memorize a bunch of #species that fall under certain taxonomic classifications bc their specificities Would show up on the exam #n i'm just like. that is a horror show. why do i need to be able to id 36 types of mollusks. #i'm probably Also like this bc i haven't taken a bio class since 2016 unless you count high school physiology then 2018 #the worm speaks #my thoughts on academia are pretty much always 'this sucks please let me test into the very specific credentials i want' #bc academia tends to assume that the things i wanna research are the things i wanna teach but that is actually untrue #mostly bc my fave parts of chemistry are the very foundational things n what i like abt teaching it is that you have to balance #accuracy with generality so that new students don't get totally lost in the details of it all or spend too much time focused on a niche #my interest in discussing w/experts mostly extends out to 'okay tell me the new findings. ooo cool i'll incorporate that' #'good luck with your problem tho' no interest in helping out with specifics. only interested in being able to communicate knowledge #the stuff i'd have more interest in discussing and researching lie more in the arts. i do love discussing a good symbolism #probably bc i can also accept that there's never really one exact answer! like what if i do a stem research and then im just Wrong. #art and the human condition on the other hand!! let's go let us gather the Contexts and then Discuss!!!

[technofinch]

Yeah I should be sleeping but what if instead I thought about Character

#last session when they had a Serious Conversation jack started calling mulligan james... #he was dealing with other stuff at the time so poor mulligan didn't have the brainpower to process it but i think it'd be weird for him in #only his mother calls him james and she's been dead for years. When he has to he'll introduce himself as Captain James Cain #(or Private James Cain depending on the situation) #but that's just a memorized script of 'words to say in formal situations' I don't think he thinks of himself as James. He's Just Mulligan #(This is also why i found it amusing how it took me like 2 hours to realize why Mulligan's son being named Jameson was so funny) #Anyway. Mulligan is probably gonna talk to jack at some point like #'hey. That was weird. I understand the gravity of the situation but you sound like my mom when u do that' #Anyway now that he's on the run I want his fake name to be Lars Gerhart

[longagoitwastuesday]

I'm starting to rate the Cyrano de Bergerac versions based on whether or not they make me desire him carnally by the end of the play

#Cyrano #Cyrano de Bergerac #I talk too much #I should probably delete this later #'desire carnally' in a broad sense #Like‚ conceptually. The vibes of 'desire carnally' #But yes #I'm joking of course but also I'm dead serious. By the end of the play ideally I have to understand why so many characters #would choose to live‚ die and be haunted for life for the main three. I have to see the charm in the three of them #Their wit‚ their sweetness‚ their passion‚ cleverness‚ cunning and kindness #The flaws that make them who they are and also what makes them loveable and unforgettable precisely for who they are #By the end of a production I want to see Christian not for the pretty face the marquises‚ Roxane‚ de Guiche or Cyrano see at first #but the man Cyrano still mourns by the end. I want to see not only the beauty of Roxane that makes everyone love her at first sight #but also her wit‚ cunning‚ cleverness and poetic mastery‚ her fiery and valiant personality‚the charm that makes the love for her constant‚ #grow deeper and more intense no matter the years #By the end of a production I want to almost forget about Cyrano's nose. I want his voice and his demeanour to be what is most memorable #I want to know him and see him clearly for who he is and thus love him for his faults despite his faults #I want to be as baffled and frustrated as Le Bret‚ Christian and Roxane are by the fact that he is blind to his charm and charisma‚ #and how attractive that makes him. And for bonus points I want to see clearly that the three of them are very much like each other #and value and love in each other many of the characteristics they themselves possess‚ even if they are blind to their own

[astrxealis]

I ADORE GEN INFORMATION AND HISTORY STUFF SOOO MUCH ... and etc etc etc and and and :(( <3 god i love the plethora of information ik and. etc.

#⋯ ꒰ა starry thoughts ໒꒱ *·˚ #hey guys wna know some random facts about the chinese dynasties and types of sharks and stoat fun facts #and the roman empire and everything about greek and roman and egyptian and norse mythology #even a bit of scandinavian mythology and hawaiian myths and philosophers like aristotle and his nicomachean ethics #and edgar allan poe's works as well as lois lowry and neil gaiman and shakespeare oh god shakespeare and the bible and christianity and #world history filipino history american and french and british revolutions and wars and history and the founding of the united states and #IDK OKAY i just reaaally love random information and HISTORY so goddamn much. i am such a nerd. i love being this geek that i am. #mythology in general is probably one of my biggest special interests though. oh my god. #RIGHT WAIT I REALLY LOVE ROCKS AS WELL AND i adore all subjects in school actually and and and. i love knowledge so much. #ASTRONOMYYYYYJRBWJGWSUGDJSBFKSBFK wait okay i'll be normal (lie) for a second again #mythology. it's insane i learned about hawaiian mythology in this minecraft server uhhh for this. yeah. #i miss that tbh! no longer into the fandom/book series for probably aha obvious reasons but it's nostalgic to me still #ANYWAY RIGHT BACK ON TRACK okay egyptian mythology and norse i rmbr i memorized some hieroglyphics and uhh runes? before #god bless rick riordan's books for starting my obsession with different kinds of mythologies tbh #yk one reason why my eyesight probably started sucking more was bcs i read so much of the mythology book by edith hamilton on a road trip #upwards to a norther part of the philippines and good gods it was a bumpy ride! i still remember that moment vividly though #and. i'm tired of typing now. goodbye.

[constellationcrowned]

((I'm actually going to post the full dialogue of Kariom talking about his parents (in that last big post I only shared the bits where he details a sense memory) because it's a; important and b; it highlights numerous things I've gone on about both here (and my og blog) at length. I'll also include a separate dialogue bit from him regarding do-de which ties in, is equally important, etc. I'll be making this post tomorrow after work~))

#;;ooc: mun muttering #I fucking love exploring this character so thoroughly you have no idea #like I've been thinking about these scenes for *months* during testing and now I can share them! #I think I have a firm grasp on his intricacies and such...or just let me pretend that I do #I really hope I'm showcasing why I emphasize certain (easily missable) things about him in my writing and etc #esp in regards to his feelings; how lonely he is; the reasons for his drive; etc #I've been fixated on his status as a star-reader (and everything that goes with it) from day one...is that obvious??? #and they're highlighting it more and more and I'm starting to feel like my instincts were right about so much? that's dumb probably #I really want to be right..I want my instincts to be right but I can't be that nice to myself fffff #hopefully my observations and etc are at least interesting (or even accurate) enough to be memorable???? idk #do ya'll like it when I reference the posts I'm talking about when rambling or are things easy to keep track of??? mh... #'Kala shut up about Kariom and---' no never

[bednbunfast]

wip that i will be finishing later

im just very tired rn

#i have their appearance memorized but not the colors so uhhhhhh #ref it is babyghorl #that reminds me...ref...refrigerator... #may donut pa kaya sa ref namin... #gago gutom nako sana may ulam na tas donut dessert hehe #i don't wanna look at them anymoreeeeeeee it's so tiring #🎐 ily but i hate you. bane of my existence fr. but also...light of my boring life. #i enjoy acting as you sometimes but... why did you have to inherit my inability to say the things they want #why did i instill that on you #even while playing around you're consious of everyone's thoughts and feelings and it often leads you to letting them 'go first' #what do you have to gain other than losing a possible 'future' where you're probably happier? #can't you be selfish? #even in the seperate lore i have ready just in case. you mend people's bonds but in the end they're just customers #and you're still bound to the cafe you were first hanged as just... a windchime #customers will come and go and what about you? you'll be stuck welcoming them with a gentle chime #you were a windchime yet you wanted to become human. was it love for their love of others really your driving force? or were you envious? #why am i ranting in the fucking tags

[toytulini]

im willing to believe yellowjackets is a good show but im not sure im willing to forgive it for that title which makes me have to specify "yellowjacket BUG" if i want to see the actual bees

#toy txt post #why they do this to me. come here. come here listen to me #have you considered a title that is not 1 word that is not particularly unique that also happens to make your shit hard to tag and find on #websites. i dont particularly like when shows are trying to cater to develop a fandom but in this aspect i would love that kind of #forethought. please. amyway sorry thos crime is apparently unforgivable and i can never watch it now. sorry #i believe you that its good. however. they have committed an unforgiveable crime to my brain #smh. do u expect me to memorize their latin name or smth? #'toy how often are you looking up bees' not that often but i found it VERY ANNOYING #perhaps this could also be fixed by search engines actually being functional again but. unlikely ig lol #LET A BITCH GOOGLE THE BEES WONT YOU? #it was ddg but still #let a bitch duck duck go the bees in peace wont you???? #i can't think of any off the top of my head rn but i know there have been a number of movies that did this shit too and it pissed me off #then too. stop making me tag random innocuous word movie just come up with an actual title wont u? #bluh #ill probably get over this eventually and then maybe consider watching it #i got mad at arctic monkeys about this too. someone was talking about how cute arctic monkeys were and i thought #it was like a new species of like. monkey that lives in the snow and man. i was so excited. and sooooo disappointed to see a bunch of Guys #i like some of their songs now but man at the time? unforgivable

[ironmanstan]

.

#part two omg <333 #u can tell i originally was gonna tweet this and then it spiralled out of control to the point it got too long for tumblr tags. anyway #sometimes i just think about things and i get sooo mad lmao . i knew i was trans probably since i was like 11 #meanwhile was so fucked up about this i just ignored it and slowly let it eat me alive for years and years until i hit my brink . #makes me so mad how the few like 'tolerant' and 'accepting' people around here act where theyre like #oh you can be that way but just ignore it <3 dont act on it <3' . you people would rather me go back to #being a suicidal 12 year old instead of actually existing and being happy. you people who know shit all about what i go through #its insanely funny to me too like compared to a large amount of people i am like extremely religious . i have #so much of the quran mf MEMORIZED. A SOLID CHUNK OF THIS ENTIRE BOOK. MEMORIZED #I CAN RECITE THE VERSES FROM IT IN PROPER FORM. i know more than my own dad does and yet. #everyone around me who isnt this at all is like oh yes we know sooo much about everything and this is #soooo gross and disgusting and perverted and sick and evil right maryam. yeah it sure fucking is besties <3 #i can be everyones token poster child of having Envious amounts of knowledge and a role model for every future hafidha . #and yet you all only like me because you have to and youd all hate me if you knew anything about me #if you read all this my bad i am just crazy and angry and insane #i will go back to normal later i just need to be insane for a minute lollll #sometimes im like 'why am i so angry. why do i have ptsd' and then i remember how everyone around me is #vent #part two !!!!! wao <333

[cerealandchoccymilk]

out of all the things i could hyperfixate on i didnt expect my next one to be a 200+ year old form of storytelling

#whoops sorry about the million line long tags -> #i didnt know rakugo also had (relatively more) serious stories???? #i only knew the famous ones like manjuu kowai and meguro no sanma #and of course jugemu jugemu gokou no surikire kaijarisuigyo no suigyoumatsu fuuraimatsu unraimatsu kuu neru tokoroni sumu tokoro yaburakouj #i can still recite the whole name btw (probably everyone with a japanese elem education had to memorize it lol) #but anyways i realized that the song shinigami by yonezu kenshi is based on an actual rakugo story #and decided to watch it (the one on tatekawa shiraku's youtube) #and wow i got hooked #in the middle of tatekawa danshi's version rn #the differences in the story and general style are really interesting even between master and disciple #ill probably look for another version of shinigami by someone else and then look for other stories #or review the classics bc i barely remember anything about meguro no sanma tbh #i have had interest in koudan (since around the time kanda hakuzan started appearing on tv frequently) #but im still unsure of what the genre is like/how exactly the stories different from rakugo #so maybe ill dabble. just as a treat #i remember hakuzan did a koudan story about joushima shigeru's life and that was really interesting #speaking of joushima its still wild to me that tokio (as a band) isnt a thing anymore #i mean im still not entirely over nagase kun leaving for solo lol #but its so cool theyre making a whole ass company and still doing so much stuff in tetsuwan dash n stuff #why am i talking about tokio this post is about rakugo #anyways

[eisthenameofme]

The limitations of having to work with a human body that requires energy are deeply frustrating

#by which i mean that apparently if you work on memorizing pieces #on a new instrument all day #and then try to do the same thing the next day #you will be So Tired #which is annoying because i don't actually like. Want to stop #it was funny though because i kept drinking coffee hoping i just wasn't awake yet and. No. #then i thought i might be getting sick or something #but. also no. I've just spent way too much time learning to play the piano. #irritating. #i have literally had to just like. Stop and go lay down #it probably also doesnt help that i am literally just memorizing songs bit by bit instead of like. using sheet music or any formal training #me: why the fuck am i so tired. this must not have anything at all to do with playing #a new instrument for several hours consecutively. anyway time to keep learning lacrimosa- #i legitimately just forgot that memorization takes processing power lmao #mypost

[silverislander]

i feel like such a fucking idiot istg. my american lit class has a final exam that requires memorizing all of the books/poems studied this semester w authors names, dates and recognition if we're given a passage and i just fucking know i'm about to fail it. i have about an 85 going in, i've passed in some really good work this semester, i read EVERY SINGLE ASSIGNED READING, ON TIME, but because my brain isn't hardwired to sit down and fucking memorize 20+ different names titles and numbers i'm fucked! how the hell is this FAIR

#why is this 25% of my FUCKING GRADE!! #THIS MAKES NO FUCKING SENSE its never going to be an applicable skill irl!! #ive already worked so fucking hard for this course! i know i know the material and i understood it all!! #if i was given the title author and date i could write the paper im supposed to write and i would fucking crush it #but no it has to be fucking memorization because thats the only thing that makes you smart #levi.txt #vent tw #i want to fucking hit something #and i cant even get any help because i cant prove theres anything wrong with my brain other than being a fucking idiot! #'oh you dont need a diagnosis anyway bc you dont NEED accommodations or medication! youll be fine' FUCK OFF #'oh it wont help because youre almost done' oh ok so bc ive been struggling for four fucking years already one more doesnt matter. got it #you cant have a learning disability if you get good grades everyone knows this :)))))) /s #if i even fucking have one. anyways #probably gonna delete this later im just deeply pissed off rn. so fucking unfair