#researching is tough

[fesenmoon]

no fucking way

#sketches #comics #the far side #crocodiles #my art #i don’t know how to tag this. #also i should probably say. i tried to look into it further and i haven't seen hard hard evidence that they do this on purpose #personifying animals is tempting but ultimately i think it's just hot speculation atm. crocodilians are famously tough to research too #like the advantages may be a coincidence or just pure curiosity/play. which is also really cute...love those guys #sorry for the misinformation! light theory only afaik #comic

[anonymouspuzzler]

What were your favorite scares playing Shipwrecked 64?

the menu ghost, the Confused ending and the layer one Giovanni video jumpscare all fucking Hit every time man holy hell. I think there's one moment later in the game that's my Favorite favorite but given my beloved friends haven't hit it yet I'll keep it under my very small hat for now

#anonymous puzzler answers #worth noting i have only personally played up to the start of the Plaza #the rest I've seen through either my dear friends at frankenbugs or via researching to help guide them through tough spots #speaking of you are watching the frankenbugs streams if you like shipwrecked yes. #like in general you are watching my friends stream good but especially if you like shipwrecked 64 yes. #officially squeaks d'corgeh endorsed. cmon. #shipwrecked 64 spoilers #very vague but to be safe

[worstloki]

HYDRA kidnaps Loki but all the goons look up to him and think he’s the coolest guy and keep kissing up to him because they really really want him to join their ranks

#and when he shows no interest in becoming a fellow cooperating agent they want to work under him instead #HYDRA turns into Loki’s gang gang #the goons overthrow the other guys running it #HYDRA accidentally gets a makeover and becomes a good organisation #the bad ones are weeded out #they focus on things like ecosystem recovery and killing corrupt politicians #goons: but you’re much stronger than Pierce? #Loki: this is true. prove your loyalties to me by weeding him out to the public. you won’t. #goons: DONE. what’s next Boss? #the remaining goons once they’re filtered out are largely people bribed or with no choice but to serve HYDRA #just regular people in tough places #the goons unionise and make Loki their figurehead #‘I joined because I wanted to do good in the world... and then when I realized it was too late to back out...’ alright #here’s a fund go start that medical research you wanted #HYDRA leaders: we shall torture the alien! #HYDRA goons in the lab room: no way! why would Thor do that?? what a jerk!!!! tell us more stories of Asgard Boss. we’ll avenge you!

[sheryl-lee]

hey. turns out i likely have idiopathic condylar resorption, a degenerative joint disease that causes progressive/rapid bone loss in the jaw. i've had it since i was a kid but went undiagnosed for over a decade; my severe functional issues, pain, and other symptoms were repeatedly dismissed by doctors for years. my mandibular condyles have deteriorated, my jaw is slowly shrinking to the point where i look unrecognizable, and none of my teeth touch anymore. the pain is increasing more and more by the day. it's extremely difficult to breathe, eat, talk, sleep, and exist.

this is a progressive condition, so nothing will stop it or slow it down until the joints have been completely eaten away. my only option is a total temporomandibular joint replacement, where the two diseased joints that literally hold my face together are removed and permanently replaced with metal prostheses. aka a major surgery with a 6-12 month recovery 😃

#basically my face is disappearing because my body is attacking itself which has been really Fun to experience #i've had this disease since i was like 10 but only found out after doing my own research because most dentists/orthos don't know about it #i always knew something was really wrong and that my pain/ facial changes were not normal and getting worse #so it's both relieving and frustrating to *finally* be taken seriously #but yeah i'm having a lot of emotions about this and it's been really tough to process #getting major jaw surgery was not how i thought i'd be spending my early 20s but deep down i knew i would have to do it eventually #better than being in chronic pain for the rest of my life for sure #and if i wait any longer i risk severe deterioration/unsalvageable bone loss and total airway collapse in the future #sameera.txt

[adhdandcomics]

adding to my tags because i’ve been thinkin a lot about the post i just reblogged and have more thoughts:

i’ll be real, the more i saw ‘hey adhd influencers are so annoying’ the more i worried that i was unconsciously contributing to the spreading reputation of adhd folks as annoying and over-pathologizing every symptom they experience

and then i realized. i am not a goddam influencer or life coach or representative. obviously i have some obligation as someone who cares about myself and the people that like my comics to not spread harmful ideology or blatant misinformation but i never intended myself to be a “’increase your productivity!!’ blog OR a ‘if you have XYZ you have adhd!’ blog. and i do this for fun, and originally started this blog bc i had a lot of internalized shame and self loathing about my adhd and thought if i could make it funny i might have less of that. let’s get real! and it worked!

i’ve obviously done this kind of thing— (hey these symptoms might be adhd!) a lot before in my life & on this blog, but there’s more to it than trying to be an “influencer” or whatever. a term that didn’t even exist when i started this blog!

i felt very isolated trying to find out if i had any mental problems & what have you originally because of large advice (etc) blogs with staunchly anti self Dx views at the time

so i overcorrected when i DID get dxed and tried to validate everyone who was like me. and of course. not the best course of action always for the ol mental health. tried to be the source of positivity and jokes that i didn’t see because the online adhd presence was near non-existent.

and anyway. i make a lot of fun of myself & the way m brain works in my comics obviously but it is not my obligation to... how do you say.... not be annoying online.

because if folks interpret MY little jokes as a strict guide to diagnosis. that’s on them, really, not me. i also believe “making adhd your entire personality” is a non-issue. so what if people find out they have it and get over excited with identifying as adhd. saying this as someone who DID do it. criticism of this gives the same vibes as people being annoyed that young queers make “being queer” their whole personality. im very obviously more than a guy with adhd, and id reckon other adhd comic artists are too. (im friends with a lot of them!) it’s fine to post about it online.

anyway. i just don’t take myself too seriously and i’m a comic artist for myself first! and you know what, i’ve been considered annoying my entire life. what do i care if a few more folks think i’m annoying. neurotypical or not

#i think the article did have some good points especially on the capitalism and marketing angle but i oft think it did venture into #being mad at individual folks who post jokes about adhd. which is literally fine thats what an opinion piece is for lol #i am just very tired of people pretending that a lot of reaction to online adhders is not in itself just an extension of the ableism #we already were facing #'adhd people are so annoying everyone does this youre pathologizing everything' ok and how exactly are you helping. #i hesitate to throw my hat in with hating on adhd tiktok because i am simply not on tiktok and have no way to back up my thoughts #that they may be annoying and oversimplifying a complex disorder on the 'drains your attention span' website. #and i think perhaps the value of each adhd resource varies widely depending on who made it and what theyre even posting. #sometimes its a joke made by a person with adhd. sometimes its sourced and cited research. sometimes its someone discussing their personal #experiences in depth. sometimes its someone talking completely out of their ass. sometimes its THINLY veiled ableism. #its up to the individual to research and determine the value of the memes and resources you seek #anyway. perhaps these points are tough to clarify on sites like insta and twitter. bless. #text #adhd #im punk now #oh and yeah i also agree lots of folks do not talk about the unsavory parts of adhd but rather the funnies and the sillies. but that is #once again a larger capitalism and marketing and ableism problem #r we not talking about them because we are actively trying to infantalize this disorder or is it because we collectively experience a lot #of internalized ableism and hesitate to talk about our worst symptoms for fear of the backlash #weve always gotten about them 🤔🤔🤔 #much to consider #if youve read this far sorry for tangent number 56 about this. but also start being more unapologetic about your disorders. fuck it! #<3

[skitskatdacat63]

I have a problem.

Further evidence:

#me: I avoid drawing racesuits bcs they're too complicated and I don't really know how to draw them. #Also me: constantly draws one of the most overcomplicated designs ever #and i also am constantly in the depths of researching 18th century clothing #atp maybe i just have zero interest in race suits #(tbf it's honestly less the level of detail. but more all the sponsor names and lack of freedom in drawing them) #(yknow one solid design that you cant really deviate from. i dont have a lot of interest in drawing that type of thing) #(but i will do it for chibis! much more simple) #also there was chibis ive drawn as well but they dont fit #ive mostly draw peak era vettonso cause duh #but ig id really like to draw matador versions of all their eras i think that would be a lot of fun #its fun to put these in a gif together #see how ive evolved at both drawing matadors but also painting #but god i still think i really like that renault one the best...... #its just tough to beat. and its crazy cause i went into that w just. zero experience #and ive leveled up since then but it has this energy i enjoy so much and i just rly love how i drew his face ah... #but do tell me if you so wish which one you like best?? #catie.rambling.txt #matador au #catie.art.

[whiteshipnightjar]

The Air Again

by Joanna Newsom

June of ‘78 who are you, so arrayed on the banks of Lake Adair. Pale lacuna agape and like the moon in the lake you are not there, my poor canary.

At uncertain behest Maggie blown to the west in a shimmering dust of gold with her pale yellow hair they would call her ‘canary’. And I loved my Maggie so, and that is all you need to know.

But women here ain’t ever glad, not even Emma Nevada, coming back to share her wedding cake. Women here ain’t ever free (and Emma never left) we never leave, we never last we never ask we never stake a claim or complain or take.

Not till I made a play for a parcel that lay on the Amador county line. Had a notion that I’d find employ by-and-by at the Lonesome Willow Mine but they don’t enlist my kind. In the meantime, set to prospecting where I was able and laying my Maggie a table. And when it was warm we would pan, when it stormed play Fan-Tan, and when it was cold they’d come sniffin’ with gold in their hands. 

On and on and again on and on and again, you do what you can.

Take an eighth of an ounce in allowance for the dance, only a dance, if you’re alone and abandoned and cast aside. You know, the pastor tried in vain to ask her hand, even him, everybody did.

And I had a plan but I had to sign away my mine and the deed left us free to scrape and bleed and go to seed and never marry not canary canary canary canary canary canary canary canary canary canary.

In the spring of that year when the tinker was here, gals would hire him to mend their tin. I heard ‘em swarm from afar like a storm in a jar, like a choir of cherubim, singing *him, hymn, hymns.

Whispering, ‘Maggie had gone must’ve skipped with someone’, sounded wrong though it did seem fair.

April turned into May and I looked every day for you, Maggie, ‘til I heard they found a whore with the golden hair on the shores of Lake Adair. On the sluice she was spread loose and languid and dead from the kindness that she had shown. Still she told me her tale lifting veil after veil to expose a grin a-honed, my yellow rose in the lode a-blown.

And though I long to believe as I muddied my sleeve, and I studied the wiccan hap, and I want to revive, she was never alive. But by the grace and the whim, and the wheel, and again, and the wickedness of men.

But what to do then? I hauled myself up from the shore and I called at the door of the foreman. I told him and he laughed.

So, alas, there was savagery there. Left a hole in his heart you could roll a cabbage in ‘A cabbage?!‘ “Oh, no no, just a little one, Maggie, just a little one.”

On and on and again ‘til they saw what I am and I am never done, I am never done.

Went inside for the light, got a paper and a pen, where to begin? Do you sue for the rights? Root* for the strike? Through the alluvium to where it heeds *for I’m putting my own ruin ‘til the end to lure o’er the deed. A noose on a live oak tree bent toward the saloon tent and meant for me and Maggie.

And though it wasn’t him, it could’ve been him, or anyone who had done what I know so many men intended when they came to win. 

So arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant, arrogant. 

Held a cloth to my hands taking stock of my plans, well, there was something I had to make right. I took his old buggy whip and I lowered a skip in the glow of the sodium lights with a load of dynamite.

Maggie said, “I am here.” And with a touch on the ear, “After thirty years down in the mine, help me lead out the mules help me free the poor fools, let them see for the very first time they were blind, blind, blind.”

Then we rode through the rift and we beckoned to moon reflectin’ and she opened her neck like a stream. I saw the Father appear, heard her sob in my ear like a mob of cherubim, howling “him, him. It was him. It was him.”

So I threw a charge down the shaft in the cart with the pastor who spat and evangelized. He was the last and the worst — canary always goes first — to sing where the waters rise, hear her sing – go on now, Maggie –

On and on, on and on, on and on, and again and on and on on and on and again on and on and again.

Then a knock on the wall and a knock and we all fall in and down and in, and down and in and we pass away. But we pass only the baton man to man, and so they return. Pull the pumps, fill the sumps, for they’re takin’ something; they will never learn, they will never learn. And even if the churn drill and the stamp mill and the Pelton wheel, and the smoking furnace all a-burning, overturning, learning she will never breathe the air again air again air again air again air again air again air again air again air.

Like a screech of a flare, or like they’re reaching for air beneath the smothering eiderdown. Veins of gold, still outstretched in a silent arrest for miles and miles abound.

And if I’m underground let me join in that line, let me toil in that mine, let me find what is hiding there, let me dig where I durst, let me drink when I thirst and let me breathe the peril air.

And breathe for my canary, and breathe. Let me breathe. Let me breathe for my canary, breathe for my canary canary canary, breathe for my — canary always goes first — breathe for my canary canary canary canary, breathe for my — canary always goes first — breathe for my canary canary canary canary canary canary, breathe for my — canary always goes first — breathe for my canary canary canary canary canary canary canary canary.

#joanna newsom #the air again #well that was a mighty task #made me do linguistics research too hahaha #she's a story teller extraordinaire #ok a few asterisks #'root for the strike' or 'route for the strike' both make sense just slightly different meaning but joanna loves a homophone #the same with 'him' or 'hymn' and here i think she's done it on purpose meaning in the official lyrics we might see both in different places #so there i wrote them both out #'for I’m putting my own ruin ‘til the end to lure o’er the deed' this one's a tough cookie i also hear 'open moon' #she does sing about the moon in a couple places here so it'd fit but it doesn't make sense so i'm sticking with the version i wrote out #this was fun thanks for indulging me <3 #jnew5 lyrics #love joanna #jnew

[menelaiad]

Achilles and Odysseus in Homer voice in no uncertain terms their desire to embrace the departed. The Greeks described this type of unrequited yearning with the term pothos. On the one hand, such pothos for the departed, and more specifically for their touch, offered a path towards remembrance by strengthening empathetic engagement with the memorials, engaging multiple senses, and rehearsing the memory of the dead. On the other hand, it offered little comfort, but instead drew attention to the very absence of the deceased. Pothos for the dead was relentless.

i am Unwell

#this essay on death in the ancient world in general is #actually really freaking tough to research and write #people are so. human. in their grief. PHEW. #pothos for the departed ...................... #just to clarify: odysseus does this with aga. odysseus' pothos is for aga.

[dollsuguru]

when y’all do dialogue do you just base line write the quotes and THEN later on add extra info? 🤔 also damn how do people Overall write their paragraphs so well

#i wanna avoid he said she said he laughed she smiled as much as possible #like i wanna SHOW not tell #i think i need to maybe write the dialogue/who’s saying it and THEN later circle back and expand #but also omfg writing dialogue is kinda tough cuz i don’t wanna make it cheesy/prose-y #i wanna make it Two Idiots Talking who are playfully teasing and sooooo stupidly in love #also i think my fic has duo-pov interspersed in it… hopefully it’s not too jarring? #ALSO. even w non-dialogue scenes (just normal paragraphs) i wanna make it engaging + have the show not tell feel #thank you to literally every tumblr writing blog bc there’s literal blogs DEDICATED to answering these questions #but also not every question i have i can find the answer 😭 #anyways just a self-rant :3 this is all me learning how to write fiction anyways but i’m having a blast!!!! #i like learning abt this stuff properly i think it’ll help me by doing more research! #hopefully this sugu fic will be out within this upcoming week :D #personal

[elerondo]

At the end of the third age, if Elrond sails .... between Gil-galad and Maedhros, who do you think he reaches for first ....

#valid question for scientific research #Elrond #Gil galad #Maedhros #Maglor obviously wins at the dawn of Lindon but at the end of TA ?? tough choice here.... #i bring u this tomfoolery while im on lunch break.

[amphiptere-art]

Okay. Zip is still hard. I want to give him pizzazz. Much like hum and Xolo. The only problem is that the depictions of the gods that are related to crocodiles are not that fun.

zipacna depictions and their brother cabrakan are very hard to find references for. And I don't mean references entirely. I mean proper historic depictions. A lot of them are worn. Many of them are pencil sketches of the stones of the twin heroes story. Although it is really hard to differentiate which brother is who. cabrakan has a lot more media representation but that is creatively free. Sorry don't wish to use those depictions as reference. So I'm stuck with this one media depiction that is so lackluster it barely gives any detail, and a bunch of pencil sketches of stones that I cannot tell who or what God is in them.

In a wishful chance I looked at the other God that was a runner-up for Zip's name. Cipactli. They have a lot more representation due to their story being Aztec and therefore more fresh in the history books. Unfortunately much like the Earth Brothers their depictions are simplistic. They have a little bit more color, again due to having a pressure depiction in the timeline of history. But it's not much more than a spiky red crocodile. There isn't any fantasmic interesting features. Just crocodile with skirt and necklace. Cipactli of course having teeth everywhere.

I am at a loss of how to give Zip an intriguing design. I could look at general Aztec and Mayan clothing but that feels lackluster. There are of course other gods I could take from. There is of course Quetzalcoatl. God of arts and crafts and a bunch of other things due to how ancient they are. Attempting to look up gods that relate to lizards is testy. For some reason there's a coyote trickster god That keeps popping up. Some sort of creation deity that also pops up and only has one lizard depiction. There's a lot about a day that they worship lizards but no god associated. There is not a lot of interesting depictions when it comes to reptiles unfortunately unless it is the flying serpent.

#it's tough to be a god AU #sams #tsams #tsams au #sams au #art research

[taexual]

bruh, i am apply for MSc in Criminology and Criminal Justice and have got some offers too. if you don't mind sharing, why did you hate taking criminology?

it just wasn't for me! it's an underdeveloped discipline in my country, so no one really knows what a "criminologist" is, and i don't care enough to prove myself. i'd rather do something else anyway

but if it's something you have a genuine interest in, then by all means, do pursue it! it's tough, but if you have motivation, you can absolutely excel in this field 💜

#ask #99liners #it depends on the person a lot #like how much you care and how much effort you want to put into it #it was grad school in particular for me that made me realise that huh i really do fucking hate this! #but i have issues #so i couldn't drop out #and i suffered just for the sake of getting through it #and not bc i actually wanted to do this #but if you are interested #and if you know how to manage your time #and the uni you're considering does actually offer a decent program #then this can be a whole different experience for you!! #i had some good moments & experiences too so it wasn't just pain all the time #but it was tough and i made it harder for myself with my own expectations for my results #and the fact that i hated it lmao #another thing to consider is that grad school for me was very research-oriented #meaning they wanted us to write papers & participate in a lot of research projects #instead of being more practical? #and obviously the theoretical concept leads you more towards studying for a phd later on #instead of finding a Normal Job like Everyone Else #so take that into consideration when you're applying for sure!! just think what you'd like to do with this degree #and if grad school would help you get to that point

[sensitivehandsomeactionman]

#the title of the article reads a bit naive but love the research #my mind is blown that this was indeed my pathway #it's amazing to me that i'm not alone #it's tough to find the right 'label' when you don't fit neatly into a category #there's so much pressure to fit neatly otherwise imposter syndrome #😭❤ #asexuality #pride #i finally feel like 'this is me' - so much so I finally very late in life have announced it to my rl ppl for the first time #fckin weight off my spirit #anyway putting it out there in case it helps someone on their journey #grateful that sm spaces and esp bi spaces gave me room to unfold my butterfly wings #it's sounds cliche but it absolutely feels like that #personal #aro grey ace #specifically i do find various genders 'hot' but i'm not interested in smashing at all. this confused me when it comes to categories #bi ppl are so inclusive and wonderful love you

[maligncntchain]

@researcher-larch asked:

Deo looks down at the small creature. It squints it's eyes. "Your vibes are atrocious small thing."

To say Pecharunt was afraid was an understatement. Whatever this thing was, it had a killer aura of something out of this world. He couldn't quite measure whatever he was facing, and that made it all the more terrifying. In a way, it reminded him of the ogre.

And still, even cooped up in his shell, he had the gall to talk back. "Says you!" He whimpered; "What do you even know about vibes!" And promptly, attempted to escape; hovering away, hopefully safe in his Pecha confines!

#researcher-larch #damn right off the bat he gets shitted on by a stranger #it's tough being scorned publicly #deo chose violence

[elemonsters]

I think an Aero and Nova type could be cool (if suggestions are still open!)

This one was a challenge but! Meet Runigrif! A Nova/Aero Elemon that resides in the highland plains and edges of the desert. It doesn't care about humans nor dislikes them, and can often be found working alongside handlers as a scout, due to their incredible aerial prowess and excellent eyes. Being Nova type, they are able to see beyond what is normally visible, and have what some consider past vision - being able to see into the near past to help track down prey, or in the case of scouting cases, lost hikers.

#runigrif #this one was tough!!! #elemon #elemonsters #fakemon #elemon research team #if yall got any suggestions for fyre deidro or hydro types pls shoot me an ask! #i need so many of them #also thundyr types i only have like 3 i think

[oakhammocks]

thinking abt quitting my job and completely restarting my career. I'm b/t wildlife biologist and librarian rn

#librarian means i need a masters and i hate school but i am a fan of research and being helpful #wildlife biologist is a perfect job for me on paper (look at birds all day and write about them) but tough and not a lot of jobs there but #od do i want that #anyways 18 year old me was wrong i shouldnt take the more practical route and try and get a nice respectable high paying job #i need to listen to 7 year old me and do what she wanted but with an adult's understanding that i don't actually want to be a vet #to be clear i probably need an advanced degree for biologist too but...ignore that #i think if i had an adderall rx then school wouldnt make me sewerslidal #just a theory tho <3 #txt