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in sync babyy

#mass effect #me2 #shakarian #garrus vakarian #sarani shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #my gifs

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shepurd shepurd shepurd

sarani and audrey belong to @nowandthane & @xoshepard :3

#mass effect #commander shepard #sarani shepard #kendra shepard #audrey shepard #my art #love u guys sm!!!!! ❤️❤️💕💞 #study group vibes

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Look at my baby!!!!!! She is so gorgeous and the tattoo turned out even better than I imagined I’m so so happy 🥹🥹 I commissioned the wonderful @azperja and I honestly could not recommend them more ❤️

Under the cut is the version without the bra and shows off Sarani’s tattoo more!

#also I mean let’s support SEA artists!! ❤️ #mass effect #commander shepard #sarani shepard #garrus vakarian #thane krios #mass effect fanart #fanart #azperja #three snipers and a shotgun #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy

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I have no words tbh I’m still freaking out about this 😭

commissioned the incredible @jazzajazzjazz ❤️

#SCREAMING CRYING THROWING UP #mass effect #thane krios #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy #garrus vakarian #sarani shepard #commander shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #jazzajazzjazz #idk how I keep commissioning art and then getting the finished pieces around the time I should be having a breakdown #but tbh good on past zi for their timing #sarani saves the day once again #this is 26373829th divorce present I got myself :D

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thinking about earthborn shepard never knowing what a home is comforting a homesick tali on the sr1

thinking about shepard saying 'youll reclaim your homeworld someday, tali. if your father cant help you, i will' because she may not understand what a home is but theres nothing she wouldnt do for tali

thinking about shepard saying keelah se'lai ‘by the homeworld i hope to see one day' to tali before facing down the reaper on rannoch

thinking about tali leaving her people on rannoch to fight by shepard's side

thinking about shepard doing everything she can to make sure that the galaxy survives if only so that tali can finally have her home on rannoch

thinking about shepard saying to tali 'get back to rannoch. build yourself a home.'

and tali's broken reply 'i have a home. come back to me.'

thinking about shepard realising, right before the end, that she does know what a home is, and she's had one this whole time

thinking about how happy they would've been, building a house together, already at home

#its 4am #im crying into my lasagne #but what can you do when the tali feels hit you #when will my ram arrive im so desperate to go back to my playthrough #mass effect #tali'zorah vas normandy #tali'zorah #shali #fshali #sarani x tali #sarani shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #zi talks

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be alive with me tonight.

garrus | tali

#i made another one! while 'working' :3 #mass effect #mass effect 2 #me2 #shrios #thane krios #commander shepard #sarani shepard #sarani x thane #three snipers and a shotgun #gifset #my gifs

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them <3

#look not to be biased but thane?????? #the way his brows scrunch and his lips pout and the way he moves in for the kiss i just #i jsut #ssdhfikhgfu #THANE #IM THROWING UP #mass effect #shakarian #shali #fshali #shrios #garrus vakarian #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy #thane krios #sarani shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #my gifs #gifset

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it'd be an awfully empty galaxy without you.

tali | thane

#and the trio is complete! <3 #im not suuuper sure what i feel about the blue scars for garrus.. hmm #mass effect #mass effect 2 #me2 #shakarian #garrus vakarian #commander shepard #sarani shepard #sarani x garrus #three snipers and a shotgun #gifset #my gifs

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im so sorry i got this angle in photo mode and my mind latched onto this idea

#mass effect #shalibrations #talibrations #garrus vakarian #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy #mass effect memes #my screenshots #sarani shepard #three snipers and a shotgun #me screenshots #mass effect photo mode

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whatever the galaxy throws at us, i'll be at your side.

thane | garrus

#mass effect #me2 #mass effect 2 #shali #fshali #tali'zorah #tali'zorah vas normandy #sarani shepard #sarani x tali #three snipers and a shotgun #THANK U SO MUCH JUN FOR THE GIF TUTORIAL ILYSM <3 <3 <3 #i learn to make gifs and ofc the first thing i do is fshali gjkhkj my WIFE #gifset #my gifs

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She had the same jarring reaction she felt when she saw Tali on Freedom’s Progress, like she had been shocked back to wakefulness. Only she had never really been asleep. She felt more like an automaton, checking off her list of duties, not fully aware of reality — her consciousness still lingered in the dark void of space, falling endlessly, awaiting a death that would be denied her.

“Shepard.” His deep voice tugged at her senses, both familiar and foreign, comforting and terrifying. Her body felt awash with prickling sensations, like she was a numb limb coming back to life. “Are you okay?”

She blinked at him, forcing her thoughts back into order. Did he know her so well? Did he still? Was she recognisable as whoever she had been before, or had something else come back to life?

She didn’t feel like herself. But here, with him, she could almost convince herself she had never died.

“Of course.” She peeked out of their cover and shot another Eclipse merc in the head. “C’mon, Vakarian, try to keep up!”

#mass effect #me2 #shakarian #garrus vakarian #sarani shepard #zi writes #mass effect photo mode #my screenshots #me screenshots

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Artist/Writer vs OC

thank you for tagging me @azurechicken <3

no pressure tagging @menacingmetal @xoshepard @asgardianhobbit98 @sweetmage @poetikat @mxanigel @adelaidedrubman @vakariansvixen and anyone else who wants to do this <3 (also sorry if youve been tagged already/have already done this dkfjghk)

Link to the picrew

it me and sarani :D also this made me realise the only thing we have in common is our hair colour lmao

#wait. and our indian heritage. #heh #tag games #sarani shepard #about me #picrews

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OC Name Meaning

got tagged by @sillyliterature to do this! thank you <3

Rules: google and post the meaning of your OC'S name (if you made their name up or they go by a nickname, post an explanation of how it came to you)! bonus if you can find something for their last name too.

this is gonna be long i have a LOT of children 🧍

Sarani Shepard: meaning protector, guardian or path (gotta be honest, i knew about the first two and it's why i chose the name, but the third is a surprise to me when i googled again for this). I already kinda HCed Sarani (who had a different placeholder name at the time) as being part Indian so I was intentionally finding an Indian name that would fit. her LIs call her Rani sometimes which means 'queen' and 'joyous song' and that second one feels especially fitting as she doesnt let anyone else use her first name, and she is very happy to have people she loves and trusts 🥺

Mars Shepard: my new child i just made last night whose face isnt done yet xD got the idea of using space names from @xoshepard (thank youuu <3) and I went with Mars because roman god of WAR and also gender fuckery 😌 she's gonna be romancing Kaidan!

Nayima Surana: means gentle, delicate, tenderness. this is kind of hilarious because while that's how she starts off being her experiences have hardened her a lot 😔 i dont have a pic for her im gonna remake her when (if) i ever get back to playing dragon age. also goes by Naya (renewal, fresh). we can say that shot of darkspawn blood renewwed her and freshened her up!

Riyaad Hawke: my canon hawke is garrett riyaad is a random dude the hawkes adopted dfjkghk. name means 'beautiful garden'. if you cant tell, i almost stole his name for myself xD

Bintang: 'bintang' is the Malay word for star

Arianwen Trevelyan: means silver, blessed. she's an andrastian and blessed made sense because of that, and her hair is like blue-silver so yeah (silver when she was born, darkening to blue, was the canon i made for her i believe)

Bronwen Trevelyan: similar meaning, fair/white and blessed. she's aria's twin so it made sense.

Veara Lavellan: my lavellan used to be Valora and pretty much just chaged her name for veara. the most i found on the internet is that it means 'special' lmao

anyways i do have more OCs around here somewhere but i'll stop there kjdfhgkd

no pressure tags: @mxanigel @xoshepard @poetikat @sweetmage @azurechicken @malabadspice @illusivesoul @westernlarch @menacingmetal <3 <3 <3

#tag games #oh god now to tag all of them dfjkghdfl #sarani shepard #mars shepard #nayima surana #riyaad hawke #bintang #arianwen trevelyan #bronwen trevelyan #veara lavellan

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I always think about sarani shepard interacting with my dragon age ocs but holy fuck. sarani and blackwall. I don’t even know if it would be romantic or platonic but whatever it is it would be SO intense omg.

#low-key want to write something here #maybe if I just ignore all the shit on how sarani would even be in that world and just write them interacting or something #sarani shepard #blackwall

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tweets from the zi-verse, featuring Sarani Shepard (she/her/any pronouns) and Mars Shepard (expert in war crimes)

THANK YOU @menacingmetal for making these you are so wonderful and funny 🥹❤️

#genuinely I am giggling so much #mass effect #sarani shepard #Mars shepard #kaidan alenko #shenko #mass effect memes #kars

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7 snippets, 7 people

thank you @vakariansvixenand @stormikins for tagging me!! <3<3<3

no pressure tagging @xoshepard @poetikat @sweetmage (feel free to not read this it's all mass effect jsdhfg) @illusivesoul @westernlarch @sillyliterature @mxanigel @menacingmetal @grim-starling

These are all gonna be from Sarani's longfic because I'm not writing anything else atm. Mostly rough and unedited too so beware xD

cw for suicidal ideation in the last two

She turned to look at him, shocked at the outburst. His eyes were wet with tears that stubbornly refused to fall. He glared back at her, as if challenging her to defy him. Somewhere in the back of her mind, she thought that she really should. This was insubordination. But she felt so relieved that someone else was making the decisions that she just relented, turning to look back out into space in silence.

“How could I have left him behind?” she whispered, long minutes later. Her face was wet. Joker was quiet for long enough that she stopped expecting an answer — what could he have said, anyway? But he did answer.

“You were doing your job, Commander. I… I’m sorry.” And he really did sound sorry for her.

“This job fucking sucks.”

-

Finch sneered. “I can find a dozen Reds who’ll swear they saw you kill aliens for fun. Who’s going to believe you then?”

His grey eyes caught hers, and held them steadily. The world slowed down as she seriously considered whether he really did know. Even without proof, anyone who had known her then could put two and two together and figure out what she did — no one else could have done it. But no one ever cared before.

Now it was something they could use against her. And they were threatening to.

Was that was he was doing? His words saying one thing, but meaning another?

I know you killed her, but I won’t say it in front of them. As long as you do what I say, no one else will ever know.

Was that what was behind his words?

The image of her, of Nazia, crying and begging Shepard for forgiveness intruded on her mind. Her screams echoed in Shepard’s ears, her blood sticky on Shepard’s hands.

-

“Do you compare yourself to your old Captain a lot?” Garrus asked.

“Not really. Not anymore.” Shepard shook off the thoughts rattling in her head. “I know I have a screwed up moral compass. That’s just a result of my ‘upbringing’. But I don’t let that turn me into monster. I don’t want to cross any more lines, but I keep stumbling over them anyway.”

Garrus looked at her, his thoughts and emotions inscrutable. She was getting better with reading turians, but he seemed closed off to her at this moment. Silence became heavy in the air, and she did nothing to break it.

“I wonder…” Garrus finally mused, “if I killed Saren, would I be struggling with it now as you are about Finch? I don’t know what the answer to that is, and that — that kind of scares me. Am I a monster, Shepard?”

“No, Garrus.” She smiled at him a little sadly. “You’re not a monster.”

“Yet,” he said. “Don’t you ever think that it takes a monster to stop a monster?”

“Sometimes,” she answered. “Mostly, it feels like an excuse.”

Garrus nodded. “Why did you get so angry when he called you by your name?”

-

“How about a new name?”

“What’s wrong with Shepard?”

“No, not that. Don’t you want to change Jane?”

“What’s wrong with Jane?” She frowned.

“Well clearly the orphanage just named you that because they couldn’t be fucked to actually care about you. Don’t you want a name more fitting for who you are?”

“I don’t want any connection to the people who threw me away like I was trash,” she said curtly.

“It’s not about your parents,” Nazia insisted. “They suck, but you have a whole culture that you come from.”

“I know nothing about it.”

“So? Don’t you want to reclaim it?”

“Well, you clearly want me to.”

“Just think about it. It can be like… like a new start for you!”

Considering it. Maybe it is better, to have a new name, one untainted by the dirtiness of her beginning. And if Nazia was the one renaming her, so much the better. She was the one who made Shepard feel like a human. And if this was important to Zi, then it was important to her.

-

“You think you know me so well?” she asked, sneering. She regretted it almost immediately when the animation that had taken hold of Garrus abruptly left him. He had seemed more alive for a brief moment there, much more like the angrily passionate man who had argued with his superior at the Presidium, or the one in Dr. Michel’s clinic, ready to take on a group of thugs alone.

As his commanding officer, it didn’t feel good to have made one of her own people feel so small. But even outside of that, she felt bad because she did think he was a good person, just misguided. And this conversation they’d just had was their first real one. They had been getting to know each other.

He was turning to leave when she said, “Wait. I’m sorry.”

He turned back to her, expectant, but now that the apology had come out of her mouth, she floundered for what else to say.

“I was trying to compliment you,” Garrus pointed out, breaking the awkward silence. “Didn’t think you’d take it so badly.”

-

“Do you still want to die?” Shepard asked.

“Do you?” Thane returned.

She had to turn away. “Sometimes.”

Leaning against the viewing window, she turned her gaze on the drive core below — pulsing, powerful, dangerous. Peripherally, she noticed Thane standing and coming to her on silent feet, but she still couldn’t bring herself to look at him.

“I don’t.” His presence behind her felt like a weight she couldn’t shake off. “I agreed with you, once. That perhaps those of us who have died should stay dead.”

“You never really died,” she said.

“In all the ways that matter, I did.” He touched her shoulder, so softly that she barely felt it, except that there was no atom of her existence that could ever be unaware of him. “Will you not look at me, siha?”

-

The dream begins as it always does: with the fall. Falling through the nothingness of space, the alarms in her armour chiming as she gasped desperately for oxygen. There is a breach somewhere. Probably around her torso, where pain and warmth radiated.

She flailed helplessly, heat and hurt building. But it never did reach an unbearable point. They faded away as she fell, and with them went the burdens she carried. Her legs stopped kicking and her arms stopped reaching. She fell looking at the vastness of space, that blanket of mystery she had watched so often when she was stuck on Earth, so determined to get away.

And she did. The choices she was presented with had been unacceptable to her, and so she had found another way. She became more — made herself more. She had explored the galaxy, helped people, saved lives… She’d made a difference.

For better, not worse.

When she lost consciousness, it was without pain. Without worries. Peace was not something she had ever been familiar with, but she learned what it meant, right there at the end.

If only it really was the end.

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