#so i went back to not caring

[pearl-kite]

I made a pillow!

It took four months of non-stop cross-stitching, but I finally finished a pattern I bought from @8pxl a little bit ago, and tonight in a bizarre burst of productivity I finally sewed a back to it and stuffed it into a cute little pillow! It ended up being pretty much perfectly sized for a neck pillow, but I'm a bit worried about it getting dirty that way.

I highly recommend the patterns from 8xpl's shop, there are SO many gorgeous ones to choose from. I might end up getting another one soon o3o

#cross stitch #embroidery #fiber art #fiber crafts #cross stitching #xstitch #needlepoint #needlecraft #I went so long without drawing because I KNEW if I put this aside for anything I'd nver pick it up again #because that's how I usually am with cross stitch #but I finished it about a month ago and todday for some reason was just the day that I spontaneously finished the rest of thee project #I would have liked to do a nicer pillow #like with that piping kindd of stuff along the edge? #but if I actually waited to get some of that it'd never happen #so super basic straight lines around the edges flip insid out stuff an stitch down the opening #no zippeer #it will NOT be easy to clean so I need to be careful with it #but it is absolutely a perfect neck pillow on the back of my couch right now

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

An unbothered queen has entered, and subsequently left.

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#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #wen qing #wen ning #jiang cheng #wei wuxian #In the audio drama she quite literally opens the door and then leaves after seeing them without breaking conversation. #It is both so impressive and deeply funny to me. #I imagine her just literally pivoting in one foot and walking right out. #She came home after a long day at work and in 0.5 seconds went “I would rather go back to the office than deal with this right now”. #Besides tickling me to near tears - this scene is also a great introduction to Wen Qing - her first instinct is to protect! #She lives by the code of 'I don't care who you are - if you need help I will lend it.' a true doctor and professional. #Sure she is *mad* that Wen Ning puts himself (and her to a lesser extent) at risk by helping 'the enemy' but she gives in quick. #I love Wen Qing a lot - she is such an unsung hero in this story. #Sorry that her first appearance on this blog was...what it was. I'll let your curiosity take you down that path...

[dreadark]

that ivan loves till is the most obvious thing about them

but. does ivan know that…?

the ivan that regards his own feelings as shallow, the ivan that learned how emotions are expressed only from copying others… does he even know that the love he’s felt for so long is love? probably not. and part of the reason is the one he loves himself

because the easiest example he has of love is till's feelings to mizi. till outright calls it love, and ivan watches him so much he has to be aware of this and till’s love to mizi is totally unselfish, right. he doesn’t seem to actually want much from her—just that she's still there and still "mizi"

but ivan can't be satisfied with just watching he… wants. ivan wants till’s attention, till’s affection—

surely this selfish wanting can’t be love

...no wonder he was never able to express his feelings straightforwardly when he belittles them so much but he can’t stand not having anything either, so he does… whatever he does instead to get any scraps of attention he can, from someone he's convinced doesn't care about him at all only showing affection when till can't see it, right until he knows he's going to die

but ivan's feelings for till are all he still has of himself... to think of them as shallow...

I've seen this translated as "I should've been kinder" to him (till) or to her (sua)

but really, the one he should've been kinder to was himself

#alien stage #alnst #alnst ivan #ivantill #i have a lot of thoughts on till -> mizi too but this is long enough #just attempting to rewrite my twt rambles more coherently #idk why i wrote this so dramatically tho... #'thank you for being the victim of my shallow emotions' is going to haunt me to my grave #ivan's character is just a careful balance between his natural freak nature and his extreme depths of self-loathing #making him the most miserable guy ever #...really once you realize so much of what went wrong is thanks to ivan just hating himself too much to even think of them as friends. well #c...can we bring him back... don't die like this..... #(also you know. with the implications of how 'pets' are treated #wanting someone physically must feel... even more wrong

[hellishgayliath]

@heckitall HECKY I DID YOUR DTYIS!!! :DDD IM YOUR CO DIRECTOR FOR THIS COMIC HOW COULD I NOT DRAW OUR BOYS AT SOME POINT :D

Also people should go read Heck's comic Same as it Never Will Be, it is amazing and Heck is a really great story teller and artist :3 <3

#2003 tmnt my beloved #rottmnt #crossover #almost2ksainwbdtyis #sainwb #same as it never will be #my art #i went back to check on the deadline for this and saw it was literally 2-3 days away so i really pumped out the gears to get this done xD #again i dont really care about winning i just wanted an excuse to draw the lads #has also never drawn the 03 turts prior to this except for baby don #so i really like how this came out :D #and maybe im overthinking this part but i gotta know Heck if the thumbtacks and photos are a reference to Rise!Don's conspiracy theory boar #since he had photos of the other turtle iterations on it :V

[jarrows]

Ah, Lestrade. I've always had a bit of a soft spot for him, and it only got bigger with the recent reread.

#his bitchfests with holmes are just always so entertaining lol #sherlock holmes #lestrade #got a couple requests to see lestrade's office so i went back and cleaned up my sketch a little bit #not totally happy with it since it didn't end up looking as cramped as i really envision it #i mean hes a neat guy so i imagine he takes care of his space its just that (in my mind) hes dealing with an awkward layout and no budget #also he gets a nice fashion forward cut to his suits bc watson so consistently describes him as dapper #which is just about the only nice descriptor watson throws his way lol

[carnivalcarriondiscarded]

thinking about Eddie & hyacinths again

#as you can surmise im Perfectly Normal about it #this man doesnt make me insane at all. nope. #trying out some new coloring and texture and background things... #on a side note. and i say this so lovingly bc theyre my favorite flowers #FUCK DRAWING HYACINTHS ALL MY HOMIES HATE DRAWING HYACINTHS #that was hell on earth. #ANYWAY THIS DUDE IS NEAT I HOPE HE DIES #nah im jesting im Jesting. am i tho #dead or alive i want him to experience unimaginable horrors and then die ten times and come back Normal #bc eddie strikes me as a 'dying would fix them' character #whether its a real death or a perceived death or Youve Been Dead The Whole Time death dont care dont care #i need him dead on the ground for at leeeaaaast five minutes #id be frothing at the fucking mouth. ragh #scribble garnish #welcome home #welcome home puppet show #eddie dear #originally this was gonna be a Very bloody little piece #but then my brain went 'hey. symbolism. what if the blood was flower petals. from hyacinths' #and ohhhh i couldnt pass that up #i wish i did! i would have had a lot more fun drawing a gruesome injury rather than Those Damn Flowers! #i dont know why ive latched onto the hyacinths outside the post office but my brain wont let go #ITS JUST SO SPECIFIC. why why whyyyyyy put that specific flower by this specific guy #especially flowers with Those Meanings and That Myth #*violently shaking the site* WHAT DO YOU MEANNNNNN #ok im getting myself too worked up i need to touch grass or poke the fire

[ruporas]

soft (and some bittersweet)

#trigun stampede #trigun #vashwood #vash the stampede #nicholas d wolfwood #i think they both spent majority of their lives in solitude and ofc vash went town to town and made friendships promises and etc along the w #way + he had his home and whatnot in the long years he's been alive but he still just seemed so lonely. #in prior versions of trimax he had friends at home at least and maybe he mightv made some but luida and brad are basically just his #guardians in this adaption. like brad used to be a homie.... vash watched that little dude grow up.... and jessica too.... but he doesn't #have that in this adaption. nor a town like july where he had grown close to the townspeople and shaped that tragedy to be closer to his #heart. and wolfwood spent years fighting under the eom and doing shit under their jurisdiction when we saw him so adamantly try to reject #and fight back against that fate. i dont think he had a second at all to get familiar with townspeople or even care to #so its just these two lonely ass souls and vash immediately seeing the good in ww and points it out #ww who is under orders again to be involved in vash's business but he's also SO touchy about it bc vash is so careless and lack that self #regard and also just is not seeing the world that ww is seeing. but then vash helps him and saves him by sharing a piece of what /he/ sees #and it fucking. rescrambled ww's brain for a sec. HE GAVE HIM HOPE!!! he gave him hope!!!! and in turn ww gave vash hope too and its #all done in like 3-4 eps. there's so much fervent attachment in what they managed to give each other in such a short time #but theyre limited to the contract to the inevitable confrontation with knives - so while theyd want to give into that chance to love this #person who managed to give them smth special they just can't at all #ruporas art

[tariah23]

aisjsjjensnJAJAJ

#because… we wrote one idiot 😭!!! #I guess wp and nbs just learned that black ppl have our own National anthem and are of course spazzing tf out #just… write one? #yourselves??? if this is such a big deal like kskskskskl #there’s no arguing with racists but this is still funny #I saw a few black folks not know about it but they probably either went to white schools or aren’t from America so they missed out on #having to sing lift every voice and sing for 5 days a week 8 years straight #I only sung it for 7 since my 8th grade teacher didn’t care if we did it or not #I just didn’t feel like standing up sorry and I’m sure her lazy ass didn’t either that’s why she didn’t care lmfao #no wait I did do it for 8 years because my mom made my teacher hold me back in 3rd grade 🗿…. so #crying #you can feel the antiblackness roll off of that ‘s’ #rambling

[murdermitties]

And I love Vermont, but it's the season of the sticks, and I Saw your mom she forgot that I existed and It's half my fault, but I just like to play the victim I'll drink alcohol 'til my friends come home for Christmas And I'll dream each night of some version of you That I might not have, but I did not lose

Stick Season - Noah Kahan

#mothwing #leafpool #mothpool #mothwing x leafpool #warrior cats #wc #apparently i have a thing for tragic lesbians #these two and daisy and squilf too #stick season by noah kahan lives rent fucking free in my head as a mothpool song #what if your wife died and you had to hear about it second hand #and you dont believe in god so you can never see her ghost as she sadly follows you wishing you'd look back at her #i know I KNOW thats not how starclan works in the books BUT I DO NOT CARE #tragedy is my bread and butter when it comes to these two #what if you haunted only the places where you and your wife went on dates and met up #but she's always somewhere else and you never guess the right location and you dont hear her talk to the air hoping youd hear her

[turtleblogatlast]

I still think about how Leo’s ideal day out for the fam’s venture into the Hidden City was basically just an effort to get some rest and relaxation because boy does he never get that ever.

#rottmnt #rottmnt leo #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #Leo is that one kid who’s like yeah dude I’m chill I’m laidback #and on the inside he’s just in a constant fetal position rocking back and forth #at least the others got a good amount of time spent in Tahiti but Leo’s out here like please god just one spa day 🙏🙏🙏 #no but tbh? it’s genuinely a great look at Leo’s character that he wants to go to a spa to basically just sleep in the sun #it’s not bombastic or flashy or anything he legit just wants a good place to get proper rest and care #that hair spa can catch these hands LET MY BOY HAVE HIS SPA DAY 🔪 #HONESTLY EACH PERSON’S CHOICE OF WHERE THEY WENT FOR THEIR DAY OUT SAYS A LOT #like raph wants to emulate who he perceives as those in justice in a desire to become more like the hero he so desperately wants to be #leo goes off on his own in order to let his guard down and actually rest for more than a lackadaisical facade #donnie goes with april not only to salvage his pride and condemn magic but also to hold onto his self worth and genuinely help out #and mikey thrives in family and specifically the harmony within family and how that is portrayed through the act of simply being together #in this essay I will-

[front-facing-pokemon]

#scorbunny #YEEEEAAAAAAAH WOOOOOOOOOOOO BABY BUNNYYYYYYY YAAAAAAAAAAAAAA HRSGRHSGSHAGGRAHRAGRAGH #oh sorry. am i cheering way more for scorbunny than i did for grookey? am i showing my bias toward the bnuuy more than the monky? #i don't care 'cause it's SCORBUNNY TIIIIIME YAAAAAAAAY BABY WITH A KRAFT SINGLE ON ITS FACE WOOOOOOOOOO #this isn't even the starter i chose personally in my swsh playthrough. i kinda went into swsh blind and i didn't know what the #final evos were gonna look like. if i'd known about cinderace in advance i would've chosen this thing. i am a furry. we all are #and this thing's final evolution gets a whole paw-shot animation on its signature move are you KIDDING me. are you KIDDING #but in my first run-through (technically the run that got me back into pokémon as a hyperfixation/special interest) i chose sobble #so i have a soft spot for inteleon too #but SCORBUNNYYYYYY WO

[ganondoodle]

it might seem like im just a totk hater, and to be fair, i AM, but its not bc i think its bad in every way- if it was all bad, ok, then its all bad and we can forget it happened and can all accept that-

but totk specifically hit the jackpot of -things that frustrate me so much i cannot let go and need to talk about it-

its part of my current hyperfixation (or whatever is the right word), botw is one of my all time favorite games, and that one had so many mysteries i was DEEPLY invested in, its got great music and some absolutely fanatstic moments, some ideas are great to fine, but it doesnt make sense, i hate time travel like little else in games, it constantly contradicts itself, the franchise, even its previous game its supposed to be a sequel to, i felt like i was made fun of by the game itself, for caring so much about what they had set up or done in botw, the moment i saw what they did to the shrine of life i felt so devasted i could hear people pointing and laughing at me for having cared about it, the writing treating me like i am so brainless i cannot connect dot one and two when there are only two dots in front of me labeld 1 and 2 that it then tells me to connect directly, to my face, multiple times, before showing me how to draw a line, its full, so SO FULL of missed opportunities, its got choices in there that are just nothing but frustrating bc there were a hundred other ones, i can see what you could do wit hthe basic ideas, theres people that worship it to a point you cant say anything even mildly critical, even about objectively bad things (there is no excuse for that godawful arrow menu) bc they will jump at you like a rabid animal-

i could go on but you get the point, never in my life has anything hit me like that

#ganondoodles talks #like the closest i can think of is back when i was into transformers #the prime series was one of my first extreme obsessions but i think in season two it just went to shit #in every direction i hated basically #and it drove me nuts #but even then i could say ok its stupid now and stopped watching and caring #but totk isnt like that #its literally like a jackpot #but also dont think i am literally losing my mind bc im not that far gone ok #its just so so DAMN FRUSTRATING #to see what could have been #to see it be literally given to them freely #and them slapping it away and take soemthing out of a trashcan instead #and bc its a big game of big company i cant do anything about it

[sorrelpaws]

no offense but i genuinely fear that their potential dynamic will go severely underutilized

#rick and morty #morty smith #prime rick #my biggest fear continues to be 'morty gets kidnapped by prime to bait c137' #because i think it could just. be so much more neat if morty and prime actually formed some kind of relationship independently. good OR bad #like idk imagine if morty is coaxed to join primes side out of some misguided attempt to protect his family #would sure be fitting for a character that clearly values his family and their safety idk!!! #and like. god imagine what morty mighjt think of prime #like he currently only has rick's perspective of prime. and obviously whether he wants to or not he sort of Has to rely on what rick says #idk imagine morty meets prime and hes like damn this dude is pretty cool. whether its because prime is putting on a deliberate act #or morty just Genuinely Thinks he's cool #ohhhhhhh imagine this is how they bring the morty mindwipe thing back. #prime would b like 'did you know c137 left the parts of you that disagree with him in a video game? isnt that fucked up morty' #theres just so much TO DOOO and im so terrified of NONE of this happening #bcs the writers seem to be physically incapable of prioritizing anyone but rick #LIKE GOD PLEASEEEE i know they only care abt the redditor audience BUT PLEASE do something ANYTHING with morty im about to start crying #went on a little rant lol sorry. can you tell i really like morty.

[catdoingblep]

#shadow and bone #six of crows #grishaverse #jesper fahey #wesper #poorly made memes strike back #jan van eck #I can see Wylan trying to forget Jan existed or having complicated feelings with a lot of rage and tiredness #but jesper? #Jesper totally hated him #like ‘this man wrecked all the childhood of my wylan’ #he would totally be like rest in hell jan I have special wine for this occasion #he would be like who r u talking about? Jan Van Eck? don’t know him… oh u r talking about that dickhead….. #Kaz and Marya in the background pretending they have no connection to the accidental cruel death of Jan in hellgate: sorrows sorrows prayers #I am living for headcanons of Marya being as tenacious and smart as Wylan #and having her own revenge on Jan in the future #and with Wylan cared for her so much and Jesper who she didn’t want to lie to her son #she went straight to Kaz #gunpowder #post crooked kingdom

[pineappical]

in light of tedtrent becoming so real, im also jumping on the tedtrent epilogue 😊

there's just no way ted wouldn't keep in touch with the others (and have weekly zoom meetings just like in the christmas special) and I just love the thought of the whole team having reunions once in a while.

and going back to trent's arc in s3, the sunflowers conversation, "And your daughter?" "She's never been happier." I think it could go the same for ted.. we've never really properly saw how henry felt about his dad being in london, it's always other people that told ted his son misses him, who's to say henry would rather see his dad happy because that in turn would make him happy too? he was there to win the whole thing, right? I just know ted’s story isn’t done yet when he still hasn’t learned to let others take care of him in return and who else to pair him with than the man who blew up his career because a man was nice to him (and also because they were so. so cruel for the fakeout tedbecca scenes for that finale) 🥺

I'm no writer so just pretend these are snapshots of a slow burn fic where ted visits london for their team reunion and slowly realizes that trent has a crush on him and they kiss about it 💛

#ted lasso #trent crimm #tedependent #ted lasso fanart #tedtrent #ted x trent #I HAVE SOOOOOO MUCH MORE THOUGHTS ABOUT THIS BTW its just that its 4am rn and i cannot type down my thoughts for the life of me </3 #im just so not over that ending and how weird it felt for ted to end his story like that.. not like he can turn back to michelle since #dr. jacob is right there.. i want this man to feel loved and cared for and actually have a place he knows he can call home and that was #richmond for me.. to the family we were born with. and to the family we make along the way etc etc etc #ted lasso spoilers #<- FORGOT ABOUT THAT. #i can finally say i loved the ending for all the callbacks and stuff but I NEED THIS MAN TO BE HELDDDD!!!!! *everything explodes around me* #he even went back there WITHOUT BEARD :( his bestfriend for sooo long who was there for all their ups and downs. i dont like beard and jane #being together but the fact ted didnt even go to their wedding too like ...??! what is going onnnn #also graying lasso is just something so indulgent for me . hush #pn.art #JUST YKNOW!!! I HOPE YALL UNDERSTAND WHAT IM SAYING ITS REALLY REALLY LATE I PROBABLY SHOULDVE WAITED TILL LATER TO POST THIS BUT JAHJVAKDG #my memory is really bad too so i could also be misremembering scenes and im too eepy to check the scenes i had in mind so u_u #ALSO apologies that its taking me sooo long to draw things i recently joined a mc server and ive been playing it all day and night HFSJGFSH #im sooo scared of making these type of posts because i dont have the balls to make the wrong choices in other people's eyes but GRAAH!!!!! #<- i love tedtrent bUT WHAT IF PEOPLE THINK IM CRINGGGEEEE!!!!! #THATS ALL.... i have more drawings in mind that ill get around to later.. for now goodnight <3

[strawbebbiesart]

june/ july / august 💌🥪🦢

#digital art #artists on tumblr #illustrators on tumblr #original illustration #original art #sasha's art #work and classes start next week for me and also for all of my friends #and probably the whole city as well #so i wanted to do something to say goodbye to this summer #there was so much stress we went through with me moving to a new country and figuring out health care and banks and all of that fun stuff #and a lot of going back and forth between vienna and my home town #and also two (2) of my friends moved apartments and everyone went on vacation at different times #BUT #throught it all we still managed to see each other a lot and i feel like we made the most of it #i had fun and i really appreciated it all #so i wanted to capture all of these small moments #the swims in the danube and the picknics and the swans with their chattering #this was my first summer i got to spend while living in this city i've dreamed about my whole life #and i got to spend it with the love of my life and a beautiful group of friends #here's to many more!! #i hope you all also had a nice summer and i hope your return to work/ school/ whatever is comfortable and easy ! #i have many ideas for art currently which always happens when i am about to have yero free time lmao #we'll see how much time i manage to make for it and when i can post my next big Piece #but hopefully soon!! my resolve is Big and my passion is all encompasing !!!!