#so not having an appetite is WEIRD.

[gigantomachylesbian]

okay when I ate tomato soup yesterday I was fine and also today when I ate a bagel+cream cheese SO I'm gonna risk some pasta with red sauce. I HAVE to eat something delicious soon or I will fall to pieces

#k talks #apparently tomato stuff can make heartburn symptoms worse when you have food poisoning BUT I haven't really been having heartburn #and like. I don't actually have olive oil to put on plain spaghetti or anything I just have olive oil cooking spray... #and I want to eat pasta. PLEASE. please don't let it make me sick I Want It #hope you're all enjoying my Sickness Journey. I'm trapped in my apartment for two days #ALSO all I've eaten since Friday night is three pieces of bread+tomato soup+a single bagel #and that's literally insane for me. sometimes during the weekend I will literally eat two breakfasts #so not having an appetite is WEIRD.

[tittyinfinity]

covid precautions: smoking fat dabs all day so you hack up everything in your lungs before anything can get in there

#i do it to clear my sinuses quite often actually lol especially recently bc of allergies #weed affects me so much differently than most people it's weird #i mean i definitely get a high from it but it makes me more clear-headed and helps with my anxiety #(doesn't help with the adhd) #it's the only way i can eat bc my stomach and appetite have been ruined by 12 years of multiple medications #i can go out and do anything and interact with anybody after smoking an amount of weed that would make someone else see Shadow People #i think one of the reasons it affects me differently is bc my body lacks the enzyme to break down thc from edibles #i've tried 800mg thc in a chocolate bar once and it did nothing. which like if you smoked an entire gram of wax at once. #50mg from the same chocolate made my mom so high she was scared. #so yeah i guess it just hits me differently #maybe it's because my mom smoked weed when she was pregnant with me? #actually that would kinda make sense ngl #.bdo

[athetos]

Getting fresh produce on Instacart is always a gamble because half the time you’ll get vegetables that are already halfway spoiled but for real what is up with people thinking green beans and sugar snap peas are the same thing. Not even a replacement, I say to refund if it’s missing, and it still shows up as having gotten green beans when what I get is peas. Like c’mon work with me here goddamn

#it’s so frustrating I’ve been very weird about food and appetite lately so getting something that changes my meal plans #or tastes less good #it’s like I almost don’t even want to eat at all then #and I wanna be as nice as possible to my shoppers cuz gig jobs fucking suck but #after so many problems over the past year I’m convinced none of these people have ever seen let alone eaten a vegetable #p

[minzbins]

[WE:Log] YOHAN CAM

#wei #weiedit #ruicentral #kflops #kiwitracks #hijaehyukkies #useroro #ribbitashie #tuserchrissy #yohan #kim yohan #!melstuff #we:log #sorry idk how to caption this bc the caption was so long so sdkfhjdshflg #love of my life #had several breakdowns while watching this. made these while having even more breakdowns. bon appetit i guess sksjhfekl #anyway. #i'm normal about him actually #also the first gif just had to be big for reasons 🥴 sorry if it looks weird idk how i feel about it but anyway

[domithekingoffools]

I did a thing from @infinityroom 's blog but in my style!

#for those who don't know #the galactic says #did you know #endermites have a #large appetite? #I didn't feel like drawing hands so that's why they look weird #dtk art

[trans-xianxian]

took my adderall and finally decorated the wall I've been meaning to for Months :^)

#the three shelves w the leaves were already there but everything else I put up today 😌 #the moon poster was somewhere else but I'm gonna put my pin board where it was :O #if you're wondering why one of my shelves is almost completely empty. I'm saving it for wwx figure 😭 #its crazy how when you take the meds prescribed to you to help you focus and stay motivated you..... focus and stay motivated 🤔 #I went off my adderall for truly no reason at all and haven't been able to go back on it #because it fucks w my appetite so bad the first few days #and I need to like. eat properly to be at work and everything #so I figured now when I'm off for a month and can have weird eating habits and be a lil hungry #is the perfect time to get reacclimated to it #anyway. decorations make serotonin go 📈 #ghost posts #image

[karinyosa]

they should make food thats convenient and easy to eat in under like an hour

#food #ask to tag #so HARD for me to finish meals in a timely manner like it’s just difficult lmao #it’s not an appetite thing it’s not a self punishment thing like it’s truly an interest and attention thing #i could be eating lunch intermittently for like 2-3 hours. 4 on a bad day #karinyo.txt #UNLESS! you give me like chicken nuggets or whatever the fuck #or like sausage and rice #like i do have a weird ‘’easy foods’’ thing idk if it’s quite the same as having safe foods but there are parallels #pleasing and easy to eat. usually some kind of homogeneity to it #like ramen is ine #ground beef w rice. sausage like i said #if there’s like chicken on the bone and i have to get the chicken off the bone as i’m eating #it’ll take me forever i’ll get bored KFBDNDJ #im literally like a toddler is the problem #boneless chicken im ok with but it’s not quite an easy food #chipotle i will eat up. sorry authentic food enjoyers #fried chicken can be kind of an exception to the chicken thing i have no fucking clue why #crumbchy #if it’s not something like that then im like god why is it suchc a drag to finish an entire meal

[nerdyqueerandjewish]

Cw medical stuff, weight

The other thing that was weird with the doc appointment today is that when we were talking about going off testosterone, and the changes, I mentioned that the fat redistribution changes will hopefully make things a bit easier for me - carrying my weight all in my abdomen and none in my butt makes clothing tricky. And she asked how I felt about my weight, and I was like oh, I recently came in to get labs done to make sure my health was good because I wanted to make sure it wasn’t a sign of an underlying issue. But the labs were pretty good! Slightly high A1C but we are gonna keep an eye on it and see how it goes. And she suggested weight loss medication almost immediately.

I’m so glad I have my PCP who is not weird about weight stuff because what was that

#also like I don’t have recent full body photos here but I’m small fat #and yet people are so weird about it #which just disturbs me because it’s like if I’m getting this how are they treating fatter people?? #also I recently started a stimulant which is def suppressing my appetite a bit so I don’t want to mess with it any further

[killerchickadee]

I'm so so so so so hungry today and I'm like, I bet I don't even need my period tracker, I bet you it's fucking starting tomorrow.

Yep

#now that i have a new job and am CONSIDERABLY LESS STRESSED my period is shifting around a bit #cause it got weird from the stress of working at michaels #so now I'm not sure what my body is doing #but i can't fucking stop eating today so it's gonna come tomorrow or the next day #my appetite predicts it every time lmao

[sundial-girl]

vFlwoer...you know teh ourple one...

ourple...

My favorite song of theirs

ok i'm actually gonna be real i don't listen to that much flower 😭😭😭 SORRY. but the songs i have listened to are good she slays

i think given my blog theme though it's pretty obvious which is my fave flower song

Who I ship them with

OK SEE ITS COMPLICATED FOR HER im so torn 😭😭

ig(??) i do still for the most part think she's sapphic/has a preference for girls, and b/c of a friend my main thing was flowerin. i do like them v much and think abt them, they're cute. BUT a different friend of mine ships fukaflower and that's also really grown on me. BUT b/c of the internet and other mutuals too i've seen pikase and that's cute as hell too. so my mind somehow condensed that into the THREE OF EM (flower, fukase, piko) but i dont even know what tf i'd call that; its not entirely romantic but also not entirely platonic, something is going on and its made infinitely more complicated w/ how they all interact differently depending on what fucking timeline story thing we're in. and again flower & rin is also cute and flower has other cute ships too and AJKSDKJKJKJ 😭

i'll just say tho that the good thing about having several different story things where different things happen is i can do whatever i want and everyone can b happy. the bad thing is i end up overthinking it and also i have a tendency to not give the characters in my stories happy endings

My favorite part about their design

well for one i like how she has so many designs i think its funny lmaoo

v3 and v4 are my faves sooo... i do like the dress & longer hair of v3 actually, i feel its more like, actual flower-like so it fits (and maybe im a bit based b/c that's the design she had when i first vaguely knew abt her). but v4 is iconic, undoubtedly. its the first design that pops into my head when people say flower. i really like how its more ourple since her v3 is more like... black? hksjghkj. i like her striped armwarmer thing its quite funky. solid designs but theyre hard asf to draw imma be real 😭 i can never get them quite right

ALSO i know people dont like ci b/c she doesn't look like flower, but funnily enough i do kinda like that. the sorta uncanny valleyness, b/c u know its supposed to be flower and it vaguely does have some resemblance but its also not and something feels wrong. again though that might just be me b/c of how i twist that for narrative purposes and i have a lot of fun w/ angst shit regarding ciflower but sjkjdhjkshkjhakjhg

A random headcanon I have of them

you know those memes about people cutting/dying their hair after a mental breakdown? yeah that's her 😂😭

i don't think she actually dyes it, it's naturally that peppered white/black color sorta, but she does impulsively do shit to her hair sometimes, not necessarily when she is distressed but she has def done it as "distraction" from negative emotions going on. luckily there's some sorta thing going on that lets her grow her hair back really fast in case she fucks up, so she can test out as many hairstyles as she wants whenever basically. she does think fucked up hairstyles are really funny tho. probably once shaved her entire head just b/c she could

name a vocaloid in my askbox and i'll tell you stuff

#ask #i mean this in the nicest way possible but i get so anxious talking abt flower hcs specifically sometimes #i like her but i dont think i can really call myself an intense flower fan rip... which is ironic in a way?? #b/c out of the memesquad ik abt her the longest. im very certain i remember learning abt her from like a circus monster chorus vid #lmaoooo. and it was her v3 vers. and i was like 'oh cool i like her design and her name's cool' and then i forgot abt her 😭 and remembered #her again after a friend showed me appetite of a people pleaser but i didnt recognize her at first b/c 1) cakey 2) v4 looks different? obv? #its weird w/ her... idk. she's funky and interesting but not necessarily in all the common ways she is said to be #scandalous reveal though i actually have not listened to some of her most popular songs 😭 at all. BOO FAKE FAN yeah IK 😭😭 #i didnt even know abt rabu ka until ollie mentioned it. ollie if ur reading this i owe u my life 😂 that song changed me like fr 🥴 #SORRY THIS ALSO TOOK SO LONG TO TYPE UP dont kill me pls 😭

[immaterial-girl]

do i take an edible and have a better chance of sleeping and eating tonight, or do i not and try to write and maybe clean my room…

#i took my adderall today btw. which kills my appetite #and ive had a Weird day #so the edible might help me chill. or maybe i will just nightmare spiral in my bed and fade to sleep #and then i might be able to fall asleep anyway!!! i sleep easily #but sometimes the adderall keeps me up. DECISIONS #i think im gonna take a Tiny edible rn and grab my laptop and start writing before it kicks in #oh and ill do some PT!! while i still have the Adderall Zoomies #actually you know what…should i ride this zoomie high and clean my room? I DONT KNOW #making this a poll now actually #mine #🍃 #poll

[joyridingmp3]

my works going to be so pissed when I'm the only one who doesn't bring snacks to the lunch tomorrow

#sorry. id rather go home and light up. like its my fault #mine #anyway im like 90% i can charm someone into giving me their snacks and letting me pass it off as my own #i have no appetite ever anyway they all are so weird about it

[sharkieboi]

had a very proud-of-myself decision-making moment tonight. I got off the bus right across from this restaurant I got an absolutely amazing sandwich from last week, and I was like “ooh I could get that sandwich again” and then kinda balked at a) spending money and b) taking longer to get home and was almost not gonna bother. but then I asked myself “if you don’t get that sandwich, are you going to cook dinner when you get home? cause you either can get the sandwich or make food otherwise you’re not having dinner.” and the answer was a pretty confident No to wanting to cook. So I got the sandwich. no regrets, it’s one of the best sandwiches I’ve ever had, and second time having it was just as good. and I ate food!

#shhh sharkie #I have a difficult time with food in general. #adhd meds that are (unintentional at least for why I need them) appetite suppressants don’t help #so I don’t /feel/ or recognize when I’m hungry except for being like weird and shaky and cranky and sorely dehydrated #so a lot of days lunch at work ends up being my only meal #and it’s 50/50 whether I’ll actually finish it or have a desire to eat it #so! tomato mozarella pesto sandwich with the best focaccia i’ve ever had wins!

[mars-ipan]

guys i’m gonna be real i miss southern food so bad

#marzi speaks #everything is so BROWN here. you try one dish you’ve had them all they all taste so similar #i miss spices. they have seasonings but not spices :( #looking at the menu of a nearby italian place rn. saw sweet potato fries and wanted to cry for a second #i miss soul food :((( i would kill for some cajun rn #i want the fried catfish from my local cajun place. i want it so badddddd #what i probs need to do is go to like. an authentic indian restaurant. but i’m a little spice baby and don’t want tikka masala lmao #idk. appetite is weird #trying to find food i want but i am legit really homesick so it’s tough lmao #i go home in a few more days it’ll be alright

[redcallisto]

Douma 👁

Douma my ultimate malewife. My OC fic is half a love letter to him. He's the only reason why I've learned to draw buff guys. He altered my brain chemistry probably

#ask #absolute-flaming-trash #ask game #Srry for taking forever I was distracted to hell and back ^^; #i was having a weird discussion with my siblings the other day #how douma is both malewife and babygirl but mahito is only babygirl. not malewife #thinking abt douma makes me wanna upload ocxcanon stuff here... #i remember when he got his anime debut i was so nervous i lost my appetite and couldn't sleep the night before. i'm so normal.

[fullandfairones]

tried adhd medication for the first time in my life today and ??? i don’t want to speak too soon but it might be a game changer

#again don’t want to speak too soon!!!! #i’ve been diagnosed w adhd for years but never medicated #so far i THINK it’s helping with my depressive fugue state but i’m not sure #it could just be that i spent all day outside #so i gotta give it a little time and see #i did get a lot done today but it’s not really a good measure because it was all gardening stuff #which i absolutely would’ve gotten done either way because i garden obsessively for hours #whenever i can #i’m going to take some tomorrow as well and try to clean my house before my doctors appointment #it also is a massive appetite suppressant because i haven’t been hungry all day and lately i’ve been raging with hunger #so i’ve had to force myself to stop and eat even tho i don’t want to #that aspect could be … unhelpful #BUT in a way it’s nice because i’ll be able to prepare and eat meals on a more set schedule and not when im dying of hunger trying to #find scraps lol #but anyways i am cautiously optimistic ! #now i just have to figure out a way to get an actual prescription because my friend just lent me some to try #i also think the dosage is probably pretty high which is good to know i can handle it being this high #well— actually i don’t know maybe i appear to be weird to everyone else ?? hahah