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WandaNat yelling at each other over their last mission and reader having a ptsd episode (sudden loud noises, combat or abusive ex?)? Maybe reader goes black out for a few hours and wakes up in the forest outside the compound and WandaNat are trying to find her? Super angst to fluff? If thats okay 🤧

Notice Me

Pairing: WandaNat x Fem! Reader

Summary: When your girlfriends get into a heated argument, it triggers an episode for you, leaving the women to find you alone in the woods by the compound.

Angst, Fluff

Warnings: Mentions of PTSD, Mentions of an Abusive Ex, Hints of Domestic Violence, | 1.3K

Translations: Detka (baby),

AC: Thank you for sending this, I hope I did okay! Please don’t read this if you’re uncomfortable with the mentioned topics. Enjoy! x

The back-and-forth yelling coming from the hall only seemed to get louder as your girlfriends, Wanda, and Natasha, had just returned from a mission. You were reading a book, completely relaxed, and enjoying the quietness to read when you heard the familiar voices. Wanda opened the door to the shared bedroom, Natasha following close behind her. You looked up from your book and smiled softly at the women, but they didn't seem to have even noticed you laying on the bed in one of Nat's sweaters.

"What should I have done huh?" Wanda snapped, throwing her coat over the office chair by the desk.

"Oh, I don't know, maybe wait for your team?!" Natasha argued, "Wands, you have powers that others don't have but that doesn't mean you get to put yourself in a life-or-death situation!" The red head added. Wanda rolled her eyes, "do you really want to talk about life-or-death situations? Because you seem to throw yourself into the line of fire at the first chance you get!" Wanda rose her voice.

"I'm trained to do so!" Natasha argued back, tossing her bag to the floor. The loud thud of her bag hitting the floor made you jump; she didn't care for her weapons that were inside.

"Guys" you tried to interrupt before things escalated but it was too late. Wanda's eyes flashed with red chaos before she used her magic to slam the door closed, another loud thud that only drew you closer to an episode. "Guys, please!" You begged over their yelling voices but still, it was like you weren't even there.

The arguing continued until eventually, you couldn't take it anymore. Their tones got stronger, the slamming of things down got louder until everything went black as you left the room.

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"Wands, have you seen Y/n?" Nat asked when Wanda came out of the bathroom in her comfortable clothing and her hair wrapped in a towel. Wanda shook her head, "I haven't seen her, not even when we got back but then again th-"

"Please don't start now" Natasha sighed, "Nobody has seen Y/n since lunch when she said she was going to come here and wait for us" she added, her tone of voice full of worry. Wanda looked to the bed and saw your opened book on the bed and your empty plate from lunch on the bedside table. She used her magic to take her back to the argument she had hours before with Natasha, "oh god" she spoke under her breath.

"What?" Natasha asked, "what is it?"

"We're selfish idiots, that's what! Get your coat, we have to find her" she replied.

Natasha grabbed her coat and met Wanda downstairs. Wanda could see the amount of worry and concern on Natasha's face, she took a moment to give her partner some comfort. "Nat, we'll find her and it'll be okay" she assures the widow but all this is a little too close to home for Nat.

"I can't lose her" Natasha broke.

"I know darling, we'll find her" Wanda wiped the rolling tear that Natasha had let go.

Wanda asked some of the others to join the search to find you, you didn't take your phone and Natasha noticed you left without your shoes on. Wanda tried her best to use her magic to find you, but something was blocking your mind from allowing her to do so.

Everybody broke up into small groups of two. Tony and Bruce started by car, driving around the surrounding neighborhood and closest stores. Steve and Thor searched the compound and surrounding areas while Natasha and Wanda searched the woods close by. It was only getting darker by the minute; the cold air began to get cold which only made every bodies worry and concern for your well-being even stronger.

"Wands! Over here" Natasha called out when she noticed footprints in the softened dirt. Wanda rushed to Nat's side, "this way, come on" Nat added. The two called out your name over and over as they walked deeper and deeper into the darkness of the woods.

"Nat, maybe we call Steve and get him to fly the jet over" Wanda suggested but Natasha shook her head, "the loudness will only make things worse" she reminded Wanda.

As the two tried their best to keep track of your footprints in the dirty, they heard the loud crunches of leaves up ahead. Natasha signaled to Wanda to pause their movements in-case it was a wild animal but instead, it was you. Stumbling out of the trees only for Natasha to catch you in her arms as you fell.

"Y/n! are you okay?" Natasha asked, brushing your hair from your face. Wanda rushed quickly to your side as Nat handed you to her before taking off her coat and instantly covering you in it to warm you up. "E-everything….it….y-ou" you stuttered, "shh, it's okay darling. You're safe now" Wanda pulled you closer to her, placing a kiss on the top of your head as your sobs became clear.

Wanda used her powers to levitate you back to the compound, not wanting to keep you out in the cold any longer. When Natasha got to your shared room, the two of them forgot about their argument and ran you a warm bath, they bathed you and helped you into your favorite pjs because making sure you were comfortable in bed.

"Detka, what happened?" Natasha asked in a soft tone. You looked over at her, your eyes filled with tears and mind filled with worry that you might have angered your girlfriends. "It's okay love, you talk to us" Wanda chipped in.

You took a moment to gather your feelings before you spoke, "You guys didn't even notice I was in here, you both came in yelling and slamming doors and when I tried to get between it, you both just didn't seem to notice me. I hid under the covers to try and drown out the yelling but some of the things you both said to one another just triggered me…" you explained with a pause, "everything just went back after Wanda said 'you know better' in that tone you had" you added, looking over at Wanda.

Natasha took you into her arms, "I'm so sorry detka, we promise never to let this happen again" she spoke, her hand rubbing up and down on your back. Wanda couldn't shake the terror in your eyes when she held you in the woods, she was quickly reminded of the fear you once had with your ex whom the women saved you from, she never, ever wanted to make you feel like that again.

"How about I fix us some hot coco and we watch whatever movie you like?" Wanda suggested, wanting to light the mood and help you forget about this afternoon. You looked up at Wanda and nodded, "can I please have double whipped cream?" You asked. Both of your girlfriends chuckled at your request, "is that even a question?" Wanda smiled before leaning over and pecking a soft kiss on your cheek, "anything you want darling" she whispered.

When Wanda came back with the three mugs of hot coco, the three of you curled up in bed and watched your favorite movie of all time. You were in the middle, Natasha to your left and Wanda to your right, both of them resting their heads on your shoulder. It wasn't long until you started to feel okay once again and the fear from their argument faded away as you drifted off to sleep before the end credits rolled on the screen. Wanda tucked you in and placed a kiss on your forehead before Natasha did the same.

"Date night tomorrow? I think we could with some time away from work" Wanda whispered, "I couldn't agree more!" Natasha smiled before the two shared a kiss.

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yelenasdiary · 3 months

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Heya! Some fluff for valentines. Yelena and reader go to a department store and fill baskets for each other with the others favorite things and at the bottom of readers basket is a beautiful ring that Yelena proposes with

Macaronly Have Eyes for You

Pairing: Yelena Belova x Fem! Reader

Summary: You were able to get Yelena do to one of your Valentine’s Day activities that came with a surprise of its own.

Fluff, Fluff & FLUFF!!

Translations: Detka (baby), Ты выйдешь за меня? (will you marry me),

Warnings: None | 1.4K

AC: I loved this idea so much and it was perfect for the photo that came up on my twitter feed that made me want to write something Yelena x Reader about!! Thank you for sending this & I hope you enjoy it!! x

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"So, I'm just filling this up with things I think you'd like?" Yelena asked as you both grabbed a Walmart basket. You smiled softly, "Yeah! We have 30 minutes, and we can't show any of to each other until we get home" you explained with an exciting tone. Yelena nodded while her brain thought of all the things, she could possibly get for you, "I'll meet you back at the car, oh and don't forget to get a gift box to use at the checkout" you added before giving the blonde a soft peck on her lips and walking away.

Yelena watched as you wondered down an aisle before she turned on her feet and made her way to the confessionary aisle. She started off with the easy items, adding a few of your favorite chocolates and candy to the basket along with a couple of bottles of your favorite drink. She then made her way to the clothing area and grabbed the sweater that you were unsure of buying the last time the two of you were at Walmart.

The first item you put in your basket was the easiest thing anybody who knew Yelena could think of. A box of Mac & Cheese paired with her favorite bottle of hot sauce. As you were making your way out of the aisle, the cheesiest thing caught your eye. A small plushie in the shape of a macaroni pasta. "Oh, she's going to hate this" you chuckled to yourself as you placed it in your basket.

You met Yelena back at the car, she was leaning against the driver's door waiting patiently for you. "You're going to love what I got you!" You said excitedly as you placed the gift box of goodies in the back seat. "You have that look" Yelena replied as the two of you got into the car.

"What look?" You asked, playing off any suspicious look you might have had.

"The look at says you've been up to no good" Yelena replied with a chuckle as she started the car. "I am excited to show you what I got you, you're going to hate it so much you'll love it!" You said, confusing the blonde.

Yelena pulled out of the parking lot and began the journey back to your shared apartment. Your excitement only grew bigger as your mind kept thinking about Yelena's reaction to the cheesy gifts you got her. This was your third Valentines with Yelena, the first one she was away on a mission so there wasn't anything you could do with her and last year, you were sick with the flu and slept most of the day but you still found the energy to cook dinner for Yelena.

This was the year you were able to really show Yelena how much you loved her, even though you tell her every day just how important she is too you, you never wanted her to miss out on these little holidays. You woke her up with breakfast in bed, rose petals trailing from the bed to the shower where the two of you spent more time making out than helping each other wash.

Yelena took you out for lunch at your favorite restaurant before the two of you took a walk-through Central Park where you brought her a Valentines themed balloon from a balloon vender that she walked through the park with. She wasn't exactly a fan of the balloon but deep down she loved how cheesy you were.

"Babe, you missed the turn off" you looked to Yelena with a confused look.

"I know. We're not going home; I want to take you somewhere else" Yelena replied.

"Where?" You asked.

"You'll see" She looked to you and smiled softly, "it's just a 20-minute drive" she added.

Roughly 25 minutes later and Yelena pulled up at Brooklyn Bridge Park. The city lights reflecting off the water made her green eyes sparkle as she laid out a picnic blanket on the grass. "I was going to cook us a late dinner, but this seems more fun" she spoke as she looked at you.

"This is very romantic so for the record, I take absolutely full responsibility for the chance you might fall in love with me just a little more once you open your gift box" you replied with a smile. Yelena chuckled as she wrapped her arms around your waist and pulled you closer into her, kissing you lovingly. "Do you want to go first?" She asked, seeing the excitement in your eyes. You nodded with a smile, "you might want to sit down for this" you chuckled.

The two of you sat down on the picnic blanket, you opened the gift box full of things you brought for Yelena and told her to close her eyes. "I'm going to start with this just to give you a little taste of what goodies I got you" you said, trying not to break out into laughter as you placed a mug in Yelena's hands. "Open your eyes" you added.

Yelena cocked a brow as she read the text on the mug before looking up at you to see you were proudly smiling at her with confidence. "Yoda best girlfriend in the galaxy" she read aloud. "That's just the start of it" you replied.

"You're not going to believe this" Yelena smiled while shaking her head as she pulled out the exact same mug she got for you, "it literally had you written all over it" she added. You broke into laughter as you placed the mug in front of you, "I love it, thank you!"

The two of you took in turns giving each other an item from the gift boxes. Yelena wasn't at all surprised that you'd gotten her a bottle of vodka as well as her favorite meal duo. She loved the perfume you got her and said it was the perfect scent, nothing too intense. You instantly put on the sweat that Yelena had gotten you and you couldn't wait to take a bath with one of the giant bath bombs she'd gotten you.

"Okay, close your eyes again, I saved the best for last" you smiled at your girlfriend.

"Now I am slightly nervous" Yelena chuckled with her eyes closed. You pulled out the last item in the gift box, the plushie of macaroni pasta that said 'Macaronly Have Eyes for You' on the box and gently placed it in her hands. "This is my favourite thing I got you" you said with a chuckle, "you can open your eyes now" you added.

Yelena couldn't control the laughter she broke into at the sight of the plushie, "I hate it so much I can't help but love it" she said, "thank you detka" she added as she reached over and kissed you lovingly. "I have one more gift for you" she smiled against your lips before leaning back and handing you the gift box. You found a small black box that made your heart skip a beat as you looked up at her.

"Open it" she insisted.

Carefully you picked up the small box and opened it to see a ring with a green diamond sparking at you from the city lights. "Yelena" you looked up at her.

"I've been thinking about this since our last Valentines together. You were so sick, and I told you just to stay in bed and rest but you were so persistent on making the day special. Detka, every single day I get with you is special to me and I knew that night that I don't ever want to spend my life with anybody else. I love the way you make me feel and the way you are never afraid to be yourself. I love how cheesy you are and how you always find the fun in anything. I wanted to give you something big and Hollywood style romantic but seeing you walking out of Walmart tonight and how beautiful you look in your sweats and favourite t-shirt, I didn't want to wait any longer" she said with a loving smile.

"Yelena, you broke the rules" you replied, tears of joy filling your eyes.

"I would break the rules for you anytime" she replied as she reached for the ring and gently pulled it out of the box. She looked you deeply in your eyes, "Ты выйдешь за меня?" She asked, her Russian accent the thickest you've ever heard it. You nodded repeatedly as the tears calmly ran own your cheeks, "if you're asking me what I think you are asking me, the answer is yes, a thousand times yes!" You replied.

Yelena slid the ring on your finger before kissing you deeply once more, "I really have to teach you Russian" she smiled against your lips.

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yelenasdiary · 6 months

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For flufftober: Middle sibling reader x older sister natasha and younger sister yelena. Reader was recently released from the subjugation of the red room and so theyre throwing a little welcome home party for reader. With cake and streamers and a polaroid camera. Some terrible music playing that they all jam too as they down too many bottles of vodka?

New Memories

Pairing: Older Siblings! Natasha & Yelena x Younger Sibling! GN! Reader

Summary: After a little over a year of therapy, your older sisters throw you a welcome home party.

Warnings: Fluff/Comfort, Mentions of Red Room, Subjugation, Drinking, Language Warning | 1.3K

Translations: Sestra (Sister),

AC: Thank you for requesting this, as I mentioned, I have combined with request with another, I hope you enjoy! x

October Special Masterlist

"Sestra, it'll be fun" Yelena argued with her Russian accent coming in thick. It was Halloween and your sisters, Natasha and Yelena planned a little party for you with the help of the other Avengers, Alexei and Melina. It's been a few short months since your year of therapy had gone from three sessions a week to weekly appointments, your therapist was proud of how far you'd come since your sisters saved you from the subjugation of Red Room and freed you from the control of General Dreykov. You hated that they wanted to throw a party in your honor, you never liked the fuss being about you.

"Lena, I know you and Nat are happy for me and trust me, I am proud of myself as well but I just don't think I want to have a party thrown to celebrate" you replied before letting your eyes fall back down to the book in your hands.

"It is not just to celebrate how far you have come" Yelena spoke as she took a seat at the end of your bed, forcing you to put your book down once more. "It's about making new memories, ones that are real, ones we get to keep and talk about in years to come. Natasha won't admit it but I know she would love to fill the photo album she has on her bookcase and I would like an updated photo of the three of us" your older sister by 2 years went on.

She had a point and that made it hard for you to turn her down. Looking back on the memories you had with your sisters, it was hard to remember. You were only 4 when the mission in Ohio was completed and you were ripped from Natasha's arms. After that, it was blurred moments of fake Christmases, thanksgivings and other holidays just to give you three a moment of something that felt somewhat normal.

"Fine" you playfully rolled your eyes at the blonde, "will Kate and Wanda be there?" you asked with hope. Yelena nodded, "who do you think were the first to jump at the idea of baking a cake" she replied.

"A cake? Really?" you asked with a slight frown, of course your family were going to make this a big deal and honestly, for Yelena to say this would be fun was a comment you never thought she would say about a party.

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Music mixed with laughter and chatter filled the room, Kate wandered around taking polaroid photos of everybody and placed them in a small box for you to look back on at a later date. Eventually the room became quiet, around midnight people called it a night and headed to bed leaving you, Yelena and Natasha still up.

"Now we can really party" Natasha smiled as she placed a bottle of vodka on the table along with three shot glasses. "Amen to that!" you replied in a sigh of relief, too much socializing and now you were finally going to have the party you truly wanted with your sisters.

Yelena poured three shots as you and Natasha threw streamers at one another, you started it of course. "Stop acting like children, lets drink!" Yelena announced as she carefully yet skilfully sliding the shot glasses down the table to you and Nat without spilling a drop. You downed your shot the moment it hit your hand, the burn of the alcohol in the back of your throat reminding you why you loved vodka so much.

It was long before the bottle of vodka was finished, and another was placed on the table. Crumbs of cake slices littered the wooden table while the three of you made new memories, jokes and brought up old, good memories.

"SO BYE BYE MISS AMERICAN PIE, DROVE MY CHEVY TO THE LEVEE, BUT THE LEVEE WAS DRY" the three of you sung in sync, now each holding a bottle of vodka. Wanda and Kate had come down from upstairs and watched the drunk mess unfold. You were laughing, when Yelena pushed you to the floor for standing on her foot for the 5th time. Natasha had the polaroid camera in her hand taking very drunken and blurry photos of you and Yelena before turning the camera on herself to snap a selfie.

"Do you think Tony would get made if we stole one of his suits? I mean come on! those things look so fucking sick!" You looked between your sisters. Yelena turned to Nat, "I'm with Y/n, let's do it!" she said before taking another mouthful of vodka from the bottle.

"Should we stop them?" Kate whispered to Wanda who shook her head, "no, let them have their fun" the Sokovian replied before gesturing her head towards the stairs as a way to say let's go back to bed. "I kind of want to be awake early to see Tony's reaction" Kate whispered once more as she followed Wanda up the stairs.

"Alright but you gotta be quiet!" Natasha said, bringing her index finger to her lips in a shush motion.

Cheeky smiles tugged at the lips of you and your sister as Natasha led you both down the hall to the elevator, pressing the basement button.

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"Can somebody tell me why the fuck I found 3 of my suits scattered around the damn compound?!" Tony asked with pure anger in his voice. Your head was pounding, it had clearly been a while since you got drunk as much as you did last night.

"Tony, shhhh!" you looked up at him before taking a sip of your coffee.

"Nothing is broken, nothing to stress about" Natasha tuned in, taking her hang over a lot better than you were. She looked as though she didn't even drink last night.

"That's not the point Romanoff and you know it!" Tony snapped, "the three of you are suspended until further notice so I suggest you start thinking about cleaning up the mess you made!" he added before storming out of the room.

"What mess?" you asked with a frown as Natasha sat down across from you at the dining table, peanut butter toast in her hand. "Oh, that is on you and Yelena to clean" she replied with a light chuckle as you rested your head on the table to catch a few extra minutes of shut eye.

Yelena came into the kitchen just how Natasha did, as if a hangover was non-existent. "HA! Looks like somebody needs a little more practice on how keep their vodka down" she spoke, her loud voice making your head pound harder than before. Slowly, you lifted your head to look up at your sister, giving her a look of death has she stole Natasha's mug of coffee, "please shut up" you replied before letting your head drop to the table once again.

"You and Y/n have to go clean up the yard today" Natasha said after swallowing a mouthful of her toast. "Yeah, I figured" Yelena chuckled, bringing the mug to her lips, "you better go take a shower sestra" she encouraged you only to earn a mumble and grumble in return as you took yourself to the showers.

"Another round tonight and they will be fine" Yelena looked at Natasha before taking another sip of Nat's coffee, Nat just chuckled, "I don't think they could handle another round" she replied as Wanda walked into the kitchen.

"You three had fun last night" she smiled softly as she placed a rather large handful of polaroid on the table in front of the two Russian sisters. Natasha reached for the small photos and flicked through them while Yelena watched, a smile tugging at both sisters lips as they saw how happy they looked, how much fun they had and how finally they had photos with real moments, real emotions and real love.

"Yeah, one of the best nights" Natasha spoke softly.

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yelenasdiary · 9 months

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Ohh okay what about Military!Yelena and Nurse!Reader and reader has been home waiting for yelena but when yelena gets home she has terrible ptsd from the last bit of combat she was in (saw a friend die?) And reader tries her best to help but reader gets nat involved and they get yelena to go see a therapist?

Strength

Pairing: Military! Yelena Belova x Fem! Nurse! Reader, Natasha Romanoff x Reader

Summary: After your growing worries, you turn to Natasha for help with your wife.

AC: Thank you for requesting this, I love this little AU!! This takes place shortly after Natalia is born, I hope you enjoy this x

Since the birth of your daughter, Natalia, things have been different. A whole new chapter had started and even so, you knew that when Yelena got that call to go back to help fight the war, that was a part of your new life regardless. Yelena had originally been given a little over 12 months off from her duties to be with you and your daughter, to help and be there for the firsts but you knew the moment she told you they needed her, she was going. You didn't hold it against her, you knew what it was like to be needed at such a time.

Yelena returned just after Natalia turned 6 months. She didn't talk about the war this time, unlike every other time when she'd come home, she'd tell you things because she knew you understood. At first you thought she didn't want to talk about it because she was busy soaking up the shortly lost time with Natalia and you found her by her side at every second she got.

The emptiness of your bed woke you as you rolled over, reaching for Yelena who wasn't there. Recently, this wasn't a surprise to you. Your first thought was maybe little Nat woke up and Yelena wanted you to sleep so she got up to tend to the 6 month old but when you peeped your head into your daughters room and saw her peacefully asleep and Yelena not in sight, your worry grew. Walking down the stairs the kitchen light was on, the first thing you saw as you walked around the corner was Gizmo laying at Yelena's feet.

"Honey, it's basically 3am" you spoke softly as you came up behind her. The sight of a half empty bottle of vodka while a photograph and letter beside it instantly told you something was wrong.

"Sorry, I couldn't sleep" your wife replied with almost no emotion in her tone.

Softly, you wrapped your arms around her shoulders and kissed her cheek with love before you sat down on the stool beside her at the kitchen island. She didn't react, not even to turn slightly to face you.

"Honey, what happened?" You asked, not beating around the bush.

Yelena downed another shot of vodka, shaking her head. "You have enough on your plate with Natalia and work, you don't need this" her reply made you frown, your concern for her growing with every word. You placed your hand on top of hers, your thumb gently rubbing her knuckles. "Baby, can you please look at me?" You asked.

The moment of silence felt like it went on forever before your eyes were met with your wife's. She'd been crying, heavily. The streams down her face broke your heart, you knew it wasn't good. Yelena took a deep breath in before finally breaking the silence. "I can't get her out of my head" she admits.

"Get who out of your head honey?"

"Lee" she replied as more tears filled her eyes, "We were in gun fire, she pushed me so hard out of the way and I wasn't sure why, I thought m-maybe I missed a target but then it happened" she froze, her tears falling free as you listened, still stroking her knuckles for comfort. "I looked up and she was running, I yelled at to stop b-but s-she…it was too late…an explosion happened, her screams were so loud…I cleared out who I could before getting her to safety. She clung onto me like glue, her right leg was gone…her face…I knew I had to get her out for there" she stopped and poured herself another shot, downing it instantly.

You didn't say a word, you just sat and listened, no matter how long it took her to explain. "I got her to medical and the look they gave me, it's like they didn't even want to try…Lee begged me to stay, so I did…she died 20 minutes after I got her to medical…she saved my life and I couldn't save her" she added, breaking down completely. You couldn't help but cry with her, pulling her into your arms. Gizmo not moving an inch as you did your best to comfort your wife.

"Honey, you did everything right. You got her to safety, you got her to medical, there wasn't anything else you could've done darling" you assured her, rubbing her back as she cried in your arms.

Your eyes looked to the image next to the bottle of vodka, it as Yelena's team, it broke you even more.

After a while, Yelena pulled away. "They're bringing her body home tomorrow, I'm sorry I didn't tell you when I got home last week. Seeing you and Natalia, I just, I just wanted to be here in the now. But I can't, I can't sleep. All I see is the blood, all I fear is her screams and horror in her eyes then my mind wonders to what if that was me? W-what if I was the one coming home in a coffin tomorrow?"

"Hey, honey, you know better than I do, we can't think like that. You're still here, Natalia still has her mama and I still the woman I fell in love with. But you need time to heal from this, you're running yourself down. I know you're doing everything to avoid dealing with this" you spoke, her cupped face in your hands as you wiped her tears.

Yelena shook her head once more, "I'll be fine" she replied, "I have the funeral next week then I've gotta get the first flight out" she adds. You were aware of her plan to return so soon; it took you back a moment but you didn't mention it. Instead, you suggested trying to get some sleep, both of you knowing it's only a matter of hours before Natalia would wake up and sleep would no longer be an option.

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The following morning, Yelena had already left before breakfast, leaving you a note saying she'd be back tonight and that she was going to visit Lee's family. You got up, gave Natalia breakfast before giving her a bath and making your way to Natasha's house. If anybody was going to be able to help you, it was Natasha.

"This is a surprise! Good morning" Wanda answered the door, her eyes lighting up at Natalia on your hip. "We're so sorry to come unannounced, is Nat in?" You smiled softly to keep the woman from any worry.

"Don't stress lovely, give me the little angel" Wanda smiled, opening her arms for Natalia, "Nat's just in the shower, come in" she added as she took Natalia from your arms. You stepped foot inside, Wanda closing the door behind you before making her way to the kitchen with your daughter on her hip. "You're getting so big!" she smiled once more.

"I wish she'd stop growing, just for a moment" you replied with a light chuckle as you watched Wanda single handedly grab three mugs. "I wish my boys were still this little" she joked.

"I thought I heard voices" Natasha entered the kitchen but one look at you and she knew exactly why you were here. She wandered over to Wanda and placed a kiss on Natalia's forehead, "Can you watch her? we need to talk" she whispered to her wife who nodded. Wanda took Natalia into the playroom that the boys used as a bombshell for their toys.

"How is she?" Natasha asked after the two of you sat down at the dining table. You shook your head, "she's not good. I'm worried, one of her friends died. She's not sleeping, barely eating, she's startled so quickly, and I know she's trying to keep it together for our sake but I've never seen like this before" you explained, fighting back your own tears of worry. Natasha comforted you, placing her hand on top of yours as she nodded at your words.

"She's been texting me at night and told me everything, I've suggested therapy, but I think she's worried about you seeing her as weak"

Your brows frowned instantly at Natasha's words, "see her as weak? Where did she get that idea from?" you asked.

"She's a soldier. She never wants anybody around her to think she can't handle the job, she's always been like that" Nat explained, "I called around and found a few therapist that I think would be good for her, I'll write them down for you" she adds.

You nodded slightly, "would it be okay if you and Wanda watched Natalia tonight?" you asked, knowing you needed some time with your wife. "Of course, you know we'll have her any time" Nat smiled softly, "do you want to help you talk to Yelena?" She asked. You shook your head but smiled kindly at your sister in law, "I'll keep you posted, but for now, I'll go home and get Natalia some things"

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Yelena came home just before dinner, you'd ordered pizza to keep things relaxing. You were pouring yourself a drink when you felt Yelena's arms wrap around your waist from behind, pulling you closer with a kiss on your cheek. "Nat down already?" She asked. You could hear how exhausted she was before you turned in her arms to face her, the dark circles under her eyes only grew bigger every time you looked at her. She'd been crying, the puffiness in her eyes gave it away.

"No, she's at yours sisters tonight. I thought you could do with an uninterrupted sleep" you smiled softly, keeping things normal even though your worry and concern for your wife was growing by the second. "How was seeing Lee's family?" You asked, already knowing the answer.

"Hard, but it was lovely. The funeral is next week" she replied, keeping you in her arms. "I need a shower, meet you in bed?" She added before kissing you softly.

"Without dinner?" You questioned.

"Oh, I got some food on the way home, sorry baby, I should've texted"

"No, no, it's okay, more to eat later on" you replied with a soft smile before watching her wander out of the kitchen.

The house was silent, a silence the two of you hadn't heard in a while, it nice but you both agreed that it was always strange when Natalia wasn't home. "You spoke to Natasha, didn't you?" Yelena asked after you got comfortable snuggled into her, her arm wrapped around you drawing shapes with her fingertip on your arm. You nodded slowly, "are you upset?" you asked, worried.

"No, love, I thought you"

"I'm just worried baby and I think Nat is right, therapy sounds like a good idea" you looked up at her, "I'll come with you, I'll be there holding your hand every step of the way and don't dare think for a second that you're weak because you, my love" you paused for a moment, bringing your hand to her cheek, stroking her skin gently, "you're the strongest person I've ever met and it's okay to ask for help. You've seen so much, thing I can't even begin to imagine, and you somehow have this power to push that aside, but I think now you've pushed too much aside and it's spilling out" you went on.

A soft sigh left Yelena as she knew you and Natasha were right, she just didn't want you thinking anything less of her. "Did Natasha give you those numbers for some therapists?" the blonde asked, you nodded, "good, we'll call some tomorrow and see when I can get in" she replied with a soft smile. You kissed her softly, "I'm proud of you baby" you whispered softly.

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It's been two months since Yelena started therapy and you were beyond proud of her and how far she's come since starting. It was Tommy and Billie's birthday in the coming days and Wanda asked if you'd come shopping for supplies with her while Natasha was busy at work and Yelena was more than happy to watch over Natalia.

Unlocking the door to your home you were met with the sight of Natalia in her playpen asleep with one of her blocks still in her hand. Both you and Yelena learnt rather quickly not to move the sleeping baby, ever! You wandered over to her and carefully and ever so slowly moved her to the small cushions and covered her with her blanket. As you turned, you saw Yelena passed out asleep. You smiled softly to yourself before placing a kiss on her forehead, she didn't move a muscle and you knew she was finally getting the rest she needed.

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