#so i didnt rly get a chance

[yo9urt]

happy :)

#mine #been talking to my crush more and more at work lately #getting to know each other a little bit #on thursday he told me he hasnt picked a major but he considered art #today i asked him a little more about it and he said hes good at it and i wanted to be like wow tell me more but we were at work #so i didnt rly get a chance #but he also said he was thinking about english major which is so cute to me i love eng majors they are my best friends forever #he said he writes too which is like. I Want To Know More. #also the english major thing is a good sign because it could mean 1. he reads & 2. he MIGHT be capable of critical thinking #and media literacy #i could not date someone who did not have those things. #i think hes been coming out of his shell on our shift and around me in general lately which is really nice #i am trying to do the same im trying to say hi and bye more often and hold conversations with him #BECAUSE I REALLY LIKE HIM!!!!!!! and i want us to bond #i kind of had a feeling that he had a silly guy side under the surface and i was right he has some silliness to him #also me and my other coworker chatted for a bit and we talked ABOUT him at one point (2nd week in a row) #and i just RURRRUGGHGHHGHGHHGHG. i want him #he lives rent free in my mind. #having a crush is so dumb. i saw him on my first shift today and when i came back for my 2nd shift (he doesnt work that one) #i was stressed cause its a busy shift and we had a fuckload of people coming ina nd eating all our fucking food #and then in my head there was that part of my brain that was like. think about him smiling #and i literally calmed down and smiled a little to myself just from thinking that. COME ON #AM I 14? COME ON. #so embarrassing. #i like him so much though #i wish he was my boyfriend im going to jump into the lake

[luck-of-the-drawings]

"And soda; runs off into the street..." "...and soda... is totally okay!"

#jrwi fanart #jrwi show #jrwi suckening #cw blood #something something cracking open a boy w the cold ones #IF THERE ARE ANY MISTAKES I MISSED I SWWWEAR TO JEBEDIAH. IF I STARE AT THIS ANYMORE IM GONNA DIE IT NEEDS TO BE DONE #ALSO RRRAAAHAHHHGHGH CAN I JUST TAKEA SECOND TO SCREEAAMM ABT HOW MUCH I LOVE SODA AND EMIZEL.. LIKE THERYE SO CUTE.... #THEY ARE HOMIES THAT KISS EACHOTHR GOODNIGHT. THEY CARE SO MUCH FOR EACHOTHER. SODA LOVES SODA AND SODA LOVES YOU #do u guys remember how willing he was to share blood w his vampire bestie. like cmon. remember when emizel memorized sodas Soda Schedule. #LIKE CMON.... they just have eachothers backs so much. ouhhh my god... ANYWAY SO THE ART HUH. I FEEL LIKE I SCRAMBLED W IT FOR A WHILE #DRAWIN IS HARD..... i think i did well in the end tho.. i like the lil heart beat effects. and i hope i made soda look Suffieciently Scared #i ALSO had fun w the teeth. i however did not have fun w the walls. if i had more drugs i mightve done every brick in more detail #but i didnt WANNA!!!! this will suffice.I HOPE IT FLOWS WELL&THAT ITS CLEAR... IVE STARED AT IT SO LONG IT IS NOW VISUAL SOUP. HELP!!! #i want my comics to have more Pauses and Space and Thought and Momence. i feel like normally they go so fast. but THIS time #i think i did good.... huuoouhhhh.... comics are HARD art is HARD but i am HARDER. or something. OH YEAH I HAVE MORE ART THINGS #soda was RLY HARD FOR ME TO DRAW FOR A MINUTE..but i like where his design is now. i wanted his hair to be curly swirly.like soda fizz #i THINK thats all my thoughts for now. if u have thoughts u should spill them in the tags i looooove reading tttaaggsss #have a goodnight i gotta go to work soon. maybe. unless the casinos power goes out AGAIN. OR SEOMTHING... UUGHHH MY SCHEDULE IS IN SHAMBLES #I THOUGHT I WAS WORKIN 3 DAYS INA ROW SO I RENTED A WHOLE DAMN HOTEL BC THE JOB PLACE IS FAR AWAY.. I HAD TO CANCEL THE WHOLE RESERVATOn #annd im MMMMAD ABOUT IT!!! like ill get over it ofc BUT IM PEEVED!!!! IM INCONVIENIENCED AND GENTLY AGGRIVATED. BUT OVERALL FINE. #hope yalls weekend goes well. sleep well. if u get the chance to.

[fecto-forgo]

fermi paradox - it is the nature of intelligent life to destroy others.

(textless under cut)

#HI IM STILL OBSESSED W THE THEORY ELFILIS WAS FUELED BY PARANOIA SO BAD IT OVERSHADOWED THEIR COMPASSION #also um hi if youre reading the tags and you wanna ramble in a reblog abt this uhh dont bring up the theory forgo n elfilis are the #exact same identity i dont rly want it associated w my content of them bc i very much see them as separate #when youre split from one guy as an amalgamation of fear and trauma and anger and psychosis whos never gonna get the chance to experience #the joy of escape you so much crave because by chance youre the one that didnt escape n all that #analiceoriginal.png #fecto elfilis #fecto forgo #elfilis #elfilin #kinda!! #kirby #hoshi no kaabii #kirby fanart #kirby and the forgotten land #katfl #doing research for this was so funny it was just me reading up on paranoia and going 'lol me' #<- it is paranoid and also a forgo kinnie. #eyestrain cw #eyestrain #filling up the forgo tag by myself aint much but its honest work! #also found out today someone already came up w it before me i uh thought i was being original #atleast means i wasnt just blindly self indulgent by accident so winnnn??

[matoitech]

finally got enough ideas formed for these characters whose basic things have been sloshing around in my brain for a couple months to try and design them enough to introduce them today. also i wanted to design another lion. this is dominic and his daughter carmen! i wanted art of them interacting in this post but ive spent like five hours staring at my laptop so expect it some other time lol

little fun tag i want to add onto this, it occurred to me while deciding on carmens species and i talked abt it w averi cuz it was an interesting concept to me; hybrid animals are named using the first half of the fathers name, but carmen has two biological fathers ('fathers' only technically since only ones her DAD and present in her life), so out of her choices she calls herself a liger instead of a tigon bcuz her tiger parent wasnt involved and it would be confusing to random ppl if her dad and her didnt use it lol. the times she did meet him were probably like chance run-ins dominic had with him while she was there

#posting at almost 1 am babeyyy #my art #ocs #furry #anthro #lion #tiger #liger #i dont ever draw kids but i think she reads as one lol. look up pictures of lion cubs NOW #dominic will get a fullbody design .. when i feel like it #carmen had some stripes but they clashed too much w her cub spots which also dont rly read as cub spots but whatever #also it is possible that when dominic did run in2 his ex he thought dom was his ex gfs brother honestly #dom didnt know he was bi till after he started transitioning andhad the space to actually think abt it #so his ex might have more chance of just being some cishet dude. idk i dont know him

[unmanageably]

im off the thought that most of these warriors losses are due to coaching decisions (wrong lineups) and bad luck (injuries, dray out so no defense, random nba players turning into steph curry on the 3 line— grizzlies 3rd unit hitting TWENTY 3s on them today????) but today’s loss was just so indefensible and bad that its actually hilarious. the silly and stupid and pathetic 18 turnovers, icing out klay completely— just no one at all on the warriors trying to find him i mean 5 attempts until the 4th quarter are you serious— and then sitting steph and trying to run a “save us klay” lineup with 6 minutes left in the 4th when he’s ice cold due to your own offense choices its just very very hilarious. TJD butter fingers and Podz too many attempts not enough shots and a shit ton of fouling lol not their best game but i also think theyre just rookies and honestly have put a lot on their shoulders due to just. everything thats happened this year lol.

there’s things out of our control that we could be mad about (our lack of calls as usual and the 5v8 i mean the amount of FTA the grizzlies got esp considering we got to the paint more than they did so thats just ridiculous lol) but at the end of the day they didnt play hard enough and severely underestimated the grizzlies due to their injuries which was just. so so pathetic like whatever this loss the warriors truly did this to themselves

#when your own team gives u the ick 🕊️ #i think its funny how most people didnt even care to be mad anymore cuz theyre just so over this shit like omg #this team is so ass guys im crying #honestly not a big fan of podz at all and the way he’s playing has irritated me but i can still acknowledge that he’s just a rookie and #they ask way too much of him sometimes with these lineups i understand we’re plagued with injuries but draymond is back please stop giving #him ballhandling and playmaking duties when he cant find anyone for shit its ridic #klay thing really pissed me off but whatever we move #defense was… better but still sucked lol #at this point while i love and care for many of these players deeply this is just so unfixable get rid of everyone rebuild around the core #while theres still time and they still have a chance #i do think its funny how quick people are to point figures at the core being the problem when it is just so so far from the truth #rly just want them to rebuild around them and prove everyone wrong one more time #then i promise ill shut up forever lol. goddd i wont ask for anything else!!!!

[hereissomething]

puppet combo when there is woman

#decided to watch a playthru of murder house bc it had been awhile since id given puppet combo yet another chance #but man #they rly just dont have many interesting ideas and mostly rely on shock #oh but phuz u say thats what slashers are like #not the good ones! not ones that actually have something somewhat creative and entertaining! #honestly the only good thing i can rly recommend from murder house is clement panchout's great music #been listening to the end credits track a lot #but phuz the main char is wonan thats a diversity win #i guess!!!! #but also as a main char emma gets killed over and over and o #lol im just bitching bc for once the setup was promising and i was hooked... then the rest of the game happened🦆 #idk it got lazy it didnt pay off all the things it set up that could have been interesting and it makes me feel bad for even caring? #idk man theres only so far u can take the same gimmicks for so long. esp when it was stale the first time u tried it in night of the ripper #i feel like the ending was so wtf random that they thought it would make up for their unfocused storytelling. but alas it just sucked #are there other endings? did pc even care enough to go thru that kinda effort? i dunno but i kinda am done w puppet combos shit lol #phuz rambles

[yioh]

sometimes it makes me really annoyed how fast the male characters in genshin become favoured by fans lmfao it’s so unfair 😭

#male character has a sad past: fans make intricate soulful art and fanfics abt them for years #female character has sad past: fans are like awwwwww:( and then forget abt them #like i can GUARANTEE u kaveh will have content created for him even months and months after his release #shenhe content after her story quest??? crickets. silence. #i would even argue that shenhe’s story was WAAAAAAAY sadder and heartbreaking but 🙄 #idk it’s just so unfair that ppl aren’t as interested in women like ik this has been a pattern for YEARS and likely will never change but #it fills me w so much rage #women are always better they’re always more interesting GRRRRR #i feel like the reason i hate kaveh so much is because how unfairly he is loved by fans compared to other characters 😭 #everytime i look at him i am simply reminded of colourism and another missed chance for a sickass design #i’ll literally never be over how much sumeru broke my heart lol it was actually so gutting 😭👍 i didn’t realise the colourism was gonna be #THAT bad and i didnt realise the fans were THAT colourist racist AND stupid #truly will never forget the ‘they’re in the forest where there’s no sun so they’re all white as fuck’ argument #can u believe that was real #anyways . anyways #ik everyone is sick of me talking abt this LOL it just rly annoys me because i liked this game sm before 🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲🥲 and the fans r #everywhere so i get spammed w content of characters i Do Not Want To See 😭

[pinkseas]

my manager is WAY too fucking nice to me im gonna explode

#emeto tw #emeto cw #in tags -> #i started having a panic attack at work earlier but i didnt really get the chance to go in back and chill for a bit so it just got worse #like REALLY fucking bad worse than ive had in . at least years maybe Ever. i have not thrown up in over a decade now but #i started fucking dry heaving behind the register i REALLY thought i was going to be sick it was a close thing #i couldnt even call my coworker up i just had to fucking dip and pray she realized i was gone (she did thank fuck) #and then i was shaking really bad really freaking out still fucking dry heaving in the back of the store and it was just. #easily one of the worst experiences ive had in a LONG time like december will not leave me alone <- covid then appendicitis and now this WH #and my manager hadnt been in the store at the time but she came in thru the back and saw me and i was like hey haha funny story #and she was so concerned and told me to stay in back as long as i needed and that i could go home if i wanted to etc etc #ended up bringing my bag back for me and bringing me water and she checked in on me every 5-10 mins until my parents finally got there #she was rly nice and rly understanding and then the coworker i abandoned who is also kind of my manager. also came back #and SHE was ALSO super fucking sweet about it really concerned didnt want me to feel bad abt it (i feel so fucking bad abt it) #i did end up having to go home early bc. dear god. and i texted my manager just now asking if i could leave a bit earlier tomorrow #bc im supposed to have another 8 hour shift but i didnt even make it to 4 hours today and im rly nervy abt it happening again #and she straight up was like 'are you sure? i was genuinely planning on covering your shift myself' SHE DOESNT EVEN WORK UP FRONT #SHE'D BE GOING BACK AND FORTH BETWEEN THE REGISTER AND KITCHEN AND SHE'D BE THERE FOR AT LEAST OVER 12 HOURS #like okay. okay. when i texted my parents abt it dad told me 'its probably just nerves. try to push through it' #but my manager and coworkers r gonna be the sweetest kindest most understanding people about it. okay. sure. okay. #surely u see why i am exploding WHY ARE THEY SO NICE?????????? i feel so fucking guilty GOD #alyalyoxenfree

[caruliaa]

need to clean up my room so one last listen to speak now og version

#honestly not at all a big deal since its the same songs but still want to. rip the baby singing voice #(she was older than whe she recorded this album wtf do i mean baby singing voice. i j mean its noticably younger than her current voice😭) #also tht still the same songs comment one exception i honestly think there might be a chance shell change tht one btr line #didnt at first nd i dont rly wnat it but i saw ppl bring up tht she said tht part of this project is to reclaim the work that shes proud of #nd she has apparently stepped away from even rly acknowledging btr over the years so maybe ? idk #if she does its kinda eh i feel like the point of this is tht its rerecording the songs as they were but also like. #if she wants to change that line now for her own reasons i kinda get tht nd she shld do what she wants #w the extra three secs apparently added i def prefer the option tht she brought back the leave a message make it hot at the start tho #tht luce brought up when we were talking abt this on call the other day #anyway. speak now aggh. and i need to go actually clean my room now omg #flappy rambles

[ruluxe]

Tagged by @szivtalan! It's supposed to be the last line of a WIP but I haven't written in a really long time -- too sick and too busy unfortunately. I miss it! So thank you for tagging me in this so I can blow the dust off the last thing I wrote. I tweaked it a bit to post here but I'm still pretty rusty so forgive me if it's cringe.

Part of an au series I'm working on with @gojousfutureexmalewife! Thanks for being my inspiration for this, I love our au! Also this got rly long so I cut it off with a cliffhanger xo

The evening sun settles on Tim, illuminating him in soft amber, a glowing halo casting off his dark hair. He looks ethereal, Kon thinks, and nearly cracks up at the thought. Ethereal is not a word he'd ever use to describe Tim, but here he is looking beautiful against the dusky Kansas sky and it's the only thing Kon can think of.

His chest gets tight and a million scenarios run through his head of all the reasons he should not do this but before he can stop himself, Kon blurts, "I think I love you."

His hand claps against his mouth and he can feel the heat searing in his cheeks as Tim turns, perplexed, but says with a grin, "I know. I love you too."

The words aren't a revelation -- they're not meant in the way Kon means it, he knows. Of all times to be confessing, it shouldn't be now. Not when Tim came here to escape all that; to figure himself out after things didn't work out with Steph; after they didn't work out with Bernard. It wouldn't be fair. He came to Smallville to get away from it all. He came here because Kon is his friend, and friends aren't supposed to let their feelings complicate things. Friends aren't supposed to be selfish in their time of need. But if Kon is being honest, the moment feels right. And the words just keep on coming.

"No," Kon says through his palm. "I think I'm in love with you."

Tim's back is turned as he adjusts the bales of hay onto the truck and Kon doesn't start to panic that he can't see a reaction until Tim stops abruptly, midway through a haul. He straightens, and Kon covers his face quickly, his fingers sliding through the beads of sweat along his hairline. His heart is racing, blood rushing through his veins and thundering in his ears. He knows it's hot out but damn he feels on fire, like an insect trapped beneath a magnifying glass under the July sun.

Kon peaks through his fingers and Tim has straightened but he still hasn't turned around and the longer this draws out, the more Kon feels like he's going to be sick. Chalk it up to heatstroke if Ma asks. Do supers even get heatstroke?

"Tim?" Kon croaks, letting the hand covering his face drop to his side. "Tim, buddy -- please say something."

Tagging @gojousfutureexmalewife , @furiosity, @imaginarydragonling , @tenacityreturns , and anyone else who feels like doing this! Sorry I can't remember who writes anymore :')

#ru.writes #timkon #tim drake #conner kent #kon-el #dc comics #WIP #this doesnt even have a title but for context theyre 19 (or so) here #and tim has broken up with bernard (it was amicable and mutual) #and he just needed some time away from gotham so he went to visit kon on the farm #this is supposed to be more or less canon compliant/canon divergent but it was written before Kon's new series got announced #ANYWAY during this time Kon realized (sorta) that he was feeling some Things for Tim and didnt think he had a chance -- #didnt know if he wanted to have a chance? hes still a bit confused with his sexuality #ANYWAY #one day maybe ill finish it #UPDATE : this DOES have a title i forgot it when i made this post #its: your eyes in the dusk #but uh #mayeebbee thats kinda lame #BEEN RLY INSECURE ABT WRITING AS I GET INTO MY OLD AGE SRY

[arolesbianism]

Y'know now that I'm seeing a small handful of ppl actually giving a shit abt oni lore it's making it so much harder to not become a nerd emoji every five seconds anytime I see someone talk abt oni because I forget that every source of oni information is comically outdated

#rat rambles #oni posting #I have had my fair bit of mistenteripitations as well I have to fight myself every day to not go and delete a bunch of old posts #I wont delete them because they are a catalog of me getting into oni and thats rly important to me but also aghhhhhh #I was wrong abt so much shit that wasnt even because of misenterpretation just me being bad at reading lol #Im still learning new things every time I revisit the logs because I am that prone to misreading and glazing over things #which is why I Really need to finish up and post all the logs so that other ppl can double check with me lol #well in theory theres still not That many ppl interested in lore and Im not even sure if said ppl would see my catalog #but I still want ppl to have an actually complete source for this stuff so Ill probably start cleaning it up more tomorrow #I also will have to go double check that I didnt miss anything because it's very likely I did #it wont be too hard to clean up just annoying since its copy and pasted from the code #again its just abt cleaning it up so that its a bit more readable #I will keep in the name of each log in the files because I think thats information that ppl should be able to access #yknow in case you wanna read it in game without having to hunt it down #for context you can manually unlock a log in one of the oni folders where log unlocks are stored #you can just open it on a note app or smth and add the logs you wanna unlock and it should add them #I haven't done it myself but Ive done similar stuff and its not hard as long as you know the file names #not saying ppl Should cheat in the logs just that I want those who want to to have the option #now my biggest problem is that I dont actually know which logs are spaced out logs #idk maybe theres a way to tell in the files but chances are Ill just have to leave it unspecified for now #I also might end up digging up any set piece item descriptions since while the vast majotity of them are very much not lore relevant #I know at least 2 (3 To Me) are and if I include those and not others thatd just feel weird #its a similar thing I had with the artifacts where the line between lore relevant and not gets blurred the more I include #so yeah Ill start with just logs and artifacts and Maybe do setpiece building descriptions if I feel up to it #but if any of you find the jackie's office setpiece in your saves then know that you have access to both my favorite setpiece and one of my #favorite lines of text in the game Period #its maybe not that big of a deal but it is 2 Me Ok #and to be clear its not jackies desk although I do love that one too girlie is not over her divorce #anyways time to shower and think abt sploon toon some more since well yknow

[cerasum-chrysanthes]

i have an actual sunburn for the first time in like 15 years

#not too bad but still #i chilled with some people from the training!! #and we sat around in the sun for too long #we talked so much we didnt notice how the time flew by #im rly happy there #the people are very nice and im glad i got the chance to get to know some of them a little better today #so many stories #so many different lifes lived #im glad the week is over and i can rest for a bit now... im tired

[showing0resultsforsanity]

It rly sucks having a brain that holds onto the smallest blunders with searing conviction and leaves you still wanting to apologize for it months later when you know there's like a 99.2% chance whomever you want to apologize to forgot about it the day after it happened

#like it didnt occur to me in the moment #or i just didnt get the chance to apologize #and now even if i get a ''chance'' apologizing isnt rly gonna amt to anything bc like they dont care so would it rly be cathartic for me?? #why does knowing im the only one dwelling on it not make it any easier to let it go??? #UGH #overthinking #neurodivergent

[nomaishuttle]

HALFMOON DIED NOOOO NOOOOOOO KMS....

#halfmoon was my og deputy ohhohh..... poor coyotestar <- his mate #theyre sooo cutesy. coyotestars backstory is he (hes trans) was a stray cat in a city #and when he was likee maybe 4ish moons or somefing like that. a twoleg kid found him and adopted him #and then they moved away from the city a couple years later andhe was like I GOTTA GET OUTTA HERE!!! and ran away #into da forest. where he found riftclan #but it was ohhh so rough u see. there was a huge war going on basically #and they were like tch. a kittypet.. why would we let YOU join #and socks. his kittypet name was socks. ws like I can prove myself... and they were like idk.. #and then halfmoon was like I think we should give him a chance. and burntstar who was the leader was like ok... well let you stay here #essentially as a prisoner until you prove yourself.... #and literally like 2 days later HUGE attack on the camp #where so so much happened ppl died Fr. actually rly sad ill get into that in a minute #but basically socks slayed a little bit and was a huge part of how they were able to drive out the attackers. so they got their warriorname #(which was coyotespeck) soooyeah. and even tho they won that battle the attacks kept coming and eventually burntstar was like We gotta go!! #so they were abt to go oh and btw there r like 8 cats left of the clan. so. but they grab coyotespeck and theyre like I need 2 speak 2 u.. #and coyotespeck is like ok fs. nervous... bc they were like. it was a ton of battles but there was one big big battle at the endf #that killed the former deputy etc. oh also coyotespeck adopted 2 orphanedkits BTW. podkit and serpentkit.. they werent siblings but they #so it was. serpentkits mom was pregnant when the first attack happened and she ended up taking #2kits to take care of. from a queen who DIDNT die but she was very depressed. thats robinfreckle shes my fave everrr more on her later... #and then had her 2 kits a couple moons later one of whom was serpentkit #and then shortlyafter serpentkit and his brother were born podkit was born to a different queen. and then BATTLEE and podkits mom doid #so then serpentkits mom was the last queen left (aside from robinfreckle but she was likee still grieving but getting better) so she was #taking care of 5 kits AT ONCE. insanity keep slaying girl.. but unfortunately rather than slaying another battle the final battle this time #she doid. and both of robinfreckles kits also doid and serpentkits brother doid. #so it was just serpentkit and podkit left and coyotespeck was like Ive got this.. #bc robinfreckle. well she was starting to do better and was abt ready to take her kits back. but then they fucking Died... so she got worse #basically. but anyways so burntstar is like. coyotespeck.. i am on my last life. and coyotespecks like omg whattt... whattt i thought you #had a couple left whatt.. and burntstars like yeah last one. and my deputy was kilt. and were abt to go on a long arduous journey to find #a new home.. and coyotespeck is like . oh gd . yeah. and burntstars like. you have proven yrself Will u be my new deputy. know that i will #prolly die b4 we get there lols. and coyotespeck is like erm erm erm ive only been here for 6 moons!! but agrees.

[touyaspeach]

Im so sorry for your loss, sending love your way ❤️

Thank you baby♡

I'll get through it, it's not the first time I've lost a lot of family in a short span of time.

#sweet talkin #that sounds rly sad in retrospect #but its true #i wont go into detail tho lmao #im just really sad and i miss her and i didnt even get the chance to say goodbye bc kt happened suddenly #and i dont know how to deal with this so ill probably just work and work and work like i always do when Bad Things happen

[vote2]

Thinking of karin again tonight..... how can she be my fave if her least fave food is gyouza.....

#such a hater i cant understand her there at all. fave food okonomiyaki like okay whatver <- ate it once and didnt rly like it #shes so wondeful ily messed up 16 year old girl..... she should have gotten more chances to lie and stab people...... #does she get to kill on screen at all i dont thjnk so.... i hold the dozens of graves sasuke and suigetsu pass outside the hideout #close to my heart... sasuke fake casually bringing up that there are much less prisoners than the #last time he visited..... #i have no idea if the character profiles were anything kishi wrote or just anime producers ppl #ik some from like part one characters are from the first one or two databooks but idk abt like the rest #they are true and canon in my heart though ofc ofc. karin perfume collecting hobby ilyyyy