#say goodbye and try again

[adraughtofamortentia]

I was on desktop earlier and honestly new tumblr users are spoiled with the ability to edit tags back in the day you just had to re write that whole shit

#rambles #make a long ramble tag with a typo? #say goodbye and try again #i was just typing and accidentally found the ability to edit #like it was so easy! #i know its not a new feature i just a)am never on destop and b) usually just retype lmao #like we know what im talking about right? this isnt a fever dream? ive been here too long my brain feels melted

[tubbytarchia]

I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him) #But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but) #And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

[bride-and-bride]

Saw a neat Fourcheanult post about the ways in which he sucks but tragically I cannot reblog without at least SOME analysis on how the loss of Louisoix would impact his choices and views on his children's actions

#im telling you like #your dad might even KNOW the end is coming one day but he goes to help Eorzea because it's the right thing to do #and you don't agree that it's a priority (the world will end!!) but your father is smart and he's skilled and you say goodbye when he leaves #and then he dies. he dies and no one knows what happened he is simply gone in a flash. his plan to save eorzea? #it worked in that Eorzea exists but the land is DEVESTATED and will never be the same and he IS GONE #and YES when your kids want to visit the land he saved you let them go (but they better write their mother) #and they are doing amazing things but they are your BABIES and my god! what is happening to them??? #do you think he knew about Shadowbringers? do you think he knew his children were in a coma IN YOUR CARE? #and then he tries to disown his kids because maybe this will keep them from trying to save the world #and keep them from throwing their lives away #because all he wants is for them to live. even if they hate him #even if they never look at him again. they'll be alive.

[katierosefun]

my cancelled-able trait from the queer community would be that i really apparently love messy endings. i love u happy endings and i also love u such sad, messy, ambiguous endings . . . i love u endings where u have this weird pit in the bottom of your stomach because you know that there's love here but u have no idea what to do with it and u just have to deal with the fact that someone is profoundly affecting your life and you're not gonna get closure from it anytime soon . . . i love u queer love stories where it's really just "u don't always get to see the sunshine and rainbows at the end of it . . . sometimes all that's left is just one big question mark and the quiet hope that they get their shit together" . . .

#caroline talks #don't get me wrong. i love u happy endings. esp when it comes to queer love stories #but i also just. love endings where it's just like. well. u DON'T know for certain whether the characters #are truly going to ride off into the sunset together. #the only thing u know for certain is that they love each other and that they're going to have to grapple with that forever. #maybe it's also just bc like. idk. i took too many film classes and so my head's forever stuck #on this one essay about how some really happy endings feel lifeless. #like how in some ending shots. the characters look like they've had their happy ending. but there's also some weird unease and confusion #and it's like. well yeah. because for every happy moment u get in life. u are still already thinking 'well what's next. what now.' #which is fascinating to me. but also me @ me: god maybe u can just be happy and it's not that deep. #but also. i do love the wonderful ambiguity of just. 'there is so much more to live. so much more to do.' #and i guess it's not just for queer love stories. i think a lot about the ending of my mister. #with lee ji an and park dong hoon walking away from each other but they're happy. u have no idea how their relationship will pan out but u #do know that they love each other. #or like. columbus. with jin and casey. they hug each other and thank each other for being in the other's lives. #and jin says goodbye to casey and casey says goodbye to jin and u have no idea if they'll see each other again. but u know they love each #other so very much. even if they'd only known each other for a second. #or like. beginners. anna and oliver love each other so much and u get this sense that. they're still a little bit uneasy/nervous about how #the rest of their lives are going to go. but they'll try. #or. god. the swearing jar. #the last shot. i think about it a lot. #there is love!!! but u don't always know how the rest of it is going to pan out!!! u just know that it'll pan out somehow!

[dennisboobs]

It's Always Sunny in Philadelphia

↳ moments that make me cry

#PATERNAL RELATIONSHIPS. GUARANTEED TO MAKE ME SOB. #iasip #it's always sunny in philadelphia #dennis reynolds #frank reynolds #mac mcdonald #charlie kelly #ada's gifs #ada speaks #dennis holding brian jr makes me. full on cry. #the way he goes from awkwardly holding him & trying to play it off like he doesn't care. nervous laugh and a glance back at mandy. #'am i doing it right?' i'm not fit to be a father. this is completely foreign to me. #tips his head against his son's. clenches his jaw. tries so hard not to cry with everyone standing there watching. hugs him closer. #says he's done saying goodbye and then backs away with a look of visible upset when mandy tries to take brian jr from him. #and. dennis kissing frank. at first going to hug him but deciding against it. too intimate. too much commitment. #and again... 'am i doing it right?' is this is how sons are supposed to act with their fathers? ''was that okay to do?'' #charlie just wanting someone to be there for him. to care for him. to care *about* him. #and frank. who caused immense damage to dennis in the short stints when he was actually around. but *was* around. #frank makes everyone realize that they are what charlie needs right now. that they all love charlie. #dennis. who is grateful for frank having been there. as abusive and selfish as he may have been. dennis took that and closed himself off. #taught himself to guard against it. shut off his feelings. prioritize himself above all else. he's Strong because of frank's neglect. #incredibly damaged. unhappy. but Strong. #because the ones who are supposed to care about you most in the world just don't. YOU have to care about you. that's how frank lived too. #charlie has chosen to avoid his entire life. #and now he's been forced to confront it all. he'd been content not knowing if frank was his biological father. #he had a father figure who cared for him. and he wasn't around because he didn't know charlie was alive. he thought bonnie aborted him. #but the reality of it all is that charlie's biological father avoided too. he knew charlie was his son. he spoke to him and *lied* to him. #and just as soon as they reconnect and have a chance to make up forty years of lost time #he dies. he fucking dies. and leaves charlie alone again. to carry him up a goddamn mountain by himself. shouldering this grief and anger. #charlie can't be selfish. he isn't allowed to now. because his dad died and left him one last task. he still doesn't want to let him down.

[peridots-pixiwolf]

[Start ID. A digital drawing of Minos Prime from Ultrakill, who's wearing a strapless slit dress and sandals of the same deep purple. He faces towards and slightly to the right of the camera, his head is tilted further right. With one hand he gestures in a vague pointing motion, his arm folded and held close to his body. There is nothing in the background, but bracing himself on one arm, Minos is implied to be leaning against something about the height of a countertop. The background is a blank purplish black, save for three diagonal stripes in the colors of the bisexual flag. End ID]

Shading study that quite literally came to me in a dream two weeks ago, after this post apparently beamed itself into my mind

(also a few edits below the cut! they're very slight but whatever :])

[Start ID. Three different versions of the previous drawing. The first changes the tone of the lighting from blue to pink, and similarly the shading from pink to blue. The second replaces the faint black border with pink, purple and blue, syncing with the stripes in the background. The third combines both these changes. End ID]

#the tags got NERFED so let's try this again. #peridots-art #minos prime ultrakill #ultrakill #ask to tag #organs #...? gore maybe? for the whole ''transparent chest/visible cardiovascular system'' thing. not very detailed/realistic though so #i don't think this has all of the same charm as i usually find in my posts. but i tried my best to make it work so i don't think it matters #also ''not too happy with how this turned out'' is something i've seen tacked onto posts worthy of being preserved in museums #i heard someone say his snakes should be ball pythons. i'm not autistic about snakes so i decided to listen to the masters #i still have seven levels to p-rank before i can meet this guy!! halfway there (lust/greed and 1-3 remaining) i've only had my own copy #of ultrakill for a week and i already have 33 hours in. anyway he's grown on me i think. absolute bi king and only monarch i respect <3 #i think it's interesting how i now define my queerness by being gray-ace and trans when i first only identified with bisexual. it's still #an important part of me even if sometimes i forget. sorry that sounds completely unrelated but it's related to my feelings on this piece #anyway (i wonder how many ''anyway''s i've slapped on so far) i also find it interesting how often people draw him with this body type. #i think it's cool there's variety in how people draw the uk characters. it just kinda feels right here? i know i unfortunately don't draw #fat characters often at all (partially due to being a primarily fandom blog who likes to stick to canon designs. i wouldn't say i have #trouble with drawing a realistic amount of fat even on rather thin people though lol) but i try! also genuinely unsure what counts as like. #fat vs chubby? or whatever? i don't know exactly how the terminology works and a fair amount of minos' bulk is muscle anyway but. yeah 👍 #men are pretty in dresses my final message. goodbye

[lemontartyellow]

Ed grieving Isabella for a while before going to the place where she died to recite a speech about what she meant to him to move on from her death. And then doing the exact same thing with Oswald. Ok.

#also #something about Oswald being the one to tell him to try to say goodbye to her #and then following his advice once again to quote-unquote move on from him #that bird man is 26 feet deep into his psyche fr 🙏 #gotham #edward nygma #oswald cobblepot #nygmobblepot #nygmobs parallelism

[mymarifae]

DUDE COME ON

#miss stellaron :( :( :( :( i think despite it all aventurine did admire stelle and the rest of the crew #and under better circumstances probably would have liked to befriend them. no strings attached #nBjdjj #jtjkN?4 #akfngkdmgh #this sucks. even though acheron didn't KILL him kill him #leaving that side of the dreamscape might #and it's only upon getting there that he realizes his life might have some value after all #and he owes it to himself to at least try to be happy #but well now he's on the other side and who knows if he can actually make it back without dying for real!!!!!!!!!!!!!! leav e me alone #idk the whole scheduling a text message to say goodbye and express fondness to a person you would have liked to genuinely befriend #hruts my feelings #AND IF HE MAKES IT BACK AND CHECKS HIS PHONE #HE WON'T EVEN SEE THAT STELLE SAID SHE WANTS TO SEE HIM AGAIN TOO BECAUSE THE MESSAGR DIDN'T FUCKING SEND #UAGGHHH

[frikatilhi]

Moving sucks

#my mom moved out of here house today #saying goodbye to my childhood home is pretty awful #feels like saying goodbye to my dad all over again #i miss him so much #feels like losing ties to him #i am trying to keep it together for her sake #but i'm hanging on by a thread

[bluesidedown]

Hey guess what. In 16 days I'm gonna be getting on a plane and flying to [country redacted] and sitting on a beach with my pals for a couple days.

#tho i did look up the temperature there yesterday and it was 29 C with like 85% humidity #which will be a bit of a shock to the system after winter in northern europe #obviously im happy and excited about this #but also im trying to wrap my head around uprooting my entire life again and saying a bunch of goodbyes and losing all my hard won routines #and then going home in like 6 weeks and having to figure out like. the rest of my life. cuz im graduating from my (first) bachelor's degree #at least i know absolutely for sure as of today that i have a job for the summer? so that's something.

[meixiaotian]

still thinking about how each animorph's fate is directly related to how much they enjoyed the war

#animorphs #I swear I saw a post about this years ago but I don't know where it is #so I guess I'll say it again #Rachel loves the war. She flourishes in it. She self-actualizes. And it's terrible #She and her friends don't even know what peacetime Rachel would look like. *Can* she even exist outside of the war? #And it turns out #No! She can't! Peacetime Rachel never comes to pass! She dies before the war is over! #While Ax. Ax is relatively unbothered. He did enlist in the Andalite military after all. He's not as haunted as the rest of them #After Rachel dies he's the next. Peace comes but he chases the echoes of the war and it ends him. #In some awful way where he's gone but he's not. Not exactly dead but absorbed into a greater hive mind #And of course Cassie hates the war. Hates fighting hates killing hates it the whole way through #And when it's over she manages to move on. She spends her days saving the environment #And when battle again comes knocking at her door she says no #She says goodbye. She knows she'll never see the rest of them again. #Because the rest. They hate the war but not as much as Cassie. #And they try to move on but unlike Cassie they can't. #So off they go to enter into another war. And maybe they survive but maybe they don't #Leaving only Cassie as the real survivor of the war. Alone on Earth while her friends all went to die in space #goddamn #I hated the last book as a kid #I still wish they had a happier ending #but there's so much to chew over and cry about #it's a really good ending

[mamawasatesttube]

thinking about him again... (robin kon...)

#rimi talks #i am not starting another wip. i am not starting another wip. new wips before finishing old ones are the mind killer #BUT.............................................. #the problem is so many THOUGHTS and also my bad arm is killing me so bad typing hurts i will cry this is evil #i will type anyway bc i have to yell. #the bruce and kon of it all. kon breaking up with tana bc even in death tim is a good influence on him. #and then he makes bruce watch wendy with him bc he and tim used to do that and he breaks down and bruce panics and just swaddles him in cap #but ALSO... robin kon meeting oyl tim... #BUT ALSO ALSO the fucking comedy of jason trying to attack him but not knowing he is secretly kryptonian. this is so fucking funny #hes built like a brick shithouse and kon is still a gangly teenager but kon just tucks him under his arm like a suitcase like B GUESS WHAT #B I THINK I CAN BRING TIM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!! #<- the only thing he takes away from jason not being dead. he literally does not care otherwise #jason is hissing and spitting like a furious wet cat and kons just like HOW DID YOU DO IT. I WANT TIM BACK #but again. also. robin kon meeting oyl tim. and then both of them having to say goodbye again. the fucking tragedy of it all #okay for real ow i need to stop and take a break but HNGHGN

[fisheito]

(zookeeper au) eiden: hey yakumo why do you always use the stall

rei: damn can't imagine asking someone why they pee the way they do. why do you show your dick to pee. imagine being so overconfident in your ability to piss you just stand and make a mess on the floor for a janitor to clean up (THIS DIVERSION WAS MADE BY 1/3 OF THE CLOACA CREW)

TSJFSFK THAT WAS MY INMMEDAITE THOUGHT -->defensive rei (bc i instinctively project my personal reaction as the first rxn)

if eiden's all "why are you shy yakumo? u can pee right next to me 🥰" *pats urinal next to him* i can imagine rei walking into the room with 1 of 3 reactions:

Fight Mode: "imagine asking someone what they do in the toilet. i could report u for sexual harassment" <- he would not, bc rei ain't a snitch, but i can imagine rei sassing eiden bc he feels like it

Apathy Mode: "i use the stall too. it's nbd. this is unimportant." (continues with his life, uncaring)

Generous Mode: "you're curious? come in here and i'll show u"

#eiden upon realising that his curiosity has dragged him into a social faux pas and he's all #AAHHHH SHIT I'M SORRY I DIDN'T ....... PPLEASE JUST LET THE EARTH SWALLOW ME that is ur business i am sorry goodbye #of course my immediate thought is put an AU on an AU. zookeeper au but eiden uses a STP and is like #AH I'M SORRY it's just that... well.... i use this and i dont want u to feel like u hav to hide but i get that everyone does things diff #ANYWAY I'M SORRY AGAIN FORGET I BROUGHT IT UP #infinite universes. infinite eidens. all of them apologetic and thoroughly confused. #imagine eiden's thinkin all my trans coworkers are trying to hide their transness from me #and i'm trying very hard to drop hints that i am in fact very cool with that but i'm actually coming across as an asshole #no eiden they're not trying to hide their genders. they're trying to hide their werewolf transformations #honestly this whole thing is becoming an allegory for identity suppression #and rei will not have it. #everybody else bein like “it's gonna be weird if the new hire finds out we're animals!! we gotta hide!!” #rei shrugging and saying that he ain't gonna go out of his way to withhold info and also that he's tired so hiding is annoying #actually quincy would fall into that camp as well. hiding stuff? troublesome. #no wonder eiden finds out super fast #asks #WHAT WAS I DOING BEFORE THIS #ah. i forgot. oh well #zookeeper au #yakumo #rei #eiden

[spookythesillyfella]

" Losing battle of loss "

#hi guyyss X33 #im feeling really really bad :3 #the emptiness is consuming me day after day after day and i don't know how much more i can handle #it hurts to see that all the people i care about have better things to do than talk to me . i don't like being people's last option . #im being selfish . im being a bad person . i know these people have their own busy lives and yet i still choose to feel hurt over the fact – #– they aren't here to talk to me 24/7 #it's even worse since i feel like they're all going to die . or that im going to die #i don't want to lose them . i don't want them to leave without me even saying goodbye . i don't want this to happen again . #*sigh* #anyway #because im feeling so terrible . i decided to make a drawing to feel a bit better #i don't typically vent through art cuz it's really cringe but i guess i feel a bit better #im also trying to write something so i can express my feelings . though i guess it's pretty bad #ill get back on my feet soon though !! i just know it !! #ill get that spark eventually !! #okay #bye-bye #dhmis #dhmis art #dhmis au #high voltage au #dhmis tony #tony the talking clock #dhmis hv tony #tw bugs #i guess ? #pls ignore me

[sangre]

cannot explain how profoundly miserable i am. but homura was right that even this pain is proof of love 😔

#i have to say goodbye to the puppy i adopted for only a week because my something scary happened in my house #and family members who live with me can no longer handle being with an animal so in theory today is my last day with her #i'm mostly explaining it here bc i can't stand to say it over and over again it's too sad #and if i'm MIA or spotty or anything it's because i'm trying to keep afloat and it's already insane just doing that #please cross your fingers and wish the best for her. i know she will find someplace loving. #why is the end of the year always such a time of heartbreak GJBKHDSF. wack

[science-lings]

We all know I’m obsessed with how Wild is from far in the future compared to the rest of the Links and there’s literally ruins of a temple meant to be a record of the heroes before him (and likely even their final resting places) and that a bunch of their relics and clothes were passed down to him and when this is all over he’ll go back to a time where they’re all already dead and have been for so long while the others at least know that there is a future of more heroes and all that bullshit.

In some ways Wild is lucky to be the latest in the timeline, they have the chances to pass things down for him and he’s the most likely to get closure on how they all end up. But in any case, he’ll end up in a time where his friends are long dead, but it’s not like that hasn’t happened before. At least he remembers them this time.

#I just think that when it’s finally time to say goodbye #Wild could be the most messed up about it #trying not to swear so this’ll end up in the tags lmao #linked universe #lu wild #linked universe wild #ITS ABOUT HISTORY AND BEING REMEMBERED AND HOW STORIES AND MYTHS EVOLVE #ITS ABOUT LISING EVERYTHING AGAIN AND KNOWING THAT THERES NO WAY TO GO BACK #*LOSING #idk I have several thoughts