#part two !!!!! wao <333

[ironmanstan]

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#part two omg <333 #u can tell i originally was gonna tweet this and then it spiralled out of control to the point it got too long for tumblr tags. anyway #sometimes i just think about things and i get sooo mad lmao . i knew i was trans probably since i was like 11 #meanwhile was so fucked up about this i just ignored it and slowly let it eat me alive for years and years until i hit my brink . #makes me so mad how the few like 'tolerant' and 'accepting' people around here act where theyre like #oh you can be that way but just ignore it <3 dont act on it <3' . you people would rather me go back to #being a suicidal 12 year old instead of actually existing and being happy. you people who know shit all about what i go through #its insanely funny to me too like compared to a large amount of people i am like extremely religious . i have #so much of the quran mf MEMORIZED. A SOLID CHUNK OF THIS ENTIRE BOOK. MEMORIZED #I CAN RECITE THE VERSES FROM IT IN PROPER FORM. i know more than my own dad does and yet. #everyone around me who isnt this at all is like oh yes we know sooo much about everything and this is #soooo gross and disgusting and perverted and sick and evil right maryam. yeah it sure fucking is besties <3 #i can be everyones token poster child of having Envious amounts of knowledge and a role model for every future hafidha . #and yet you all only like me because you have to and youd all hate me if you knew anything about me #if you read all this my bad i am just crazy and angry and insane #i will go back to normal later i just need to be insane for a minute lollll #sometimes im like 'why am i so angry. why do i have ptsd' and then i remember how everyone around me is #vent #part two !!!!! wao <333