#showed up to judge us

[poorly-drawn-mdzs]

Results from the ‘Who is the tallest MDZS Character poll! Thank you all for voting!

#poorly drawn mdzs #mdzs #nie mingjue #lan wunian #lan xichen #lan wangij #poll #Thank you all for showing up with your whimsy! I saw so many funny tags and messages! What a blast it has been!!! #Nie Mingjue was the distractor answer - word of god *does* say he's the tallest but...he *was* dismembered and beheaded. #It's still a grey area though! This was all for fun after all B*) #Jin Ling uses his hair as a little lasso. Good for night hunting and asserting dominance! #Not the tallest due to his hair gel getting stuck on his hands and reducing the height of his throw during the judging. #And yes- Poorly Drawn Jin Ling is ~4cm tall. Grab you rulers out an visualize that <3 My Friday Treat for you all. #Real feminism is the fact that all the men who won did so by technically cheating and the woman (horse) did it the honest way. #Real feminism is being a horse. Everyone better start getting on that. New Year's resolution. Horse time. #My apologies to the Jin Zixuan likers (lowest votes): He's a bit of a fail wife but that's okay. #I like to imagine that It's the ghost of JYL committing voter fraud to give him pity votes. #(It is still voter fraud if a ghost votes right? Has anyone looked into the legality of ghost voting?) #Much to think about....Hey speaking of the ghosts of women: See you all tomorrow for the new poll!

[daily-hanamura]

#persona 4 #p4 #persona 4 golden #p4g #hanamura yosuke #souyo #this scene revealed so much of their relationship in one go #yosuke has already long been established as yu's confidant at this point but this moment really drove it home! #yosuke anticipates each of yu's behaviour #but even though he disagrees with it he doesn't judge yu for it #even going so far as to help yu hide it from the rest of the team #its debatable whether thats necessarily a good thing #but it demonstrates yosuke's unwavering loyalty to yu while also making clear his disappointment #and of course yosuke has much to feel sad and disappointment over - one the one hand it felt like yu didnt trust him/them enough #he phrased it as a matter of “you should trust us more” as opposed to “you should trust ME more” because talking about trust in the singula #would hit too close to home and risk making too many demands of yu. demands that yosuke didnt feel he was allowed to make #afterall why would yu trust him but not the others? but the team is made up of other more reliable people than he was #and bringing up the team gives yosuke a defensive cover #so as usual it's part of yosuke's self doubt creeping in #but theres also honesty here - yosuke wasnt here to accost him or be angry at him; he really showed up just to make sure that yu was safe #and once hes confirmed it yosuke falls back to his usual habits of cracking a joke to lighten the mood #to end the conversation on a joke feels like its as much a service for yu as it is for himself #we know yosuke tends to joke to make the people around him feel better and i think in this instance he was also trying to cheer yu up #whether it was to make up for yosuke approaching him or to alleviate any guilt yu might feel #or even to manage whatever it was that adachi might have said to yu (which yosuke undoubtedly picked up on) #yosuke doesn't let his disagreement with yu get in the way of supporting his partner #to some extent i also wonder if this loyalty was also coloured by their previous interaction with namatame and Yosuke's anger #it's been less than a week since that incident after all and i think theres this contradiction for yosuke #and i think there was probably a contradiction in Yosuke's heart in that moment: he doesn't trust himself to make good judgements #but as much as he'd rather take yu's lead in this instance he also feels like his leader was wrong here

[butcherlarry]

Weekly Fic (and Meat) Recs 60

I'M BACK! I had a lovely time on PTO! I went home, visited with family, visited with the cattle, celebrated my birthday, attended a banquet, got a wicked sharp meat cleaver (very excited about this), visited a new arboretum, saw birds, took pictures of birds, and survived the solar eclipse! All and all, a good time all around :) Got some reading done too, so there are fic recs from what I read last week and this week on this list. Also, a meat 101 lesson at the end, USDA beef quality grades edition!

The Brothers Wayne by HaleHathNoFury (My_Trex_has_fleas) - Superbat, wip. An update to the Bruce and Wade Wilson are brothers fic. Some family bonding between the brothers, the only way siblings know how. Beating the shit out of each other :)

Fresh Wounds (Still Cut Deep) by Inkwell1013 - Batfam, complete. A fic inspired by this art from sully-s. Alfred taking care of a newly orphaned Bruce and having no clue what he's doing (except his best).

dead man's party by TheResurrectionist - Batfam, wip. An update to Jason sees ghosts fic (while being haunted by Martha Wayne)

Patroclus by widow_account - Superbat, complete. I shrieked when I saw this fic was completed! I need to go back and reread it again in it's completed glory. Clark is kidnapped and sent to War World to fight. Bruce saves him. Much feels are involved too.

They Also Serve by Ginevra_Benci - Batfam, complete. Alfred wakes up to a surprise, Bruce kidnapping adopting a small angry child (Dick).

Precedent by Cdephiki - Batfam, complete. Damian joins the family early AU! The second fic in the series. This story is about Jason joining the family.

Padam by HaleHathNoFury (My_Trex_has_fleas) - Superbat, wip. More of college Clark at a gay club. Bruce Wayne has entered the chat :)

Just A Little Bit... by HaleHathNoFury (My_Trex_has_fleas) - Superbat, wip. More of eldritch Bruce and alien Clark! A plan is in the making to infiltrate Cadmus. Jason and Dick visit Ivy to ask for help

Unreasonable Love by elizabethgee - Superbat, wip. Bruce and Clark start dating and it is found out by the media. This wouldn't be too much of a problem except the fact that this awakens something in Clark's Kryptonian brain and he gets a little possessive protective of his mate boyfriend :)

shiftwork by TheResurrectionist - Bruce Wayne, complete. A neat fic from an outsider's point of view! Bruce visits one of Wanye Enterprise's worksites.

Oh Can't You See What Love Has Done (What it's Doing to Me?) by dio_icaurtica - Superbat, complete. A fic inspired by this post from frownyalfred!

Patchwork Pod by Ktkat9 - Superbat, Batfam, Superfam, wip. More of the mer Bruce fic! Tim and Bruce are recovering from their injuries.

Azure Catching the Moonlight by RenaiRin - Superbat, wip. Superman gets hit with some pink kryptonite. Be sure to read the tags! :D

Show Me How to Lie (You're Getting Better All The Time) by BookwormByNight - Superbat, wip. A Superman from an other universe shows up in the watchtower. He doesn't want to leave and takes a special interest in Bruce for some reason :)

Bruce Doing Mundane Things by aesthetic_pleasure - Superbat, wip. Exactly what it says in the title. Bruce does mundane things and Clark enjoys watching him do them.

Happy reading!

And now, as promised above:

BEEF QUALITY GRADING 101!

Since I live in the USA, my experience with beef quality grading is with the USDA standards. But, most of these rules (kinda) apply to other countries, they might just have different standards of what carcasses make it into what quality grades (for fun, look up USDA beef marbling cards and then Japanese beef quality grading cards. Marbling that would be acceptable for high quality beef in the US would be considered lower quality in Japan!)

What are USDA beef quality grades? Have you ever been in the grocery store, looked at a package of beef steaks (ribeye, sirloin, strip loin, filets, etc.) and saw a sticker on the package that said "USDA PRIME" or "USDA CHOICE"? That's the beef's quality grade! It determines the worth of the carcass. That, in combination with the Yield Grade (how much sellable meat can a processor/retailer/etc. can get off the carcass) gives you the overall price of the carcass.

There are two major factors that go into determining the quality grade of a carcass, the marbling and the maturity. Marbling is the intramuscular fat (fat inside of the muscle). Since marbling contributes to flavor and tenderness, more marbling is better! Below are the USDA marbling standards for beef carcasses:

The other factor is the maturity of the carcass. This is determined by looking at the ossification (cartilage turning into bone) of the dorsal processes (the long spiny fingers along the back bone) along the spine of the carcass. Look at the cartilage caps in the green boxes in the picture below:

The one on the far left is very white. If you were to scratch it with your fingernail, it would feel smooth. This would be considered an young carcass, or "A" maturity. The more those caps fill with bone, the older the carcass. The one on the far right has those caps completely filled with bone, so that would be considered and older carcasses, or "D" maturity. When a carcass passes into "C" maturity (like the one in the middle), that carcass can no longer be graded in to the higher priced quality grades (USDA Standard to Prime).

The maturity matters because as the animal gets older, they develop more connective tissue in the muscles. This decreases the tenderness of the meat, and consumers don't want to pay more money for tough meat. This is also why meat coming out of the middle of the carcass (along the back, so ribeye and loin) are more expensive. Those muscles have less connective tissue, so they are more tender. The tenderloin (Impress your friends by calling it by it's scientific name, psoas major!) is the most tender muscle on the carcass, so that's why it tends to be the most expensive.

Below is a chart showing what maturities and marbling scores are needed to reach what quality grade. For example, a carcass with "B" maturity and "Modest" marbling would be graded as USDA Choice.

USDA Prime is the highest quality grade a carcass can receive (well, actually USDA High Prime, but I can go more into how that's determined if someone asks about it). The lowest qualty grade you see in a retail store would be USDA Standard. The USDA Commercal, Utility, Cutter, and in the verrrrryyyy tiny corner in the bottom right is Canner. These grades are given to older animals, like old cows and bulls. USDA Commercial might be sold whole muscle (boneless) in restaurants after it has been enhanced (pumped with water, salt, sugar brine to make the meat more flavorful and tender). Otherwise, these carcasses that are lower quality grades are ground up for ground beef! Nothing more tender than ground beef! They can also get canned for canned beef. I have had many delicious meals of beef and noodles from canned beef from my family's herd 😋

As I mentioned before, this quality grade, along with the yield grade, determines the price of the carcass. If you want to check those out, click the link below:

USDA AMS daily beef reports

The report for beef carcass price per hundred weight is the second link down, called "Beef Carcass Price Equivalent Index Value". The USDA Agricultural Marketing Service always has these reports and they are always updating them each day. You will see price fluctuations throughout the year. I looks like for April 12th, the most valuable carcass for that day is a carcass that grades USDA Prime, with a Yield Grade of 1-3, and a hcw (hot carcass weight) of 600-900 lbs. A carcass that hit those standards will get you $297.92 per hundred weight (every 100 lbs, you get that much amount of money). So, a 800 lb carcass that is USDA Prime, Yield Grade 3 is worth $2383.36. This would be considered very rare though. Most carcasses in the US are grading USDA Choice, Yield Grades 1-3.

Anyway! I hope you enjoyed that Beef Grading 101! If you have any questions, feel free to send me an ask! I love discussing this!

#weekly fic recs #fic rec list #fic rec #fic recs #fanfic recs #fanfiction recs #fanfiction reccomendations #superbat #batman #bruce wayne #batfam #superman #clark kent #USDA beef quality grading #I used to judge the carcass shows of a lot of county fairs in the state i grew up in while in college #plus i was on and coached my university's meats judging team #so i got to talk about beef quality a lot #and do a lot of beef quality grading #:)

[delicatepointofview]

thinking about louis giddy with excitement after the scala show telling helene how he finally managed to let go of his insecurities on how he might be sounding like at the very beginning of the show and gave into the great atmosphere and energy of the crowd oh my god you could see in his face how absolutely delighted he was 🥹

#like #judging by the timeline he gave at the doc #those performances he did in the us pre walls release #and even the festivals #he was always ready to bust #and always ended up disappointed with his performance #because he gets in his own head and by his perspective doesnt do as well as he does when he practices with helene #in his mind he knows he's able to but the anxiety gets the best of him #and even the footage right before the scala show #he couldnt stay still #opening the door #banging around #saying he's shitting himself #and right then he had one of those shows that seemed to have a big impact on his confidence #my heart could burst at that moment in particular #felt really proud of him and he looked proud of himself as well #aotv spoiler #burst***

[andersdotters]

One thing I dislike about the whole, "Arlecchino doesn't care about the orphans of the House of the Hearth. She's only using them," schtick is that it's heavily implied she was a child of the House before coming into power. She was subject to the same heavy abuse the previous Arlecchino put them through. She was an abuse victim that stood up against her abuser, at least that's what is implied. And when she came into power, she put an end to the way the previous director ran things. Like why do you think she did that? It just puts a bad taste in my mouth to say an abuse victim does not give a damn about other kids who were in the same situation they were.

#genshin impact #arlecchino #dont get me wrong tho i'm not saying she isnt using them in some wau #i'm not saying she isn't training them to become child soldiers #i'm not saying she isn't to be trusted #i'm not saying she isnt insane #i'm saying she is a complex character and should be treated as such #people want to judge characters in terms of All Bad and All Good #it's easy to pit arlecchino as someone that doesnt care about the orphans #but her actions dont line up with that thought process #it lines up with the fact that she does care but doesn't show it in normal ways #and why wouldn't she care about them? she was subject to the same abuse they were #she knows what it's like

[xhanisai]

every time i (a mixed race girl) come across a post that’s basically saying that Marinette, a mixed race girl, isn’t Chinese enough, my urge to set hellfire on this world increases by 100000000%.

#ml fandom salt #miraculous ladybug #miraculous ladybug and chat noir #this isn't just white people saying this shit i've seen non whites going around with this #and ofc it's always the americans #more like AMERICUNTS FUCKS SAKE #listen i don't mind if you're like 'ooo i like marinette with brown eyes or grey eyes' or if you're like #'hey i made this neat redesign of marinette and she looks a bit more chinese here' #BUT #i can't stand it when people go around saying SHE SHOULD LOOK/ACT more CHINESE #FUCK OFF #my family and I are decendents of east asia and guess what SOME OF US HAVE BLUE EYES #and miraculous is a FICTIONAL show #judging someone's race by eye colour or eye SHAPE is stereotypical #i am not chinese enough to fit in china and i'm not british enough to fit in england and i'm not south asian enough to fit there or south #east asian enough to fit there DESPITE being a mix of all of this shit #like it is bad enough growing up being mixed and being told by so many people i'm not X enough #and now seeing my fave characters go through this shit too??? fuck off #ugh i'm so tired #fuck this fandom sometimes

[puppyeared]

for like 3 weeks i was wondering why i was sleeping so much and felt listless. and just now I managed to email 3 people and responded to a month old message in the span of an hour because I got back to TAKING MY FUCKIN MEDS..........

#MOTHER FFFFUCKER #to be fair. my doc said I could stop taking them while im on break since i wouldnt need to be constantly pumped on stimulants #im not sure if it was a side effect but i managed to take like 3 different naps in one day and STILL managed to sleep thru the whole night #at least 2 days into my break. the weird thing is i didnt feel more or less rested afterwards. but mentally i think im in a good place rn #to really put the level of awakeness im at rn i feel weirdly confident i could start one piece. also bc of that sick new opening it BANGS #the song is really good and im in love with the animation style. did some digging and it seems one of the lead animators is masato mori #but i could be wrong. it seems he also did some work on mp100 which could explain a lot lol.. he uses smear frames really well to convey #consistent movement and fluidity!!! someone else might have done color design but it works really really well esp with odas style!! #just love the overall vibe and aesthetic and id really love to study it and incorporate a bit of it into my art.. especially the thick #outlines which i think helps to separate characters and objects on screen. though i have to say the style is definitely more suited to #animation bc of the simpleness and smears. maybe that will help me explore shapes and perspective when i draw... i wanna get better #at drawing poses and angles but i have a hard time wrapping my head around space and using perspective guide lines NGHHHH #i wonder if it has to do with my dogshit ability to judge distance. not depth perception but like. judge how far smth is in metres etc #im also wearing an N95 for the first couple weeks back bc of the wave. absolutely NO BODY is wearing a mask its so fucking over #where im sitting ive heard 5 different people coughing probably not into their elbows!!! and im just. head in my fucking hands #there was a kid sitting a couple seats away in class coughing as he pleases and i wanted to grab him in a chokehold so badly. PLEASEE #ive been annoying my family by asking them to mask up and reminding them to bring masks when they go out and showing them news articles #but at least its working bc we ordered some KN95s and my mom is at least taking me seriously so. please dont be afraid to speak up abt your #health. take care of yourself and others however u can!! wear that mask indoors at your maskless friends house!!! stay home when u can!! #im wearing a surgical mask at home too bc my parents have '''a dry throat cough''' and they are so bad at coughing into their sleeves #also im pretty sure dry throat isnt transmissible bc my brother started coughing too so.. i also tested negative but they havent tested yet #im also not a doctor but i have to keep reminding ppl whenever i can that covid and flu work differently. covid is new and too recent to #have nearly as much research done on it. it seems its also compounding so instead of building immunity it weakens the body and spreads to #to other systems which might explain brain fog and muscle weakness. i remember someone early in the pandemic got infected and it messed up #their smell/taste receptors so bad that they cant eat most foods and that stays in the front of my mind when i think abt covid. christ #yapping

[pa-pa-plasma]

okay i just marathoned the entirety of ATLA live action & i might do an actual review of it explaining my thoughts more in depth, but the TLDR version basically boils down to this:

if you want to watch Avatar: The Last Airbender, just go watch the 2005 cartoon

#i was trying to keep an open mind & all that cuz of OPLA (my beloved) but. holy shit it was actually worse than i expected :/ #like what were they thinking. did they use AI to write this or are the writers just like. really shitty #notes: they linger too much on random bullshit & refuse to move character development along #they tell when they should be showing & when they DO show it's for stuff that benefited from brief environmental storytelling in the OG #the plot drags so hard it was basically stagnant #there were some fun things but like. those things could've been funner if they'd been given the time other useless stuff was taking up #they changed so many minor details that really don't matter in order to make them more important #but this failed spectacularly because now there's just. stupid bullshit clogging up the plot?? #instead of having 10 minute monologues 3 times an episode about plot irrelevant things #they should have taken a page out of the original's book & kept minor details to a minimum & focused on ACTUAL PLOT #SO MUCH CGI. LIKE I KNOW THEY NEED IT BUT COME ON. EVEN THE CHARACTERS?????? WHO ARE JUST STANDING THERE???????? #they were given 8 hours & almost all of it was Aang angsting (lol) over being the avatar & not practicing actual bending #& then they ended the plot too early so they had to fill in the last like 20 minutes with something else #so they made up random lore that literally makes no sense. & overexplained all of it to the point i was blanking out from boredom #i think this is why i didn't enjoy Korra. they over explain the spirit world stuff & avatar powers & bending #that plus i just don't vibe with the aesthetic #being a writer is a curse because when i dislike something it's because i know exactly what went wrong & why #it's always with the analyzing & the judging & the internal note taking #even when i really try i can't just enjoy shit for fun

[soleminisanction]

To go with the last reblog, it occurred to me that people might not know, Bonnie King wasn't just created to be Cissie's mom. She's actually a super deep cut from the Silver Age.

So, for additional reference, here's the one-and-only appearance of the original Miss Arrowette, from the back-up feature of World's Finest Comics #113, circa November 1960. (Brace yourself for 60's era sexism and the weirdness that was Silver Age Green Arrow & Speedy):

#cissie king jones #arrowette #green arrow #dc comics #young justice #bonnie king #miss arrowette #speedy #golden age comics #the arrow signal for the record was a firework bright enough to be seen during the day #I love that they both trip over the same manhole cover #boys you don't get to judge her after that #and then they just slide into the back of the truck like that mousetrap board game #green arrow was falling out of fashion and arrowette didn't give them a popularity boost or anything so she never showed up again #but it's fun that Peyer and Rousseau used her as a basis years later in Bart's comic

[mimikyuno]

oh the himejoshis are eating good this spring 🛐 🌸

#SAPPHIC SPRING IS UPON US !!!!!!!!!! LETS GO #personally im STOKED #also we have two (2) outright yuri shows here like. in one season?! #also whatever the hell is up with the lesbian harem in nijiyon LMAO #idk if the jellyfish one will be gay but judging by the pv. YES. and after watching ep 1 of the train one. GAY. #im so excited for whisper me a love song im gonna cry ;-; I LOVE THE MANGA SM #titles in order (jp and eng) -> #shuumatsu train doko e iku? #train to the end of the world #seiyuu radio no uraomote #the many sides of voice actor radio #sasayaku you ni koi wo utau #whisper me a love song #yoru no kurage wa oyogenai #jellyfish can't swim in the night #yorukura #nijiyon animation #blue archive #blue archive the animation #himejoshi #yuri #seasonal anime #mine

[ethanharmonia]

Been wanting to draw this for a long time now tbh

Have an Azelf and my Volo Au cosplay in PLA

And some pics i took few weeks ago

My finger is in eternal pain after this

#pla volo #pokemon volo #volo #wielder volo #pokemon wielder volo #pla akari #pokemon akari #azelf #pikachu #togekiss #pokemon #pokemon au #i would add that outfit to my au and never use it again #pokemon trainer #drawing #art #bro looks like he was about to commit murder #akari pls run away that guy will kill you #rei was the first victim of assassination i am very sorry /j #its all fun and games until a blonde guy pulls a giratina from his twin towers #praise the lord yall #pokemon legends volo #pokemon legends arceus #i would kms if i drew that outfit again i struggled so hard my legs were cut off #they gave me a heart attack after this #yes this is what i wear in pla dont judge me #its my biggest drip and i am all in for it #if volo ever showed up like this then i would question if he was either in antarctica or did arceus do smth to him to look like that #bro will fist fight god round 2 when #i would take him down (in bed /hj)

[brobotsbro]

post tfp movie where the Autobots are trying to rebuild Cybertron when some new bullshit arises they need to beat and then, unexpectedly, Megatron shows up from wherever he fucked off to at the end of the film and starts like, helping them out but he's like SUPER obviously begrudging about it and they're like.

Autobots: Why are you doing this. Why the fuck do you care.

Megatron: I am being haunted.

Autobots: ....by ..your sins....??

Megatron, through gritted teeth: no.

Ghost Optimus, who has recently graduated from Annoying Talking Ghost to Annoying Rock Throwing Ghost:

#i just personally love the idea of ghost optimus bullying megatron into cleaning up the mess he helped make #I AINT GET NO PEACE CAUSE OF Y'ALL. YALL NOT GONNA GET NO PEACE CAUSE OF ME. #also judging by the tv show i have also not watched where op is actually a ghost. bumblebee can see ghosts #so im also imagining everyone being like ok megatron has finally cracked his crock but hes not like attacking us so we will accept his help #albeit with one eye open and never turning their backs #except then bee gets back from Wherever he was for plot reasons and is like. #should i tell anyone hes telling the truth or let him suffer #optimus to bee: let him suffer

[malyen0retsev]

i feel like gen z need to be sat down and explicitly told it is ABSOLUTELY OK to say the wrong thing and do the wrong thing sometimes. growing up actually means fucking up, and if you spend your whole life paranoid of being ‘problematic’ then you are legitimately going to drive yourself into an anxiety induced meltdown. watching or reading ‘problematic’ media does not make you a bad person, and tbfh sometimes watching or reading said media (provided you keep your analytical brain switched on) is a good thing to do. because just as we learn by seeing what’s right to do, we also learn by seeing what’s not right to do. 

and without wishing to sound horrendously horrendously ‘i am in my mid twenties’, you don’t need to let the entire world know what you’re watching and reading. you actually don’t need to let the entire world know a damn thing about you, and i feel like a lot of the anxiety i see from gen-z online is this terror of being called problematic precisely because the boundaries for oversharing are next to non-existent. growing and changing and learning are a fundamental part of being a teenager, and you will say and do ‘problematic’ shit which will make you cringe in your twenties, and that’s absolutely ok because you will have learned from it. 

#and on a serious note too for the love of god stop digging up peoples tweets from a decade ago. that adds to this toxic cycle #i was an absolute moron in my teens idk how many times i have to say it #i grew up in a conservative area and went to christian camps do i need to Spell Out the sort of nonsense i believed as a teen #and would u look at me now. age 26 and queer and very open about the nonsense i used to say #and nobody judges me even slightly for it. because the consensus is just 'you were a teenager. you learned. you don't believe that anymore' #HOW SHOCKING THAT THE WORLD KEEPS TURNING #anyway that's admittedly my somewhat extreme experience lmao #but seeing younger teens rip themselves apart online for OH MY GOD I CAN'T BELIEVE I WATCHED THIS PROBLEMATIC TV SHOW #like my dudes when we were teens we used to look up clips from Saw on youtube FOR FUN #it's ok to make mistakes it's ok to be an idiot #what you've gotta be aware of is to stop documenting every single thing you have ever done online #because i swear it adds to the anxiety of 'what if someone calls me out on this' #just live and let live and don't actively be a prat and you'll be all good #ANYWAY #saw several posts about this this morning hence The Rant #sarah rambles #gen z #i guess??? #important

[wizardships]

ok time for my… blog intro! promo? this thing

hi my name is ✫ finn! ✫ i'd love to find more mutuals, especially ones who like THE LOCKED TOMB, THE SILMARILLION/LORD OF THE RINGS, and DELICIOUS IN DUNGEON. ok i love you bye!

#divider made by cafekitsune on tumblr! other images made by me #selfship promo #selfship #selfshipping community #.grimoire #god i really don't want this post to show up in the main fandom tags idr if tumblr still uses text from the body of the post along with tag #but i also didn't want to fuck up readability with a bunch of slashes and stuff #sooo if you know me and you're gonna judge. simply look away #i made this blog a while ago but went inactive for a bit there #but i want to interact with peopleee esp to talk about sources and stuff bc a lot of the things i like i don't have many people if any to #talk to about them and it's killing meeeee

[starrystevie]

eddie munson vague tweeting about steve harrington  

#steddie #steve harrington #eddie munson #stranger things #yes i use light mode for twitter don't judge me #soon enough i'm only going to be known for being a eddie munson as a biter believer #i got kicked out of showing up in the tags again rip

[cinnamon-phrog]

Can I please have some comfort right now, if that's okay? People are watching me.

#i'm being impersonated and harassed #every day people in my past still try to find me. and i'm scared #not of what they might find. i have nothing to hide. but it's the constant fear of being watched and never being free #i'll never be free from the people who hurt me because they'll always find me somehow #i shouldn't be feeling so awful but at the same time. #i pour myself out to help others yet in return i get 'oh it doesn't bother me' and 'i've had it worse'. as if i doubt that for a second. #but please. not everyone has the same amount of emotional endurance. my patience has worn completely thin. #people i've known on here to be the most disgusting scum of the earth who no matter how many times i block them still show up in my inbox. #people from my old school still think they can get to me. a person who lied to me still wastes their time watching me #someone who i cared about the most probably still watches on and it's breaking me. #it always has been but i'm the sensible one. i'm not allowed to do this. i shouldn't be writing this but i'm getting desperate #i've taken deep breaths. i've drank water. i've done everything plus things i should not have to ease it off. #maybe the reason why i love puppets and artificial characters because i'm always used like one. like i'm a toy to break or put away #stupid analogy everyone has made for themselves but i'm done trying to be a good writer. the composer. #i want to feel without being judged but of course that's impossible. it's fine when it's strangers but relentless stalkers? it's wrecking m #it has been for ages but i was scared to say because i'm used to apathy and false promises. #i keep forgetting things and hurting myself. i'm getting scared.