#she's been doing so bad this week

[storyofair]

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#I'm not sure how much time our dog has left #she's nearly 14 and we found out she had liver cancer a couple months ago #after 3 years of battling and winning against an autoimmune disorder that almost killed her #she's been doing so bad this week #and tonight she refused food for the first time in her life #i just don't want her to be in pain

[extra-somethin-somethin]

If nothing else Koenma is a Kuwabara stan and I'm right there with him o7 (I need to write the kuwameshi fic that goes with this fr)

#maybe one day i'll write that au i have sitting in my head #ever since the comment he made about making kuwa spirit detective instead ive been thinking about it #like...what if yusuke is still recruited same as canon but like #kuwa was already spirit detective? doing assignments for the guys upstairs and all #and they made yusuke help him after his resurrection instead of going solo #and it's hilarious because they still have the ''rivalry'' set in place so it's like #now i gotta be coworkers with this guy i was in a fist fight with last week? #yusuke is like you can't be serious you want me to fight DEMONS with the guy who cant even beat ME? lmaooo okay #kuwa would be more in tune with his powers atp in this au and super offended like hello #why would i use my reiki on a FELLOW HUMAN CHILD you DICK i can hold my own on my assignments just fine #but he's actually really excited to be able to spend time with yusuke doing something besides getting his ass handed to him #they're both genkai's students (she's endlessly annoyed but they grow on her) #i just think it'd be fun cos like #it'd be harder to exclude kazuma from shit if he's literally been involved in this shit before he even met #kurama and hiei #kuwabara isn't really told about yusuke's resurrection so things go mostly the same up til he's brought back #they're both called to koenma's office and it's the spiderman pointing meme 💀 #it's koenma's first time seeing kuwa in person as he usually just sends assignments with botan #yusuke has already seen him cos of the resurrection arc #and koenma is SUCH a fanboy ''kuwabara it's such a pleasure. you know you're my best worker 🥺'' #''um urameshi am i seeing things or is that a fuckin baby'' yusuke will NOT stop laughing #it fucks koenma up so bad he makes sure he's in his adult form when he's around kuwa next #cos he wants to be the respected boss but also guy that you can chill with!! he's so cringe #okay yeah i need to write this it's such a fun concept #kuwameshi #yu yu hakusho #kuwabara kazuma #yusuke urameshi #koenma

[wikiangela]

seven sentence sunday

tagged by @diazsdimples 💖

I'm still jumping between wips so here's another snippet of the cheating fic, this time a bit of Buck and Taylor arguing - I can't explain how much fun I'm having with this fic, this is so not my usual thing but it's just so fun haha

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“Can we do this tomorrow?” he asks, bringing his hand to squeeze the bridge of his nose. He’s getting a headache.

“No, we’re doing this now. Tell me what’s up.” she says, pulling at the covers when he tries to cover himself and turn away again. 

“Jesus, Taylor, let it go. I’m fine. And it’s none of your business.” he snaps, pulling at the duvet a little harder.

“Fine.” he hears rustling, then the bed shifting. She got up. The light on her nightstand is still on. “I thought since we’re together, and live together, we’re pretty serious, and now you’re weird around me, and you don’t even touch me, so I thought it was my business, but clearly I was wrong.” she talks as she walks up to his- their closet and starts getting dressed. Now Buck looks at her, leaning up on his elbows.

“What are you doing?” he asks with a sigh, watching as she takes off her nightshirt and starts putting on jeans. “Where are you going?”

“None of your business.” she replies, her tone feeling like a slap in the face. Buck deserves the real thing, actually.

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#buddie cheating fic #seven sentence sunday #fic snippet #buddie #buddie fic #buddie wip #wikiangela writes #my writing #my wips #fic: got a girl at home (but I love the way you taste) #i was planning to write smth more before work but i had a bad morning so have this haha #they're not fighting directly about eddie just yet but also they kinda do taylor just doesn't know it lol #(also at this point they've lived together for only two weeks and buck's been weird the whole time so she finally snapped lol) #i know this isn't everyones cup of tea but tbh this is one of the very few things i felt excitement about lately so ill take what i can get #reminder that buck is lowkey the worst in this lmao sorry 🤣 tho they're all kinda the worst so whatever 🤣

[zeb-z]

bad and tina’s conversation today starting about what it truly means to be ‘okay’, and the importance of perspective. how people who are hurt one way can be okay another, or visa verca, how there are different kinds of ‘okay’, how those who are being asked if they’re okay can not know themselves that they’re not okay, because their sense of self or reality or perception of such can be warped. forever with the reality pills, for example.

bad, in that way that he does, feeling out if he can answer something honestly. asking roundabout questions and dodging those that he gets in return, until dropping the truth in a way that’s earth shattering, before pretending it’s a joke. only it isn’t a joke, it’s really a cry for help, he just can’t ever be straightforward about anything. not with himself, especially not with others.

he tells tina, finally, about what he’s been doing to himself. maybe because she wasn’t pressing to see if he’s okay, but pressing instead to see if he trusted her. and he’s been all about giving pieces of info to islanders lately to see if they’ve been trustworthy. this way he gets to ignore the fact that he’s not okay, gets to drop a truth bomb that is almost a cry for help, and trap tina with a secret so locked up it will definitely expose her as a traitor should it get out. outlandish enough he can pretend it’s a joke or lie to everyone else should push come to shove, because he’s ‘okay’ - of course he’s okay, why wouldn’t he be, it’s the eggs that aren’t okay.

but that’s the thing - being ‘okay’ is about perspective, and his has been terribly warped. he’s been color blind for weeks, he hardly looks at himself in the mirror, his sense of reality has been twisted due to sleep deprivation and grief.

their conversation ends with him, for the first time, acknowledging the fact that he is changing. finally taking tina literally, shocked that he’s physically turning blue. a shift in perspective. an admission, a self realization, however small, that he’s not as ‘okay’ as he thinks he is. he’s not okay at all.

#bad going ‘people can be not okay and not know it because their perception is warped. anyways tina I’m torturing myself and can’t tell - #- that I’m physically changing because of it’ like WHAT IS SHE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THIS BAD #‘it’s all about perspective’ and he’s been dropping for weeks now that his is flawed. color blind. hallucinating. etc etc. like for the love #of god #meta talk here but bbh is so good at setting up characters like this. so good at taking these conversations and using metaphors and #making a build up that has the littlest thing give meaning. going on a seemingly unrelated tangent and then with a few words tying it back #to everything important #ugh #mcyt #qsmp #q!bbh #bbh #q!tina #tinakitten #z speaks

[kheyys-worms]

screenshot redraw attempt--

#dungeon meshi #delicious in dungeon #falin touden #doodle dump #what have i been up to these days? I'VE BEENS SIMPING OVER THIS WOMAN #ooughhhh #when i tell y'all i'm down bad for her-- #THE NEWEST EPISODE HAD ME SO WEAK ON THE KNEES OTL OTL #SHE'S SOOOO.... BEAUTIFUL. MAJESTIC. BREATHTAKING. ETHEREAL!!! #PLEASE... CHIMERA FALIN-- JUST GIVE ME ONE CHANCE #She can step on me and crush me with her dragon claws and i'd be resurrected just so she can do it all over again <33 #marcille 🤝me : being an absolute gay disaster for her #HAPPY LESBIAN VISIBILITY WEEK FOLKS (From me: a disaster bi)

[spaciebabie]

shoutout 2 this person in my class who i can tell wants 2 talk 2 me really bad but instead of doing that whenever she has the chance she'll talk 2 whoever else is around and ignore me entirely unless im mentioned by name

#bruh lmao #so awkward. say something you dingus lol #ik you wanna talk 2 me so bite the bullet already #gyatt #spacie spoinks #literally. she was having a conversation with my partner for the project im doing. and like #heres the thing #if im not invited into conversation i usually dont participate #im like a vampire like that #and so like. after they're done conversating she'll just kind of. stand there. this has happened twice now #like dude sdkfjshlkdfj #im not upset by this behavior i have very awful social patterns as well and have been thru this (i am autistic) #am i gonna hafta say something. lol #probably #''hey bro whats up with you. i dont mean like how are you doing. i mean like. whats wrong with you.'' #cant say that its not funny when you say it irl only when the ppl you're talking with know you're not being mean 😭 #also like. this person has been staring at me lol #which like. makes me flustered so whenever she's around i panic and my face fucking turns red its god awful #for awhile it made uhh. my paranoia get really bad im ngl!! #its already bad when it comes 2 being around strangers but this like made it REALLY bad for a few weeks #im more calm now tho. rational brain won over and im chillin #i gotta work up the courage 2 say something b4 the semester is over or this is gonna bother me for the rest of my life sfkjsdhflkjs #i dont wanna put her on the spot #the only time i see her is when im in class #and . doing that interaction in front of ppl. i dont wanna embarrass her ksjfskjd

[deus-and-the-machina]

I think an underlooked part of what shaped jin’s mindset was how even back in Torna, he was considered “property”. He and Lora spent their whole lives avoiding the authorities of Torna because they believed would straight up execute Lora to get Jin back, and no one ever denies it. and this has seemingly been a fear since Lora was a child. Jin had to hide his face everywhere he went. Maybe Torna wouldn’t have been cruel enough to execute a child, especially since the king seemed decent(?) enough, if not a bit distant. But the fact it was even a fear at all for Lora since she was so young is just awful to think about. 

According to his past self’s journals, Jin and his old driver fought in a war of independence for Torna, perhaps what made him a hero to begin with. and because he’s a war hero for deeds he doesn’t even remember, the kingdom considers him owned by them. Which is on the nose in two different ways ngl. Both in how the Blades are seen and a wider metaphor of soldiers/state. idk it’s just very sad to think about

#I think a lot of people (esp people who dont really interact with the actual story of 2) boil jins motives down to lora too often #like yes her death sent him spiraling but his actual motives dont like. actually have much to do with her directly. it contributed to his #bad mental state that allowed him to get to that point but he still has plenty of reasons to hate how blades are treated and hes right! #its also why 'lora wouldn't have wanted this' doesnt really matter to him. yeah she wouldnt have. she's also been dead for ages so what does #it matter? like hes definitely not coping healthily mans is constantly retraumatizing himself by keeping her body around but like #he knows she's dead hes accepted it so hes doing better than N at least! jin hates being immortal but he stays alive to keep Loras memory #alive. but the longer he lives the more and more awful shit he sees and the more it breaks him. but he cant die bc then the only person left #who really knew lora would be gone (Minoth is alive too but he knew her for like several weeks at most alsfjakfjljfsa) and thats the curse #xenoblade #xenoblade chronicles #jin #siren says

[oatbugs]

it's just not going to work it feels bad but it has to happen but breakups that happen when nothing in particular has gone wrong and it's just an issue of like...paths in life/compatibility etc etc, where otherwise you actually rly do love the person, are so hard !! like i care for u i still want to be ur friend it just wont work in a romantic way !!

#its 1yr+ relationship too i care abt her so much #we just both deserve to feel fulfilled and i dont currently feel that way its not rly her fault i think we were just meant 2 be friends #and not lovers but somehow that makes it worse ?? like im glad im not on bad terms w her ofc i love her a lot #but it makes it harder to get over yk #....i hope we can still be friends idk idk !! #she has been my best friend for a while #breakup happening in 1 week from now. i keep delaying this decision but it rly rly has to be done #we r just...fundementally missmatched and we both need to be w ppl who we can grow with #i think we could grow together if we were just friends but aughh its sl ahrd ik being friends after a breakup rarely ever works out #my friends say its like a 50/50 chance if u break up on good terms #anyway being the person doint the breaking up is hard !!! #also i have been doing kind of super badly recently and i think i need some time to figure stuff out w my own mental health too

[monkshooded]

So sick of the "independent and feisty" hermione characterisation... this is a woman who smells her crush in love potions, sees him in magical mirrors of desire, calms down at his scent, and threatens to kill him if he even considers divorce

#i think its so funny that ron was like omg we've been married for soooo long 🥰 and hermione was like so u want? a divorce?? #why would that be your first conclusion!! #hint: it's because she's mad at him for marrying padma patil in a different parallel universe #hermione is definitely the kind of person who has a terrible dream about ron kissing some other broad #and then gives him the cold shoulder for a week #which. ron was also this person. #look i rlly do think they're just a SMIDGE toxic during their school years bc of how BAD they are at this being in love with your bff thing #but god. its so fucking FUN #get worse! throw up on the street bc she kissed someone else!! commit aggravated battery bc he got a girlfriend !!! KISS WITH A FIST DOT MP3 #theyre so monumentally possessive about each other u can tell they just want to. live inside each others ribcages. #sorry for being crass. but you know they fuck nasty after the war.

[kimtaegis]

updated my mom on all the bts solo releases I haven’t shown her yet since Like Crazy tonight and at the very end she shazamed Snooze and said that was her favourite song of the whole night

#I love her so much I really do #the fact that she just lets me show her video after video #and listens to me ramble about them #:( #and god I miss yoongi so so much you have no idea #it’s been really bad the past week and it’s just getting worse #she said I should MESSAGE HIM after I told her he’s just kind of the perfect man for me lmaoooo #so sweet

[wraenata]

Hi Wren how have you been?

Hi Koi! I hope you're doing well! Every beautiful art and comic you make touches my heart!

I'm doing ok. I just have really low energy. It's really frustrating because I don't have any energy to do the things I enjoy doing, and it feels like every day it gets worse 😔 I finally made an appointment with my doctor to see if anything is wrong, but it's not til October 17 sadly. Things have just been going downhill for a long time.

I'm just really sad that even after unfollowing a lot of blogs, which I hated doing, I still can't muster the energy to get through my dash and leave the tags I want to. It makes me sad. I've missed and will continue to miss amazing things and I don't like that.

I've also been worried about my cat Sally's weight and appetite lately, though the last couple days she's been eating better which is good. I just worry a lot.

Umm, I need a positive. I ordered the build a bear bulbasaur for my birthday which is in a week. He makes me smile. His name is Yarrow 🌱 Not even 5 pound Sally for scale <3

#wren askbox #thank you koi you are so wonderful #yarrow is my first pokemon plushie #also ive been having a lot of bad headaches lately which sucks #and all i want to do when i get home from work is close my eyes #amd i saw my gi specialist this week and she told me my nausea is all in my head so #i mean things could be better #tw vent #yeah this was venty im sorry #im just very open about my problems sorry #but i have amazing friends who help me feel better #all you on tumblr are so wonderful to me i appreciate you all #also i want to do so much art #today i worked on my 2al collab comic panel #trying hard but art has been so much harder than it used to be #anyways sorry koi #i appreciate you and all the amazing art you make

[daandori]

being at home alone on the weekends is like. ah. the emptiness

#the talkies #gets off work and spirals immediately #tbh ive rly been feeling in the trenches loneliness-wise and i always think #do i rly want a bf or do i just want a friend who will actually hang out with me and talk with me regularly lol #like is it so bad to want a conversation with someone who isnt my mom #more than once a week #as usual i have 0 plans bc everyone else is spending time with their bfs or family #mom said we were gonna spend time together on easter sunday bc its the first weekend day in forever that im not working #but she left with her bf instead #sighs im just being emo #should probably be using all this time alone to apply for jobs 🙃

[candyredterezii]

That hotel I had an in person interview with hasn't got back to me ... It's so fucking over

#candyredtext #its been a week since yesterday and i called and left a voice message yesterday #but i did fumble it v bad cus i was rlly nervous #and the lady said she wanted to get her interviews done by the end of the week and such so #idk. #also the fact i was so for sure i was gonna get this job im like #im gonna jinx it now tho cus im so confident and well :') #IT WOULDVE BEEN A GOOD AND PERFECT JOB HONESTLY... I WOULDVE EVEN BEEN MAKING MORE THAN I DO NOW #GUHGUUGFHD

[tardis--dreams]

You know what? I give up on this paper once and for all. I'm not even ashamed anymore

#okay I'm a little ashamed #it's another 5 points i have to catch up with next semester #but it's making me want to kill myself and i don't even know if the professor would still accept it #(the original deadline was in October. i got an official extension until November. i guess it'd be just rude #to ask if it was still okay to send it #especially since i haven't done any substantial work on it #it's just bad. i hate the topic. i hate the way the professor views the subject 'language and emotion' #so that i cannot write what i want but would have to tailor it towards her views because otherwise I'd fail #and also i cannot write in german. i simply can not do it. ) #it's better to move on and focus on my last paper for last semester (official deadline is end of March #so I'm not behind for once) #and i should do the assignments for a module i should have finished 1 year ago #so i don't have to do that next semester #and i should start studying korean again so i don't make a complete fool of myself next semester #I have my first day of work in 2 weeks so I'll also have to focus on working (for money) from there on #I've been paralyzed by the thought of having to write this paper for way too long #the professor is not my boss anymore (i still have to work off some hours though) and even if she was #I'm so done being ashamed of myself for not being able to do certain things #i wanna give it my best from now on but not for this paper. it's done. #void screams

[maygrcnt]

i think i make it very obvious that season five is my least favorite season of 911 by miles, but in hindsight isn’t it absolutely bonkers insane that they gave us all that in 4x14 and then proceeded to spend a half season EACH to meticulously break up the two relationships that they’d previously spent SEASONS setting up for both buck and eddie?

that’s literally crazy. the shooting is THE first domino you cannot change my mind.

#911 on fox #911 fox #buddie #like maybe it wouldn’t have been FUN for anyone involved but it would have been so so easy to make eddie’s character arc about #learning to grow into a new dakiki dynamic with ana #and it would have been so easy to make bucks arc about learning to accept taylor for her faults just as she accepts him for his #but they literally didn’t #they took an entire season of this show to make both eddie and buck do BAD things to their partners #they made them into bad partners #in order to specifically paint us the picture that they’re only going to BE good partners when they’re with eachother #and not only good partners but better and healthier people #okay idk what the hell a dakiki is but pretend that said family*** #i stg if i don’t get the tag editing feature in the next week i’ll cry

[indigodawns]

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#been sitting here for 1.5 hours now trying to decide if i should go see my friend as promised #or not. basically i texted earlier like heyy sorry can we do tomorrow im all over the place (mentally extra unstable*) i don't wanna #make you deal with that #but she said she might not be able to do tomorrow and she's told me she hates when ppl cancel bc so many ppl have been #cancelling on her and yk. feels bad. so i really should go but im also just. ??? #idk what it was but today is just so not it ive been crying a bunch and barely working and i v much needed #my noise cancelling headphones on the train and then i just kept them on for 1 #and then i just kept them on when i got home and ive just been on my bed scrolling and trying to decide dhsjsjdjd #yes i was supposed to work 8 hours today 💀💀💀 #so that's the other part like if i go see my friend i know tomorrow will probably be rougher and i also need to work then yk #ugh anyways i should go we can just chill im sure #* headphone context for myself bc im just like 🤨🤨 am i just kinda sad and tired today or do i really need to rest #anyways. Thoughts? dhsjjdjdjd #other context is that my friend rly isn't doing good at all and i haven't seen her in a week and it's been #even longer since we could talk 1 on 1 #like 2 weeks rip #maybe i just need food tbh ive mostly had sugary stuff today rip