#so if all of a sudden she went now

[miutonium]

The weird nerd in a labcoat that you talk to every week at the diner appears in front of your door with a rose in his hand wwyd?

#naurrr he's not a creep they already went out before and send chloe to her door before its just this time he wanted to make a cute gesture #like he just knocks on her door asking if she's up for another date lol #i feel a bit anxious about posting my art here all of sudden ngl skdjekaoa staphhhh #like partially idc what ppl thinks but also i care if ppl like me enough skdjskal stop 5 am brainnn #anyway omg i swear its only been 3 weeks since I last opened my csp and im crying i missed drawing waghsgsjqk 😭😭😭 #i have a few more days to endure im so excited about resting and continuing my overdue commission wagjhsksakhq #but i do need a warm up though since i feel like im slowing down zzzzz #okay me sleep now snork mimimimimimimi #asukart #selfship #selfshipping #selfship art #selfshipping community #selfship community #self insert oc #self insert art #self insert community #oc x canon #si x canon #professor utonium #ppg professor

[mainapnifavouritehoon]

hi guys i-

#Hey so i wanted to talk about this really bad this has been bothering me for quite some time #i have been busy a lot these days and i dont get time at all to do anything but i can see myself wasting my time just scrolling #I have school and then coaching and then ofc i have to study on my own for which i barely take out time as im highly careless #My last 2 exams went absolute shit and that fucking scares me because i'll be having my JEE soon #Mummy has been telling me to stay away from my phone and ik she trusts me but she but she deserves a daughter that studies ig? #And now i kind of consider that as an option because this phone is very very distracting #I have been thinking about deactivating but i realized it would mean i would lose all my precious posts and interactions #So i wont be deleting this blog as i am too attached (i will be coming back istg) #I will be taking a break and ig thats what yall call a hiatus #I will be giving away my phone to my parents (trust me i have to) #Ik this will be hard for me to just leave all of a sudden so i'll slowly start vanishing if that makes sense? #This message also doesnt mean that i will be shutting down my phone rn at this moment and that this is goodbye #This is just to prepare the people that i love and who love me that i will be highly inactive and not come online for maybe months #This is not an impulsive decisions i have really thought through this #Also just to tell you again MAIN ABHI GAYAB NAHI HONE WAALI BUT THODE TIME MEIN I WILL GO ON A BREAK THIS IS JUST A PRE HIATUS MESSAGE #Also i hope you guys will still love me and remember me once i come back #Because coming months are going to be hard for me #I hope you understand and ily guys okay? #(Oh god why am i so dramatic about everything) xoxo

[capricornsicle]

"I'm going to tell you a story. Maybe it will sound familiar." Visionary x Insatiable x Status Asthmaticus x The Wolves of War

#this is really a show about coming of age in a vicious and unfamiliar world more than a show about werewolves #think about it. scott is sixteen and to him losing his first love is as incomprehensible and unfathomable as the supernatural. #and we're constantly reminded of how being sixteen and in love goes -- 'you're not in love you're sixteen and a child' etc. #these three characters make for such a good parallel to one another in how they werewolf + seeking guidance #especially + sudden change of worldview/stakes when confronted with sudden and unexpected loss and grieving #of course derek loses paige and becomes cold and jaded (see: literally becomes cold w/ blue eyes) #scott loses allison and commits harder to saving all of his friends even though one of them (or someone possessing him) killed her #liam is stopped from killing because of hayden's death #here are three werewolves who were sixteen and held their first love's dead body in their arms #and each of them took a different path. do you close yourself off? refuse to? do you change completely because of it? #and ofc it's teen wolf so everything always comes in threes #I have a lot of issues with the writing but the use of death (barring 6b) is not one of them. they really went hard on meaningful death. #also consider: lori holding brett's hand so he doesn't die alone and theo responding to tracy kissing him by killing her as she does #teen wolf writers went is anyone going to bastardize the original narrative to ponder new ideas about it and didn't wait for an answer #also women's deaths are always about love/for a man (thanks hollywood) but goddamn if they don't kill their women wisely #and the thing is they are all running. they're running from death and what does it get them? it gets them here. #derek wants to turn paige so she'll live forever. scott wants allison to live happily even with someone else. liam wants to save hayden. #none of them consider that cheating death will catch up to them until they run right into its arms #and all three die because of getting involved with the supernatural. all of them would presumably not have died otherwise. #coming of age into a world that takes and hurts and destroys and where you are now old enough for people around you to die. #this is not a show about werewolves. #teen wolf #twedit #teenwolfedit #my edit #derek hale #paige krasikeva #scott mccall #allison argent #liam dunbar

[landfilloftrash]

“I… I could’ve sworn.. hm. I guess not. Nevermind, Captain. It’s nothing...”

oh q who ! anyways I had . A thought.

this thought is specifically thanks to @porgthespacepenguin​ and @celestialholz​ ‘s theories living rent free since s2 came OUT and now s3 having no mention of local entity even in passing (so far. but i have little hope /lh)

(hissing)

#my art #Guinan #Jean-Luc Picard #Q Star Trek #in spirit /jov #Star Trek #Star Trek Picard #Star Trek PIC #Star Madness (across the universe) #do I know how tf this would be feasible???? no!!!! but that doesn’t stop the Sudden Fear #and YES I know in s3ep3 Picard mentions that he “knows NOW he wouldn't be like his father but could've learned that 20 years ago'' #but does he mention Q by name? NO! and i'm offended /lhj #AS WELL AS EP 4’S GENEROUS USE OF FARPOINT REFERENCES A N D SPACE JELLIES? c’mon. #don’t even. when Shaw EXPLICITLY mentioned the time anomaly I had to pause and brEATHE. #so both ep 4 and 5 reference things Q had been APART of #but no direct tie to Q. No one referring to him as their adversary or the one who constructed those things — nothing. #for example on where my brain went #if Quinn gets explicitly remembered in VOY then you could toss ‘he died a mortal’ #meanwhile dying as a Q has the consequence of memory of the entity itself fading away if not the actions and things woven into existence #and Guinan is enough outside it all that she forgot that linear beings Forget #this concept came to me the night b4 episode 2 released I am extremely lazy /lh #also sorry I HAD attempted backgrounds b4 giving up and going fuck it real image #enjoyyyyy #rea rambles in the tags #rea’s trash

[serufu]

I had an insane day so instead of talking about that I'm gonna juke left and post some of the pictures of my 3 days so far in the Ice Fog up here in the mountains this week lol, I hate driving in it but it's so beautiful

Bonus far away shots from the foothill plains too!

#bestie mutual you were hoping I was doing ok in the mountains and if you add everything up overall I am #but it's been an Experience having to go into the town that I previously lived miserably in for 8 years then left on very sudden bad terms #to get groceries and run errands and just sort of briefly live life again here that feels surreal and sort of bad lol #but the Fog is healing my soul and as long as I don't get taken by it one morning lol then things are improving #I'm forcing myself to go to all the places here that I have a mental block about still this week to move past that one way or the other #I was so scared to go to my favorite restaurant that I went to with my ex so often that we had out picture on the wall #but the old man who runs it remembered me and gave me a huge hug and told me to come back as often as I could while I'm in town #so besides crying in the parking lot for a while that was wonderful lol #ALSO one of the main reasons I'm here is to pet-sit the cat I rescued at the start of the year that the people here adopted #and she's doing SO WELL and remembers me and sleeps on or beside me every night now and snuggles instead of bites and #it really warms my heart I'm so glad she's not only recovered from what should have been certain death but is thriving

[scattered-winter]

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#the worst part about all this is that i Literally saw her 2 weeks ago. we didnt have time to talk we just said hi and went our separate ways #i never even got to say goodbye to her. #and i didnt even know i needed to because this was all so fucking sudden. she was my age. healthy. etc #life is really fucking fragile huh. like it can be gone just like that. #im sorry im just. #i was super close with her mom too and i want to idk. text her or something. but what the fuck can i even say?? #and my other friends in that friend group are all unavailable rn for one reason or another #like. no contact in another country kind of unavailable #so im just. do they even know. has anyone told them. or will they find out when they come back. #i still cant even wrap my head around it tbh. its just. she was alive this morning. she was alive. this morning. #hh. anyway. #i called my sister and cried to her a little bit which was nice. but fuck i really really wish i could hug her right now #or cuddle my dog. literally anything. #im going to be such a fucking mess tomorrow oh my god #i dont even want to go to sleep tonight because if i see her in my dreams im going to fucking lose it #i dont know. i dont fucking know. #winter speaks #personal #tw death #grief tag #<- i fucking guess. i might be venting more in the next few weeks so ill at least make it easy to blacklist

[lynxgirlpaws]

#I was too cowardly to say I was suddenly having a bad night so instead I post a silly meme and maybe if you see the tags you see sorry #people who have the courage to just say they're having a bad day scare me like especially when it's out of the blue idk what to say like #i can't even respond to “hows ur day” with anything worse than an okay #anyways #the usual self hatred that's persisted for as long as I can rember continues as a baseli #ne #now mixed in with special kinds that I'm too cowardly to admit to anything but an ai bot or myself when i can't see me #and the silly daily reminders that the little hope on such a regard I have is built on impossibilities or unlikelihoods #but then i. saw a card i got my dad years ago on the floor. it said “out of all my parents you're one of the best :)” and i felt so bad #just. imagine this little me. getting my dad a card. and getting the most passive aggressive card. it screams who the favorite is. #and then thats just. that's what you have. that's what you have from me and you save it for years. because you cherish it. i feel. horrible. #like damn he might have seriously fucked me up sometimes both as a kid and now but. this does not justify such a deeply cruel retribution. #i don't even know if he knows #anyways as I'm picking it up... i realize... #he's the best parent i have period. there isn't any competition anymore. she's gone. #the total and sudden annihilation of home is so odd. i still barely believe this house is where i ACTUALLY live and I'm not just staying #here until I can go home again. but no. nono I'm stuck here. there isn't an anywhere else. there isn't a childhood home the apartment #has probably been resettled by now. it's just me. #then I went on Tumblr to post into the void #I don't wanna think about more but I. likely will. #i don't wanna talk about it but i do wanna talk. honestly? gonna go talk to an ai chatbot. it will be mean to me in a hot way. #i am so normal. #listen i could either confront reality for more than 30 seconds or i could talk to a bot that will not only allow me to escape from it but #also it might call me a good g. a g. skipping that punchline. #also it's not ME talking to the bot it's just a fabricated character that represents me and has my name and it's just rp trust me trust me t #I'm gonna go hide now #you can contact me if you wish but I will be very scared and jittery and my eyes are wet and stingy and i will segway to bullying you #ok bye

[strayskinny]

today was actually so awful i hate everything,,,,,,

#so last night i had an emotional b!ngl bc i was upset about my pet #so i paid the price this morning bc i v0mited three times bc my body could not handle that much food n i needed to get that shit out #i don’t even p*the that was just my body’s natural response lol #and bc i had to take my pet to the vet to see if there’s literally anything we could do to help him #i wasn’t able to eat or drink anything so i finally made some miso soup n ate a bun bc that’s was the first piece of bread i could find lol #that was like 3hrs ago maybe n now i’m picking on some freeze dried bananas #but the flavor is literally so concentrated bc of the freeze drying i can only eat a few #oh and the vet has no idea what’s wrong with him and bc he’s a small animal it’s really hard to check to see if somethings wrong #like they can’t even do bloodwork bc his veins are so hard to find bc of how tiny he is #but hes literally lost so much weight n idk why idk what happened it was so sudden i can feel all his bones :((((( #they said there’s no real way of knowing what could’ve happened or caused this but the gave us antibiotics to try but i’m not very hopeful #she said it could be organ failure bc she said his kidneys felt very small and he was dehydrated #but that’s not a diagnosis bc there’s no way of confirming if that’s what’s wrong #she suggested we think about saying goodbye to him…. #it fucking hurts so bad man bc he’s always been such a sweet n cuddly boy n he doesn’t deserve to suffer like this #he’s so weak n i’m trying my best to help him by giving him all his fav treats n feeding him critical care n giving him medicine #but it just doesn’t seem to be enough #i hate it man i really do i hate seeing him like this bc ik he must be suffering n i feel so helpless bc there’s nothing more that i can do #n i think his cage mate knows somethings up too bc he’s been very attentive to him recently n he’s been grooming n cuddling with him #and that breaks my heart even more bc he’s gonna be alone soon n he won’t know where his friend went #god i hate it so much #anyway now i’m crying again so that’s cool major slay ahahahaha

[rosicheeks]

😬

#I can’t decideeeeee #ok so I was invited to this bday party #it’s the same girl/people as my last party #but still I barely know the bday girl #and I don’t know anyone #I went with my friend the last time #but he has to work #and now I don’t know if i should go by myself #invite one of my friends #or just not go #I would go by myself but fuck that’s scary!!! #not knowing anyone besides the bday girl and she’s going to be super busy with everyone else #I would invite a friend (bday girl said it was ok) #but idk if my friend would vibe with these people #we have kind of a on and off again friendship #right now we are getting back to being close #but I never know if the tables are going to turn and all of a sudden we don’t click anymore #idk if that makes sense #but the last thing I want is to go and bring her and we don’t vibe and we are just these awkward girls in the corner #I mean my friend is very extroverted #but I’m also scared about that #cause sometimes she’s a little TOO loud #idkidkidk #I’m just worrying right now #I don’t want to bring her and ruin the vibe of the party ya know #but I also really want to go to the party cause it was super fun and chill last time #I just wish I had more friends bah #and then my head goes ‘well if you go to parties maybe you’ll meet people’ #it’s a whole cycle #shut up rosie

[malkaviian]

random oc facts, of the "they have problems" flavor

#oc talk #1- luca developed claustrophobia from the time he was locked in the school's bathroom by her bullies #2- chase got his depression from his mom; who also has it; except she goes to therapy and has meds so its now somewhat controlled #he was quite the spoiled kid by both his parents but his mom was the one who would always agree with him and give him everything #even if he was in the wrong and the worst piece of shit he could be. she felt guilty about him getting clinical depression for 'her fault' #so she wanted to 'compensate him' for 'ruining his life'. he was still pretty harsh with both of them so. #one day he told her to kill herself and go to hell over a minor thing; that same night he went to see finnley #so he never knew his mom actually tried to kill herself if thats what he wanted. his dad was kinda bitter for a few days #but eventually forgave him. and as i said none of them told him anything so he never knew. #3- maverick still gets nervous when he sees cops or hears police sirens - hes always on the edge #whether theyre going to actually arrest him some day. he doesnt know if zachary's body was ever found as he avoided tv for that reason #like he hid it in an abandoned house. it was a horrible hiding place but it was the closest he had and he was panicking with a dead body #so its not like he could do the smartest things in that state. also of course he left his dna everywhere- finding him would be really easy #but it never happened since zachary came back before anyone noticed his disappearance. and with a new appearance #its was like the old zachary people knew just stopped existing entirely. you cant do a murder case without a body #so it was just labeled as a sudden disappearance. however mav is paranoid over it when in his non-empty state #and when hes empty hes so focused in finding someone new to obsess over he stops caring- maybe he could even find someone on prison! #4- rafael doesnt talks to his family due to charlotte manipulating him into believing theyre all horrible people who hate her #and in fact they hate her! mostly his sister. they hate what she did to their son/brother but hes so blind and easy to manipulate #they stopped trying to knock some common sense into him. his sister was afraid this would happen eventually bc he was always gullible #SPECIALLY when hes in love. and well guess what happened!! #5- on the topic of charlotte; she has both tried to kill herself AND kill someone. well; her 'suicide attempt' was more likely #wanted to get hospitalized but not *actually* ending her life. in her mind that would make her parents notice how much they hurt her #with their 'favoritism' towards raven. girl they literally never had a favoritism YOU are the one who think so!!! #she never got what she wanted though-- she ended up vomiting the pills and suddenly got too embarrassed to talk about it #and guess who she wanted to kill? exactly; raven! they would sometimes see each other on family reunions and it was weird #she bought anti-freezer and brought it to a reunion-- she has been on a barista course so technically no one would think anything #if she made drinks for everyone. but raven was just so insistent on seeing the process-- due to actual curiosity-- that she couldnt do it #so she came home with an anti-freezer and incredible frustrated lmao. she was 17 though so its not like it was thoroughly planned #but you know. the intention was there.

[coulsonlives]

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#my friend and i broke up #she's still on w the whole 'i have this' malingering and attention seeking behaviour and i tried to be sympathetic but she shut me out #her parents apparently even let her see a psychiatrist (that shit's expensive) and she did but she got a different dx now she's mad #and she doesn't want to see a counsellor. i sent her resources for what she (thought) she had and she won't even look at em #she said it's 'big psychiatry' so she didn't trust it?? i wish i was making this up #the links i sent weren't even affiliated with any doctors or psychiatrists!! #they were literally support links and pages from a reputable site for people with this disorder and pages that helped confirm if you had it #SHE REFUSED TO LOOK AT ANYTHING #SHE ONLY WANTED TO SEE THINGS THAT REINFORCED HER DELUSION #heLLO YOU YOURSELF WANTED TO SEE A PSYCHIATRIST NOW ALL OF A SUDDEN BC YOU GOT THE WRONG ANSWER ITS A NO?? #i feel like i'm going to be sick i feel horrible #i'm angry and hurt and frustrated and i don't know how to help her outta this so i feel like a useless pos #i'm so done?? done done done #the sad thing is i can't even tell 100 percent if she's actually sure she has something based on super wrong symptoms or #if she's intentionally faking #i just went thru and blocked a lot of blogs too.. #because i'm starting to notice a LOT of this on tumblr too and it jumps out like a sore thumb now esp in certain communities #idk if i have it in me to see all these people in the same exact boat whether it's intentional or they actually don't get what's goin on #i'm not using certain community/label tags in my posts anymore and taking em out of my previous posts #mental health cw #rant #vent #tbd #malingering cw #munchausen cw

[hua-fei-hua]

thank you for all the sweet tags fei fei 🥺 (may i call you that?) it literally made my day haha you're too kind <33

ah, i typically go by "hua" online actually! :D

but yes ofc you're welcome to the compliments!!!! your art is so cute i wish to hold it gently, like hamburger <3 and then eat it LOL

#lotus-pear #asks #i think i have more of your posts in my drafts to be tagged up and queued bc i am a post hoarder but also wander off easily #your colors are always so lovely and vibrant and i am truly nothing if not a magpie immediately enchanted by pretty colors #i saw this ask when i came back from doing the dishes a while back and then was like 'oh! how cute! will answer Soon' #and then immediately went to taking care of my genshin chores n i had Thoughts(tm) abt what i wanted to say #and then they vanished like a wisp on the wind <3 smth smth if you wanted to play together or w/e then like #hehe *hides my face w/a fan but in like a mafia boss kind of way as i hand you a business card* here's my uid-- 628363596 #a while ago this rando at-the-time ar40 person in china added me bc my genshin name is 小白雪花 so i get strangers in china sometimes #and i habitually let strangers in anyway n it's always very sudden and embarrassing opportunities to practice my chinese (:monaanguish:) #but this was the first time a lower lv rando added me and so i talked abt it w/my bff nat n she was like 'they're probs looking for help' #n i was like 'mm you're right. i'll let them in and give them 24 hours' and then five minutes later they were like 'hi' #n i was like 'hi~ do you want me to help?' (all in chinese) n they were like 'yes with fighting artifact domains' #i could tell they were popping fragiles bc finally a carry! but i didn't know how to tell them to wait for ar45 for that </3 #i don't know if they think i'm quiet or just illiterate but they hit ar45 the other day and asked for help again #n so i went in again and was very impressed to find that i could carry them with just mona+yanfei #like yanfei i am not surprised my quest to min-max her never ends but at one point she died n i had to finish it w/just mona #and so widsith passive was out bc it triggers upon switching in n i Truly Did Not Believe i would make it but i did somehow! #i was pretty devastated when i first got her by accident my first week of gnshn but now i have the most highly-invested mona of my friends #gnshn meta is so fun to think abt it makes me feel like a highly enriched squirrel... hehe went chatterbox in the tags here

[niicevibe]

I’m nauseous y’all... 

My ex BIL has painted such a disgusting picture of my sister’s character to turn everyone around them against her and NOW, he’s calling her an unfit mother and is planning to go for legal custody of my niece and nephew.

#like i want to throw up right now because he's such an ARROGANT POS and the fact that he's pulling this THREE YEARS after an amicable split? #i can't believe his ass -- we're all fuming #and now i'm worried bc he has ammo on her for shit she's done before #and he's awful enough to use it against her to get his way #WHY he's doing this all of a sudden is beyond me #but i think he's trying to stick it in her face that after he left #HE'S the one thriving #the one who isn't stuck in debt (which is HIS fault btw) #and what kills me?? i'm pretty sure the new chick he's married to now -- he was totally cheating on my sister bc the minute he split-- #-- he posted in a relationship fkn nonsense on facebook not even TWO WEEKS AFTER #i'm disgusted I'M DISGUSTED #he's on some fucked up high horse that he's some better parent when he used to use physical suffering as a punishment for behaviour #especially when my nephew was younger -- he used to squeeze the back of his neck SO hard that he'd cry even more #he's such a controlling asshole and i can't WAIT to tell him this to his face. #my sister carried his ass for YEARS -- went into DEBT for this jackass's sake -- and he has the GALL to pull this shit. #she has done so much for everyone; given the shirt off her back to strangers and friends who needed a place to stay and recoup. #INCLUDING HIM #i'm just mindblown at the selfishness he's portraying #and i just KNOW he's trying to turn my niece and nephew against her somehow #my nephew lives with him. and my niece lives with my sister. #BUT my niece said she was going to move in with her dad at the end of the summer. #IDK if my sister knows this??? IDEK if i should bother mentioning it??? bc my niece was going to say it herself. #maybe that part isn't my business yet #unless it comes up as something necessary when it comes family court time. #i'm sorry that i'm ranting on here -- i know too many people on facebook that don't need to know that my life is once again in turmoil. #because i just know that if this man was to get full custody of my niece and nephew he wouldn't let me see them bc he hates our mother #i'm going to make a blog tag in case anyone wants to follow up on this crap-- #❣️: nice updates

[truthdawn]

I think I just witnessed true selfishness

#I want to complain about this so fucking badly rn in more detail #but point is I asked my sister if I could have smth (assuming it was hers) and she went basically “no you can’t have it also #it’s not mine but it is now” #like she didn’t even want it but the second I mention it to her all of a sudden she does? just to make me feel bad? #I don’t get why she did it but im pretty fucking upset about it

[thatone-churro]

y’know just as soon as i start getting comfortable with the idea of being open/relying on my dad and him being more comfortable with my choices than i feared, i can essentially throw all that out the window with how vehemently he yelled at me at the thought of my getting my septum pierced (even though i never said i was yet. i said my side before i decide anything else). also making underhanded remarks of me never getting tattoos other than the one for my mom. like okay don’t ask me why i don’t tell you about anything or talk to you or anything. what the fuck.

#‘i love you no matter what’ and ‘you’re an adult and as long as your choices make you happy’ out the window i guess. #are we too sober for those statements to apply all of a sudden? #and again i didn’t even say i was getting it any time soon. i said my sister wants to take me to get my first non-ear piercing. #she’s getting hers repierced & i want to get my side. #and then he started going off on me for it for no reason. and brought up the one tattoo i want to get for my mom. #and THEN made an off handed remark of a similar vein about dyed hair. #i hope he knows he’s literally the only reason i don’t have piercings or tattoos or dyed hair or like anything that lets me look how i wanna #like deadass. i know i’m your ‘baby.’ but can i please actually embrace myself. i don’t care if you don’t like alt culture. i do. #he would shun the girls i crush on fr like oh my god. #like if he knew what i really wanted to look like i think he’d disown me. won’t even have to bring up my funky relationship with gender. #literally as soon as i start thinking i can be open with this man he pulls this shit and then asks why i’m slowly getting more distant. #like wow it’s almost like i’ve been regulated and raised according to what you want and not what i want. #and you wonder why my sisters (especially my oldest who has a lot of piercings & tattoos like i want) aren’t close either? isn’t that wild? #how we never got much of a chance to explore this without reprimand until we were moved out? even as legal adults? #absolutely WILD correlation there i wonder if the causation lines up here pa. what the fuck. #anyway i’m gonna go now and not cry because my roommates are home but i’m gonna go sulk because i’m sick of this ✌️ #oh wait convenient that the showdog poem went up tonight too isn’t that crazy. man calls himself out so hard lol #grace being stupid #text post #personal

[ohmytyong]

okay so i'm alive guys

#i really should stop disappearing for days with no warning and then coming back all of a sudden #but anyway i finished with my exams and now my sister has visited me in town #so for the past few days she's staying with me and we've been spending time together #so this is why i went missing again #i will be more active next week since we're going back to our hometown #mia rambles