#so I added the next part too

[bbcphile]

WIP Wednesday

It's somehow Wednesday again! Enjoy DFS and FDB trying to comfort LLH during a nightmare.

(You can find more excerpts here.)

A-Fei cut himself off, head whipping around to look at Li Lianhua. “Xiangyi?” All trace of the storm had vanished, leaving only worry in its wake.

Fang Duobing sat bolt upright. “What’s wrong?” 

Li Lianhua’s hand twitched.

Huli Jing whined and shifted to drape herself across Li Lianhua’s knees.

“Where’s the incense?” a-Fei snapped, glancing frantically around the room.

“What?”

“Incense,” a-Fei bit out. “From the parcel. Find it. Now.”

Fang Duobing bit back his demand for details. “On it,” he said instead, yanking the parcel from his robe and tugging at the strings. Damn it, why had he tied them so tightly?

“Xiangyi, it’s alright,” a-Fei said, his gruff voice gentled. He tapped Li Lianhua’s pulse point repeatedly. “You’re in Lotus Tower. You’re safe. It’s time to wake up.”

A nightmare? He should have known. Of course a-Fei would have something for treating them, and of course he wouldn’t have wanted to talk about–

“–No,” Li Lianhua mumbled, “no, don’t–”

“You’re safe, Xiangyi,” a-Fei said more urgently, squeezing his wrist and giving it a shake. You’re free. Now stop fighting and open your eyes!”

Oh, shit, if he was dreaming of whatever happened earlier, and he tried to destroy his heart meridian again–

“–I can’t wake him up,” a-Fei hissed. “Hurry.”

“Understood.” Fuck it. Fang Duobing snapped the string in half and tore the packaging open. Dried herbs spilled on the ground like tears. 

“Don’t do this,” Li Lianhua begged, his voice breaking.

“It’s not real,” a-Fei said, gripping his shoulder, “whatever you’re seeing, you already survived it. It can’t hurt you. Follow my voice and open your eyes.”

Duobing’s fingertips finally bumped something long and thin. “Found it,” he said, jumping to his feet. Fuck, where was the incense burner? He’d stowed it when he’d driven the Lotus Tower here, which meant it was–“The kitchen. Hang on, Xiaohua’er,” he said, sprinting to the front of the Lotus Tower.

Fuck fuck fuck. He yanked cabinet drawers open, feeling around the pots and pans, until–

“–I got it,” he called out, rushing back into the room, shoving the incense stick into the burner as he went. 

A-Fei had shifted to his knees, his dao abandoned on the bed, and had one hand splayed over Xiaohua’s chest, preemptively radiating qi, and the other wrapped around his wrist, fingertips to pulse, hovering close to his lips. “Light it,” he snapped, not taking his eyes from Xiaohua. “Xiangyi,” he murmured, “Lianhua. Xiaohua. I’m here. Xiaobao’s here. No one else. We won’t let anyone hurt you again. It’s a dream, alright? Just a dream. Open your eyes.” 

Fang Duobing shoved some clutter off the nightstand, slammed the burner in the newly cleared space, and fumbled in his robe for his flame stick.

Xiaohua thrashed wildly. “Stop! Please stop!”

Fang Duobing lit the incense, capped the flame stick, tossed it somewhere, and rushed to the bed. “It’s ready!” he said, holding it out to a-Fei.

“Bring it here,” a-Fei said, twisting to the side to make space while still keeping a hand on Xiaohua’s heart. 

Fang Duobing sat on the edge of the bed, against Xiaohua’s hip, hovering the incense burner over Xiaohua’s chest, and tried to waft the fumes closer with his free hand. “Like this?”

 “Let me go,” Xiaohua sobbed, “Please, Shiniang, let me go!!”

Wait, then the healer was his shiniang? Shit, of course, why hadn’t he thought of that before? That would explain everything–

–Why did a-Fei look like he’d just been stabbed? 

“A-Fei?” he whispered.

A-Fei blinked, and the raw devastation on his face turned into cold, consuming rage. “She’s not here. We won’t let her hurt you again.”

Oh. Oh no.

“It’s ok, Xiaohua’er,” Fang Duobing said. “We won’t let anything happen to her.”

A-Fei shot him a look of such abject hatred Fang Duobing was vaguely surprised he didn’t gut him with his dao on the spot.

“Trust me,” Fang Duobing mouthed at him. “We won’t let her sacrifice herself for you. We promise.” He grabbed Xiaohua’s free hand and squeezed it. “You saved her, ok? You’re both safe. No one has to die. You’ve done enough. You can rest now, alright? Just breathe. That’s it. Nice, deep breaths.” 

He stroked Xiaohua’s hand, keeping up a steady stream of encouraging murmurs, until the faint tremors coursing through his arms had stopped, until his breath evened out, until his face had once again gone slack with restful sleep.

Fang Duobing gave Xiaohua’s hand another squeeze, placed it carefully back on top of the blanket, and forced himself to release it. “Sleep well, Xiaohua’er,” he whispered, tucking a flyaway wisp of hair behind Xiaohua’s ear.

A-Fei hadn’t made a sound since Fang Duobing had started speaking, other than the rustle of fabric when he changed position, removed his hand from Li Lianhua’s chest, and slipped back into his earlier post in the corner. 

Maybe his headache was acting up again?

A-Fei looked mostly normal: the dao was back on his lap, his legs were crossed, and he seemed to be meditating again. The only difference from earlier was that now he was holding Li Lianhua’s wrist in both hands, and his head was ever so slightly bowed over it.

He thought back on how gutted and horrified a-Fei had looked when Li Lianhua had shouted his Shiniang’s name. How furious he’d been when Duobing had promised to keep her safe.

There was no way he was as fine as he was pretending to be.

#mysterious lotus casebook #Di feisheng #Fang duobing #Li Lianhua #mlc fic #WIP wednesday #lotus trio #difanghua #sorry LLH #If you saw an earlier version of this that ended after the a-fei being stabbed line #that's because I just decided I didn't want this excerpt to be all hurt and no comfort #so I added the next part too #Enjoy!

[off-brand-adorabbit]

Tress scratched the best itch for me, I’ve been craving a good fairy tale and it was just perfect. I kept slipping so hard into the fairy tale aspects that I kept getting caught by surprise whenever a cosmere thing stopped beating around the bush and revealed itself, actually. While I’m sure that wasn’t fully the intention, it was a really fun way to read some brandermansanderman coming fresh off of sunlit man and how intensely locked in I was with the Connections. Genuinely Tress is such a fun little romp. I love girls who sail in fucked up seas and this is a genre I want more of please thank you.

#it was so much fun I did have my suspicions about a few things because of fairy tale tropes but I didn’t get all of them! #I was taken by surprise by many things! #not...not the glowing woman being elantrian I did get that one especially with the floor map #I wonder if that changes actually #like does her cockship make aon-Connecting maps of the places she goes to so she can fuck around with locals? #what’s with space travel resulting in callus dicks manipulating the local planetary populations? #is this related to one of the many groups fucking about with the cosmere or is it just the nature of the people funding these excursions? #will zellion ever have sex? #all these questions and more to be added next year in bransandermanderson strikes again part five of ten alphabet assemble #I want to see the other seas now though ): the worlds are so cool that I’m never quite ready to say goodbye #I want to linger between the pages and sift the words between my fingers like sun-warmed sand #it feels too soon to say goodbye #cosmere #tress of the emerald sea #tress of the emerald sea spoilers

[tj-crochets]

An experiment with painting on paper instead of fabric!

Idk why I keep painting sunset-ish scenes, but I’m having fun lol

#painting #I might’ve added too more than the optimal number of clouds #but considering I did not paint from a reference picture and also don’t know what I’m doing #I think I’m doing pretty well! next time I think I might try to paint a quilt? #idk if I’ll enjoy that though I think my favorite part of painting might be the colors #not so much the precision work #side note if anyone is reading this tags who can paint and/or draw a stack of quilts in color #and is taking commissions please let me know #I’d love to have art of a stack of my quilts

[xerves]

i love cj!evelin they're so gender

#cloudjumpers #cloudjumpers au #warning for the next tags: i just start rambling #i saw vik post their ref sheet a while back somewhere and i just went oh em gee? new blorbo obtained? #i didnt read the comic at that time time though i didnt know jackshit about cjau im sorry im late to things #i bingeread it last night cuz i was bored as hell and was like hey. didnt i say i wanted to draw eve. hm. and so i got to scribbling #im not even into tmc anymore but some aus just get a grip on me help #i also havent been drawing much in recent months so i tried to get back into the groove #so i tried to use this absolutely iconic to my brand brush of mine again cuz coincidentally i haven't used it in a hot minute #but i kinda just. went insane with it i think. #ALSO I WAS LISTENING TO JJBA STONE OCEAN OST DURING THIS AND I THINK YOU CAN SEE IT IN THE ARTSTYLE CRYINFFFF #tbh though. i think eve would like jolyne as a character........... #sorry sorry my autism. i have a jojo's bizarre adventure special interest #btw i added some headcanons have fun looking for them #the wing isn't one of them though that was just a stylistic choice #like. yknow how some people make some part of the body lighter cuz it's like not in the front ? yeah i guess i was trying to do that #fyi im not posting this to twt :saluting_face: #maybe i will on priv or something idk i'll see #xerv signing out now i talked too much

[gifti3]

happy bday to me! 🎂🥳🎉

for this very special day i wanted to list and compare the presents and interactions i got in the mobile games ive been playing consistently lmao

under cut cause the pics are big

Time Princess A letter with 10 golden tickets, 100 stamina, and 10000 coins

Obey Me! Nightbringer 1 UR+, UR, and SSR Joker each 3 Demon Vouchers 30 Karma Points 200 AP 30000 Grim 50 Devil Points Along with a bday video, birthday calls from the characters throughout the day and a UR guarantee for a 10 pull There's half-off on Devil Tree unlocks There's also special birthday dialogue in the Surprise Guests: -- the first Surprise Guest I did gave me 30 more Devil Points -- and you can press anywhere on the boys and get max hearts :]

What in HELL is Bad They haven't implemented bday stuff yet so nothing (´。＿。｀)

Twisted Wonderland A Happy Birthday from the character you have set as your favorite card and a Tenfold Key Set (for rolls)

and last but not least.....*drum roll* 🥁🥁🥁 Love and Deepsace! Special Happy Birthdays from each guy which include them singing happy birthday to you :3 Birthday Dialogue on the home screen Presents from each one (items you can use to decorate their desks) 500 Diamonds 5 Empyrean Wishes 1 Bottle of Wishes: SSR 1 Energy Capsule: Powerful And 2 birthday stickers

#so whb is technically in last place but since its a newer game ill let it pass this year #so time princess is next in line for last place #its a fine gift but since they dont have any characters saying happy birthday it doesnt do much for me #nightbringer kinda surprised me! #i was expecting a call and some devil points #but this is a lot more then i expected :3c #also i go crazy for free UR+ Jokers #i was thinking of adding regular obey me but decided to skip it since i only really just log in for dailies for the most part #(and i dont even do that everyday if im not feeling it) #also theyre practically the same minus the calls (but i have the old ones that i havent listened to yet still) #twst was cute nothing too crazy #(thank you for ur presence lilia) #i liked love and deepspaces happy bdays from the characters a lot because they sang lmao 😭 #also i feel very special from them saying all this nice stuff about hoping that i get what i want and that i stay healthy and stuff dwsiiws #it feels like obey me has more in character interactions BUT when i think it about it more #deepspace has the models actually hand you gifts #also the moment you have with the characters feels more personal #but tbf theres more obey me characters and you do get those calls throughout the whole day! (also they give more stuff imo) #so i cant really pick which one i liked more :d #dutp #obey me nightbringer #twisted wonderland #love and deepspace #im now 26.... #oh jeez #long post #still doing the same shit i was doing in middle school uashusha (i mean playing dating games) #my personality has refined over the years tho #anyways im gonna celebrate tomorrow with my family :] #this is the end of my post tho ill probably post about the asmo phone call later

[solvicrafts]

Funniest out-of-context Skyrim screenshot of the week:

I installed an Oldrim mod that adds Dragonlance and Forgotten Realms characters into the game as followers and completely forgot about it since I ended up getting BG3 and playing that instead. Fast forward to last night, I'm clearing out Meridia's temple and I run into Zaknafein.

I also have the Sea Dragon ship, and since I didn't want to have another follower with me blocking doorways, I just recruited him into my crew. Poor bastard.

#next time I play I'm gonna have to get better armor for sword dad #I think Gomp and Liriel are in this mod too #as are Jarlaxle and Artemis #Drizzt is too but his hair textures aren't working :( #I thought I was DONE with this game after the last update but I just kinda got REALLY. FUCKING. STUBBORN. #about not wanting to lose out on a game I like because the company decided to spontaneously fuck it all up with a shit update #so yay my game is fixed and now I have loads of characters to annoy :) #shame the mod author never added more drow... I'd love to have Kimmuriel tag along with us. ah well. #I'll settle for Garan Marethi #pour one out for Zak being part of my ship's crew #he has NO idea what he just agreed to lol

[toastsnaffler]

my flatmate asking me the day before "do u want to hang out w me and [old friend] everyone else cancelled so I can invite u now" is not the heartfelt offer she thinks it is :^/

#what am i sloppy seconds. fuck off man #i like them both but im not in the place to socialise rn + also it just feels kinda mean. theyve had these plans for weeks #and i wasnt invited bc some of their other friends (who ive never met) didnt want me there which is fair enough ig #even tho their friends complained abt someone else bringing her bf but they both blocked the veto for that. pretty sure ik them- #better than some guy but whatever. i dont rly like their friends anyway bc they only ever have bad things to say abt them #like damn they sound like they have the emotional range of toddlers plus theyre all into shit like genshin. so i wasnt fazed abt it #hope they have a nice time etc but wow sure now theyve cancelled the day before u can invite me as a replacement. yeah thatll do wonders #for the social and self esteem issues i have around being single use and disposable and always on the outside etc yippee #the thing is if i go theyll just talk to each other anyway and leave me to be the fly on the wall like they always do. they dont want #me there they just want an audience i literally have nothing else to contribute i dont think they even like me that much so! #anyway complaint over. genuinely i hope they have a nice time im just annoyed at being treated like that + probably projecting a bit too #its not like i could go if i wanted to anyway bc i have shit to sort out + mail to wait for. maybe next time invite me from the start huh #we had another old friend visit last weekend but those plans were really made without me too and i was just added bc i Live Here so its #kind of unavoidable. but oh well whatever it was nice to see them either way #im too depressed rn to fix my social life or even rely on existing coping strategies in social situations so im having to temporarily #cut it back bc i get too trigger sensitive + dont want to hurt myself or others bc of an arbitrary emotional overreaction #its usually one of the first things to go when im Going Thru It not in a self isolating way but more bc its one of the hardest things #for me to maintain + im pretty self sufficient so its not absolutely crucial. like of course i love my friends but socialising is a #want not a need yknow. eating/sleeping/exercising/hygiene are all more fundamental parts of the engine so i gotta prioritise them #and it sucks but ill survive. anyway sorry for venting on everyones dash so early in the morning i woke up grumpy 👎 #i need to get breakfast and then go out. ughhhhhhh okay. #.vent

[whump-queen]

HELLO!!! I love ur whumps can you add me to the general whump tag list?

aaaahh tysm!!!! highkey seeing you in my notes got me opening the Kane & Raiza masterdoc again,,, 👀👀

#*rubbing my lil raccoon hands together* #let’s see what we can FIRE UP #I rly wanna post the next part it’s so angsty ohmygod #we’re nearing Raiza Mental Breakdown O’Clock in a few chaps and agghhh our man is so fucking unstable I love ittt #i’ll add you to the general whump taglist unless you specify otherwise! #you’ll get tagged in two masterlists but it’s the same taglist #had to split it up cuz of tumblrs link limit — too many links oh nooo *victorian fainting pose* #eee!!!!! this ask made me so happy thank uuuu!!! #answered asks #akias asks #if anyones ever asked to be added to the taglist and i’ve missed the notification and haven’t added you pls lmk <33 #swear i’ve lost a few of those in the notes so just lmk cuz things get lost sometimes #may be slow w message replies today cuz I got a lot of stuff to do now that i’ve got my meds back and my brain works a lil better #also I do actually want to Post The Comtent so eee

[chloenadine]

not 2 be controversial but I don't think I like the tl*u show

#ive had a day to think about it and idk #like some parts were good but other parts were meh #like if we're talking about it being one of the better video game adaptations that yeah its ok #is it like the most amazing piece of media ever? idk #I wrote out a whole thing and then erased bc it was kinda nonsensical and rambling and stuff #but basically like #I feel like there was too much time spent on adding extra bg info and not enough on actual canon scenes #and the bg info and world building was kinda weak?? #obv I was expecting context and extra info and an expanded story but #didn't tie into the already existing story well #some of the characterizations felt off to me #weirdly paced and weird transitions #etc etc #d.txt #i didnt go into this as a hater like i was kinda excited but i am one anyway #I went through the tag and only saw like 1 person who didn't like it so idk #maybe I'll feel differently next episode the trailer looked more interesting #or maybe im just not good with things that are reboots or adaptations or whatever #idk im tired snzzz

[kuiinncedes]

not this book im reading for class getting me so emotional hello

#if this character dies idk if he will but if he dies i just won't read the rest of the book lmfao jk #bruh this like perspective section ends with him 'feeling surprisingly at peace' and 'sleep coming with surprising ease' or something #sir pls don't die rn 😭 im glad ur peaceful and shit and happy and shit but if u die rn i never will be again #naur bc fr this is tthe only fucking character i care about in this whole book XD #but it's still rly interesting the other characters are just not as likable lmfaooo not likable at all tbh #KENJI PLS STAY ALIVE ISTG #the book is no no boy by john okada about a japanese guy who comes home after 2 yrs of internment and 2 yrs of prison bc he said no to #joining the army and the main character guy has a lot of monologues and stuff lol and like inner thoughts #understandably so but he's hard to like . kenji tho <333 #pls kenji literally wake up or i will fail this class i'l just have to go up to my prof ad be like actually i was gonna read the book #i promise but then kenji died and he was the only bitch i cared about and also i just cared about him too much and i couldn't go on so #anyway ..... let's see what happens i honestly have no idea but my gut feeling is telling me this bitch is dying rn 😭😭😭😭 #the next part is from his father's pov #if he dies i will simply pretend it is not true #jeanne talks #not rly being emotional over that tho this scene i just read btwn kenji and his father i was literally so 🥺🥺🥺🥺 #and ending w peaceful sleep it was also like a very like fulfilling/closure-y scene so .. IDC DON'T DIE BITCH #ok ok anyway . stop procrastinating continuing lol or if ur gonna procrastinate do some math hw instead 😭 #lmfao he doesn't even nneed to die for me to not finish the book apparently im just never gonna continue XD #if i don't continue he cant die <3 #prof: WHY DIDNT U FINISH THE BOOK me: I DIDN'T WANT KENJI TO DIE prof: he doesnt fucking die u stupid bitch #manifesting kenji u better not fucking die u stupid bitch #only bitch i respect except there was one slightly weird thing he did lol but he had good intentions kdgfkdfh #honestly i have other hw that's slightly more pressing but . continuing now #after i pee actually yes bc u all needed to know this lol #honestly i think im too influenced by like modern ya books and stuff lol i mean having that being most of what i read XD #but like this book is very light on the plot lmfao so mr okada sir keep that going no plot we don't need kenji to die <3 #AND IT'S RIGHT BEFORE LIKE A CELEBRATORY FAMILY DINNER LITERALLY im gonna

[bean-pronounced-bawn]

I know I don't have the energy for it all the time but I love when I cook for myself. 1) it's sexy, 2) I'm not as bad of a cook as I always say I am, and 3) I always make a lot of food, so either I have food for several days or, if I'm in a feeding mood, I can eat a lot at once

#i went to the store today with 3 recipes in mind for this week #today I made a chicken apple salad thing bc I bought too much celery last time I got groceries and the recipe was easy and used celery #and goddamn #first off I made like double what the revipe called for when the recipe serves 4-5 people #second I added a lot more mayo than the recipe called for so it was d e n s e #and third it was actually pretty damn good #i had a lot of it #and then I had strawberries dipped in chocolate sauce and ice cream for dessert #and juice with the meal bc why tf not #and I am satisfied #i have not been this satisfied in a while #like not even takeout has been able to satisfy me like this #plus there's tons left over so I've got food for tomorrow and part of next week #plus ingredients for the two other recipes I planned for #anyway

[magicalgirlsasuke]

i don’t get why folk r complaining about the lack of screentime for the girls and the lack of development of the boys in the same breath when the writers were actually catering to the fans by giving the girls more screentime than they should’ve. they just cut to all the negative parts of boy experiment as a way to show bias, we actually missed out on a lot of their progress.

honestly even tho i’m fully aware how messy it was, i’m happy with how it was done cos i’d rather have more scenes with the girls than have a perf second season.

i’m actually going to be so mad if the show is cancelled bcos of everyone raging on twitter, cos this season was just a build up for the rest of the show. we’re going to see a marked diff in quality when the plot is only split between present day on the island - what gretchen is up to - ian piecing things together.

#the wilds #dot and rachel got the least focus but i feel like that’s directly leading to their central roles in next season #dot has finally fell back from her role as the group ‘leader’ but with the addition of the boys i think she’ll have to take a mediator like #position which is going to be another struggle for her but i think the girls will back her in a way that feels like resolution #and nora is going to have a big part of season 3 so rachel will too #ano folk are upset bcos they wanted an all women show which is tots fair but like we’re going to see how amazing the girls are compared #to the boys #that’s the reason they were added to the show??? it’s so clear that the writers favour the girls and it’s still the girl’s show

[fwoosheye]

That Ghost!Link au I thought up from by Gaylactic-fire's Cursed Link Generator still lives rent free in my head. It have even planted a big plot in there. Anyway I had to do a pen drawing of him tonight :)

#cursed links generator #ghost link au #i had a small sketchbook that actually don't bleed through so much #so i decided i'm gonna use it for this still unnamed au #and take the opportunity to practice drawing with pens instead of pencils more often #think i'm gonna draw the zelda of that au next or the not-ganondorf #i like him too #he went from a 'fun to doodle concepts of but won't probably fit' to 'he's a vital part of the plot shit wouldn't work is i removed him' #and i have no idea how that happened #adding him just solved ten problems i didn't even know i would've had if i had decided to not include him #cw body horror #cw death mention

[bertievi]

Okay! So!

I’ve will be back from a six day, 1044 mile journey tomorrow evening, I will be exhausted because no it was not in any sensical straight line and was a total indulgence trip 👀 more of that to come later.

But I will be catching up and posting opens and starters as soon as I am up for it, very likely on Friday because the muses are quite loud after their own holiday from the dash. Just letting you all know that I will be back and I can only apologise for that!

#ooc #adding the deets in the tags because it’s me #just proof I am alive #I had to drive 2 hours before I was able to catch my first train #when I started the next leg there was a massive thunder storm #took out two signal hubs on two separate parts of that journey #ended up stranded in the wrong city for a while until I managed to catch a taxi #headed to the next part and one of the stations had a fire so the train was held up for ages too #I am heading home tomorrow on *the* most unreliable leg of the transport system #in TORRENTIAL rain #these trains often just randomly cancel without notice #or they terminate across the boarder from where I live #I am anticipating drama ✨ #so stay tuned for a laugh at least

[thedeadthree]

it should be noted that after much deliberation… that hati is a triple scorpio. sun and moon and rising..!

#when she said she wanted to have marcus zeroed she mean it! and it’s SO GREAT im yelling that she fell in love with him too 💞🥴 #*meant #oc: caitrìona mac cathmhaoil #x: caitrìona x marcus #x: veni vidi cedidi ad vos #leg reads defiled hearts #sometimes flirting with ur nemesis backfires and u fall in love with them instead 💞🥴 #her entire big three is just.. scorpio AND I LOVE IT #marcus thinking it’s bc of her blind dislike when she first met him (which a part of that WAS) #but in reality it is just her perpetual ‘i am IRRITATED’ expression jajsjz which! so true bestie! #(we are NOT going to talk about the fact that their meeting was after she walked out of the bathhouse.. and that her initial reaction -> #before realizing who he was and the voice she heard when she turned to see was.. oh no hes hot ✨🥴) #which INFURIATED the loving hell out of her snsjsjjx. but! inner vengeful scorpio she is! was like! yes! we can weaponize this! #so like.. at FIRST she was like oh YEA babes it’s time to use the tried and true good ol’power of seduction to END this man #and then for SOME reason she keep staving the plan off.. she spends more time.. seeks him out but not for manipulating him further! #but actually to.. see? him? WHAT IS THIS?? like? #THE CLOWN SHOES WERE SQUEAKING THE CLOWN MAKEUP WAS APPLIED she was falling in love with the last soul on earth she wanted to.. #AND THE THING IS IS THAT NOW..! NOW THEYRE BOUND BY FATE! red string! #toss the nut into the fire and see if it lands next to theirs and if it does! ur in love! all of that to prove it! #which given how starkly she abides by her traditions.. THIS FOOL SHE KNEW #which the triple scorpio in her is like.. vowing vengeance against the gods for doing this to her skjzjxj #like her already planned out vengeance? was PERFECT..! and then! this! what gives! #she was aware of her feelings but pushed them down DEEP.. turned it into a weapon instead! jokes on both of them! #this if..! these two make me CRAZY i tell you skjsxj like i know I’ve said it a million times but! THEY DO! #leg.txt #leg.ocs #the astrology nerd in me uses zodiacs a lot and tarot to determine a lot of who the character is! it helps! #i do need to think about what sort of card she would fit the best.. thinking! seeing!

[toastsnaffler]

istg one of these days.......

#ya know that post thats like texting lesbians: its throw bowling balls down the stairs day u better be game #one of my fave posts ever in the world #anyway my lesbian flatmate texts like the straight female friend part of that post and i love her but its killing me #its endearing but its so hard not to read it as flirty stoppitttt im already dedicating so much work to repressing this little crush 😭 #ALSO THAT POST THATS LIKE FLIRTING W GIRLS WILL HAVE U ADDING :3 TO UR TEXTS literally so true but I dont think she means it like that 😭😭 #like she talks to everyone that way I remember when I first met her me + my ex spent ages trying to work out if she was gay #bc we were so sure she had a gay vibe but every text felt like it was pointing the other way..... the vindication when I found out she WAS #anyway my resolve weakens with every 😘 emoji like im already thinking abt it dont give me any more ideas !!!! #its not even embarrassing anymore like how am i supposed to exist near someone like her WITHOUT ever having a gay thought #so im not sorry if she sees this. i take rejection like a champ dont be shy #but genuinely tho i dont think shes interested shes just cute like that. and idw make things weird cuz we're still living together next yr #itd be suchh a pain if i made things awkward right when we need to find a place. and anyway my best case is our 3rd flatmates WORST #i wouldnt do that to him god forbid #buuuut...... nope ok enough of that im going back to bed its almost 1am #this is what HAPPENS when u have insomnia tuning into the crazy radio every night #need to get onto dating apps and find smth new to distract me before this gets out of hand....... buttttt i dont want to >:| #its ok my patience is infinite i like playing the long game. i was into my ex for 2 and a half years before i made any moves #i can wait this one out too either itll happen eventually or itll pass. we're good #ok thats GOODNIGHT from me if u read this far wow ur nosy arent u...... jk ily sleep well everyone #muah all round #.diaries