#so fucking frustrated

[clingylilhoneybee]

They should invent a family conflict that doesn’t trigger you to the extent that it does with your worst family member regardless of which family member is involved

#I hate it!!!!!!!!!!!!! #at least with my shit parent I can hit the conflict point of ‘fuck it I’m not dealing with you!’ #but I’m having a whole thing with one of my siblings #and I’m equally triggered by the conflict #so fucking frustrated #but I actually love and care for them #so I cannot say fuck it #and instead have to work through big intense feelings in a healthy way #because conflict resolution is actually a possibility with them #and they have the empathy to actually see my perspective and hopefully not just stay stuck in being a dick #UGH THIS IS SO MUCH HARDER #I got so good at learning when to say fuck it #whole new thing to learn when we don’t say fuck it

[mandiemegatron]

*starting at the "parcel delivered" email*

Me:

#mandie vents #I JUST WANT MY LAW SWEATER 😭😭😭😭😭 #I SPENT MY LAST DIMES ON THIS FUCKING SWEATER- LITERALLY SCRAPED UP EVERY LAST CENT I HAD TO TREAT MYSELF #if my upstairs neighbours dont have it - im actually going to fucking cry #i do not have another 80 bucks to spend on Law swag 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 i just wanted to treat myself ffs #goddamn it all 😭😭😭😭😭😭 #delete later #so fucking frustrated

[thirrith]

is there a reason why universities in the uk are so much slower at replying to emails than in hk

#life #got an email JUST NOW that says 'we're emailing you for the first time about this form you need to fill BEFORE 1 JULY' #there's also this another email exchange that took me about two whole months to (kinda) resolve an issue and get a promise of getting back #to me 'in the coming weeks'. well. it's been two weeks #so fucking frustrated #my type of passport is taking longer and becoming harder getting visas no thanks to [redacted] & fucked up international relations nowadays #this will literally affect my fucking everything #fuck i wish i wasn't born where i was born sometimes #should i just stay in hk and teach in a secondary school. pays better than being in higher-ed. fuck

[ear-motif]

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#so fucking frustrated #still too slow and misunderstanding or forgetting onvious shit at work #its been like 7 months. what the fuck #why do i still suck so bad #im trying my best but it doesnt mayter bc i still suck so fucking bad!!!!

[milflewis]

i am about to murder someone and not in a cute way. there will be blood and tears and screaming

#so fucking frustrated #im supposed to be doing work w someone and they Know that i need their help and they also need help ??? but they’re not ducking responding #to my texts ??? like im so confused and pissed off and we fail this lab if we don’t have these done and i just. scream #i will bite someone fingers off it’s not even funny #pls it’s so hard to annoy me and i don’t get stressed easily but i am. Vibrating rn #it’s fine :) so fine :)

[yessoupy]

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#scream #so fucking frustrated #I don't THINK it's the heat in my classroom and outside and in the car

[smolwitch]

I'm so frustrated with work rn

so, the situation is as follows: I have hourly targets to hit for productivity. we are supposed to start tidying up no sooner than 5 minutes before clock-off time.

yesterday, I finished my targets a little early and started tidying up 10 minutes before clock-off time. no problem, right?

the problem: supervisor saw me and another guy tidying up "too early" and decided that must mean we hadn't managed to hit out target, because targets are supposed to be tailored pretty much to the minute (impossible, but w/e) so he docked us on our targets for starting to tidy too early.

so now I'm torn. do I smash every fucking target today with time to spare and risk getting my targets made higher? or do I keep firing the rent-lowering gunshots that is pretending yo miss a target and bite my tongue?

in any case, I'm going to dawdle so fucking much at the end of the day because my targets will all be hit by 15 mins to clock-off. I'm gonna waste my fucking time. cause that's what they want, apparently.

#frustrated #so fucking frustrated #im so mad about it #and then the spike on my (new!!!! fresh!!!!) piercing came off while i was eating #but thats a whole other fucking story #uuuugggghhhh

[blood-and-better-honey]

for the love of god pls stop making fun of people who are “picky eaters”. i cannot even begin to explain how awful it is to have extreme sensitivity to food tastes, textures, and smells. trust me, i WISH i could eat these foods but the instant nausea and anxiety is not worth it. do you think picky eaters love being shamed and humiliated and treated like children? do you think that we love having to explain why we won’t eat a certain food??? no it’s fucking embarrassing and the world would be a better place if everyone would just mind their business about what other people eat

#so fucking frustrated #i fucking hate being a full adult and having to explain to people why i don’t eat certain things #actually autistic #it speaks #food mention

[diabetesnscoliosis]

"It's hard making friends after 25" bro it's hard making friends since being fucking born. I'm not socially inept I just keep letting myself get duped by self absorbed people

#so fucking frustrated #my ramblings #and its kicked off the depression again ngl

[inkskinned]

at some point it's just like. do they even fucking like the thing they're asking AI to make? "oh we'll just use AI for all the scripts" "we'll just use AI for art" "no worries AI can write this book" "oh, AI could easily design this"

like... it's so clear they've never stood in the middle of an art museum and felt like crying, looking at a piece that somehow cuts into your marrow even though the artist and you are separated by space and time. they've never looked at a poem - once, twice, three times - just because the words feel like a fired gun, something too-close, clanging behind your eyes. they've never gotten to the end of the movie and had to arrive, blinking, back into their body, laughing a little because they were holding their breath without realizing.

"oh AI can mimic style" "AI can mimic emotion" "AI can mimic you and your job is almost gone, kid."

... how do i explain to you - you can make AI that does a perfect job of imitating me. you could disseminate it through the entire world and make so much money, using my works and my ideas and my everything.

and i'd still keep writing.

i don't know there's a word for it. in high school, we become aware that the way we feel about our artform is a cliche - it's like breathing. over and over, artists all feel the same thing. "i write because i need to" and "my music is how i speak" and "i make art because it's either that or i stop existing." it is such a common experience, the violence and immediacy we mean behind it is like breathing to me - comes out like a useless understatement. it's a cliche because we all feel it, not because the experience isn't actually persistent. so many of us have this ... fluttering urgency behind our ribs.

i'm not doing it for the money. for a star on the ground in some city i've never visited. i am doing it because when i was seven i started taking notebooks with me on walks. i am doing it because in second grade i wrote a poem and stood up in front of my whole class to read it out while i shook with nerves. i am doing it because i spent high school scribbling all my feelings down. i am doing it for the 16 year old me and the 18 year old me and the today-me, how we can never put the pen down. you can take me down to a subatomic layer, eviscerate me - and never find the source of it; it is of me. when i was 19 i named this blog inkskinned because i was dramatic and lonely and it felt like the only thing that was actually permanently-true about me was that this is what is inside of me, that the words come up over everything, coat everything, bloom their little twilight arias into every nook and corner and alley

"we're gonna replace you". that is okay. you think that i am writing to fill a space. that someone said JOB OPENING: Writer Needed, and i wrote to answer. you think one raindrop replaces another, and i think they're both just falling. you think art has a place, that is simply arrives on walls when it is needed, that is only ever on demand, perfect, easily requested. you see "audience spending" and "marketability" and "multi-line merch opportunity"

and i see a kid drowning. i am writing to make her a boat. i am writing because what used to be a river raft has long become a fully-rigged ship. i am writing because you can fucking rip this out of my cold dead clammy hands and i will still come back as a ghost and i will still be penning poems about it.

it isn't even love. the word we use the most i think is "passion". devotion, obsession, necessity. my favorite little fact about the magic of artists - "abracadabra" means i create as i speak. we make because it sluices out of us. because we look down and our hands are somehow already busy. because it was the first thing we knew and it is our backbone and heartbreak and everything. because we have given up well-paying jobs and a "real life" and the approval of our parents. we create because - the cliche again. it's like breathing. we create because we must.

you create because you're greedy.

#every time someones like ''AI will replace u" im like. u will have to fucking KILL ME #there is no replacement here bc i am not filling a position. i am just writing #and the writing is what i need to be doing #writeblr #this probably doesn't make sense bc its sooo frustrating i rarely speak it the way i want to #edited for the typo wrote it and then was late to a meeting lol #i love u people who mention my typos genuinely bc i don't always catch them!!!! :) it is doing me a genuine favor!!! #my friend says i should tell you ''thank you beta editors'' but i don't know what that means #i made her promise it isn't a wolf fanfiction thing. so if it IS a wolf thing she is DEAD to me (just kidding i love her) #hey PS PS PS ??? if ur reading this thinking what it's saying is ''i am financially capable of losing this'' ur reading it wrong #i write for free. i always have. i have worked 5-7 jobs at once to make ends meet. #i did not grow up with access or money. i did not grow up with connections or like some kind of excuse #i grew up and worked my fucking ASS OFF. and i STILL!!! wrote!!! on the side!!! because i didn't know how not to!!! #i do not write for money!!!! i write because i fuckken NEED TO #i could be in the fucking desert i could be in the fuckken tundra i could be in total darkness #and i would still be writing pretentious angsty poetry about it #im not in any way saying it's a good thing. i'm not in any way implying that they're NOT tryna kill us #i'm saying. you could take away our jobs and we could go hungry and we could suffer #and from that suffering (if i know us) we'd still fuckin make art. #i would LOVE to be able to make money doing this! i never have been able to. but i don't NEED to. i will find a way to make my life work #even if it means being miserable #but i will not give up this thing. for the whole world.

[wldcctss]

one, never have i ever s4 was pure fucking magic and i cried through the entire fucking thing. two, just gonna fall apart from these brain zaps, it's been like a month now/???? i think??? and it's getting to my ears now and i just..i can't kfdskdfksjlfdjkslfdsjklfkdjlsfdsljkdfsjklfdsljk

#me rambling #so fucking frustrated

[labradoritelullabies]

... I'm apparently very particular

To the point of tears I guess

#I'm frustrated #so fucking frustrated #I haye having emotions

[toerrishumansodontbeone]

gee it sure would be nice to have a cat.................. .....

#im just #so fucking frustrated #the local animal shelter fucking hates me for being a poorly speaking immigrant so im basically forever barred from showing my face there:) #and DO YOU KNOW how fucking rare it is to find a cat I dont have to travel like 3+ hours just to meet #thats a whole fucking day n I dont have a whole lot of days that are 100% free #and OF COURSE im too late on all the fancy cats #theyre just now already selling off their last batches of kittens Y_Y #theres only so many in my area #mad bcus the one cat that was actually up for grabs in my city I didnt immediately inquire abt #n now the lady ofc isnt answering me so I fear he has probably been claimed too #I dont like juggling so many things all at once ughhhhh im so tired #vermin chat

[squuote]

this was meant for an ask my friend sent about what if stanley wasn't actually stanley's name but tumblr DELETED IT and now i am pissed take this comic from my hands NEOW

#the stanley parable #the stanley parable ultra deluxe #tspud #tsp #crows art #GUUUUUHHHHH #THE ASK WAS STILL THERE YESTERDAY WHAT THE FUCK!!!!!!!!!! #<- not actually super angry but!!!!!! frustrating!!!!!!! #anyway it was a silly fun ask and i loved it a lot >:-( so i drew a comic #just took me forever to actually get to #but here it is. in the flesh #now i am gonna go angrily drink ginger beer

[paranoidkid]

i LOOOOOVE having a sensitive stomach because of medication yessss I love not being able to eat a whole muffin SLAYYYY

#.txt #so fucking frustrated

[miwtual]

im so fucking tired of the disrespect gifmakers get on the gifmaker website

#kai.txt #negativity tw #(sorry these are gonna be a lot of tags. i have a lot of feelings and i dont know where else to put them) #we make gifs and nobody reblogs them #when they do get reblogged all people want to tell you is that your gifs arent good enough to them and rip it to shreds #'you're missing x' 'why didnt you do y' 'if i made this i would have abc' 'hey op ur wrong and this is why' 'i dont like this op' #reposters dont even reblog your fucking gifset but they'll save your gifs to repost later asking for how to do something #that they could have asked you how to do in the fucking first place #we reblog ourselves constantly because nobody else will and maybe to make our work look like it has more notes than it does #to make ourselves feel better about the lack of interaction we're getting #and then when we TALK about this frustration we have. people who are too afraid to say it to our faces #go on anon in our askboxes and tell us how we're somehow selfish for wanting people to interact with the sets #that we spent time on. hours. days. WEEKS in some cases #or we get anons who tell us the reason we dont have notes are because we arent good at gifmaking in the first place #but this is all on anon. because they're too scared to tell it to our faces #they're too scared for us to see that they ARENT a gifmaker and that they dont know how to do it any better either #they dont see us as people doing something we love as a hobby. they see us as content machines that dance like court jesters #im just so fucking tired of the disrespect #and this sentiment goes for more than just gifmakers. graphicmakers. artists. literally any creative hobby shared on this site #we get treated like shit and for what? literally for fucking what.