#snizabelle

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⭐️

thank you!! let's see i think i'll doooo. hum hm. let's do the man in the mask, because i put a lot of work into that one and fell on my own damn sword and oh my god yall dont even KNOW,

send me a ⭐ for director's commentary

oh my god the SYMBOLISM in this one fucking killed me. i put SO MUCH effort into the symbolic gestures. we've got:

valis climbing up into the tree with des as he's wallowing in his despair, getting on his level and seeking to actually understand him

desolas hiding himself expertly in the tree and shadows, nobody able to see him in his depression

the spots of moonlight glinting off des's plates letting valis catch a glimpse of the man cloaking himself in shadow, seeing behind the walls he's put up

valis promising to catch him when he falls, promising she'll continue to be there for him when he's struggling with his grief and pain

like oh my god. Oh My God. i'm so smart and good at this writing thing sometimes. also some of the lines in this FUCK. some favorites:

"Not friends, not lovers, not whatever blurry liminal thing they’d been for those short few hours when the world bled away and left the two of them holding each other in the dark."

"The Desolas who'd fought and fucked her like a man possessed and then tangled himself up with her like she was the only thing anchoring him to this plane glowered out at her from the depths of whatever violence he'd inflicted upon himself, the mask ripped away to let the spirits witness what he'd become."

"The best she could do, she reasoned, was this: simply to sit, and listen, and throw out a line into his darkening sea."

"He was only a man, grieving and forgotten and trapped on the wrong side of the walls he’d built for himself."

like god i really went off on this one i am an absolute King it's a shame nobody tends to climb onto the rarepair raft with me as i'm paddling by y'all missing out on some of my best work, this and absolution (garrus/citadel dlc lady) have some absolutely raw poetry in them

#press conference #snizabelle

[that-wildwolf]

6 15 and 18 for the writing prompt!

(I answered 6 already)

15. What WIP are you taking into next year with you?

Well being the incredibly smart person I am, I have started posting two fics at once last week, so I'm taking the Garrus therapy fic (I have no idea what I even titled it in the end, it's just therapy fic for me) and Reflections of Lost Stars with me into 2024.

...2024, please be kind.

18. The character that gave you the most trouble writing this year?

This is how I found out I wrote 13 fics this year and 11 of those fics have been Shakarian which I don't find difficult to write at all, so by means of elimination I guess it would have to be Nihlus. You know. Out of the four characters I've written this year. Saren is easily #1, I get him like I get nobody else, Garrus follows right behind, and Shepard is Shepard so can't really be OOC (I mean. She can. But you've got to put a lot of effort into it).

So. Nihlus I guess. It took me a while to get into a rhythm writing his POV in Reflections but now that I'm here, it's smooth sailing.

Huh. Guess I'm lucky.

#ao3 wrapped #ask game #hhhggggghhhhhhh snizabelle....... oh my god #oh my god snizabelle. on my blog

[snizabelle]

Chapters: 21/? Fandom: Mass Effect - All Media Types, Mass Effect Trilogy Rating: Mature Warnings: Graphic Depictions Of Violence Relationships: Castis Vakarian/Garrus Vakarian's Mother, Castis Vakarian & Primarch Fedorian Characters: Castis Vakarian, Garrus Vakarian's Mother, Original Turian Character(s), Original Salarian Character(s), Original Krogan Character(s), Fedorian (Mass Effect) Additional Tags: Enemies to Lovers, Falling In Love, Pre-Mass Effect 1, Humor, Canon Compliant, Romantic Comedy, True Love, Banter, Canon-Typical Violence, Worldbuilding, Comedy, Original Character(s), Alcohol, Implied/Referenced Drug Use, Character Study, Implied/Referenced Suicide Summary:

Castis Vakarian is a bright, young cadet fresh out of military academy with aspirations of serving the Hierarchy. After landing the opportunity of a lifetime to train under Andin Faldos, a Hierarchy general with a violent reputation, he along with fellow officer Quintin Fedorian are stationed on Kaeus, a backwater planet on the edge of turian space. Though the planet’s reputation of criminal activity is daunting, Castis is determined to prove his worth and earn the general’s personal recommendation.

However, when he crosses paths with the reckless and captivating bounty hunter Marcella Khatirus, he finds himself torn between two wants - a glorious miltary career or a life with the only person who has ever made him happy.

WE ARE SO FUCKING BACK

#mass effect #fanfic #the vakarians

[emmavakarian-theirin]

been meaning to post this for a while but thank you so much to @snizabelle for gifting me with this epic garrus can!! a fine addition to the collection 😁

#several relatives have spotted it and said 'you're DRINKING????' and then are disappointed when i'm literally just displaying a can #for an already obsessive obsession lmao #mass effect #garrus vakarian

[hanarinhightown]

I was tagged my @korblez , @time-traveling-machine , and my sweetest @thearchdemongreatlydisapproves thank you!!!!!!!!!

Share ten different favorite characters from ten different pieces of media, in no particular order, then tag/send to ten people (anon or not) 💜

1. Mass Effect - Lantar Sidonis

2. Lord of the Rings - Éowyn

3. Hades - Zagreus <3

4. Portal - GLaDOS

5. Disco Elysium - Kim Kitsuragi

6. The Left Hand of Darkness - Therem Harth rem ir Estraven

7. Dragon Age - Krem

8. Better Call Saul - Kim Wexler

9. Dostoevsky's Бесы - Alexei Nilych Kirillov

10. John Carpenter's The Thing - MacReady

Tagging @theelfmaiden @bigcheezey @transfenris-truther @aegisbane @irikahkrios @yellingaboutmasseffect @katarrinskey @hexcore-juggler @snizabelle @callista-curations but no pressure!!

[meahow]

tag 10 people you want to know better!

Tagged by  @snizabelle

Relationship status: Been dating the same person for 11 years now, so I think it might be kinda serious.

Favourite colour: Black or red or pink?

Favourite food: Lemon merengue pie or if dessert “doesn’t count” I’d say potato soup.

Song stuck in your head: 2002 by Anne-Marie

Last thing you googled: "dog park”

Time: 7:19 pm

Dream trip: Japan, I’m a weeb sooooo duh.

Last book you read: Covet by Tracy Wolff

Last book you enjoyed reading: Again... Covet by Tracy Wolff, I really love the Crave series <3

Last book you hated reading: The first Vampire Diaries book, I thought I’d like the original series since I love the TV show but I was very wrong.

Bonus:

Favorite thing to cook/bake: I am notoriously TERRIBLE at cooking/baking, so unless you want Nutella on bread, I am not the one to go to.

Favorite craft to do in your spare time: Cosplay, obviously. More specifically, my favorite part is painting armor/props.

Most niche dislike: Children

Opinion on circus(es) now and in history: Considering the only time I’ve been to the circus, I was 5 and my rich classmate brought me, I’m not particularly knowledgeable on the subject. I liked The Greatest Showman, though I know it’s horrendously inaccurate lmao.

Do you have a sense of direction and if not what is the worst way you ever got lost: I am okay at direction. Like, I can almost always find my way home from pretty much anywhere, but getting there is a different story. The worst I’ve ever been lost was in the middle of the desert when there wasn’t enough signal to use Google Maps.

Tagging: @wulphi @doc-hatchet @ghostingthespace Uhhhh idk who else, I don’t have a lot of mutuals lmao.

[drumsandwaves]

WIP tag game

rules: post the names of all the files in your wip folder regardless of how non-descriptive or ridiculous. let people send you an ask with the title that most intrigues them, and then post a little snippet of it or tell them something about it.

Tagged by @thetrashbagswasteland an eternity ago!

so given that I've been writing for more than a year without posting anything you'd think I'd be drowning in WIPs, but actually I'm just a slow writer :)) I'm gonna write the titles just like they are, underscores an' all, and joke's on you, some of these are like three lines put together in something that more closely resembles a narrative kidnapping

Expectations (Mass Effect)

i'll sleep when i'm dead (ME)

Last chance to take up my offer (ME)

muscle memory (ME)

Here be plot bunnies (ME)

this won't end quietly (ME)

NaNo_draft (ME) (yes this has a very sexy title)

Amandoti (Dragon Age)

Not a slave (DA)

Waves (DA)

I have no idea of who's been tagged or who has done it with the exception of the tags I've seen on the previous post, soo if you're feeling it go @misseffect @writes-in-space @snizabelle and anyone who wants to join!

#writing game #wip #i'm improvising with these tags i have no idea how to keep this consistent

[aiiaiiiyo]

This guy I found in mom's yearbook. 1970 Check this blog!

#Snizabelle #oldschool

[omegastation]

snizabelle replied to your post “I don't want to hope too much but I can't help it, I'm freaking happy...”

MASS EFFECT WILL NEVER DIE! (hopefully)

it will never die at all, never ever!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

but i’m so happy about everything he said!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

what a good day

I mean, we still have to wait a very long time but still!!!!! it’s exactly what we needed

#snizabelle

[stormikins]

I'm surious about 'Fic i’ll never write' :D

I got you! So fic I’ll never write basically spans the trilogy and it follows my main Shepard, Jenn. It’s a mix of canon complaint/fix it/canon divergence. I write how Jenn will handle things and reacts to them that we don’t see in the game or the game completely doesn’t go into.

It’s title spawns from the fact I don’t really plan on actually finishing this but I still have ideas/scenes I want to write. So maybe one day, a guy can dream.

Snippet: y’know how you can hack a terminal in Udina’s office? Yeah that with Ashley and Kaidan right after the first meeting with him. Alternatively: Ashley learns how crazy Shepard is.

“And that’s why I hate politicians.” Ashely glares at Udina’s back as he and the Captain leave the office. Alenko huffs next to her and Shepard snorts. Shepard moves then, going to the ambassador’s desk and poking around the consoles. What the hell is she doing?

“C’mon, Shepard. Really?” Alenko asks. He moves towards the door, posting himself right next to it. “The Ambassador’s office?” He sounds exasperated instead of worried. She sure is.

“It’s fine.” Shepard waves a hand but then she’s closing the console and going to the one to the right. It’s settled on a little desk pushed up against the wall.

Ashley flicks her eyes between the two of them throughly confused. Shepard sits down and Ashley moves to stand behind her, looking over her shoulder. She’s- she’s hacking it. Ashley doesn’t know whether to stop her or stand watch. Given that Alenko’s got that covered she stays put. Curious, Ashley watches as Shepard’s fingers fly over the keys.

“Just hurry up,” Alenko pushes.

“Yeah, yeah, I’m almost done. So whiny.” Shepard whispers the last part and Ashley has to hide a smile.

“A-ha!” Shepard does a little fist pump with one hand, her left coming up with her omni-tool activated. “Got some unusual readings in the Argos Rho cluster.” She slides out of the chair and Ashley takes a step back. Shepard smiles brightly at Alenko which prompts him to roll his eyes.

“Great,” he says, sarcasm dripping from the statement. “Let’s just get out of here.” Shepard gives her a wink, like they’re co-conspirators and follows him out the door. Ashley chuckles, incredulous with the fact that Shepard just hacked the ambassador’s console.

If fighting geth, seeing the prothean beacon activate, didn’t clue her in on how crazy everything is becoming, how crazy Shepard is, then that definitely would have. Instead, it just confirmed her theory.

This’ll be an interesting mission for sure.

#asks #snizabelle #thank you! #my writing #fic I’ll never write #mass effect #writing #I love taking moments that normally players wouldn’t think about #especially if you’ve replayed multiple times #and writing how the characters would react #it’s a grand time #formatting got a little weird #bear with me #mass effect writing

[genovia]

some people???? don't wash their hands???? to cope?????

GOD YOU’RE RIGHT I FORGET SOME PEOPLE LIKE TO SMEAR THEIR PERSONALITIES ON THEIR HANDS

#I JSUT WANNA DIE SNIZ #snizabelle

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Aediteia for the OC ask 3,5 ,15 ,33, 40

AAAAAA MY WIFE thank you!!! <3

93 OC Questions

Aediteia "Teia" Epirian: Senior reporter for Citadel NewsNet and award-winning investigative journalist. Wife of Councilor Ierian Sparatus, mother of his three children, and the reason he failed Econ a second time (too busy thinking about pretty girl he was too shy to ask out).

(putting under a readmore after the first question cause hahaha oopsie this got long as hell i just love teia so much)

3. What is the meaning behind their name? Do they have any nicknames?

eh no particular meaning, she actually wasn't supposed to grow into as big of a character as she has so i just pulled a nice one out of a generator, lol. as for nicknames she's most commonly called teia, and sometimes also gets tei-tei, tenderheart, rolzön (from her husband's native language of tiirtiak, basically "kitten," a rolzu is a smaller domestic edition of the local ice shatha variety), and starlight (specifically by her husband). also various words for mom and grandma, of course, those are her favorites <3

5. What’s their relationship with their parents like? What about other relatives?

AHAHAHAAHA WELL. so funny story,

incuria and algidus epirian are both very traditional turians and very focused on appearances. when they had kids, this translated into being very strict with their kids, and a love that was fairly conditional on the kids (four of them! galactian the eldest and only son, then daughters culpitia, merea, and teia herself) being Good Respectable Turians™: don't do anything that would make the aliens think differently from our reputation, get "real" (read: traditional, stable, well-paying) jobs, settle down with a (parent-approved) spouse, basically do everything their parents wanted for them because their parents knew what was best for them better than they did themselves. you know, the fun insidious kind of emotional abuse <3 they not only allowed but sometimes even encouraged the kids to turn on each other, resulting in a lot of bullying, especially from golden child merea who's responsible for a lot of teia's hangups later in life.

the entire reason teia ended up choosing tiirtias, a frozen wasteland at palaven's north pole, to study and do her internship was because she figured it was the one place her family wouldn't try to follow her for visits or anything, and it ended up being the right choice for her, because she met ierian and was welcomed into his family. her in-laws ended up being everything she'd wanted her own parents to be, loving her unconditionally and supporting her without judgement. ierian's grandparents calvetana and virian, his [checks notes] so fucking many cousins but especially ziphian who's only a couple months younger than him and everyone used to joke they were supposed to be twins but there was a mixup because they were so close as kids, his sister coracia, his aunts lisia and corinn, so on and so forth - they all made her feel welcome and loved, and she still counts them as her real family.

and then they moved back to the citadel for work :) and they tried to find a place on a separate ward far enough away they wouldn't have to interact because ierian Did Not Fucking Like teia's parents (fun fact neither did the rest of the sparatus-sylidros clan, there was almost a fight at the wedding) and he'd been trying to convince her to cut them off for actual years for her own health but she wanted to try to be nice and be a mature adult about it and hadn't fully accepted that yes she was abused and yes her parents did love her but that didn't make how they treated her okay, and the abuse continued whenever they encountered each other, until one night it happened where their son areus (9 years old at the time) overheard and asked his father what it meant, at which point ierian very explosively cut contact for her, and within the week finally convinced her to obtain a restraining order to protect herself and her children.

so things are uhhhhh tense to say the least, lol. but it's fine she has a whole clan back on tiirtias who adore her, and also the two older siblings (galactian and culpitia) figured out they were being abused shortly after they'd left home and the three of them are decently close now <3

15. What was something their parents taught them?

algidus is a cop, high-ranking c-sec, and a fairly traditionally-minded turian, so he taught his children that the law is a good and necessary thing and there to protect you. instructions unclear, married a prosecutor her daddy hated and got a restraining order, oopsie :3c

on the slightly more positive side, the whole ordeal did teach her to stand up for herself and not be too afraid of hurting others that she just lets them walk all over her and hurt her in turn. granted, she needed her lawyer husband and his lawyer buddies to convince her this was the correct lesson to learn, but it's okay, abuse is an insidious thing, she's doing her best.

33. What is their biggest fear? How would they react to having to face it?

ierian or any of her children, and eventually grandchildren, dying. she loves her family, she sees them as the happy ending she'd been convinced she didn't deserve, she's worked so hard to build her nest, nothing keeps her up at night quite like the fear that any one piece of it could be taken away. with her husband being literally the most important turian in xenopolitics and her middle child verres choosing to stay in the military as a lifer, she's well aware that she's at pretty high risk of it coming true.

unfortunately, she's also already had to face it, or at least the very real possibility of it. her youngest child, their only daughter calvetorin, came very close to dying in infancy due to complications from eezo exposure, and remained frail and sickly for the first few years of her life to the point that the slightest problem had them utterly terrified they were about to lose her. she very nearly shut down entirely from the fear, and still has nightmares about it decades later (cal was born in 2152, for reference). she and ierian had actually planned to have more than three children, but callie's harrowing start to life put them off having any more children out of fear that it might happen again. callie announcing her own pregnancy with her wife carinnia in 2183 is both incredibly exciting and utterly terrifying, worried that her daughter might now go through the exact same heartbreak and all-consuming fear she did years ago. (cal's fine, her kids are fine, all 3 of her children have healthy pregnancies and come out perfectly fine. it's verres who has a child almost die!)

and we're not gonna talk about what happens if the council is killed in me1, we simply Are Not, because it does not happen i can't make myself do that to her literally every time i'm like "this time i'll kill the council" i chicken out cause i think about teia having to grieve ierian--

40. Who do they trust most? Is that trust mutual?

ierian, 100%, and it's definitely mutual. he's who helped her through her own growth of trying to recover from abuse, and she helped him with his own demons in return. beyond that, they're best friends, they're old college study buddies, they're a sun-moon pair, they're bisexual man/bisexual woman solidarity, they're the little older couple joined at the hip everybody knows at least one or two of. by me1 they've been together for 42 years and going strong, there's nobody else in the entire galaxy they'd trust more than each other.

#press conference #snizabelle #ierian's ocs #aediteia epirian #whOOPS this turned into the spirian power hour sORRY

[that-wildwolf]

@callista-curations and @whiskynorocks have tagged me in a tag game that immediately made me sweat with fear.

What's happening here is you're supposed to share the last sentence you wrote and then tag as many people as the sentence has words.

So obviously this immediately made me fear for my life. I am aware of my longass sentences. I'm no fool. This is a death sentence for me. Do I even know that many people.

He wonders, sometimes, if he might have lost his way of seeing the world for what it could be somewhere along the way, and if maybe she hasn't helped him find his way again.

Yeah this is a fucking joke is what this is.

Okay watch me try and find 34 people to tag when I have like 10 mutuals at best!

Thirty-four people?!!!!

*loud groaning*

I don't have that many friends in real life! That's too many people!

*bangs head against desk*

This is ridiculous.

I don't even have thirty-four contacts on my phone!

*a little less loud groaning*

I am my own worst enemy

*ughhhhhhh*

This is why I never do these tag games!

*fucking dies*

Uh anyway @tigereyes45 @snizabelle @lerr-writes-fic whatcha got brewin'? (I decided that 3.4 people is better than no people when you can't find 34 people)

#tag game #wild rambles #you can treat this as a shitpost. if you want. #but my despair was genuine

[pastelideas]

Commission for @snizabelle of their turian OC’s Castis (left) and Marcella (right).

Commission info

#Mass Effect #Mass Effect OC #Turian #mass effect turian #turian oc #commission art #commission

[otemporanerys]

CITADEL SEASON PLEASE(ON)

(@snizabelle also asked about this one)

Yes, my beloved historical romance but in space AU! Dirt-poor Shepard is selected as a Spectre candidate - but the Council does not offer a salary, so if Shepard wants to track down Saren, the turian who killed her parents, she's going to have to find a rich idiot to marry, and fast.

Rich idiot Garrus Vakarian is wasting his life on the Citadel, getting into duels and avoiding respectable society like the plague, until he receives an ultimatum from his father: get married or get disowned.

When Garrus runs into Shepard eavesdropping on Saren, he makes a daring proposition: a marriage of convenience.

It's half shooting things, half espionage at fancy balls and house parties. No Reapers, everybody lives, nothing but unadulterated fluff and a contrived misunderstanding at the 80% mark. I have only written the opening.

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From the Dossiers of the Shadow Broker

I spend a great deal of time, dear readers, thinking about the difference between theory and actuality.

Take, for example, the theory that rules the Citadel season. Landowners from the asari, turian and (increasingly) human races come to find a suitable bride who will manage their properties and provide companionship and love. The prospective husbands are the careful custodians of the galaxy’s bountiful resources; the would-be wives are hoping to become that one special someone’s helpmeet. These roles are determined, not by the arbitrary distinctions of sex as in some backwards societies, but by the dispassionate currencies of credits and reputation. I'm no historian, so I cannot say for certain why we settled on this system, but thus far, it seems to work.

That is the theory. Ask me about my WIPs!

#wip #ask meme #my fic

[diaphanouso]

Vox Spiritus please!!

Sure thing, thanks to you and @snizabelle for asking! This is my AU where the turians won the Relay 314 Incident by soundly defeating Alliance forces. As a result, humanity became a client race to the turians, but unlike with the volus, the relationship has been thorny. A future chapter will talk about the turning point in the war that ended up with the turians on top. It's a point in the canon timeline that I've often wondered about—how might things have turned out if one specific event had happened differently?

Quick summary of Vox Spiritus: As one of many attempts to foster positive relations between the species, Shepard and her cabal squadmates are assigned to serve on the Normandy's first mission, led by Nihlus and Garrus (who's training under Nihlus to become a Spectre). They're tracking down Saren, who is believed to have orchestrated a mass child abduction on Eden Prime. The latest update, Chapter 5: Faster on my Own, shows the team arriving on Virmire to investigate Saren's lab facility. Here's a snippet from Chapter 6:

Garrus led them through the upper door, and the three of them found themselves in another, smaller lab. This one held more terminals, but these had solid black screens—Garrus directed Kasumi and Shepard to scan them all for any data they held. The interloper hadn’t made it up here. Hopefully, Kaidan, Jacob, and Nihlus were subduing them at that very moment.

While the presence of intact terminals was promising, the large, cylindrical tanks lined up along both sides of the north side of the room only offered dread. The tanks were cracked and empty; the water puddled around them made Garrus uneasy. Something—or someone—had once been held in those.

The edges of the tanks began to wobble—Garrus touched the nearest wall as his vision swam. Closing his eyes for a few seconds helped, and the vertigo subsided. Process later.

A shuffling sound came from behind a pair of tanks toward the back of the room. Garrus, Shepard, and Kasumi all went on alert, guns drawn. From behind one of the tanks slinked a salarian in a white lab coat, his hands raised and free of weapons. But Garrus knew better than to assume a salarian wasn’t capable of wearing a lab coat and slinging a pistol at the same time. He held off on giving the team the signal to lower their weapons.

“Please,” the salarian said in a tear-choked voice. “I’m unarmed.” His steps were tentative but persistent.

Garrus narrowed his eyes at him. Unarmed or not, scientist or not, he’d been involved with any number of atrocities committed at this facility. “That’s close enough. Who are you?”

#mass effect #fic chat #wip #ask meme