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midnightonparis · 1 year
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ꩻ ֹ 🎸 𓈒 𝗋◌ֹ𝖼ִ𝗄 𝖻ׁ𝗈ׅᦴּ𝗌 𝖽ּ𝗈ׄ𝗇ׅ'᭄͡︎⠀𝖼݂𝗋ׁᦴ︎ ☠⠀鎲莓 ͟ ꩜ ⌣
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i66knot · 2 years
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like or reblog. 😼
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ahjussistuff · 3 years
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👻 Park Seong Hwa icons
👻 Don’t repost or claim as yours
👻 Reblog or like if you save/use
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naatydabin94 · 5 years
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yes!
Gray is a fire ok hahaha
Gray icons
Aomg Icons
Gray body / abs
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heoldramaicons · 6 years
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wtfkdramaislife · 3 years
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Hometown Cha Cha Cha
— 2021
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(REVIEW)
Cast:
Shin Min-ah as Yoon Hye-jin
Kim Seon-ho as Hong Du-sik
Lee Sang-yi as Ji Seong-hyun
Gongjin: Yoon Dental Clinic
Gong Min-jeung as Pyo Mi-seon
Gongjin: Grannies
Kim Young-ok as Kim Gam-ri
Lee Yong-lee as Lee Mat-yi
Shin Shin-ae as Park Sook-ja
Gongjin: Police
Kang Hyung-seok as Choi Eun-chul
Gongjin: Hwajeong Raw Fish Restaurant
Lee Bong-ryun as Yeo Hwa-jung
In Gyo-jin as Jang Young-guk
Ki Eun-yoo as Jang Yi-joon
Gongjin: Gongjin Korean-Chinese Restaurant
Cha Chung-hwa as Jo Nam-sook
Gongjin: Coffee By Day and Beer By Night
Jo Han-chul as Oh Chun-jae
Kim Min-seo as Oh Ju-ri
Gongjin: Bora Supermarket/Chung-Ho Hardware Store
Kim Ju-yeon as Ham Yun-gyeong
Yoon Seok-hyun as Choi Geum-cheol
Ko Do-yeon as Choi Bo-ra
Gongjin: Cheongjin Elementary School
Hong Ji-hee as Yu Cho-hui
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La la la la la la la la la.. Romantic Sunday.. 🍃🍃
This OST is probably the most iconic in this K-drama and everytime I listen to it, I remember all the scenes in this show.
I was so excited when I heard Kim Seon-ho (which I watched from Start-Up) and Shin Min-ah (which is one of my favorites!!) will pair up in a new K-drama. It’s been a while since I watched Oh My Venus and when I saw Min-ah in HomeCha, OMG!! Nothing has changed!! Those iconic dimples from My Girlfriend is a Gumiho!!! 🥰🥰🥰 Idk I was just soooo happy to watch her again.
I love this show not only because of Shin Min-ah but also of the story itself. The dynamics of the whole characters, their stories.. everything. It’s really the “healing” drama we all need.
In my opinion, here are some of the highlights of this K-drama:
1. Gongjin
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Ahhhhh this town.. ❤️ It reminds me of my province and how simple life is. Sometimes, especially in how fast-paced our lives are, what we need is a breather. And this place is a perfect example for it. The sea, the nature surrounding it, the people, the food, everything is just perfect. How I wish there really is “Gongjin” that we could all visit and just.. breathe.
2. The Gongjin Squad
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OMG!! I don’t really know how to describe all of them or each of them but so far, they are the best characters I’ve ever watched. They’re so fun to watch and everyone has a story to tell. There’s a lot to say about each of the characters but I’ll just leave it like this. Just watch it! ☺️
3. SikHye couple ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
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Okay okay!!!!! This couple is really relationship goals! I just love how compatible their characters are to each other. Their love story is not the typical “you and me against the world” or “I can’t be with you but I love you”. Their relationship isn’t the toxic type. I really cried on the part where Hye-jin said that she’s willing to wait until Du-sik is ready to open up about his past, his feelings and his thoughts then at the right time, he did and that’s the beauty of their relationship.
4. “Everyone has there own struggles in life. Always be kind.”
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This is one of the lessons, the most important actually, that I’ve learned from this K-drama. Each of the characters has something going on in their lives, just like us. Sometimes we thought these things are just “little things” and that we will get over it but the truth is, these little things might turn into bigger ones if we just keep it to ourselves. Sometimes it’s good to have someone who’s willing to listen. Even just to lend an ear. It’s not easy, I know, but if we just let someone in, it’s a big relief.
There’s a lot to say about this K-drama but I’ll just end it with this quote from Hometown Cha Cha Cha’s last scene. Please please!! Watch it!! 🥰🥰🥰
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Story: 🎬🎬🎬🎬🎬
Enjoyment: 🤩🤩🤩🤩🤩
Will watch again? YES YES YES!!!!
(all photos from pinterest)
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shineicone · 2 years
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ㅤㅤㅤㅤ🎨 New Posts! ↷ ㅤㅤㅤ
ㅤㅤㅤ Park Seong Hwa Here.
♡ saved? like or reblog ⇆
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holy-yeosang · 3 years
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please accept park seong hwa into your heart... i promise it's easier this way, join us <3
i get you tho... takes me back to my beginnings as an atiny, i had san related username, claimed hongjoong was my bias and had him as my icon, but talked about seonghwa the most 🤭
Bold of you to think I'd give up HongSang for... him >_>
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backinblack1967 · 4 years
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The Annual Feeling of Loss or You’re Never Alone (Seonghwa x Reader)
A/N: Hi, everyone! :) Over the years I’ve written several little stories but never had the courage to post them online. I’ve been struggling with the death of my dad the past few months and what better way to cope with it than with writing it down, I thought. So, I made a one-shot with ATEEZ and a reader insert. If you don’t want to read about it, you are warned. (Please be warned that English isn’t my mother tongue, either.)  
To be honest, this one is more fluff and (bad) humour after the initial angst. Feel free to leave a comment, ask me about anything or maybe even leave a request for a future scenario.
XXX Sarah
Seonghwa x Reader x platonic!ATEEZ
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네가 힘이 들고 지칠 때 When it’s hard and you’re tired
찾게 되는 그 곳, 나 그 곳이 될게 the place you’re looking for, I’ll become this place
아무 것도 놓을 수 없어서 when you have nowhere to lean on
삶이 버거울 때 꼭 네 곁이 될게 when life is too much, I will be next to you
(BTS - With Seoul)
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It was that day again. You had dreaded it for the last 2 years and you hated yourself for it. When your father had been alive it had been a funny coincidence that your birthday was on the exact day before his, but when he’d died you had come to loathe both of your birthdays because they had become a constant reminder that you’d never see him again. Never hear his voice again or feel his arms around you in one of his famous bear hugs.
Yesterday you had celebrated your birthday with your friends, trying to suppress the rising feeling of dread and sadness. Currently, you were sitting in a small café, or more like hiding from your best friends you whom were living with. You could try bullshitting them with the excuse of cramps or a migraine, but some would undoubtedly see behind your carefully constructed façade.
And so, you had gone out in the early hours of the day to seek refuge and distraction in the crowds. You were currently sitting in the farthest corner with a cup of warm chocolate in front of you and your iPad and pencil in the other, trying to force the thoughts from your head onto the canvas. Sometimes drawing them helped to forget a little. Or to remember the fond moments you were especially frightened of forgetting over time.
This morning, when you had opened your old chat to listen to his voice again, you had barely been able to contain your cries. The audio messages were still there but the little icon on top which should show his picture had been empty. Maybe it was because he had been offline for too long and at that thought, uncontrollable sobs had taken over your body. You had decided to leave your shared flat then because you didn’t want to ruin their short time off by bringing their jovial mood down.
You had left a note on the kitchen table saying you would be back in the evening and that they shouldn’t wait up if it got later.
You figured if you could only get through today you would be fine tomorrow. Distract yourself until nightfall, sneak in and sleep it off.
Admittedly, you had entertained the thought of talking to Yun-ho this morning and whether you would feel better wrapped in his arms but then you had decided against it. You didn’t want to burden either of them and you really didn’t want them to see you as weak. For good measure, you had turned off your mobile phone so you wouldn’t be tempted to call them or your mom.
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What you didn’t know was that back in the dorm every sense of carefreeness had been abandoned hours ago. San hadn’t been particularly worried when he had found your note first – sometimes you just ventured off to calm places to concentrate.
He couldn’t blame you when their dorm resembled a playground filled with 5-year olds high on sugar more often than not. He had been curious why you would be staying out late on a weekend but Hong-joong had reminded him that people like them needed the occasional day off to gather inspiration and that you would surely confide in them if something was bothering you.
They had unanimously decided to wait up for you to ask if anything was wrong but to otherwise leave you be for the time you were away. However, San had seen Seong-hwa and Yeo-sang trying to sneakily call you several times through the day. When he had asked them about it, both of them had admitted that they had a bad gut feeling. Both of them had been with you on some of your “alone days” without the others knowing, so their feelings wouldn’t get hurt. When he had gathered all of his team members to tell them exactly that, they had been surprised to hear because as it turned out you had always taken one of them with you when you had gone out “alone”.
Now they were worried. Had something happened? Had they unknowingly done something to hurt your feelings? Or had it been someone else? Jong-ho had oh so kindly offered to beat up anyone who might have hurt their girl, Min-gi volunteering as well. Both Hong-joong and Woo-young had hurriedly convinced them not to do it, in remembrance of the last incident.
And then the phone had rung.
And it wasn’t who they had expected. An angry, high-pitched female voice had greeted Yun-ho on the other end, making his smile drop. That wasn’t you. And she was neither speaking Korean nor English. He picked up two familiar words, however, in her rant: your name and the word “papa”. With wide eyes he told Hong-joong and thrust the phone at him as if it would bite him any minute.
Hong-joong switched the phone to speaker as he waited for a break in her venomous monologue. They winced from the apparent fury in her tone without even understanding what she was saying. When she paused to draw breath, Hong-joong hurriedly interrupted her in English.
“I’m sorry, I assume you want to talk to Y/N, but she’s currently out. May I ask who you are?”
The woman’s voice had turned condescending at that, mocking him for his “horrible” English pronunciation in a sickly-sweet tone before she continued to rant about her little irresponsible and stupid sister who wouldn’t even come home for her deceased father’s birthday. Like, who did she think she was? Not even calling her elder sister to ask her if she was alright on such a somber day. Hong-joong didn’t detect a smidgen of sadness in her voice or any compassion for her family member. And suddenly your absence made incredibly much more sense.
He figured he would let her let off steam before getting rid of her and looking for you with his brothers. It was twenty minutes later when he couldn’t stand the insults hurled towards you anymore and told her to shut up (which shocked his members as they’d never heard him speak less than respectful to strangers or older people). He had tried to tell her of your compassion and warm heart, how you helped everyone around you and brightened their days. But for every positive trait or deed your sister had responded with another insult which were growing more and more farfetched.
They others weren’t too good in English but with certain familiar keywords, their leader’s expression and the tone of the woman’s voice they could piece together the gist of what was being said. Even Yun-ho’s patience began wearing thin as he watched Joong’s expression turning more and more agitated and downright hurt.
He threw a glance at their eldest who held a pensive expression on his face as he stared off into the distance. When Seong-hwa noticed Yun-ho’s pleading gaze and the various distressed and confused faces around him, he lightly tapped on Hong-joong’s shoulder to get his attention.
“Joong, don’t you want to end this conversation? It doesn’t seem to go anywhere… Could you wrap it up and tell us what exactly is going on?”
He nodded and said a few sentences to the other person on the phone that left her silent with surprise.
“You will have to stop right there, miss. I won’t tolerate you insulting my friend any longer. I have no idea how you got this number but please refrain from calling again or I will see myself forced to talk to our manager and lawyer. Have a good day.”
There was a brief silence before Yeo-sang voiced what all of them were thinking.
“So… who exactly was that and why were they so angry at Y/N?”
Hong-joong explained that your older sister had called from home and that today was the birthday of your father who had died two years ago, shortly before his birthday back then, too.
San hugged Woo-young when his face crumbled into sadness at the news. He could vividly imagine what it meant to lose a family member and he didn’t wish that kind of devastating heartache on any of the people he considered family.
Hong-joong couldn’t bring himself to repeat the insults your sister had hurled at you and relied as much to the others. He was visibly angry whereas Seong-hwa looked more concerned.
“Should we go look for her? Do you have any idea where she could be?”
“Don’t you think we should give her some space until she comes back, Hwa? I mean, she obviously had a reason to leave for the day.”
Yun-ho trailed off unsurely because he didn’t want to do anything else besides wrap you in his arms and to cuddle the sadness away.
“I think we should wait here. Don’t get me wrong, I want nothing more than to be with her right now, either, but we don’t know where to start searching. And what if she comes home while we’re running around Seoul? Let’s just wait and cheer her up when she returns,” proposed Yeo-sang, ever the voice of reason, although he didn’t seem to be happy about it. “I don’t want to overwhelm her or make her uncomfortable.”
Min-gi was the first one to agree. “Then can we prepare a movie evening and order take-out?”
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It was dark when you decided you had wallowed in self-pity and bitter-sweet memories for long enough. You trudged through the darkened streets until you found yourself staring up at the building of your dorm. You had decided to come home earlier than planned because you honestly couldn’t take being alone anymore.
You needed their smiles and distracting chaos to ground yourself in the present and to remind yourself that everything would be okay at the end of the day.
You forced a smile on your face as you walked up the flights of stairs towards your home. Shortly before you reached the front door, you turned on your phone again only to take note of the several missed calls, all of them from your extended little family except one from your sister. You weren’t sorry that you had missed hers, she would have solely reproached you anyway for your so-called heartless behaviour towards her.
You stuffed your phone into your jeans pocket, touched that they had tried reaching out to you despite your little note. You felt childish for ignoring them now.
You had barely unlocked the front door and put your keys on the hook next to it, when something slammed into you and wrapped their arms around your shoulders. Another one joining seconds after at your back. Blinking in surprise, you returned the hugs and automatically your uptight body went lax in their hold.
You felt surrounded and loved and so completely at home.
Judging from the familiar scents, you were currently between San and Min-gi. Over the latter’s shoulder you could see Woo-young nervously bouncing on the balls of his feet. You smiled at him and it felt less forced than all the hours before. When you beckoned with your hand towards him, he bound over to your little bunch and joined the tangled mess. You giggled at their puppy-like behaviour.
“Did something happen? What’s gotten into you, not that I’m complaining?”
“We just missed you,” came Woo-young’s muffled reply.
You smiled at his admission, “I missed you, too. All of you.”
When you had untangled yourself from the hug a few minutes later, Min-gi took your hand and led you towards the grand couch in the living room.
You took in the other members sitting on the couch and on the nest of pillows and blankets before it, with steaming take-out containers scattered in various places.
“Okay, something definitely happened. Are we celebrating a new song? Do I need to beat somebody up?”
You earned various smiles for that and Seong-hwa patted the free space between him and Yun-ho on the couch. You accepted his invitation and after they had wrapped their arms over your shoulders you inquired once more, “Now tell me. What happened?”
There was a tense silence before Hong-joong spoke. “Your sister called today.”
Dread replaced your uplifted mood as you felt the smile slip from your face. In a small voice you asked, “What did she say? … Oh my god, I’m so sorry, guys. I don’t know how she got this number.”
Yeo-sang hushed you from his place at your feet, one hand running up your knee.
“Don’t worry. I don’t think she will call again. But why didn’t you tell us about today? You know you can tell us anything. We love you.”
You fiddled with your fingers, touched by his sincere words.
“I love you guys, too. It’s just- I just didn’t want to bother you on your small holiday. And I thought that if I … don’t need comfort or if I don’t talk about it, it would go away sooner. Like it didn’t actually happen.”
Hearing your reasons out loud made you wince because of how pathetic they sounded. You really were childish.  And as horrible as your sister said, for trying to forget your father’s death. I’m sorry, papa. I miss you.
Your self-deprecating train of thoughts was interrupted by a soft palm on your right cheek.  
“Sweetheart, whatever you’re thinking right now – stop. You’re not stupid for trying to forget or for being insecure. And you can always come to us if something is bothering you. Have you forgotten the many times you were there for us? Isn’t that right, guys?”
All around the room, there were affirmative nods and assuring smiles. You smiled and leaned subconsciously into his touch.
“I- I think I know, Hwa. I was just being stupid. Sorry for worrying you.”
He leaned in with a soft smile until his forehead and nose were touching yours. You squirmed at his closeness and your obvious blush on display for all of them. He had always been a bit touchy-feely with you, but you had passed it off as Woo-young, Min-gi and San rubbing off on the other members.
You were sure your crush was blatantly obvious right now. Your love for Seong-wha went far beyond the platonic kind and you had been afraid to tell him – or anyone – in fear of making things awkward. But in that moment, as he gazed deeply into your eyes, you could have sworn he felt the same for you.
Your little bubble was interrupted by Woo-young’s coos and Jong-ho clearing his throat.
“So, uh… can we start movie night now? I’m famished.”
You all laughed at that, but you still caught the knowing smiles on their faces. Seong-hwa winked at you when he retreated slightly.
You barely registered Yun-ho mumbling something about popcorn, being far too occupied with Seong-wha draping a blanket over the both of you and engulfing your hand underneath it with his bigger one. You snuggled closer to him, leaning your head on his shoulder. The need for comfort and skin-ship was making you a little bolder than usual.
Yun-ho and Min-gi returned with two big bowls of popcorn and snuggled back into the pillow fort. The next few hours were spent laughing at the people in the movie, munching popcorn and gorging on your favourite take-out.
Sometimes happy moments made you sad when you realized you wouldn’t get to share them with your father. This time, you felt whole and as if you could face any problems as long as they stayed by your side.
There was a comfortable lull in conversation and no more remarks at the stupidity of certain movie characters a few hours later when everyone became sleepy. Your head rested drowsily against Seong-hwa’s shoulder, his cheek on the crown of your head, hands intertwined and blissful smiles on both your faces. You were happy, sorrows not forgotten but dulled and overshadowed by the feeling of absolute belonging.
You heard Yeo-sang whispering and giggling with San.
“Hm?” You raised an inquisitive eyebrow at them.
“Oh, don’t mind us. We were just wondering when one of you will gather enough courage to make the first step,” Yeo-sang remarked matter-of-factly with a good-natured smirk on his face as he made a sweeping gesture towards you and Seong-hwa.
Your earlier blush returned full force. You pressed into Seong-hwa’s chest to hide from their encouraging gazes. His chuckle rumbled underneath your ear as he drew you closer with his arm.
“There you go again, ruining my plans to tell her. And do I have to remind you that most of the time it was one of you two who interrupted me when I was approaching the subject? I should put both of you on dish washing duty for the next month,” he answered jokingly.
You had perked up in the middle of his sentence. Was that an indirect confession?
Your head peaked up at him, catching the warm smile directed at you.
“Do you mean that?”
“Of course, I do. So, what do you say, Y/N. Do you want to be the Light Fury to my Toothless?”
“Yes,” was all you managed through the big smile on your face.
What had begun as a horrible day had ended as one of the best days in your life so far. And all thanks to your little extended family and the guy you had fallen in love with.
“That’s nice and all, but please keep things PG-rated, alright? We have a baby in our midst.”
As Jong-ho hit Yun-ho over his head, Seong-hwa threw you one of those smiles that were a cross between amusement and internal suffering. You giggled and snuggled closer again. You were home.
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A/N number 2: Reposting this again because I’m old. I actually messed up the hashtags. Please help, haha.
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브라운 아이드 걸스 (Brown Eyed Girls)
Hello, readers and welcome back! I'm here for another blog post, but I will take a little break after this one. I really try to come up with group to talk about that are popular now or some I like specifically, but now I'm going to do an interesting one. For this blog post, I am going to talk about one of the oldest active female groups and by oldest I mean has old members. This group is called Brown Eyed Girls. The Brown Eyed Girls often abbreviated as B.E.G., BG or beu-ah-geol is a South Korean girl group managed by Mystic Entertainment. The group consists of four members: JeA, Miryo, Narsha, and Gain. They debuted as an R&B/Ballad vocal group with "Come Closer" in 2006 and have since challenged themselves with a notable variety of different music genres. They rose to popularity in 2008 with "L.O.V.E" and their retro-dance number "How Come," though cemented their position in the K-pop world in 2009 with "Abracadabra", with its electronica-based genre, pioneering (albeit controversial) concept, along with its iconic and now globally recognized dance entitled ‘The Arrogant Dance’, successfully ingraining themselves into modern popular culture. The group started their venture into the Japanese music market with the release of a Japanese version of their massively successful 3rd Korean album, Sound-G, in late 2010, with full promotions being held throughout early 2011 under Sony Music Japan, where they gained moderate success. They returned to Korea in late 2011, to garner further success and critical acclaim with their 4th album and its title track "Sixth Sense". Other than promoting as a group, all of the members have released solo albums. Now let's get into a little background information. Because I don't know much about them, I looked them up. According to Wikipedia, The group's leader, Jea, was the one responsible of the group's creation and was actively involved in the selection of the other members, picking out Miryo, who was known as a great female rapper from the hip-hop community having previously worked with other fellow rappers, such as Gil Seong-joon from Leessang, and the main female rapper in well-known hip-hop group Honey Family. Narsha was chosen when Jea remembered her as a "talented singer" from her high school days, and Ga-in was selected by the three members after she was eliminated from "Battle Shin Hwa." According to Ga-in, she was crying in the bathroom after failing the audition, was found by composer Ahn Jung Hoon, and then was chosen through the audition in Brown Eyed Girls' company. Singer Yoari trained with the group until 2006, when it was decided she would be the lead singer for Sprinkler. The four members held several small size concerts, and was actually known as "Crescendo" before officially debuting as "Brown Eyed Girls." After more than 3 years of training in singing and holding several small size concerts, the Brown Eyed Girls released their debut album Your Story in South Korea in March 2, 2006, with the ballad track, "Come Closer" as their single. Debuting as a "faceless group" they did not appear on any visual media and chose to not even appear in their own music video. The album was well received by critics but did not do as well as expected commercially. The album was later re-released to include "Hold The Line" (which samples "Push The Button" by British girl band Sugababes and "Technologic" by Daft Punk). This song became a hit, further boosting the band's popularity. "Hold the Line" was disclosed across the world because it was included in the list of songs from the game Pump it Up. Now let's get into the members like we do with other groups. First is Kim Hyo-jin, or JeA. Born September 18, 1981, better known by her stage name JeA is a South Korean singer and songwriter. She is best known as the leader of South Korean girl group Brown Eyed Girls. As a solo artist, she has contributed numerous songs to various soundtracks. Second is Jo Mi-hye, or Miryo. Born November 2, 1981, Miryo is a South Korean rapper, songwriter and record producer. She is currently the rapper of girl group Brown Eyed Girls, and is a former member of rap group Honey Family. Miryo debuted as a soloist in 2012, after appearing as a producer in the first season of Show Me the Money. Third is Park Hyo-jin, or Narsha. Narsha, born December 28, 1981, is a South Korean singer and actress. Her stage name, Narsha, is derived from the term na-reu-sha, which means 'to fly up' in Middle Korean. Last but not least is Son Ga-in, or Gain. She, born September 20, is a South Korean singer, actress and entertainer. She is best known as a member of the South Korean girl group Brown Eyed Girls and for her appearances alongside Jo Kwon from 2AM for TV shows We Got Married and All My Love. As a solo artist she has released six EPs. Those are the four members of Brown Eyed Girls. That's all for this blog post, guys. Thanks for reading, I really appreciate all of you. Until next time... Word Count: 865
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backinblack1967 · 4 years
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The Annual Feeling of Loss or You’re Never Alone (Seonghwa x Reader)
A/N: Hi, everyone! :) Over the years I’ve written several little stories but never had the courage to post them online. I’ve been struggling with the death of my dad the past few months and what better way to cope with it than with writing it down, I thought. So, I made a one-shot with ATEEZ and a reader insert. If you don’t want to read about it, you are warned. (Please be warned that English isn’t my mother tongue, either.)  
To be honest, this one is more fluff and (bad) humour after the initial angst. Feel free to leave a comment, ask me about anything or maybe even leave a request for a future scenario.
XXX Sarah
Seonghwa x Reader x platonic!ATEEZ
word count: 3,011
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네가 힘이 들고 지칠 때 When it's hard and you're tired
찾게 되는 그 곳, 나 그 곳이 될게 the place you're looking for, I'll become this place
아무 것도 놓을 수 없어서 when you have nowhere to lean on
삶이 버거울 때 꼭 네 곁이 될게 when life is too much, I will be next to you
(BTS - With Seoul)
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It was that day again. You had dreaded it for the last 2 years and you hated yourself for it. When your father had been alive it had been a funny coincidence that your birthday was on the exact day before his, but when he’d died you had come to loathe both of your birthdays because they had become a constant reminder that you’d never see him again. Never hear his voice again or feel his arms around you in one of his famous bear hugs.
Yesterday you had celebrated your birthday with your friends, trying to suppress the rising feeling of dread and sadness. Currently, you were sitting in a small café, or more like hiding from your best friends you whom were living with. You could try bullshitting them with the excuse of cramps or a migraine, but some would undoubtedly see behind your carefully constructed façade.
And so, you had gone out in the early hours of the day to seek refuge and distraction in the crowds. You were currently sitting in the farthest corner with a cup of warm chocolate in front of you and your iPad and pencil in the other, trying to force the thoughts from your head onto the canvas. Sometimes drawing them helped to forget a little. Or to remember the fond moments you were especially frightened of forgetting over time.
This morning, when you had opened your old chat to listen to his voice again, you had barely been able to contain your cries. The audio messages were still there but the little icon on top which should show his picture had been empty. Maybe it was because he had been offline for too long and at that thought, uncontrollable sobs had taken over your body. You had decided to leave your shared flat then because you didn’t want to ruin their short time off by bringing their jovial mood down.
You had left a note on the kitchen table saying you would be back in the evening and that they shouldn’t wait up if it got later.
You figured if you could only get through today you would be fine tomorrow. Distract yourself until nightfall, sneak in and sleep it off.
Admittedly, you had entertained the thought of talking to Yun-ho this morning and whether you would feel better wrapped in his arms but then you had decided against it. You didn’t want to burden either of them and you really didn’t want them to see you as weak. For good measure, you had turned off your mobile phone so you wouldn’t be tempted to call them or your mom.
***
What you didn’t know was that back in the dorm every sense of carefreeness had been abandoned hours ago. San hadn’t been particularly worried when he had found your note first – sometimes you just ventured off to calm places to concentrate.
He couldn’t blame you when their dorm resembled a playground filled with 5-year olds high on sugar more often than not. He had been curious why you would be staying out late on a weekend but Hong-joong had reminded him that people like them needed the occasional day off to gather inspiration and that you would surely confide in them if something was bothering you.
They had unanimously decided to wait up for you to ask if anything was wrong but to otherwise leave you be for the time you were away. However, San had seen Seong-hwa and Yeo-sang trying to sneakily call you several times through the day. When he had asked them about it, both of them had admitted that they had a bad gut feeling. Both of them had been with you on some of your “alone days” without the others knowing, so their feelings wouldn’t get hurt. When he had gathered all of his team members to tell them exactly that, they had been surprised to hear because as it turned out you had always taken one of them with you when you had gone out “alone”.
Now they were worried. Had something happened? Had they unknowingly done something to hurt your feelings? Or had it been someone else? Jong-ho had oh so kindly offered to beat up anyone who might have hurt their girl, Min-gi volunteering as well. Both Hong-joong and Woo-young had hurriedly convinced them not to do it, in remembrance of the last incident.
And then the phone had rung.
And it wasn’t who they had expected. An angry, high-pitched female voice had greeted Yun-ho on the other end, making his smile drop. That wasn’t you. And she was neither speaking Korean nor English. He picked up two familiar words, however, in her rant: your name and the word “papa”. With wide eyes he told Hong-joong and thrust the phone at him as if it would bite him any minute.
Hong-joong switched the phone to speaker as he waited for a break in her venomous monologue. They winced from the apparent fury in her tone without even understanding what she was saying. When she paused to draw breath, Hong-joong hurriedly interrupted her in English.
“I’m sorry, I assume you want to talk to Y/N, but she’s currently out. May I ask who you are?”
The woman’s voice had turned condescending at that, mocking him for his “horrible” English pronunciation in a sickly-sweet tone before she continued to rant about her little irresponsible and stupid sister who wouldn’t even come home for her deceased father’s birthday. Like, who did she think she was? Not even calling her elder sister to ask her if she was alright on such a somber day. Hong-joong didn’t detect a smidgen of sadness in her voice or any compassion for her family member. And suddenly your absence made incredibly much more sense.
He figured he would let her let off steam before getting rid of her and looking for you with his brothers. It was twenty minutes later when he couldn’t stand the insults hurled towards you anymore and told her to shut up (which shocked his members as they’d never heard him speak less than respectful to strangers or older people). He had tried to tell her of your compassion and warm heart, how you helped everyone around you and brightened their days. But for every positive trait or deed your sister had responded with another insult which were growing more and more farfetched.
They others weren’t too good in English but with certain familiar keywords, their leader’s expression and the tone of the woman’s voice they could piece together the gist of what was being said. Even Yun-ho’s patience began wearing thin as he watched Joong’s expression turning more and more agitated and downright hurt.
He threw a glance at their eldest who held a pensive expression on his face as he stared off into the distance. When Seong-hwa noticed Yun-ho’s pleading gaze and the various distressed and confused faces around him, he lightly tapped on Hong-joong’s shoulder to get his attention.
“Joong, don’t you want to end this conversation? It doesn’t seem to go anywhere… Could you wrap it up and tell us what exactly is going on?”
He nodded and said a few sentences to the other person on the phone that left her silent with surprise.
“You will have to stop right there, miss. I won’t tolerate you insulting my friend any longer. I have no idea how you got this number but please refrain from calling again or I will see myself forced to talk to our manager and lawyer. Have a good day.”
There was a brief silence before Yeo-sang voiced what all of them were thinking.
“So… who exactly was that and why were they so angry at Y/N?”
Hong-joong explained that your older sister had called from home and that today was the birthday of your father who had died two years ago, shortly before his birthday back then, too.
San hugged Woo-young when his face crumbled into sadness at the news. He could vividly imagine what it meant to lose a family member and he didn’t wish that kind of devastating heartache on any of the people he considered family.
Hong-joong couldn’t bring himself to repeat the insults your sister had hurled at you and relied as much to the others. He was visibly angry whereas Seong-hwa looked more concerned.
“Should we go look for her? Do you have any idea where she could be?”
“Don’t you think we should give her some space until she comes back, Hwa? I mean, she obviously had a reason to leave for the day.”
Yun-ho trailed off unsurely because he didn’t want to do anything else besides wrap you in his arms and to cuddle the sadness away.
“I think we should wait here. Don’t get me wrong, I want nothing more than to be with her right now, either, but we don’t know where to start searching. And what if she comes home while we’re running around Seoul? Let’s just wait and cheer her up when she returns,” proposed Yeo-sang, ever the voice of reason, although he didn’t seem to be happy about it. “I don’t want to overwhelm her or make her uncomfortable.”
Min-gi was the first one to agree. “Then can we prepare a movie evening and order take-out?”
***
It was dark when you decided you had wallowed in self-pity and bitter-sweet memories for long enough. You trudged through the darkened streets until you found yourself staring up at the building of your dorm. You had decided to come home earlier than planned because you honestly couldn’t take being alone anymore.
You needed their smiles and distracting chaos to ground yourself in the present and to remind yourself that everything would be okay at the end of the day.
You forced a smile on your face as you walked up the flights of stairs towards your home. Shortly before you reached the front door, you turned on your phone again only to take note of the several missed calls, all of them from your extended little family except one from your sister. You weren’t sorry that you had missed hers, she would have solely reproached you anyway for your so-called heartless behaviour towards her.
You stuffed your phone into your jeans pocket, touched that they had tried reaching out to you despite your little note. You felt childish for ignoring them now.
You had barely unlocked the front door and put your keys on the hook next to it, when something slammed into you and wrapped their arms around your shoulders. Another one joining seconds after at your back. Blinking in surprise, you returned the hugs and automatically your uptight body went lax in their hold.
You felt surrounded and loved and so completely at home.
Judging from the familiar scents, you were currently between San and Min-gi. Over the latter’s shoulder you could see Woo-young nervously bouncing on the balls of his feet. You smiled at him and it felt less forced than all the hours before. When you beckoned with your hand towards him, he bound over to your little bunch and joined the tangled mess. You giggled at their puppy-like behaviour.
“Did something happen? What’s gotten into you, not that I’m complaining?”
“We just missed you,” came Woo-young’s muffled reply.
You smiled at his admission, “I missed you, too. All of you.”
When you had untangled yourself from the hug a few minutes later, Min-gi took your hand and led you towards the grand couch in the living room.
You took in the other members sitting on the couch and on the nest of pillows and blankets before it, with steaming take-out containers scattered in various places.
“Okay, something definitely happened. Are we celebrating a new song? Do I need to beat somebody up?”
You earned various smiles for that and Seong-hwa patted the free space between him and Yun-ho on the couch. You accepted his invitation and after they had wrapped their arms over your shoulders you inquired once more, “Now tell me. What happened?”
There was a tense silence before Hong-joong spoke. “Your sister called today.”
Dread replaced your uplifted mood as you felt the smile slip from your face. In a small voice you asked, “What did she say? ... Oh my god, I’m so sorry, guys. I don’t know how she got this number.”
Yeo-sang hushed you from his place at your feet, one hand running up your knee.
“Don’t worry. I don’t think she will call again. But why didn’t you tell us about today? You know you can tell us anything. We love you.”
You fiddled with your fingers, touched by his sincere words.
“I love you guys, too. It’s just- I just didn’t want to bother you on your small holiday. And I thought that if I … don’t need comfort or if I don’t talk about it, it would go away sooner. Like it didn’t actually happen.”
Hearing your reasons out loud made you wince because of how pathetic they sounded. You really were childish.  And as horrible as your sister said, for trying to forget your father’s death. I’m sorry, papa. I miss you.
Your self-deprecating train of thoughts was interrupted by a soft palm on your right cheek.  
“Sweetheart, whatever you’re thinking right now – stop. You’re not stupid for trying to forget or for being insecure. And you can always come to us if something is bothering you. Have you forgotten the many times you were there for us? Isn’t that right, guys?”
All around the room, there were affirmative nods and assuring smiles. You smiled and leaned subconsciously into his touch.
“I- I think I know, Hwa. I was just being stupid. Sorry for worrying you.”
He leaned in with a soft smile until his forehead and nose were touching yours. You squirmed at his closeness and your obvious blush on display for all of them. He had always been a bit touchy-feely with you, but you had passed it off as Woo-young, Min-gi and San rubbing off on the other members.
You were sure your crush was blatantly obvious right now. Your love for Seong-wha went far beyond the platonic kind and you had been afraid to tell him – or anyone – in fear of making things awkward. But in that moment, as he gazed deeply into your eyes, you could have sworn he felt the same for you.
Your little bubble was interrupted by Woo-young’s coos and Jong-ho clearing his throat.
“So, uh… can we start movie night now? I’m famished.”
You all laughed at that, but you still caught the knowing smiles on their faces. Seong-hwa winked at you when he retreated slightly.
You barely registered Yun-ho mumbling something about popcorn, being far too occupied with Seong-wha draping a blanket over the both of you and engulfing your hand underneath it with his bigger one. You snuggled closer to him, leaning your head on his shoulder. The need for comfort and skin-ship was making you a little bolder than usual.
Yun-ho and Min-gi returned with two big bowls of popcorn and snuggled back into the pillow fort. The next few hours were spent laughing at the people in the movie, munching popcorn and gorging on your favourite take-out.
Sometimes happy moments made you sad when you realized you wouldn’t get to share them with your father. This time, you felt whole and as if you could face any problems as long as they stayed by your side.
There was a comfortable lull in conversation and no more remarks at the stupidity of certain movie characters a few hours later when everyone became sleepy. Your head rested drowsily against Seong-hwa’s shoulder, his cheek on the crown of your head, hands intertwined and blissful smiles on both your faces. You were happy, sorrows not forgotten but dulled and overshadowed by the feeling of absolute belonging.
You heard Yeo-sang whispering and giggling with San.
“Hm?” You raised an inquisitive eyebrow at them.
“Oh, don’t mind us. We were just wondering when one of you will gather enough courage to make the first step,” Yeo-sang remarked matter-of-factly with a good-natured smirk on his face as he made a sweeping gesture towards you and Seong-hwa.
Your earlier blush returned full force. You pressed into Seong-hwa’s chest to hide from their encouraging gazes. His chuckle rumbled underneath your ear as he drew you closer with his arm.
“There you go again, ruining my plans to tell her. And do I have to remind you that most of the time it was one of you two who interrupted me when I was approaching the subject? I should put both of you on dish washing duty for the next month,” he answered jokingly.
You had perked up in the middle of his sentence. Was that an indirect confession?
Your head peaked up at him, catching the warm smile directed at you.
“Do you mean that?”
“Of course, I do. So, what do you say, Y/N. Do you want to be the Light Fury to my Toothless?”
“Yes,” was all you managed through the big smile on your face.
What had begun as a horrible day had ended as one of the best days in your life so far. And all thanks to your little extended family and the guy you had fallen in love with.
“That’s nice and all, but please keep things PG-rated, alright? We have a baby in our midst.”
As Jong-ho hit Yun-ho over his head, Seong-hwa threw you one of those smiles that were a cross between amusement and internal suffering. You giggled and snuggled closer again. You were home.
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